#summer is ending what can i say

[soulmvtes]

i think my case is that i cannot do surface level friendships like i just give my everything and all to the people in my life so it's so strange when i lose touch with someone or outgrow them because i don't know how to go back to being a stranger or be less close

#diary #today i am having a lot of Thoughts sorry #summer is ending what can i say #tiyas thoughts

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

Are you still active on tumblr?

YES I am!! Sorry friends for dropping off the face of the earth, I got a job and I had to move and it was a lot. But I am less stressed now and I hope I can get back to posting more regularly!! I really missed it (ﾉ^ヮ^)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧

I will never leave tumblr because there is no other place on the internet where I can tell people that 80% of the time when I try to introduce myself to someone in the office that I haven’t met yet I get so focused on smiling and holding eye contact that I forget the part where I actually have to introduce myself (°□°)

#HELLO FRIENDS #how are you!! I missed you! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ #I hope you all had a good summer!! #mine was very nice even though there was a lot of stress and new things happening #suddenly there were so many adult things in my life that at the end of the day I just sat on the couch and watched decorating shows #I love decorating shows but today they showed this decorating competition and one woman had to decorate her whole bedroom coral #and then I knew it was time to go back #friends I've done so many new things the past few weeks!! I've really underestimated what this new chapter of my life would be like #it's very nice and I'm glad but I've never thought about things like insurance and taxes and parallel parking before #and I'm in a new apartment and everything!! ✧⁺⸜(●′▾‵●)⸝⁺✧ #it is a very good apartment but the landlord left us so many of their chairs #this does not sound like a problem but we also owned chairs before #so our chair number is doubled now #the kitchen is full of chairs the balcony is full of chairs #I've hidden two chairs behind the TV but I can still see their chair heads and then I feel bad because they do not deserve this #they should be roaming free #also rode a BIKE #they say you never forget how to ride a bike #but my secret is that I never really knew how to ride one #in Germany all students have to do a bicyle test in fourth grade and I was so bad that my teacher asked me #afterwards if I had tried to confuse the other students #I just said 'uh yes' and then he said ok and I passed with the worst bicyle grade of the whole school #I hade made 8 bicyle mistakes #I hope you're doing well friends!! see you soon!! #have a nice day :)

[bonefall]

can fallenleaf die? if yes, does her spirit become the new god of autumn?

I'm honestly not sure yet, both because I like to keep my magical systems vague until I need them due to the "nature" of needing to fit canon's events, and also because Fallenleaf is doing something never seen before!

Right now though, I think it's working in the sense that the two of them are slowly merging. Come back in a few hundred years, and Fallenleaf and Sol are going to be essentially the same person, one personality just more dominant than the other. But it's also important to note that people change. Even gods.

Not only are they going to merge, but they're also going to grow into someone new. It'll call itself Fallenleaf, or perhaps have new titles, but it's not just going to just be one of its components. Kinda like Steven Universe, y'know? Only a lot slower, less "equal," and irreversible. Garnet isn't just Ruby + Sapphire. She is a person in and of herself.

If it's interrupted though, I think it would depend on where in that "process" it's halted. Likeeee... if you took the bone out of a stew before its marrow fully dissolved. You can't remove the broth that remains. Sol would be altered in some way, and so would Fallenleaf.

But eventually, if Fallenleaf's mortal vessel falters in several hundred years and she dies, there won't really be a Sol Soul to "trap" anymore. It's going to be part of her.

#Or maybe it'll be like a bone that gets spit out #And there will be a husk of Sol that remains #Bones: ''yeah starclan's pretty fucked up in canon and heres a bunch of fixes to address that'' #Also Bones: ''Just got done making the WC magic even MORE fucked up!'' #I always prefer keeping my magic systems open-ended though because I LIKE when magic isn't like... super predictable yknow? #That's the fun of it. Maybe Sol would get fully dissolved into Fallen and maybe it's because he doesn't entirely hate the idea of that #He is a god of change after all #But maybe Lion's Roar didn't get fully absorbed because it's not what he wanted. Maybe the God of Summer couldn't break him #It's more fun that way! #And you can say a lot more about the characters involved #Better Bones AU #Spirituality Overhauls #BB!Sol #BB!Hollyleaf #Fallenleaf #Hollyleaf's Century #Cinderheart's Travels

