#sorry all my personal posts have been so negative recently i know it's annoying but i just. its bad i hate this

[theoccultz]

#Lets talk about dreams -1

Pluto 12th house and dream significance

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I'mma talk abt my recent dream :

I had a dream , someone was trapped in a "box" which looked liked an house , the home was like a dollhouse really colourful blocks everywhere ,but the person inside it was trapped by the people who was securing the home , the person was so scared the figure who was intimidating them was a authoritive figure toxic (masculine in energy)..... outside it was raining heavily the last time i saw the person running upstairs they discovered a new room looking outside the window towards the other building there was a venegeful demonic spirit who was controlling the dynamic of the home .

(I'm not saying all my dreams hold significance ,no . I realise some of the things i see are just that went on throughout the day and the stress that was building in my subconscious mind ....But this is not that dream out of exhaustion i dont think so that spirit decided to just show itself to the little boy for no reason )

The conclusion i can derive from this:

1) that intimidating authoritive figure is being controlled by the evil spirits without them knowing ,most likely its in full control and the person who's the little boy in the close approximity from "that" person has picked up on weird energies because they are sensitive.

3) there seems to be fears existing within the person , water is emotions and overflowing water is being overwhelmed , juggling things ,not getting rest ,not feeling fulfilled , feeling trapped & controlled ,build up anger & anxiety , not feeling your best , ignoring your intuition , unconscious decision ,etc .

3) toxic household possibly? Not understanding each other , effective words , unbalanced energy , fearful energies ,hidden agendas , others taking advantage , not appreciating the good things , imbalance of power ,harmful connections , toxic behaviours , losing hope , feeling negative

2)the spirit is likely residing on the land for years but it doesn't come forward because its being put out by the divine forces that could be from anyone, your ancestors,your demon guides ,your patron guides ,your spirit animal and is likely getting rid of that spirit so that spirit is showing up to intimidate you more so your guides get distracted

3) there could be fights , feeling nauseous, constant head pain ,weird experiences with people , feeling sick , feel the need to buy more things ,less energy , something with travel , arguments , bad days going on , the safety bracelet you wear or the necklace or any protection spell could have broken off or could have been lost or you must be feeling to make one , sleeping problems ,not having constant routine, i can list more things with specific details like zodiac,recent things that happened ,names ,initials and so on but the purpose of this post is simple you should have more fainth ik its annoying to hear this but yeah .

👉Im not saying there is literally an evil spirit no , dream reading is very easy you pick up different messages most likely the things that could happen to you in the future wont effect you that much as you're thinking it would

To be noted: I have even seen mu!rders ,de@ths ,and many weird things its not literally what you're shown its the opposite

>People dying in your dreams is just them leaving for good from your life,their bad intentions will be exposed as soon as they leave so it won't be that painful to let go + their karmic cycles will begin its like learn until you learn .

For eg-Murders is backstabbing, these people are likely not good for you which needs to get rid of that you will do ,no matter how hard is it you need to put your strength to test if you succeed then your rewards are way bigger than you would be able to manifest

>Not likely in all dreams faces are shown ,there could be just numbers , or energies speaking to you so it gets confusing.

Sorry if you were expecting teeth falling and weird wonders ,i dont think so its that common , i'll be adding more post about different kind of dreams so you can identify messages and read for yourself and make the most out of it

Being scared is also normal , seeing ramdom people is also normal no need to panick a,dreams are dreams at the end .

#pick a card #tarotblr #pick a pile #spirituality #vd #astrology observations

[skaruresonic]

Sorry for venting in your inbox, but I need to talk about something

I did not participate in that discussion you had with that user who more or less said that it's rude to add negativity to a post (I won't make names, but you know what I'm talking about). And yet, I found out that I was blocked.

I have two hypotheses: one, they found out that I comforted you when I wished you a happy birthday (literally the only time I even mentioned the incident in public), so I was put in the category of "people who would attack me", or two, I am simply commonly associated with the Bad People, maybe there's a blocklist going around.

Isn't it fun? I barely even talk about IDW and I don't really interact much with the Sonic fandom anymore, but I'm still worth being blocked by association <3

I didn't follow that person so I won't sleep over it. But you know. Makes you wonder why we stick with the "bad clique" :^)

Possibility three: someone told them about your associations with us and they responded accordingly. This is what I'm talking about with keeping tabs on people. Someone is always holding a microphone up to your mouth, even when you say nothing.

You can never be taken on an individual basis because you're not an individual, you're part of The Haters(tm). That's why everyone was all "ummm isn't Your Group going to issue a statement? omg Greeny ur the only moral one" about Random's tweet.

All the more sickening when they mock us for being part of a "clique," as if A.) they don't belong to "cliques" of their own, and B.) gee I wonder why.

Funny how they got annoyed when I took "I consider only what you, the collective, write" to mean they tar us with the same brush. Maybe because, uh, you do.

At least their actions align with their words in that regard, though. That's all I'll say on the matter.

No, I do not have a "narrative" I'm pushing, somehow it just never occurs to people that I'm only trying to explain things as I see them. And yeah, I do get upset, because it's an upsetting experience, to be told that merely being a little snarky is the same thing as harassment.

It's not. I don't know how to explain that in a way that won't get taken as "harassment" - doing it calmly and doing it loudly will produce the same disdain anyway - so there's no reason to try.

Isn't it fun? I barely even talk about IDW and I don't really interact much with the Sonic fandom anymore, but I'm still worth being blocked by association <3

Same. I don't mind being blocked, btw. In fact, I'd encourage it. If you feel I'd be too toxic to interact with, by all means, help yourself. Curate your online experience. Just don't declare yourself morally superior for it, is all I'm asking.

Recently starting to wander into the weeds with my own work, and while it can be a lonely experience, it's also been something of a healing one because I don't feel fandom breathing down my neck. Would he Say That? I don't quite know yet, but finding out is a part of the journey.

#asks

[dxmurei]

pls go into big detail about all your d&d characters for me :)

Sorry it took me so long to answer this, the idea of explaining all of my dnd characters in one post scared me asdfghjkl but here we go!

Fabled Revelations Campaign

1) Ninnic

Ninnic is one of my favorite characters and my longest running one! I use him for the main campaign and I feel he’s definitely needed there lmao. He’s like the comedic relief? I guess? But plays an important role. Anyway:

Race: Ratling (homebrew class)

Gender: Male, He/Him

Sexuality: Panromantic, Asexual

Class: Fighter: Gunslinger

Height: 5 ft

Age: Unknown, estimated to be around 20

Notes: Doesn’t seem to remember his childhood

Yeah, you read that right. This goofy little no-thoughts guy has a gun. Not only does he have a gun, but it’s the campaign world’s FIRST gun. And he ‘made’ it in partnership with a human engineer named Anastasia. And by made I mean Anastasia made most of it and was running into some troubles with the triggering and Ninnic fiddled with it and accidentally got it to work. And so she kinda just gave it to him.

Just recently in the campaign, the party discovered that he came from a whole town of Ratlings, except that town is abandoned and burned to the ground. Seeing this has started triggering certain memories for Ninnic and he’s slowly starting to remember his past. And, because the party loves him, they’re actively trying to find where the surviving Ratlings are.

One last important note is that he has five mechanical rats that stick with him. He found them in Anastasia’s workshop and he loved them so much she also let him keep them. Even if she didn’t, they probably would have followed him out anyway.

