#smtm 6

[seokmatthewz]

someday I'll rank all the survival shows ive watched from best to worst

#i need to . remember them first RBFMRN #and also develop a solid opinion on all 11 seasons of smtm despite not remembering the first 2 seasons nd also 6 and 7 #iri.txt #ywy3 nd m9 competing for worst tho. straight up didnt have a final vs. group announced nd didnt happen

[krinndnz]

An Ad-Hoc, Informally-Specified, Bug-Ridden, Single-Subject Study Of Weight Loss Via Potassium Supplementation And Exercise Without Dieting

Here's the short version: I lost 30 pounds in 6 months by chugging a bunch of potassium salt and exercising a lot. My subjective experience is that cranking my potassium intake way up made it possible to do a lot more exercise than I had been doing without also eating a lot more. Exercising more without also eating more led to weight loss (as one would hope!). I did not diet: I ate as I had been doing and as it pleased me to do. Do with the raw data as you please.

Losing weight this way is unusual and worth paying attention to because many things about increases and decreases in weight and obesity are very poorly understood. Many people would like their personal weight and obesity levels to be different, so anything that improves our collective understanding of how to make that happen is valuable. However, losing weight this way is an experiment: it's not necessarily safe to do what I did! Part of why I did it was to find out what would happen, and if you have any kind of existing kidney problems then you definitely should not do what I did. Note to other transfemmes: if you're taking spiro, that counts as a kidney problem.

I also don't want to overstate the significance of this experiment: what I've been up to in the last 6 months amounts to a single data point that happens to also be 1,100 spreadsheet cells. It's a data point that is highly suggestive, sure, but it would be extremely ambitious to say that it proves anything beyond "this worked for me" and perhaps "it's not impossible for this to work". I am writing about it because as far as I know, this particular experiment is something that nobody else has tried, and, again, anything that improves our collective understanding here is valuable.

The long version comes next: how I came to be doing this experiment, what I did in the experiment, what I plan to do next, and finally what I think about it all. The really long version is the ongoing conversation that this post is part of, starting with A Chemical Hunger, which is a book-length literature review about the 1980s–present global increase in obesity prevalence, also the posts about single-subject research where the same authors discuss the limits of what can be learned from experiences like mine, also the Experimental Fat Loss guy and his wide variety of diet-only experiments, also some critics who disagree.

How I came to be doing this

At the tail end of 2022, I noticed both that my BMI had hit 30 and that I had become very unhappy about my weight. There's a specific photo where I didn't realize until I saw the photo that my belly was hanging out over my waistband and it's vividly unpleasant in my memory. Around the same time, I happened to find the potassium-supplementation community trial that the Slime Mold Time Mold folks were running. The value proposition was "this will be easy, cheap, and safe, but also it might not actually work," and that sounded good to me, so I signed up for it and took a modest amount of potassium all through December and January. It kinda-sorta worked: I lost 6 pounds. Not nothing, but "it kinda-sorta worked" is the most one can really say about losing 6 pounds in 60 days.

The low-dose potassium delivered on all of what the SMTM folks promised, though. It was easy, cheap, and safe. So I kept doing it and, since I was already doing the potassium, decided that I should get an exercise habit going. I am a big believer in the idea that it's a tremendous amount easier to go from doing Something to doing More Something than to go from doing Nothing to doing Something. The low-dose potassium got me through the first step: once I was doing Something about my weight, it was relatively easy to do More Something. When the community trial ended in early February, I didn't have to worry about messing up its results by departing from the trial's instructions, so I started taking more potassium and building my own experiment. I also kept in touch with the SMTM authors, who were very encouraging. 🐯💕

By late March I had brought myself up to daily amounts of potassium and exertion that seemed good to me, and I stuck with those. This is the first time in my life I've focused on trying to lose weight, and I was not fully prepared for how demoralizing it is that the weight change from day N to day N+1 sometimes seems perversely unrelated to what you were doing on day N. Fortunately I have experience with spreadsheets, so I put together a tracker for myself that focused on the trailing-week average of my daily weight and exercise measurements as well as long-term graphs. Three months of data were enough to put together a chart whose trendline said very, very clearly, "what you are doing is working — keep it up!" With any kind of long-term project it's very important to create and sustain sources of feedback. All else being equal, the longer it takes before you can get a read on "is this going well or poorly?", the worse it will go.

I decided that my goal would be to get my BMI from 30 (the lower limit of "obese") to under 25 (the upper limit of "normal"). Happily, the math is very easy there: for my height, a BMI of 25 rounds off to 200lbs. I further decided that I was willing to spend all of 2023 working on this. That decision is why I'm writing this post now: halfway through a project is a natural time to pause and take stock.

What I did

By the end of March, my regimen was firmly settled and I kept at it through the end of June without further tinkering. The daily goals I settled on were 10,000mg of potassium and 1,200kcal of exertion. That amount of exercise worked out to be 90 to 100 minutes per day. For contrast, in 2022 my average amount of exercise per day was 15 minutes and my average exertion was 500kcal.

I used my smartwatch's exertion number ("how many calories are you using above the amount you need to burn to be alive at all?") and gradually walked up my daily goal, settling at 1,200kcal/day partially because it was working and partially because one hour of watch face equaling 100kcal was helpful for being able to read "how close to my goal am I?" without thinking hard about it. Most of the exercise was treadmill time, usually a brisk walk or light jog. Over the months I also did some running, some bicycling, and some hiking, but treadmill time was the reliable, unremarkable, do-this-every-day core of my exercise regimen. It took a while to ramp up to that amount of exertion and there were definitely days when I stumbled, for good reasons and bad. However, in general I hit the exertion goal and in particular had it absolutely dialed from early March to mid-April.

It was easier to be totally rigorous about the potassium-intake goal — it helped that that part only took a few minutes per day, instead of 90+ minutes! I used potassium chloride powder (whatever came up first on an Amazon search since all KCl should be alike) mixed with regular Gatorade (i.e. not the sugar-free kind) to make it taste okay (I recommend blue Gatorade, it's the closest to appealing when kaliated — the yellow lemon-lime was meh and the fruit punch red was awful). I added two heaping teaspoons of KCl powder to a 20oz. bottle of Gatorade and drank that. KCl is about 52% potassium and a heaping teaspoon of it is about 6500mg, so I rounded up a smidge and called that 6600-and-a-bit milligrams of potassium per bottle. On Thursdays and Sundays I drank 2 full bottles and on other days 1.5 bottles. I recorded this as 10,000mg of potassium on regular days and 13,500mg on Thursdays and Sundays.

Is 10,000mg of potassium a lot? It's a lot more than average! The SMTM potassium trial post contextualizes it helpfully:

For a long time, the recommended daily value for adults (technically, the “Adequate Intake”) was 4,700 mg of potassium per day. But most people don’t get anywhere near this amount. In every CDC NHANES dataset from 1999 to 2018, median potassium intake hovers around 2,400 mg/day, and mean intake around 2,600 mg/day. In this report from 2004, the National Academy of Medicine found that “most American women … consume no more than half of the recommended amount of potassium, and men’s intake is only moderately higher.” Per this paper, only 0.3% of American women were getting the recommended amount. Similarly low levels of intake are also observed in Europe, Mexico, China, etc. But in 2019, the National Academies of Sciences, Engineering, and Medicine changed the recommended / adequate intake to 2,600 mg/day for women and 3,400 mg/day for men. They say that the change is “due, in part, to the expansion of the DRI model in which consideration of chronic disease risk reduction was separate from consideration of adequacy,” but we can’t help but wonder if they changed it because it was embarrassing to have less than 5% of the population getting the recommended amount. In any case, recommended potassium intake is something like 2,500 to 5,000 mg per day for adults, and many people don’t get enough. Potatoes are exceptionally high in potassium. A single potato contains somewhere between 600 and 1000 mg of potassium, depending on which source you look at. They are the 6th highest in potassium on this list of high-potassium foods from the NIH, and 9th on this old list from the USDA. If you do the math, this means that someone on the potato diet, eating 2,000 kcal of potatoes a day, gets at least 11,000 mg of potassium per day, more than twice the old recommended intake.

