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mi-rae07 · 1 year

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Kim Hongjoong : Tear Me Apart

Pairing : Kim Hong-Joong (Ateez) and named character (Yoon He-Ran)

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A/n : Okay so basically this has high levels of angst, and one of the characters tries to kill themselves as well, so please be aware of that.

Tons of medical inaccuracy in here (literally written by a surgeon’s daughter, ironic), but once again, the setting was necessary. Let’s just say I got inspired by the drama “The Glory”

Song recc : The Whisper Of Forest by Suran

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He-ran bowed to her colleagues as she walked towards her office, adjusting her doctor's coat properly. She took a sip of her coffee and was about to enter her room when she heard a voice behind her

??? : doctor yoon?

Heran turned around, coming face to face with Kim Hongjoong, the only son of the owner of the hospital she worked in, and her bestfriend since 10.

Heran : aigoo, hongjoong-ah, why do you keep calling me that.

Hongjoong chuckled and said

Hongjoong : because I like it, why else. I saw you try your hardest to become a doctor and now you are, I'd prefer to call you this sometimes.

Heran smiled and asked

Heran : no surgeries for you today?

Hongjoong : I do have one, within 15 minutes. You?

Heran : none, I'm just going to visit my mother soon.

Her mother had been admitted to the hospital 3 years ago, due to a car accident that had killed her father and put her mother into a coma. She still hadn't woken up.

Hongjoong : alright then, I'll talk to you later, hmm?

Heran nodded as hongjoong gave her a small hug before walking away, making heran smile as she entered her office and shut the door behind her.

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Heran smiled at the patient as he got up and left after a consultation with Heran. She sighed and leaned against her chair, her eyes falling to the picture of hongjoong and her that was kept in a frame on top of her desk. It was her favorite picture of the both of them, and it had been the only thing keeping her sane all this while. She had always wondered whether hongjoong only saw her as a bestfriend, because she had seen him as something more than that ever since she was 13. but she had never told that to hongjoong, because one day he would learn who she really is and he'd hate her. She wouldn't be able to handle that if she had told him she loved him as well, and hence she just lived with her feelings.

Heran looked up as the door opened, revealing hongjoong with two banana milk containers in his hand. Heran chuckled as hongjoong smiled and said, skipping towards her desk

Hongjoong : doctor yoon, your bestfriend has bought you your favourite banana milk.

Heran took the bottle from hongjoong and took a sip before saying

Heran : doesn't my bestfriend have a surgery?

Hongjoong let out a breath and plopped down on the chair before saying

Hongjoong : I'm on a break, the other doctors are doing some work right now. It'd take 10 more minutes so I can rest for a while.

Heran : hmm.

Hongjoong looked at the photo frame on heran's desk, a small smile playing on his lips as he asked

Hongjoong : seriously? You still haven't taken this off?

Heran : why would I? It means quite a lot to me.

Hongjoong : it was just another day at the amusement park, heran-ah.

Heran smiled and nodded as she said

Heran : for you, that was it. But for me? It was the only day I was truly ever happy.

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Hongjoong bowed at the doctors and nurses as the surgery finished, them bowing back as well with a smile. Hongjoong motioned to one of the doctors, his friend, to follow him outside as he walked towards the washing area. Hongjoong removed the gloves and opened the tap, washing his hand as he said to Hwan

Hongjoong : Hwan-ah, that patient there, make sure he's monitored 24/7, properly.

Hwan : you don't think the surgery was successful, hongjoong-shi?

Hongjoong shook his head, applying soap into his hands. Hwan sighed and said

Hwan : you're always like this, the statistics-

Hongjoong : the statistics can be wrong, Hwan. This is a person's life we're dealing with, it's important.

Hwan nodded as hongjoong sighed and rubbed his palms together, trying to remove all the blood that had gotten on him. Hwan leaned against the wall with a folded arms and asked sheepishly

Hwan : so, doctor yoon and you?

Hongjoong rolled his eyes and said

Hongjoong : you still haven't let it go, have you?

Hwan : come on, the only son of a Chaebol family and a neurosurgeon working in their owned hospital? It's a total k-drama.

Hongjoong chuckled and wiped his hands before saying

Hongjoong : except she doesn't love me.

Hwan : you haven't asked.

Hongjoong : yeah no, I already know the answer. Take care of yourself, hwan-ah.

Hongjoong tapped his friend's shoulder and walked away, wishing to find heran. Hwan sighed and whispered under his breath

Hwan : aish, how stupid is that man.

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Heran walked towards her mother's room as the sound of her heels clicking resonated around the empty hallway, her hands tucked in the pockets of her coat. She had rented this entire hospital floor for her mother, paying the bills on a monthly basis. It was expensive, but then again, she was a neurosurgeon.

Heran's face was blank as she opened the door to her mother's room and stepped inside, the sound of machines beeping reaching her ears. Heran walked towards her mother and smiled, asking in the most pitiful voice as she could, knowing her mother could hear her

Heran : have you been well, eomma? It must hurt a lot, right?

Heran chuckled, leaning closer to her mom as she whispered against her ears

Heran : I'm going to make it hurt a thousand times worse for you.