2) Thozsa

Okay, now I’m sure it’s obvious, but Thozsa is my absolute favorite. I use him in a little side campaign with the DM to help flesh out what’s going on in the world outside of the party. Best thing is that he was just a random rolled character for a one-shot. The DM held a one-shot for a little event at the Faetopian kingdom’s capital and needed us to make guards. And I didn’t feel like making a new character so I just clicked randomize on Dungeon Master’s Vault. And that gave be the base for Thozsa.

Race: Yuan-Ti Pureblood

Gender: Trans Man (He/Him)

Sexuality: Pansexual

Class: Cleric (Blood Domain)

Height: 5 ft 10

Age: 25

Notes: He’s got a very very very dark past and motive that I cannot explain atm

There’s so many things that I can’t go into detail with cause it’ll spoil shit for the main party, but I’ll share what I can say.

He caught the Prince of Faetopia’s eye by harassing him at the before mentioned event. (Bro had no idea it was the prince). The Queen noted that Thozsa had been a very capable guard and had talked with Price Astervian and decided it’d be a fantastic idea to assign Thozsa as Astervian’s personal guard. Thozsa hated the guy but the position was very beneficial for him so he took it. Although he was constantly on the brink of quitting because Aster is so goddamn annoying.

But you know, enemies to lovers, traveling together, only one bed oops, trauma unpacking, etc. All those tropes. And now they’re inseparable :) Aster still annoys the shit out of Thozsa, but he endures it instead of threatening to quit.

Vistar Campaign

1) Byakko

I have a love hate relationship with this guy. His character is very cool in my oppinion but VERY hard to play. My favorite thing about him though is that he has lycanthropy :) basically,, he’s a weretiger

Race: Human

Gender: Male (He/Him)

Sexuality: Aromantic and Asexual

Class: Ranger (Horizon Walker)

Height: 5 ft 7

Age: Unknown but estimated early 20s

Notes: Remembers nothing before he contracted Lycanthropy

Earlier in the campaign, he had a very hard time controlling his lycanthropy. Anytime he was emotionally negative, he was at risk of turning against his will. For example, fear, anger, stress, etc. Now, however, he can mostly control it! He’s also gotten better at controlling himself while in his tiger form.

His character is supposed to be a little silly because of the juxtaposition between his large, intimidating, badass tiger form, and then his scrawnyass timid human form.

Anyway, I really like him, but trying to play someone so anxious and timid is hard in dnd, at least for me it is.

2) Ambrym

This guy was made for a little one-shot session and he’s basically a joke.

Race: Fire Genasi

Gender: Male (He/Him)

Sexuality: ?

Class: Fighter

Height: 6 ft 7

Age: 27

Notes: When he gets frustrated he accidentally sets things on fire

The one-shot took place in a great library in Vistar, and my character’s whole deal was that he really liked reading, but he sets things on fire almost constantly. And books are flamable, so…. you get the picture

Anyway, he ended up actually helping defend the library and it’s owner from an attack so now he has a job there as security lmao

Blight of Man Campaign

1) Dr. Shai Sarhan

Okay, so this isn’t dnd, but it's a ttrpg so in my book it counts. Dr. Sarhan is a xenobiologist at SARO (Supernatural and Alien Research Organization), which was basically treated as a joke until the literal apocalypse happened and now SARO is on the front lines of saving the world. He’s currently stationed in Geneva with the other survivors of SARO and the UNE (United Nations of Earth).

Ethnicity: Egyptian-American

Gender: Trans Male (He/Him)

Sexuality: Panromantic, Graysexual

Occupation: Xenobiologist and Lead Researcher of the SARO division

Height: 6 ft 4

Age: 28

Notes: Alcoholic

This guy is a mess. He had a solid future going for him as an astrobiology grad student, but got kicked out of his ivy-league school because of a “mental break.” He was about a year away from getting his doctorate. Luckily for him (or unluckily) SARO took notice of his research and recruited him when no one else wanted to give him a job. He worked there as an astrobiologist and xenobiologist and completed an odd dual program that rewarded him with his doctoral degree in xenobiology (he’s still not sure if it’s real or not but he’ll use the title while he can). This guy worked in a small underfunded lab for several years with less than favorable coworkers until actual aliens invaded Earth. Now, his research on alien biology is getting put to real use and is highly valued. He’s getting the recognition he always wanted, but at a terrible price. Dude was a light alcoholic before the apocalypse started, but it’s gotten worse since. He heavily relies on it to get to sleep at night. Between that, the rate at which he overworks himself, and the traumatic things he has to witness on a weekly basis, he’s a fatigued, grumpy mess.

#demurei answers #holy shit this took so long #dungeons and dragons #dnd #oc #dnd character #yuan ti #yuan ti pureblood #cleric #ranger #fighter #gunslinger #ttrpg #ttrpg oc

[cytser]

i'm annoyed so you get a rin vent on a platform that doesn't have my face directly attached

i've seen so many posts both on twitter and tumblr recently guilting people for not posting about current events, and acting as if you're morally/ethically at fault if you're not actively posting about it. and i'm sorry, but are you hearing yourselves?

obviously, what is happening is extremely disturbing. there aren't words to describe the level of horror, so i'm not going to try to find them. i should think this goes without saying, but i'm going to say it just so we're clear that my post isn't coming from the angle of 'but who cares about what's happening?'

but you have absolutely no idea how people are impacted by what's happening. you have no idea what personal connection people may have. you have no idea the impact it may be having on their mental states, and when you act so dismissive and act like 'this is negatively impacting my mental health' is a privileged take, you show what you really think about mental health.

there are so many reasons why people may not feel able to talk about it! people may not be able to understand what's happening. people may have grown up in warzones. people may have delusions, obsessions, flashbacks, suicidal ideation triggered that they do not have a healthy way of managing.

and from a practical standpoint, what is the point in expecting everyone to burn themselves out? when people are burnt out, they lack an ability to critically examine what they're reading. with the amount of propaganda and mis/disinformation, it is extremely important right now for people to be taking time and care to consider what they're reading. insisting that people shout while burnt out just means that mis/disinformation is going to rule. who does that help?

'you're privileged to not be under threat of death!!' well, for a start you don't know everyone's personal situations. but beyond that, you guys know it isn't morally wrong to use one's privilege, right?

when this all started, it triggered my ocd so badly that for days straight i was compulsively checking the news and making myself more and more afraid and distressed. every person who i told, including my literal actual therapist, suggested i stop. so i did! and now i take my news from trusted friends (and a few select other reliable sources) and am trying very hard not to fall into another ocd spiral because with other things going on in my life as well i'm genuinely unsure if i'd survive

i'm glad if you've never reached a level of mental distress where you're concerned for your ability to keep yourself safe, but this is the reality that a lot of people are dealing with, and those people are also the one's most likely to think they're morally failing if they refuse to share every post they see

if you do have the energy to keep posting things, then obviously i encourage you to. but i also encourage you to be critical about what you share, to make sure you understand the history, to understand that everyone is spreading propaganda, and to seriously consider the bias held by the people who's voices you're sharing.

first- and second-person accounts are typically you're best bet, along with people who's jobs revolve around this (activists, journalists, politicians but be fucking careful there), as you can generally assume they know the history - but still be careful, make yourself aware of red flags, read the replies if you're worried because odds are someone will be providing more context there. sharing propaganda is not helpful, it just makes it harder for you to understand what's happening and how to help

part of why this is so difficult to talk about is because the levels of performative activism and just straight-up horrific things i've been seeing on my social media is way more than i've seen during other conflicts. it is very dificult to engage with without a good knowledge, and most people who are engaging do not have a good knowledge

i've had to unfollow so many people over the past couple of weeks because they've clearly been so poisoned from propaganda. it seems a lot of people care more about looking like 'good activists' than they do about actually being good activists

#.txt #it's also really frustrating knowing people who ARE personally impacted #nobody seems to care about them #their worlds are falling down around them but no it's morally wrong to want to avoid the news on social media #they can't avoid it in real life and we're not going to let them avoid it online either! #that's definitely good activism that is helping everyone!

