#star vents

[star-is-a-cat]

It’s the worst at night

When there’s nothing to distract me

From the way my body curls on the bed

Wrong

From the way there is no tail to wrap around me

If I close my eyes

I can almost imagine it

But I know

I will still wake up tomorrow

Wrong

#therian #alterhuman #catkin #cat therian #feline therian #therian poetry #poetry #vent #star vents #vent poem

[crow-collective15]

I want so hard to cut our hair and legit entirely clean out and get rid of a lot because I still almost only ever think of sunfleet rules

Like Is ok to not adhere to sunfleet standards anymore???? Like actually I don’t know am I allowed to??

-star

#osdd #endos dni #anti endo #traumagenic system #did #osddid #event horizon introject #event horizon tommy #star talks #star vents #like actually someone tell me

[star-gamerxox]

DAMN IT! Damn it damn it damn it!

I’m so SICK of this. I have a collab that needs to be posted tomorrow and I can’t keep having fricken health issues! I just have a sketch!

My knee issues, and the heart monitor, put me behind and now I gotta go message the person putting together the collab to say that I might just have a fricken sketch to post tomorrow because my stomach is destroying itself. At least this one I have a reason for.

I’d say I’d hold it out till the last moment but I need to pack to go back to school, drop off load one at school, and I’ll be working at time of collab posting (cause time zones change).

I’m so sick of crying, pain meds, and just waiting for pain to stop.

#star vents #stomach issues is IBS #it’s just gotten progressively worse throughout the day

[wish-upon-a-dying-star]

I dug my grave and now I am forced to lay in it, but you nailed the coffin shut.

#my quotes #personal #star vents #star rants #stories with star #sad quotes #sadbeautifultragic

[starsaver94]

I swear my mom treats me like I’m still a child. A few minutes ago she took my laptop without my permission in order to make an Amazon account for me (something that she could do on her laptop and/or I can do myself). And got mad at me that I’m taking a long time on a school assignment that has long and complicated instructions!

BTW, yelling and hitting your hand on the mattress is not how you have a discussion about how long it’s taking me to get this done! It just stresses me out and makes me yell right back (and that only makes things worse).

#star vents #star rants #mini vent #might delete later #I love my mom #but she frustrates me to no end sometimes!

[starlightsearches]

Here’s an even better question: who the fuck asked you???

#its ✨fiction✨ #also one look at their blog and they're out here stanning a sex offender?? #i want none of their shitty opinions NEAR me #star vents

[fragrant-stars]

it doesn't go away, it doesn't go away, it doesn't go away.. wore myself out crying when I should have been studying last night. Did terrible on the exam.. at least now with the academics out the way can freely cry as much as I want? Dubious silver lining. Angry that I'm the only one who has to bear this. Didn't I already have enough on my plate before fucking August? Not fucking fair.

#star.txt #star vents #sobbing through mouthfuls of chocolate and whiskey like the true stereotype i am #all im missing is a sappy rom com and the best friend rubbing my shaking shoulders and telling me she 'never really liked him anyway'

[littlemisssuicidalteen]

I’m failing at not eating someone help me 😭😭

#3atingdisord3r #eating problems #tw ed diet #tw ed vent #🦋diet #star vents #4na vent #4na tw #ed diet #diet coke #rice crackers

[starsinger]

I genuinely hate the amount of black and white thinking I see on this site/app or whatever. I have seen broad generalizations made that are so ridiculous when you sit and think on it from a different angle.

Not everything is going to fit on one side or the other. And just I don't know, I keep seeing some takes in the TMA fandom that have been upsetting to me. I've seen one saying that making anything with Jon that is horny is not right and asexuals doing it are pandering to the horny fandom overlords. Now I've seen that if I prefer some male characters in the series I'm sexist.

The first I felt like was insanely invalidating me as an asexual. Because it was literally furthering the misinformation that all asexuals are or should be sex repulsed or they aren't asexual. And that is simply false. Asexuality is simply an issue of an affected sexual attraction, either missing entirely or only there in specific circumstances. In my case, I have never experienced it, but I do enjoy NSFW stuff. So being able to play with that through a canon ace character is so good.

Then the other, I don't know. Do I prefer Jon? Yes, because I felt I could relate to him in some ways. Difficulties with communication, with emotions, caring about people too much, and having been bullied as a kid. But does that mean I hate the women in the series? No, not at all. I love them, although it took a while for me to get past being upset at them. All of the characters are complex, and that is wonderful. But that also poses a problem. I don't want to write them wrong, and currently I would. Or at least when I first started writing things I thought I would.