Heran giggled and walked towards the screen next to her mom's bed, checking the stats with glowing eyes

Kidneys : 20%

Heart : 90%

Lungs : 40%

Stomach : 35%

Brain : 85%

Liver : 50%

All of these vital organs except the brain and heart, had been above 90%. But that was three years ago, not anymore. Not when heran had been slowly injecting fluids into her mother's body on a monthly basis, slowly and painfully killing her. She was a surgeon, after all, and she had access to all sorts of medicines and she was rich enough to afford all of them, even pay for her mother's bills while also being the reason of her slow death.

She had wanted to make it painful for her mother, hence why she hadn't touched the brain and heart. The doctors hadn't realized someone was slowly poisoning her either, the degradation was that slow and careful. After all, heran had dedicated her whole life into this.

Heran smiled and walked up to her mother, taking out a syringe with the fluid already in it and brought it to the IV, injecting the fluid into it. Heran looked back at the screen, seeing the lung capacity slowly lower. Heran chuckled and turned to face her mother once again, running her hand along her mother's gray hair as she whispered

Heran : suffer like I did, eomma. I'll visit you soon, love you.

Heran threw the syringe away and turned to face the door, coming to a pause as she realized that someone had seen everything that she done.

Heran : h-hongjoong.

Hongjoong was staring at her mother, his eyes teary and red as his hands trembled. Heran felt fear grip her body for the first time since years, she wasn't ready to face this. Hongjoong was the only person she had. Heran shook her head, stepping closer as she whispered

Heran : joong.

Hongjoong looked at heran with eyes that tore her hear apart, a shaky breath falling from his lips as he whispered shakily

Hongjoong : tell me I'm…te-tell me I'm seeing things.

Heran pressed her lips together as she said

Heran : please just…just listen to me. Hongjoong, I swear-

Hongjoong : no, stop.

Heran was about to hold hongjoong's hand when he shook his head and ran away, betrayal and pain gripping his body. Heran cursed under her breath and ran after hongjoong, following him until he stopped in the hospital garden, panting breathlessly. He felt like his body was going to collapse, and he was sure it would if he ran any further.

Heran stopped right in front of hongjoong, desperation lacing her tone as she said breathlessly

Heran : hongjoong! Hongjoong, please, just let me…let me explain-

Hongjoong : explain why you were trying to kill your own mother?

Heran paused, her breathing heavy. Hongjoong's teary eyes stared right at hers as he asked

Hongjoong : is this…is this why she's been in a coma for 3 whole years? Because her own daughter was slowly poisoning her?

Heran : hongjoong.

Hongjoong : TELL ME!

Heran let out a breath, knowing there was no way out of this. Hongjoong deserved to know the truth, and although he was going to hate her for it, she couldn't avoid it any longer.

Heran : I became a doctor, in order for this to happen. I worked all those years in a foreign country, studying until I couldn't see straight anymore, in order to work in the same hospital my mother would get admitted into, and slowly kill her as she felt every single ounce of the pain she had once inflicted on me.

Hongjoong stared at heran with wide eyes, tears streaming down his face at her words. Heran smiled blankly and whispered

Heran : and yes, I caused that car accident too. I hired someone to do it, and now that someone is gone from this country so there's nothing you can do to her. And I have no links with the accident whatsoever.

Hongjoong : you're…you're a murderer.

Heran : no, I am a victim. A victim of parental abuse, rape and abandonment.

Hongjoong flinched, a small gasp leaving his lips as realization dawned upon him. The reason she always covered her body, the reason she never let anyone inside her house or even see it…

Heran : do you know why I always wear long clothes that cover my entire body?

Heran harshly pulled up her shirt cuffs, causing it to tear as her skin became visible to hongjoong. A sob tore off his chest as he stared at the burn marks in her skin, the sign of someone crushing a cigarette against her skin and the signs of someone having whipped her in the same spot multiples times.

Heran : these marks, they were left there by the same people who gave birth to me. The same people who were supposed to love me, the same people who were supposed to protect me!

Hongjoong : h-heran.

Heran : that's why I'm killing her, that's why she's been in pain for the past 3 years, not being able to live, not being able to die. It's for those 17 years of pain she inflicted on me, FOR BEING THE REASON I NEVER HAD A CHILDHOOD!

Hongjoong sobbed, covering his face with his hands as heran chuckled and said

Heran : aren't you going to report me to the police? Do it. Stop crying and do it, right now.

He wouldn't dare, even if he wanted to, he couldn't. all hongjoong wanted to do now was fall at her feet and cry his heart out for everything that he had never been able to protect her from. He was her childhood friend and he never, not once, ever thought of this.

Hongjoong walked up to heran, wrapping his arms around her as he cried into her shoulders

Hongjoong : I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm sorry, I'm so sorry heran-ah.

Heran : why are you sorry?

Hongjoong : I'M SORRY FOR NEVER KNOWING. FOR…for…for not being there for you when I should have. And I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this alone, I'm so sorry.

Heran pressed her lips together, trying not to cry as she whispered

Heran : let go of me, hongjoong.

She hated pity, she despised it. And she didn't deserve to be with him anymore. Hongjoong shook his head, still crying as he whispered through his sobs

Hongjoong : no.

Heran : hongjoong-

Hongjoong : no no no NO, please. Please let me help, please.

