#so i can still use the light lmao

[coolnonsenseworld]

Samurai and Ninja in crappy pics because December here is under a constant cloud and I just want y'all to see them all golden and cute without learning how to take aesthetic pictures 🥴 💙❤️😆🥰

linktr.ee/Mezzy

#klance #can i tell everyone to look away before i write tags to someone privately lmao no? damn #anyway yes i meant music!! and thank you for sharing something!! #baking seems like a hyperfixation #like i know you said you baked once but then look at me #...i was thinking if i could make salads.... i gotta be medicore at least at one food thing #its a joke its a joke #i will one day get used to focusing on more complicated kitchen work than heating up meat or cooking things in salt and water #anyone else had trouble getting out of bed this december? #once i do i try to pick physical activities that dont require creative thinking because man #at the post office i had small talk with a lady waiting in line she didnt speak polish so u know me it happened #and she recommended light therapy lamp #im very tempted to try it becase i had record bad thoughts sleepless nights and jerking awake this month #it might be rooted in economic instability growing inflation costs of living and shitty working conditions while still trying to buy gifts? #but hey there are things we cant have control over and there are things we can #ive got winter wonderland comic coming though #i will try my best to speed-finish it as a christmas gift aight #i hope its going to be a nice thing!! #wow thats a long set of tags

[grimalkinmessor]

I need a fic where L wins but as he's transporting Light to be executed somewhere remote where his supporters can't find him, the plane crashes and he, a defanged Light, and Matsuda all end up stranded in the middle of nowhere together.

L is busy blaming Light for the crash, Light is busy snarling back at him and trying to wiggle his way out of his handcuffs, and Matsuda is busy being the only fucking person with braincells and trying to keep them all alive long enough to be found.

Featuring Light being forced to confront his own guilt, L becoming slightly less of an asshole, and both of them being forced to acknowledge Matsuda's skills.

They also all have to cuddle for warmth and then fall in love. Obviously.

#death note #lawlightsuda #lawlight #matsulight #yes light is still restrained while theyre cuddling #neither L nor matsuda trust him with his hands free even while he's unconcious lmao #l lawliet #matsuda touta #yagami light #it could either be an island or just the middle of the woods somewhere but if its somewhere in the us i ABSOLUTELY expect matsuda to shoot #a wendigo in the face at some point and get covered in gore bc why even bother if you're not gonna have one of them covered in blood #l cant cook worth shit and neither can matsuda but light's hands are cuffed so like :') RIP #L does know some foraging hacks though #perks of being an orphan ✨ #lawtsuda #mispelled it the first time my bad

[dazais-guardian-angel]

kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....

