#so maybe im overthinking it lol

[emblemxeno]

At least in Fates, no one will try to defend Garon because he is a cute empress

The closest comparison that people make will be Conquest!Corrin, but even then, that game spares no efforts at making Corrin take responsibility and feel bad for what they do. They aren't victim blaming like Edelgard is wont to do, they get called out by named enemies frequently, and they actually feel for the people they've hurt, even the generics.

Like, I've seen people make fun of Corrin for crying over not just their loved ones but also civilians and complete strangers, because damn, god forbid a character not sympathize or be emotional over terrible things happening. Compare to Edelgard where she doesn't give one fuck about Randolph or Ladislava kicking the bucket, and really only cares if Byleth is in trouble, and the game then expects me to sympathize with how hard it must be for her lol.

#queue #fire emblem discourse #honestly you could do a play-by=play of Conquest and CF and you'd be able to see #how CF constantly likes to tell over show and doesn't let Byleth nor Edelgard suffer anything for what they do #meanwhile Conquest has material consequences as soon as chapter 11 (or even 10 with how Corrin's choice caused Takumi to get possessed) #then again CF is like an actual villain route and Conquest is supposed to be the “light within the darkness” path of Fates #so maybe im overthinking it lol

[shyhandart]

Whoops next gen jumpscare

#art #digital art #mlp #fanart #mlp fanart #mlp next gen #mlp ng #mlp oc #she's a fluttermac kid (basic i know) but as everyone knows flutters is asexual so Bug is adopted #also maybe im overthinking this but ik shes similar to a comm i did recently #theyre both yellow girls named honey with gradient hair but ive had her for years i promise lol #my little pony #oc #i know yall dont like my ocs but this is my house i can do what i want

[ladytauria]

trick or treat!!! 🎃🎃🎃

(and thank you for your comments on my lil drabbles!!!! i loved reading your tags & thoughts<3<3)

(<3 i'm glad! i love reading your stuff!! it's always so good! & ty for ur tags on mine, i appreciate them sm <33333)

this is a snippet from a wip i've been working on for... i think about a year now, lol. working title is "slipping tongues" & is v loosely inspired by that one panel, where jason calls himself "daddy" while defusing a bomb xD

i shared a slightly earlier snippet of it here~

Stupid, stupid, stupid. Of all the things he could have said—

It’s all Tim’s fault. He’s been driving Jason crazy all night. It’s Jason’s fault, of course, for agreeing to Tim’s idea all those weeks ago in the first place. He’d been complaining, again, about his nights at the lounge, and at the time… Well. He hadn’t seen how Tim playing as Hood’s arm candy could go wrong.

Big mistake.

He’d forgotten just how much effort Tim put into his undercover identities.

Or—

No, that wasn’t quite right.

Jason had been expecting Tim’s identity to cater to their audience. And in a way, it did. There was nothing threatening about his appearance, the act he put on. The amount of conversations that had taken place right in front of him, as if he wasn’t even there would be infuriating if it wasn’t playing right into their hands. But the appearance of the disguise…

That was tailored specifically to Jason.

Subtle makeup to soften his face; just enough padding to give him the illusion of curves. Small breasts, a black wig, just a bit longer than his natural hair—and jewelry to draw the eye from anything he couldn’t disguise. And—look, okay. Jason is biased. He thinks obsessive, 72 hours no sleep, wearing his rattiest clothes, caffeine-addled gremlin Tim is hot. This Tim? Dolled up in provocative outfits and sultry make-up? He’s a goner.

And Tim knows it. He walks a fine line, teasing just enough to drive Jason mad without also compromising his persona as Hood. It’s maddening… and hot as hell. Could anyone blame him, if maybe his brains were a bit addled? Or if maybe, just maybe, he wanted to turn the tables on Tim, even if just for a moment?

Jason doesn’t think so.

If Tim asks, Jason will tell him it was a slip of the tongue. He got too deep into the Hood headspace. Otherwise—they can just… forget about it. Pretend it never happened in the first place.

Yeah. That sounds good.

