#so that he could say that theyre not dead

[pansysgothgf]

I’m thinking about how this season THEYRE revisiting everyone’s worst traumas: (spoilers)

Bobby- his family’s death (the cruise and 7x08 from the trailer and episode descriptions)

Athena- Harry being involved in an incident at a convince store that could’ve ended up with him dead, similarly to how her fiancé died at the connivence store (correct me if I’m wrong, it’s been a hot minute)

Hen and Karen- their adoption going through, the same way it did with Nia

Chimney- Kevin and Doug (in 7x06 specifically)

Maddie- Doug (in 7x07 specifically)

Eddie- the Shannon of it all

Which leads me to like, what’s in store for Buck? I would say maybe it’s already been addressed (we’re seeing his fear of being replaced (with Eddie in 2x01 and then with Tommy in 7x04) and then his abandonment/intimacy issues in the context of his relationship with Tommy) but…

When I think about Buck’s biggest traumas, I don’t necessarily think about Abby or Ali or Taylor.

When I think about Buck’s biggest traumas I think about him getting blown up. I think about the embolism. I think about the tsunami. The lawsuit. The shooting. The lightning strike. And of those ones, I think his relationship with Christopher is a big part of why they’re so impactful. Christopher gives him the card before he throws a clot. Christopher is with him when the wave hits. Eddie tells Buck that the lawsuit is affecting Chris. Eddie gets shot and Buck finds out that not only would he have been Chris’ temporary guardian while Eddie was in a coma, but his legal guardian in the event of Eddie’s death. While Buck’s in his coma, the person who Buck feels the most guilt over leaving behind in that twisted reality is Chris (not his parents, who finally love him. Not Daniel and Genevieve who will cease to exist. Not Maddie who doesn’t know there could be better. Chris, who asks Buck for help and for the only time so far in the show, Buck has to refuse. Because that’s not his Chris. He needs to get back to his Chris, because that’s the boy he promised to always be there for).

After the truck bombing, every major trauma Buck lives through is at least partially centred around Chris, and we see how their relationship develops through these traumatic experiences.

So, pray tell, what the hell is going to happen to Buck and Chris and how the fuck is Eddie going to cope with it when we’re already watching him devolve into… madness? The death of his moral compass? Desperation? Whatever it is, it’s dark.

(I would also argue that Eddie’s biggest trauma after the death of Shannon was his s5 breakdown, so. I wouldn’t be surprised if we revisited that)

(Also also, I think Hen’s biggest trauma pertaining to the job was the civilian who she hit with the ambulance, and I would LOVE to see that touched on again for angst’s sake. Or you know: Hen’s dad, Eva, Denny’s bio dad, Karen’s journey with infertility, that time Karen got a little blown up, Hen’s med school friends, that time Hen seriously considered letting go of her morals to watch Eva die because that would be the only way to free her family of the mess she created. You know, any of these could work. All I’m saying is that ABC home of Grey’s Anatomy and 9-1-1 and its love of secret siblings and half siblings COULD throw us a curveball and give Hen a secret half sibling on her Dad’s side. For the drama)

TLDR: if we’re gonna talk about the 118’s trauma, Buck’s needs to centre around Chris. Burn down the loft with Buck and Chris in it, Tim. I dare you.

#911 spoilers #9-1-1 #911 spoliers #eddie diaz #evan buckley #hen wilson #chimney han #maddie buckley #bobby nash #athena grant #karen wilson #christopher diaz #I feel like everyone probably already knows this and I’m just slow on the uptake #if that’s the case be nice to me it’s almost 6am and I have yet to sleep #911 s7 spoilers

[rexscanonwife]

Grrggh...good morning everypony = w = I rewatched the episode of the ppg reboot where Utonium gets a girlfriend...

