#someone would die if they got in a relationship

[zanysmurf]

notes on jokey's funny bone

patsy cameron back at it again

*after papa falls for the box* "ohh papa smurf i haven't gotten you to open one in years >:)" awww

i love vanity's house just full of mirrors. exactly as it should be

he dropped his BIG MIRROR on his LITTLE TOE !!!!!!!!@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

papa knows how to fix fractured toes. with an operation. hang on i'm looking at the curtains in the bg and the flowers looked like eggs to me for a second

vanity's house is pink and purple here god yes

someone take jokey to a funeral i just want to see what happens

hi greedy. he put so much salt into that soup. is it enough

always love when vanity's nightshirts have his face on them

greedy has baked cookies with vanity's face on them before

"does it hurt here" [smack sfx] "oh yeaah suure"

"roll over" brainy you mean turn around he is not a dog

the goopy sfx for the tail squish

greedy has a turbulent relationship with garlic throughout the show i guess. he's got his nose plugged so he doesn't have to smell the Mush

brainy saying "my little smurfs" again

LACK OF CIRCULATION 💥💥

i like that greedy is the one manhandling jokey and strapping him to the Spinning Contraption. you'd think hefty would or something

HE'S HYSTERICAL 💥💥

no one is ever ready for a random mummy event. smh

brainy genuinely so devastated at the concept of taking away jokey's sense of humor

bro my surgeon is evil laughing and using musical instruments. will i die? y/n

are they swapping brains too 🤔 truly the most revolutionary surgery you can imagine

#the smurfs #smurfs #hb cartoon #jokey's funny bone #queue

[s3rrrpentine]

these are my main bitches!!! (very affectionate)

tw: child abuse

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Cheii is my very first oc (2016), then comes his bestfriends (2018), Xavier and Akari (xavier's gf). but for now, i will be yapping about the boys!

these drawings are from 2020-2022??? i don't remember :'-) it's been a while.

i hope you can see by their outfits... guess who is the wild child lmao (it's xavier)

xavier is like. the love child of ghost and soap (at least to me!!!) his body is decorated with scars because of childhood trauma but he is also energetic and loud (coping mechanism). a little ghostsoap coded don't you think? 💀🧼

also his undercut reminds me of soap... i thought of giving him a mohawk too before. purposely wear ugly colours just to spite people when actually he felt pity for the colours.

loves to fight, it gave him an adrenaline rush and dopamine because my guy's insane and depressed. yes he got daddy and mommy issues :O touch-starved and will cry for being praised.

the mom left them with no goodbye first. then, his glasgow smile was caused by his hot-temper-alcoholic dad with a kitchen knife. he was only 12 years old :-/

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"Little fucker, since you like smiling and shit, I'll give you one," His dad grinned widely, breathing raggedly as he carved his son's face with the knife. Xavier's bloodcurdling scream made the house door to be kicked open by their neighbours and Cheii.

Cheii rushed towards Xavier who was helplessly sobbing on the floor, begging for his mom. His heart bleeds for Xavier. All he could do was hold his hands and cry with him. Saying his sorry for being too late as the guilt ate him from the inside.

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my dear cheii is probably closed to my headcanon ghost's personality. quiet, observant, tolerates with his circle ONLY. no smile kind of guy but secretly the sweetest, kindest little bean <333 he is no words, ALL action.

he is like the good student turn bad??? because he saw how free xavier is living his teenage life without the pressure of good expectations. not a delinquent but definitely can fight, prefer not to but had to (because of xavier) oh yeah, he surely developed savior complex because of that certain someone lol

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xavier is bisexual while cheii is asexual/demisexual (wow literally my hc for soap and ghost and i think that's cool)

their relationship is definitely platonic. but soulmate. brothers for life. i-would-die-for-you kind of relationship. nothing sexual but they definitely kissed each other before (they felt nothing!)

uh i gave xavier the most trauma for "character development" so he is the most special and precious to me. you can say that cheii is like the "second male lead"... loved by all (it's just me) but kinda mediocre???? he is too... indifferent... hmmm

that's all i wanted to show hehe sorry if it was all over the place :^}

#s3rrrOC #oc art #my ocs

[chemzee]

How likely are hpma characters to die tierlist yay!!!

since Y4 is on the horizon, it's about time I post this silly lil tierlist I did a long time ago and explain my reasonings behind it. Unlike the dating option tierlist, this one is purely intuitive and there isn't any hard logic or facts behind it, it's just the vibes, basically.

