#someone tell me i’m hot

[ghost-proofbaby]

thinking about getting hot chocolate and going to look at christmas lights with eddie.

it all would definitely start because you guys have run out of the hot cocoa supplies at home, and eddie will find any excuse to go and get some from your favorite local coffee shop. it just tastes better from there, he always claims (and he says the same thing about you making it for him at home). thinking about the way you both end up with whipped cream mustaches, sweetened upper lips with tongues covered in chocolate as you get back in his van, all bundled up and clinging to your warm cups for a sliver of reprieve from the cold december outside. you’d assume you’re just going to return home, until eddie starts to take a detour in the drive and oh no how did we end up in this fancy neighborhood where everyone has extravagant decorations? oh well!

he knew exactly what he was doing, though. he just wanted to watch you watch the lights. the way your eyes get all wild, the way your grin is so youthful and just brimming with whimsical excitement. the way you get so extraordinarily excited over something that should be mundane after living through 20+ christmases. all these houses do this every year — the two of you make the same detour every single year. it shouldn’t all be so new to you; and yet you always react like it is, drinking it in like it’s the first time you’ve tasted milk chocolate frothing with melted whipped cream and it’s the first time you’ve ever seen shining lights that resemble icicles dripping from rooftops. and the entire time, he’s looking at you like it’s the first time. the first time he’s laid eyes on you, the first time he’s wanted to kiss your lips so badly his own start to ache, the first time he’s ever seen the color green reflected in someone’s iris just right.

every time he takes you, it’s like he’s getting to fall in love with you all over again. he loves it — he loves you.

the only difference as the years go by is the way you look at him, each year with more fondness he didn’t think was possible. for every excited gasp you let out at reindeers made of crystal lights and blow up santas swaying in the unforgiving wind, you’re looking at him with double the warmth, double the love, double the awe.

he hits nearly every mailbox. several cars are nearly victim to a terrible scraping from his van. he swerves all over neighborhood roads just to keep his eyes on you.

“why are you looking at me like that, munson?”

it feels like the first time you’ve ever said his name, too.

“just enjoying the sights,” he’d whisper, smiling so gently and subtly, taking his foot off the gas and letting the van crawl a lil bit slower so you can gaze at the next house a lil longer.

and when you twist up your face, his heart clenches in time with the twitch of your nose.

“the sights? you’re not even looking out your window at the lights-“

and unlike the first time he took you around to see the lights, to begin this new sacred tradition, he kisses you. leans right over his center console, takes your face in his heated palms, and presses his lips to yours till he can’t tell if the caramel drizzle he’s tasting is from your hot cocoa or his. let’s the icy tip of your nose smash against his. let’s your scarf unravel from around your neck as he brings you in closer.

you might always love the christmas likes like they’re something brand new, a sight to behold, a magic to be held, but he’ll always love you like that. and then some.

#don’t mind me just word vomiting about christmas and eddie #i want someone to be so in love with me that they see more magic in my reaction than in the sights #i want someone who makes the holidays feel like holidays again #something warm and something sacred and something so caring it makes your teeth rot #eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #i’m just thinkin idk #i just got off my shift from making an insane amount of hot chocolates can you tell

[httpiastri]

i suddenly forgot how to breathe

#sitting in glass and trying to breathe properly #we have a guest lecturer and she’s extremely boring so tbh this saved me #but oh my GOD #the neck???? in a shirt like this….. okay #necklaces :(((( so sweet (and hot) #and the bracelet :( and his hand and the way he holds the glass and just- #no i’m not overreacting #someone please tell me i’m not overreacting #i love love love when he’s got his broccoli hair all curled up and huge but #this is also so sweet 🥺🥺🥺 when it’s more flat #just the tips curled up #i love it #his nose 😵😵 #okay i shouldn’t be on my phone in class bye #f2 #f3 #paul aron