#jane journals #self insert talk #🔬 starkissed scientist 🔬 #i woke up at 5 in the gah damn morning and MY HEADPHONES are gone so im gonna have to ride the bus w/o them >:[ #hell on earth 10 dead 4 missing!!! #and i choose to do this before i go ajfjg #anyways this sucks #like im not bothered by love interests but this whole reboot is ass and the characters are badly written #but theres like....at least one or two cute moments where utonium is smooth with it >//< #it cant even get the FIRST THING RIGHT ABOUT HIM THO #in literally THE FIRST EPISODE he says that spiders creep him out and they basically just. not even ignore but contradict it entirely #for why? the purpose of this ep where the love interest studies spiders and turns into one ig #they could say that hes PRETENDING to like them because he likes her. but they didnt do that #ALSO why spider? why not werewolf? that would be hot #and the love interest is that bland brand of 'adorkable' thats so disingenuous #on the other hand i DO like spiders. and the way she talks to one and like treats it like a pet...yeah id do that ._. #and idk they always write utonium as way more harsh than he'd usually be especially with bubbles #he wouldnt tell her shes being SELFISH by not wanting to give away her last piece of popcorn to a spider #especially when she barely got any #maybe he'd remind her that its GOOD to be generous BUT NOT CALL HER SELFISH #but yeah....theres maybe a moment or two 😒 #like when his love interest spoils a whole MOVIE for the girls and ofc theyre upset #but he holds her face and says 'everything i need to see is right here'...>//< #THAT was smooth #and idk they don't play with the idea of the girls wanting to break them up ENOUGH #they just write one fake email and its done. then spider reveal #it sucks maybe i shouldnt have started my day this way 😂😂😂 #whatever hopefully work is good!! #and i always have og utoniom to think about 🥺👉👈💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘

[extremelyputridfishbreath]

honestly this isn't like, to say herbert is super niceys in canon BUT. i feel like if he actually succeeded in bombing the player, rookie, gary (and likely dot as well- i dont remember if the original epf command room was destroyed when the psa hq was) he'd probably not feel 100% happy about it. murder is in fact, a big deal! and while i'm not saying he'd instantly regret it i wouldnt be surprised if he'd feel SOME kind of way if he did succeed, even if he was mostly like "YAAAAY THOSE ANNOYING BIRDS ARE FINALLY DEAD". like yknow, even if i write my herbert to be Meaner and Nastier post blackout its not like i see even my herbert and especially not canons as someone who is Only Evil All The Time, i genuinely think this man would be at least slightly conflicted once the whole 'i actually succeeded in killing them' thing kicked in. and while he was obviously thrilled to bits about taking over the island and freezing the epf's leads, freezing them isn't exactly the same as killing them since as we know, even though it can have negative effects like gary saying he'd been having medical issues after being dethawed it's not permanent like being Killed-

#idk its just fun to explore. which is one reason why the ghost!rolly au exists #he finally gets what he wanted. he finally got rid of rolly for good (or so he initially thinks). but freezing agents and trapping them #with a bomb or on a mountain (to a /rocket/ in jpg's case) is different than seeing the results in Front of you... #because yeah. he gets to see the lead's frozen faces as much as he wants during blackout. but theyre not DEAD. if he ever #wanted out of sudden regret or just to taunt them for failing to save the island he could easily dethaw them for it. #he can't bring them back if they REALLY die. and even with the popcorn bomb #if gary rookie the player and dot (and i guess jpg if you count the ds version) all died to the bomb he wouldn't SEE the result in front of #him. he doesn't have to see the result of his actions beyond the wreackage of the sports shop or perhaps a particularly sad club penguin #times issue. but causing rolly to bleed out in front of him? Ruh Roh mr esquire doesnt feel so good seeing his worstie in fatal peril #suddenly it doesn't feel great to have his white paws be blood red!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #idk like i said i just rotate this around a lot. its fascinating how herbert will say he just wants to 'defeat' the epf and not destroy it #during his brief tenure working with protobot...a year after the popcorn explosion. what happened herby #did you realize it would've been bad to kill three people (again dot too but he didnt know she was there). #did you realize murder is not okay? :)

[martyrbat]

[ID: a comic page from Batman: Legends of the Dark Knight #192. Harvey Dent is wearing an olive green suit and is holding a brown suit case as he smokes next to a dumpster in an alleyway. Bruce is in his Batman costume and is approaching Harvey from the opening. Harvey says, "You shouldn't have come down here, you know." Batman responds, "I don't know how much time I have on this one.. And Gordon.. Let me down. I expect you to have better info anyway, Harvey." He walks closer as Harvey confesses, "Well, we are building a case against Peter Scotta.. But I gotta tell you.. We're still a long way from anything we can act on." Batman presses, "But you know what he's up to," as he brushes past Harvey to be standing behind him instead.

