#still tho it is embarassing

[reshiradragon]

Help the combination of that fact I was spotted in splatoon looking like a disaster + playing a weapon I've never played before because my friends thought it would be funny + playing like absolute garbage because of it is killing me. Crying screaming throwing up even

#at least lear constantly tanking the floor is in character <3 #still tho it is embarassing #but also really fucking funny im crying #reshi rambles

[ladsofsorrow24]

trigun commission art i made for tracker_lucifer on twitter

commission post here

#trigun #trigun maximum #trigun fanart #legato bluesummers #millions knives #millionsummers #elendira the crimsonnail #livio the double fang #crimsonfang #ladsofsorrow24 #commission #commission art #that crimsonfang one still make me so embarassed #thanks to the good client they're the one who help with the lines #but still... it's embarassing to type that lmao #i love it tho #because i rarely draw something cute like that

[imaybe5tupid]

Why bother? (Why bother?) It's gonna hurt me. (It's gonna hurt me.) It's gonna kill when- (Why bother!) -You desert me! (Gonna hurt me!)

Set after Nightmare. Laios is reminiscing and contemplating.

#laishuro #laios touden #i make a lot of jokes on here since part of the fun of this blog for me is limiting myself to only expressing ideas via drawings #as much as I can to try to see what I can try to convey in the limited time I have to draw each day which is sometimes like 15minutes #but laios idea of who shuro was to him and who he continues to be and how it ties into his own feelings of self worth and self hatred #not to mention being so thoroughly defined by having never been indulged before by the men in his life #are so compelling to me #and then of course you mix in toshiros own mind prisons #and their established dynamic of him begrudgingly putting up with him because he feels he has to and bc hes cursed with obedience #whilst laios genuinely thinks shuro does it because he likes it and likes laios because why else would anyone act like that #when everyone else in his life has not hesitated to Let Him Know #this is what is so fun about relationships like this…forever passing by each other’s true feelings like ships in the night #and on toshiros side umineko said it best People are riddles. They want someone else to solve their riddle #they live life wanting someone to solve the riddle that they are #the most difficult riddle in the world #without love the truth cannot be seen sighhhh many such cases #sometimes i get embarassed how deep i get for some of the characters in this series it really is that deep sometimes but not always #but WHATEVER #i never even engaged in or was interested in shipping the several years i read dunmeshi EXCEPT laishuro lol #which i sadistically wanted to stay one sided and miserable forever. I rarely get fed such genuinely fraught dynamics as their one in manga #so i became obsessed #and walked through the desert alone for 40 years and then checked in as anime started airing that other people ship this and gaf #and decided to unleash the jokes and ideas that my like 2 friend who like anime previously suffered alone as though they were jesus christ #now tho as much as I still enjoy tragedy and pain and emotional suffering I’ve let love and peace and requited fulfilled yaoi into my life #with laishuro. and its great! #my comics

[triona-tribblescore]

Mans just trying to watch his lil kpop guys on Vlive but the wifis bad >:(

Quick lil drawing of MM donnie cause I love his character sm and have yet to draw him, criminal, ik

#Vlive is a streaming app for kpop groups for those who don't know uwu #army since 2016 lol #the fact that donnie is an army makes me SO happy like its embarassing #he is an ipad kid #i see sm of myself in this silly lil guy #just a small thing cause work was so long today TT #still on the art grind tho >:) #I wish I coloured things more this was really therapeutic :') #mutant mayhem #mutant mayhem donnie #mutant mayhem fanart #tmnt #tmnt donnie #tmnt fanart #bts #<3 #tribbleart

[thegoldenavenger]

Liu Qingge date lineup… I was thinking about how funny it would be to see how dating might change your lifestyle

#kamaetedraws #svsss #liu qingge #bingliu #liujiu #bingliushen #(implied) #svsss lqg never gets in on the fashion party bc lbh and sqq are too busy spoiling each other #liujiu lqg's hair is better taken care of bc sqq does that for him. sqq doesnt like braids tho #liujiu lqg also has The Most decked out clothes bc sqq embroiders them when he is feeling petty #he likes hiding bamboo motifs and chrysanthemums #lqg doesnt care except when he does in which case he vacillates wildly between #'haha look how much sqq wants to show me off' and 'UGH can he NOT leave my clothes alone for ONE second' #bingliu lqg has servants who bully him into taking care of everything he normay ignores so that's why his hair is longer #lbh replaced his whole wardrobe with Bingge Colors and burned all the cqms stuff #AND he is always giving lqg fancy fiddly little gifts of jewelry and stuff #lqg doesnt actually care for it but he's gotten better at manipulating so he sometimes wears it as a bribe #bingliushen lqg is SO embarassed right now and is thinking about hiding his little bingqiu belt tassle so he doesnt get dragged into this #(but he is obviously coming out winning. #HE still has his principles he tells himself HE still dresses his own damn self HE isnt so fussy and self absorbed about his relationship #he is a little jealous)

