#so i wanna get my thoughts down here

[hyolks]

as a thank you for 10k, i am holding an art raffle!! ✨✨

the rules are simple: you must be following me (hyolks) and please tell me a strange dream you've had!! thats it!!!

i await to hear your weird dreams o7 you have until december 1st!!

#art raffle #mitsuri kanroji #kny #sorry mitsuri is fr just who i feel i can use for events #i wanted to do somehting a little sillier than just a like/reblog/follow post so. flood me with your dreams #if you DONT dream/dont remember any dreams. erm. i guess find a dream TO share to me (with credit to whoever wrote it down/dreamed it lol) #geniunely thank you so much for 10k #i never thought i would get here..... yall are so nice to me #i'll be reblogging this post maaaybe every week of november. i'll tag it with raffle reblog if you dont wanna see #if i receive 100 entries i'll share my strangest most iconic dream

[silverskye13]

He is a creature to me do you understand?

@lindentree @helsknight-daily

#spazzcat doodles #lindentree #helsknight-daily #helsknight #hermitcraft #helsmets #dragon!helsknight #i am tired and sore and i am coping with my new favorite wing-man #i was thinking really hard last night about how tired i am and it got me thinking about how sometimes you get so tired all you wanna do #is sit down and then i thought about how that would apply to wings and suddenly people with wings sounds like an olympic sport to me #could you imagine the energy it would take to hover #sure gliding on wind currents conserves energy but it's still the equivalent of holding your arms outstretched for a long time right? #anyway take all the scary what if you got tired stuff and flip it you know how after you get out of a pool and you've been swimming all day #you're just absolutely ravenous #what i'm getting at here is i bet you he descends on unsuspecting gas stations and makes off with all their snacks #the hermits wake up see helsknight and grian have broken in just to steal their high calorie chips and fuck off #that's it that's my vision

[rist-ix]

https://www.tumblr.com/rist-ix/749015401700229120 not you reblogging this when you ship bloom with the man who murdered her family 😭

Bloom's into ppl who slay! Hope this helps :3

#alright snark and ship wars aside i get where you’re coming from tho #if you're genuinely interested in my thought process here i would love to elaborate #which is exactly what I’ll do! #first of all! the post you linked is about headcanons #which my brain kinda wants to put into a whole different category than ships — fandom ships in particular! — but i can leave that aside #because there IS an argument to be made that relationships are an extension of characterization and personality traits #if you wanna go that route i would wanna explain that Bloom's and/or Valtor's interest in the other is in fact based on canon #(even though I don’t really think ships need to be established in the source material. make shit up that’s what fandom is for #1) the Andros episode speaks for itself. Valtor specifically tells the Trix to back off because HE wants to be the one to fight bloom #2) the episode before that he asks questions about her (and only her; even though he has more powerful enemies to worry about) #demonstrating curiosity about and interest in her #3) that same episode (or the one before; can’t remember) is their infamous first meeting #where time LITERALLY slows down as the pass each other on the stairs #they get IMPACT FRAMES #the whole color palette changes!!! #idk about u but I eat that shit up. love the drama of it all no one does it like them #I’m gonna skip all the instances where Valtor is spying on Bloom through his little scrying spell because oh god who has the time #let’s go straight to Bloom #if I had a week I would not be able to collect all the moments where she growls his name in pure fury and single-minded determination #she gets a little bit obsessed with him over the course of the season and I personally think that’s very sexy of her #Bloom is known for her tunnel vision when it comes to her past and origins and Valtor's existence fits PERFECTLY into that #it ties in neatly with her overarching story of the past 2 seasons #literally PERFECT foils #which always makes for the juiciest stories #4) she singles him out for a duel in the museum episode #5) she can literally feel his presence #6) the mere mention of his name sends her into her weird faux enchantix #of course there’s no romance in canon but there’s TENSION AND CHEMISTRY which is all u really need for a ship #all their animosity and bad blood is what makes it so INTERESTING to wonder how they COULD work. it’s the spice that makes for good fanfic!

[kuroosdarling]

hello friendz !! i am packing my bags and moving to @tetzoro !!! please come join me if ya want ^_^

back to navi.