#bungou stray dogs #been thinking a lot about chuuya lately (shocking for me i know (said with no sarcasm truly lmao it is rare for me)) #cause of the 15 manga and also playing the fucking jeht quest in genshin impact ugh (where's the one dual genshin bsd fan who Understands) #but like this pressure has been building up for chuuya for so long due to being used and manipulated by all these people #first the sheep then mori then verlaine then still mori now #he was groomed since childhood just like dazai #but unlike dazai he didn't have an oda to help him get out of the mafia........ he's still stuck there #and his personality is different from dazai's. dazai was more self-aware imo (but still a groomed emotionally abused kid don't get me wrong #but chuuya's whole thing is needing to belong and wanting a leader to be loyal to but ending up in positions of leadership himself #which makes him feel pressured but he accepts and stifles any negative feelings just because he wants to belong #and all this crushed him with the events in the light novels and yeah he went through character growth but he's...... Still In The Mafia... #and that fucking scene asagiri added to the cannibalism stage play i don't think hardly anyone even knows about bc IT'S NOT DISCUSSED ANYMO #where mori emotionally manipulates him with the flags!!! and it deeply hurts him!!! and he presumably deals with that shit all the time!!! #it is WORRISOME. it WORRIES ME okay. #chuuya doesn't have anyone who can save him from the mafia (dazai is in no position to okay; it's all he can do just to try to save himself #and it's so so scary. it spells awful things for him. #didn't asagiri say he'd have a rough path or something??? and he added that fucking scene in the play!!! it haunts me!! #i fully expected this shit to hit a turning point in the meursault arc but we can't have nice things i guess #and as for kunikida a;lskdfl (took me this long to get to him oop) literally the ending of Entrance Exam (the novel) is just #One Big Foreshadowing for Kunikida's downfall #he's compared to the azure king for a reason. Sasaki saw the azure king in him for a reason. it's fucking worrying!!!!! #there hasn't really been anything like that since in the manga (just like for chuuya lol ugh) but he's TERRIBLE at coping with his trauma #and it only gets more apparent once shit hit the fan in the doa/hunting dogs/meursault arc #it's not good!!! i'm worried for kunikida too!!!! #even if the manga isn't focusing on this these worries are always in the back of my mind man #both kunikida and chuuya are doomed to hit some kind of breaking point eventually and i await those moments with dread yet anticipation #i want dazai to be able to save kunikida from the despair being too good a person brings the way he couldn't save oda #and chuuya.... if we get a scene with him & mori mirroring the one in dark era where dazai finds out that mori orchestrated the kids' death #oh man i think i'll fucking die (give it to me i need to cry)

[olivewormz]

ELLO!!!! GUESS WHO REDID HIS METAL SLUG DESIGNS!!!! i guess you could call it that uuhm

but YEA!! i've been thinking a lot about metal slug lately and i just... couldnt resist redrawing my versions, hopefully i do more in the future for more characters n all, i really want to post more metal slug stuff, i love LOVE these silly guys

im not writing anything at the moment cause i really didnt change my headcanons and im kind of tired to write proper paragraphs (i should stop staying up until 3 am to finish drawings? maybe).

#here comes the ramble...... #its funny how with the og pic i was talking about how tactics was delayed for 2023 n i was sad #and here we are in 2024 and still no tactics lmao #ill still wait im hopeful that game is good #ANYWAY this is the first time im happy drawing their vests #and its because i used the tunshi figures as reference #man i really want those figures #but its so hard to get them when ur argentinian LMAO #thinking about opening cmms justs to get them........ #WEELLLL #funfact! in 2023 i did some custom metal slug pins for an assingment #i never finished fio sadly #i also got this cool ms picture with lights n all #its not important i justwanted to share #i just go crazy with anything metal slug related #oh also i was at a convention n i asked this really cool artist if he could draw eri and we talked about the games for a lil while #i may have used all my savings on that one artist that day #he was really nice :-)) #now i got a tarma and an eri from him #can you tell im tired by how much im rambling? #i just love this tagging system where i cant just go crazy n then regret it the day after #i should stop lmao im sorry #metal slug #eri kasamoto #fio germi #marco rossi #tarma roving #digital art #fanart #myart

[werebutch]

My mom got me some cargo pants from old navy for xmas and I’m so thankful but I’m really weirded out by old navy’s newer quality issues. I got my favorite cargos from Walmart I think? They’re thick but not heavy but still durable. And deep pockets. The ones from old navy are seriously paper thin. They wrinkle more than a t shirt and they’re so plastic-y. If you ever actually did any work in them they’d rip instantly. Just sad to me 😭 and I guarantee my mom paid more for those than I did my Walmart ones

#I know a lot of people have noticed this already but this is crazyyyy to me.. #I still appreciate them btw because they’re so light it means I can wear them in the woods when it’s hot. LMAO so at least I have some use #for them..