[5ivebyfive]

Can i ask whats going on with the actors of gap the series? Or rather the "fandom"? Im not that 100% invested but i follow them on instagram and suddenly theres all sorts of negative comments. Is it because one of them has a boyfriend now? Why the fuck do people ship real life humans, theyre ACTORS, i thought we left the problematic real life people shipping in 2012

Sorry if this is random lmao just wondering

Sorry this took me a few days to get to.

So basically, Freen and Becky have always been really close. They're cute and flirty and sweet in interviews, and pose like a couple in photoshoots sometimes. A lot of people shipped them together. Rabidly. Recently, an individual stalked Freen and recorded her in her home where she was with her boyfriend. Apparently, this person caught footage of them kissing. And it got out. And everyone who had shipped them freaked out.

People bashed Freen, blamed her and both of the women for everything between queerbaiting, deceiving, betraying, and lying to them. A lot of Becky stans turned on Freen and said she broke Becky's heart, as though Freen had led Becky on and hurt her. IDF made Freen go on camera and apologize to her fans. I was too disgusted to watch, so I don't know everything they made her say.

The entire situation is ridiculous. If anyone pushed the "they're dating" narrative, it was IDF. But from what I've seen that's common in Thai shows. Not saying it's right, but it's common. Becky and Freen and Gap the Series just happened to get HUGE and built up a big following. To an extent, yes, Becky and Freen went with it. But it was a part of their job. They were promoting their show. A lot of people think this whole thing is new and different, but it's not. It's happened all over with all different ships. Again, not right, but it's a part of promoting these ships/shows.

I already made a long post about this, so I won't get too preachy, but to call the ladies manipulators or liars is wrong. To call it queerbating is even more wrong, and fans these days don't understand that term at all. Becky and Freen were just doing their jobs, whatever was in their contracts, and they were being friends. I think most women/girls have had/have that one friendship with another female that's especially close. It just happens.

So yeah. People found out Freen has a personal life outside of Becky, and they went crazy. It's unhealthy really. And it's why you don't ship real people. For me, I make the exception for RL couples that are together. And at that, not often. Like..my fave and her husband. But I'm not rabid about it.

I don't know. I'm still so annoyed and sad for Freen. She has opened up about anxiety and panic attacks, and none of this can be good for her. Luckily, there are still a large number of fans supporting her through this. But, that's what happened. Whether this will affect them in another project together or not, we will see. I could see them starting to put some distance between them to keep the rabids at bay. Or, they won't care, they'll still fulfill their contracts, and keep on keeping on. We shall see.

#rose does asks #freen sarocha tag #becky armstrong tag #freenbeck tag

[theradioactivespidergwen]

I'm going with anon on this although I am a regular reader of your works/blog. It's in reference to a recent blog post about feeling like people find you annoying, etc. I don't know if you're referring to online interactions or F2F with people, but I'm sorry you feel that way.

FWIW, you're being awfully hard on yourself. I suppose it's easier said than done to relax that inner voice, but at the same time, perhaps people do not find you annoying at all? Not sure of the social situations to which you refer, but those cover a lot of ground when you think about it. For example,, chatting with acquaintances about one's passions is slightly different than friends. I am awful with reading cues from people (F2F) and then in text, there is the whole issue of reading tone and intent. Perhaps in the interactions, there are contextual communications that make you feel one way but the person(s) don't believe you're that way at all. Or, there are issues of which you are unaware that are making the communication difficult (for example, I had a personal loss that I didn't feel comfortable sharing with anyone too far outside of my social circle, but it did affect my ability to be a good listener on occasion so my attention was divided. I sometimes think that the old way of going into mourning helped with such types of interactions)

Anyway, I hope you don't interpret this as me telling you how to feel. Far from it. You feel the way you feel because that is what humans do. Feel. What I am attempting to relate is to encourage you to not give up on social interactions because it could just be that there are plenty of people who share your passions or enjoy listening to you describe your passions (it can be contagious you know!) or whose cues are being misinterpreted. Or, not. I suppose there are enough assholes or people who don't listen very well--we've all run into those types. But, those people are missing out on some really great conversations aren't they?

Sorry for the length of the 'ask.' I have a friend (not on Tumblr) who frequently calls me and one of the first things I used to do (and still do although nowadays she pre-empts me with a 'I need to vent') was ask her if she needed a problem solved or if she needed to vent. The reason being was that sometimes we just need someone with which to share our frustrations but not go into the 'here is what you might try mode.' Both can be positive interactions or negative depending upon the perspective of the two and I always liked to get that squared away so we weren't at cross purposes if that makes sense.

I wasn't sure if you were venting or otherwise, but again, FWIW, you matter and so do your feelings. Take care.

Heya nonnie!

Sorry it has taken me a few days to respond, you gave me alot to think about, lol.

Honestly, since no one interacted with that post, I didn't think anyone saw or cared, so thank you for making me feel valid and seen. It means alot.

I guess it's a combination of both online and IRL interactions. It's hard to make friends as an adult, and I am at the age where everyone has kids, and I am child free by choice, so I feel excluded from my real life friends quite a bit. I know people are just busy, and that's probably it, but my stupid brain just thinks everyone hates me.

The fact is, I am just lonely. Being disabled and chronically ill is incredibly isolating, and having online friends I interact with helps tremendously, but I just end up feeling like I'm bothering people.

I appreciate your very kind words, and the encouragement. This is something I have been working through with my therapist, and it's getting better, but I still have bad days.

Much love to you and anyone reading this!

#mandy answers #sweet anons

[freebooter4ever]

Hello! Another random anonymous but I kept seeing you’re posts about some relationship relating things and saw the negative stuff you’ve said about yourself. Even if they might be teasing jokes about yourself, you might not realize this (and not in a creepy way 😅) but you really are wonderful! I love seeing your posts and you’re personality!

You’re super pretty too! This might sound really random and weird (and I’m honestly probably not getting the right context of anything because I’m sort of confuse about the topic since English isn’t my first language and the events are hard to catch up with) but my grandma has found love when she was in her 50s and has lived a nice life.

I know your situation differ from hers but have faith in yourself. Nothing is wrong with you at all, it just takes time to find the person right for you and when you do, you’ll find someone who deserves you and you deserve them, if you wish to find someone to love of course. But try to remember that you should try and have some more love for yourself, no matter how tough it can get.