#i’ve been so annoying about this all week to my buddies but i have made the decision to archive this blog ! #i’ve had so many good memories here and have met so many amazing people that i get to call my friends 🥹 #i’ll forever be thankful for this blog for giving me a safe space to be myself and fully indulge (aka go delulu) in anime men #a large part of me does not want to make the move but tbh it comes down to organization #when i made this blog i never thought i’d meet mutuals and find a community here #if i knew then what i knew now i would’ve just made a new blog from the start #but managing a main blog and side blog sucks !!! (for me) bc i view this as my main blog #and tbh a fresh start sounds really nice #so !! if u read all this im giving you a pat on the head and a freshly baked cookie #i hope to see u guys at my new blog !!! #i am going to try to follow a lot of u from it but also !!! #no pressure to become moots again if ya don’t wanna <33 #love y’all sm #ALSO ! i will be keeping this blog up #forever my shrine to kuroo tetsuro #(my new blog is still v kuroo - centric .. don’t get me wrong. he is still the man™️) #okay im nervous !! laterz !!! <3 #⁺. ʚ aims lore ɞ ⋆˙

[cerise-on-top]

Haiii! I love your work :D

Could you possibly do a gaz x reader? When him and reader are celebrating their anniversary:), that would be really cute :’))

Hello! Thank you, I hope this is enjoyable as well! I went with a more fluffy route this time, I just wanna see Gaz happy and healthy and as far aways from any and all danger as possible! This request was really cute, I love Gaz! I'm glad there are several of us who do! Though I think I went a bit overboard with this, but how could I not when people are requesting best boi!

Celebrating Your Anniversary with Gaz

For the sake of this request, we’re gonna go with the idea that Gaz was able to be with you during your anniversary and didn’t end up being somewhere in the world, having to fight tooth and nail for his survival. We’re gonna go the fluffy route with this!

His memory is really good, Gaz would never forget something as important as your anniversary. Doesn’t matter if you’re together, doesn’t matter if you’re married. He has it memorized, he wrote it down on his phone, he noted it on several loose papers lying around just about anywhere. Trust me when I say he’s the last person to ever forget something like this. Although he would appreciate it if you remembered as well, he’d probably love it even more if, just once, you forgot about your anniversary, that way he could properly surprise and absolutely spoil you rotten. He wants to make your anniversaries days you can remember, so he will tailor them to your liking. You like going to arcades or amusement parks? A bookshop date? You just wanna go to McDonald’s? It’s all yours, and don’t you dare even think about paying, your wallet will not be strained on such a holy and sublime day.

The day would start off simple. You’d sleep in, if you can, cuddling for as long as possible, until one of you needs to get up for whatever reason. He’ll nuzzle into you, holding you as close to him as possible. He wants you to feel his warmth, how alive you make him feel, he wants you to feel how his heart beats for you and only you. Gaz has a beautiful voice, it’s fairly low and very calming to listen to. He’d hum your favorite tune that’s a bit calmer. He wants you to be as relaxed for him as possible, maybe even fall asleep in his arms again, even if he definitely wouldn’t mind you staying up to chat a bit with him as well. He’s gonna be all over you, making sure to touch you wherever he can so you feel secure with him. And when you’re drifting off to sleep again, that’s when his plan begins.

Gaz will plant a kiss on your neck or your forehead, whatever he can reach as he excuses himself to the bathroom. However, this sly dog will actually head for the kitchen to make you some breakfast. He’s a good cook, so whatever it is you like, he’ll make it. French toast? Scrambled eggs? Eggs and bacon? Your wish is his command, even if you never uttered a single order. He just hopes you won’t wake up or, even if you do, will at the very least stay in bed. This breakfast isn’t for you to enjoy in the kitchen or the living room, you’re to eat it in your bed. He even got you a nice tray so he can carry it to you without making a mess. Orange juice and all. You will be spoiled.

It’s then that he’ll wake you with another soft kiss to your temple, maybe shaking you awake a bit, so you can enjoy your breakfast together. Might even feed you a bit, just to be embarrassingly cute while he’s at it. The more content you look, the better. Afterwards, he’ll leave for the kitchen again, putting the tray away and decorating the living room a bit. There will be the most gorgeous roses you’ve ever seen in a vase, alongside several other flowers, each of which tells of a different kind of adoration. And when you finally follow suit and spot the flowers, he’ll just smile and claim that they looked very pretty. If you understand flower language, then you can tell he just really wanted to say he loved you in as many different ways as he could.

It’s then that he’ll ask you to get ready for the day, to brush your teeth and hair, and put on some clothes. You don’t need to look particularly fancy, he wants you to be as comfortable as you could possibly be. This is when he’ll take you to a place you like which, as mentioned before, could be just about anything. Waterpark, roller skate rink or just a lovely walk in the park, he’s open for everything. You will be accommodated accordingly. Those places are where you’ll be spending the majority of your day, grabbing something simple to eat for the time being, such as some fries or maybe some toast at a good cafe or pub.