[m0nochromem0use]

oh also what if i said nerdy prudes must die (the song) and cantrip coming back as a spirit(?) to kick the shit out of william. what then

#jrwi #mouse mumbles #i am crazy but i am free #i think about bizly saying in the rolled for 39 that it could’ve been cantrip on the island in the afterlife with will daily #and i’m glad it wasn’t i think kamuri was a much better choice for what the theme in that scene #and leaves doors open for cantrip to come back in s3 because they just COULDNT FIND HER IN THE SPIRIT REALM. WTF IS THAT ABOUT BEBO #that’s a rant for another day tho. anyways yeah i think about the possibility that it could’ve been her on the island regularly #and i do think she deserves a much more resolute ending to her story than just beating up william #but GOD she also deserves to beat up william #kick the shit out of the guy that killed(?) her and then go to college and be a cool badass vigilante with her gf summer #that’s my ideal end for her. can you tell i think about her so so much

[maddy-ferguson]

i saw someone say they were hoping noah would apologize and it's just kinda fascinating to me...if he thought zionism was sexy on monday (or i guess on sunday probably and for many days and weeks before that) why would he suddenly think it's an awful ideology on friday?

#and like i say: brf slt #i think people found out what zionism was like three weeks ago and think it's a slur or something when like #no it's an actual ideology it doesn't just mean killing and displacing an entire people that's only what ends up happening when you...put #the plan into motion. but yk #i would say zionism can mean one of three things: supporting the establishment of a jewish state. supporting the state of israel #specifically. supporting whatever awful thing the israeli government/army is up to that day #i saw someone get yelled at in the replies of a post because they were saying this when they were literally right? it was a post about noah #so again i'm assuming people don't know what they're talking about because. they don't. lol #and like obviously proudly being a zionist rn and being like zionism is sexy while israel is bombing people in the name of zionism after #killing and displacing people for decades in the name of zionism can only mean that you condone all that. but idk. i didn't like the way #people talked to that person WHO WAS LITERALLY RIGHT when they were probably the same people who were saying no going to israel and saying #you love it there doesn't mean anything at all this summer #and about the apology. lmao. i've seen people say the same thing about timothée chalamet on twitter and like yeah if he thought the hamas #joke was funny on saturday why would he be like omg nooooo this is really unfunny on monday. i'm not saying you can't expect anyone to #apologize for anything ever but celebrity apologies...................lmao. even when they do apologize it's always like i'm sorry #you're offended not i'm sorry for doing it #and explain to me how or why you would expect noah to be like sorry i didn't mean that zionism was a good thing. like what about his track #record would make you think he'd change his mind😭 if he ever realizes how wrong he is it definitely will not be now #and people saying that video should get him fired is like. brett gelman posted something about how if you don't get called a racist on the #internet once a day you're doing something wrong and you think they're gonna fire noah for being around stickers that say 'this ideology we #the creator+producer of the show subscribe to is sexy' and 'this organization we have decided has beheaded 40 babies and we're so #sure of that we repeated the lie in our open letter thanking the president who corroborated that lie is isis'. like they agree with him #i'm not defending anything btw i'm just saying why the fuck would you expect him to be like oh my bad you're right and apologize😭

[tsukisdiary]

sometimes i think about the fact that rick's mom canonically didn't give a shit about his achievements when he was growing up and after his daughter died he had to encounter multiple versions of her who were constantly frustrated due to having their potential nipped as a teenager because of something that happened when they were seventeen without even knowing that in multiple realities the same event that changed their lives was also orchestrated by the same fathers that abandoned them. and how angry he must feel with everything; with the citadel, with other ricks, with himself for even leading the fucking other ricks to begin with. and just being so angry he can't shoulder all the guilt so he chooses to project it on his son in law who happens to be an incompetent, egotistical, idiot