[grinchwrapsupreme]

I feel like I am Witnessing Something

#red dwarf #red dwarf the promised land #the promised land #arnold rimmer #dave lister #the cat #lister is so aware of how sensitive rimmer is about this probably more than rimmer is #like the whole thing can be read as lister just trying to keep the peace #but the second he says 'back the smeg off' is gets soooo much more personal #he also just seems so uncomfortable himself with being reminded of rimmer's reality #that he's the hologram of a dead man #the faces he makes in this scene when he's not talking really drive home the fact #that he tries his very best to Not Think About rimmer's death rimmer's existence as a hologram and rimmer's fragility #this movie fed me so well i'm not joking #also as a side note i think its so funny that when he went low power he was still hard light #like surely being soft light would use less power right?? #whatever this show loves to forget its own hologram lore lmao

[voidimp]

back on my bjd bullshit

#i just put in a layaway order for a blank doll chateau noah :) #idk how im gonna make them look yet!! i was originally gonna get a k-body-15 with a dream valley freyja head #(& hope the neck size difference wasnt too weird lmao) #but i cant find that one anymore?? like no one seems to sell it. idk #so now im planning to get the k-body-12 for that head which seems to be basically the same but human instead of deertaur #(also i like the legs better on the noah body anyway so it works out) #so im probably gonna recycle part of the idea i had for that. particularly the outfit bc i had something picked out #that should work well with the weird body shape lmAO #but the only one in stock was in peach & im used to getting plain white. like it doesnt look thaaaat much different its very very light #but i might have to lean into the peach/pink tones a little to not make it look weird in contrast with my other dolls lmao #maybe ill throw in some purple? i think like a desaturated reddish purple for blushing might work well #with the more neutral tones i had in mind for the clothes. but i do think in general im going to work in more color than initially planned #& the other one can be more monochrome. whenever i get that lmao #ANYWAY since its layaway it will still be like. six months. unless i pay it off early (we will see) #but im used to preorders which already take about that long so its really no different tbh #im so excited i dont think ive bought a bjd since mint on card closed. i used to get everything through them since i was in the same state #i wonder how their fucking. airbnb business is going lmao

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#it is truly so wild to go from feeling miserable and hopeless all the time for... lets look at my excel sheet #the last 23 days. then to suddenly rocket up to smiling to myself all day. the world is so fucking beautiful #for no rational reason aside from what i have to assume is a chemical shift in my body #like is this what happy ppl feel like all the time? its truely so crazy. have i always been like this? #did i not notice this was a thing? like ive definitely noticed it in the last year but like ??? #my suspicion is that it doesnt actually last long enough to b considered hypomania but like idk i should see a doctor probably lol #u would think being happy would make it easier to do things but i just keep forgetting to do them and just like spacing out lol bc rn i #feel chill. even tho i need to make a list of the shit i gotta do by Friday. bleh. but idk it makes being in thr lab so much nicer bc i #mean. i still dont give a fuck abt what im doing but im like fuck it this isnt gonna b my problem in like 2-3 months. even tho im sure ill #still have to write up everything. but idk. it also makes it easier to b like. ok so i kno what my problems r lets plan yo make things not #so horrible so u dont just live a miserable life and then like die having lived a life of fear. like its so crazy how much easier thst is #to do rn??? well see how long it lasts but yea v strange. wish i could control my fucking focus tho. like that would b great #its like the fucking painting of hypnose. my focus is like a lighthouse wildly swinging its light around until it sometimes blasts me in #the face. like not helpful. i need to b able to do things. #i guess the weird thing rn is thst while i feel happy. i also have this like simmering fear of irrational things. like when i used to live #in my parents basement and i was terrified of the dark rooms down there at night. like that kind of childish baseless fear #but like im in i tiny tiny apartment lol like bro what r u scared of??? silly silly silly #idk hopefully it holds out the whole rest of the week and then i can travel and see my parents like !!! yo !!! happy vibes :-D #that would b kinda unhinged lmao. i doubt itll last thst long. its already slipped from this morning so we shall see #unrelated

[thyandrawrites]

Me: I love them a normal amount

Also me: spends one hour trying to turn a boring class A official art into a todosiblings sketch with my poor drawing skills