[luobingmeis]

my jgy thoughts have been expanding and adapting and roiling and toiling etc etc etc and all of it is coming down to me affectionately marveling at this character. he’s cut-throat. he’s cunning. his kindness leaves lasting impressions. his mercy is what predates his demise. he’s one of the few cultivators who helps those in need. he will sacrifice them if it benefits him. he loved. it didn’t last. it killed him. it orchestrated his downfall. he’s a genius. he’s paranoid. he compartmentalizes. he splits the world into who he would sacrifice and who he would not. people he loves and people he would sacrifice are not mutually exclusive. he’s filial to a fault. it was all for his mother. he is a study in assimilating to survive. the results vary. he manipulates the herd mentality to his benefit. it is turned against him. he is killed for the one thing he didn’t do by the one person he wouldn’t sacrifice. it is still somehow better than what the hive-mind cultivation world would have done. i love this tragic kaleidoscope of a character.

#this was sparked out of my love for jgy #my in-the-tags hot take is that i am just increasingly bored by unironic jgy did nothing wrong takes adfksks #like the statements that he is a victim and he has done helpful things and he has done harmful things. are also not mutually exclusive! #and i think that makes him fun :] #if jgy wasn’t a little fucked up he’d be boring #like it’s /fun/ to me that imo he was overtly targeted by nmj #but nmj was also like the last like of defense before the jins completely abused their power #like! we love duality. we love contradictions #i won’t even say ‘ask me abt how jgy views the concept of hurt’ bc i’m gonna tell you! #i personally believe that he was being honest when he said lxc was the one person he didn’t want to hurt #i just also believe that he doesn’t see the things he has done #namely the use of the fucked up song of clarity #as things that would hurt lxc #bc they weren’t done /to/ him! #lxc was just a pawn in that moment #and while i believe that jgy most of the time did not. pawn-ify. lxc #by taking the song of clarity (something entrusted to him by lxc) #and using it to kill nmj (someone jgy cared abt) #that hurts lxc! #i feel embarrassed i was like ‘let u tell me u my big jgy thesis paper’ and idk if it landed #but i feel like jgy sees ‘hurt’ as what is done to you #not what happens around you

[lawbreaker13]

Flaming hot take, but not every movie or TV show needs to hit every individual diversity mark to be a good movie or show?

Like, please understand, I very much get the concept of intersectionality, and I know the actual statistics of minorities’ presence in the world and there is a whole lot of overlap that would be nice to see realistically portrayed in the media but it’s just like. Sometimes a story is just…A story. It’s one person’s story. And it doesn’t need to hit some specific diversity quota to be a good story.

Accept the movies about Latin people as a movie about Latin people. Accept the queer representation as queer representation. Take the story about the disabled person for what it is. But if it’s a story about a queer couple facing adversity, maybe don’t get up in arms about them not being the “right type” of queer for you. Wild idea? TELL THAT STORY YOURSELF.

Because sometimes that straight couple is dealing with other issues in their universe, and that’s why it’s not gay. Sometimes if you cast a black woman, that makes it a black story. And that Asian storyteller isn’t telling the story of a black woman. They’re telling their story.

So instead of getting mad that this isn’t the story YOU wanted to hear? Tell the story you wanted to hear. Because that one is theirs. And someone deserves to tell yours.

The diversity quota does as much of a disservice to storytelling as a lack of representation does. If you don’t resonate enough, make something we can resonate with more. Let us claim our stories as our own, and leave others to say what they want to say.

If we all tell our stories, I promise. Eventually you’ll find one just for you.

#Truly a sizzling hot take #I’m sorry #It’s just starting to piss me off #Like guys #I’m not the person to tell this black story #I can tell a neurodivergent story or a Jewish one #But I’m not qualified to tell a black story #Let someone else #Storytelling #Movies #TV #Television #Diversity #Representation #Individuality #Rant #Personal #Mine

[danswank]

no one gets to say i never went for it.