#immediate next line: #Of course; if Jason had been thinking straight; he would have realized that Tim wouldn’t just let it go #and that he would be willing to play dirty to make sure Jason couldn’t wriggle out of talking about it. #semi colons subbed for commas #its just tim domming jason in a dress while calling him daddy #i still have no idea where the idea came from lmao #but the set-up is giving me trouble #maybe im overthinking it! #but nothing feels ~right~ lol #anyway! #thank u so much for asking~ #slipping tongues #asks and answers #mid-nightowl #also i did hunt around to see if i had anything non-jaytim to share bc i KNOW i like other pairings but #nothing substantial im afraid #well. there was some gen stuff but i couldn't find any like... snippets i wanted to pull out #also ik the trick or treat stuff mentioned more than just snippets but i have fun with snippets lol #tauriawritesfanfic

[deus-ex-mona]

i hope they fight (can’t read past this point)

#l e m m e i n n n n n n n n n n #never thought that i’d ever find something in common with mr face reveal but here we are (dude’s a retail pharmacy cashier. poor guy :() #i need to know if the pharmacy manages to survive the encounter #i hope he calls out her bs and enforces the ‘1 lxl gummy per person’ rule to extremes #this is unfair i can’t even skip ahead to the ch 3 previews bc this site doesn’t even have them yet auaaaaaaa #but hm. looking at this and the calendar… plus chizuutan’s planner from doutan kyohi… this encounter takes place on 1 august #july and august are the only 2 consecutive months of 31 days after all. sooooooooo #so ig it’d put the nonfan release somewhere in july… hmmmmmmmmmm #which would kinda make sense i think… in the nonfan novel hiyo’s contract was supposed to end in august… right? i can’t rem lol #hmmmmmmmmmmmm. but that’d only be the case if the chizuutan mvs complement the [redacted] anime/kawaikute gomen manga timelines… #i hope we get to see her pov of the hiyo makeover for the nagisa visit lmao #but then again. maybe lxl have had 2 separate gummy collabs and im just overthinking it. #idk why am i wasting my precious lunch break thinking about lxl and chizuutan anyway i’ve had enough of them ausuxyshxhshhshajsjshshs #chizuutan chizpost

[juvederm]

i wish i had more josh mutuals that don't seek to include chris in everything like. i don't hate chris at all or dislike cc, i said this already but. just clarifying again.

i don't like how most ppl who like josh don't even really like him. they usually like josh if chris is also there. like y'all don't get me. i'm here solely for josh and i like to have fun w characters on their own. i don't get why most interpretations of josh always include sam or chris.

and abt ppl only liking josh when sam or chris are there-- i don't mean to be rude, but josh is more interesting than those two combined, bc of the stuff he has going on beneath the surface. he doesn't need them to be interesting, he's already compelling enough on his own.

im still insecure about posting in this fandom even tho i do it every day. but i'd be less nervous about posting my josh stuff if the people who claim to "like him" weren't so. odd. cuz the josh mutuals i have rn (who solely like josh on his own...) are okay with every silly doodle i draw of josh, bc they don't care. they're here for him and they just like him

meanwhile cc likers that i've met are really. not people i get along with. bc like i said, they kinda only like chris and josh and that's it. id go as far to say they don't even like the game lmfao bc they only like it for cc.

idk... real josh fans are ok with seeing him in a dress from time to time lol. one of the main reasons i can have fun with his character is bc i know Allll there is to know about the source material + josh's canon depiction. which i honestly love, i don't need to change josh in order to like him. but i feel like some ppl do that and those r the people i can't get along with

i wish ppl were more open to having fun w these characters. posting them in silly outfits and such shouldn't be like, anxiety inducing lmfao i want to have fun and i wish others would be more open to that but as of rn, it just doesn't seem that way.

it's hard to tell if i'm making this up or if my anxieties are real, but the thought of it being real is enough to have me stress over it every time i think of posting or if i'm drawing something.

but everyone who follows me for ud-- hi, thank you for following and liking and reblogging my stuff, esp thatoneudguy cuz he supports like everything i say and make lol (and special shout out to queerkearney for always complimenting my work, its rly motivating <3) y'all are cool!!

#i know i sorta just talked about this but #it's one of my main quips w this fandom #i try not to sound overly picky when it comes to characterization #i'm honestly down for any characterization as long as it doesn't completely sabotage the character #ie making josh a bad boy or a flirt cuz that kinda just ignores every other factor about him that i don't usually like #i'm also down for any Visual interpretation of a character!! if you think like ... chris is feminine or something i'm so down for that #and all for it !! #but also people are more ok with seeing him feminine than they are with josh... idk... thags just the vibes i get... #maybe im overthinking it ... #or it's bc i give him boobs. i rly don't know what the issue is lol #josh

[veradragonjedi]

We constantly see people in the comments of body (specifically aging) positivity, saying things like "but wearing makeup isn't bad!" and "but also do what you want with your body! Women can wear makeup if they want to :)", and for a while I didn't know why I felt so upset about it. But today I was listening to a beauty YouTuber debunk a cream that supposedly prevented wrinkles, and I was instantly struck with the realisation that, on makeup videos, nobody ever says "but not wearing makeup isn't bad!" or "women don't have to wear makeup if they don't want to!!"