Harvey turns to look at him. He says, "I wish I did. We're still figuring out who he does buisness with. So please don't break into my office to read the file. Theres nothing you don't already know. We're doing this slow and careful. Not like your stunt at the bank yesterday." Batman looks at him unimpressed. He argues, "If you spend months to build this case, Harvey, he'll already have made his move. He's working on something big, Harvey, and you know it." Harvey contours, "I know a lot of things.. There are lots of things I don't act on." Batman tenses. He starts to ask, "is that a thr-" before Harvey tersely cuts him off, "Sun's out. Better get going." He walks away, leaving Batman to be standing alone in the filthy alleyway. END ID]

#bitches say theyre fine but in all actuality are thinking about the implications of harvey knowing bruce is batman without bruce confessing #it to him - thus making him feel as if bruce aka his childhood best friend that upped and vanished (and left him) without a single word #doesnt trust him with that secret identity or care about him the way harvey has for bruce all these years. that he spent a decade #being haunted by all these what if's just to be met with the heartache of reality #then harvey gets attacked and scarred and two face is born and now bruce will spend the rest of his life asking what would of happened if #harvey knew? if he knew the batman secret if he knew bruce trusted him if he knew he was so unspokenly important? what could of been? #thus making him spend the rest of his life haunted by all these what if's. just to return to the heartache of reality. #to return to mourning a man that isnt even dead. to return to losing your best friend and the possibility of you could had prevented it. #but holding to the hope he'll somehow be alright. because what if? #(bitches are me fyi) #c: batman: legends of the dark knight | i: 192 #crypt's panels #bruce wayne #batman #harvey dent #bruharvey

[vaugarde]

i love kirby super star fanfic or comic adaptations where marx and kirby are actually best friends during the course of the entire game and marx blindsides kirby, to the point where i want to do something soooort of similar with my kirbyverse, but i also just kinda love how in canon marx was just like “im gonna very specifically ruin this guys week”

#i think marx is less outright evil and murdery and more ''i just want to fuck around with no one to stop me'' #saw itsquakey say that marx seemed to be an antagonist more out of petty antagonism where he just wanted to play tricks with no backlash #and i gotta replay milky way wishes again to verify that bc ill admit i never paid that much attention to his dialogue but thats interesting #or at least it differentiates him from magolor a bit more #who more or less just outright wants to rule the universe #im torn on whether or not i want him and kirby to be besties tho #for one im like. so unsure if i want him to be the same age as kirby #bc ngl ive always seen marx as rather young so i saw him and kirby as being the same age at one point #and magolor was also the same as them. but now i firmly see magolor as like in his early 20s or so mentally #mayyybe a late teen at best? and i feel like if he and marx are gonna be a duo itd be cool to keep em the same age? #but then i want marx and kirby to be like. direct parallels in some way like idk. theyre the same age yet had totally different circumstance #that shaped who they became (still sort of want to play into my ''marx is a mirror of kirby'' hc from when i was little) #ig i could just also age up kirby but like youll have to pry child kirby from my dead hands #none of this matters ik its not like i ship marxolor or marxby or anything (anymore) but like idk #maybe im overthinking it LOL #idk tho basically idea is that marx and kirby are actually childhood best friends who've known each other since they were newborns #but like. besides that i have no ideas sdklfjsdlkfjsdlkfsd i used to have an edgy ass backstory for marx where his parents were murdered #and thats valid if you have something like that for his backstory but idk if i want to go that route anymore #bc marx is less villainous here and more ''i have no real moral compass and i want to fuck with people'' #idk im throwing spaghetti at the wall btw nothing here is verified at all #echoed voice

[bluebellhairpin]

Idk about you all, but if a zombie apocalypse happens I'm just gonna turn into Ned Kelly. Get me a big suit of metal and some guns and I'll wander the bush like it's nobody's business.