When day meets night, he’ll take your hand in his, taking you to a fancy restaurant you’ve been to a few times. Preferably one where the both of you can look down at the city and see all the beautiful lights it has to offer. You’ll spend another two hours or so there. At the very least, you’ll be there until it gets dark, eating good food, having a good drink, maybe some wine as well. It doesn’t matter what you choose, all Gaz wants is to see the twinkling city lights dance in your eyes afterwards. When the evening is starting to roll over into night, he’ll take you to a ferris wheel. A big one where you can see the entire city from.

He’ll watch you as you excitedly look everywhere, taking in as many sights as you can, hoping that the ferris wheel stops at just the right time. Ideally, that would be right at the top. But he won’t be too picky if it’s somewhat to the side as well. As long as he gets to see your mouth agape at all the pretty lights, he’s content. While the ferris wheel stops, he’ll shoot his shot. If you’ve been together for a few years but aren’t married yet, he’ll propose to you. If you’re already married, he’ll still get down on one knee, take your hand in his and kiss its back tenderly, like a knight in shining armor. It’s embarrassingly sweet, but he knows no one but you is going to see it, so he does it anyway. You’re royalty in his eyes, you’re his to protect and care for, and he needs to show his loyalty however he can. Once he’s done kissing your hand, he’ll get up, holding your hand still and pulling you up with him, just so he can hold you close once again. Another tender kiss to your lips, and then he’ll get out a small box. Either the proposal ring or, if you’re married already, he’ll gift you a lovely little necklace made of pure silver. Something you can wear that will always remind you of him.

Once you’re down on the ground again, he’ll take your hand in his and lead you home, conversing with you about how much he loves you, how happy he is to have you in his life and how he hopes he gets to spend many, many more years like that with you.

If it’s not too late yet, you might watch a movie and cuddle on the couch. But you’ll likely both be tuckered out after today and just snuggle up in bed, ready for the next day.

And this is how Gaz’ ideal anniversary would go.

#cod #cod x reader #kyle gaz garrick #kyle gaz garrick x reader #gaz x reader #I wish I could gift Gaz a small music box that plays “You Are My Sunshine” I think that would be a cute gift #I have a music box that plays “Over The Rainbow” which I think is also very sweet #I think I might wanna start collecting music boxes they're just so very lovely #now that's a hobby I can also get behind! a lovely little tune that could calm down just about anyone! #maybe even put someone to sleep as well #I still remember one of the first things I ever wrote and posted here. The Batter and the Music Box #I wish I had the time to write something like that for my favorite lads and lasses as well #whew this is almost 1.300 words long which is surprising since I wanted to go for 800-ish #but I read Gaz and my brain short circuited he was my favorite when watching the campaign #I did start watching the mw reboot for him and Valeria but I stayed for him and Valeria #mw1 was the best one out of the three in my opinion. and now I'm watching the og mw when I can :-) #og Soap and Ghost are a funny little duo. I love the little hackerman Ghost so much! though I wanna know where the joke of him breaking #so many laptops came from! it's cute but I always thought he was good with technology :o either way I like to imagine talking about IT #stuff with everyone and being good at it and helping them! IT is fun I like it a lot :-) #either way thank you for the request! this one was also an absolute delight to write! love me some good natured fluff and Gaz :D

[i-wiggle-i-squirm-bc-i-am-a-worm]

Unnecessary discussion about Chat Noir and the Drums

There’s something I love so much about Chat playing the drums in Horrificator. This is something that’s been on my mind since I was 13, so hold on here.

First, obviously, Adrien also plays the piano - which obviously still has a lot of meaning!! - I’m not here to diss on the piano, there’s a lot of freedom of expression in every instrument type and music expression in general, but there’s a reason why some people are more inclined to different instruments, and I think there’s a lot more to it than just sound, but feeling as well. The role you play. How it feels to play it alone vs. playing it with others, if it’s typically something that you can play alone vs. in a group.

So first, the piano, and how I think it relates to Adrien’s character, plus how it relates to those points.