(most of these are speculated to die due to a sacrifice and the last tier is more of a half joke, but I'll explain later)

You're free to disagree with me ofc and if you have any thoughts or your own personal theories, feel free to share! :D

Edit: just in case, please remember that this is just a theory and speculations based on pure intuition and I could be very wrong about all of this and your fav or just nobody in general will die. I did this tierlist for fun and fun only.

MOST LIKELY

This tier is for non companion characters only, as I believe companion characters, in their majority, are not going to die at all (aka anyone below likely tier is most likely safe). Out of all characters that appeared in the storyline, these 3 give off the biggest death flags.

Elliot: he's an antagonist so it already means he's more likely to die hsdakd. But on more serious note, I feel like his personality and especially his life philosophy are what would lead him to his demise. Or to his arrest. It's either of these two,really.

Esme: as much as this one would hurt like hell, it's also a likely possibility. She was already used as a plot point for Daniel and his arc, her getting hospitalized and with high chance of being permanently damaged leaves me to believe the story killing her off isn't too far fetched. Just another way to traumatize Daniel, basically. CRossing my fingers that it aint gonna happen tho.

Winifred: same reasoning as for Esme, she's got a high chance of dying for sake of Ivy's arc. She was already kinda "killed off" after she accidentally evanesco-ed herself, so high chances are, she will die for real or she'll accidentally kill or seriously injure someone. A part of me feels that the twins,most likely, would not have a happy ending, with Winnie either being killed off or something else terrible happening to her. Perhaps she'll sacrifice herself for Ivy.

LIKELY

Here we start with the companion characters. As I mentioned earlier, I highly doubt anyone below this tier will die, but there's still a possibility I can't deny.

Colby and Fischer, however, are the exception, to me personally. And my bet is it's going to be one of the two, rather than two of them together. Given how in one of the interviews it's mentioned the twins's relationship would become more tense and distant at some point in the story, I feel like one of them dying would be a pretty likely outcome, for sake of development of the other twin and Cassandra. I suspect a sacrifice.

Question is, which of the twins it's gonna be. My bet is on Fischer, mostly because of how I suspect Colby's development is going to go, but Colby can still be the unlucky one lol.

HIGH POSSIBILITY

aka not really. If anything, I doubt these characters are going to die. But if anyone out of rest of companions will face death in the storyline, these 3 are the most likely.

Daniel: Daniel is...well, Daniel. He's a loyal friend, someone who's described to never betray those he holds dear and we've seen him be really protective of his friends and family, deliberately putting himself in danger to save those he loves, especially during Y3. I smell sacrifice, likely for sake for MC and Ivy. Or one of his family members. Or- ok I'll stop here.

Ivy: pretty much the same reasoning like the one behind Daniel, her sacrificing herself for sake of MC, Daniel or Winnie. She too, is a loyal and protective friend, someone who hates injustices or bullies, willing to break rules for her friends, so again, I can smell a potential sacrifice. Or it's her anger issues and impulsivity that are going to lead her to her demise. But I feel like she has less chances than Daniel though.

Kevin: falls off his broom and dies lol. Ok on serious note, I can,sorta, imagine a "final stage of his character development" scenario where he becomes brave enough to be able to defend himself and his friends, especially Robyn. And, in the end, sacrifices himself for her. I doubt it would happen tho but it's still a possibility. But a lot less likely than the rest of the characters.

HARD TO SAY

Self explanatory, I can see them dying, especially Cass, but I don't think it'll happen. Mostly because I don't see why would they be killed off, other than for shock. So it may or may not, again, hard to say.

Robyn: ehh, given her personality, her dying kinda makes sense but storywise why would they kill her off? I mean, she could die for Kevin's character development, but Kevin dying kinda makes more sense to me personally.

Cassandra: I actually wanted to put her in the tier list above, because I can see her dying after her redemption arc while protecting someone, you know, another noble death/sacrifice scenario. But like. I dunno, she doesn't strike me as someone who'd die because like,what for? Her personality also doesn't give me any reason to believe she'll die, unless someone would try to kill her, but she's confrmed to have a redemtion arc so I doubt the attempt would be successful. It makes a lot more sense to keep her alive from narrative perspective. I think, at least.