#drunk annoying hot alex is so funny in this video #i just love this scene #also good beat him up #it’s funny bc you know alex would not last two seconds in hell before someone beat him up this is a true story #alex gaskarth #jack barakat #rian dawson #atl #all time low #tell me i’m alive #tmia #atledit

[gothicprep]

I think the most depressing thing that’s happened in my life over the past couple of months is watching an otherwise intelligent friend descend into paranoia and conspiracy. maybe ex friend now, because I don’t feel all that inclined to talk to him these days, but it’s still sad to be a bystander to this who can’t help even if you try to intervene.

#something I’ve been trying to get better at as I’ve gotten older is trying to avoid situations that #spurn incredibly strong emotions in me that impair my social function. #it’s not fair to the people around me and it’s not fair to me either. i deserve better than treating myself like that #and I’m starting to wonder if how someone answers ‘how willing am I to pull my own pigtails’ is correlative with extreme paranoia #social behavior isn’t really my bag outside of being in the world and observing it yknow #but a common denominator here has definitely been seeing someone come to this crossroads #and just choosing to engage anyway instead of telling themselves ‘I need to remove myself from being… #…so fired up constantly. it’s starting to boil my brain.’ they just can’t quit it. #the best kind of evidence – white hot anecdote #but there’s something about this that does seem functionally similar to addiction. just in how compulsive it is. #is anger addiction possible? I guess that’s the burning question.

[syl-stormblessed]

easily one of my favorite things about Nocturne is that Richter is now from boston

#literally that’s so fucking funny #as someone who lives in the general boston area i’m INSANE over richter being from boston #you can’t tell me that my favorite belmont is from boston and expect me to be normal about it #it’s been a hot second since i played rondo of blood but i’m like 99% sure that he was NOT from boston in the game #me personally i think it’s hilarious and i love it #10/10 #vin speaks #castlevania #castlevania nocturne #castlevania spoilers #richter belmont

[facelessoldgargoyle]

this lady tabling for some doctor organization stopped me and my partners outside the target by saying we didn’t know about the org because we were so young, “like 20, 21?” and acted fake surprised when we told her our real ages and was like “what’s ur secret?” and robin went, “I don’t go outside.”

first of all, scream, they’re so funny. second of all, what kind of insane Instagram models is this lady hanging around with who get flattered when you assume they’re 5-10 years younger? that’s like, street magician level flattery.

#literally everyone tells me I’m hot get new material. tell my I look like someone whose father is proud of them. gender me correctly. lmao #op

[cream-and-tea]

pallas in book one is definitely at it-cannot-possibly-get-worse-than-this ABSOLUTE rock bottom but god. there is such a specific flavour to their despair in book two that only happens because of the realization they have at the end of lay me down. like. how do you move on after admitting that everything you believed in was a lie. how do you live with what you’ve done (with what has been done to you). is it possible to pull yourself up out of the pit you’ve dug. what do you do if it isn’t. what do you do if it IS. and once you look at the damage how do you stop looking. past the first layer of hurt there’s just more and more hurt and you were used by the one person who was supposed to keep you safe to cause even MORE pain and no matter how deep you go none of it means anything! it never meant anything at all!! motherfucker your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#pallas’s whole arc in the first book is getting to the point where they go ‘maybe i? feel bad about all this?? actually???’ #i cannot overstate enough that it takes an entire book to get them to that point lmao #and then it’s like. newsflash buddy now you’ve gotta DEAL with that #it really is the mental equivalent of getting into a hot bath of after being out in the cold for a whole day #and the interesting thing about pallas in the first book and their status as a villian and like. their eventual ‘oh SHIT’ moment #is that pallas doesn’t need to realize that they’re a bad person doing bad things #pallas is VERY aware that they are a bad person doing bad things #it’s actually more about realizing the harm that’s been done to them? like as a human being?? #bc they very much have the attitude of ‘well of course i’m doing bad things i was born as an inherently evil person there’s nothing else #i’m capable of doing the most i can hope for is that someone points me in the right direction and i’ll be able to do the hard things #that other people cannot (and SHOULD NOT) do’ #so THATS the mindset that needs to be unlearned before they can start moving forward? if that makes sense? #less ‘shit are we the baddies?’ and more ‘shit have i been horrifically abused?’ #but then after that realization all the blood they’ve spilled is still there. and they should never have had to do that. no one should ever #have to do that. but they did and now they’re starting to see the full extent of what that means #and they have to find a way to live with it. #and it’s absolutely DEVASTATING. #wip: ghost story #pallas #i’ve been working on the book two outline. if you couldn’t tell. head in absolute hands rn.

