#so i need to practice those

[termitesisagrandslam]

think i might transition from my current sloppy half print half cursive writing to all cursive. it's way easier and also neater when i do all cursive. if only i could figure out how not to grip my writing utensil so hard, and not push down so hard

#for some reason i never really fully learned like half the capital cursive letters #so i need to practice those #also i never get lowercase b right

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[dayurno]

robin cross and kevin day parallels actually go so crazy. they both spent their formative years in a basement underground with exy-obsessed captors. they both saw exy as freedom. they both were isolated even within the foxes’ group of outcasts. they were both under andrew’s protection. it cost kevin jean to leave the nest and it cost robin another girl’s life to escape her kidnapper. robin carried her racquet with her to self-soothe and kevin restrings the net of his when he’s anxious. they’re even bird coded

#to those unfamiliar the word robin is also a kind of little bird 🕊️ #i dont ship them but i dont blame the people who do if im honest #BUT ITS JUST CRAZY TO MEEE #its so fucked that canonically kevin never gets to meet her #but i will say that the echoes of his presence are still there #she joins the foxes the year after kevins graduation and there andrew is taking robin to night practice #there he is coaching her because he knows exy is the tool she needs to believe in herself #there he is doing what kevin day told him only years late 🫠 #sorry they make me insane #robin when she’s the weird kandreil amalgamation no one asked for #will expand on this if i have more thoughts later but please talk to me about robin. thank you #txt #aftg #kevin day #robin cross #kevin #robin #fav #kevin&robin

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

MDZS x Warrior Cats AU (part 1): That boy can meow!

Names and a huge inspiration credits to @clintbeefwoods!

(part 2)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mdzs au #mdzs warrior cats au #wei wuxian #mo xuanyu #little apple #lan wangji #lan wunian #If you thought for a second I wouldn't find a way to keep littlewang in this au #then you have severely underestimated my horse yuri powers. #The start of the Warrior cats AU begins! Yes the clans are somewhat the same but the lore *has* shifted to better suit mdzs canon. #For one: Cross clan apprentice training is an option. Gusu school arc is still a school arc. #wwx would have a blast pouncing on lwj's Too Long Tail He Has Yet To Grow Into. #(Its very important to me that lwj/bluepaw has those kittenish big ears). #I will probably circle back to drawing teenxian apprentice antics after I get through the cast. #I had to put myself into a cat drawing boot camp for this AU (despite my sona being a cat I...actually don't really know how to draw one). #and I feel like I learned a lot + need a lot more practice...however this *is* the practice! It's for fun! #I'll be alternating comics and AU stuff this month! happy chatember! #Clintbeefwoods has put a ton of work into this AU and I am so excited to show it off!

[trashmancer]

I’ve always loved retro sci-fi and horror pulp covers and wanted to try my hand at replicating one. So I did a digital painting of The Murderbot Diaries in something like that style. I used a bunch of different pulp covers for reference and inspiration.

#the murderbot diaries #murderbot #yeah i love the art on those so much it's unreal #i need to practice a lot more to even get close

[canisalbus]

Different Italian anon, but the thing with Tuscan C is that it's pronounced like a very strong H sound, which is extra weird cuz the letter H makes no sound in Italian, normally. It sounds the way Spanish pronounce the J. We say it's "aspirato". So then people from there will say things like Hoha Hola (coca cola), and it's funny. It's also extremely contagious, I got family in Florence, you spend 3 days with them you start doing it too before you even realize.

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#that sounds really endearing actually #answered #anonymous #this is entirely beside the point but I still feel sort of bamboozled by languages that have silent letters #or when letters have multiple pronunciations that vary wildly from word to word #and when the sound and the letter don't seem to match like how J sounds very close to H in Spanish like you mentioned #I'm generalizing a little but none of these are really a thing in Finnish #in Finnish words are pretty much always pronounced the way they are written if that makes sense #I don't know the language terminology but I think phonetic spelling is what you call it #each letter represents a specific sound and you string those together #when you hear a word you can always tell how it's written and when you read a word you know how to pronounce it #even if you're encountering the word for the first time and have no idea what it means #it's comparatively direct and predictable there's practically no need for guessing or memorizing #also the stress is always on the first syllabe and it's so subtle it might as well not be there at all #which sometimes makes spoken Finnish and Finnish accent sound kind of monotonous there isn't a lot of intonation #I was extremely confused by the concept of spelling bees as a kid #anyway long tag ramble but this stuff is just interesting to me

[royalarchivist]

With over 20 members currently on the QSMP and more on the way, it's almost impossible for a single person to stay up to date on everything that happens, even with help from QSMP's official Twitter recap accounts.

For people who are interested in QSMP's story, characters, and/or streamers but don't have time to watch hundreds of hours worth of VODs, I've created the QSMP VOD Timestamp Archive.

If there's a particular lore moment you missed live and can't find, search for it in the archive!

Timestamps include quotes, notable lore events, and funny interactions. Interesting or important moments from each stream are bolded for emphasis. I'm also adding short summaries for lore-heavy / eventful stream.

I've organized the document so it should be easy to navigate, and you can CTRL + F to search for specific streamers and/or events.

