#shes not dead i just love her

[multi-phantom]

I miss my wife (dead female character who didn't get enough screen time and was massacred by the fandom)

#you may tag this about your female blorbos too #mha #bnha #kayama nemuri #nemuri kayama #midnight #midnight bnha #bnha midnight #bnha kayama nemuri #mha midnight #mha ms joke #shes not dead i just love her

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[nenayaquisieras]

Simon has always been confused on why you gift him toys. Sure, most of the gifts you gave him were some of the things he liked. Bourbon, masks, gloves, make up for him to smudge his eyes with, some daggers and knives. Things that we're useful for him, just him. But later, you gifted him a toy airplane. He makes a comment about it, saying he is not a child anymore and you were better off giving it to Johnny instead.

"No, this is specifically for you, take it."

When he gets to him room, he walks toward his trash can, opening it with the tip of his boot. He gives one more look at the toy, his mood souring before throwing it into the trash. He goes on about his day, training, signing paper work, drills. Doing anything to ignore the pain stinging memories that the toy brought back. Emotions that were buried thousands of feet deep it could reach hell itself. Later, he lies awake in bed, staring at the ceiling, avoiding looking at the cylinder shape that's calling for him in his peripheral.

Fuck.

He pulls the covers off vigorously and stomps over to the trash can. He is standing over it like he's trying to intimidate it, as if it was an enemy he's trying to get rid of in battle. To anyone else, the scene would look comical.

He sighs to himself and reaches down to take out the toy he so cruelly threw away. He sets it on his desk and quickly walks toward his bed, facing away from his desk.

The next day, he wakes up feeling different. He swears he sees his room more vibrant, more lively. That energy follows him through out the day, having his other teammates notice his rather bright mood.

You catch him in the hallway. Pulling him aside to ask him about the paper work you left at his desk this morning. Of course, he notices the way you smile brightly, more so than usual. But he notices that you're not looking at him. More like looking at something next to him.

"What's got you so cheery?"

You turn to look up at him, feeling a bit embarrassed.

"I just..." You take a quick glance at the spot next to him, before bringing your eyes back upon his.

"I just hope you liked your gift." The same bright smile appearing on your face.

He stares at you, examining your words. Your expression.

You think you see his eyes crinkle a bit.

"Yea,"

"I liked it."

#call of duty #cod #simon ghost riley #simon riley #ghost #simon riley x reader #medium!reader #Joseph really liked his toy airplane #Honestly this was her way of giving his nephew toys without her bring up that she sees dead people #she can't be like “Ghost let me gift Joseph something” #he would be like “How the fawk you know who that is??” #sorry for errors its so late #but yea ill have more soon #I just cant figure out how to traumatize Gaz and Soap #Only Ghost and Price #love to see the old men suffer #ghost simon riley #ghost x reader

[vanpalmr]

YELLOWJACKETS | 1.01 | 2.02 |

#jackie taylor #shauna shipman #* #jackie x shauna #jackieshauna #shauna x jackie #shaunajackie #yellowjackets #sophie nelisse #ella purnell #once again i ask you to walk with me here #this parallel just further proves in my little brain #the triangulation of desire of it all #shauna is hallucinating jackie leaning into her like she leans into jeff #it was never about jeff it will never be about jeff #sorry to that man. #and the knowledge that shauna was ???HORNY??? watching jackie and jeff??? #the way it took jackie being dead for shauna to have that moment with her #to touch her like that etc #when in reality jackie would have fucking loved it while she was alive #idk just thinking. thoughts #parallels

[opera-ghost]

it's immensely funny to me how andrew lloyd webber read this passage from the book and was like yeah the journey down to the phantom's lair is this really breathtaking magical gondola ride where christine is just captivated by the strange and fantastical beauty of it all (see below)

when in the novel they're both like in a rowboat in the dark with christine scared out of her mind and confused as hell while erik is paddling like he's out for an extreme day of fishing and just staring christine down for the entire duration of the journey without blinking once . like mind you his eyes quite literally GLOW in the DARK and he's just fucking staring into her soul and silently rowing and probably not even breathing like

