#sounds like my job

[mattsmemes]

#meme #mattsmemes #memes that make you go hmmm #work memes #bad jobs #crushing pressure #oppressive darkness #sounds like my job #accurate #personally attacked #well excuse me #100% accurate

[inkskinned]

i keep thinking about hobbies and how i often spill over myself to pick up new ones. i have adhd, i end up trying something for like a month and then just getting far enough in it that i move on, satisfied.

and that should be fine; but it's never fine.

i am a pretty decent artist; but i can't just make art for my dnd campaign, i should be selling dnd maps and character designs and scene setting pieces. i can't just make my friends matching earrings, i need to get an etsy and ship them internationally and take bulk orders. i make pretty good props and decorations and use them to throw my friends parties - but i should be running a party planning business and start taking paying clients and networking and putting my skills to actual use.

for some reason, i never figured out the specifics of pottery. it was a fun class and i enjoyed myself - and still, i'm embarrassed, years later, that i put in all that useless effort. everything i make has to be stunning. stellar. i should have applied myself more. maybe i'm too lazy. maybe i'm broken and selfish and needy. actually creative people would have kept going; they would be bettering themselves at every possible opportunity.

we find ourselves in this trap, even accidentally: we need to commodify our time, because it is a commodity. if we spend our efforts and our time not earning, isn't that the same thing as burning free money? and god forbid you ever take up a hobby that ends up being more expensive than you thought. you sit in your car and you look at the receipt and in your head you hear a conversation that isn't even happening - your mom or your friend or your partner all saying oh great. not this shit again. it's always something with you, and it never actually means anything.

i have realized this horrible thing, recently - i'll get excited to start a project, pick up a new hobby. and then i just... stop myself. i start thinking about the amount of time it will take, and how it'll look in my monthly budget. what if i can't even produce a good enough final product. sure, it's exciting to think about how i could make my friend her own custom dice. but i'm just polluting the earth if i don't get it right. better not bother. better not try.

restless, i get caught in the negative space. the feeling that oh god, i want to create. and that horrible sense - yeah, but i don't have the time to just put to waste.

#hobbies #writeblr #what stage of weirdness to write about hobbies on my hobby writing blog #although i know OBJECTIVELY i am a creative person #i often forget to label myself that bc i don't feel im an ARTISTIC person bc i don't do anything like that professionally #writing doesn't even feel like a hobby i think that surprises nobody for me to be like #it would be easier for me to stop . like. breathing. #which feels cheesy and trite but listen im running late for a meeting and all i really want to say is like #i couldn't even consider writing my hobby bc it makes my skin crawl bc it makes it sound like it's not important to me #bc we really devalue hobbies. like entirely. #it HAS to be a job. it must #also idk if this is clear but i personally get stuck in this space where i CANT create bc i am putting so much pressure on myself #to make it RIGHT #and im like ... idk i only have an hour #so probably shouldnt get involved in this thing

[shadowquill17]

as an actual French person, let me tell you that Kit did a really good job with his lines in French? Obviously he still had an accent but it was FAR from the worst I've heard, and he was completely understandable (which is NOT a given even when actors try their best) and sounded quite natural? Honestly he sounded like someone who's been practicing their French for a lot longer than he actually has, so while he didn't sound like a native speaker I am SO PROUD of him because we all know he had a long way to go from "oui"

#it was just really endearing to hear it #it's obvious he worked really hard on it AND IT SHOWED #lol at the people saying he didn't sound French #DUH #he's not??? he was NEVER going to sound like a native speaker #but I've been hearing random actors MANGLE French for YEARS #so I managed my expectations pretty early on? #but Kit did a really good job there I said it #heartstopper #kit connor #heartstopper season 2 #french #languages #nick nelson #my posts #quill's thoughts

[kbsd]

bucky egan // "free" by florence + the machine

the feeling comes so fast and i cannot control it i'm on fire, but i'm trying not to show it