This explanation is most of why I decided to stabilize at about 10,000mg per day: because that's about how much potassium people were getting during the SMTM potato diet community trial. Because that community trial involved around 200 people, it was unlikely that there would be any truly heinous health effects from knocking back that much potassium, especially together with the anecdotal evidence that inspired the trial. Aiming for that amount also meant that it would be easier to compare my results to something that worked decently well and to ask questions like "is there something special about whole potatoes, or is it mostly the potassium?" If it's mostly the potassium, you'd expect my results to be closer to the full-potato-diet results than to the low-dose-potassium results — which is what happened.

I measured those results in a very basic way: ordinary bathroom scale, first thing in the morning, every day. Considering how much noise there is in weight measurement, there's just no advantage to measuring it more often. I kept the circumstances of the weigh-in simple and stable, trusting that that was good enough. I also measured exertion in two other forms — step count and exercise minutes — but that was mostly for my personal curiosity because both are basically downstream of exertion as such. Similarly, I tracked my sleep but didn't expect that to matter a whole lot.

While I was affirmatively not dieting, I want to make sure to talk about my food habits because I could be missing something that's easy for others to see as unusual but seems totally ordinary to me. My meals are heavy on pasta, rice, bread, and granola. I work diligently to get enough dietary fiber. I eat some meat but not a lot (eating a pound of meat in a week would be above average for me), and I enjoy coffee but not a tremendous amount of it since usually I make Chemex-style coffee and having a bunch of that in a day would be too time-intensive. My go-to snacks are cashews, pistachios, cherries, and granola bars. Like most people, I should eat more dark leafy greens than I do. I use a generous hand when measuring out olive oil. I believe that if you need either milk taste or milk fat, you shouldn't half-ass it, so when I need milk taste or milk fat, I rely on whole milk and heavy cream. Fats, generally, taste good. I eat more whole food and food I personally cook than I eat packaged and processed food, and I only infrequently eat restaurant food (weekly pizza night, maybe twice a month other than that). I really like sour candies but basically stopped eating them last autumn after some very patient coaxing from my dentist. Once in a while, dark chocolate, usually with the nuts and fruit.

I ate as I had been doing: I ate the food I felt like eating and ate as much of it as I felt like eating. If I felt like eating more or less, I did that. Since I wanted to keep the exercise habit going regardless of whether or not I lost weight, it was very important to me to not make the exercise any more difficult than it had to be. Going hungry would definitely make it more difficult, so I avoided doing that. One way in which I'm very sure my experience generalizes is, it's much easier to persuade people to try "add this supplement to what you're already eating" than to get them to try "replace all of your current food with potatoes," especially when talking about long-term or indefinite-duration changes.

What I plan to do next

I'll be thrilled if I can recapture something like the 7-week March/April streak I had going. Most days in this period (44 out of 49) were PB days (i.e. a day where my trailing-week-average weight was the lowest it had been since the start of the year) and no two consecutive days in this period were non-PB days (i.e. if a day wasn't a PB day, both the day before and the day after were PB days). I was losing almost 2lbs per week and exercising a lot and I felt great. However, my intuition is that that was the honeymoon period of going from mostly-sedentary to exercising regularly, and that I should expect further progress to be more difficult, to be like the less impressive results I got in May and June.

Still, the thing as a whole has definitely been successful enough that I'm going to keep at it until the end of the year, re-evaluating again in December (and maybe when I hit my weight-loss goal, which should happen around halfway between now and then). Since I'm using January 1st as my anchor date for the start of the experiment, it lines up nicely with the calendar if I just keep going all year and see what happens. Besides, I only need 6 months more to generate a year of data, while someone going from a cold start would need a whole year.

Given that I have a setup that is working pretty well, I'm reluctant to tinker with it. I might add one more high-potassium day in addition to Thursdays and Sundays, and I might start tracking some extra data — even though I'm not trying to change them, recording my food habits seems like the most helpful additional thing I could record.

If I develop health problems I'm gonna pull the ripcord (and post about it). There are already too many shitty fake weight loss regimens in the world that fuck up the health of people who try them, we do not need more.

What I think about it

Since I'm the one doing this experiment, I get to be excited about how it's working out for me personally, which is to say, very well indeed. Right now it seems pretty certain that I'll be able to reach my goal of losing ~50lbs in a long-term-sustainable way and just as importantly, getting myself to a much better baseline state of physical fitness. I feel pretty great about that part!

The experiment is not just for me, though: the reason it's an experiment rather than just "I'm trying to lose weight" is that I am keeping track of things carefully such that other people could carry out the same steps I did and get results similar to or different from mine and ideally everyone eventually comes to pretty firm conclusions about whether this — losing weight via potassium and exercise without dieting — works or not. My chugging potassium and Gatorade for six months to a year is the very beginning of that process, and I expect that the difficult parts of the process will be carried out by people with more expertise and resources than me.

I also expect that I have not tumbled to the One Weird Trick for weight loss that everyone else just overlooked. As someone with plenty of programming experience, I have a hearty suspicion towards "well, it worked on MY setup" stories. One obvious alternate explanation for my successful weight loss is "well yeah, you doubled your exertion and kept your food intake the same, of course you lost weight" — but I don't find that explanation satisfying. To start with, if it were that easy, people would do it more often. There are a tremendous number of people who would like to lose weight and a tremendous marketplace of devices, services, and professionals to help them use exercise for that purpose, and yet in a 20-year NCHS study, average exercise rose without obesity falling. It's also very, very easy to find fat people who exercise plenty — you will find them more or less anywhere you find lots of people exercising, as well as in places like sumo stables. A member of my family has taken up powerlifting in the last year, making him both fitter and heavier by quite a bit.

Additionally, there's studies like Keating 2017 concluding that short-term exercise intervention doesn't do enough to matter, or like the Wu 2009 work concluding that exerise-and-dieting isn't meaningfully better than just dieting over periods of 6+ months, and then there's the STRRIDE study, Slentz 2004, concluding that jogging 20 miles a week can get people to lose about 7 pounds over 8 months. The STRRIDE study caught my eye because it's pretty similar to what I did: they took obese mostly-sedentary folks, had them exercise more, and forbade them from eating less. However, once you do the math the results are much less similar: the average STRRIDE participant did around half the exercise I've done for at most a fifth of the weight loss (i.e. around 1lb/month vs. around 5lbs/month and around 3mi/day vs. 7mi/day). If someone else told me "Krinn, your naïve just-hit-the-treadmill exercise regimen is 2.5x as effective as an exercise regimen supervised & measured by professionals," I would want them to provide some compelling evidence for that.