#like imagine seeing all the grownup versions that your own daughter could've been like only to see them be ... so miserable like sure #at the end of the day beth is now choosing to be there for her kids and trying to be a good mom but she cant erase what she has done to #summer her whole life like starting to change when shes seventeen I mean you're doing something and she appreciates it but is it enough? #canonically summer doesn't have enough self confidence to admit it to herself that she is in fact a lesbian and then she found out the #version of herself that is able to come out is the one that was properly taken care of by her mother #same beth that is allergic to fucking wine #and yes she can try to do better with morty but she just seems to associate him so much with jerry she ends up just letting her dad take #him whenever #and im not saying she doesn't love her children because she does #but i also think she doesn't know how to properly love them #which ultimately ends up being linked to her upbringing and her relationship with her dad and her abandonment issues and the fact that this #rick she has right now is not hers and she doesn't even know how important that detail is because even if she knows that's not strictly #speaking her father #he also is one of the two ricks who have never abandoned a young beth #rick and morty #oh my god these long ass tags #rick sanchez #beth smith #its just... sad

[dawnssummers]

by the way becoming ii grave parallels make me want to climb walls

#parallels #dawn and buffy <333 #btvs #catching the sword is like... buffy has only herself in this moment. literally take that away and what's left? me #buffy afterwards looking at the school watching ppl walk away before she herself turns to leave. the absolute heartbreak of becoming ii #and then! grave and buffy once again facing someone she loves wanting to end the world #buffy handing dawn a sword and asking for her help and dawn saying i've got your back... #the shot of them looking out at the World!! the world which didn't end and buffy didn't want it to!!!!! #the world she wants to show to dawn . buffy telling her i cant wait to see you grow up the woman you will become #the externalisation of wanting to live!!! #AND THEN full of grace vs prayer of st francis... buffy in becoming ii on a bus away from sunnydale and slaying and herself #and sarah mclachlan singing 'i know i can love you much better than this' #but then here is buffy with dawn climbing from the grave walking side by side and the song is about hope & forgiveness... 'let me sow love' #'oh darkness i feel like letting go' vs 'where there is darkness light' with the idea of dawn as first light wahhhh #buffy summers #dawn summers

[asterdeer]

video called "pirate shirt tutorial that actually makes sense" with a thumbnail clickbaitingly copying bernadette banner's style, which does the exact same thing as bernadette banner's video but more confusingly and without a diagram in the video itself, also failing to understand that bernadette banner's channel is primarily a history channel and not a sewing tutorial channel so telling people they don't have to hand-sew the pirate shirt or they don't have to thread-pull is unnecessary because bernadette banner literally said "do this however you want, i just do it this way because it's how i learn about historical dress practices" in her own video. couldn't ask for better youtube entertainment

#source: i'm an idiot and i've made two of bernadette's pirate shirts and they're fantastic #understanding that her diagram is not a pattern but a guideline on how to make your own pattern #is like. not that hard to get. she gave her measurements and then explained how to get your own #to be fair!! everyone learns differently! there are many comments saying that this other video made sense and helped them #which is absolutely fair and good. more knowledge is never a bad thing #it's just the presentation of this other video that i find so funny #'yes i CAN explain how to make a historically accurate men's shirt better than the actual historical dress historian' #[footage not found] #just the way of explaining the shoulder seams...........so much more confusing than bernadette's diagram #also calling the reinforcement patches on the neck/cuff splits??? useless/pointless?????? #sorry i want my garments to not fall apart because i can't afford really nice fabric lmao i will be reinforcing those points. thanks tho #also 'no one is talking about neck gussets i couldn't find any info' HUH ??? #i just want to know if they looked anywhere besides youtube because there are absolutely people talking abt neck gussets #i should not be such a bitch about this. it's not that big a deal. again in the end: more people sharing knowledge is Good #but my friend!!! come on now!!!! #aster chat #ah fuck lads i want to make another poet shirt because that's exactly what i need going into what i'm sure will be a blazing summer #another long sleeved shirt with three yards of fabric to smother myself in #that do Not go with any of my work appropriate trousers

[newtness532]

when will they give us our ac controllers back? i get that like a week ago we were wearing sweaters again but now you're sweating even if youre just sitting