#masters of the air #mota #motaedit #bucky egan #john egan #clegan #hbowaredit #etc. #OK WOOOO #this video has been 80% done for three weeks while i was on vacation #i got home yesterday and viola! #very happy with it; it's definitely my Bucky Thesis video #this song was SO fun to edit to. the beat!!!! normally i wouldn't include two full reps of this chorus #but i wanted one that was his ups and downs with the war in general + one that was his ups and downs with loving buck specifically #and yes if this sounds different than the original song #i did a LOT of chopping and movings sections around to make it fit my vision lmaoo #but i think i did a decently seamless job. who knows #my brain the entire time i was editing the dance section of this was just that one pic of kermit screaming with all the hearts #also there are SO many match dissolves+cuts in this video bc well. i like to have fun #it's my signature move what can i say #tw gore #tw blood #just in case for that shot of dickie #kbsd.amv #kbsd.mota

[carouselunique]

Rarity actually has a decent friendly relationship with Ditzy due to frequent deliveries to her shop and helped her with giving her hoof-me-downs of baby Sweetie Belle for baby Dinky - so the two are quite friendly and I could have drawn that…

… She also is down bad for Sea Swirl and I chose to draw that instead!

Sea Swirl is studying to be a doctor, she is close to having a whole doctorate in marine biology and yet she has line cook rizz. So she will flirt with Rarity when passing through Ponyville and Rarity melts like a marshmallow.

#my art #my little pony #mlp #rarity #mlp rarity #sea swirl #mlp sea swirl #mlp g4 #mlpfim #mlp fim #my little pony friendship is magic #the Mane Six of canon do kinda do their canon jobs theyre just not in focus very much theyre like #side characters akin to Mayor Mare #so Rarity makes their gala dresses but that wouldnt be an episode and theyd have to pay #and see the Mane Six are not all antagonistic - some are - but not all. #side stars au #swap six #also imagine Sea Swirl just sounds extremely australian #like Bluey or H2O Just Add Water australian

[lurking-loaf]

Have you ever drawn and hidden little doodles of the DCA while at work?

Just scribbled one or two during a moment of free time and tucked them someplace?

There are now 19 of these silly things scattered around a 136 sq. ft (41.45 sq. m) space.

The thing I'm unsure about is whether I gather them up or leave them for future employees to find when the time comes for me to move on from this job.

#loaf art #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf sun #sundrop #fnaf moon #moondrop #fnaf eclipse #dca fandom #I drew and hid all these over the course of a month and a half. Why? It sounded like fun! #I've been covertly checking every so often and currently none have been scrapped #wouldn't it be funny if one of my teammates turned out to be a fellow dca enjoyer who saw this post and also saw one of these in the wild #and than tried locating the rest? #Also! I just had my annual review at work and got top marks for being an “excellent role model” #apparently this is what folks are supposed to aspire to while on the job

[fagidarity]

i feel like i see ppl mischaracterise mariana a lot too but then i also don’t feel like i know his character well enough to articulate in what way lol

like i read. a lot of slimeriana fics. and in some of them his behaviour just feels ? off ? from what i expect it to be but idk how LOL

#.txt #there’s easier to spot things like uuh #having him speak Too clearly in english/speak english too much #like his english is better than he thinks it is but he’s also not super confident with it #so he stumbles over words or repeats himself a lot #or will just get frustrated and switch back to spanish #i think that’s just me and my Speech Patterns Are Like 75% Of Accurate Characterisation thing #like if u can read something in a characters voice and it doesn’t sound weird ur doing a good job