LIKELY NOT

Lottie: game constantly ignores her existence so she will escape claws of death thanks to neglect writers give her/jjj. Ok in all seriousness, she literally has no reason to be killed off. Like. What for? Shock value is the only reason I can think of and I doubt they would go that route. She's safe, most likely.

MC TIER

bc of how often HPMA storyline parallels or straight up copies the original HP plot, a silly part of me thinks there would be a scene in like, Y7, where MC would have a false death moment. As in, either die and resurrect (I highly doubt tho despite the tier being called that (I did think that while making it tho but I changed my mind)) or they would appear dead but in reality, they were alive all along. Or they would recieve a very bad, potentially lethal injury, but would survive. I could be wrong tho ofc but a part of me feels like that's kind of a route they'd go with.

Doubt they'd kill off the player character fr lmao

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ANYWAY this was longer than I thought it would be lol THANKS A LOT to everyone who read until the end hehehe :3

#ok time to tag OH BOY #hpma theory #magic awakened #chemzee rambles lmao #hpma elliot #elliot evers #hpma esme #esme page #hpma winifred #hpma winnie #winifred warrington #winnie warrington #hpma colby #colby frey #hpma fischer #fischer frey #hpma daniel #daniel page #hpma ivy #ivy warrington #hpma kevin #kevin farrell #hpma robyn #robyn thistlethwaite #hpma cassandra #cassandra vole #hpma lottie #lottie turner #hpma mc #tw death

[epiphainie]

i think a very tasty flavor of bucktommy angst would be a situation where there's a big emergency, maybe their apartment building is on fire or the hotel they're staying in is about to explode and it needs to be evacuated immediately. the two of them - immediately in lifesaver mode - quickly get everyone off the premises and barely make it out alive themselves.

then they realize someone is missing (an elderly neighbor who got stuck? a child they met during vacation whom buck bonded with?) and buck being buck wants to run back in and save them but the chances of him making it in and back again is extremely extremely slim and tommy sees this. so he doesn't let him.

like he physically holds buck back as buck tries to move in and buck immediately starts trying to fight him off and tommy does not let him go and they both begin screaming and shouting in each other's faces. it only lasts mere seconds, though, because during their struggle, the building actually goes boom. a loud bang, then the silence of the aftermath sets in.

this, of course, puts a strain on their relationship.

no, worse. this ruins their relationship.

because for months after this - months - they live in this perpetual feeling of grief and malaise and it turns their world upside its own head.

they're talking but not really. nothing more than mumbles of "how was your shift?" and "can you pass me the salt?"

they're touching but not really, a handjob here and there then lights off and their backs to each other.

they're tiptoeing around each other; they never ever tiptoe around each other.

it all is so foreign to them, so alien.

buck, of course, is wracked with guilt. how could he not be? he was right there when someone in danger needed his help, and he couldn't. he was right. there. he feels upset, no, he feels tormented. he's so angry with himself because it's his fault, isn't it, for missing the child the first time? children get stuck in the most unexpected places, after all, so why did he not check the room again? why did he not do a head count?

anger with himself, however, is familiar. guilt? he's experienced plenty of that too. no, the worst is the bitterness he feels. he feels oh so bitter, with resentment set deep in his chest, because how could tommy not let him do his job? how could tommy - who's always been respectful of buck's wishes and who knows just how desperately that child needed saving - dare hold him back and take this choice from him?

tommy, of course, does not regret it. he tells himself that every day because how could he regret keeping buck safe? it wasn't even a choice of buck's life over a kid's, tommy knows this, because there was no choice, not really. there was no way for buck to get the kid and get back to tommy safe and sound. he'd die, within seconds, in his reckless impossible attempt, and tommy knows this, and he. does. not. regret. it.

but it starts to fall on his own deaf ears as days pass and he sees his evan become even more withdrawn, torturing himself over someone who couldn't be saved. and the distance between them becomes wider, the cold snap even more sharper, and they're walking on eggshells around each other as it feels like one wrong move could bring everything down.

turns out, they need to break the eggshells to finally crack the ice. they realize this on a random, particularly cold night. neither can stand it anymore and at one point that icy pressure turns into screams of "why did you have to stop me?!" "you couldn't have helped him!" "you should have still let me do my job!" "it wasn't your job! and i wasn't gonna let you get yourself killed on our damn honeymoon!"

again, a loud bang. then the silence sets in.

then, for the first time in months, they find themselves actually in each other's space, reaching for the other. their chests rise and fall against each other as their arms find a hold on the other's back, shoulders, neck in desperation and they actually cry and talk and apologize and cry some more. it gets better.