#kelly knew what he was soing until he got shot then hung #but when im saying this im also thinking of like twd type of zombies too fyi #but like all these pieces of media where zombies are still around like ten twenty years after theyve turned are kinda unrealistic #theyre the walking dead. theyre gonna decompose so much in that time that theyd either be immobile or literally dead dead. #amd i do think that side of zombie apocalypses arent explored enough #look at the covid pandemic. four five years later and the major infections period is gone. #i could talk about this a lot but i wont bc im gonna think about being ned kelly #nemos thoughts

[red-dyed-sarumane]

omg hi i went insane and decided to go thru every single mushoku toumeisai entry (theres about 4800 songs this time!) one by one until i found null's entry! after going thru around 600 songs over 2 days & finally caving & going thru ones i didnt already on the ranking I FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

shiawasekai!!! recognized null instantly i was yelling. its got null's signature emotionally charged sound with the guitars & and the tuning on teto. not to mention the word play in the title, fusing shiawase & sekai like that. it's only null's 3rd upload thats why i was so desperate to find it & see if they're keeping the same direction both redraw and ai wo have and it sounds like they are!!!! very cool go give them some love!

#also if anyones cares Q. is obviously aira's entry theyre the only one that tunes like that. thats aira for sure. #living dead ranker (i think the last word is ranker?) is meddmias upload too. also very obvious. everything screams meddmia its meddmia #i dont know if i found dopamines entry yet. my best rn is city pop fan club i think. yes hes my second fave vocap no i cant pick him out #idk if yagumo yuuki entered anything but im betting on brain dumb do if they did #self fixer feels like zensen to me but im also not a major zensen fan i could be wrong #yowai sakana did shakai ga kowai! its so similar to hatarakitakunai i recognized them instantly too #havent found szri or fuyuu yet but im also not going song by song to find them. both of them are easily recognizable i think #if i did happen to click on their song itd be instant. oh!! them!!! #i saw someone say theres a rumor magu submitted something & i could prove or disprove that if i really went thru every song #but im NOT going thru 4800 songs for them to not be a part of the event #they joked about the time limit bc i think they wanted to be funny & submit the 70000 second song. but i dont think they submitted anything #theres no way its wouldnt be found by now magu has SUCH a recognizable style. plus if its a series song the motifs or lyrics #give it away way too easily & i think theyd want to be a little stealthier than that #im still going thru entries but im really only looking at anything with an interesting title or rime. #so i may still find fuyuu since they use rime a lot

[boygirlctommy]

SOBS i hate chainsaw man i hate it i hate it

#my post #my brother us making me read the manga and i had to stop dear lord if power dies im quitting for real this time #csm spoilers in the tags -> #I AM GOING TO FUCKING EXPLODE #I WAS LITERALLY *JUST* CRYING OVER THE WEIRD-ASS FAMILY THAT IS AKI DENJI AND POWER AND THENEDWM #WEYUGFDAHKSJILWAKSMD #FD #AKI FUCKING DIED???? HE GOT TURNED INTO A GUN DEVIL FIEND AND FUCKING DIED? #THERES NO WAY IN HELL MAKIMA DID NOT DO THAT ON PURPOSE #AND IM ASSUMING ANGEL DEVIL IS DEAD AS WELL? #FAWKKKK #AND LIKE. AUGH THE FUTURE AKI SAW POWER IS GONNA DIE TOOOOOOOOO #I DONT LIKE CSM I DONT I DONT I DONT WANY TO READ THIS ANYMORE IM TOO ATTACHED #THEYRE KILLING MY THREE FAVORITE CHARACTERS #my brother: well denji survives! me: -_- #hes making fun of me like 'ouousouo well you watched death n0te so how is this bad?' FIRST OF ALL i cried at the end of death n0te #so jot that down #SECOND OF ALL this HURTS i jsut wanted them to be happy. i understand why lots of people say aki and angel devil were gay and in love bcus #they 100% were #i just wanted them to have a hppy life GOD AKI GAVE HIS LIFE TO MAKIMA SO DENJI AND POWER COULD BE SAFE #AND NOW MAKIMA IS GOING TO KILL POWER????? #i left off in the middle of the chapter bcus i cant take this anymroe tonight #sigh. thats my csm rant. dorry i just like my silly little families and csm HATES THEM WITH A BURNING PASSION APPARENTLY

[malikselfindulgence]

Worsties of all time I need them grinded to fine dust and then inhaled by a whale

