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Lyctoral Grief

Does anyone else feel like the Lyctors' endless, evergreen mourning for their cavaliers is... almost unnatural, a little bit? Not that it's unnatural to feel grief and guilt about having murdered someone you loved. But it's been thousands of years. The Lyctors must have loved and lost more people than they can count anymore. And yet every Lyctor we meet -- and, it's implied, all the ones we didn't -- is still steeped in the horror of what they did, even the ones like Cytherea, whose cavalier went willingly.

I don't think it's just because they loved their cavaliers, miss them, feel guilty for their deaths. I think there's more to it, even if they don't realize that themselves. I think it's an effect of the cavalier not being entirely gone. One can mourn the dead, adjust to life without them, let time dull the pain -- but the cavs aren't quite dead. They aren't gone. They're still trapped inside their necromancers, suspended in the moment of death so that that moment can continue generating infinite thanergy forever. They never finish dying. After a while, they're supposed to be "fully digested," but thanks to The Unwanted Guest, we know that's not exactly true -- or at least that that supposed "digestion" doesn't mean the total breakdown of the cav's soul, but rather, at least partial incorporation into the soul of the necromancer. Cytherea Loveday. Ianthe Naberius.

The Lyctors' grief isn't because the cavaliers they loved are gone, but because they are never quite gone, and so the mourning process can never end. The cavalier is still dying inside them, and because some fraction of what is now the Lyctor used to be that cavalier, they are dying inside themselves. Never quite finished, never at peace. Forever.

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cross-posting from my twitter <3 been real into ff7 lately and zack especially... his interactions with marlene were so sweet, so i feel like he'd do something like this just to cheer her up

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cross-posting from my twitter <3 been real into ff7 lately and zack especially... his interactions with marlene were so sweet, so i feel like he'd do something like this just to cheer her up

#final fantasy 7 rebirth #ff7 rebirth #zack fair #ffvii #my art style changes like 6 times in this but thats fine. who needs consistency anyway #also rebirth was my first real exposure to zack since i still havent played crisis core #i love him. i loved him immediately

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Riding home. hurts me each time to read Camilla get hurt... and OH MY GOD it's such a well written scene, I loved it so much.

#ohhh my god the perspective #ntn spoilers

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I'm giving Anastasia a try, on the fence

#i just fell in love

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Worst Jesus Allegory Ever: This young lesbian takes three whole books to come back

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Harrowhark chilling normal-style

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nona and noodle (king of dogs in secret)

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harrow as a contestant in a cooking show

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Square Enix let them be together pls

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the name "theresa" is so funny like. theres a what

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mourning routine

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Not everything I've done is something to be proud of. I'm proud of you.

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also harry update

#op i want to eat ur art style #like a delicious sorbet #harrowhark nonagesimus #tlt

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zero finalfantasy