If you tell someone you want to lose weight and would like their advice, it is overwhelmingly likely that the advice will involve exercising more. Everyone has heard this advice. And yet, as Michael Hobbes observes in a searing piece for Highline, "many 'failed' obesity interventions are successful eat-healthier-and-exercise-more interventions" that simply didn't result in weight loss. Even if we as a society choose to believe "more exercise always leads to weight loss, most people just fuck up at it," that immediately confronts us with the important question, why do they fuck up at it? and its equally urgent sibling, what can we learn from those who succeed at it to give a hand up to those who have not yet succeeded?

I find the SMTM authors' metaphor for this helpful:

[exercising more and eating less] is not an explanation any more than "the bullet" is a good explanation for "who killed the mayor?" Something about the potato diet lowered people's lipostat set point, which reduced their appetite, which yes made them eat fewer calories, which was part of what led them to lose weight. Yes, "fewer kcal/day" is somewhere in the causal chain. No, it is not an explanation.

Since I've been doing this for six months, I feel pretty certain that the potassium is doing something positive for me and I'm entirely willing to put in another six months to find out what happens for me. Finding out whether that generalizes is beyond my power: all I can do is explain what worked for me, one middle-aged Seattle housewife, and hope that it's useful to people who are in a position to do serious work about it.

One kind of serious work that's available is the very cool analytic techniques that other people in this conversation have used while looking at their data. If you are the kind of person to get elbows-deep in R or Matlab, feel free to grab my day-by-day measurements for that (I release this data under Creative Commons' CC0 if that's relevant to you). I'm not going to do that, though, partially because it's been a long time since I last used R but mostly because of the thing I said earlier about my whole experiment basically being one data point. If you have a data series, then yeah, get in there with some numeric interrogation, but if you only have one data point, that data point is what it is and statistical analysis can't really add to it. All I can claim here is that this is a new data point: people going about their everyday lives do not spontaneously increase their potassium intake severalfold and the background work from the SMTM potato diet and potassium community trials tell me that no-one's run a study looking directly at what happens if you do increase your potassium intake that much.

Do you want to increase your potassium intake that much? If you do, I have to re-emphasize the potassium community trial's safety warning: if you have existing kidney problems, do not try this. Also I'm gonna deploy the boldface again to make sure I get this across to other trans women: on this topic, taking spiro counts as a kidney problem! I am not a doctor and I'm extremely not your doctor, you should talk to your actual doctor if you have any kind of potential kidney issues and even if you're in good health and want to try chugging a bunch of potassium, you should titrate up gradually the way the SMTM writeup suggests (which is also the way I did).

In addition to a general spirit of responsibility, those warnings are important because otherwise just telling you that this is easy would sound like a recommendation. Did I mention that the experiment was easy? Easy easy. Piss easy. Lemon squeezy, etc. Of course building an exercise habit wasn't easy, but the potassium part didn't make it easier or harder, and the potassium part itself was pretty trivial. Mix this powder into Gatorade a couple times per day, drink it, done.

That said, if you do want to try this, godspeed and please write down how it goes for you. I recommend building positive reinforcement into whatever you use to track it; my personal spreadsheet for this is adorned with color-coding and happy emoji. I also recommend at least thinking about the following questions, whether you're going to do this, evaluate the results of this, or both.

How safe is it, in general rather than for me particularly, to chug this much potassium? This is the big one: "just mix potassium salt into Gatorade and drink it a few times a day" is so incredibly easy that even if the effect size is small, it could benefit a huge number of people, but of course it doesn't benefit them if it's not actually safe to do that.

Does this replicate? If it's not safe it matters a lot less whether it replicates, so the safety question comes first, but if it is safe, then one would immediately want to find out whether it works for 1% of people, 10% of people, or 50% of people.

How much do other mineral nutrients, particularly sodium and magnesium, matter for this? Maybe they need to be combined in some specific way, as this Twitter thread suggests.

Do sex hormone levels matter? I'm a trans woman and I've been having problems with access to HRT in this timeframe. Given how many things in one's body testosterone and estrogen affect, and given that previous obesity research has shown differences based on hormone profiles, that's definitely something to keep an eye on. Also because spironolactone in particular messes with renal function and potassium metabolism, I expect that it affects this. Digression: spironolactone is total bullshit as an anti-androgen of first resort. It sucks and I hate it and I should have switched to other anti-androgens even sooner than I did. If you're using spironolactone as an anti-androgen because it was the first thing your doctor tried for that, you really should try something else and see if that works.

I steadfastly avoided dieting. I like my existing diet just fine, and that's why I preferred the "what if I just chug a bunch of potassium" plan. All else being equal, I'd rather try things that let me eat what I like than things that require throwing my relationship with food into upheaval. But of course you wonder, what would happen if you did combine dieting and exercise and potassium? The ExFatLoss guy has been busy trying a lot of diet-only interventions and he's got a lot of interesting results. I am not the person to try it, but it's one of the obvious things to try, so I hope someone does try it.

How does this interact with the munchies? If you decide to try what I tried and you, like me, enjoy living somewhere where marijuana is legal, I think you should look at whether the potassium changes how you experience marijuana-induced hunger/overeating. One of the things I found very striking about the matter is that it was possible for me to chug enough potassium that the marijuana-induced hunger was drastically reduced. I expected the opposite since the potassium was causing me to eat less (relative to exertion) at other times. However, I have very strong habits about marijuana (exactly twice a week, edibles only, same amount every time) and I'm not willing to change them for this, so who knows how this aspect will work out for others. Definitely something to keep an eye on, though. Even if I wasn't losing weight, the potassium reduces marijuana-induced overeating enough that I'd probably keep going with it just for that effect.

Conclusion

I spent 6 months trying to lose weight with lots of potassium and exercise but without dieting. So far I have succeeded. Unless something disastrous comes up, I'm going to keep trying it for at least another 6 months and going to keep recording what I'm doing. I'm particularly curious to see where I'll plateau, since I assume at some point I'll start getting really hungry and/or tired instead of accidentally starving. I hope that my experience and the data I've recorded from it, are useful to people who are looking into questions about obesity and weight. Please feel free to use my data and my writeup (this post) for that. If you want to try doing as I've done, good luck and stay safe: this has worked for me but it is still experimental, it might be unsafe and/or fail to work for you.

#potassium #obesity #n=1 #slimemoldtimemold #citizen science #achemicalhunger #more or less accidentally doing science and that's kind of a weird feeling ngl but I hope it helps someone <3 #krinnposting

[f-ngrl]

Under Seongsu Bridge

... is a Korean music crew. Their name refers to Seongsu bridge in Seongsu-dong, which is the neighborhood they’re from. They have 6 members, are part of FLOCC and have Paloalto (who also lives in the area) as their biggest supporter. They released a collab album in 2021 which is hiphop and r&b (song recs at the bottom of the post).

It is said that they met in middle school where 365lit was bullied by the other members and then they became friends (?) - however, the crew wasn’t founded until 2019.

From left to right: 356lit, BIRTHDAYCAKEiii, Jupiter Kim, Ray Shin, web., toigo

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They have a crew youtube channel where they post vlogs and MVs. If you spreak Korean, you can watch the vlogs and find out more about them.