#they actually process all this with a therapist i promise #at one point i got really committed to the idea of a lost child and this being their honeymoon #bucktommy #tevan #kinley #911 #911 abc #911 fic #spxcekya

[gyougherea]

crp/mh pride hcs

got inspired by a mutual (the-s1lly-corner) <3 i wanna have a silly post about my silly guys. under cut bc i might get long

jeff the killer

jeff feels very greyrom/aro bisexual to me, i think he "prefers" women because he doesn't wanna admit he's bisexual at first. idk if he explicitly uses the greyrom label or anything but it describes him pretty well. he/him

liu woods / homicidal liu

can we give it up for TRANSHETS!!!!!!! realized he was trans (ftm) at a young age, didn't get to transition until adulthood because the only family who supported him was jeff. mainly to hide from his past he's also stealth about being transgender. he/him

sully (liu's cohost and protector) is arohet i think? idk haven't thought much but i do think liu and sully have slightly different seuxalities. it/he (EDIT: its sexuality is also influenced by the fact that it's an introject of jeff)

jane the killer

lesbian and also trans mtf!!! transbian jane epic win. i think she knew for a while that she was a lesbian and then also realized she was trans in high school as she was going further through puberty. i think she's femme lesbian specifically??? she/her

nina the killer

bisexual (initially had a pref for women, now just has a pref for the glasgow killer, aka jeff), cis girl but LOOOOOVES experimenting with pronouns!!! she/her default but PLEASE use neopronouns on her she would literally die for you if you got wacky with it

ben drowned

even if he wasn't ethereally both 12 and 32 he would still 100% be aroace. that shit does not intrigue him! he also uses he/they pronouns, maybe it/its. lost their gender in the whole becoming a computer shit

ticci toby

transmasc nonbinary, biromantic asexual! he/him pronouns specifically, despite not being a man he really leans into masculine terms and also even is on T and gave himself top surgery! yes. to himself. don't ask. it looks awful. world's worst top surgery scars award

clockwork

she/her. not butch not femme but a secret third thing (the butchest lesbian twitter can handle before getting scared /ref)

tim wright (two hcs)

normal hc is that he's biromantic aceflux! he doesn't really have a preference, frankly he's nervous about entering a serious relationship regardless of gender. his asexuality is kind of a roulette; he also probably falls between sex-neutral and sex-repulsed. he/him

"my house now" hc is that he's an intersex butch lesbian (not sure which exact intersex disorder but one of the ones i'm debating is something with 46,xx dsd?) that doesn't care about gender but uses he/him and masc terms because someone called him that and he was like "why not lol". he/him but frankly not offended if any other pronouns used

masky uses he/they in the first hc, it/its in the second hc

brian thomas (two hcs)

normal hc is that he's a gay man! discovered he was gay pretty early on in life and was probably tim's unofficial bisexual awakening back in college. very open about his identity, he's like the queer beacon in my eyes. he/him

"my house now" hc is that he's a lesbian and trans mtf! for the longest time she thought she was a bisexual man, but then in her late 20s to early 30s realized that not only did she feel like One Of The Girls(TM) but also that the only "man" she was attracted to was tim, who's not a man, so whoops! transbian time! she/her

hoodie uses he/it in the first hc, it/they in the second hc

jay merrick

trans ftm and bisexual! went on T but hasn't gotten top or bottom surgery before becoming the nefarious skully or whatever. cracked his egg in college, but probably figured out he was biseuxal in high school. he/him

skully uses no labels just vibes. queer/abrosexual and genderfluid are probably the labels that best describe them but again they don't fucking care. they/them default but sometimes uses others depending on which of their "many" are at the forefront

jessica locke

now if that's not the biggest lesbian i have ever seen in my life... her and taylor absolutely get married in lesbians after the comics are over. jessica probably always knew she didn't like boys but didn't realize she liked girls until a fateful sleepover in middle school or something. she/her

nothing specific for the others rn, might make a part 2 if i come up with more <3 adios