Just know that there are people out there and no doubt people waiting to meet you and love you. Haha sorry if this all sounds super weird and awkward, it’s just how the people of my culture see things. There’s always that one person out there who loves you and is waiting to love you 😊

Hi there! Not annoying at all, my entire blog could probably be classified as annoying, this is most definitely not a curated space :). I waited to respond to this cause i wasn't sure how.

First, im really sorry, i should probably tag my insecurity posts with trigger warnings, i know it can be...a bit much. and can hurt other people who read it. The good news is the insecurities usually only happen when im dating and i like...never...date. So as soon as i find a job i will happily go back to 'im too busy to date', and i can shove the insecurity back under the self hating rug. Its like a hornets nest - its only if you poke the nest that you get stung and i keep poking the nest lately.

Second, I apologize if i generalized too much, i am trying to be more aware of myself doing that. There's lots of examples of friends with good long relationships in my life - the friend whose wedding i'm going to has been with her husband for ten years, my other childhood bff has been with her partner for 11, and jelly bean and her husband have been married since 2015 and dating since college (lord we are old). And of the celebrity couples i kinda idolize, im pretty sure only steve ao*ki and recently rami (lol good for him) are the ones with break ups. (i have been REALLY entertained by the sheer sudden volume increase in thirst traps on steve's insta starting around the time nicole got cozy with this new guy and deleted her loving tributes to steve off her account - dont get me wrong i fully appreciate the photos and selfies, enjoying every minute of it but yeah he must be single right now LOL i would feel more bad for him if he hadnt been the one doing the dumping)(it must be hard dating with his insanely fast paced lifestyle though, i dont envy him :( ). So its absolutely a 'me' problem.

My only experiences dating over the years have taught me that i dont have much to offer that someone cant get through friendship (or friends with benefits) - entertaining and fun to hang out with but not pretty enough (or good in bed enough LOL) to be actually worthwhile. At this point its kind of a joke; "its saturday night, why are you calling me, dont you have somewhere to be?" "no, of course not, i was wondering if i could come hang out with your dog"

Thanks for trying to cheer me up? :) i'm sorry i'm an insecure mess!

#I also dont believe in soulmates #Because if you really only fall in love once #and NICK is it for me??? fuck im screwed #tw negative #new tag haha #honestly the biggest thing? i wouldnt wish dating me on anyone not even nick lmao #it sounds miserable

[ghost-bard]

why, tell me, would you just maintag that? in all of the campaign tags? without tagging the fact that you're shitting on it? so that people who are just absently scrolling the tags for content about the show they love see untagged hate of a pretty decent guy who is the only reason the campaign they love so much exists at all?

what could possibly have possessed you to do so?

Hello!

I’d like to say, I’m allowed to state my opinion, and i tagged all the campaigns because it applies to all the campaigns, not just Riptide, and what i said was not me “shitting” on jrwi, and I certainly wasnt hating on it lmao (ik i said sorry not sorry for being a hater in the tags, however that was mostly a joke-)

If you had actually read the tags you’d know what caused me to make the post, and even if all the guys are pretty ok, which im not contesting in anyway, that does not absolve them from oh. Idk. Having flaws, and objectively not being the best at writing female characters.

But, to answer your question, what “possessed” me to “hate” on jrwi? In the most recent episode (spoilers btw) Amanda Rinn shows up again, and she’s decided to become a pirate! Cool right? Well she became a pirate to chase after Chip, the man she married, wanted nothing to do with her, and within like a week ended things with. But the whole reason she became a pirate was to chase after a man. That wanted nothing to do with her. And that has become her whole personality. She is entirely treated as a joke.

And you know. Maybe im a little bit annoyed by the fact that there is a paltry amount of women in jrwi, and that the ones that are there are sexualized, unimportant, or incapacitated.

Like i said in the tags im sure you didn’t read, prime defenders is best between it, riptide and apothy, I didn’t include blood in the bayou for reasons ill state in a moment, but that doesn’t mean much now does it?

The main reason why I didn’t include blood in the bayou is because of how short it is, had it been a bit longer I’m sure what I’ve said would apply just as much, and even then if I’m being honest it still can apply to bitb.

Even then, what i said is a common sentiment just because im not sugarcoating it doesn’t make that not true.

But, anon, what i said wasn’t really hate or anything, but if thats what you qualify as hate i suggest you block me and move on. I honestly love jrwi, anyone thats seen just about any of my other posts knows that, but if this one slightly negative post set you off, again, please just block me and be done with it.

#jrwi #just roll with it #jrwi neg #lmao #im being p condescending here and i do not care #im not going to go back and tag the og post as jrwi neg btw #bc the actual post is honestly not that bad #if you read the tags? sure whatever man #but also. like man im not even being mean and dont assume it was just grizz i was talking about #ok correction i was upset in the tags so maybe i was mean #anyway! anyone who thinks im hating on jrwi for wishing they had better female characters is free to block me #|^_^| #jrwi spoilers #almost forgot lmao

[hshouse]

This should probably be a tags rant on my own blog but I have an nda so I get wary, but anyway I work for an author/influencer, not even a big one but someone who’s been writing online for a decade, and the amount of unsolicited opinions and hate they receive for mundane stuff on a daily basis is mind-boggling.

So when I see stuff like what went on with Anne, I just think abt how much of this ish goes around not just to celebs/celeb adjacent, but to average ppl. I mean, take the kind of anons you get just doing your thing in this corner of tumblr! (I love your thing btw, keep being your hella lucky, hella confident self, it’s an inspiration.)

All that to say I am just so concerned by the bigger issue, which is this normalization of “posting anything on the internet ever means open season for strangers to publicly shame/drag you” —like would ppl really walk up to someone at a cocktail party and say their negative ig comments or anons to their face? Idk I recently read a piece about “comment culture” that has opened my eyes to how counterproductive all of it and yeah I have no solutions but I just don’t want it to be seen as normal or ok.

Whoops, sorry, this got long, but I know you’ll have good boundaries and not publish if you wanna be done with this topic lmao. 😘 Sending love and apologies for using your inbox as a place to vent. 💕

hi bby,

oh this is so interesting. I will def read the article. and I am honored you like my blog. Yeah, I dont remember where I saw this but someone wrote that the creation of the comment feature on the internet was a huge mistake. After you take a step back and think about, you cant ever go back to that mindset. We should behave online how we behave in real life. What do we do in real life when someone says something weird/annoying/etc??? we gossip about it with our friends. We dont go off on the person??? like thats not how society works. Online should be like that. I think it is fair game to go to your own pages and rant. freedom of speech and all that. but the culture of SENDING these things to people (famous or not) is so toxic and dangerous. a comment you typed in 20 seconds can stay with someone for the rest of their life (I have one from 6th grade that I will remember on my grave). that's a lot of power. everyone should yield it with care.

[purgatorihorror]

To My Twitter Family

Greetings to anybody reading. After something that happened yesterday on Twitter I really wanted to come on here and talk to you guys really quick about something.

Yesterday I did something that was completely out of character for me and it got me to start beating myself up pretty badly. On a friend’s tweet where they said they were listening to a band for the first time (it happened to be my favorite band ever) and I decided to scroll through the comments on the post as we all probably do when we’re active on Twitter. I saw a comment that got underneath my skin, someone saying that the band “stunk” and I guess because of all of the negativity lately and my decline in mental health I snapped the person’s head off, and I shouldn’t have. Why? Well, because everyone is entitled to feel how they feel and have their own opinions - which is something I’ve always spoken very loudly about, but I feel like me snapping at this person was just so hypocritical and completely out of character for me. 