My first fics in the fandom were solely Jon. Others mentioned or appearing for a small bit. And they were short as all hell. Because I need to get a handle on the character, or at least my version of the character. Now I have finally found something that majorly inspired a design for Sasha, because the one I had drawn previously was so plain and I hated it.

Just, I'm tired of seeing these takes that boil down to "if you don't actively interact with this then you are obviously against it". Things are not quite that simple.

#star rambles #star vents #im tired #like physically and mentally and emotionally #i am burnt out and dont get to rest until im recovering from a surgery soon

[new-hyper-fixation-every-week]

I fucking hate people, this person I was going to hang out with yesterday texted me and said that family stuff came up and they weren't able to hangout and then proceeded to post pictures of them hanging out with there friends and going out to dinner. LIKE JUST FUCKING TELL ME YOU DONT WANT TO HANG OUT WITH ME

#star vents

[star-is-a-cat]

I want

To walk to the door

My paws light and quiet

On the hardwood floor

I want

To push through the crack

And step into the sun

A light breeze ruffling my fur

I want

To run through the field

My paws wet with the morning dew

My tail streaming behind me

I want

To jump and play and pounce

Until I’m tired and yawing

My sharp teeth on display

I want

To walk back through

The ajar front door

To jump up onto my bed

And curl up

Tail tucked around

My sleeping body

But I can’t

So I’ll lay here

Flat on my back

Human legs sticking out

Human hands linked on my chest

No tail wrapped around me

And tears

In my human eyes

Maybe when I fall asleep

I’ll see my true self

In my dreams

#feeling extra angsty today because I’m sick 😭 #my poetry #therian poetry #vent #star vents #alterhuman #therian #catkin #feline therian #vent poetry

[star-gamerxox]

Vent: feel free to ignore

I just need to get this out of my mind and heart before it destroys me

I’m tired of getting excited for something just for nothing. It’s twice in about two weeks now.

It makes it hard to get excited.

I did a college tradition last year and this year and since I’m a sophomore it ends for me unless I get a board position or a coach. I applied for both coaching positions and 3/5 board positions.

I was the only person who applied and didn’t get something.

I was so excited for nothing. I cried for like 2 days and literally just started getting myself together since then.

Much smaller but I had big plans to watch the Fnaf movie (on peacock) with my friends. One friends sick and they’re all too tired but I waited all day just to find this out about 40 minutes before I was supposed to go over there.

I was excited all day and even wore my only Fnaf shirt that I brought to college and I’m just so tired of being disappointed,

I plan to watch it in theaters but it’s not the same without them and I’m just tired of it.

I hate getting so excited just to be let down.

It hurts

#star vents

[wish-upon-a-dying-star]

I wish I could be loved.

I want to feel fingers intertwine with mine. I want to see which of us will say “I love you” first. I want to watch someone get excited over something small. I want to be held close while they speak softly about their day. I want someone to lay on my chest so I can play with their hair, making them feel so safe until they inevitably fall asleep. I want to go on small private dates where it’s just us and nobody else can take us out of the moment. I want to be that one couple that’s so grossly enamored with one another, even if it’s just once. I want to sit on the floor between someone’s knees as they braid my hair. I want to freckle someone’s face in small light kisses in the early morning light, before either of us are fully awake. I want to go on picnics, coffee shop dates, library dates, maybe a date night where we just lay down and look at the stars. I want someone to feel like they can tell me whatever lays heavy on their heart, without fear of judgement on my part. I want to feel wanted, cherished, cared for, but most of all,

I want to be loved.

I want to give someone my world.

But I don’t want them shatter it into pieces right before my eyes ever again.

So I can’t give anyone my whole world,

because it’s mine to shatter, bend, and break at my own will.

I’ll never let someone hurt me the way I hurt myself ever again.

#personal #star vents #star rants #stories with star #i want to be loved

[chiliger]

You know he’s gonna get away with it.

#chiligerart #comic #loathsome coworkers #cc 2224 #darth vader #grand moff tarkin #star wars #QUE LA MUERDA #one of my main rules for this series is that tarkin must always be bullied whenever possible #don’t worry the ensign will be safely transferred to another station with better pay #no shade to any of my irl coworkers but I despise birthday celebrations. a ‘happy birthday’ is good enough we don’t need to sing about it #vent resident

[starsaver94]

Current status: Trying not to have a complete meltdown over assignments and finals that are this week that I’m not ready for.

Other than that I’m fine 🫠

#star vents #mini vent #my anxiety is spiking #tw: anxiety #college stress #stressed

[starlightsearches]

:(

#nothing like getting a message from somebody you haven’t talked to in years and immediately burst into tears #the emotional devastation continues even now #star vents