#jay's jots #pride headcanons #creepypasta #marble hornets #jeff the killer #homicidal liu #jane the killer #nina the killer #clockwork #ben drowned #ticci toby #tim wright #masky #brian thomas #hoodie #jay merrick #skully #jessica locke

[sheilaerinniperonista]

I can't see fugo dating a girl I don't want that to happen to any girl

#fugo.txt #i love him but that shouldn't happen he'd suck about it #he'd be a shit boyfriend or have that legosi complex where he tries to be good via doing massive things you never asked him to do #sorry im a Sheila fan and the few fanfics for her that are readable have fugo as her boyfriend and. that relationship would suck brother #someone would die if they got in a relationship

[mossywizard]

You might be winning in, real things. But do you have 100 approval with a goofy wizard man? And 83 with the sweetest axe swinger? And 15 with the snarky vampire don’t worry about that

#HE STILL HASNT KISSED ME THO #GALE YOU GOOFY ASS #WYLL TRIED BEFORE HIM #AND WYLL HASNT BEEN IN MY PARTY FOR A HOT MINUTE #tho I do love Wyll so so much I felt terrible not kissing him #but a relationship cannot be two goobs who would die for the world. it would rock until one of them Dies or they both do in the same event #someone needs to be rational #Gale got the int I got the wis #wiz cheeses him #bg3

[separatismor]

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#idg the ppl who make fun of ppl who label bullying as a trauma #my mum was bashed every day at school as a kid #then had to go home to deal with religious/cult brainwashing #i was bullied during 'no tolerance' beginnings so they just learned to jab at my appearance and ostracize me #im still deeply affected to the point where i cant form relationships without feeling on some subconscious level #that im actually being manipulated #and then i do end up getting manipulated #(there was other bullying going on but that was 95% of what they found they could get away with) #so basically im rly struggling with still feeling like a joke and like im someone whose only worth is to be fucked with in every conceivable #way as i hold no value in being seen as beautiful or lovable or likable or smart or funny or a complete person #because basically 90% of the people whove been in my life have treated me with active hostility #the other ten percent include people who were paid to not be hostile #one person out of all ive gone on more than one date with #and three friends i have now #only one of whom is willing to emotionally support me when im telling them IM STRUGGLING #anyway bullying solidified that i was a worthless pos to everyone on the planet and i dont know what kind of charmed #life these ppl have lived to not have bullying be the piss flavoured icing on the shit flavoured cake that was their childhood #okay the bullying got so bad for me that i ended up going thru psych abuse further familial abuse #a really shitty 'friendship' i had which futuer entrenched how worthless i was #which made me anthropophobic which was an horrific nightmare #i barely left the house for almost 7 years!!!! #THIS is why pplthink theyre autistic #no actually im just deeply confused as to why you would ever tell me the truth about anything #as i KNOW that im worthless and should die #the shits who laugh at bullying being considered a trauma to some come off as tho yhey were a bully...

[hauntingblue]

NAMI NEEDS TO GO UP THERE AND FIGHT BIG MOM I AM SO SERIOUS!!! THIS IS A BATTLE FOR THE ROMANCE DOWN TRIO!! SANJI DO NOT DARE TAKE HER SPOT!!!