[kuja-kujaku]

none of you have any clue how happy I am to see fallout on all my social media again, I simply do not care how much spam of any one character there is. spam me more. post 90000 gifs of the show and the games, send me every Cooper post. I don’t care if he’s the most popular b’lorb de jour, I’m just glad to see ghouls get attention and I’m out here cheering on the sidelines for every character that gets even a glimmer of the spotlight. gimme all your art of random NPCs from the games idc how obscure they are. post those OCs and post them often. I’ve been in love with this franchise for SOOO long, seeing it be loved and enjoyed on such a massive scale just brings me infinite joy. show me your MtG fallout cards. tell me how you got into it, I don’t care if it was from 4 or 76 or 1 or New Vegas. or just the show. or maybe even the tabletop. no gatekeeping, no one-upping, just. enjoy. enjoy that we got a show that isn’t garbage. enjoy that there’s so many new people and show them around if you’re an old critter like me.

#gatekeepers? hello whoops I’ve exposed you to this silly little metal orb #don’t mind the flash you’ll be fine #drops my screwdriver while opening the demon core cutely #fallout #I’m quite cheesed abt all this I love fallout so much #Cooper Howard having an actor from Alabama that’s throwing on the accent is getting me #like you never hear southerners in the games much if at all #and hearing someone with a real accent and also being praised for it is just music to my ears #YES tell me my yeeyee ass accent is hot I’m absorbing it after decades of being mocked

[kyluxtrashpit]

Honestly I’m so frustrated with this stomach ulcer situation, because last weekend I had Plans, I was specifically going to Fight The Depression and Do Tasks and also Treat Myself to try and get out of the mental slump I’ve been in for a bit

And then none of that happened cause I was sick all weekend and my apartment is a mess (one of the Tasks) and I’m suddenly having to deal with an extremely limited diet (no food that can be considered a Treat is on the good list and neither are a lot of my staples, so I’m just getting down what I can) and while it is improving it’s still decidedly Not Great so really I’m just. Decomposing on the ground because I don’t feel good and I’m really not up to doing much but the thing is I was kinda already doing that before and I was actively trying to fix that but now it’s like. Every spoon I mustered to try to feel better is now devoted to dealing with being sick and a stomach ulcer takes like a fucking month (or more!!!!!) to heal. I’m deeply hoping the symptoms largely fade before that, so I can enjoy some of being alive, but god, like if I have to feel like this for an entire month (OR MORE!!!!!) like fuck what the hell, ibuprofen should not be legal if this is what it does to you

There’s absolutely nothing I can do about this aside from what I’m already doing (ultrasound is in a week so like. I hope that will give me a better idea of recovery time) but im just so tired of feeling Bad. I was feeling bad mentally for a while and I wanted to fix that! I was trying! But now all that’s been waylaid by feeling bad physically so I just have both Bads at the same time and what am I even supposed to do here

