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im feeling filipino

you are feeling incorrect anon

#╮⁠(⁠＾⁠▽⁠＾⁠)⁠╭

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okay jokes aside what ethnicity do you guys think I am

#3 am post lesgoooooo #zuri rambles

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i wonder if aventurine, robin, and firefly will somehow find each other in the deep dreamscape now that they've all been killed in the dream.

i think it would be funny if they just got really bored together while waiting for the non-dead people to figure out the watchmaker's secrets or whatever

#if i ever have to play a board game with him *coughs* ludo *coughs* i will simply not #this mf will win every single game #we can play multiplayer games tho #maybe minecraft? a cute house by the lake would be nice. I'll make it with dark oak and put stained glass #aventurine

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me reading a proposition in the notes: yeah this makes sense. it's literally just intuition there's no need to prove-

professor: this is the 2 page proof of this proposition

#EVERYWHERE I GO THERE ARE PROOFS #hjalp. plz im begging #everytime i think im out of the building (proof hell) and coming home (calculation hell) im back in the building again #now i know why the anon told me to start praying for discrete math and MVC #this shit is hard i dont even wanna go to the boss battles now #zuri rambles

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hi, pepp!!! i just wanna say that your art is sososo pretty ;>∆<; so i was wondering if we could get a disheveled dr. ratio after being smothered in lipstick kisses on his face (and neck maybe.... #scandalous)?? i think he deserves lots of smooches... even if he'd try to deny them at first. thank you!!! and i hope you're having an amazing day. your art & friendly vibes give me so much serotonin ♡

Hi anon!!

Ty!! I hope you have a great day as well! I’m happy that my art gives you a shot of serotonin :)

I’ve decided to make your request into a comic!

There’s space for more kisses!!! For you!!

#RATIOOOOOO #he would make such a blushy boy #dr ratio

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humbling the humble Aventurine

#tea is brewing #aventurine when you know things you shouldnt:┌(。Д。)┐

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i just want a beautiful hot evil woman that would care for me even if i was a broke trash racoon am i asking too much

#kafka #stelle

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don't worry guys she's taking him to therapy

#aventurine gets taken away in a white van by masked individuals but he's not kidnapped he's taken to therapy #aventurine

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About *that* voiceline.

Headcanon: it's not that Childe really thinks the best of others (he has shown multiple times he doesn't), rather he consistently decides "eh, I'm worse" (he isn't) or "eh, I can deal with this" (he can't).

Also.

I know how he says HoH kids reminded him of Tonia and Teucer but I think they are much closer to our guy himself. He isn't being completely honest there.

A girl excited about poisons, a boy who was sent to HoH because he strangled all his neighbours' animals ("he's a misunderstood kid, it was an experiment"). Addams family vibes. Childe would fit right in.

#your honour we love him

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Here a little question concerning Vampire Childe: How the guy would take if one of his wife's reincarnation were to already have a happy married life before he found her ? Like one day he found her, but too bad she's already married and have children with someone else and they seem just so happy.

I'm going to have to put this ask on hold as unanswered because if I say anything the story is going to be spoiled. for now let's just say the world has mysterious ways

#something something cannot spoil story #ask #anon #sorry to let you down anon

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informally answering/replying to @harmonysanreads questions in le reblog. ask and ye shall receive answers

'Tis a good question. First, I insert a load of unicorn farts---

My kneejerk answer is:

But that's also a fucking LIE RAHHHHHHHHH 🔫

but i suppose 'delightfully flavored chaos' is the best way to put it, as you can tell from the above. when it comes to writing stuff, I generally only really use a loose outline, with maybe a box or two that absolutely has to be checked. it's mostly because I sort of like letting my fingers...just kinda go where they want. Letting the story 'write itself', ifykyk. There's no real eloquent way for me to put this, but I think the easiest way to put my thought process while writing waxing moon is:

"ok how do i do the silly haha before traumatizing the shit outta my readers. and the reader. and aventurine."

wait...that's not quite right either (and also my thoughts obviously got a shitload darker than that). Actually, now that I think about it, I should've started with this. if there's a single quote I had to point to that singlehandedly influenced my writing, it's this:

"The longer and more carefully we look at a funny story, the sadder it becomes." - Nikolai Gogol

so...while i of course don't strictly adhere to this (since writing must fit its rhetorical situation), it's something I really love to do and try to do often. even if it's just a single sentence, a single word...to interject something of amusement is to give levity and a smile. but in the right circumstances, amusement becomes twisted, and even used against you. you read of a man's suffering, to which there is a single quip that has you smiling; and then, do you stop? do you stop to think: 'do I smile at this man's misery?' in other words, amusement, or 'funny things' in a story has a wide variety of uses. my favorite way to use it is to place it in a situation where it feels like it just shouldn't be there but is; and at the moment it feels like a relief, but of course, the narrative still continues. and that single moment of normalcy, of levity, it then highlights the absurdity, horror, etc. of the rest of the narrative.

but i also enjoy writing scenes where there's a strong sense of hopelessness and fatality looming over.

with my yan fics, I sort of wanna make my reader feel like both the spectator but also be in the story; I don't think this is a particular novel thing amongst us yan authors, but it's something I try to keep in mind and adhere to. I want them to feel unsettled, happy, amused, etc. But most importantly, with these stories, I want to leave them with a sort of confusion. to read a story so, so twisted, yet with a brutal softness to it...i just love it when fiction gives me complicated feelings about something, and it's something I hope to at least partially emulate lmao

idk. ig that wasn't really talking about my thought process in exact, but that's the closet thing I can come up with. metacognition hard.

(side note: i don't actually read gogol, but I am interested in at least reading the 'overcoat'. it seems to include the themes of mundanity that I just love *mwah* but I'm also too lazy to go ahead and download a pdf or something. Plus. i found a book called legends and lattes where an ogre starts a coffee shop in a fantasy realm. it looks great and I'm getting my hands on it as soon as I can)

physics isn't actually terrible, i just don't understand it. i have no clue how I got an A in physics. but I've also been really good at bullshitting reports while also not actually bullshitting them. and I can't really make fun of people who listen to physics stuff recreationally. i just finished a video about why 37 keeps appearing everywhere, from my refrigerator to my gacha games. and I'm currently chipping away at quinton review's nickelodeon retrospect. and then amateur politic theory and media analysis.

so in a way im making fun of both you and me, and you know what they say: two negatives make a positive.

before i go into symbolism: I would like to say a personal belief of mine:

although the answers i give may be the 'official symbolisms' and 'meanings', still feel free to read this fic with whatever lens of interpretation you want! if anything, it can be said that the 'official' meanings are also just another interpretation of the text. beauty is the in the eye of the beholder. anyway, moving onwards:

mmm, sorta? i originally intended to use the tower throughout, but those scenes got cut for pacing reasons, but I decided to keep the tower metaphor just as a sort of way to characterize reader.

specifically, the tower symbolizes 'stability.' reader wants to live a normal life, a modest but stable one. I've mostly based in on the 'Tower' arcana (but let's make it clear: my understanding of the arcana is a superficial understanding of a superficial understanding lmao)

ripping from the persona wiki because of my laziness:

but yeah, keep in mind that the reader isn't a one-and-one interpretation of the tower arcana. but I think you can definitely see the correlations lmao.

however the 'stability' of that tower is definitely dependent on their mental state which....well...

eh, i'm sure it'll work out....ehehehe......

this is probably something i should've clarified a bit more, but I decided against it at the time since I wrote this assuming the reader read destroyed onset; basically, I've carried over the 'ink' metaphor from it. it's actually pretty simple: ink is just 'fear,' but an especially potent one. thick and slimy, oozing its way down your back and just being nasty in general......a fear that may come to drown and burn you.

again, i probably should've been more clear, esp in this fic, but I when I was writing onset, I made it a bit more vague since I thought it was just. way too obvious and didn't want to feel like I was directly telling my readers and spoonfeeding them symbolize like they're toddlers. i was basically worried that I might've not been trusting y'all enough 😭 I wouldn't say that this series is like some. super duper cryptic puzzle you'll have to study for years to understand, but ofc I don't want to make it too easy, otherwise it's not as fun to pick and prod at the details and think about a fic if it's just too "obvious," at least to me.