#like maybe im overthinking it #but whenever anyone points out the obvious faults of the beauty industry someone is always so quick to blootlick it #but i never ever see people saying — in the comments of videos/posts specifically boosting cosmetics — the opposite #almost as if its okay to defend makeup on women but unthinkable to defend women without makeup #i see this SPECIFICALLY on women btw #im sure it exists for men but you dont really see men arguing for their right not to wear makeup lol #just a thought #vee rambles #whatever i suppose #also ough im expecting certain comments now

[oscill4te]

"ethical killing" sounds like an oxymoron to me idk why

#will ponder on this #my brain just saw this term and went “??????” #txt #i dont think humans always have to be ethical we should just admit we do fucked up things sometimes idk.. like killing in this instance #although humans are the only creatures who even care about ethics. ethics are a “social construct” right? #anywho im gonna overthink and ponder for a while this fine morning #theres only a few instances where i see killing as ethical as in the good outweighs the bad but idk if i should list them #like would killing an abuser who brings only terror to the people around them be ethical? or #im talking like very very violently and sxually abusive. like an absolutely dangerous person. is it ethical? #anyway this whole thing was just in reference to killing animals for food and here i am overthinking #i guess ethical killing would mean no pain. at all. but is it ethical if the creature didn't consent to die and we inflict it anyway?e #like no matter how kindly we kill or how mucy the good outweighs the bad; is it “ethical”.. #anyway i still think sxual abusers should die yet i scoff at killing animals if we dont need to for survival #maybe something is wrong w me for these opinions idk lol yet. i still hold them #im willing to admit im maybe a bit of loon idc tho. even if “ethical killing” of animals is a thing we are so far removed from it nowadays #templin grandin tried her best to make the slaughter process less stressful but i don't know if its enough

[milf-harrington]

"babes i'd get you mcr merch before getting my own lmao" literally wtf did i do to deserve this girl

#'think of it as a reconciliation gift' BUT IM THE ONE WHO FUCKED UP OUR FRIENDSHIP WHAT DO YOU MEEAAAAN #im really glad to just have her back in my life and she caught me so off guard with the whole mcr thing #bc she said it feels wrong for her to go without me bc mcr was always My Thing and im like 'lol im poor anyway its fine' #so she said she'd get me merch and i was like 'oh you dont have to really' #and then she said THAT #and im like *through tears* 'bro what the fuck' #and now im panicking a little bit bc i feel like i should do something nice for her too but i dont want it to seem like im #just trying to be even?? bc i know that's not what shes doing shes just genuinely thinking 'oh theyre his favourite band' #and i do still remember all the things she used to love and be into but at the same time maybe her interests have changed!! #maybe she's not BTS-posters-all-over-the-walls and spider-man-rug-on-her-bedroom-floor anymore #maybe she hates anime now #maybe she sold all of her gaming shit #i dont know!! #wait i could ask her #but see now it feels like the catch-up-small-talk phase has passed us and it'll just be weird if im like #'so. what are you into these days other than cars?' #or maybe im overthinking it! probably #maybe when she comes to town next month i can catch up w her #captain speaks

[certainstudentdreamer]

why is everyone being mean to me today

#i feel like crying #oh i actually did but again #i need to stop taking things personal #or maybe im just hyper analysing #and just overthinking #i need to stop crying over small things lol #i feel so stupid now #but yes again crying ofc #but it was personal

[opens-up-4-nobody]

the good thing about asperger's no longer being a diagnosis is that it's just called level 1 autism spectrum disorder now. i know i probably shouldn't be poking around in the mental health of strangers online, but as an autistic person myself, your struggles resonated with me. ever since i've been able to accept, understand, and begin to provide myself accommodations for my autism, my mental health has improved tremendously. autism is also co-morbid with oodles of other conditions, so it is definitely possible to have autism and other conditions that may have overlapping symptoms