#i was hoping they'd give it to me when i went to give them the rent but he didn't #idk if they expect us to ask for it back #last year they had put up a paper saying that we can go collect them (and i never did cause i felt too weird asking for it lol) #but this year im gonna be here all summer and i wont survive the heat #and if i wait until the next rent payment ill have to wait until the end of june #also unrelated but i want to do laundry but someone else has left their clothes in the machine and i was like #you know what I'll just remove their clothse and put mine but then i went downstairs and was too nervous about doing it so i did not do it #and now i dont remember if i put their basket back where it was 😬 #maybe I'll wait half an hour and if the clothes are still there I'll do it cause then they will have left them for at least an hour #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

[teabutmakeitazure]

ive been reading TBT off and on and i love it sooo much. such an interesting depiction of an abusive relationship + the confusion that can happen in the minds of both parties. tearing through this shit like its heroin thank u sooo much for writing it <3

my friend said earlier that the fic is one of the healthier yan fics and I completely agree. it's not a traditional kind of healthy but it is functional. the relationship gets better towards the end and our ginger boy realises his goof ups. not that he's normal all of a sudden. it's still there, the desire to be cruel and snatch away your loved one for your eyes and ears and hands only, but promises of love are what might sate him for a while.

the ending will be kind of bittersweet. I hope it does justice to the 170k word mess I've written down so far. this fic is precious to me and I'm very happy you love it <3

#it will end this summer #but there are least 5 chapters to go #depends on how much it takes to write out the rest of the plot #ask #anon #every time i get an ask about TBT i get so happy hehe <3 #also there's a scene where reader is talking to a teacher and the teacher says that the kids say that their father (a Fatui harbinger) only #-listens to mom and the teachers tells her that its good but also bad because it might damage a fatui harbinger's reputation #childe learns of this and goes 'only lies can ruin a reputation' #so yeah the kids know what's up #parent teacher meetings are fun #hello tag lurker you now have a TBT spoiler

[magentagalaxies]

i have so much work to do for finals season which is frustrating bc on the one hand i'm very glad all my classes have project-based finals where i get to be creative instead of just doing an exam or a paper. however. i have a bad habit with every project-based final ever of accidentally getting an idea that's way too ambitious and creating more work for myself than i need to do

however this semester even tho i fell into that exact same trap my two most elaborate final projects each involve 1. editing a video essay which contains an interview i did with paul bellini and at least 45 seconds of it are bellini talking about why he thinks i have great potential as a comedian, and 2. editing a ten minute reel of the documentary footage i got on tour with scott. which of course involves rewatching various videos of me and scott being extremely chaotic together. so i stay winning ig

#my other finals include ''powerpoint presentation detailing the historical significance of mel brooks the producers'' #and ''live sketch show that i actually don't have a significant role in but that's fine i have a different sketch class next semester'' #(this sketch class was technically ''creating characters and solo performances'' and i really wish i could've done more) #(but also that whole interview-footage-debacle drained so much of my creative energy so sometimes doing the bare minimum is self care) #so i don't have a solo piece in the show. but i do get to say my favorite line in the whole show in a group sketch which is great #and i did sign up to perform an aubrey monologue in a sketch show in a suburb of boston next week #which is gonna be super interesting bc i've been looking to do more performing outside of my college #bc i've found that i don't think college kids are actually my target audience??? or at the very least i want to perform to a wider audience #it's frustrating bc for that show i have to trim the monologue down to 3 minutes but it's the tightest monologue i have and it's 5 minutes #so trimming it down feels like a game of jenga since it's so tight lmao #but honestly even if the performance bombs i'm mostly doing this so i can tell bellini about it lmao #he's so supportive of my comedy and he's been such a great help with my aubrey monologues i feel like this is bellini homework lmao #anyway i probably won't post the video essay publicly bc it's not the style of video essays i want to make #and it's too specific to the class it's for #but if people are interested in watching it i'll send you the vid when it's done #and for the tour video i'll probably post that or at least some version of it #bc that's just gonna be a fun teaser of ''here's the level of behind-the-scenes content you'll be getting from this doc!!'' #and also a fun way to be like. audiences don't know me nearly as well as they know scott #but they will definitely know me by the end of this bc there are so many wild interactions i have on camera of me and scott being chaotic #anyway this post was mostly to organize my thoughts of what i still have to do this week #i am so ready to be done with school lmao i'm gonna be spending a full month in toronto this summer #and it's shaping up to be such an exciting time i can't wait