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#durianshipping #malik'll makenone 4 him and mei when she's like fronting #oc: Morshid lmk #u dont know how long i stared at the selfishness vs selflessness for a good or bad cause box for swk #almost all of this is them being unreliable narrators btw . theyre so stupid #they gain respect for each other later on after morshid sees swk put himself in danger for MK but it starts out garbage #the thing is morshid's feelings for swk change before swk's except he doesnt reallh say anything that could signify this #so theres a period of time where morshid like . DOESNT hate swk and doesnt understand why swk hates him #meanwhile swk is getting the MOST bizarre signals thrown at him he thought they had a dynamic going and suddenly that's Not Happening #and he doesnt know what to do w it #and swk like TRIES to match the spirit but it just makes Morshid mean again [Morshid doesn't expect kindness and Therefore nice gestures are #false and violent in nature. he is being kind to give me false hope and make it hurt worse] so theyre like . back at square zero #and they dont really want to fight anymore but what else do they have . screaming doesn't feel good anymore. hurting you just hurts me too #now . but how can they stray out of this and into something new and unfamiliar and terrifying?? #kings of zero communication despite preaching communication . ♡ I love them i want them dead #self shipping #self ship #oc x canon

[cherry-shipping]

BTW during my nightly nap i had a dream abt horrortale sans...... it was sorta all over the place cause i fell asleep watching youtube so it affected the course of my dream a lot but i think it was something along the lines of him working someplace on the surface and saw me from afar semi-regularly and was like. really weirdly fixated on me. but he was totally nuts about it too like hed follow me around with the sole intention of trying to figure out WHY he was fixated on me and what id done to make it that way. like. obviously there was something mega suspicious about me since he couldnt get me out of his head and also he thought i was the one stalking HIM because i kept showing up in places he went to. like i remember he had some special quiet place near his work where hed go to watch a nearby lake and calm down (super cute) and it was way behind some bushes and shit so it was like a secret for him. but then he went there one day and i was there napping in the grass and he was like ok what the fuck. anyway all in all it was a good dream and i think thats sort of what hed be like, even just regular sans is like that too. also my appearance in this dream was that of my self insert which was neat and also there was a part where he was watching me in secret and i was stressed out and he saw me take my eyepatch off and stab myself in the fucking eye over and over again and he was like. woah Thats just like when i pick my broken eyesocket....... and it was like a whole thing. lmfao

#cherry chats #bf (bone friend) #long and jumbled ass post but whatever it was a dream so it was pretty messy already #another fun thing was that at times hed see me pass by his workplace and he would be dead set on following me #so hed just up and leave. not even on break or anything like he just Left #and if any of his human coworkers tried to stop him he would literally grab them and break their arms #like. they reach out a hand he grabs it and just fucking crushes it #like that scene in from dawn til dusk. if anyone remembers that. #and that was like a regular thing. dunno how he didnt get fired but it was funny as hell #in fact i think he even regularly crushed peoples fucking skulls with his huge hands too #he would leave to follow me around like a huge weird creep and if anyone tried to get him to stay he grabbed their head and crushed it #like. completely silent and nonchalant and still on his way out.enriuhgeruihgwg9prodgboirdhfg #anyway. it was cool i fucknig love that freak #and i also love my self insert a whole bunch. theyre also fucking weird #i wonder if i should make that eye stabbing when stressed thing an actual habit of theirs.....? #itd be cool and a fun parallel between sans' eye picking habit #but also the eyepatch is based off of my eyesight being garbage on my right eye #and at one point the eye doctor said i might have to get an eyepatch on my LEFT eye (the good one) so the bad one could get better #so if im realistic then my s/i would have one functioning eye thats covered by their eyepatch and then one shitty eye #but the eyepatch is also bloody. maybe i should just let myself be edgy and say the doctors removed their eye or something LOL #aaarghhh. i love horrortale so much. fuck

[jrueships]

wtf fruity litttle giannis... twitter com / Giannis_An34 / status / 1550233366917783554

because i couldn't post the video, i made this instead, hope you enjoy <3

#at like 3am i made this i think and i wanna say smthin prophetic like 'it came to me in a dream' but the moment i saw the video #i knew what to do and couldnt go to bed until it was done #i woke up my s/o laughing while i made this n showed it to him and he cried #THANK U FOR THE LINK THIS IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME #GAY LITTLE GIANNIS!!!!! #rip to my ted tags when i first tried replying to this message 💔 #i dont even remember what they all said it's Gone now theyre Gone theyre Dead #ted asks #ted toiletries #giannis #thanasis #his legs look so slim in those jeans 😭 #i hate jeans ppl that like jeans are lying they are actual itchy imprisonments for your appendages i refuse to believe otherwise #i would sock the mf who made jeans in the mouth if i could #but he slays in them so i guess it's ok #so many good images of giannis he gives us nothing but excellence #giannis has a tumblr and he follows me & supports my support of his switchaganda #he dms me everyday with harry styles music and i pretend to listen