Heran : there's nothing to help anymore, hongjoong, it's all already done and gone.

Hongjoong : no it's not, you can still live again.

Heran : these scars-

Hongjoong : I don’t care! All I know is you…you can't leave, not when you've gone through so much.

Heran just stood still, not moving and not knowing what to say. Hongjoong cried and said

Hongjoong : don't abandon me, heran-ah. Don't leave me, I love you.

Heran froze, her heart stopping at those words. Those three words that she had never wanted to hear from him, the three words that healed her broken heart and then shattered it apart into pieces again. She felt physical pain run through her body as she said

Heran : stop.

Hongjoong : I love you.

Heran : stop saying that!

Hongjoong : I love you.

Heran screamed and pushed hongjoong away from her harshly, making him lose balance and stumble as he fell on the ground. Hongjoong looked up at heran with teary eyes as she let out a breath and ran away, tears running down her face. All she wanted to do now, was die.

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Heran ran to the wash basin in her kitchen, throwing up as soon as she bent her head. She felt tears drip down her cheeks as she sobbed, feeling everything she had eaten before get thrown out of her body harshly. Her hands clutched her stomach, her head spinning and light. She finally gagged one last time before washing her mouth with trembling hands. Of course she did, her mother had always hit her when she didn't wash her hands after doing every little thing, it was why her hands were still so torn and rough. Because she kept aggressively rubbing it until blood dripped down along with the water.

Heran sobbed and slid down the wall next to the wash basin, her wet hands coming up to grasp her hair as she screamed in pain and sorrow. What had the world done to her? She was only a little girl who wanted love from her parents, but instead she was abused and thrown away like trash. And then she had gotten hongjoong, the only shining star in her life and now…now she could never go back to him.

Why? Because he was gold and glory, he was too good to be true, he had a heart of diamonds and there wasn't anything about him that wasn't pure. He grew up in richness and warmth, and love. He grew up with everything and grew up to have everything. While her? She was black and filth, she was anything but pure. Hell, she couldn't even smile without having to practice it in front of the mirror every day. She would destroy hongjoong's life, and she couldn't bear the thought of being the cause of his pain. If she…if she left now, he'd live to be happy and have a good life. Let her rot from here, let her die, let her starve, she didn't care. But she couldn't let anything happen to hongjoong.

But…she loved him, she loved hongjoong. Why was it that she could never have anything she wanted, why was it that she never…she never got anything she wanted? Was her life that cursed?

Heran cried harder as thoughts filled her mind, thoughts, memories, her dreams, everything crashed into her mind all at once, making her feel like she was exploding. Heran wailed in pain, her screams falling into nothingness as flashbacks of her mom hitting her, her dad pushing her onto the bed and them beating her up played through her mind.

Heran clenched her hands, the tip of her nails digging into her skin as blood pooled in the area. But it didn't help, even the physical pain didn't help. All she could do now? Was die.

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Hongjoong looked at the woman lying on the bed in front of him, her grey hair spread out in the pillow as the machines beeped continuously, monitoring her heart beat. Hongjoong scoffed at the thought of that. Heart beat? Heart? What heart did this woman have, the same woman who hurt her daughter, the same woman who let her child get raped and abused?

Hongjoong clenched his hands, the pain in the cut that was caused by heran pushing him away, not bothering him because what was this small cut, when compared to whatever she had gone through?

Hongjoong looked at the mother of the woman he loved, feeling the utmost desire to just take that oxygen mask off of her, to let her die for whatever she had done to heran.

But he couldn't, because it wasn't his job to do. This was heran's mother, and whatever that happened to her, had to be done by heran, not him.

Hongjoong let out a shaky breath and wiped his tears, not wanting to look at the monster in front of him for a second longer. He walked out of the room, closing the door behind him. He turned to face his mother, who looked at him and exclaimed

Mrs kim : hongjoong-ah! Where have you been, I've been trying to find you.

Hongjoong : oh uh, why? What's wrong?

His mother paused, looking at hongjoong's state as worry filled her eyes.

Mrs kim : hongjoong, have you been crying?

Hongjoong looked at his mother, feeling thankful for having gotten someone like her, someone who he could always run to, someone who would always love him and take care of him, constantly worried about him. The love she had given him when he was young was, after all, what made him into who he was today. Hongjoong hugged his mom tight, making her smile and wrap her arms around him as he whispered

Hongjoong : no, I haven't been crying.

Mrs kim : is this because doctor yoon left?

Hongjoong froze, his eyes widening as he pulled back and asked his mother

Hongjoong : what?

Mrs kim : it's what I came to tell you, son, Yoon He-ran has resigned, effective today morning.

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Hongjoong drove his car towards heran's house, cursing at how far away it was from him. He had always wondered why she lived inside a whole forest, but now, now he knew. The one thing he didn't know was her door lock, but he would find out, somehow. Whatever it took to hold her in his arms. Hongjoong drove faster, breaking past a thousand traffic rules and regulations as fear slowly gripped him.

What if she did something to herself? He had seen the look in her eyes before, and if anything happened to her…

Hongjoong : fucking hell.