#big mom just giving birth here on the battlefield..... #do i comment on the incestuous relationship between clouds made of the same soul??? no?? okay... #oh jesus.... goodbye kid and killer.... nami needs to get up there and take control of zeus and i am so serious #HER SKILL IS SO POWERFUL AND SO PERFECT FOR THIS FIGHT AGAINST BIG MOM BUT BECAUSE SHE IS NOT PART OF THE STRONG TRIO SHE GETS STUCK WITH #THE B LIST VILLAINS!!!! LKKE WHY DOES SHE NEED TO FIGHT ULTI?? OKAY THAT WAS MEANINGFUL BUT THAT COULD END THERE!!!! #SANJI GO FIGHT PAGE ONE!!! SOMEONE TAKE CARE OF ULTI AND LET LUFFY ZORO AND NAMI TAKE CARE OF KAIDO AND BIG MOM!!! I AM SERIOUS!!! #big mom is inside the castle.... maybe i will get my wish granted (kinda...) #kid and nami against big mom.... maybe sanji can join... i can see it so clearly.... come on now..... #if namo knew armor haki she would have gone up there and taken zeus and dealt with prometheus and his sister wife. let the others w/ big mom #fucking hawkins... end him killer.... calling him domesticated lmao... end his pathetic ass #using conqueror's haki on the weapons..... also zoro having it too.... the flower petals symbolism..... OHHHHHHHHH #nani indeed...... BREAK THAT MACE!!!! YEAAHHH!!!! law is completely baffled #KAIDO GOT SENT BACK!!!! LETSGOOOOO AND THE OG INTRO MUSIC QUICKS IN!!!! law just saw god again.... #he said fuck off i got this.... omg.... he is either gonna nearly die and doesn't want them to follow or doesn't want to worry about them #while he fights and they try to defend him.... no other explaination (apart for 4 the plot reasons) #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1028 #luffy king of everything that was such a slay #they changed luffy chiquito's design.... #i was gonna say luffy swimming...... but he can't yet akdhajsj #yasopp taking care of everyones children but his own...... i see how it is.... #WHY WOULD SHANKS STAY IN GOA IF NOT TO TALK WITH GARP WHO LIVES THERE!!! I AM TELLING YOU SHANKS IS IN KAHOOTS WITH THE MARINES!!!! #i was thinking about shanks scar... and thought it might be from buggy with his three knives in between his fingers you know #but it is too small... like the knives would take more space.... but maybei might be reaching and it is from buggy and not like a little paw #or little hand.... however much distrubing you want to paint it.... #shanks is testing little luffy's intelligence... he knows his weak spot already akdhjasj #uta calling herself a diva.... ajshaksn might this be the reason luffy was so inclined to having a musician since the start??? #episode 1029 #that was like a perfectly realistic relationship between an older smartass girl and a younger boy lmao it was spot on

[ember-not-amber]

Monty and Jasper should have been a couple, they had more chemistry and would make more sense as a couple. Their relationships with women were so boring and the way they were written (their relationships with women) just didn’t give me a reason to care about them or root for their relationship. Harper came out of nowhere in season 4 like we had barely seen her in the earlier seasons and she’s not even a main character so we don’t see why she and Monty would like each other. I hope that will be cleared up in the books bc I’m planning to read them and I’m hoping this is just the show fucking up details in the books.

Monty x Jasper would be the childhood friends to lovers trope and it just makes sense bc as viewers we’ve seen them have more interactions than they have had with their female love interests. LET THEM BE GAY!! GIVE US MORE THAN CLARKE BEING SAPPHIC I WANNA SEE THESE MEN KISS!

#original post #the 100 #jasper jordan #monty green #I found it difficult to root for Monty and Harper bc she barely had any speaking lines until season 4 so Idk why I should care about her or #why Monty cares about her. I definitely would have rooted for them if she got more speaking lines in the seasons before S4 bc then I would #know more about her as a character #I’m a straight girl and I usually like straight couples bc I can mentally insert myself into it #but not when one of the characters hasn’t been around long enough for me to know anything about them and they seemingly come out of nowhere #I also didn’t really care for Maya bc she was from Mount Weather and didn’t fully understand Jasper’s life as someone living on the Ark and #then being sent down to Earth as part of the 100 and having to fight Grounders and watch his friends die and having to bury them #like it’s just a whole experience that someone would have to be there in order to bond with that person #but sometimes maybe that’s what a person needs is someone who doesn’t know a life like that so that they can finally live a normal #fulfilling life with no more death and fighting to survive just pure living #but even so I still found their relationship boring and I didn’t really like Maya #and I feel like Jasper and Monty would make a better couple #the 100 fandom

[hirokiyuu]

unrelated to anything i do think the idea of anne+besk being........ not childhood friends necessarily but having known each other since they were little. is fun. i think they would give each other spectacular brain diseases