[disengaged]

i just got so sad about my ex out of nowhere. help

#it's been 5 months and we're back to talking every day and i thought that meant i was Over It but godddd #all i can think about it how he never gave me a reason for dumping me and how i can't push for answers without pushing him away completely #watching 500 days of summer was a fucking mistake #the scene where she says 'im happy. are you happy?' and he echoes it in the breakup and now im like. #was he unhappy? clearly enough to end things. but why? when did it happen? why was there no warning or explanation? #i haven't thought about this in a while but the sheer lack of closure just fucking hurts honestly #don't even know what to do with myself #i just wanna meet someone new and move on but it's so hard and i still feel so out of place here #pegasus speaks #reasons why you shouldn't date your childhood best friend: crippling fear that no one is ever going to understand you like that ever again

[shredsandpatches]

So I know I'm kind of a weirdo in that my favorite operatic (-adjacent) Faust adaptation is Berlioz, but that doesn't mean I won't admit that when the Gounod version slaps, it slaps HARD.

(I feel like the blocking here falls down a little at the end but still)

#while playing the ending of this sequence as marguerite going into labor is something you can and really should do #the insta-baby staging here does undermine the impact a bit #faust #gounod #hot faust summer #i also think mephistopheles should be even more up in her business than he is here #but the singing! #*chef's fucking kiss* #i had a whole thing ready to go about what resonates with me in berlioz over gounod #which boils down to 'berlioz is interested in faust the character and gounod isn't' #and what that says about my relationship to my own gender #but i start work in like ten minutes #also idk if i'm ever in the gounod version maybe i'll fall harder for it #(i do think i would be a great marthe 😉) #Youtube

[brighteststar707]

What if I said that my mysme game has been left on day 11 party time of V’s route since March?

#is this a safe space for confessions #what can I say? march was a busy month for me #now I'm just procrastinating #At some point I will need to finish it so I can go and do my yearly saeyoung summer replay #and then re-re do v's route for fic research #(and to play the judge ending of his after end) #faye talks

[ronanlynchbf]

haiiii question for the masses <333

#this is just a few things. i debated putting adam spends the whole summer wanting to break it off with ronan in here but ended up not #doing it bc while it IS considered ooc 2 me when u look at it straight on (adam would've def taken Everything into consideration before #choosing to start a relationship with ronan) if u look at it like adam is separating his academic and personal life and convincing himself #he can't have both or not allowing himself to accept happiness that does not come with pain or being too scared of the different directions #ronan and adam were going in and deciding to break it off bc he felt like eventually it would stop working anyway and he thought it was #best to end it now bc it would hurt less than ending it after a couple more years or even growing apart would...alas we do not get this #insight it is quite literally what i THINK was going on with adam and probably not actually what it meant. if maggie meant for option 1 to #be the truth then i consider it ooc. for the small chance that maggie meant for option 2 and just didn't rlly manage to make it come across #as explicitly so then it is not ooc i actually think that would be very like the adam i know so i didn't include it. and the poll was full #anyways. also there is a lot of declan ooc moments........ #tfw u ask ur mom if u can have declan lynch & she says we have declan lynch @home & then the declan lynch @home is declan lynch in gw 😐 #trc #dreamer trilogy #polls #SORRY i know all the gw dunking days r in the past sort of but i need to know i'm not the only one who thinks this. #greywaren #also sorry for the essay in the tags ✋

[strqyr]

...hold up.

is "in pursuit of a new world..." the first time salem has alluded to her end goal or am i forgetting something?

#there's a bunch of other characters giving their opinions #on what salem's end goal is #so it's all blurry in my head if she has actually mentioned it *at all* before this moment #or if it's just #others making assumptions jfhgkhfd #which is interesting bc i can't remember cinder making any assumptions on what salem wants #there's v6.7 with this: “it's the only way salem... [sighs] it's the only way *we* can accomplish our goal.” #and um. she stops right at “salem” so #was she about to say “salem and *i*” before switching to more vague “we” (which could be read as cinder and neo) #or just “salem” alone? #still it kind of sounds like cinder might be the only person* salem has actually shared what her goal is #everyone else is just running on assumptions LMAO #*summer could still be around and kicking