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365LIT

김민성 (Kim Min-seong) | 1998.04.09 | ig, soundcloud

he is a rapper and his style is energetic rap/hiphop

he participated in smtm 9 and 10

he has many connections and friends in khh and features often with other rappers

jupiter kim is his older brother

song example

BIRTHDAYCAKEiii

이정빈 (Lee Jung-bin) | ig, soundcloud

his music style is indie pop and indie rock, example mv

he mostly works with the other crew members or alone

Jupiter Kim

김목성 (Kim Mok-sung) | 1996.07.10 | ig, soundcloud, youtube

(on the right in the photo - left is 365lit)

he is a rapper, singer (?) and producer

he recently changed his rap name. his old name was (just) jupiter

he does different styles, you could call it an experimental/artsy kind of hiphop?

he was briefly on smtm9

apart from the crew members, he often works with zene the zilla

he was in the military 2021-2022 and missed dearly esp. by 365lit

365lit is his younger brother

song example

Ray Shin

신준현 (Shin Joon-hyun) | 1998.12.14 | ig

he is a rapper

he is relatively new as a solo artist

he released his first EP “Denim Dream” 5 months ago and only collaborated with crew members on it

song example

web.

ig, (no info? :()

he is a singer and his songs are r&b and ballad style

he usually works with the other crew members only

he has quite a few MVs and visualizers on usb’s yt channel, example

toigo (토이고)

주병우 (Joo Byung-woo) | 1998.07.24 | ig, soundcloud, twitter

he is a rapper, his style is active & fast hiphop, example

it’s very hard to find him not wearing a hat

he’s a bit of a comedian and very active on twitter

he was on smtm9, 10, and 11 and like 365lit is relatively active in the khh scene

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The crew will release their new collab album “UNDER SEONGSU BRIDGE II” in May. The song “Seongsu Freestyle” by Jupiter Kim, toigo, 365lit was already pre-released recently.

If you don’t know where to start, here 2 song recs:

#under seongsu bridge #usb #khh #khiphop #365lit #birthdaycakeiii #jupiter kim #ray shin #web. #toigo #info post #crew info post #i really though i had done this when the album came out #*t #but maybe i didn't bc there was no info #now there's a bit more :)

[jimin-jungshook-over-literalbae]

AOMG Profiles

Hey everyone! So, I finally wrote the AOMG profiles. If I missed anyone, it’s because I don’t know much about them yet. I only really know about Sogumm from Sign Here and I’ve seen her live. We went to the AOMG tour in Dallas, so we saw Wonjae, Coogie, DeVita, and Sogumm. As always, send me a request of whatever you wanna see! Also, be forewarned, these are just bullet points of dumb shit, tbh.

1. Jay Park

-        Fukboi Extraordinaire

-        Workaholic

-        Probably addicted to sex, tbh

-        Definitely projects his sex life to the world

-        Has some big name friends, he literally works for Jay-Z and that’s weird

-        Probably has a secret softboi side but is mostly fukboi

-        Has so many freaking tattoos

2. Simon Dominic

-        The world’s softest Uncle

-        Used to sleep in his studio

-        Is in the weirdest group when you consider people like The Quiett and Yumdda. Great song but a concerning group of individuals. He also literally had a broken leg in the video. Why? What did he do?

-        Loves to harass Jay

-        When listening to the song Simon Dominic, you can stop spelling his last name and just spell Simon Dom

3. Gray (He’s so hot)

-        Incredible producer and rapper. The originally 119 is fire and I will take no criticism

-        A soft boi who sometimes gets really awkward

-        Somehow way more pretty than most women that exist

-        Has threatened to take We Are back from Wonjae on more than one occasion

-        Listen to his album, it’s fire

4. Loco

-        The most awkward boi

-        If you haven’t watched It’s Dangerous Beyond the Blankets, please do. He’s ridiculous and his mom likes to buy him As Seen on Tv products

-        The cutest bean and must be protected at all costs

-        Was not here for Sign Here but they did have a large cardboard cutout of him

5. Woo Wonjae

-        A small, soft bean who is also depressed

-        I’m not sure he leaves his house that much

-        Definitely a drink at home kind of guy

-        Is best friends with Cokun, for some reason?

-        Is glad he’s no the youngest anymore

-        Is as tiny live as he appears on tv but he’s freaking amazing live. I have video evidence after seeing him in concert

6. Code Kunst

-        Dedicated Cat Mom

-        Kind of looks like a drunk aunt

-        Has now gotten super buff and I’m concerned about it

-        Wakes up and chooses violence most days

Likes to be an asshole for absolutely no reason

7. punchnello

-        Is a giggly little baby. My source is SMTM 8

-        At one point, his shaved head with bright yellow hair looked like a tennis ball

-        He’s really just a tiny e-boi and I mean, tiny

-        Is proof that violent rap comes in all sizes

-        Disappeared off the face of the planet for a while

8. sogumm

-        Tiny, weird, and pretty. She’s quite confusing

-        I’m concerned by the existence of Balming Tiger

-        She sings like she’s been drunk her entire life but her live vocals are freaking insane

-        All I ever think of is her versus Sokodomo and them being labeled as Psycho versus Pyscho

-        Her fashion sense is strange and I don’t understand it

9. Yugyeom

-        Hey, look, Got7!

-        Has transformed into a large fukboi under the tutelage of Jay Park

-        Has some of the most concerning friends. Especially if you consider that he is friends with both BamBam and Jungkook and Jaehyun from NCT. The 97 line is concerning

-        I think Jay wanted another dancer since he spends all of his time forcing other members of AOMG to dance. He then just hired Yugyeom

-        I think he might be the tallest person in AOMG

10. Coogie

-        Look at that soft boi go

-        I think The Quiett might be jealous that AOMG got him. He was obsessed with him in SMTM 777

-        He’s super excitable and listening to him try to speak English makes me giggle

-        He’s also phenomenal live and is ridiculously pretty

-        His music is fun and he is adorable

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[khiphop-discussions]

Smtm isn't gonna be done until December 30th.

Honestly, I just want another summer season. We need some club bangers!

Also, at this point I think we've had enough fall/winter vibe songs. The last summer season was 6.

HSR can be moved to winter so students can compete during break.

It's probably hard to switch back once you make a decision. For example, smtm12 would only be about 6 months or so after SMTM 11 if they switched back to summer next year. 6 months to prepare for a show of this magnitude isn't really a lot.

[gaogrotesque]

賭上「真心」的製作人R.Tee

source. WKorea

對KPOP粉絲們來說，不認識製作人R.Tee就可惜了。 BLACKPINK的〈玩火（불장난）〉、BIGBANG的〈FXXK IT（에라 모르겠다）〉、太陽的〈Wake Me Up〉等等，過去數年來，他所製作的歌曲已經在世界上冉冉升起。既然已經證明了自身的存在，那麼透過出演2022年Mnet的SHOW ME THE MONEY 11，又再一次地要證明什麼呢？ R.Tee講述了與SMTM11一起度過的這特別的一年、以及一切都通過「真心」而得的R.Tee獨有的方程式。

2022年是SMTM11的一年呢，從去年8月開始的拍攝一直到12月30日的直播為止

「沒錯，真的像是吊著一口氣、想要賭上一切的程度。」

放送結束後的12月31日，你好像過得比誰都更享受呢

「因為重新回到睽違了數個月的日常，可以說是感受到了這些的珍貴性的程度。我領悟了原來睡覺的滋味是這麼美好。31日和從以前開始認識了很久的朋友們聚會光是喝酒了。喝了又睡、睡了又喝。」

根據坊間傳言，你有個別名是「燒啤天才」

「真的是不知道到底是誰在散布這種傳言。（笑）其實在做燒啤的時候，比起比例來說，震動才是更重要的。酒和酒在混合時存在著一種最好的震動。酒杯“tok”的撞擊到時的震動感。啊、不過這都是我個人的手感，要怎麼說明這箇中技巧呢…（笑）」