#iirc theyre the same age? so it would track i think #i think the vibe i would go for would be like. theyre not friends theyre classmates u kno #but theyre definitely Aware of each other #and i think anne getting on the ship and being like. besk we should be friends bc of this! :) #and they are friends now! :) #and more importantly they have a patient/therapist relationship so like. they are not actually friends #but anne thinks they are friends :) and besk is there like. h #sorry im thinking now again abt how fucking damaging it had to be for besk to be the ONLY THERAPIST ON THE SHIP #that cant have been it. i refuse to believe this. there was another and he died #this is my theory i believe it until i die #a sixteen year old girl could NOT have been the ONLY mental health specialist on this ship #i refuse. i refuse. i refuse. there was someone else and he died in an accident and THEN it was besk's problem #but they didnt LEAVE w/just her. i refuse to believe it it makes NO SENSE #i got distracted. anyways #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #teenexo stuff

[lesbianyosano]

still thinking abt dazais last line this chapter i feel like throwing up ngl

#he cant die right??? right???? #i wanna think it makes no sense for his story/character arc but idkkk #bc on one hand his story should be abt finding a reason to keep living #but this isnt suicide hes sacrificing himself to save someone else #hes fullfilling his promise!!! hes on the side that saves people!!! #but also its not like the story is really wrapping up #and ig this depends on how you look at chapter 101 #on whether that really was a last goodbye/a conclusion to their relationship #but also what abt atsushi?????? they never got to say goodbye #but atsushi has been seeing him instead of the directors #im losing it and i just know were getting airport pov next month #but god can you imagine if dazai actually dies????? the havoc this would cause #txt. #somebody pls pls reassure me lets form a prayer circle or sth

[infizero]

thinking about dl!scar makes me sad for many reasons but one of the worst is thinking about him knowing far too well that grian is unhappy with him and just having to live with that

#they make my brain melt. and srry in advance cause what im about to say is like mainly the shit i made up but bear w me #anyways #like. scar loves him. and grian makes it very obvious that he isnt happy being soulmates with him #and scar just has to go around knowing that. he doesnt WANT grian to be unhappy but there isnt anything he can really do about it #he didnt make them be soulmates #and yet he gets punished for it anyway as if its his fault #also notice i never said grian doesnt love him. its the soulmate thing he doesnt like #maybe if it had been someone else he had been paired with #but with it being scar its just. he cant go thru that again. he is still in that damn cactus ring and now he is literally being forced to #basically do that all over again. with the added bonus of being RESPONSIBLE FOR IF SCAR DIES which is like erm. #the WHOLE crux of why 3rd life fucked him up #i do think grian loves scar but. he loved him once and it ended in tragedy. and he just cant do that again #thats why i believe he distances himself so much from scar in double life #also i will always champion that grian would literally rather die than be forced into a monogamous relationship which is..... #basically what DL is lmao. (3L is different cause despite initially being forced to serve scar he CHOSE to love him) #so add that plus extremely complicated feelings ft. trauma concerning scar equals yeah that mf is gettin outta there!! #btw this is not at all to excuse him if u guys know me you know when it comes to life series grian i HATE HIS ASS!!! #he couldve talked to scar about this. maybe they could have worked something out! but instead he decided to be shady and inconsiderate #anyways GETTING BACK TO WHAT I WAS ORIGINALLY SAYING. #i just think about how hard it'd be to be scar in DL. like you have been forcibly paired up with the guy you love and got lowkey betrayed by #in LL (but you betrayed him too once so does it really matter? and does the bond you forged in the desert really carry over?) #and yeah you're a little annoyed and hurt he kept it from you for that long. but you're ready to work together again #it's just like back then and its great! after all you never really left monopoly mountain. but the problem is he never left the cactus ring #even though you never held it against him. it always affected him more than you didnt it? you seemed to have far different takeaways from 3L #and so now you're sitting in a patch of bamboo feeling like a useless burden (because that is what he keeps treating you as) #and you havent seen your so-called ''soulmate'' in a day #and when you do its like whatever happiness was on his face dies out and he is so painfully unhappy around you #and you both pretend there isn't a smudge of chocolate and crumbs around his mouth #serena.txt #sorry. my demons

[justtogetthrough]

Look I know humans need to be individually strong and able to function independently etc and stuff but also humans evolved to be in groups too and I don't have a group, I've spent 95% of my life without a group, and I just so desperately want someone to be as attached to me as I am to them. I have spent my whole life lonely by myself on the outside looking in and I don't want to be here anymore. I've experienced what it felt like to be inside a group now and this loneliness feels even worse now that I know what it felt like to belong.