#AND IT'S SOMEHOW STILL HOT #i always forget that by this point in the book there's no “i am your angel of music / come to me angel of music” like in the musical #like she has no idea who this mf kidnapping her is and when she says “who are you where is the voice” he's just like 🙄 #and when she DOES find out that *he's* the voice and he's been pretending to be an angel sent by her dead father for 3 months #it's when he's just set her down in his sitting room that's filled with a bunch of stupid pretentious flowers #and he's like “don't be afraid you're in no danger” despite the fact that she's been taken FIVE STORIES BENEATH THE OPERA against her will #by the guy who's been manipulating and lying to her through the goddamn walls #ohhhhhhhh and then fans have the audacity to get mad at christine for trying to snatch his mask like THIS MF ABDUCTED HER???? #(still love him though <3) #(his morals are questionable but so is my interest in men😍) #phantom of the opera #poto #poto shitpost

[taxinealkaloids]

horrible children who are. so so mean to each other

#tlt #the locked tomb #my art #precanon griddlehark dynamic is SO funny. the way they are just no-holds-barred absolutely AWFUL to each other. #the fact that harrow made fun of gideon for saying 'i love you' over her dead mother's grave so gideon nearly choked her to death #and then when gideon recalls this story in gtn she's just like 'yeah lol we were wild kids' #also remember when gideon responded to harrow being kind of bossy with 'your parents must have been so relieved to die' like #imagine saying that knowing full well her parents killed themselves in front of her when she was ten!!!! insane!! #there's no sense of going 'too far' between them. they casually hit what would be considered by most ppl to be 'too far' and then keep going #anyway i don't usually go in for characters-being-kids-together stuff but i will admit that childhood gid+harrow #following each other around absolutely terrorizing each other because they're desperate for each other's attention but also full of #hatred and vitriol #does compel me #like...2 very lonely very traumatized children with only each other for company. what will they do? ENDLESSLY TORTURE EACH OTHER!!! #and yet they are each other's emotional support person. its so good.

[balleater]

i've already made posts about this so many times but every time the raven queen's ascension gets brought up and its talked about like she did it for immortality or purely for power it makes me go a little insane because the story of her being a follower of the god of death before her and taking his place specifically because he didn't respect death is one of the best things about her lore in my opinion. that one of the biggest differences between her and those who failed attempts at ascension is that she did because of faith and not to spite it.

#critical role #the raven queen #i do fully understand that theres no reason for most of the characters to know this btw #and that given how wizards in the age of arcanum were. it Makes Sense to assume that #but something within me compels me to bring this up as often as possible. #and also dont get me wrong. she absolutely is still an example of extreme wizard hubris. #now i do absolutely think there are fascinating discussions that could be had about the implications of this reasoning #but the idea that she did it for selfish reasons of immortality or such and not out of her own faith and respect of death and the dead #i just love her okay!!!

[ryssbelle]

N2 Floyd in the first movie

Sad little man got himself captured :(

He also gets punched in the face, but that's neither here nor there lmao

Also sorry for not posting for a fat minute I've been busy XD

Bonus: What John and Branch be doing

RIP in pieces John Dory, you were a brave troll and will be missed

I've got some more doodles of them going through it in the first movie, maybe we will see them soon teehee .