[hi-land]

fav couple in my game rn

#i made two poses for them but the other didnt work lol #embarassing #still obsessed tho #sims 4 #ts4 #s4 #sevyn #kish

[evansbby]

I’m not ready for Poyt to end😭😩

I’m ngl, I literally JUST finished typing this now and I started crying

#‘the end’ JAJSJSJAK #IT FEELS LIKE I JUST WROTE PART ONE AND NOW WE ARE AT THE END???? I CANNOT #I still need to edit the fuck out of it tho #add some things here and there and delete some things here and there #but still this was such an emotional moment #I’m actually embarassed like I literally burst into tears as I typed the end #oh my god #anon #poyt ask #poyt

[twinstxrs]

thinking about how gorgug + kristen perceive both their own deaths & each other’s, and how that impacts their relationship. bc i feel like freshman year kristen was too caught up in her newfound knowledge of the nature of her own god to truly clock & process gorgug’s internal revulsion of where he went after he died, & freshman year gorgug wasn’t familiar enough with the complexities of other people to truly lock onto the sorrow buried within the chaos of kristen’s upward/downward/sideways spiral until she was seemingly on the other side of it. & i wonder if they’ve ever really talked about it (unlikely), or if they’ve just cracked very few jokes that didn’t land and decided to never quite do the work & dig through that part of their relationship. but there’s a kinship there; kristen specifically singles out gorgug to tell him she died again, and gorgug apologizes that he wasn’t there with her this time. gorgug takes one of the finger bones off kristen’s newly/long-time decayed corpse to have an anchor to something in the world. despite the fact that they were in different places after death, having been together during it means everything.

anyways what i’m trying to say is i think they should talk about it.

#thinking WAY too hard about a comedy dnd show when half these moments are played for laughs #dimension 20 #fantasy high #kristen applebees #gorgug thistlespring #me & the bestie when we both die a horrible death at age 14 & don’t know how to talk about it #me & the bestie when you said you thought you went to hell & i called it embarassing due to the culture of religious shame i grew up with #me & the bestie when death transformed me loudly with reckless abandon & death stole something from you you’ll never speak about #me & the bestie when i focus so much on what i gained to avoid what i lost and you quietly internalize your loss & cannot find the gain #when i died i asked for knowledge. when you died you cried wordlessly. i do not know which one of us is more broken. #kristengorgug my repressed besties #ok i’m done now but if ally & zac ever played a scene like this seriously i’d lose my fucking mind fr #sorry if this is like indecipherable but after fhsy they’re so clearly the two most repressed bad kids & that fascinates me #(in my opinion) #fabian still up there in 3rd place tho boy u r GAYYY u like MENNNNN #btw if any of this is wrong shhhh i haven’t done my pre-fhjy rewatch yet this is all from memory

[minglana]

on the one side i think its good that i dont stress myself out too much for exams, especially if i fail. on the other hand, maybe ive normalized failing exams a bit too much, personally.

#not to be like this AGAIN but the pandemic severely fucked w me #in the sense that at that time i started failing all my exams. and its been nonstop from there #its been 4 yrs and idk how to free myself of this mindset. my studying habits have become basically nonexistent #(until the day before the exam where i cram a semester's worth (or try to) of studying) #ive tried asking my parents for help but my mom just told me to not be like that. so that didnt help much if im honest #and im too embarassed to admit it to others actually. like that was one (1) time i tried w my parents and im not trying that again lmao #but like. the dorm workers.... idk if its bc im technically an adult (even tho i dont feel like one at all) or bc im in uni or what #but when i talk abt my studies they always think i have it under control. and the dorm director too (hes literally a psychologist and #ive gone to him for other problems ive had). they all tell me the same thing #atp idk what it is that i need but i just wanna be done w it. especially my study yrs #im afraid that i will still have to do a masters degree tho so i can 'properly' work. master habilitante and whatnot #z xarre

[popponn]

in general, sometimes i really wonder what sort of impression i make on this place