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Heran closed her eyes as she rested her head against the wall of her living room, the floor-to-ceiling window being transparent allowing her to see the snow patter against it's surface. She had been in this position since yesterday night, not even bothering to turn on the lights or change her clothes.

She had been contemplating everything since this morning when she sent in her resignation letter. She knew what she had done, ruined her revenge, ruined her relationship with hongjoong and his parents, and thrown away her job, leaving her with no income. Not that it mattered to her anyway. She wouldn't be able to see her mother any longer, but then again, her mother was almost close enough to death. 2 more months, max, and then she'd be gone whether or not heran did anything to her system.

So now that that was done, what was her point in this world? She knew she couldn't lead a normal life any longer and she didn't want to live a life that wasn't normal. So there was only one thing left, die.

It was almost 3pm now, the time she was born. It would be nice if she died at the same time too, wouldn't it?

Heran walked up to her kitchen counter, picking up her sleeping pills. She would usually just have one pills or so before she went to sleep at night, but now? She'd need a minimum of ten pills to guarantee her eternal sleep. Heran opened the container with shaky hands and dropped 12 pills onto her hands, filling a glass with water. She was about to put the pills into her mouth when she heard the sound of a car engine, her brows furrowing. She looked through the one way glass window as she saw a Porsche pull right in front of her door. Hongjoong stepped out of it, his breathing heavy as he ran towards the front door.

Heran let out a shaky breath and kept her glass aside, moving closer towards her living room in order to see what hongjoong was doing. She looked at the pills in her hand, knowing it was now or never.

Hongjoong didn't know her password, and he would never guess the lock either. It would take him time and if she ate these now, she'd surely be able to do what she had intended to do. But she didn't know why, but the small sobs that hongjoong let out as he tried different number combinations, each of it failing, made heran pause as she realized…

What if…what if she was hurting him as well by all this.

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Hongjoong tried entering a different number combination to open the door to heran's house, tears falling down his eyes as he desperately tried knocking on the door as well. He knew heran was on the other side, he didn't know how, but he knew she was there. He banged on the door harder than before, pathetically crying out as he said

Hongjoong : open the door for me, please heran-ah, please.

Heran just shut her eyes tight, the grip on her pills tightening as her mind ran through everything that would happen once she was gone. Hongjoong hit his fists against the wooden door, his knuckles now turning red from the amount of times he had tried doing so. The scratches in his palm from last night didn't help with the pain either but hongjoong could care less about anything except heran.

Hongjoong : pl-please I swear, I'll do anything. Please just open the door for me, please let me in. please, god!

Hongjoong sobbed harder as he felt no movement from the inside of the house, his entire body freezing from the cold. He let out a shaky breath and brought his hands to the lock, typing in the last thing he could think of, 1998.

Hongjoong let out a gasp as the door opened, making heran flinch as her eyes widened. She hadn't expected hongjoong to guess the lock so quickly, and now it was too late to eat the pills without him seeing it.

Hongjoong swung open the wooden door and entered her house hastily, his eyes widening at the sight of heran in front of him.

Hongjoong : heran-ah. What…what are you doing?

Heran pressed her lips together, her hand with the pills in it held tight behind her back now. Hongjoong's wide eyes stared at her as he whispered, now knowing what she was trying to do

Hongjoong : are those…were you-heran. Were you going to…kill yourself?

Tears fell from heran's eyes as she whispered shakily

Heran : I am going to.

Hongjoong's face fell, his heart breaking apart as fear gripped his body. Hongjoong stepped forward while saying

Hongjoong : no-

Heran stepped back and said, her voice stern

Heran : step closer and I will swallow these.

Hongjoong sobbed in fear and pain, lowering himself to the ground as he practically begged her

Hongjoong : please, please no. don’t do this.

Heran : go away, hongjoong.

Hongjoong cried harder, his tears now staining the marble floor as he said

Hongjoong : come back to me. Please just come back to me, I can't see you gone.

Heran still wasn't convinced, her eyes looking at hongjoong who was kneeling on the floor, looking up at her with desperate eyes. He shook his head, his entire face red and covered in tears and sweat

Hongjoong : why can't you understand, heran! I can't see you dead, I don't want to live in a world without you in it, it's… please.

Heran paused, realizing that her thought was right after all. Hongjoong wanted her alive, he wanted her with him.

Heran : hongjoong.

Hongjoong : you're tearing me apart, yoon he-ran.

Tears fell from her eyes, her hand dropping the pills onto the floor as it clattered against the surface. Hongjoong sobbed in relief, his arms covering his head as he tried to stop his body from shaking. And only then, did she see the cuts and scratches on hongjoong's palm, his knees seeming to be bruised. That was because of her, because she hurt him the night before. And even then he came back for her, as he always had. Heran sniffed, her face contorting in pain as she tried not to break down

Heran : I'm sorry.

Hongjoong stood up from where he was sitting, mumbling a no as he crashed into heran's arms, his hand placing heran's head against his chest as he wrapped the other arm around her. Heran felt her walls slowly shattering as she said

Heran : I'm sorry for hurting you, I'm sorry for being this way, I'm sorry for causing you so much trouble-

Hongjoong : don't you fucking dare, heran. None of this, is your fault. You're perfect to me just the way you are and I only need you by my side.