SMTM11結束之後，你在SNS上說「過去四個月來，每天只睡2小時，總共製作了12首歌」這行程看來真是發揮了超人般的energy呢

「因為我身邊有不少出演過SMTM的熟人，所以對於這（工作量極大的）惡名是早有耳聞的。我所屬的公司THEBLACKLABEL中，像是Zion.T和KUSH都是參加過前幾季的。為了應對這個困難，在開始拍攝前就已經先寫了40～50首歌，但是結論是，全部都沒有��上用場。（笑）打從放送一開始，只要聽到了參與的Rapper們的故事，就知道除了為此量身打造全新的曲子以外別無他法。可以說是一週間的戰爭了。因為每週都要為了出新的音源而馬上完成一首新歌。」

雖然優勝的Rapper出自其他隊伍，但這一季實際上的勝利者應該非你本人與JUSTHIS組成的「魚子醬（알젓；R.JUS）」隊莫屬 從DON MALIK到許成炫為止，有兩名隊員晉升到了現場直播的總決賽舞台

「出演節目時，我最重要的目標就是『要讓我們的隊員被大韓民國所有人都知曉』。已經做好了手段和方法都不拘的心理準備。從結果論，讓最多的隊員站上了決賽的舞台，老實說感到很欣慰。尤其是第一次評審許成炫時，我曾說過『今天（我評審）的人當中你是做得最好的』這樣的話。當然也會有其他更厲害的人，但是在我看來這位親辜（許成炫）已經是STAR了。在競演當中大放光彩，成為真正的STAR、並且從另一方面來說，也證明了我的眼光是正確的，對此感到很感謝呢。」

直播當時你看著自家隊員們的樣子，就像將孩子們送進了首爾大學的媽媽一樣呢…（笑）

「哈哈。老實說在網路上也出現了像這樣的迷因呢。像是我看著許成炫露出滿足的微笑，說著『我們兒子大學考試考得如何啊』之類的話。（笑）光是想到我們隊員們，連晚上睡覺前都會笑出來呢。」

透過BLACKPINK的〈玩火（불장난）〉、BIGBANG的〈FXXK IT（에라 모르겠다）〉等多首HIT曲，不管怎麼說都已經是證明了自身實力的製作人了；在這次SMTM11中有什麼想要展現出來的樣貌嗎？

「首先是剛才就提到過的，這次出演的目標並不是優勝。在SMTM11當中，我除了這個之外就別無所願了：想讓這些我覺得很厲害的朋友們，他們的名字都能夠為大韓民國的每一個人所認知。事實上這是近似於奇蹟的事呢，但是多虧了大眾的喜愛，似乎達到了某種程度上的實現。另一方面來說，也帶著想要展現我的光譜（涉獵範圍）有多廣的想法。為了想要最大化地展現多樣化的模樣，12首競演曲每一首都做出了全新的嘗試。我做不太來一成不變、重複性高的東西，比起持續地展現自身擅長的、帥氣的風格，我更喜歡拋出具有各種可能性的骰子。」

與展現出了與眾不同的chemi的JUSTHIS是怎麼組成隊伍的呢？

「我是他的粉絲呢。從很久以前開始就喜歡了。內心裡懷著憤怒的人們，互相會理解彼此心中仍然存在的餘燼。藉由這次機會才初次認識，但是從開始到結束都非常的順利。是到了會產生『居然還有這樣的？』這種想法、兩人默契得要死的那種程度。在我看來，JUSTHIS是已經在自身領域中徹底走過、也看過了終點的一位親辜。我同樣也是承受著要死一般的苦痛，經歷過我所做的音樂的極限。所以我們在談話時頗有心有靈犀之感。這次放送中最大的收穫，就是結交了JUSTHIS這位朋友。」

有種使出了殺手鐧的感覺呢，一般來說應該會與平常認識的製作人組成一隊吧

「人際關係和去咖啡店一次、兩次地蓋章集點是不一樣的。當然，儘管多多見面交流也很重要，但是只要彼此的心意相通的話就可以了。所以說呢，和JUSTHIS初次見面那天就聊了8、9個小時。彼此關注的事物也是相同的、兩人的頻率也相近。或許在那同時就互相都有感覺到了。」

競演當時對隊員之一的Unofficialboyy曾說過「技術是無法撼動人心的」，令人印象深刻；這句話是什麼意思呢？

「要忽視音樂性。（在做音樂時不能只顧著想要怎樣運用音樂上的技巧）原始的力量是能夠使人們落淚的，我認為修飾雕琢並不是這個問題的解法。當然，如果每天花上10～12小時泡在工作室裡埋頭作曲，也是有可能“tok”地迸出些原始的什麼。自從開始獨自做音樂，過了幾年之後我遇上了撞牆期。好像從某個瞬間開始就無法使自己感到滿意。別人都拍手叫好，但我內心卻想著：『為什麼我卻覺得不合心意呢？』那時我也還沒有所屬的公司，於是就直接找上了海外的音樂廠牌，將音源傳過去進行交流，也都是得到一片說音樂很好的反饋。儘管如此，我還是不願意發行這些曲子。想了想造成如此的理由，是因為我在用技術去貼近音樂。想通這點的當下感覺就好像當頭棒喝一樣。在那之後做出來的歌曲就是2016年BLACKPINK的〈玩火（불장난）〉。」

〈玩火（불장난）〉是你第一次在大眾面前昭示本身存在的歌曲

「這是一首在2016那年的某一天，我睡一覺起來，只花了20分鐘就做完的曲子。但是準確地來說，以那時為起點，往後在做音樂時開始有了極大的解放感。在聲音的表現上變得更有創意且簡潔俐落。如果說以前是帶著『不能在這裡再多裝進點音效嗎？』這種想法，在曲子裡塞了又塞，從〈玩火〉之後則是了解到技術上的耍帥毫無意義，於是開始精簡音效。2016年可以說是展開了我的音樂生涯中全新的章節。」

你也是在那一年，通過〈玩火（불장난）〉，遇見了現在所屬公司THEBLACKLABLE的製作人TEDDY的

「沒錯。過去我在做音樂時，對於音樂的宣傳計劃也有著同等的關心。獨自完成的有趣企劃非常地多。我曾經直接買下一台5噸的卡車，裝飾得像舞台一樣，然後在那上面開了個音樂祭。因此跟其他人比起來，我的名字也快速地為人所知，就是在那個時候，現在公司的KUSH哥也對我的音樂投以喜愛。通過KUSH哥將我介紹給了TEDDY哥，而在當時全大韓民國我最尊敬的製作人正是TEDDY哥。」

從2016年開始與TEDDY合作了7年，他是個什麼樣的同僚呢？

「與他人不同地思想很有深度。老實說，當做音樂的人們聚在一起的話，常常就變成只聊音樂。最近流行的音樂類型是什麼呢、誰很夯呢…但是我和TEDDY哥好像都是聊些人生在世的話題。最近感受到了什麼呢、對此我們互相又有什麼想法。似乎就像這樣填滿了過去的這7年時間。」

開始做音樂的契機是什麼呢？

「高中、大學時我都是主修韓國畫的。高二時開始下定決心要成為音樂人。真的是因為很單純的理由。沒有比我更熱愛音樂的人了，所以因為這樣我認為自己可以脫穎而出。現在也還是會對後輩製作人們說：『我比你更熱愛音樂。在這點上是不會輸的。』然後對美術大學就只是想沾個醬油路過就好。我的父親和姐姐都是畫家。我從小就是受著藝術的薰陶長大。特別是我的父親，什麼種類的藝術都相當精通，真的是天才般的人物呢。美術歸美術，音樂歸音樂。托父親的福，我在6歲的時候用徐太志與孩子們的音樂跳舞、初中1年級時開始聽Micheal Jackson。我想我是在這樣那樣的諸多祝福中長大的。」