The piano, let’s be real, is something that a lot of us were forced to take lessons for at some point. It’s something that has ties to high society (there’s a HUGE discussion and so much more to say about that, but let’s not go there) and honestly?? I think it works pretty well with symbolizing the obsession with perfection that Gabriel shoves onto him. I’ve known many piano players, and while some genuinely loved playing it, it was always easier to somehow stumble onto someone with a deep hatred for it after being forced into lessons. Whenever I asked them why they hated it, I got almost the same answer every time: “I need to be perfect.” (Along with people saying that they were forced to lol)

Then there’s the role you play. You can play with people in a band, an orchestra, as an accompanist, a duet, at a bar with a bunch of people singing - whatever - music has many forms, and many different connections. But the piano is something you can play solo, no need for anyone else. It isn’t what you can do with other people that I’m focusing on for this, it’s the fact that you don’t need anyone. You can play alone, and it’ll still be fine. You can be alone, and you’re still fine - perfect even - which is something that Gabriel shoves down his throat, resistant to him playing with his friends by touching on this ideology.

Which is a glimpse into how he sees Adrien, and how Adrien experiences life. He can be alone, in fact he’s more perfect when he’s alone. And when other people are added, the attention to his perfection is taken away bit by bit, until he’s not good enough. He has to play solo in concert halls, on stage for everyone to watch, not in the back of a bar, playing with his friends.

Alright, so now we move to Chat Noir and the drums. The main play of this fake essay. 

It would be so easy to just ignore everything and just go “haha, he’s the energetic one, so ofc Ladybug gave him the drums! And they’re an easy instrument to play, etc.” but that’s far from the truth.

Ok, so I’m not a drum player or percussionist in any way, but I am a bass player, and genuinely love the drums so much because they’re incredibly important, and here’s my cheesy analogy: the drums are the heart of the band, keeping everyone on beat, it’s what you feel at the centre of it all. The band is nothing without the drums, without the percussion (The bass is what connects the band to the beat of the drums, kinda like the blood vessels, but sadly this ain’t about bass).  Like do you know how easy it is for a band to fall apart if they don’t have a drummer??? You need a drummer. You literally can’t survive without a drummer, because even if you manage to work together, use the bass as a backing, whatever you try, there’s still not much of a heart left.

But besides that, do you know how hard it is to play the drums??? You can’t just throw someone crazy, or energetic there just because “crazy drummers lol” you need someone who listens. Who can set the beat. Someone you can rely on, because they are the person in control, even if they aren’t as flashy as the guitar player. Reliable is the word that comes to mind. The drums can make or break a band.

And wanna know who that reminds me of?

Yeah. I highly doubt that the writers put this much thought into a random five second scene in an episode of season one, but it fits with Chat Noir SO well. 

Unlike the piano, the drums are almost solely played in a group setting - you need other people, and other people need you - he needs other people in his life, his friends are needed, but they also need him. Ladybug needs him, along with all the other heroes in Paris, whether he sees it or not. He seems to get in a state of thinking he’s not needed, but i do really think he’s the emotional glue that keeps the team connected, the heart that keeps them beating. If he’s isolated, he can’t quite reach his full potential that he can when he’s allowed to be around others, just like they can’t reach their own without him.

But on top of that, I think the stereotypes of the drums actually works in his favour for the next part. 

Breaking free from his dad, and being his own person, letting that fame go and embracing what he wants... well, to some that would look stupid. 

Relating it to music, the piano is flashy, you can play it solo, it sounds impressive, looks impressive, and people won’t think you’re just hitting pots and pans in the garage when you say you play it. But the drums are underestimated, a lot of people think you don’t need much practice, that they’re just the guys who sit at the back of the stage, not doing much, but that couldn’t be further from the truth.

Just like Adrien finally being who he wants wouldn’t be stupid, it could never be stupid, but there’s a stigma. But letting go of his flashy, solo life, and being the heart of his friend group is something that I think makes him truly happy as Chat Noir, and hopefully he gets to be like that as Adrien too.

Like Plagg said, Chat Noir and Adrien are both the real him, and I think the drums capture that perfectly. The heart and freedom, the meticulousness (rather than perfection) and steadiness, those are good qualities of a drummer.

I dunno, I just think it fits.

(sdfghjklkjhgf again I should state that acoustic versions of songs exist, and you can play songs without a drum and it sounds fantastic, but I’m not going into that today. Just talking generalization, and playing in a group setting). 

#I hope I didn't sound like an absolute idiot #lol I don't wanna sound like Luka #this is just a subject I'm really passionate about and mixed with Miraculous it's just sdfghjjhgfd #miraculeakless #him playing drums is something that's probably never going to come up again ever #but in my mind Adrien healing means him taking up playing the drums and I've never dropped this #no really I wrote a fic when I was 14 about Adrien somehow disguising himself and being friends with people and he also took up the drums #I should find it and rewrite it lol #but here I am at 20 and my mind is still on this #and now I work with music as a job so I actually have the proper words to write it all down #miraculous ladybug #horrificator #can't believe I'm digging up a S1 episode but I needed to get these thoughts out #chat noir #adrien agreste #character study #uhhh sorry if this is unreadable #but I did not re-read this bc I spent too much time writing it and I don't feel like going through this again

[heaven-with-mark]

"𝙙𝙧𝙪𝙣𝙠 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙥𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣."