Heran cried into his chest, her shaky arms wrapping itself around hongjoong's waist. Hongjoong kissed the side of heran's head with teary eyes and whispered softly

Hongjoong : you're going to be fine, I won't let anything happen to you from now.

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5 years later :

Heran was sitting in the sofa in her living room, going through the files of one of her patients as the sound of rain pattering against her glass walls brought her a sense of comfort. Her other sense of comfort, was probably in their room, sleeping his off day away. She should have too, but then again, she had always been a sort of workaholic.

She was wearing a sleeveless shirt now, her scars completely visible to her. But she was in peace with them, and she almost even found them beautiful. Because hongjoong had, because he had always told her she looked prettier with those scars on and it only showed how much of a strong woman she was.

And with time and loads of love, heran had finally come to peace with her past, and her mother who had died 4 years ago.

Heran looked up as she smiled at hongjoong skipping down the stairs to reach the living room, a small pout playing on his lips. There he was, sulky again. Hongjoong came up to her and snatched the file away from her before throwing it to the coffee table, placing his head on her lap instead as he snuggled closer towards her. Heran giggled and brought her hands to his hair, playing with it as hongjoong said

Hongjoong : focus on me now.

Heran : mhmm, and what were we doing last night?

Hongjoong : focusing on me.

Heran : and today morning?

Hongjoong : focusing on me.

Heran : and-

Hongjoong : focusing on me.

Heran giggled and leaned towards hongjoong, kissing his nose as it scrunched automatically. Heran smiled and whispered

Heran : such a baby, joong.

Hongjoong : come on! It's raining, raining means cuddling, not working.

Heran : I am a neurosurgeon, joong.

Hongjoong : and I am too, along with basically owning an entire hospital chain. But I'm still here anyway.

Heran smiled and leaned back against the sofa, looking out into the forest that surrounded her house

Heran : you are.

Hongjoong : sweetheart?

Heran looked at hongjoong and asked with a smile

Heran : yes, joongie?

Hongjoong stared at his girlfriend, thinking how on earth someone could look so beautiful and perfect. How someone could face so much, and still give so much to the people she loved.

Hongjoong : I love you.

Heran chuckled and said

Heran : I love you most.

Hongjoong sat up from her lap, placing his hand on her cheek as he kissed her, deep and passionate. Heran wrapped her arm around hongjoong's neck as he stood up and picked her up without breaking the kiss, making heran pull back with a yelp and laugh. Hongjoong walked up to their room with heran in his arms as he said

Hongjoong : let's focus on you now.

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kiestrokes · 3 months

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My Personal BTS Solo Album Rankings

🗝️Note: this chaos is brought to you by my shared brain rot with @chans-room. Again, this is MY personal opinion. FOR CONTEXT!!! My fave genres of music are (in no particular order): Alt, Indie, EDM, R&B and Rock. Top Artist is LAUV. Other current/always faves (in no order): Queen, The Rolling Stones, Linkin Park, Adventure Club, Bastille, J. Cole, T-Pain, Latto, Kiana Lede, Chance, etc etc my R&B and rap list is too long.

Ranking Format (Album: # of songs like/track list 🩵 fave song)

Agust D 4/10 🖤 so far away (ft. suran)

Hope World 6/7 🌸 P.O.P (Piece Of Peace) Pt. 1

mono. 5/7 ☔ Seoul (prod. HONNE)

D-2 7/10 🐈‍⬛ 28/People

Jack in the Box 9/10 ❤️‍🔥 Future/Safety Zone

Indigo 8/10 💙 Closer (with Paul Blanco, Mahalia)/All Day (with Tablo)

FACE 5/6 🩷 Alone

D-DAY 7/10 🩶 SDL

Layover 4/6 ✈️ For Us

GOLDEN 9/11💛 Yes or No

Edit: oh yea I made a playlist, it’s solo albums in order. No solo songs. Strictly albums, mixtapes, that vibe.

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aegisint · 2 months

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Reservations last for 72 hours. Within 72 hours, please apply here or else your role will be freed up once again.

RESERVATIONS RECEIVED ON 3/12

Undecided FC as INSIGHT.

Undecided FC as TEMPEST.

APPLICATIONS RECEIVED

[ CIPHER / Narana Erdyneeva ] Sarangerel Morozova, codename: SHANNON.

[SHADOWSTRIKE / Kim Taeri ] Park Soyeon, codename: GHOST.

[SIREN / Lalisa Manoban ] Praewa 'Real' Laithomya, codename: VENUS.

[ANGEL / Byun Baekhyun ] Moon Jiho, codename: SERAPH.

[ADVOCATE / Cha Eunwoo ] Joo Chanhyuk, codename: ANTIDOTE

[NEBULA / Yu Jimin ] Kim Suran, codename: ORION.