[madlichen]

i wish my autism beam was real and i could shoot people with it and also give them autism too so everyone could be autism because when everyones autism no one is

#syndromes not evil the bad guy is society and mental health is so much more than keeping the crazies off the streets #i wish i could change society and be a queer little mouseboy who likes science #but no cannot have nice things society will make you the villain for trying to change it why are the villains always smart in movies #because they recognize the pain and suffering in the world thats why they see it and they actually do something about it #but that makes them evil thats why theyre the villain because they want change and change is bad #the us government is actively stopping me from changing the world for the better one person one autism beam at a time #birds arent real theyre government drones beaming 5g mind control waves into our synapses and i sciencedude have a solution #global havannah syndrome must be stopped we must the villain murderous scum hiding out in bushes from eating our babies #just so long as we only protect the unborn babies and not the children because the dead are more important than the living #enslave the middle class to the monopolies bring about the oligarchy bleed out on our machines to raise efficiency and bring costs down #in this essay i will explain why the coming downfall of society has everything to do with how we treat others #thiS IS THE POLICE OPEN UP THERE HE IS GET HIM wait no you got the wrong guy NO THE FBI NEVER MAKES MISTAKES I AM THE LAW #breaking news a man by the name of science dude has been arrested for reasons not even the fbi is willing to share #NO PLEASE IM INNOCENT HELP ME #wow they must have done something really bad if the police are arresting them lets influence our audience to think theyre bad as well #breaking news someone got cancelled its a crying shame this cancel culture business tune in next time to the only source of truth on tv #i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i w- #liiiiiiiiiiiiivvvvvvvveeeeeeeee #its a cold place and they say it gets colder #your bundled up now wait til you get older #but the media men beg to differ #judging by the hole in the satellite picture #the ice we skate is getting pretty thin #the waters getting warm so you might as well swim #my worlds on fire how bout yours #thats the way i like it and i never get bored #well the years start comin and they dont stop comin and they dont stop comin and they dont stop comin and they dont stop comin #im crawing in my skin these wounds they will not heal #janine janine youd like to know me well but there are things inside my head that even i cant face #these and other song when you tune in and enter to win 0% apr for the first twenty months no money down offer lasts until 10 years ago

[siriuslygay1981]

You know that video where it's this guy sitting criss cross apple sauce and he starts pulling frogs out from his lap and after like five ur like 'oh that's a lot but he can't possibly have more' and he does

And then there's twenty of them and you're like 'ok that has to be all they can't all fit there?' and he just keeps...going

He just keeps pulling more out like at this point he's a FUCKING magician. And the video cuts off but he was still pulling frog after frog out. Like you couldn't see or hear them before he pulled the first one out.

Like you would keep thinking. "This is it...that's all the frogs" and he still kept going. Like whatever number you're thinking...it's more

Anyways that's peter and the rosier twins. They love frogs and they bonded over it.

I'd link the video but I can't find it and I'm devastated.

#marauders fandom #dead gay wizards from the 70s #marauders era #evan rosier #harry potter marauders #peter pettigrew #pandora rosier #the pantheons #emeralds #hp marauders #incorrect marauders era #marauders headcanon #pls theyre so cute #i was actually terrified when i saw the video #not bc i dislike frogs #but bc how tf did he keep pulling out frogs #literally could not comprehend it #there were so many frogs #he just kept saying 'and another frog' #they were hopping away for their dear little lifes

[laylanatorseventeen]

Well my great grandmother died the day before yesterday and while I'm not, like, happy about it, I didn't know her so I'm not like sad either. But I'm going to the visitation and funeral because I'm expected to and I will be there for my dad, who actually did know and care about her. I only hope we don't have a repeat of what happened when my great uncle died, i.e, me gazing emotionlessly at the corpse of a person I neither knew nor particularly cared about whilst my aunt melodramaticly urges me to "let go" of the grief under which she mistakenly believes I am laboring