聽說你在大學時節也曾兼職做過入學考試的美術講師，也請談談這部分

「對的，我感到很自豪。我所教導的7名學生全都成功考取了在首爾的大學。其中一名還是被梨大以榜首錄取的呢。（笑）」

主修美術對於你在做音樂時，有起到什麼樣的幫助嗎？

「比起說是幫助，似乎是彼此之間存在著共通點。我還在畫畫的那時曾聽過像這樣的說法：『在一幅好的畫作之中，要有一條道路能夠讓畫中的小人通過它走出來。』意思就是，比起隱含非常多意義的畫作，保有留白之處、使觀眾得以將自身想法投射上去的才是好的畫作。音樂好像也是如此。越是空著，人們才越能夠以自己的想像來填滿曲子。」

對音樂人來說，本身製作的歌曲就是介紹自己的名片；那麼對你來說，像是名片一樣的歌曲是哪一首呢？

「到現在為止製作過的所有曲子中，浮現在我腦海中的就兩首歌。首先是2020年作曲的BLACKPINK的〈How You Like That〉。這首歌代表了我。曲子的氛圍、演出、力量、進行（的方式），這些就是金重九。（笑）另一首則是出乎預料地、在SMTM11中誕生的。DON MALIK的〈눈（EYE）〉。包括作曲、作詞都參與了，歌名也是親自定的。這首歌中눈（EYE 眼睛/ SNOW 雪）的靈感來自於我相當喜歡的電影之一，《I型起源（I ORIGINS）》。〈눈（EYE）〉這首歌乘載了我一直以來想說的話、想要呈現的音效等全部的一切。」

有沒有寫過什麼歌是讓你覺得「在這種事上也可以得到靈感啊？」的呢？

「有很多耶？甚至還有在去H&M買衣服的路上，因為心情太好了而靈光乍現的曲子呢。（笑）我的靈感大多是像這樣的。從非常不像話的、微小的瑣事中開始。絕對不會代入什麼公式來作曲。假如說真的存在有什麼公式的話，音樂的潮流就會趨向缺乏變化。另外，一開始就有這種公式的話，那麼就所有人都能成功了。假如通過什麼樣的歌曲得到了喜愛，就想著『下次還得是這樣的』那可就失算了。」

大多數製作人會想著特定的音樂人來寫歌，那你的情況又是如何呢？

「具體決定了曲子要給誰的話，就會想著那個人來寫歌；大部分則是從開始到結束都是我自己作業。為了讓自己感到滿意會瘋狂地作曲。音源排行榜1位這種的一點也不會讓我高興。恰到好處地做出合我本身心意的創作的那瞬間，好像才會快樂得像要死了一樣。」

你認為對製作人來說最重要的資質是什麼呢？

「真心。我認為藝術是為了給予感動而存在的。還有，想要撼動人們的心的話，除了真心以外似乎沒有別的答案。所以說，我覺得作為製作人，應該要下功夫學習的部分並非樂理，而是人才對。」

你曾經在2014年發表了〈We Got the World〉以及2019年的〈What You Waiting For（뭘 기다리고 있어）〉這兩首solo曲 想必也有不少粉絲期待著你個人的專輯吧

「現在也正在作曲中呢。事實上已經做好了幾首歌，但是總覺得還可以繼續再多做點什麼，在這樣的心情之下就先（把做好的）擱置著。這些歌曲將會以新奇又陌生的聲音，給初次聽到的人們帶來愉快的感受。我想，今年是不是會以大概2～3首歌來與大家見面呢。」

今年除了發行solo曲之外，還有什麼計畫嗎？

「更多地看著我所愛的人們。對於去年通過SMTM11而相遇的隊員們，我很高興得以完全地向他們傳達我的喜愛之情。在慶功宴當時，DON MALIK和許成炫對我說了這些話：『（一開始）完全不知道（哥）是怎樣的人。一直以來每個人都是為自己打算，沒有像哥這樣以真心相待來拉近距離的。』所以說儘管一開始不熟悉，但之後就感受到了『啊，這哥是超級真心的啊。』（笑）結果好像還是愛和真心才是上上策呢。」

雖然對於製作人R.Tee已經增加了不少了解，但是一般人金重九卻還是籠罩著一層神秘的面紗呢 請告訴我們一般人金重九的3個秘密

「首先，我超級懶散的。由於人們總是只看見了我忙碌的樣子，可能會因此而以為我是個很有計畫性的人，但其實只要一關掉那個開關，我就會變得無限懶散。第二，我是個心懷人間之愛（인류애：大愛、人道主義、和平主義、心中充滿愛）的人。（笑）雖然有點難為情，但是因為這份愛意真的非常巨大的緣故，於是我試著從身邊少數的人開始給予這份心意。第三，我是每天每天都想像著死亡而活著的人。手臂上也刺了“THE END”的刺青。因為總是想像著死亡的緣故，對於現在所愛的會變得更加真心。在我自身必須採取的行動與表現方面，也變得更加地明確。」

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[cielospeaks]

ive done year in reviews for gacha games before but tbh i want to do one this time for my stories/ideas/ect

brief summary of story content in 2022:

january: seidjarn christmas carol (feh) written. got changed a little from earlier drafts bc of some canon things but good news is bc of that sola got added! the sola + otr friendship is like one of my favorite things in the kasumiverse tbh.

january: case files rerun. heavily underdeveloped lol. tbh i headcanon that the cfr is just like. the “recap of earlier story arc” episode in the anime. well plus ashlynn + vee friendship and treblesal blondel de nesle style but screaming about m c u movies.

winter-???: aime tachi returns to my focus! speaking of mcu movies lol. the reason is in no small part bc of both nwh and a friend who was encouraging of this au. i think this year’s focus saw a lot more development and the addition of nwh led to a more solidified smtm (and a1) part from at2. i also finished writing the prologue yea! but aside from that nothing much was done lol. but it was brainstormed! and ill take that as a win

golden week 2022: escape the riyoverse! again influenced by movies slightly but ill give it that since the whole thing has a hollywood vibe lol. like most fgo stories its not solidified but its a super big crossover of all of the gw crossover characters (+ into the fics) leading up into it. it also answered a lot of storybuilding questions/ect. (what happens to the allegrofaces, as we saw anda and coda in idolgers, but due to some worlds being erased from existence their allegros’ fates are unknown. as well as why aime’s keyblade is melodic feathers ie allegros keyblade, mostly just those plot points lol)

???: “fallen angel kisumi” storyline. well its literally just an idea at this point. but it has merit. basically kisumi finally gives up after witnessing the crew be awful for too long when it also takes bel’s life, and kisumi absorbs his powers and uses them to recruit underutilized final event bosses who deserved better. aside from this the “school au” kisumi, who has like. no canon anything but definitely exists as school bel’s penpal and long distance friend. possibly if fallen angel kisumi goes after school bel, its up to school kisumi to save him. lol. idk.

november-???: twsty au! oh gosh i wasnt expecting to even like this game but i did. i am not immune to idiot bird principal and platonic dumbass boys. the au includes idolger buddies lieven and jaeger, but also introduces new faces like norytx, wesley, and danry, as well as the obligatory treble insert (who actually is very cool not to be punny lol.) and it gave me somewhat of a version of those characters who i wont mention specifically that i can actually like. shoutout to more side characters (alfe maybe?, the vice principal, magic hat sensei, elias, and annand) bc u are also cool.