It’s no secret that my head-space hasn’t been the best lately. I’ve been very open about my mental health (phobias, anxieties, depression, etc) and how I’ve even recently started going to therapy again. All of the hate speech, racism, homophobia, and transphobia I’ve seen on my timeline has been horrible and really affecting my mental health in a negative way because I have friends and family who are part of the LGBTQ community - it hurts me greatly to see a lot of the hate and harassment these people have been getting. It’s great that my followers have been calling these people out, but deep down it still hurts to see the comments people are making, and these hateful, negative people have been coming out of the woodwork left and right. I didn’t used to see this much of it on my timeline as I do now and as someone who cares so much for others, it’s been killing me - and I believe all of the negativity has had me on edge, making me a person that I don’t like or want to be. 

I normally just scroll past an opinion that bugs me, but yesterday I did the opposite and I am so glad my friend put me in check because I REALLY needed it. I made a mistake and I am owning up to that. I will not blame my mental health or make excuses because I should know better. My fiance keeps telling me not to beat myself up, because we’ve all been there. We’ve all said things we aren’t proud of. We all mess up and he said that doesn’t make me a terribile person. I am sorry if anyone saw that, though. I am sorry because that is not who I am. As a human being I need to constantly try and check myself. While this seems silly to some for being upset about something like this, well I am just upset at myself because I speak out against things like that and there I was doing the exact opposite. I was being a hypocrite yesterday, but I am growing and learning everyday. As humans I think we all grow and learn from mistakes and sometimes we forget to check ourselves, or we’re having a bad day, etc - even so checking ourselves is so important, I cannot stress that enough. I always want to learn and grow to be a better person than I was yesterday. 

After all of this happened I really considered leaving Twitter, but my fiance sat me down and said I don’t want to do that because of the wonderful community of people that I have surrounding me, all of the friends I’ve made, and that we should all stick together to fight the negativity. 

You guys mean the world to me and I never want to hurt any of you. Sure, I may be annoying, I may come off as sickeningly friendly, and of course not everyone is going to like that, but that’s just who I am. I used to say I hated people when I worked retail, but over the years I have realized I was wrong - I love people. I love you guys, I really do. We all don’t know each other well, but I love you. You guys have been nothing but kind and accepting to me, which is something I’ve never experienced being someone who was bullied a lot - so yeah, you guys mean the world to me. 

Anyway, I’m probably rambling now. This is gonna be pretty long. I wanted to make a video and tried, but kept getting emotional and I’m not good at showing other people that very vulnerable side.

I will end with this - I am not leaving Twitter, because right now Twitter needs all of the positivity it can get. If I can spread a little positivity during difficult times then I will. My heart is full of love and gratitude, and I promise if I ever find myself in a weird head funk that I will just take a day off from social media because I never want to blow up at another human being like that again.

I love you guys, and thank you for reading this very long post. I promise to do better, because I want to be better.

- PT

[oliviackaotix-blog]

I just don’t know what to do, my whole life has been on the internet it was my only escape from my home, but now it’s curdled and rotten, everyday I see horrible things and horrible people, that plus my painful family life and my recent health complications has made my life a living hell 24/7 for the past 5 years, I have lost hundreds of friends, I’m implicit now, but that’s only because whenever I did try to take a stand on any side I would lose everyone and everything I loved, all my friends left me and all the joy in my life has been sucked away, I tried to stand up to help people but most would call me over dramatic and stupid, friend groups and communities broken and destroyed by collapsing in on itself from infighting but now that I’ve grown implicit and quiet I’ve been called weak and spineless, I don’t know what to do, no matter which actions I take I’m surrounded by pain and am alone. My heart has been so soured that I can no longer feel joy or happiness or any sort of connection around others, all I feel is emptiness, soullessness, that or a deep hatred and disgust because of things my mind deems as bad. I can no longer create art properly, I was only able to create art through my happiness and passion, now all of that is gone, and I’m sad to say to those who did enjoy my works, I’ll likely never be able to create pieces like those again or return to my PizzaPlex series, it’s unfortunate because I’ve worked my whole life to this point so I could create my own series, but the life is gone, and without that I can no longer create anything with meaning. Not to mention my future is gone, I was gonna be an engineer, I’ve been studying since I was little on the art of robotics, but since my physical and mental health have been diminished, I can’t operate properly in public anymore without having a nervous breakdown, that and it’s hard to stay awake for long periods of time anymore; I’ve been forced to drop out of highschool before I can finish, so my dreams of becoming an engineer are gone, to be honest I lost the passion for it long ago, but now that also my dreams of writing are gone aswell I have no clear future anymore, I’ll likely to never be able to get a job due to my conditions, and I have no plans anymore. I am lost, alone and empty. Perhaps I should leave the internet due to its added negative affects on my mental health, but at the same time it is my only means of access to the outside, as like I said; I cannot function properly outside anymore. I really need mental help, and I’ve been going to therapists for years, but clearly it’s not really having any affect. I just don’t know what to do about anything anymore.

I’m sorry for the rambling and dark nature of these, I know it’s annoying, and I’m most likely gonna regret these posts later, but it’s my only option currently. I don’t even really know what I’m hopping with this; to vent? To get attention? To really find out if I am a bad person or not? I don’t know anymore, I’m really sorry.

#vent

[klfoxartcommtext]

“I’m sorry, I know I said I’d queued your commission but I actually have to close my commissions until I don’t know when. 😢”

*commissions remain advertised as open on artist profile* 🧐

*me checking in a month later as status has remained the same*

“Sorry they’re still closed.” lol

Another month passes.

Artist messaging me after posting another completed commission on page: “I’m so sorry but I’ve recently decided to no longer accept commissions outside my main fandom.”

*artist terms and conditions remain unchanged from all fandoms to this day*

Lmao - I think I can read between the lines here. 😂 I see artists moan about shitty client conduct but sometimes the reverse is true. Would definitely have preferred true honesty instead of being lied to a lot. This is still bugging me because I’d have been curious as to why exactly the artist no longer wants to accept commissions from me specifically. Maybe I unintentionally made them uncomfortable at some point? Maybe they didn’t like how many modifications throughout the process I asked for? Maybe they just don’t like my characters and don’t want to draw them again? Clearly this person was so afraid of offending me (they strike me as a young and anxious person, but who knows) they felt the need to lie over and over again. I don’t appreciate that.

I respect honesty above all, regardless if it’s an uncomfortable truth. But instead I’m just left in the dark as to what exactly I did wrong in the artist’s eyes and have therefore lost the opportunity learn and possibly improve my conduct. Being disrespected like this is so annoying. Luckily this is one of only 2 negative experiences I’ve had out of 80+ commissions so I can’t complain too much. Still bugged by it though!! lol. 😡

[woodruff]

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#me in bed unable to move with enough paracetamol and ibuprofen in my system to give me permanent kidney damage: #'i payed 400€ for this' #girl help 😭 #sorry all my personal posts have been so negative recently i know it's annoying but i just. its bad i hate this #my next appointment is in 2 weeks but i don't think i can wait that long #and i payed 400 for this. 400 that's so much and it was supposed to be treatment not make everything worse i :((((((((( #negative #sorry abt this :( you don't have to read #painblogging as per usual

[iwadori]

When they neglect you for another girl Part 4 (Sakusa)

Part One Part Two Part Three Part Four Part Five

Word Count: 2.6K

Genre: Angst to Fluff

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AN: YES I DID PUT MYSELF IN THIS STORY! SUE ME. This is basically inspired by a random conversation i had w the great @teesumu, so this is basically for you doll <3

Sakusa:

You and Sakusa have been together for a around 10 years and love eachother immensly.    