#aegisint:reservations #krp #tumblr krp

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rjshope · 6 months

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shuffle your on repeat playlist and list the first 10 songs

i was tagged by @raplinenthusiasts thank you, darling😘

John Lennon - Imagine

The Beatles - Now and Then

BTS - Intro: Singularity

Colde, RM - Don't ever say love me

Ed Sheeran - Photograph

Linkin Park - Easier to Run

J-Hope - P.O.P. (Piece of Piece) Pt.1

Linkin Park - Lying from You

Agust D, Suran - so far away

V - Rainy Days

I tag @btscontentenjoyer @magicshop @bisexualrapline @jinstronaut (no pressure <3)

#i listen to imagine a lot these days (sorry jonh we have failed you)#p.o.p. too (i keep hobi's words from his hope world vlive in my heart)#chester's scream in lying from you always makes my soul to leave my body #and rainy days is so relatable in this season😄#tag game

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neonun-au · 2 years

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thoughts on k r&b? favorite artists/producers? i trust your opinion…..

if you want something more specific then rank beenzino’s discography lol

wow this sent me down a rabbit hole lmao i used to dip my toes a LOT into k r&b but i fell out of it after a while cause the rappers that crossed over with it so often started to annoy me a lil bit when show me the money became like...a big thing LMAO so so many of my faves are old old

beenzino has a great discography. hes definitely up there as a fave. 24 26 girl live life like a fish...still top peak album so good.

i mean zion.t is a classic and he undeniably made so much good stuff, but primary was really where it was at for me. he seems to have sort of...disappeared, but his 2012 album??? unreal. SEETHRU?????

what happened to sonnet son? she was so interesting and its so hard to find her stuff now fdjksf ms. burgundy was my fucking jam the year it came out i was so into it

i kind of fell off of it around the time dean started gaining popularity but his first album i still love. 21 is a solid bop every time i listen to it

simon d. simon dominic. simon d o m i n i c oh oh. classic. he makes great stuff. cheerz still goes as hard as ever

suran is always a good listen. like no matter what she does, her voice just comes through so nicely.

gray had a hand in a lot of songs i really loved back in the day, and to this day still he's making some interesting stuff. blink was and still is a real fave (esp the remix)

giriboy has been making a lot of things lately that i very much enjoy as well, and he has been a staple for a while i think !

i also sort of miss kanto? he did some really fun collabs with some idols. his song with infinite's sunggyu was one i listened to a lot back in the day. i should catch up with his stuff

crush is good, but i never really got too much into his stuff. i loved his song 'sometimes' but i loved the cover by jamie park (ne jimin park) a lot more than the original tbh i was trying to find it but its so impossible fjhdaskjfd maybe ill have to upload it from my itunes

dynamic duo's 7th album (luckynumbers) is one that i really enjoyed. it was like...nice summertime r&b.

i used to listen to this guy called eachone a lot. he had an album in 2012 called diorama that i was really really in love with. especially the song i like...

this soulights album in particular

sexyhomme had some mixtapes that i loved that sort of straddled the line between r&b and hip hop a lot, but i always loved them. theyre difficult to find now, but he has some stuff up on spotify that is still very good ! (also 0 monthly listeners??? wth?)

do you remember that cover of officially missing you that geeks did? i dont know what happened to them but i still listen to that song. they did one with jo hyunah of urban zakapa too called just go and i really love that song

as far as the current k r&b scene goes, i think that bibi and bi (funny) are making some really interesting stuff ! btbt blew my fucking mind so im happy to see him doing some stuff. and bibi is hit or miss for me with her actual songs but i always think she's doing something interesting.

mino's last album is genuinely phenomenal. im so into it. i think he has been doing some really interesting things for a while now but that album was sort of the best of him all boiled down into one package. i loved kill and the title track tang ofc

sam kim put out a nice album in 2018 that i got to late but its a great time.

i would be remiss if i didnt mention feeldog !! ex-idol now doing a lot of production and his own solo stuff. and its all exceptionally good and very underrated. detox really is a favourite of mine this year, such a gem

the scene has changed so much from when i used to actively pay attention to it i dont even really know who is still in it beyond the k r&b that is so seeped into the fabric of kpop itself now. im glad so many idols are finding some purchase in the genre through solo careers and stuff, like genuinely i love yugyeoms r&b, and baekhyun and kai make some really solid stuff.

honestly it seems to me like the future of k r&b is a lot of idols / ex idols who genuinely grew up on and love the genre and are bringing their flavour and experience from the pop industry side of things to r&b and i think thats pretty cool. its always been rather interwoven, but you see more and more crossover now than ever before

#jesus i was supposed to go to bed forever ago but i got really focused in on this question LOL #i know there are so many that im missing #just by the nature of it but #replies #naptimed #also the muddy waters of kpop / k r&b #i was trying to keep it mostly #....non pop focused??? but i do love a lot of what idols are doing rn in the k r&b sphere #the old guard has sort of faded away it seems #this is so long and so like....disorganized im so sorry lmao

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lgcmanager · 2 years

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INDIVIDUAL SCHEDULES

200 NOTORIETY

for reaching 200 notoriety at the beginning of the summer trimester, the following are canoned (no requirements to write):

GONG HYEJOO ( @lgchyejoo ): will feature on Jay Park��s new single: “Ganadara”, release set NOVEMBER 28. recording will happen on NOVEMBER 2.

MOON HAYOUNG ( @lgchayoung ): will feature on Hyoyeon’s new single: “Second”, release set NOVEMBER 14. recording will happen on OCTOBER 18.

SON NABI ( @lgcnabi ): will grace the front cover of VOGUE KOREA ( November 2022 edition ). photoshoot will happen on OCTOBER 17.