It's funny, I was diagnosed, accepted it, over analyzed and rejected it, subsequently forgot about it entirely, then when the only helpful counselor I ever had brought up the idea I was like: Oh yeah! That makes sense. And went through the same process over again. I will say, having someone point out that something might be inhibiting my ability to interact with people was extremely helpful. Because I just thought I was really bad at it and processed it as a point of failure (which was intolerable). At one point she said "You don't have to do things you don't want to just because you feel like you should" and I think about that a lot. That should have been obvious but it was like she slapped me with a fish

#i used to pretend to be a person a lot more. now im just like im too fucking tired to not be anything but myself #ill wear whatever weird patterns i want. ill avoid all eye contact and say whatevers in my head. bc usually its nothing #harmful. perhaps a bit blunt but usually in a way thst makes ppl laugh. with me or at me idk but whatever #ill be as weird as i want. i wear fucking white moon boots around everywhere lol. ay now im just being defensive bc #these r the things my sister would make fun of me for lol. point is im probably autistic and overthinking it #but in the past few yeas when the obsessive compulsive behavior started to become a more and more obvious problem i was like hm maybe its #something else and my brain restricts even the words i use in the context i use them so i became no longer allowed to say oh yea im #autistic. which is annoying. thr malignant force that is my obsessive compulsive tendencies. which again im not allowed to name bc its not #allowed without an official diagnosis bc thats how my brain work 👍 #level 1 autism sounds Hilarious tho. the teired heavens of autism. ive only ascended to level 1. allegedly. #god. my brain. y do i have to plausible deniability myself. its like im waiting for someone to collect evidance and make an arrest bc of #messy liguistics. ay ay ay. there r 2 wolfs inside me. one is trying to drown the other lol #unrelated #me when i have to b around ppl: actually im an insect person. an alien studying humans. watch them go #but no no im not one of them. im simply an observer

[dandyshucks]

starting to think maybe i should turn rbs off on that post actually bc im having heart palpitations now fdsjgjkl why is this happening to meeee

#vent // #me when the paranoia is Getting Bad fjkfdsjkl #its stemming from m.oral o.cd i think bc i am mainly worried abt more eyes on my blog and ppl seeing me frolic here #and the brain gophers have been insisting that i am doing smth horribly wrong and not realizing it #and the worry is that someone is going to see that and bypass talking to me abt it and go straight to making a callout post #and i will be sitting here with Zero Idea abt it #and continue hurting ppl by doing the Unknown Wrong Thing #but i also am not sure how that would happen bc i overthink literally Everything i post #if u see me put tags on smth that isn't just a simple ''ough'' or ''hehe yay!!'' i probably sat there for two mins making sure it was okay #running thru the words at every angle i can conceive of to ensure its not going to hurt somebody somehow fdsjkl #and this paranoia has been so bad the past few days. and when it gets bad then i get worried bc maybe i somehow have a guilty conscience #without even knowing !!! just subconsciously having a guilty conscience somehow !! #which ... only makes the paranoia worse fdsgjkl its a very bad vicious circle #anyways. i have been lowkey avoiding being here lately bc of this but i feel like avoidance just makes it worse #so . hrm. i just do not want to have more crying breakdowns bc i tried to figure out what on earth i could possibly be doing so wrong fsdjk #not exactly a fun way to spend time FDSJKL but ... what can ya do i guess #like i can't ask ppl ''hey am i doing smth wrong?'' bc thats. very vague. and subjective. and also i shouldnt rely on other ppl like that #but my brain is so goofed up that i genuinely cannot tell when i get like this sdjfkl bc i feel so sure i must be doing smth wrong somehow #so every tiny thing seems like maybe its wrong in a way i dont understand yet... ough #ANYWAYS SORRY THIS IS . NOT A GOOD POST TO MAKE. LOL. but i feel like this is the only way im going to bust myself out of this cycle #hopefully if i just Say that i've been really worried then if smth IS actually wrong someone will let me know #and if nothing is wrong then !! i can move on from this continual paranoia spiral !! maybe !! #i feel like me posting this is going to be a Wrong Immoral Move but fdsjkl rly trying to just. break out of it rn fsdjkl #dandyshucks

[kookoofufu]

I am having A Moment with this fic and feel very much like a loser hack fraud, so here's a bit of the beginning which I'm proud of and the only part I'm confident about not changing because if I don't post something somewhere I will go insane.

Summary: In a certain town in a certain island of the Grand Line, a young waitress thinks she’s got Sir Crocodile figured out. She couldn’t be more wrong.