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

fantasy laughingstock mawwiage but make it potc3 Flavor-

#theyre supposed to be holding hands but i couldnt draw it for the life of me so #half assed it is!!!! #or.... no assed it is!!! #in my mind this is a job gone Phenomenally wrong. like horribly wrong #the group is outnumbered and cornered and- #its fine in the end tho #and howdy & barnaby are left standing there like 'so we didnt die. looks like we're husbands now! lets go find some neat rings' #in the meantime wally and julie braid them rings out of grass & flowers #actually wait omg #imagining there's a spell that can freeze the flower rings so that they wont break/decompose #all of barnaby's normal metal rings and then there's one made of plants... of Life... OUUUGHHHHHHHH #< thats the sound of me dying so dramatically. im talking nimona-as-ambrosius level of dramatic death #scribble salad #laughingstock #wh fantasy au #wait omggggg #im imagining once theyre all safe and it sinks in that the Are Indeed Safe #everyone is like 'omg!!! we made it!!! hugging each other! wait wheres barnaby and howdy - ohhhhh theyre making out off to the side cool' #theyre just. laying in the grass smoochin the hell outta each other #yeah theyre both bleeding and bruised but who isnt! #and then they stay right there and take a nap <3 #and wake up w/ the rest of the neighborhood piled on/around them <3 #GODDDDDDDD FUCK FUCK FUCK IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM IM SO NORMAL IM- #SO NOT NORMAL ABOUT THEM AGH RAGH ASDHASJFCBALFNLD #sorry sorry. the insanity is kicking in #alsoooooo imagining them having that epic potc3 mid-battle kiss after barbosa - sorry - Sally pronounces them married

[prostocupoftea]

finally. i am free. now have this map part i was doing for whole of last month

more like last two weeks bc of how i procrastinated the shit out of it :')

also yes this is the same map as this post. ghfhgfdjh i hove their part so much go look if you haven't (which you statistically probably have)

anyways. *hypnotizes you into liking it*

Also woe! backgrounds under the cut! too much effort went into split second stuff so now you have to see it!

windows startup backround is... significantly lower-effort than other ones (: mostly bc it was made last and i got laizy, also bc i do not like painting nature

first one is now my profile top bc i like i so much

second was good to hide stuff in

and others are... there, i guess. my energy ran out for them unfortunately lol

#“finally i can work on my au proje-” *gets shot* #this is my first long-ish finished animation. sounds badass ngl #exept the “long-ish” part. would need to rephrase that... anyways #if ya wandering im parts 21 22 ((: #i have being so stressed about it. at some points i just worked at it 9-5 as my freaking job #idk if it was worth it... but it looks pretty aND it somehow fixed my sleep schedule (a little. but still) #in any case. 11/10. would do again #thank y'all who was there for the amaizing experience!!! #this is my first map btw. thank y'all for being so chill fr #kinitopet #kinito pet #kinitopet map #kinitopet fanart #kinito my beloved #kinito the axolotl #kinito fanart #please like it #prosto cup of art

[gin-juice-tonic]

I forgot to mention I had a dream where my voice dropped immensely and I was like "Hmmm, I won't be able to hide this anymore, I'll surely be fired from my job. But I sound like JK Simmons, so who cares."

#so true dream me- i WOULD trade my job to sound like jk simmons

[scarletfish]

the SECOND I saw this mf I was like "medicated andrew?!?!??!!"

(it's actually aiden clark from the web comic school bus graveyard. 10/10 would recommend I binged all available chapters in 2 days)

#this is going to be too niche #but please tell me someone else made this connection #new hyperfixation activated #there's only around 200 works on ao3??? sounds like a job for me (i say looking away from my 2 current aftg wips with deadlines) #sbg #school bus graveyard #aftg #andrew minyard #aiden clark #(....IF I wrote a crossover #which way should it go? Foxes surviving the sbg #or sbg gang college Exy AU?)

[puppyeared]

Auggie voice test!!

Voice claim: Elphelt Valentine from Guilty Gear, voiced by Cassandra Morris

#YAYYYY ITS DONE #last time it was strawberry crepe cookie which was close in terms of sound but didnt quite fit her personality and tone #i was originally gonna use morgana P5 who shares the same VA but i decided to go with this instead lol #auggies really cheerful and excitable once u get her going and her voice is extremely expressive #so something about the way cassandra morris does elphelts voice feels right. she does a really good job voice acting!!!! #next im gonna do vincent using catbugs voice ^_^ hes like 5 and the sound seems to fit him well so im excited #my art #myart #my oc #oc #augusta #voice test #voice claim #videos #animatic #elphelt valentine #ive never played guilty gear i just found the voice lines and animated to them