WON YEONWOO ( @lgcyeonwoo ): will feature on Colde’s new single: “When Dawn Comes Again”, release set on NOVEMBER 23. recording will happen on OCTOBER 25.

YOO DAEHO ( @lgcdaeho ): will feature on Suran’s new single: “Diamonds”, release set on NOVEMBER 30. recording will happen on NOVEMBER 16.

since all of the muses listed above reached the 200 notoriety mark at the start of Q3 2022, they are eligible to participate in this month’s notoriety tiers ( you can read more info about this on the NOTORIETY TIERS post ).

#lgc:individualschedules #lgc:q42022

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hyuck-xix · 1 year

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top 5 solos from idols currently in boy groups!!

oh boy lol this one's tough bc i listen to a *lot* of solo songs...

the straight answer, according to my statsforspotify all-time list:

i'm fine - d.o.

candy - baekhyun

un village - baekhyun

spider - hoshi

love again - baekhyun

but i'm going to also go rogue bc i have SO many current favorites!

top 5 from taemin (been listening to sooooo much taemin lately):

never forever

artistic groove

heart stop

drip drop

identity

top 5 from baekhyun:

love again

when dawn comes again

candy

whippin

amusement park

top five from everyone else:

i'm fine - d.o.

my dear - chen

diamonds - taeyong and suran (does this count?? lol)

hello stranger - kai

good person - haechan <3<3<3

in a lot of ways, i tend to like solo music better than group albums-- i like the unique artistic choices that really shine through, and the way solo albums really feel like the idol who made them. i hope more of the nct members get to produce solo work the way exo has <3

thank you for sending me an ask! ´ㅅ`

#music

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korelist · 2 years

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ABYSS // KDRAMA DİZİ YORUMU

UYARI : Yazılar genel olarak spoiler içerebilir. İçermeyedebilir.

İmdb puanı: 7,1 Benim puanım: 8

Drama: Abyss

Hangul: 어비스

Director: Yoo Je-Won

Writer: Moon Soo-Yun

Episodes: 16

Date: 2019

Language: Korean

Country: South Korea

Cast: Park Bo-Young, Ahn Hyo-Seop, Kwon Soo-Hyun, Lee Si-Un, Song Sang-Eun, Han So-Hee, Seo In-Guk

Dizi fantastik Kore dizileri arasında romantizmin ağır bastığı, polisiyeye göz kırpan türden bir yapım. Başrol erkeğin çirkin olduğu için sevgilisi tarafından terk etmesi ile başlıyor. Ağlamak için çıktığı binanın çatısından, iki uzaylının hatası yüzünden yanlışlıkla düşüyor. Uzaylılar kendi hatası olduğu için Abyss dedikleri bir küre ile bu çirkin arkadaşı hayata geri döndürüyor. Ancak gel gör ki bu küre, insanları hayata döndürürken ruhu nasıl görünüyor ise öyle döndürüyormuş. Yani çirkin baş rolümüz Ahn Hyo-Seop ‘a dönüşüyor. Burada minik araya giriyorum, uzaylılardan birini Seo In-Guk oynuyor. Bu bilgide burada dursun.

Elinde bir Abyss ile geri dönen Cha-Min (Ahn Hyo-Seop), aslında aşık olduğu yakın arkadaşının yanında soluğu alır. Arkadaşı ise Cha-min’in tam tersi, bütün erkeklerin dönüp baktığı bir kadındır. Ancak takdiri ilahi mi dersiniz ne dersiniz bilmem 1.bölümün sonuna kalmadan ölüyor. Bizimki de elindeki Abyss ile biricik aşkını tekrar canlandırıyor. Hayata dönen Se-Yeon ise, aynı Cha-Min gibi ruhunun görünümü ile dirilince bütün erkeklerin dönüp baktığı uzun boylu güzel kadın yerine minyon sevimli bir kadına dönüşüyor (Park Bo-Young).

İkinci bölüm asıl oyuncular ile diziye giriş yapmış oluyoruz. Genel olarak dizinin gidişatı, hikayesi gayet sürükleyiciydi. Polisiye yanı son derece çekiciydi. Dizi birçok soruyu en başından izleyici için cevaplıyor, sonrasında karakterlerin bu soruların cevaplarını öğrenme süreçlerini izletiyor. Bu süreç uzadıkça ben bir miktar boğulmaya başladım. Benim bildiğimi onlar neden bilmiyor diye içim darlandı.

Park Bo-Young, çok severek izlediğim ve beğendiğim bir oyuncu. İtiraf edeyim diziye onun için başladım. Güzel olmaya çalışmadan ufacık tefecik bünyesi ile oyunculuğun hakkını veriyor. Henüz izleyip beğenmediğim karakteri olmadı.

Dizinin en büyük eksilerinden biri Abyss’in nasıl kullanıldığına dair hiçbir ip ucu verilmemesiydi. Sanki çocuklar aralarında ‘bununda kuralı bu olsun’ diye karar veriyormuş gibi, ilerleyen her bölümde bir başka kullanım şeklini söylediler. Yaptım oldu diye diye yeni kurallar koydular. Sanki üzerine konuşulmuş gibi karakterinde bu kuralları biliyormuş gibi davranması rahatsız ediciydi.