However recently Sakusa has been busy and you havent really had much time together lately as he claims been busy doing loads of visits with his new agent.

But of course, being the loving partner you are you wanted to revive the spark in your relationship.

You have been seeing a lot of people on social media posting their aesthetic ‘picnic dates,’ and you knew that this was something that appealed to you before it was ‘on trend.’ Kiyoomi immediately came to your mind once you had the idea of going on a date. You knew that you haven’t be around each other lately, as Kiyoomi always had either a ‘meeting’ or some sort of ‘interview’ that his new agent “Empress” has set up for him.

You didn’t really know Empress that well, just that she was ‘good at her job,’ a ‘hard and dilligent worker,’ and a ‘raging hottie’ with Atsumu’s opinion being the last one. You weren’t suspecting her to have any malicious intent towards you or Kiyoomi, since you knew that he had a great judge of character. But it was just odd, that every time Kiyoomi was running late or having ‘super-secret’ conversations on the phone it was always because ‘my agent set up this,’ ‘my agent set up that,’ and that’s what left you a bit wary.

As you were scrolling through your phone you see a calendar updating saying : Next Week‘ A DECADE AGO WE FELL IN LOVE.’  

10 years. How could you forget? You and Omi have literally been together for a decade. You think back to the decade of madness and love you’ve been through together, smiling fondly to yourself but then you think about where you are now... barely even talking to each other, only mainly seeing him when he comes home from work.

You need to fix this. Or at least make an attempt to get you and Kiyoomi talking again. So, the only thing you can do, is plan that picnic.

You spent the rest of the day planning your anniversary picnic. ’It’s going to be great,’ you think to yourself, you have a list of all Omi’s favorite foods you're going to make him and bring and you are probably going to pick up a few board games and maybe even get some paint supplies. You and Kiyoomi used to paint a lot together, with the two of you not being the best of painters, but you enjoyed eachothers company non the less.  

Everything was sorted...for the most part. All you needed to do was get Omi there, and it’ll all be okay. Right? As you were bubbling and looking for more picnic inspo, you hear your front door open which made you even more excited to tell your boyfriend your plans.  

As you rush to go greet him, you see he’s on the phone making you roll your eyes. “No Empress it won’t work, we need this sorted by next week. Okay? Next week.” he says in an agitated way. He hangs up the phone and sighs, shoving off his duffel bag.

“Hey Omi, how was your day?” you say a bit hesitant, noticing his annoyed mood.  

“Fine” He said dismissively, aiming to walk past you aiming for your bedroom.

“Oh well I have something amazing planned for ne-” you try to say following after him.

“Can we not do this right now Y/N,” he says again turning too look at you making you frown a bit, all you wanted to do is surprise him with your plans and have a day out with him. After noticing your sad look he finishes with “it’s just that Empress she’s bee-”

“I don’t want to hear about her.” you say bitterly folding your arms, Empress is the last person you want to hear about right now “God Omi can’t you just care about me? For once.”

“I do I-”

“You don’t anymore,” you say, with all the emotions and feelings you’ve been just supressing from a while coming up. You don’t even know how you got from point A to B with this conversation, but there's no stopping now. “I feel that, for a while now we haven’t been how we were before when we were just Y/N and Kiyoomi. Instead of how we are now. Just Y/N. Then Kiyoomi and Empress.”

After hearing his agents name, Kiyoomi’s name contorts to confusion “Empress? What does she have to do with anything?”

“How can you not see? For the past month all it’s been is ‘Empress this’ ‘Empress that,’” you complain “Having your super secret conversations with her, like god Kiyoomi can’t you see a problem with this?”  

“It’s not like that Y/N, we’re just work partners” he says looking a bit annoyed “Just business.”

 “Just business? So Kiyoomi, what were you talking about on the phone earlier” you say with your voice slight accusingly.

“Umm I, I can’t really say?” he says more of a question then a fully assured statement. You squint your eyes at him and scoff.

“What is going on with you Omi?” you say “are you cheating on me with her is that it?”

“No, no of course not Y/N! How could you even ask that?” he frowned at your question making your chest hurt, since deep down you knew he could never do that to you. Could he?

“Well tell me then, what were you talking about?” you ask again.

“I can’t say..” he finishes  

“Well I can’t stay.” you say and his face goes back to confusion “Here. With you.”

“What do you mean Y/-”

“I need a break or something. I just can’t be here right now.” You start to rush and pack a big of things whilst Kiyoomi just stands there.

After you pack up your stuff, you look back and see Kiyoomi just there. Standing. You were upset, you kind of wanted him to rush after you and beg you not to leave, but he was just there. Standing. So you put the hand on the door and just before you leave you turn back and say “bye Sakusa, see you later?” to which you see him slightly nod at.

When the door shut, Kiyoomi starts to cry. After hearing you call him by his last name really twisted the knife that was already in his heart. You haven’t called him that since you were like 15. He knew what you wanted; he knew you wanted him to rush towards you and beg you not to leave, but he didn’t. He couldn’t. But what he could do is call the one person he only could call.

After a few rings, he hears “What do you need Saku?”  

“She’s gone, she left.”

“What do you mean she’s gone, did you tell her?”  

“No I didn’t tell her. And that’s the problem, Empress she think-”

“Saku, don’t worry about it. I’ll handle it.”

“You’ll handle it?”

“Don’t I always?”

He couldn’t argue with that, he just had to trust that Empress could sort it. “And also, don’t spend the week with your head up your ass crying, you’ve got a lot of grovelling to do kiddo.”

He nodded even though she couldn’t see him, as he knew that what just went down needed to be resolved, fast.

Meanwhile, on your end. You’re a mess. Sobbing all the time, tissues are your best friend, you’ve been waiting just waiting for a message or a call, or some form of communication. You just wanted to feel wanted by your boyfriend (can you even call him that now.)  

You spent the rest of the week at your parents, immersing yourself in your work and doing ‘self care’ things, trying to forget all about the argument you and Kiyoomi had.  

One day, you receive a letter, it wasn’t delivered by a mail man though. It was slid under your door, in a golden envelope sealed with a red hot wax seal. It read:

‘Dear Y/N,

My sweetheart, im sorry for how the week has been and I know a letter with only a fraction of how I feel won’t make up for how I acted that day. But im inviting you to join me at the Gardenia Botanical Gardens at 2 pm tommorow, to celebrate our 10 year anniversary.  

I know there is a big chance, you may not want to see me and I understand but please. I love you, so so much, that words can’t even describe. But I need you to see me apologise and I need to make it up to you.  

I hope to see you there, I’d wait the whole day for you. If you don’t show, I understand.

Sincerely, Sakusa Kiyoomi

P.S The theme is ‘summer hot day, tea with the queen’ - Atsumu’

You smile at the letter, but wonder if you should actually go or not. You did want to see him of course and get this all resolved, but you had your own plans for your anniversary which wouldn’t of been spoiled if he didn’t withhold his super-secret phone calls.