The now empty Truly can slams against the counter, tinny and empty. "Better get drinkin, Eef!" You yell, triumphant and two seltzers ahead of your opponent. Mark looks a tad disappointed, back against the counter and arms crossed. You and Ethan sat at the island on barstools, having a competition to see who could drink more before getting shitfaced.

Ethan was lagging behind. You were feeling tipsy yourself but he was getting a little woozy. The way his body would tip to one side until he noticed and righted himself told you a lot. Mark cleared his throat, and both you and Ethan turned to look at him. Your smile dropped the moment the empty Truly box left the olders' hand and tumbled to the floor. "Automatic win." He says, nodding towards you.

The smile returns as you slide from your seat, a little stumble to your step as you saunter up to the fridge. Out comes an unopened twelve pack of Coors, your least favorite alcohol. "You hate beer." Mark comments, pushing himself off the counter to stand at the island. You slide it to Ethan and stand next to Mark as the drinks are opened. Ethan passes you a Coors and next thing you know, you've had five.

"Uh. Fuck." You giggle, swaying in the middle of the kitchen. Ethan was... laying on the floor next to you. Hands over his eyes, face flushed, stupid drunk smile. Mark now sat at the island, chin in the palm of his hand. He found you and Ethan amusing to watch.

Until now. Your stomach churned, your heart sinking. You were absolutely terrified to puke. It was a childhood fear for no real reason. "Mark," you whispered, hands out to steady your rocking, "Mark I think I'm gonna throw up."

He'd known you long enough to understand why it was a problem. He sighs, "alright. Fun over. You're both cut off." Ethan cries, but you don't catch whatever he said. You're no longer a happy drunk, you're scared to move in fear of emptying your stomach. Mark is gentle in the way he presses a hand to your back, slowly guiding you over to the couch. Some animated movie plays and you're barely aware of it as you're helped into laying down.

"Mark, I need water. I'm gonna go get water." You slur, and immediately sit up. Your head hits the couch pillow a second later, feeling like you'll upchuck if you try to do a single thing. "I'll get you water, just chill for a second." Mark murmurs, smoothing the hair stuck to your forehead. Your heavy eyes shut, and you buzz in and out of consciousness as you vaguely hear Ethan get ushered down the hall to his room.

When Mark returns, it's with water and blankets. He hands you the drink first, keeping a hand on the cup as yours cradles it just to make sure it doesn't spill all over. "Are you okay now?" He asks softly, setting your beverage down on the coffee table. You're only now aware of being in tears, very disorientated and drunk. He's leaning over you, using the back of the couch to brace himself. Unable to think right, your hands come up and do the grabby hand motion.

After some very slurred convincing, the footrest of all three couch cushions are kicked out so Mark can squeeze onto the couch behind you. You're warm, content, and very tired now watching whatever movie played on TV, Mark pressed to your back and holding you close. Still both in jeans and not in comfortable clothes, you're comfy how you are. And scared if you move, it'll break the peaceful atmosphere.

"I hope you know I'm not dealing with your hangover." Mark whispers, patting your hip. You giggle and turn in his arms, face shoved to his chest. Unashamed you take in the scent of his cologne, listening to the rumble of his chuckle. "Alright Tipsy, go to sleep." He says, and your mind shuts off almost immediately. Tomorrow was gonna be one hell of a day full of headache and nausea but Mark was gonna help you, even though he said he wouldn't. He's got a little bit of a soft spot for you.

"At least I beat Ethan. Momma ain't raise no quitter." You slur, having to have the last word.

#markiplier x reader #mark fischbach x reader #mark fischbach fluff #markiplier fluff #this is really bad but im in the mood to write and i don't wanna sit here trying to make it good #this happened except for me getting to cuddle a hot buff youtuber. i went to my sisters and i got wasted and then had to lay down #i really thought i was gonna throw up so i went from chugging beer to laying on the couch crying

[keeps-ache]

wink blink look !!