 january-december: heroesverse book 6! again managed to finish it! it was a wild ride but it got done. sufficiently harder than before bc my guy elm was given like. nothing. in canon. so i had to ~improvise~ but a lot of the story was around em and the main squad anyways lol. idk. it works for what b6 was but i at least know what i want to do differently for b7!

and since thats mostly done on to the specifics!

best new character: i think im gonna give it to em! she gets fleshed out in story and has a nice little character arc. i like that she’s both a foil to kasumi and someone for her to help/to be helped by. shes also on a side note a big spiderman fan so that gets a big thumbs up from me.

best returning character: i think ill give it to aime! that doesnt count bc shes a self insert but idk. i feel like more shes a tribute to my childhood and coping with stuff but idk. mixed bag. i love her character arc from marvel arc to nwh, with coping with losing someone while she was out of their life, as well as growing to overcome old grudges (both of which are very relatable to me now/hit too hard for me personally), and on the positive side learning to feel again and care again after having to harden herself emotionally to get through life (again, same hat). it is just also like. magically self indulgent to be able to put essentially my insert/the cooler, more in universe me next to my favorite characters from different franchises and tldr i highly recommend kh aus -pacha meme-

best dynamic: listen i am always weak for idolgers and vore musical trio. the anda and mokou dynamic specifically is just. soul healing. and vmt is sorta that cliched “jaded dad doesnt want to have to care again but damnit someones gotta take care of these children” but i live for this iteration specifically, as the jaded dad is a dead murderer and these children are a lab experiment and a space plant. kisumi + kasumi also has nwh spiderman pointing meme vibes and is soul healing so im putting it here too.

biggest criticism: i feel like (esp in kasumiverse) i need to work on balancing serious/comedic, writing shorter, and having more fun writing. idk it just kinda feels like a chore, and that im just checking for plotholes instead of having fun. i also need to just flippin sit down and actually write the aimeverse stuff tbh. i go on abt how fun it is but i never actually write it ohmygosh

hope for the next year: idk. i think in general its just for me to have fun writing! i think i had fun writing the marvel arc so like. more of that please.

a story id like to write: itd be nice to actually write the “ghosts take scrooge to his past/present/future” part of the seidjarn christmas carol, but idk. since otrs past isnt too developed idk.

and speaking of acc id like to write that. it seems self contained (lol) so i feel like it might be easier (double lol)

i think itd also be nice to write more treblesal and trebleizou, just for fun. as a treat. treblenizou too. and since antonio has writing now trebletonio (or andrea/antonio with treble cesario-ing hard in the background. like ofc i want characters like dolores or miles but pls andrea survivor now!)

#year in review

[mayhembunnywrites]

Our World in You

By MayhemBunny @mayhembunnywrites

Pairing: Zico x Reader x Dean

Summary: You watch the Fanxy Child performance before the team selection, and you can’t focus at all.

Inspired by an anonymous ask. Have the happiest of St. Valentine’s Day(s)!

You feel your heart nearly beating out of your chest as you try to calm down, watching your boys perform their own hearts out on the stage, performing to the best of their abilities to the watching crowds of people, knowing that the performance will determine the amount of people wanting to join their team.

You lose all care for your appearance as you cheer and clap for them in their personal waiting area, not even recognizing the cameras in the room as you celebrate and enjoy the performance to the fullest. You remember the countless times you would walk in on Hyuk and Ji-ho practicing their joint performance, the moments before the performance but already engraved into your memories. 

Tender kisses and sweet embraces were shared behind the closed curtains, and you had prepared for the performance that would make a moment feel as if it was eternity instead. You are surprised to see the performance ending, the entire thing a mere blur as you watch the crowd cheer as they leave the stage after the exciting performance. 

You gently press your hand against your heart as you take a deep breath, calming yourself down as the scene quickly is deconstructed, the props from the performance being moved around in preparation for the next performance. You lose track of time as you wait, mind blank as you turn off the television and lay back on the couch, closing your eyes and resting your hands on your chest as your mind replays the performance over and over again until finally--

The door opens, revealing Hyuk and Ji-ho as you bolt upright, quickly rising and rushing over the second after they close the door behind them. You embrace them, kissing Hyuk and then Ji-ho in your excitement and happiness at finally having them with you again. 

“We’ve missed you too, love,” Ji-ho says laughingly as he and Hyuk move your little triad over to the couch, listening to you fuss at them, switching between worried and happy with each passing moment. You can tell when they’re done listening as they distract you with a kiss, the world other than the three of you falling away. 

At the end of the day, your approval was all that mattered to them when it came to their performance, and they were just happy that you had given it to them. The rest of the world could wait in the wings, as far as Hyuk and Ji-ho were concerned, for as long as you were with them, their world was complete. 

#zico #dean #woo ji-ho #kwon hyuk #zico x reader x dean #khh #khh fanfiction #khh fluff #fanfiction #fluff #smtm #smtm 6 #fanxy child #fanxychild #smut to come in the future! #Maybe #Sorry if this is bad! #i couldn't find a suitable gif for this

[scenariosonscenarios]

Tug of war

Summary: apparently Noel was your boyfriend and you didn’t even know.

Noel x reader. Fluffy, romance.

Request: Hi I was wondering if you could maybe write a scenario about noel? Can it be fluffy🥺 thank you so much in advance

I’m on hiatus but I am finishing up requests that I haven’t gotten to ☺️

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Grey skies covered the city, the mood of the day causing you to yawn drowsily.

“What a perfect day to just take a nap” you said while on the balcony of your apartment, your phone in your hand as you spoke to the man on your line.

“Maybe we can take one together” he said through the phone, his chill and relaxed voice making your chest feel warm.

“What makes you think I wanna see you?” you said to him with a smirk.

“What do you mean? You know you love when I come over” He said with a cocky tone, a smile forming on his face as the two of you started teasing each other.

“No I don’t” you said knowing you were provoking him as you took a seat on your lawn chair. Silence was heard on the other line for a moment before he spoke again, his voice sounding strained as if he was trying to hold back from saying something he didn’t want to.

“You wait there. I’ll be over soon” he said to you. Eventually you heard the sound of him ending the call and you chuckled to yourself. Lately you and him had been poking at each other every day, whether it was in the phone or in person. He’d always find some moment to flirt or say something that would be a little wreckless for a best friend to say but you liked it. You and him were constantly pushing the glass of water to the edge of the table, but would never let it spill or tip over.

Moment after moment went by before you heard the doorbell sound off throughout your place signaling the boy had made it. You got up and went to the door and opened it, him nodding at you as he said “wassup” before walking in.

“If I recall, you said you didn’t want me like me over but yet I’m here” he said

“Shut up little boy” you said to him with an eye roll

“Little boy?” He repeated, starting to walk up to you. You shouted “no” and tried to run, knowing exactly what he was going to do. Unfortunately he was successful and you felt your body lifted off the ground. You wiggles against him in defense, him laughing at you as he threw you down onto the couch. Your body bounced roughly as you yelped, Noel hovering above you.

“You’re gonna get enough of calling me a boy” he said attaching his lips to the delicate skin of your neck. He knew the perfect amount of sucking against your skin to apply so a hickey wouldn’t form. You’d let him do things like this all the time and he’d do the same. It never got any further than simple things like this though.

“Noel stop!” you said to him through a giggle as he started kissing against your neck a little longer than usual, his hands starting to feel the skin of your thighs.