[luck-of-the-drawings]

smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

#jrwi show #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying #nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess #ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so #i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little. #AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair. #AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair #both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother. #GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home #but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns. #he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again #not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO #i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED #all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis #but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum #and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it #youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales. #YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!! #you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound. #elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now. #this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes #BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply

[monprecieuxx]

finding out the aftg fandom does not envision andrew as a stocky short king is giving me actual mental damage

#five foot nothing dynamite literally about to go off don't tell me that does not sound like every short person you've met #saying this AS a short person #we deserve this andrew whose a stumpy lil dude who definitely stands out as the odd one out in a sports team #thickset petite lil guy whose actually one of the best players exy has ever seen if he puts even 5% of the effort #esp as a contrast to aaron who i envision as a bit taller & leaner #cuz he doesn't run much but he's sturdy and he's Fit & Very good at his job #this is all @ about halfway through the raven king btw #if he's described different in any part of the series beyond this I DON'T WANT TO KNOW DON'T SPOIL ME #but even if he is #i like my speculative hc #andrew minyard #aftg #dae.txt

[evermoredeluxe]

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#unrelated to my last post #also this is gonna be an unpopular opinion #but i’ve honestly made my peace with how taylor approaches her public politics #(i’ve said this before too) #i may sound like a cupcake right now #but i don’t have the energy to bang my head against a wall when i know no matter what i do the wall won’t break #and that’s just the harsh truth #i have trust that she is a good person and her actions show that and it is enough for me #she’s not interested in being a political figure or representative and just wants to encourage people to vote #and will speak up during elections or during pride month etc #and ofc you can make the argument that she’s so influential so she should be and i agree but also! it’s her choice! #she is political in her private her life and she doesn’t owe her politics publicly #people should focus more on actual politicians and presidents and world leaders whose actual job it is #arshia talks

[fly-sky-high-arts]

I do want to talk about sharing art online from the perspective of a hobby freelancer but before that I'll just toss this tidbit I mentioned on my main

Reblogs are not numbers. Reblogs are meant to share and pass on artwork that someone may like. NO ONE is forced to reblog anything BUT it is a core of engagement in a space like tumblr. Engagement is what brings in interest after all and it's one piece of what makes it important for freelance artists here.

When you look at the numbers and the notes, we need to stop viewing them and comparing them with likes (me included) or total in general. It doesn't help.

Artists do self rebloging to both show or remind folks they've done some work as well as to nudge people to reblog their stuff. Tags are nice and comments in them are a nice way to engage too but passing on the work, especially to help someone to get noticed, is a good way to just work the site as intended.

It will always be about luck because we can't guess who wants to engage with what online. You also can't blame yourselves for this. Don't use the internet mentality of "content" (eugh!) and "flopping" and go about it that way. People find stuff I drew years back and find ways to engage with it now. It's really about luck.

There are things that can help but I'll go about it in another post.

One more thing. Don't be shy about "shilling". Advertise your open commissions, your patreons or ko-fis. I promise it has nothing to do with how big of an artist you are. Remember that you're doing that within your own zone so "bothering" followers is hardly the case, it's your house. Make a tag for it if it helps your mind. I say as someone with social anxiety.

#sky rambles #sorry I know this topic has been everywhere but it made me have so much on my mind #I also vibe on Savvy's streams when I can and artists chatting there make a lot of good points and HELPFUL tips! #so I end up thinking about stuff like this a lot #freelancing is hard #it's also not a job that's sustainable where I live #but also because I can't pace my work differently because I will hate it then #and I don't want to hate working what I enjoy doing #and numbers can really add to that because it turns into 'content' mentality #(i swear i am becoming allergic to that word it physically makes me recoil every time) #it's about finding what works for you EVEN IF IT'S BUSINESS #you NEED to pace yourself HOW IT WORKS FOR YOU and not what brings more money #as unfortunate as that may sound #otherwise you will burnout fast and hate every bit of it