#my art #trolls au #dreamworks trolls #trolls #trolls 3 #trolls john dory #trolls floyd #trolls branch #trolls oc #n2 au #not the only one au #ye floyd is singing that song from DBH #its a good song #and he also cant hue shift cuz depression and stress #that little sketch of bridget was the first time ive drawn her #shes so freaking cute #she reminds me of my aunt #also someone seems to recognize floyds little angry face #i wonder why #hehe #i say having out the reason why in the picture #john and Branch are also going through it #cuz in the dream this originates from jd legit tried to throw hands with a whole ass bergen #and loses obviously but he tried and thats all that matters #branch is just losing brothers by the second #hes obvi gonna assume Floyds already dead and then JD is family guy death posing in front of him #but he still goes out to help poppy #cuz john asked and hes also in love with poppy so he wouldve gone eventually either way #and he doesnt want floyd to get left behind 🥺 #like a certain green someone hehe

[aweirdofangirl]

There's something so perfect about Charles and Edwin loving and needing each other, but also going to Crystal and Niko's rooms respectively after a rough case because there is also so much value in them having sanctuaries outside of each other.

#dead boy detectives #i need to see just Niko and Charles on a case #the way everyone gazes so fondly at Niko when she talks about having her own case #but especially charles #they could learn so much from each other #there's something about two characters who come equipped to love people who don't exactly always make it easy #their kindness is immovable and knows no bounds #gimme season 2

[spacedlexi]

its my birthday who wants some KISSIES!!!

#this is a little old atp but im posting it as a treat enjoy everybody #thinking about how relaxed and comfortable in their relationship they would be after 10 years 😭 im normal im normal #like the last ep of S4 but cranked up to 100......im normal im normal!!! #all the shit clem has done and had happened to her and now she just gets to chill and kiss her gf?? truly she has achieved peace #yeah theyre making out under the minnie heart WHAT ABOUT IT theyve carved their own somewhere else dont worry #sorry but i love twisting the minnie knife whenever i can :) #obviously violets feelings about it are completely different now but ya know... Memories... #the walking dead game #twdg #violentine #clementine twdg #violet twdg #twdg post game #spaced art 2024

[catrasfreckles]

*wakes up*

I wonder how Pyrrha feels about her dead lover's dead daughter having the same name as her dead best friend

*goes back to sleep*

#i need Pyrrha to tenderly cradle Gideon in her arms like a wittle baby. #the locked tomb #pyrrha dve #gideon nav #tlt #kiriona gaia #pyrrha rly is just haunted by all the people shes loved. everywhere she looks theres another reminder #but i think she could give gideon a lot of perspective re: cavaliers #in ntn right before cam and pal do the thing and she talks about how lyctorhood is not love. good shit #anyway. my point is i love pyrrha and she should scoop up gideon like a little bug. and give her a blanket and some hot cocoa maybe. #and also that its kinda fucked up to be in your dead best friends body forever and be reminded of him constantly #grief never ends

[suntails]

fallen

#KICKS OPEN THE DOOR. HIIIIIII IM BAAAAAACK. TWIRLS MY HAIR AND STARES UNBLINKINGLY AT U #okay so long story short i need to speedrun if i wanna draw ANY lore art this time #bc i go to NY w no computer for 2 weeks on thurs and i wont have nrainrot anymore after. so i need to draw FAST things #so yea. she um. she. died. sniffles. ngl i thought she was already dead from the prev update so this STUNG #the fuckign GRIEF the way lilia collapses down in mourning her loss. she falls to the humans. i am SICK it HURTS #silver was so devastated in 7.5 without even seeing the death firsthand and being like 'how could i ever be loved' #lilia looking at malleus. the future of the kingdom. the treasure of his two closest friends (loves?) #and is like 'how can i ever love him enough' and proceeds to spend A FIFTH OF HIS LIFE SEARCHING FOR A SOLUTION #dealing w prejudice from humans. kicked out of the army Disgraced. all while mourning. he keeps going out of LOVE #twst #twisted wonderland #lilia vanrouge #malleus draconia #hes an egg he counts #ch 7 spoilers #so yea blah blah blah im not as eloquent as u geniuses i will just draw a silly little dramatic art to capture my misery and move forward #suntails

[araneapeixes]