#and there’s just so many tiny frustrations #that like I wanted to deal with those! I’d planned to deal with those! #like cleaning up and figuring out why tf my apartment keeps getting so hot when it’s not really hot outside yet #and maybe doing something creatively fulfilling or continuing to enjoy video game #and now I’m like. no. we are laying on the floor and watching low effort repeats of stuff I know I like cause that’s all I can do #it’s just so stupid and unfair honestly #god pls someone tell me I will not be feeling this shitty for the next fucking month #(OR FUCKING MORE) #I already needed a win and instead I got fucking *this* #sorry needed to whine I’m just so frustrated #text #misc #shut up nerd

[upsidedownwithsteve]

I hope this doesn’t come off as rude but were you seriously complaining about your boyfriends family wanting to go to Disneyland again? I have a big family and I, too, totally get how it’s overwhelming (because frankly, I think the parks bring out a different side of people) but do you seriously prefer staying in on your vacation in another country to write fanfiction? Are you more of a homebody than an extrovert? Because, same!

I can assure you we readers don’t mind waiting for Simmer! You should be able to enjoy your vacation and not have to “waste” (It’s not a waste on your writing part. I’m just not sure how else to phrase it.) your time abroad.

Again, I mean no offense whatsoever and I deeply apologize if this comes off judgmental or inappropriate. I just don’t want you to regret using your time in Florida writing Simmer when you could’ve been making memories or trying new things! But, if you’re enjoying the writing process of Simmer than I’m sure you’re more than happy with what you’ve done so far! I do hope the rest of your trip is swell and you do get a breather once and a while because Florida is honestly miserable after a while. ❤️

taking a big sigh here. you mentioned twice about not wanting to come across as rude or judgmental etc, but I want to kindly let you know, that “are you seriously complaining..” and “do you seriously prefer..” comes across as exactly that.

i’m on holiday, staying in a villa with 11 people (5 kids). it’s 36 degrees on average each day. i made a comment today about being roped into going back to disney because i’m allowed to make comments on my blog. i’m not necessarily an introvert or an extrovert, i’d just like one day to relax and do my own thing after being on the go since the 28th of june.

i’m also an adult, and as much as i’m sure the sentiment was in the right place, I really don’t need someone to tell me not to waste my trip. you’re right, florida can get miserable after a while, and I really just wanted some downtime to do something I loved, not because i’m in a rush to get it posted.

#maybe I’m just in a bad mood #I’m tired and hot and it’s been a full on week and a half #but I dont need someone to tell me all this #ask

[loveinstreams]

flirting with a girl moodboard

#the way lose ALL speech when someone starts telling me I’m hot #anyways #going it through it rn

[magnus-rhymes-with-swagness]

#trans #transgender #transmasc #covering my face with my hands and peeking through my fingers aaaa #i performed that school project i was talking about earlier (the one with the hammer of thor) #and this very cool trans guy who i really like was like. smiling and nodding throughout it i think #his performance was SO good i went up to him at the end of class to tell him how much i liked it #and HE BEAT ME TO IT AND SAID HE REALLY LIKED MINE #i just about died hbdsjdbsn #our performances both dealt with gender in sort of a similar way which was cool #he even mentioned recognizing my book HAHA #actually nearly every time i have a mcga book in public someone tells me they’re also a fan which is always cool #hot transmasc in my area has been sufficiently impressed for today 🫡 #i’m being so silly about this dfkfjdnj #my words #personal

[omgeto]

okay people today has genuinely a terrible day 🥹 and if I die in my sleep because my phone is under my pillow HOT AS HELL and plugged in then so be it. farewell.

#if my iPhone doesn’t stop telling me ‘we can’t continue charging because the temp of your phone is too hot’ #I’m going murder someone #Apple is making it hot on purpose because they want me to get the new 15 in pink #or maybe it’s because I’m HOTSPOTTING MY IPAD AND MACBOOK SINCE I HAVE NO WIFI #but yes NO FIC TONIGHT SINCE ITS LITERALY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO WRITE #because guess what UOU NEED WIFI TO WRITE ON GOOGLE DOCS #Google docs more like Google flops #so goodbye people #★ — emptalkshit!