#Don't look at it too closely it's still very much a mess #Maybe if I can finalize some of these shapes I can try to clean this up and use it as my next header #It's hard bc the perspective is tricky and I'm shit at anatomy #Some of those limbs aren't visible in the original artwork I'm using as a reference #And if you look at this closely you can definitely tell lmao #Also has fuyumi ever worn heels?? I gotta check the hospital chapters again bc I don't remember #Thyandra.txt #My poor girl was done dirty by the lighting in my room #I can't get it to focus on her #Maybe I used lighter pencil strikes for her #Redid her half a dozen times #That's why #You'll never guess which character dabi was originally #It took me SO LONG to figure out that hunched pose... #My back hurts in sympathetic pain

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

my psychopathology class is making me mad jealous. what do you mean people in these studies can have their brains scanned and looked at? their behavior monitored? their blood levels tested to see if meds are working? why can't i do that?? i want to have my brain scanned and i want to be monitored and i want people to run my blood through tests. and don't even get me started on longitudinal studies. you're telling me that they get to be monitored on and off for years and years and years?? why am i not doing that

#the only fun tests i've had were boring things like xrays and they didn't even show me the scans :(( #i want to see what my spine looks like too idc if u looked at it and can diagnose me bc i want to see too :( #and don't get me started on optometrists. well. i actually like those like hell yeah pour that shit in my eyes let's live in blurry land #ur gonna shine a light in my eyes? yesss. read the wall? i have no idea what that says. look at these '3d' images. ur lying they are still #and dentists are so fucking mean to me why can't i see my teeth xray u told me i was born missing teeth let me seeeeeee #and the boring fucking whatever kicking me out bc they refused to work w me 'until i got therapy' well guess what i tried and #she was spouting lies so none of us get to be happy >:( #actually i think she was a dietician and she was saying bs so like who even cares lmao

[zkretchy]

@akhuna: how dare you be funny in the tags(affectionate)-now i just had to draw that because...yes absolutely

#how to use your demonic leaning powers? reading light #i reread some older tags today and this came up and i completely forgot about it gshdfghs sry #but also thank you so much for giving me smth to draw because i still find it hilarious lol #zkretchy #art #ocs #namir #garvin #garvin giving old man vibes in this lmao #funnily with this garvin is officially better at regulating his eyesight quality than about 80% of my older customers #who simply can not accept that the older you get the more your eyesight WILL shit itself into nothingness #just.use.a.reading.light #i will stop now before i start ranting but rly #2 choices: yes light=better vision #no light= well congrats you'll see worse than if you were to just turn on one lamp no i can not just 'make your glasses stronger' #so yeah-get yourself a boyfriend w/ a built in glow function

[dazais-guardian-angel]

seeing new appreciation for Dark Era because of the anime rewatch makes me so happy..... could we have a light novel reread series next so that everyone can read Dark Era? 🥹

#bungou stray dogs #out here shilling the DE novel whenever I can to get as many people as possible to read it 🥲 pls read it guys it's so worth it #it will rui- change your life #the anime adaptation is beautiful and the best work Bones has ever done for bsd #but it still can't hold a candle to the novel #so much of Oda's character and the true heartbreak and poignancy of his and Dazai's relationship is only found by reading it #not to mention a better understanding of Ango; Dazai and Aku's relationship; etc #everyone knows Stormbringer and Beast but i feel like Dark Era is one of the most unread light novels #(along with Entrance Exam... *sigh* and 55 Minutes) #I made a visual novel out of Dark Era using anime screenshots and the ost.... would people find it more appealing to read in that format?? #I keep waffling about making it public cause idk who would even care lol #but maybe i should just post it one day and see what happens...... i'm proud of it but no one has played it but the friend i made it for #i'd be happy if sharing it got more people to read Dark Era #anyone who's even reading these tags lmao: would you play a visual novel of Dark Era???