#like there is no tactful way to say 'i dont care that this person is dead' especially AT THEIR FUNERAL SURROUNDED BY THEIR LOVED ONES #so i just stayed quiet. which is what I'll do if it happens this time but i will find it very annoying #like yes you could argue that the reason i did not know her is because i did not make a particular effort #but as a queer democrat in the south excuse me if i don't feel like chumming with baby boomers #esp since this very great grandmother thought we didn't talk to our bus driver bc she thought we were scared of him #bc he was black and she speculated we may never have seen a 'colored' bus driver before #like rachel you need to get out of the house more its not 1965 anymore????? we've seen black people #like i dont even like my immediate family anymore bc theyre all bigots of course i am not eager to delve into the mindset of THEIR parents #but of course my aunt and grandparents do not know i am a queer democrat #they mistakenly believe that i share their 'ideals' #so basically this funeral will just be awkward.

[floralovebot]

I’d suggest you can try looking into Hozier’s songs for Helia’s playlist, like Work Song, In A Week and Moment’s Silence do give me helia vibes!

Thank you for the suggestions!! I've always really liked the idea of associating Hozier's song with Helia! I actually have like real people do on his playlist rn !

I really liked moment's silence but I actually added it to Nabu's instead! I liked the idea of it for Helia but I feel like the sound of it and even the lyrics really matched Nabu and aibu! I also really like work song and I've contemplated it for Helia before but I was never able to convince myself that it was his song yknow? While there are more intense songs on his playlist rn, I feel like it's a bit too intense? Or maybe the vibe of the song is too intense for him? I'm not sure what it is exactly since I do like the song and can definitely see it for florelia, but something about it just isn't quite right for them,,, :(

Also, I like in a week but i don't like thinking about rotting corpses so unfortunately i usually can't listen to that one ajldghladjgh

#i feel like for work song its the religious vibes? while i love the songs themself - i feel like theyre too intense for helia #quite a few of his songs have that worship vibe whether with the lyrics or the choir background vocals or the instrumental itself #and while there have been songs in that past that i associated with helia that had a similar sound #i think its specifically that christian / catholic religious guilt/worship sound that i dont associate with him #it definitely fits him but something about it is off and i can't figure out what!! #because it really does fit the relationship he has with red fountain but something about it!! is off!! and it bothers me so much!! #13th century religious music tends to fit him more i feel? like specifically that medieval religious sound? #at least in terms of worshiping your lover or having that guilt i feel like that sound works best for him rather than the more - #'modern' vibe hozier typically has (obviously its not Actually modern it is heavily influenced by older music) #answered #anyway when i add songs to the character playlists i specifically try to add songs that i feel the character could actually sing/speak #and while i like the lyrics for them i feel like the references to religion aren't something he would regularly say? #there's actually a song by eurielle called city of the dead that has the exact religious vibe that i would associate with helia!! #the lyrics don't really work for canon!helia but at least for the sound/vibe of the song it really works for him for an intense feel #and that's another episode of me overthinking their playlists way too much!! #alkhgdljahdg but still thank you !! ik it may not seem like it but every suggestion is really helpful !! #im sorry i shit on your suggestions though i feel bad 😞

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i just think if ur too obsessed with someone else's gender, sexuality, or whatever, or ur even just outright assuming things, u should just mind your own business

#personal #HES DODGING THE QUESTION!?!?! #ig i could be a contrarian and mention identity politics but uh. i also dont think u need to publicly disclose every thing to literal #strangers... #i just remember being on here (where theres more lgbt ppl than i interacted w irl) as a teen and seeing mutuals complain abt women they kne #putting their online relationship status w women even though they allegedly werent gay #and how ppl complain abt women kissing women even though theyre apparently not gay #lesbians needing to defend their sexuality if they casually say a man is attractive or even a fictional one #most of those examples were abt bisexual women lol but yeah. like well gee i wonder why theyre kissing women huh #but theyre soo fake. lying bitches. cant possibly be like you #idk i think its crazy. u want them to make a press statement or smth. mind ur own business #being online is so weird bc some people will still act like u arent enough somehow. while irl cishet ppl want u dead #whats w the mentality of suspecting. is the person acting like this truly for clout huh