Diğer rahatsız edici şey ise Se-Yeon karakterinin ruhu aslında var olan başka birinin şeklinde olmasıydı. Gerçekten o olan kişi ise estetik ile bambaşka bir görünüme sahip olarak diziye girdi. Karışık geldi değil mi? Evet bence de hiç bu kadar karmaşaya gerek yoktu. Allah aşkın nasıl bir estetik insanı o hale getirebilir ki… En azından biraz benzeyen birini oynatsalarmış.

Son olarak; bazı karakterlerin akıbeti anlık gösterilip açık bırakılması garipti. Diziyle ya da konu ile alakası olmamasına rağmen insanın kafasına takılıyordu. Mesela katil bir kızımızı tehdit etme amaçlı annesini bavula koyup denize attı. N’oldu o kadıncağıza? Kim çıkardı onu denizden, çıkarıldı mı? Kızımız bütün sezon annem annem diye dolaştı, her şey bitti gitti, o kızda ortadan kayboldu.

Günün sonunda dizi izlemeye değer, kendini dolu dolu izleten bir seriydi. Park Bo-Young olması yetiyor. Sadece rahatsız eden noktalardan bahsetmiş olsam bile, dizinin genelini sevdim. Sonu yine çok mutlu etmese de toparladılar paketlediler bitirdiler. Buna da şükür.

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Suran /Coogie - The Abyss

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solplparty · 2 years

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/RSK INTERVIEW/ SURAN / 그녀의 음악은 늘 다이아몬드, 수란 https://youtu.be/RfQIKBBLCLA /RSK INTERVIEW/ SURAN / 그녀의 음악은 늘 다이아몬드, 수란 / SURAN RSK Interview / by / RollingStone Korea / SURAN and Rolling Stone Korea finally met. Check out RSK interview for music stories from SURAN ! 수란과 롤링스톤 코리아가 드디어 만났습니다. RSK인터뷰를 통해 수란의 음악 이야기를 확인해보세요! 수란의 더 많은 이야기가 담긴 지류 인터뷰 일부는 롤링스톤 코리아 홈페이지에서 확인하실 수 있습니다. Artist SURAN @suranelenashin Creative content by @rollingstonekorea Creative Executive @e.l.e_santa Production Manager @imdaisywoowoo Editor @Ron, @Purple choi, @Hazel Park @Khloe Kim Edit by @julenumgi Graphic Design @Jane Kim Video production by D.O.P | BILLY YOON | #롤링스톤코리아 #SURAN #수란 ##RollingStone #롤링스톤 #RollingStoneKorea #인터뷰 #interview Rolling Stone Korea

#Rolling Stone Korea #롤링스톤 코리아 #Magazine #매거진 #YouTube

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daydreaming-in-daisies · 1 year

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♥*♡∞:｡.｡Jennie's Portrait by Suran Park｡.｡:∞♡*♥

#jennie enakei #enakei #pastel #girly #art #suran park #girly blog #girly art #i've always loved her art style #uploads #old web #web graphics #webcore

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stone-space · 4 years

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black cherries (krnb playlist)

{YouTube} {Spotify}

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aegisint · 2 months

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Reservations last for 72 hours. Within 72 hours, please apply here or else your role will be freed up once again.

RESERVATIONS RECEIVED ON 3/12

Undecided FC as TEMPEST. [EXTENDED]

RESERVATIONS RECEIVED ON 3/13

Lee Jooyoung as FORGE.

Sim Jaeyun as MIRAGE.

RESERVATIONS RECEIVED ON 3/14

Undecided FC as AURORA.

Park Jihyo as TITAN.

Undecided FC as PHANTOM.

APPLICATIONS RECEIVED

[ CIPHER / Narana Erdyneeva ] Sarangerel Morozova, codename: SHANNON.

[SHADOWSTRIKE / Kim Taeri ] Park Soyeon, codename: GHOST.

[SIREN / Lalisa Manoban ] Praewa ‘Real’ Laithomya, codename: VENUS.

[ANGEL / Byun Baekhyun ] Moon Jiho, codename: SERAPH.

[ADVOCATE / Cha Eunwoo ] Joo Chanhyuk, codename: ANTIDOTE (* Please message the base! )

[NEBULA / Yu Jimin ] Kim Suran, codename: ORION. (* Please message the base! )

[ INSIGHT / Son Seungwan ] Choi Yeseul, codename: EVE.

[ WHISPER / Kang Younghyun ] Bang Yujin, codename: IKAROS. ( @ikxros feel free to interact until the welcome post is done! )

*added all accepted applications back onto this post.

OPEN SKELETONS:

GIZMO

#aegisint:reservations

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xydo-official · 4 years

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[051120] Xydo’s Instagram Update AUTOMATIC REMIX!! Release NOW🏎💥🔥 CHANCELLOR JAY PARK LEE HI BIBI JAMIE MOON BUMKEY SAMUEL SEO SURAN BABYLON HOODY SUMIN MRSHLL ANN ONE ELO TWLV OCEANFROMTHEBLUE JISELLE SOLE THAMA K.VSH JINBO JERD SOOVI B.E.D. XYDO OWELL MOOD NONE

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