[byakuyasdarling]

I hate randomly blocking people that follow me for no reason other than “what they draw makes me uncomfortable” because it illustrates a fundamental misunderstanding of MY SCRIMBLO (/lh). I understand it’s simply conjecture, but people who highlight that part of his light novel (a part that was revealed to be a dream and not close to canonicity) bother me a lot.

#in short… I hate the Pol//aris P Po//lanski shit #14 year old D//GR fans will be like ‘I know so much about Byakuya 🥺🥺 I read a brief synopsis of his light novel and completely - #misinterpretated this whole plot point and the majority of his quotes!!’ #if you didn’t know: in the light novel he has to cross dress to get into the Legacy Crown Championship #(which decides who is head male - and who gets exhiled) #but if you BOTHERED to read the ending of the dubiously canon novel and his CANON LINES you would know that the plot is actually all in - #-Bl//ue Ink’s head (his step sister who ‘documents’ his legacy as he thinks he is destined to win) #- false memories. I can’t EXACTLY remember why but it was only a dubious recollection of actual events — and in-game and in the novel - #-Byakuya is recognised as #- one of the 15 ‘gold rank’ Tog//ami siblings and therefore never needed to cross-dress to get into the race in the first place #also the book is just hella confusing and awfully gruesome LMAO #but the drawing had his disguise in glasses when Pol//aris wore contacts!! because in the novel Byakuya states he finds glasses unappealing- #-on a woman. though fashionable for himself as a man (thanks ‘Kuya… I have 20/20 vision and I still hate that). #so yeah I was mega uncomfortable for no reason I’m just pedantic and I hate the fandom (for the most part) #I love you guys though LMAO #sorry I sounded like a gatekeeper LOL #I’ve ran into like… 3 more wives of Byakuya and I do actually really like their content and was okay with them but I didn’t interact beyond- #- a cursory glance because I don’t want to risk myself being uncomfortable or anyone else. I only have a lot of warnings because there are - #-fringe cases I really hate. so I have to use umbrella terms. #(so I am not THAT BAD. but I can be especially with the non-canon Pola//ris stuff and blatant misinterpretation #I FEEL SO MEAN. #not good for business.

[713-4th-ward-g]

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#what sucks is the moment someone is super nice to me 😭 i start to liking them a lot #why am i like this 😭 #i get shown any kind of decency or any genuine kindness I start to really like like them #then end up ruining the whole mood by telling them I like them 😂 #i suppose finding some more attractive cause they're super nice to me stems from my childhood trauma LMAO #gotta love being a neglected kid 😭😂 it doesnt help when they're extremely pretty too 😭😭 #lmao #what's wrong with me have some sense 😂 I know that just cause a person is nice to me doesnt mean they like like me or they even like me 😭 #but i still can't help but start liking them 😂 its also probably cause i finally feel like someone cares about me 😭 then it goes back to #childhood trauma 😂 dude i cant lie being neglected while still having both parents is some thing else #cause its like I had both but they were always at work and when they got home would be so mean to each other mainly my dad to my mother; #the only did they'd ask if i was hungry but by the time grandma came to live with us that stopped and so they would not really talk to me #like i was talking to my cousin Richard on the night of the party; he asked why i dont talk to my dads side of the family #and he's super drunk and starts belittle and make light of the situation before i even start the main reason. so i told him to stop talking #over me and let me finish and stop belittling and making light of the reasons why i stopped talking to them entirely #then he got butt hurt and ended up waking his wife who was sleeping in the living room to go home. #i swear i have issues that i have yet to address lol and going to therapy doesnt work cause it makes me super uncomfortable so i stop going #after the first visits #😮‍💨 i can be so overwhelming why am i like this just cause they're nice to me doesnt mean they actually like me or even like like me 😭 #i need to be better at accepting people's kindness without falling attached or like liking them a lot LMAO. #personal