It took you hours to contemplate on what to do, but you decided to just sleep on it and see how you feel tomorrow. In the morning, you knew what you wanted to do. Of course, you had to go, at least to hear him out and see if he really did cheat on you or not. For all you know he’s inviting you to tell you that he’s going to run away with his agent and his secret kids they had together. You shook the negative thoughts from your head and just repeated your mantra ‘hope for the best and prepare for the worst.’

When you got there, you didn’t exactly know where he would be but he said ‘botanical gardens’ so of course you decided to just wander around there. It was nice walking around and just smelling the roses, and seeing the pretty scenery.  

“Excuse me ma’am,” you hear someone say tugging on your leg “um that mister over there told me to give you these.” Looking down, you see a small boy who looked about the age of four with a crumpled up bunch of roses handing them to you.

“Oh thank you,” you say giving the kid a head pat “where is this ‘mister’ might I ask?”

“He’s over there!” The kid pointed behind him and you look to see Kiyoomi sitting under a white gazebo which is surrounded in your favorite flowers and the table is filled with food.

You walk over to your ‘boyfriend,’ with him not noticing your present yet. When you reach him you say “I think she stood you up buddy,” you joke making him jump abit startled.

“Y/N!” he exclaimed, instantly beaming “You came you made it!” he stood up and pulled you into a hug, which you return before you remember why you came here in the first place.

“Oh I-” he says awkwardly

You decide to sit down pulling him down with you. You kind of sit there in uncomfortable silence, for a while until you both say.

“So I-”

“What are yo-”

You both laughed at your simultaneous comments, before Kiyoomi looks at you letting you speak. “What did you want to bring me here for?”

“I didn’t want, what happened last week to happen Y/N I-” he says looking a bit panicked “It wasn’t supposed to go this way.”

“Then how was it meant to go Sakusa.”

“Y/N, please don’t call me that, I know I made you upset but pleas-” he starts before getting distracted again “Y/N, I called you here to say a few things..”

“Them being.?” you ask a bit impatiently.

“I love you. I love you so much, you don’t even understand. Ever since I saw you at my volleyball game in our first year, in the stands just cheering us on. I knew that from that day, after I scored the winning point and our eyes met, that we were destined to be together. I just love you so much Y/N”

“Omi I don’t understand I-”

“Just let me finish please, It’s taken a while for me to say this. And trust me, there’s been so many times when I wanted to just say ‘hey Y/N let’s get married,’ but I couldn’t I was scared, and I wanted it to be perfect, so perfect. Because you deserve the world Y/N. That’s why I got Empress to help, I know that our conversations may seem odd, but I love you and she knows that she just wanted to help trust me. And she did, all this wouldn’t of been done if it wasn’t for her. But anyways Y/N what I waned to say was I love you and I love you and I-” he rambles on loosing track of his words.  

But in the midst of his speech, you hear all that you needed and responded with the only way you can.

“Yes.” you say simply, with a growing smile on your face.

“Yes?” he repeats confused “What do you meann ye- ohhh" Kiyoomi blushes embarrased that after all that he ended up ruining the thought out proposal he wanted to give you with his ramble.

“Im sorry Y/N, I didn’t mean to say it like that I wanted it to be perfect and I-”

You shut him up with a kiss making his eyes widen as he reciprocates it anyways.  

“What did she say?” you hear someone shout from a far, and you look over to see the MSBY Jackals all standing there with shit eating grins on their faces.

“I said yes!” you yell back, to which they all cheer and rush towards you guys giving you both hugs and slapping Kiyoomi on the back.  

As the boys celebrate Omi finnally do what he’s been planning for ages, you get approached by Empress who awkwardly walks up to you. “ I didn’t want to leave the impression that me and Saku were any sort of thing?” she says

“Yeah I think it was definitely a big misunderstanding, it’s just that Omi was never around and whenever he was he was just talking to you and you know how it is.”

“I definitely know, I’d feel the same way if my boyfriend did that to me.”

“Oooh boyfriend?” you ask her feeling nosey on her romantic life.  

“Yeah boyfriend. You know iwaizumi hajime... the trainer?” she says smiling a bit when she said his name.

“The trainer! Nice.”

The rest of the night was fun and was basically an engagement party for you and Omi all you and friends just partying and celebrating yours and Omi’s love for each other. “Omi” you say getting his attention “Happy ten year anniversary babe”

“Happy anniversary, I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you.”

After the party you spend your months now planning for a big fat wedding, with the help of your new found bestie, Empress (who you obviously misjudged from the start.) You and Omi could never be happier, every thing was back to how it was before, maybe even better. And you definitely spent at least two Saturdays a month going out for picnics and it was now a tradition in your relationship, so in the end you did get your ‘aesthetic picnic date.’

AN: WHAT DID U GUYS THINK??

#haikyuu x reader #haikyuu x reader comfort #haikyuu fluff #sakusa x you #sakusa headcanons #haikyu angst #sakusa fluff #sakusa x reader #sakusa oneshot #haikyu sakusa #signedwithane😌

[angelictrl]

hihi wifey, im feeling kinda anxious/sad in general so can i request just have satan + asmo being jealous tysm ❤️❤️❤️

JEALOUS SATAN & ASMO.

a/n ;; sorry that this is late and i apologize if this is sucky ! head’s been empty but i’m trying desperately not to get writer’s block </3 also, asmodeus’ part got longer than expected, oops.

cw ;; threats, insecurities, hurt-ish/comfort. satan is a moody baby and asmodeus appreciation/supremacy. not proof-read. that’s all, really, besides some cranky demons. 

# satan. ``

@ others making him jealous . . .

whoever has the audacity to go and make the literal avatar of wrath jealous definitely has a death wish. whether or not some random demon who was getting too touchy, flirting, or taking up your time and attention with or without knowing that you were his partner, he’d still get pissed. 

however, he has two reactions: either, 1. he storms up to them and puts them in their place/threatens them before pulling you away if he hasn’t destroyed something, or 2. he’s just on the verge ... sitting there, peeking over a book with a menacing aura as he glares at everyone like a cat, ready to claw someone in the corner. 

satan trusts you, so if he goes with the latter, he’ll be silently raging internally while he waits for you to tell them you have a boyfriend and decline their advances. if they continue to push you when you already told them no, that’s when blondie here will snap and go with reaction 1.

“oi, just what do you think you’re doing ? my s/o already said no, you pitiful creature(s). quit gawking at them before i forcefully make you. understand?”

@ brothers making him jealous . . .

on the other hand, if it’s one of his brothers hogging all of your attention, he gets more petty than anything, really. the threats are still there, though. and especially if it’s lucifer who’s stealing you away ... yikes, everyone in HoL will know his change in mood as he’s been on lucifer’s ass more than usual with his pranks and curses.

satan will be visibly annoyed and give each and every one of you the cold shoulder by locking himself in his room more often than not (leviathan the hermit, who ?) to get lost in his books until he gets reassurance and affection from you.

he’s not really insecure, but more lost and confused than anything. he’s the brother that’s pretty much the odd one out, though none of them treat him differently, and he’s always had an issue with feeling enmeshed to lucifer. 

even when he knows he’s his own person, he was created from a quite literal ungodly amount of rage and wrath. it’s all he’s known before you came along into his life. so surely ... you’ll excuse him for looking like a kicked puppy as he tries to sort through these new feelings, right ? 

right, because you’re already there holding his hand in reassurance. that same rough hand that’s tortured and destroyed so many things is being held by someone so fragile ... someone who’s looked death in the eye ... someone who makes him feel like he’s something more than just a monster. 

you truly were just like that main character in one of his books ... you were the beauty to his beast. or, properly phrased, you brought out the beauty in his beast. 