“I don’t want to” he said stubbornly, raising his head up to look at you

“At least make me your girlfriend first” you said kissing the corner of his lips

“hush” he said keeping his lips close to yours.

“You first” You said to him while moving away

“Whatever, come back here” he said pulling you onto his chest as he rested his body on the couch. You never fully understood what was going on between you two, all you knew was that you and him clearly liked each other. Sure, titles weren’t always a big thing but they definitely mattered if it was confusion in between two people that clearly had feelings for each other.

You were close as possible to his body, the sound of his heartbeat thumping in sync with yours filling your ear. You wished the two of you were both on the same page just like your heartbeats.

You knew everything about Noel. That he was a Gemini, how he hates vegetables, he liked black pink and red velvet, his favorite scent, his favorite food, what ticks him off, you even noticed how he’d twiddle his fingers when he was thinking about something serious. You loved him, whether it was a friend or boyfriend, you loved him.

You had no clue if the feelings were mutual. He probably didn’t even know your favorite color for all you knew. He probably was just doing everything he did for the fun, a simple pass time.

-

“I’m a wildlife biologist. Probably not too interesting of a job to most but I love it” the man in front of you said.

You were on a date with a guy your friend set you up with. He was cute and more so smooth around the edges than rough. He had a very prim vibe about him and seemed like a gentleman so far.

Even so, you were already getting bored with him. dissatisfaction with sat in the back in the back of your mind as you and him talk. It was something that just wasn’t hitting off well.

“No no it does seem interesting. What type of wildlife do you encounter on the daily?” You asked trying to keep the conversation going so it didn’t get dry and awkward. The more you talked to him though the more you felt your enthusiasm and interest was forced. Luckily he didn’t notice it and kept talking happily about his job.

“Well I come across owls, fox’s, armadillos, and other things. You honestly never know what animal you’ll stumble upon” he said. You and him chatted while walking around a lake at a park, looking at all the nature surrounding you two. You got distracted when your phone started buzzing, your stomach fluttering.

It was Noel calling.

“Excuse me” you said to the man you were with, taking the phone call and turning away from him

“Yes?” You said

“Hey, I was thinking maybe we could watch movies together today” he said

“Well no actually. I’m on a date” you said

“Oh...well I’ll just call you tonight before bed” he said

“Okay cool-” you said before he hung up abruptly. You moved the phone from your ear and sighed a bit in disappointment. You knew Noel like the back of your hand and it didn’t take a rocket science to know he felt some type of way about you seeing another man at the moment. It wasn’t the first time he reacted in such a way anyways. Almost every time you talked to another guy he’d get an attitude with you about it although he’d claim nothing is wrong

“Anyways, what were we talking about?” You said with a smile.

Eventually the date ended just as the sun was setting, and you two parted ways. You were more than happy to just go home and rest in your bed. You enjoyed the nice outing but you weren’t feeling it today at all.

You checked your phone to see if maybe Noel texted you but there was no sign of him. Usually he would’ve texted you something by now seeing as though he texts you everyday multiple times, but there was nothing. Definitely another sign he was feeling salty.

The ride home was different.

No music played, it was just your thoughts and in conclusion: you were going to set the record straight with him tonight. He couldn’t keep playing tug of war with you like this.

You dialed his number before you could even get your shoes off when you stepped through the door of your apartment, the sound of him answering filling the quietness.

“Listen, whatever game you’ve been playing with me is over with. You love to reap the benefits of me being yours but won’t make me your girlfriend or tell me what’s up. Since we’re just friends, I’m going to treat you as such. You’ll never lay a finger on me again! I’m tired of you!” You yelled into the phone. It was silent before he spoke, his words catching you off guard

“Shouldn’t I be mad?” He said

“What?”

“You’re the one that cheated on me today” he responded

“You’re not my boyfriend, how did I cheat on you?!” You yelled

“I am your boyfriend” he replied.

“Noel stop playing-“

“Would a regular guy know your zodiac, favorite food, favorite color, the butterscotch scented perfume you wear, or notice how you twirl your fork or spoon when you eat something good?” He mentioned back

“Well...I-I guess not-“

“Exactly. You’re my girl from now on” he said cutting you off

“You can’t just up and claim me like that” you said starting to yell at him again

“Goodnight girlfriend” he said with a laugh before hanging up in your face.

#no:el #noel #yongjun #high school rapper #khh imagines #khh scenarios #khip hop imagines #khiphop scenarios #smtm 6 #smtm777 #smtm 8 #noelkr

[khhsh-t]

행주 Hangzoo - 개인플레이 (Soloplay) [Lyric Video]

#hangzoo #soloplay #khh #koreanhiphop #korean hip hop #orange #orange moodboard #orange headers #orange icons #ameoba culture #ameoba #culture #smtm 6 #show me the money 6 #show me the money #khiphop #k hip hop

[mayfifolle]

#woo wonjae #aomg #rapper #khh #khiphop #smtm #smtm 6 #korean #asian #asia #south korea #sweet #tattoos #outfits #piercing #dog #boyfriend material

[f-ngrl]

I am watching SMTM10 and I'm on ep 6 where they are doing the group songs and so far all the songs sound kinda pop-rock-ish (?): lots of clean vocals and some rap parts, and the music??

I wanted to know if somebody else also felt that way. I wanted to know your opinion.

(I love your blog btw <3)

hey, yup i agree :D i don't even know which song(s) you mean, but most of the more recent ones i listened to do sound like that to me too.

(thanks! :))

you kind of made me fall into a rant about smtm you didn't ask for so i put it under the cut :D (not that much but still :D)

i kind of gave up on smtm as a hiphop thing, it's all about making a show in pursuit of the money (sorry:P) but not actually about rap. they just use whatever style or genre will fulfill that purpose the best at the time...

this sounds so mean and i know some of my faves are on there as contestants or producers haha, but i think if you asked them they would agree. they make deeper and more personal music when they're not on the show, and it's ok like that imo. the show is just to give some artists a career boost and to blow some money into the scene which is still good because i think it's suffering, and the majority of artists are struggling to make ends meet.

what i think is regrettable is that mnet has so much power in it. it belongs to one of the biggest entertainment companies in korea (cj enm, which, fun fact, also owns aomg and h1ghr music) and ofc the production company gets to have a huge say in how things go on the show, i wish their influence on the whole scene wasn't so big.

#anon #ask #smtm #smtm10

[moxiepoints]

#Jay Park #park jaebeom #park jaebum #smtm6 #smtm 6 #show me the money 6 #khh

[khiphop-discussions]

Season 11 of SMTM is boring compared to 10

Agreed. Starting from episode 4, it got more interesting. I'm still trying to complete 6-9 before Friday morning so I can watch the finale live.

Episode 1-3 were not interesting.

#asks #khh #khiphop

[penomecoincorea]

#dean #killagramz #kwon hyuk #hyuk kwon #woo jiho #zico #bastarz #block b #fanxy Child #kpop #seven seasons #deanfluenza #deantbrl #smtm6 #show me the money 6 #SMTM #SMTM 6 #show me the money

[nathandraws]

#woo wonjae #wonjae #smtm #smtm6 #smtm 6 #show me the money #show me the money 6 #aomg #gray #loco #zico #dean #trbl #trbltfluenza #tiger jk #bizzy #hangzoo #marshall #nucksal #penomeco #punchnello #dickids #dickids crew #bully da bastard #young b #khh #khiphop #kshow #bangtan #nct