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #sona #ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhgghhhh #am i RIGHT guys hfhvs #:33 #//not many thoughts recently #not many thoughts for a while actually lol #must've talked myself weary! huh! #/let me try at this though - i feel like i have some little part of my brain that's all stopped up #it's been like that for a minute ! #/ah but a question - do you ever stand by a bit of forest and hear what are distinctly Whispers ? #i know it's definitely the wind but it's fun to think it's anything else lol :>> #ghosts or fairies or the road down the hill for whatever reason #/oh and speaking of hearing i got a weird + shrill + loud tone in my ear the other day and it just didn't happen again #a sudden EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and then it stopped lmao #funky stuff man. wonder what's up with that hfhs #//anyway i'm working on my artfight references rn lol :) #i've finished one! what a miracle!! hfsh- #it looks a lot better than the one last year like Wow. don't think the same person made these you know what i mean hfh #//ah i've also started using padlet for realsies this time :> #it's a neat spot - it's gonna be great to just have the palettes i need on another device loll #that's the biggest problem i have on this planet! having to scroll my blog for palettes is not the most fun thing hfsh #/anyway gonna get back to it!! #i'm sort of tired but i Really wanna make kira and hid's this yearrr #they are very ~+~+~ <3 ~+~+~ to me lol :>> #so toodles ! here i go again hfhsv

[stonyponyofficial]

i love seeing how much paratext i can fit into the tags. read my footnotes boy

#violet originals #postposting #like that's its own statement right #and then i come down here and tell u everything i was thinking about it #like i just made a post where i put some non organization tags on it for fun as a fun reference #but also it helps clarify the original statement in a less committal jokey way i can have a little fun with #so i start thinking about all that and i get the hilarious original idea for this post and i think abt those tags #but it's only available to those first people who see my original post as it was made #not reblogged #someone can screenshot those tags but they aren't necessary to understand #but they don't add to the post itself just elaboration that isn't really needed #and they aren't all visible at first bc u have to hit the button to see the rest #so my extra little thoughts are there for anyone to see but ull probably wanna see them more if u know me a little through online #but mostly i thought it'd be funny to make this kind of post and then just let the tags run wild bc that's what the post is about see? #do u like all this extra clarification or would u rather i have just posted the post #or nothing at all #or put these tags in the post #bc that could make sense but the original text of the post is to be shared around and 'related to' by other Tumblr users who do the same #so it can't be too long but i need to say all my thoughts about the subject or ill explode and make another post or reblog a comment #so it's all down here instead where it's optional and i can just kinda say what im feeling without feeling like i have to funny it up #i should probably read house of leaves #idk is that related i only have a tiny idea of what that book is but it seems related somewhat #umm #hi :3 #kisses u with tongue #adds tags to this later bc im silly :3 #hi char hi io #the two people who will probably read this far now lmao

[teja-has-puppet-autism]

y'know sometimes I go to make a post on this here webbed site, and I almost always end up deletin it cause I measure it through the "how widely applicable is this" + "how horribly can people twist this" metrics and it just stops my little fingies from typin

(this turned into me typing an essay in the tags cause I very much did need to process some shit lmao)

#I have thoughts I wanna get out there #but also I have had people threaten me and harrass me for far less than my thoughts of #'hey maybe my community isn't fuckin normal about trans women' and #'you can be fucked in the gender and also not use transmisogynistic stereotypes and terminologies to do that' #while also pointing out that transmasculine experiences are frequently ignored erased minimized and criticized habitually #(I have eliminated my worries via tag talk lmao so i will keep on processin down here) #Like idk its such a difficult intersection of shit because obviously a lot of transmasculine folks have experienced primarily if not only #other transmasc spaces online and have some deep set transmisogyny going on and then also the other way around of a lot of transfeminine #folk have primarily if not only interacted within transfem spaces and have deep set transmisogyny goin on #(which I'm not gonna argue on transmisogyny being a transfem only word or about transandrophobia or anti-transmasculinity my verbige is #constantly changing around this topic because of the shit that gets hurled at transmascs that use any of the transmasc specific words or th #OG word that applies to the misogyny experienced and intertwined with transness just: language is hard and imperfect so I'm using what I'm #using right now) #and anyway so those two groups of folk clash on their own and have a lot of strained and difficult communication and then there's a third #group that intentionally causes further rifts by trolling and sending hate anons and making accounts pretending to be transfem or transmasc #and shitting on ''the other side'' (heavy HEAVY quotations on that one) #and that all combines into an absolute clusterfuck of lack of understanding or sympathy from either 'side' of things for the other #there is just a lack of fundamental knowledge about our brothers sisters and others shared between us all and it is INFURIATING