#im starting to miss my toxic and abusive relationship bc even though it had the lowest of lows and i got the most stitches ive ever got #it was still the only few years i felt happy to be alive. i had a community. a found family. #the lowest of lows brought the highest of highs and i would pay that price again to feel loved and cared about. #my therapist made me promise I'll stay alive til we meet again next week and its like oh. here we are again i guess. #if i hadnt just moved 1.5 hours away id probably hit up my ex and be like hey. im back. lets do this again. #this is why i moved though. to prevent going back to that life because i know deep down i want to. #the lowest of lows.... but also the only moments in 32 years i ever felt glad to be alive. #i need someone to pay a lot of attention to me and the person whos been able to partially do this is now pulling away #and my clingyness. my bpd. is like. i need someone new. but new people are scary. so why not my ex #why not the mother of my kid who ruins every life she touches. who ruined me mentally emotionally sexually. #when we werent fighting she made me feel so special and loved #when we were fighting i onc got 107 stitches in one arm #i cant go back. but. the only times ive ever felt good were the in-betweens of those lowest of lows. #im in a really bad place and my one irl friend cant give me what i need and so i just want to die #personal #cw suicide #cw cutting #actuallyborderline #actuallytraumatized #bpdfeels

[neverendingford]

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#was talking about sex with a friend and I came up with the perfect way to explain how I think about sex. #I was like “it's like if sex had redstone mechanics” and I think he got it but no one else I've told has understood. #anyway. I just. idk. the mechanics. the dynamics. the input versus the outcome. you can do it efficiently or you can make it fun. #there's so many ways this metaphor works. ugh. we vibe though and I'm glad I got the chance to see him again. #holding hands while lying on the shed roof talking about personal shit as the sun sets. peak vibes #literally the one person irl who really gets me when I go off about how we need more platonic intimacy. #friends were designed to cuddle on the bed and stroke each other's hair and hold hands and kiss each other. platonic intimacy you get me? #idk. I guess not everyone has a decoupled relationship with sex and romance. but like. ughhhh #why can't I just promise to love and support and die for someone without it needing to be romantic. #why can't I have the closest most intimate relationship possible with someone without it being romantic. #in this moment I would die for you but we won't speak again for three months. #why can't things just make sense like they do when the sun bleeds orange across the clouds and you rest your head in his lap

[llycaons]

actually forget about the immaturity and the inability to control his anger and the tendancy to be manipulated. jc would fucking suck as a chief cultivator because he consistently and demonstrably does not care about people outside his circle and he actively encourages his sect members to abandon them when they're in danger. this is something I actually understand for his situation, but it's not really a quality I want in a leader of the entire cultivation world!

#obvs no character is perfect and there was a fucking war going on #but wwx wanted to help lwj who was a badly injured SECT HEIR and jc told him to forget it and just focus on himself #1. he's okay with letting people who he personally doesn't care about die #2. he can't conceive of broader political implications as soon as something that emotionally impacts him is involved #but sure....the guy who yelled at a refugee toddler is going to be a great leader and really stand up for the weak and vulnerable 🙄 #and he blames wwx for his parents in the modern day arc as well. he simply cannot move on from it and his judgement is severely impaired #by his emotional connection to the events #not a person I would want in charge! #in the novel I know people were terrified of him and didn't ask for his help even when they needed it #and it's never shown in the drama but I can believe it #I don't think sis and bicao went to him specifically I think they just went where all the sect leaders were #again. understandable for someone who went through what he went through. he's an amazing character. but that doesn't mean he would do well #in that position. can you imagine him trying to put the souls of the fleeing wens to rest like wwx and lwj did. can you imagine him #speaking up against the majority in defense of a poor or underdefended part of the country #can you imagine him forming relationships with any of the people he's leading or ruling over who aren't in the jiang sect #tbf I don't think many people are qualified for this bc we also don't really know what it entails but there has GOT to be better choices #than him #cql txp