Week 1

In a certain town in a certain country of the Grand Line, the arrival of ex-warlord Sir Crocodile just a few days after the events of Marineford caused a stir. Norah, waitress at the seaside cafe-slash-bar Caffe Dante, pretended to read as her fellow townsfolk gossiped about their encounters with the scarred man in town.

“That warlord is a hell of a smoker. Bought up all my cigars,” said Luka, the smoke shop owner, while drinking bourbon.

“They came to my shop for custom suits,” said Giovanni, the tailor, over a glass of wine. “Didn’t say much. Bodyguard flinched a bit when I measured him. Seems like they’re injured from the war and recovering here.”

“Then this is the perfect time for the Marines to come get them!” cried Bianca, the hotelier, banging her stout onto the counter. “Corner them in their room! They could slip out any day now!”

“Then why don’t you call?” asked Leo, the bar owner and Norah’s boss, drying glasses behind the counter. 

“Hell no. Don’t want to get mixed up in that high-level stuff. Besides,” she added with a whisper, “what if they found out?”

Then Norah saw them herself.

She was alerted during her mid-afternoon Wednesday shift when the patrons inside started murmuring and casting fearful glances toward the outside seating area. When she looked up, her heart dropped.

Norah played rock-paper-scissors with her fellow server Marlon and lost.

“W-what can I get for you gentlemen?” She clung to her notepad like a shield. He was her height when sitting down.

“Whisky,” said the warlord around his cigar, draping his fur-lined coat over the seat. It probably cost more than she made in a year. He didn't look at her as he flipped open the newspaper and leaned back, making himself comfortable. 

“Tea, please,” said the bodyguard, arms crossed. His face was unreadable from behind his sunglasses.

Norah got the drinks. Her trembling hands caused her to spill tea on the newspaper skewered on the warlord’s golden hook. When she looked up, his eyes were on her.

“Nervous?” He sneered, blowing smoke in her face. She didn’t answer, blinking away smoke-induced tears and quickly walking inside.

“Are you okay?” All eyes on her. The patrons looked ready to bolt, if only they could leave without him noticing. She nodded, then rushed to dry-heave into the nearest trash can.

“I’m calling the Marines,” said Leo.

“Good idea,” she replied from the trash can.

-

The Marines weren’t coming. Something to do with structural reorganization and paperwork over a special bounty for the criminals who participated in Marineford. Ridiculous. “Try to keep him around,” said the Marine on the other end of the line. “It helps us to know his location.”

The warlord seemed to like Caffe Dante, to Norah’s dismay. When the customers outside abruptly left and she smelled that unique smoky blend of leather and tobacco on the wind, she knew they had returned without needing to look.

“Oh. You’re… back.” She couldn’t keep the disappointment out of her voice as they took up the same positions and casual attitude as last time. She went through the motions of tucking the serving plate beneath her arm and plucking the pencil from behind her ear to take their order, almost able to hide her shaking. Almost.

“Calling the Marines didn’t work, eh?” Of course he knew. And despite Leo’s warning not to say anything, she couldn’t help but deadpan:

“I didn’t call them, my boss did.”

He stared. Then, God help her, he cackled. 

“Brave one, aren’t you?” He commented after calming down. “A rare find in a world full of cowards. What do you want, Daz?”

“Tea, please,” Daz said, uncrossing his arms.

“Whisky.”

She brought the drinks and made herself scarce. The rest of their stay passed without incident until he beckoned her with his ringed fingers to pick up the check.

Her eyes widened. “You tipped?” She blurted out, disbelief overriding any sense of fear or self-preservation.

“Yes?” 

“You didn’t last time.”

“You called the Marines last time.”

Touché.

#fanfic #my stuff #one piece fanfiction #i got a good idea riiiight as i was about to finish that could potentially change the whole thing and mean a ton of rewriting #i do not want to do that. but i dunno if i will be satisfied if i finish what i have now. #so maybe i add a bit now without rewriting. but that could fuck up the pacing. #maybe i will relax and work on something else for now idk im overthinking #my beta reader likes it so far and thats all that matters lol

[vaugarde]

i love kirby super star fanfic or comic adaptations where marx and kirby are actually best friends during the course of the entire game and marx blindsides kirby, to the point where i want to do something soooort of similar with my kirbyverse, but i also just kinda love how in canon marx was just like “im gonna very specifically ruin this guys week”