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#love that my body decided to incapacitate me the weekend before i have to read 5 different papers for classes #and it would b one thing to just read them but no for 3 of them i have to give detailed interpretation and 1 i have to present on #ive already failed to read one bc i forgot we had to do 2 papers for monday. oops. not that i could have done it anyway. i barely got 1 done #and im on track to fucking up the one due Tomorrow as well #im just fucking tired of reading fucking chemistry driven papers that i dont understand no matter how many times i read them #and everyones like oh itll get easier but no it fucking wont bc i cant fucking read right #its so fucking frustrating. why do i even bother? im so tried #i don't even have the paper im supposed to present on so ill have to do it all tomorrow. cool. great. not that i could do it today anyway #im just. this is gonna b a difficult week #and i misused my whole day by doing extractions bc i scheduled my training a week ago when i thought i would b fine over the weekend #nope. its fucking bullshit. this is y im like. y do i even want to b in academia? #how could i b a prof if i cant read well? its fine to b dyslexic as a math person but im like i have to read so much and so little gets thru #but then what the fuck else am i supposed to do? idk. im just gonna write down something for all these questions and go tf to sleep #ill get up at some horrible time in the morning to finish this. damn the consequences. ill see my therapist tomorrow anyway #and meet with my advisor like 🤪 yo guess what i made zero progress this week #sorry u got stuck with me while im going thru a year of fucking health problems #but whatever cant get rid of me now im already here. here and tired and i wanna go to bed #unrelated

[mad4morbius]

I hate to say it but I’m back in my MHA/BNHA era and my god I’ll never forgive the fandom for what they did to you izuku

any other audhd people get that impending feeling when you know you’re gonna hyper-fixate on a character/get really back into your old special interests? yeah that would be me right now

#i said it once and i’ll say it again because the mha fandom has a really bad problem with this #proshippers do not fucking interact #i’m serious #it’s on sight #also the people who say “cinnamon roll deku” #YALL JUST DONT GET HIM LIKE I DO #i hate when people get their hands on an interesting and complex character and boil them down to one singular trait oh my god #tags are just thoughts atp #mha #yall wanna see my old mha ocs? I’ve been revamping them (plus i’m a shifter so i might talk about my dr) #i don’t think people know i’m a shifter here on tumblr but I am a shifter so there’s that

[rosicheeks]

What would be your perfect date? 😊

First date? Probably just a classic dinner at a restaurant or homemade meal. I want to get all dolled up and they actually dress up too and we spend the time getting to know each other.

#perfect first date and perfect date in general would be different though #I’m a hopeless romantic so I have plentyyyyy date ideas 😂 #the one that comes to my mind right now is a paintball date #(specially thinking of the scene in 10 things i hate about you) #but really??? #truthfully? #I want them to plan a date by themselves and just tell me when to be ready for them to pick me up #i wouldn’t really care what we did #just the thought of having someone actually spend the time planning and getting a date together? #that would blow my mind tbh #i wanna say I’ve been on like 3ish ‘real’ dates and I’m pretty sure I had to decide for each of them #if you know me you know I HATE decisions #so I think having someone know that about me and decide for me and plan it all so I don’t have to lift a finger?? #yeah that sounds like a dream #for the first date I like the idea of just a classic dinner date so then you can kinda feel out the vibes #if we can talk over dinner and constantly have something to talk about (no awkward dead silences) then I’m sure I’d have fun #doing anything else with them #** also I was trying to reply to this ask while I was at work but it didn’t go well 🤦🏽‍♀️ #every single time I looked down at my phone or started typing something would happen in my yard #so I had to set my phone down and take care of it 🤦🏽‍♀️ #only one more shift left and then I’m outta there 👌 #lol this is all over the place I’m sorry #I don’t wanna go back and redo any of it tho so here we are 😂 #I just really want to go on a date in general 😭😭😭 #I want to flirt and blush and get swept off my feet 😤 #thanks for the ask sweetheart 🩷 #ask #lovely mutuals

[ghostighostly]

I have made. Many mistakes,,,

I've gone from 'eh i never do anything dont worry we can play videogames!' To 'Sorry cant talk i have the next 3 weeks scheduled to the second and am actively having a panic attack. Bye!'

How did this happen? Christmas. And divorce, but that's less impactful.

I will now proceed to rant in the tags gootbye forever.