# asmodeus. ``

@ others making him jealous . . .

‘oh, honey, you look like rumpelstiltskin, yet you still think you can compare to me ?‘ pretty much his thought process right there.

no but really, asmo may be sweet and the most gentle out of the brothers right next to beel, but he’s still an avatar of a sin. there’s no doubt that the lot of demons there in the devildom would be intimidated by asmodeus in the competition for your love - and honestly, who could blame them ?

most of them who don’t live under a rock would already know that you two are in a relationship with how much asmo posts about you, so it would take some serious devotion from any demon who dares to have the gall to compete with him - whether or not they view you as a fling - and asmodeus will not hesitate to get petty. 

you’re going to need to reassure your demon boyfriend here that you only have eyes for him before he exposes the second half of deep, dark secrets this other person/people have on the internet ^^;;

@ brothers making him jealous . . .

he’d still think of himself as somewhat superior and cuter, but he’d tone things down. he wouldn’t ruin his brothers’ lives like how he would be willing to do so with strangers.

regardless of whether or not it’s a stranger, friend, or brother of his, in the end, asmo will be extra touchy and will spoil you with more spa dates and trips to majolish than usual. this is mostly because he doesn’t want you to notice his recent gloomy change in mood as he’s stuck on the thought of ‘what if’ had you really left him for someone else. 

those intrusive thoughts just keep on swarming through his head ... so what better than to try to get back into routine with daily life ? he just hopes you haven’t taken notice, but unfortunately for him, you have. 

you’ve noticed his slightly disheveled hair and outfit along with the mountain of clothes and makeup piling up in his room and his vanity. plus, let’s not begin to even mention the excessive amount of concealer he’s been wasting to try and hide his eyebags.

things finally begin to progress in the communication area when you sit him down and confront him one night while everyone’s asleep. though, getting him to work through the root of his charismatic-party-animal mask proves to be quite difficult.

“dear, it’s adorable how you care so much for me, but you’re really going to get wrinkles this way. here, come a little closer and let me do your skincare first, then we’ll chat ... c’mon ~ i said closer, hon. i don’t bite ... well, unless you want me to ~”

“asmo, baby ...” you cut him off for the nth time that night as he tried to change the subject again, watching the demon with champagne-colored hair who flung himself at you again glance at you with his cheeky smile faltering for a split second before he quickly regained his composure, but it wasn’t anything that you couldn’t catch onto. “please, stop changing the topic. i’ve come to talk to you ... the real you. no spontaneous activities, no makeovers, just you.”

asmodeus’ face paled ever so slightly and his eye twitched as he thought of playing dumb, but you were just so sincere. he couldn’t even manage out a ‘whatever do you mean ?’ before laughing in disbelief while turning the other way. “this - this is the real ..... the real ... me ... i have no clue what you’re talking about ...” he choked out while tears glossed over his eyes, his back turned to you. 

in his theatrics and dramatic antics, he’d fake cry occasionally, but to truly feel such strong, negative emotions especially towards himself as he cried ... it was ugly. he was ugly. and now, surely if you saw his face, you’d leave him too. for he was such a shallow, ugly, good-for-nothing demon. no matter how much he polished his attitude to be sassy and charismatic or tried on the latest trending outfits and makeup, there was always this feeling of emptiness left in him. not like the black hole everyone called beel’s stomach, but this void left in his heart, this hurting in his chest that wouldn’t go away when the afterglow of each party and hookup arrived, this longing for warmth - not even just physically - for someone to hold him like he did for his brothers on their lonesome nights when they remembered the past.

the avatar of lust was knocked out of his thoughts by a pained noise, confusion written on his face before he realized it was himself. he was sobbing into your chest as you held him close, your fingers delicately carding through his tousled hair. ugly. he thought each sorrowful noise that came out of him was ugly, and he couldn’t help but chant sorry’s your way through tears. he didn’t know when you had came closer once more to hold him, but he buried his face into your shirt and finally let loose the flood of his emotions clinging desperately to you.

“p-please ... don’t go away too, s/o. you’re the true jewel of the devildom, my dear. you’re so much more beautiful than i’ll ever be ... and i ... i don’t mean that just by l-looks ... please ... i love you so much ...”

obey me masterlist.

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hi to start this off, I'm not the type of person to make posts like this but I feel like you all should know

so to cut to the chase here

if you associate with or follow or even like posts from @/suicidalpotsticker, I will block you on site

tw stalking/tw harm/tw slander/just triggering language, I'm sorry in advance. Look at my evidence screenshots at your own risk, it's too annoying to censor everything.

(underlined words or sentences are links to google drive folders of evidence)

she has been stalking me on here, slandering and demonizing me, saying she wants to harm me, and blaming me for things I had nothing to do with since February of this year. Keep in mind, I am 22 and she is 27. This is all because I basically said heterophobia isn't real and I shared that I have been called alot of homophobic slurs by straight people.

evidence (screenshots are from Nov 8th 2021 before she blocked me again on her new account)

I never bullied her. I didn't run her out of the transformers fandom like she claims, I didn't do any of that actually. I thought I was being really civil during this whole thing. Nor did I send anyone after her or make any burner accounts to get around her blocking me. I was not @/senator-megatron and the other burner accounts and I never asked for people to come to my defense but they did. She was also not "harassed for being straight". If she was, I'm sorry I really am but I'm not to blame. I never told people to do that. I also never asked her for $700 dollars. That was one of the burner accounts, not me.

this whole thing in February started because I and 2 other people reblogged a post she made about that "if you complain about hasbro for being homophobic, then you're heterophobic" and others started reblogging it too with their reactions. As I was gonna give my response to her, because she responded to me in the replies, she then literally deleted the post a second later.

she kept changing her username throughout this whole thing

deadmoontheroist ➡️ thanksforthenightmareshaters ➡️ gotyabitch

she then sent me this ask asking me to delete my reblog of her post because she didn't like all the negative attention her post was getting and I did. You can click on the link and read my response. I was civil as I could be during that time. after answering her ask, I blocked her and she blocked me and then my significant other by association. then the burner accounts started sending her asks, reblogging her posts, and leaving replies. I stayed out of that because I was tired of the whole situation at this point. after all that, she deleted that account and I thought she was gone for good. Clearly not.

I stumbled on her new account on November 8th by accident and found all these posts of her talking about me and two posts about how she wanted to harm me if she ever saw me and that I apparently ruined her life.

That's the reason why I didn't feel safe on here. I still don't.

and to clear the air about what has happened recently, if anyone that follows her has noticed, I was not @/lord-thanos nor was I the other burner account that kept sending in asks.

Alright, that's all I have to say on this matter. Please understand that I don't enjoy drama like this. I hate dealing with it. So, thank you for taking your time to read my side of all this.

#discourse #tw stalking #tw harm #slander #tw language #dean talks #text post #not transformers #call out post