Complete VOD playlists, recaps, and additional resources are also included in the document for people who might be feeling overwhelmed by the amount of QSMP content out there. It's never too late to get into the series!

If you have a streamer you watch consistently, consider writing down important timestamps to help fellow fans! You don’t have to take detailed notes like mine – even one or two timestamps can be a real lifesaver. If you have any helpful timestamps you want added to the list (or even a 1 sentence summary of a particular stream), send it to me via DM so I can add it to the archive.

I am just one person, so unfortunately this archive is by no means comprehensive, but I'm constantly updating things and adding more streams and timestamps to the document. I've been working on this project for a while now, so even though it's not complete, I hope people find it useful!

[ VOD Timestamp Archive ]

#QSMP #Quackity #QSMP Resource #QSMP Masterpost #QSMP VOD Timestamp Archive #Also I saw the comments and tags y'all left on yesterday's post... thank you.... #That made me smile a lot :') #It's nice getting feedback and it's nice knowing my stuff is helping people #I know most of the people featured here are the same 5-6 people I'm trying to diversify but good god there's so many frickin streamers on th #I wanna watch Maxo more but his streaming schedule doesn't match up with mine very often #also. My Spanish needs work. #But I'm giving it my best shot! #Also if you have any feedback or suggestions on the organizations please let me know #I'm going to try and start linking to the official QSMP stream summaries they post each day #and then I'll retroactively add those to past streams #because god fobid you try and find anything on Twitter #after 24 hours its wiped off the face of the earth practically

[lonicera-edulis]

This is something experimental (I didn't even want to post it here), no well thought out concept here, I was working on appearances only. Star Trek universe actually has their own elf/dwarf like races (the episode with Spock's dad), but how could I pass by klingons.

#klingons and cardassians are my most favourite races appearances wise #don't even know how to tag because I didn't want it in this blog #restraining myself from crossover aus because I am too predictable and repetitive #sorry couldn't put all those klingons in federation so they are kind of enemies now #this au doesn't make sense as I said #I someow can't draw fili and kili #I need to practice #the hobbit #hobbit aus

[meownotgood]

cosplanning for the next con... hello

#I spent so long on the wig... 😭 #I've never worn a wig before #so I didn't really know how to do it #and I'm still not sure if I like it #frieren doesn't have those hair clips but I need them otherwise the bangs get in my face #the pigtails are also so heavy #I took the whole cosplay off and felt ready for a nap loooolll #I'll practice doing her hairstyle on myself in case I end up ditching the wig #the con isn't for a while so I have time #zzzzzzzz.....

[infernal-lamb]

take this WIP…having a go at Haro, but this is part of a larger piece lol :-) he’s such an interesting character and his crown situation intrigued me…I have Theories

#cult of the lamb #my art #cotl haro #PLSSSSS IM DRAWING IM JUST SO BUSY #also Haro is one of those characters I need practice at. he is very Cool #tw eye trauma

[crescentfool]

it's mochizuki monday! have some old doodles because i miss him 💛

#persona 3 #ryoji mochizuki #minato arisato #aigis #ryomina #<- theyre jst eating mcdonalds and its a sc redraw does it even count #lizzy does art #these are from like waaay back in jan - march 2023... i think i should do more loose shit like this again me thinks #i really miss drawing these lads but i forgor how to draw ryojis hair so im gonna need to practice again 💀 #actually i forgor how to draw humans in general everything ive drawn lately is just. squids. lol #BUT I WILL DO IT AGAIN!!!!! FOR THESE GUYS!!!! i want to relearn for them #also there is no greater joy than drawing ryoji the way someone draws like. those blob emojis #aggressively beaming ryoji with sad pathetic wet dog energy ohh poor sad miserable ryoji's existential crisis and fears

[fisheito]

this is what i was cookin up while on nu:vacation [avoiding event spoilers] my dream.....my hopes....... EVERYONE PUT ON THE PRINCESS GOWN🗡