#ghosti talks #OKAY. #I HAVE A MILLION AND ONE PROJECTS AND HAVE CHOSEN THE WORST TIME TO RANT ABOUT THEM. #HERE WE GO #first off i decided a month ago that christmas holidays was art study time!! all two weeks just hand studies and chill #then my dad moved out and my dumbass said 'oh heck yea i need a project ill come help with literally everything!' #then forgetting i already had a project went and told some other people 'oh you wanna fix the jrwi wiki? i am so down fuck fandom! i need a- #project anyways! #boom. millions dead. #i also decided hey why not do a bunch of art before christmas for all my online friends i only have *checks discord* 30..? #boom. trillions dead #wait theres only 7billion people uhm #whatever im fucming dying #AND GUESS WHO JUST TOOK A SHOWER #all the thoughts and ideas are rushing into my brain all at once and i cannot afford to fail even one of these tasks ive given myself #because im me. #dear god save my soul i will get no sleep tonight. pain pain pain.......... #oh yea these are the main 3 projects btw im also having too deal with my trillion hyperfixations and the fact that my notifs are constantly #full and i have to completly tidy my old room at my mothers and the whole house cause hey why not its productiv month #aka. burnout month!! #so yeag #sorry for spilling literally all my personal life stuff on this public site whoopsie #is ok no one gives a shit *gets shot in the head with a sniper* #*is bleeding out on the floor* #okay goobye :3

[imwritesometimes]

So like.... what if I had many ideas for cake decorating? And what if I just bought some stuff to make some cute cupcakes? And this cake idea I have had knocking around in my head? And what if I actually tried?

#sooooo here's the thing. I've tried to make stuff (not food) on my own before and sell it #I had an etsy... it didn't uh. go well. #and so. because of past. tanking flaming failures. I am apprehension to try anything ever again. ever. #and then I talked to a financial clown dick last year (mandatory) and he shut down baking real quick #and I think he thought I meant like. full blown bakery space. which like. no. no thanks. #I just wanna make stuff in my house and basically do like? cake commissions? #like hey heres the cakes/cupcakes/candies/etc I offer I have x amount of slots open for the month put orders in a week in advance! #and like. I've THOUGHT abt this. I have thought abt what I'd offer. seasonal menus. like. I've REALLY thought abt it. #and my tax preparer was like financial clown dick is a clown dick there is some money to be made baking #and like because I have extreme like FOCUS ON THIS THING NOW!!! WOOO!!! FULL SPEED AHEAD WITH THIS THING!!! #syndrome #all I've been able to think abt now is decorating cakes & cupcakes #I ordered some stuff. I HOPE HOPE HOPE it arrives in one piece pls god 🤞🤞🤞 #gonna make some stuff and see how it turns out #I have a LOT of things I could make though not JUST cake/cupcakes #so idk I'd love to get paid to make desserts & candies. even if it was just like not a TON of profit but some extra cash #to pay bills. maybe have a lil fun money. #gahhhh I'm really in my head abt this and I'm also SO sleepy I'm like hysterical rn #anyway. venting abt it here cause I don't wanna jinx it speaking abt it irl (anxiety is so much fun 🙃) #erin explains it all

[elegyofthemoon]

shaking you're lucky anti entropy visual novel is fucking broken again i think permanently i would not shut the fuck up about that visual novel

#SHAKING IM PRETTY SURE..... THATS THE SAME PLACE IN THE VISUAL NOVEL #snow plays hi3 #sorry im doing this on main. i wouldve put it on the ss blog instead bc thats where i throw all my hi3 related thoughts T _ T #but just bc i rb'd that post here im like WHHHH HIIIIII ????????? COOL!?!?!?!??!?!?!?! #anti entropy takes place between london and some places in the US ! #but i never listed down all the places they go to in each T _ T #AND I CANT ACCESS THEM BECAUSE THE VISUAL NOVELS DOOOOOOOOWN (STARTS PUNCHING) #you served me well... youll always be remembered 🤧🤧 #so i didnt know the name of the cemetry #until i saw that post and i was like wAH. WAIT A SECOND THAT LOOKS LIKE - ?! #one of these days *shakes my fist* #its a shame that the vn went down #T _ T i was going to use it as voice acting practice but nooooo #i still am on a journey to find sOMETHING to practice with it sucks ass but ngl #it would be fun to restart honkai to try doing some eng dub interps. #BUT I DONT WANNA RESTART.. IM MAKING SM PROGRESS.. #ok once i finish ch 10 i think. maybe ch 12 #ahaha truth be told once i get to ch 12 youre losing me to the void forever lmao #anyways! hi. sorry not meant to be on main but ✌🏼 #im so pooped still from yesterday so im like o 7 o i want to do NO work #i dont WANT to study about white blood cells T _ T #im not meant to be here!!!! this aint my department!!!!! get me OUT #anyways i couldve put this in the tags #i didnt on that post bc i was like T _ T oh op would see this #so ill be a little nerd in private (on a public blog)