[girlhorse]

fr id be so sad if i had to cut enzos hair down but if i cant get my shit together soon that might be what has to happen until im in a better/more stable position. part of it is that it keeps getting Longer and so i have to groom more frequently and for longer sessions. this is also the most harrowing time in a havanese dogs life (around 9-18 months) when theyre 1) dealing with adolescence and 2) have a chance of having a very difficult coat change (blowing puppy coat and developing the undercoat, which in non-shedding breeds can cause some messy, easily matted hair!)

as a result enzo has been losing a lot of confidence on the grooming table and is less tolerant of it. He's not getting pissy or biting at all, just wiggly and low key stressed, which sucks bc he needs to be up there for me to deal with his crazy teen hair =_= The crazy hair is making him even Worse because sometimes theres a bit of a mat i need to get out (at this point i have been clipping them out to avoid causing him discomfort)

it's also spring, which means theres a ton of burrs and seeds everywhere, and the grass is growing tall. so every time we go outside he gets so many little things in his hair. it's a nightmare sometimes LMAO

#gab gabs #literally got a little reel mower so i can at least cut down the grass in my yard #i hate grass but i have a landlord #pray for me #we are working on some cooperative care techniques and handling exercises #but no one ever talks about how youre supposed to keep up with hair maintenance consistently when training isnt finished but your dog has #urgent and ever present grooming needs #this is probably why so many havanese breeders and showdog people use a more balanced and non R+ approach #no ones out here punishing their dogs its more like #they do NOT go cooperative care route #they use very light force #its not cruel but it can be hard for some dogs and owners (me) to adjust to #but i do think cooperative care is pssible im just not a great trainer #also fwiw all the breeders i know do praise and treat their dogs and will not push a dog that is having a major panic attack. they just #set expectations for the dog to hold still and be mostly passive and not interfere with the groom #and usually dogs are rewarded after! #also most of them consistently groom from puppyhood onward which means theyre more likely to be accepting of the process as they age #my dog has always been a little uncomfortable with it but he was getting better #just a bit of a teenage regression #SORRY FOR RANT LMAO

[astrxealis]

actually i'll change them to look like this

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #okay just random rambles now :> #he goes by apollo !! unless i change it. bcs i have now associated myself w that name even more ORHEODHSK anyways they r uhm #okay so. he/she/they ?? he/they/he. i don't want to do they first bcs rhat's a bit too similar to me KDHSKDNS #i love that vieras can canonically be trans!! it is part of their lore!! i wna make this guy uhm. idk. ftm or mtf or nb masc or fem leaning #maybe i'll just make him like. bigender. OKAY THAT WORKS. idk what assigned at birth tho ... anyways i love them #he/she/they i think. prefers they as default from others but she defaults to he for himself <3 #his hair originally was like . really light. like the one for my actual wol rn uhh rlly light purple #i didn't mean for it to be purple but it fits perfectly and i dont want to change it >< i changed it for this guy just now tho bcs he wld #be too similar LFHSKDJS they have little white freckles!!! theyre like stars :] hehe #idk if name apollo still sobs. thats the name of my other vv important ffxiv oc and that is also my other name #polaris wld probably be nice !! oh shit wait hyacinth for his counterpart. perfect. oh god #and then to my wols yeah that is apollo HOLY FUCK IM SO BIG BRAINWD. okay but his name uhhhh polaris mayhaps #i'll check my pronouny for other names i like :O #anyways this is my male viera alt!! he is min height ofc :> but still sm taller than me SOBS #he's kind of mischievous but also quiet . he's uh. i'm in love with my oc yes T_T #tag later #his hair reminds me of milk chocolate ... mixed w vanilla!! thsw was the hair color i used for fun actually back on my wol b4 i canonically #changed her hair to the vv light white-purple it is now :> uh. i still need to work on lore LMAO #my goal is to properly work and write on lore of my ocs b4 7.0 !! a few years :] <3 #this also includes my fandomless ocs hehe ... maybe ill talk abt them more one day