Yeah, and i can see why. im not gonna go on a psychoanalysis tangent or anything, but since so many of us fantasize about a yandere for the idea of being wanted or....or just not having to work or pay for rent....it's definitely really easy to indulge in it in a romantic aspect.

i personally sort of love these sort of outcomes though, because the psyche of it all is so interesting! and deliciously messed up. similarly to the great @/jessamine-rose, I too love myself a twisted happy ending (as one can tell from how much I think about that gogol quote lmao)

predicted his twilight looking ass, and also fulfilling my life long dream of telling a stranger some weird twilight book

"da skinn of a keeler" (im sorry)

also i have not read twilight. but my friend also has a gun, so it's only a matter of time before I'm held to gunpoint by her

😏

i have abided by these wise words. i thought I included them, but I didn't. and also the second banner. anyways, moving forward, I defo won't be forgetting to do this. and I've also gone back to onset and added the word count there so as not to spook anyone too badly.

ty! 🥺🥺🥺🥺

(fr tho all of these asks, comments....unparalleled rizz I say)

#I skimmed through this and yes. the fingers do the writing there are no thoughts #us moment #reblogging this to read back when i read ur fic #for later

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For a shitpost, why is he actually damn scary lmao. I'm getting to used to drawing him HAHAHAHHA

#how are you marking him scarier than he is

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I swear, Dottore was written by a former STEM graduate. People don't normally write mad scientists this way.

Whenever I try to dig into deep lore, his research repeatedly turns out to be among the most useful data I have.

I know a good study when I see one. I've been on both sides of the academic hiring process, I've written grant proposals and I've reviewed them and I've seen better scientists than me discuss them, so please understand how much weight I put into this: these are very good studies.

(except for, you know, ethics)

His research topics seem random but he actually pokes at the most fundamental questions of Teyvat with each one.

His Eleazar studies dig at the relationship between the Abyss, forbidden knowledge and dead gods (surprise: these are three different things. I might have lumped them together if not for his notes).

Cloning himself pokes at the difference between machine and man, and also it's the technology of Eclipse Dynasty, Teyvat's main historical enigma. Have you ever wondered whether all ruin guards were men once? Or why did they switch from alchemy to ruin machines so abruptly? Or why they were cursed.

(I have a suspicion it also pokes at the nature of time and stories, the way he talks about a need for an ideal observer, and also the way Khaenri'ahn history went)

Delusions answer the question of why does Teyvat need Archons for Visions to appear and for humans to be able to use elemental magic. We don't know the answer but Dottore does.

I'm eyeing his artificial god because I don't think that what we saw in Sumeru was the final project. He seemed so nonchalant when it failed.

This is theoretical science at its finest. As a cherry on top, every project also yields practically applicable results.

He's a dream of every grant commitee.

#i would give him funding

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isn't it canon that aventurine shoots as a hobby

#it is actually #he can teach me how to use a gun #or put an apple over his head and let me use it as target practice #okay but aventurine with a revolver would be so hot #a lot of his problems would be solved if he gets a gun #him him a magnum please please please #zuri rambles #give him*

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@harmonysanreads look at this cutie patootie

waaa your aventurine is so cute!!! I just wanna give him a lil smooch 🥰

Ty!!

Here, give him another:

#OP YOU ARE PLAYING WITH MY FEELINGS #i am so normal about him i swear (is going to make him cry in my fic) #aventurine #im still not over the expression and colours #just take my soul why dont you

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warning: gore

"The only noose I would accept around my neck is either your hands or your intestines."

#cw: gore #i hope i used the warning tag right #anyway. is it real love to want to die by either your love's hands or your love's entrails? #it is.

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isn't it just messed up when you turn immortal and your mortal wife told you she'd always be with you and years after she dies you see her again and then you remember that she said that she'd always be with you even if she dies before you and that you'd be reunited with her in the afterlife but you're immortal so there is no afterlife for you and now she's here and oh fuck she's as beautiful as the day you first met her and married her but she doesn't remember you or anything and is living a completely separate life now but says that she feels like she's met you before and shit you can't tell her anything because how the hell do you explain to an average person that you're an immortal supernatural being, a vampire to be precise, and that you both were married once upon a time

#this is just the tip of the iceberg #the vampire tartaglia fic is not just simple reincarnation stuff #oh how i want to break all of you with this fic but it'll have to wait till the summer #childe brainrot #tea is brewing