Throw down your umbilical noose

So I can climb right back

#my first ever painting!!<3 #shadowheart #bg3 #the song is the dead sara cover not the nirvana original btw #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 fanart #shar #the main thing abt this one for me is her pose #bc its meant to be ambiguous - she is knelt down to pray but also keeled over in pain #and obviously reaching up - but is it to stand or just to reach for the knife? #and im also happy with how the singular bit of moonlight (!!) makes it pop #i learned a lot in the process but im still so shit at painting. i will love any and all constructive criticism here<3

[saionjeans]

i love how during nanami’s drive she’s like “touga you gotta listen to me this guy is fucked up i just saw him performing some of the most horrifically unspeakable acts of violence” and akio is like [chuckling smugly] “hmmm….. what you saw….. yes, of course, a child’s mind is clouded by their limited perception….. and yet…. what you think you saw is merely an illusion…… due to solipsism.” and nanami doesn’t even pause to consider it, immediately she’s just like “what the fuck is this evil freak talking about.”

#u #nanami #akio #touga #he can’t trip her up with his fancy words she knows what she saw!!!! #that scene makes my gut churn so bad #like even worse than all the other car scenes #bc nanami is ACTIVELY trying to escape #and they KNOW it and they’re lording it over her???? #the fact that they have all the power to control where she goes and how she lives her life #and when she rejects touga with everything she has #he still lets akio. um. ‘show her the end of the world.’ #touga redemption arc but every time he remembers that evening he cringes so forcefully that he literally dies and now he’s dead because he #took too much psychic damage remembering his own actions. #like he’s also just really embarrassing himself here #trying to act like he’s in on some cosmic joke that nanami doesn’t have access to #NO!!!!!! YOU LOOK LIKE A FOOL AND YOU ASSAULTED YOUR BABY SISTER. DIE. #anyway. i love you nanami i love you nanami i love you nanami i love you nanami

[winepresswrath]

Madam Yu was Jiang Cheng’s mother, Yu ZiYuan. Of course, she was Jiang FengMian’s wife, and used to cultivate with him as well. Naturally, she should be called Madam Jiang. But, for some reason, everyone had always called her Madam Yu. Some people guessed that it was because she didn’t want to take on her husband’s surname due to her assertive personality. On this matter, neither the husband nor the wife in question had ever argued either.

I'm 95% sure mxtx's response to my whatdoesitmean.jlaw would be "lmao don't worry about it" but really, what does it mean? Why do random gossips think this is a girlboss moment?? What is the tone of "had [n]ever argued either"? Does JFM not care? Does he feel like he shouldn't care or like fighting or even asking is pointless? Why does Madame "every inch of this place is my territory" hold herself apart in such a public way. The people (me) demand answers.

#does my problematic baby think her husband ain't shit or does she love her home sect that much? #is jfm being dope and understanding or is he just like “ok” and quietly assumes she wants him dead? #did he grievously offend her five seconds after they got married & then get too scared to ask #mxtx in the distance: I SAID they get their courtesy names at 15 bcs it's cuter that way. extrapolate

[arthursfuckinghat]

Say what you want about Mary, but nothing makes my heart ache for Arthur more than how fucking much they loved eachother and how much they knew it would never work.

Meeting Mary the second time, she absolutely lit up seeing that Arthur actually came to help her again. Even despite the rough circumstances with her father, they both went and had a wonderful evening at the theatre.

Mary had no idea that would be the last time she'd ever see Arthur alive again.

#and she didn't even say goodbye to him at the trolley #the last letter she wrote to him was about moving on and gave back the ring arthur gave her #I can't even imagine how much the guilt and grief ate at her for that #oh mary arthur loved you so much #he had a dysfunctional family just like you why couldn't you both see that #oh man #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick thinks #arthur morgan #mary linton #mary gillis #red dead redemption 2 spoilers #she probably wanted it to be the last time they'd meet because she wanted to move on #but how was she to know #how was she to know she would never see those blue eyes again