#those poofy skirts are very effective at hiding their lack of hips #don't need leg game when you're in a floofy ballroom gown #i mean. it would be nice if yall had leg game. get some quads up in there. maybe even some thick calves . perchance #i need thick muscled olivine revealing his glass slippers from under his skirt #his legs are LORGE and he's wearing his pretty lil stockings and walking in his heels perfectly #he practiced a lot! and now he's an expert 😊 i'm proud of him #meanwhile i want dante to try heels before wobbling and ... well #depending on whether someone witnesses him wobbling his reaction may differ #if there are witnesses he will stubbornly swear to master the high heels. if no one sees.... #maybe he'll just swap out for a functional pair of boots. like quincy. i'm torn about quincy #one half of me wants quincy wearing the ugliest dirtiest most worndown boots under his new spotless dress #the other half is like YOU'RE GOING TO COMMIT. YOU'RE GOING TO PUSH THOSE CALF MUSCLES TO THE LIMIT. STILETTOS ON ! MOUNTAIN MAN #at first i tried making everyone's hair match the original princesses they're cosplaying as (so everyone had much longer hair) #but when i got to blade . it just. didn't seem right #then i started sideeyeing everyone like :/ this aint no genderbending hours... #i want yall as YOURSELVES. unmodified (mostly). just. wearing the dress is all #so i went back and changed yakuoli's hair to be closer to their OG lengths #BUT thEN i sat there staring at quincy kuya and garu #bc. come on. quincy with aurora's flowing golden curly locks. he was made for it. #topper put the wig on him and he can't be bothered to take it off (long hair can act as a nice cushiony pillow 😁) #and kuya without the sassy ponytail?? well... i guess i can let him keep that since he CAN change his appearance at will #and if garu is dressed up as rapunzel... he HAS to have long hair... that's just the Point #OK so yall in the middle can have some long manes specially formulated for this special occasion. #there was already something brewing within me when tjhey announced the silhouettes #seeing yakumo in his 🧍‍♂️ pose and regular pants... #i was feelin preemptively robbed of pretty princess yakumo and the injustice was just casually simmering in my veins day by day #then idololivine's words spurred me into action with a clear vision #and here we are now. #at about the midway point i was yelling at eiden #EIDEN YOU HAVE TOO MANY WIVES. I'M ABOUT TO DOWNSIZE YOUR HAREM. THIS IS RIDUCLOUS I'M TIRED

[moonviewer]

"I will keep going forward, no matter how hopeless it might seem."

(please do not repost my art and just leave a link to it if you'd like to share instead, thank you!)

#shining nikki #sn nikki #my art #sn #nikkiverse #i drew this for an art contest #but i really drew it because i wanted to say something with its message #and because i needed a reason to paint something to practice my art style #lol #i tried to make it so even those who don't know its context could understand...at least a little bit #i've recently been watching Naoki Saito (an illustration advice youtube channel) and i've been wanting to try out the things i learned ther #this time i wanted to try conveying a concept/message just in 1 image alone #at first it was honestly more difficult than i thought i tried it for days #but nothing worked and when i finally did get the idea that became this drawing it was because i was thinking one night of how #nikki was someone who has failed thousands and thousands of times yet she never gave up #i admired that because i was thinking of how i just keep failing in my goals that night #that was when i thought i wanted to convey that strength that nikki has #that strength that i also wished to have #and that was when the concept just flowed to me like water so easily #isnt it strange that its only when i start to feel like theres something i want to say that i finally find the idea to express it #something so obvious that i don't even realize lol #for context this image is about someone who lived in a world operated by AI where all emotions and creativity are shut down and dominated b #AIs kinda like the current AI crisis in the art community #but this someone believed in a world with vivid color #and the heart that created such an imperfect yet beautiful world before AI dominated it #thats what i wanted to express #thanks for reading if anyone bothers reading my long rants lol :)

[infini-tree]

in light of recent news: Let Him In

#mells draws a thing #captain underpants #this is one of those 'i blacked out and suddenly this was on my canvas fully completed when i snapped out of my Flow State' sort of drawing #i needed practice drawing manmade objects so this design challenge was honestly perfect

[oliwrightofficial]

I don't think this is known knowledge but when we saw Oli and Louis in a local pub, they were drinking but, they were on their phones like most of time, I don't know if they're having a conversation through text or texting some other people. When we went pass by their table, we can clearly see that these two were fucking playing Sudoku on their phones. I don't know if its their "whoever loses pays the bill" game but wow, Louis and Oli plays Sudoku????? Mundane but suprising tbh.

my default is to assume every anon receipt is made up- EXCEPT you, my Oli anons, because every receipt I get is more mundane than the last and I LOVE IT!!! THIS is literally what I want to know I am LIVING and I mean yeah! What the fuck could they possibly have to say to each other 24 hours a day, exercise your brains and stay sharp boys. I agree they're probably competing against each other, seems like a thing they would do.

#sudok-oli #recent anon that I didn't answer about supportive Oli- sorry #I did like the thought and have thoughts! #but I realized all of them were based on things we've seen in practice in the wake of major tragedies #that tbh I don't feel comfortable talking about for funsies #so I decided to just let that one go by #I will say however that I really doubt Oli needed to pull out any of those support strategies in the wake of #louis holding hands with a girl in public like.... he's fine #he's not crying on his sudoku #in my opinion

[improvapocalyps]

I was listenin' to the ocean I saw a face in the sand But when I picked it up Then it vanished away from my hands, down...

My Darling (The Devil Knows My Name), by @simple-seranade

In participation of the Hermitshipping Big Bang 2023 hosted by @hermitshippingbigbang!

(^ rough reference sheet, emphasis on the rough. i also did not notice the difference in lineart color until saving this as an image file.)

#hermitshipping #clethubs #cletho #hermitshipping big bang #events #my art #pro tip: dont plan a 4-month project when in reality you only have about a month of free time total in those four months #i really need to practice having long-term projects #dont ask me how cleos braid work cause idk LOL #same with ethos hair #[how do i draw a wolfcut] you DONT silly!!! #hair inconsistencies happen bc they move around and not bc the artist have a skill issue /lhj #bishop sleeves are so hard to draw im never drawing them again. #stupid fabric folds (affectionate)