#i think marx is less outright evil and murdery and more ''i just want to fuck around with no one to stop me'' #saw itsquakey say that marx seemed to be an antagonist more out of petty antagonism where he just wanted to play tricks with no backlash #and i gotta replay milky way wishes again to verify that bc ill admit i never paid that much attention to his dialogue but thats interesting #or at least it differentiates him from magolor a bit more #who more or less just outright wants to rule the universe #im torn on whether or not i want him and kirby to be besties tho #for one im like. so unsure if i want him to be the same age as kirby #bc ngl ive always seen marx as rather young so i saw him and kirby as being the same age at one point #and magolor was also the same as them. but now i firmly see magolor as like in his early 20s or so mentally #mayyybe a late teen at best? and i feel like if he and marx are gonna be a duo itd be cool to keep em the same age? #but then i want marx and kirby to be like. direct parallels in some way like idk. theyre the same age yet had totally different circumstance #that shaped who they became (still sort of want to play into my ''marx is a mirror of kirby'' hc from when i was little) #ig i could just also age up kirby but like youll have to pry child kirby from my dead hands #none of this matters ik its not like i ship marxolor or marxby or anything (anymore) but like idk #maybe im overthinking it LOL #idk tho basically idea is that marx and kirby are actually childhood best friends who've known each other since they were newborns #but like. besides that i have no ideas sdklfjsdlkfjsdlkfsd i used to have an edgy ass backstory for marx where his parents were murdered #and thats valid if you have something like that for his backstory but idk if i want to go that route anymore #bc marx is less villainous here and more ''i have no real moral compass and i want to fuck with people'' #idk im throwing spaghetti at the wall btw nothing here is verified at all #echoed voice

[pepprs]

hi it’s midnight on june 8. one year ago today i found out i got the job im currently in. and today i will be interviewing for it again 🤪

#im scared shitless but trying rly hard not to think about it at all. idk if that’s a good strategy but this time it’s like i stay in the job #no matter what it’s just do i get permanent status and a raise or not. so it’s not low stakes ofc but the stakes aren’t as high and maybe #overthinking and prepping responses and shit will be unhelpful. but idk. i kinda want to explode about it lol. i just want this hell process #to be over and for all the secrets and politics and whatever to just… stabilize bc my nerves are so shot at this point lol #purrs #also ngl i am like 85% confident that no one else who applied (IF anyone else applied) made it through to interviews so the odds are… pretty #strong that this is gonna work out i think. but it’s still just so stressful and i want and need to not be stressed. lawl

[elegyofthemoon]

i wonder if anyone's discussed the buddha statues and their representations of the days of the week and their general meaning yet or am i going to have to do that

#snow plays hsr #IM JUST THINKING ALOUD #i have ideas and its like a. #its like one notebook page in very very tiny font of notes and ideas lol #but anyways #like i still have to read through this one thread on twitter about the buddhist/cultural references but alskdfh maybe theyve discussed it #there! #i said i wanted to talk more about cultural references but i feel like that thread does it way more justice than i can #but again: didnt finish reading through it properly #so idk if theyve talked about that and like some of the references over there #i wanted to reference it for phantylia but like? im pretty sure this is me overthinking if we're being real here LOL #i mean. i dont want to because i am lazy and so low energy (super super negative energy LOL BUT WE ARE TRYING!!!!) #but if no one did it i will. in some way LOL #maybe i should just start reusing my rambling blog i dont mind doing that tbh #at least its a little more organized there than here LOL

[oscill4te]

Theres an unfinished mini essay about lucien cramp in my drafts rn

#its been sitting there for a few weeks i remember writing so much and getting screenshots from the book for it #lucien is such an interesting protagnoist. basically.. he doesnt fit at all in his family #hes mocked and belittled by all of them actually #he is an activist and critical thinker at a young age and he is shunned by everyone for it; even his teachers #he is very hypervigilant (as seen in the book. makes sense w his brother constantly beating him at random) #he is an overthinker for sure; as seen in the book Twinsani-. oh im just rewriting the draft at this point. lol #txt #i relate to lucien a lot ik i dont talk abt him much but i hate how people say hes an annoying or bad protagonist.. #i sometimes wonder if they made lucien that way to mock people like him or if it was genuine #bc in the first book he didnt have much of a personality other than “f e a r” #he was just a quiet bystander mostly but i think in the first book they are a bit younger than in tge show. thats just a headcanon tho #but anyways maybe thats why #i wonder how much of the show was directed by brian wood. obviously many changes were made!!