#some told me (ily muach) but this sort of question do appear sometimes #like i know my personality and such #but like writing wise #and like from things i do here i really wonder how people see me #probably because im also new here and a bit tmi but this is like the most active i have been in socmed after quite a l o n g while #everyone here has been nothing but kind to me tho ily everyone #im glad im here hahaha #maybe one day i will talk about how happy i am whenever i talk to someone here #as a shy person it really means a lot to me haha #okay this is getting embarassing but yeah that question does exist #babblings #it's been 3 work days right so yeah let me be noisy this once again #or maybe i should make another blog that i treat like a priv acc and i dump everything there #hey thats a good idea actually #there are many things i want to say but all in all im really happy to be here. thank you everyone #i am still learning on how to express it and about interaction all in all as i am still as much of as a grandma as when i first start #but there is that. ily everyone #just putting this out here for a bit haha. might as well

[davidjrpalos]

flinching at people when I am literally not in danger is so embarrassing like can my brain resolve that one already

#that and clenching my jaw really hard like I am not 7 anymore does my body know this bc…. #it’s so bad like no one is going to turn the corner and punch you anymore david #it’s so annoying bc tho unlearning negative thought patterns was hard it was still easier than trying to stop physically reacting like I’m #a kid again wtf!!!! #it’s so embarassing like I hate it I feel so like …. socially weird when it happens

[mihai-florescu]

I need to protect him with my life

#is it embarassing that i genuinely look up to him when it comes to work #IT IS..... #im presenting a proposal on thursday and it will be so bad if i cant get over my fatigue please tsumugi grant me your power #i still need to finish even brainstorming head in hands im gonna kms #i already have 25 pages tho...i just need to add to that i dont need to start again from scratch #but i feel like theres so little actual information in what i have. sigh #sorry this was supposed to be about me loving tsumugi sorry it ended up being a vent about work

[thesmokinpossum]

Me having to face my prof friend after he had to give me a bad grade for the first time ever like..

#this is so embarassing lmao #and i already know he's never gonna let me live it down #oh well that's what i get for doing this paper so last minute it's not even funny #it's ok tho #i'm still gonna manage to finish this class with a straight A believe you me

[minglana]

im watching a video of 7 year old me explaining the logistics of feeding the soca (the catalan/aragonese shitting-present log) and oh my god my accent.... my catalan is so un-castillianized in some aspects but also castillianized in other, even weirder aspects... and girl.... the ɛ's.... shes a best friend shes family.....

#AND MY GESTUREEESSSS😭my god no wonder ppl thought i was weird. what being an only child does to a mf w old(er) parents #the like 2 minutes i speak in spanish w my dad is like THE MOST aragonese accent and grownup gestures ever. some of them i still do of cour #course*. but im fucking. im fucking cryiiinnngggg give me back that accent😭 (not all of it. the un-castillianized parts) #i GASPED when i heard myself say 'ficar' bc nowadays i never say it. i always say 'posar'. idk if theres a difference in definition #but ive noticed that my mom and rest of my family do say it but i neverrrrr say it. even tho ive told myself multiple times #that i need to start saying it. i made myself adopt 'seure' instead of 'sentar' like 2 yrs ago so idk why i cant w this one lmao #anwaaayyyyssss god i want more videos of myself now just to analyze my speech. as embarassing as it is to watch 7 yr old me #gesture and speak like a 60 yr old mediterranean/southern european man (when speaking spanish) #z xarre

[kyouka-supremacy]

Akutagawa: Jinko? what a reckless fool i hate him i- *trips* *thousands of pictures of Atsushi spill from pockets* fuck those aren’t mine i swear i’m just holding them for my sister i- *slips on a pile of pictures* fu ck no they’re not mine i hate him i just- *more pictures fall out as he falls to his knees, desperately trying to pick them up* hang on a sec jUst LISTEN

#Someone had to do it #ryūnosuke akutagawa #sskk #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd incorrect quotes #mine #The Gin mention is so true tho I used to do it so much (and perhaps still do). #Like when you're in an awkward conversion or embarassed and you don't know what to say #and you bring up your sister out of nowhere and maybe even tell a funny story about the two of you– #because even just saying their name and thinking about her instantly makes you feel a little more at ease!! So true so true #Didn't work for Ryuunosuke here tho lol #q. #08/06/22

[swiss-army-fangirl]

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#god nerfed me so hard giving me an anxious attachment style LOL #embarassing whet cat behavior even tho i am fully aware and okay w everything. so wild. i kinda hate it but that won’t fix it lmao #just gotta Be with it. i am so content #edit: i cracked it it’s bc i associate silence w punishment and have for 20 plus years so i still feel disquieted even if Nothing Is Wrong #look at me go