#she is terrified to use it anyway

[debiteful]

Utterly gleeful about the FR thread that helps you scale your dragon's images

I knew her admirer (by her nose) was tiny, but gosh darn I'm giddy at seeing it visualized

#giant/tiny #g/t #no vore for once lol #I have stuff written for her #and a little written for him #almost worth posting here for the wholesome shipping #some..... iffy themes #because she has the ability to create love potions #but he adores her without and even despite that power #she is terrified to use it anyway #but yknow #its touched on as a thing with many of the complexoti3s #he has a rival for her affections too #should maybe flesh him out #but i have a clear favourite #(its this guy)

[randomeggart]

A hat under waters: Subcon seas!

Planning to edit snatcher's design in the future because I'm not that proud of it & already have something in mind, but have this for now :) (...aaand I now realize that most of the text might be hard to read! whoops I'll make it clearer on the next one, apologies)

#a hat in time #ahit #yart #a hat under waters #ahuw #ahit snatcher #ahit vanessa #look. snatcher's in game size can be like 5 times hat kid's height in his hunched posture #It'd just be a missed opportunity if I didn't make him a leviathan #if he's gonna be monsterous and spooky he should commit to it!! make that dude the terrifying cryptid he is #Also vanessa! She deserves a cooler more horrifying form <3 #oh and actually the drawing in the vanessa picture has an error! Hat kid and bow kid can only ride the umbrella #when using the sprint hat; and no hat abilities allowed in the manor. so that was a oops #anyways yea! basically the “deep sea” chapter. quite the spooky place I imagine.

[askblueandviolet]

you kill Your own daughter, You are the worst type of bastard, the bastard's king

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#lego monkie kid #lego monkie kid fanart #monkie kid #monkie kid fanart #lmk #lmk fanart #lmk mayor #monkie kid mayor #blue and violet #you could interpret this as the Mayor lying to themselves #but honestly I think they are a little heartless #the dude does not feel ANYTHING for little Baihe/Ling's daughter #they feel just as confused as the moment she was killed #they simply... do not understand what they are even supposed to feel #they know these things and they finally remember experiencing them #but they still do not accept the fact that these are things that actually happened #they do not want to admit that this little girl used to mean something to them #they do not want to admit that they had a life before LBD #why? because LBD is everything #and they are terrified at the idea that they are somehow more than that #they do not like this #they do noy like this at all #and they are scared #anyways Mayor's sense of moraltiy is so fucked lmao #the dude's sense of empathy... is just so... hypocritical and almost nonexistent if it does not concern LBD #of course there are exceptions but its not like Mayor feels any sense of grief/guilt over seeing little Baihe die by Ling's hands

[lucindasthighs]

hmmgh thinking about laurance but his shadow knight powers connect him to the environment. And he HATES it.

He wants to pretend that he's not changed, that he can go back to a normal life- But he can hear the tremble of the earth as the memories of old gods vibrate through it; he can sense the withering of plants, the decay of corpses in his vicinity.

The feeling he hates the most is the burning, vicious hatred in the back of his consciousness. It's not his - it's old and faded, like the imprints of letters in a worn book. Sometimes, he can't even tell it's there. But he's quickly reminded when he gazes at Irene Aphmau, and it flares with intensity, like an old wound that never healed.

It's not his...right?

#used old twice in the same paragraph raaghgh #anyway AHGGHG SK LAURANCE ANGST BRAINROTTT #i want him to be doomed by narrative. #i want him to be terrified of losing more than he already has. i wanthim to be backed into a corner in his own mind #and when he leaves to the nether i want him to be defeated #not angry or bitter or anything. just tired. tired of fighting against himself #ALSO i think itd be epic if shad tried to get laurance as his vessel at first #like hes always with aphmau the woman he thinks he wants revenge against. #maybe he wouldnt know shit in s1 but after she gets the relic from the irene dimension theres no way he doesnt sense her #“wrote a whole other post in the tags bye 😭” #aphmau #aphblr #aphverse #minecraft diaries #laurance zvahl #mcd laurance #mcd aphmau #shad the destroyer #irene the matron

[moghedien]

Honestly really glad they doubled down on Nynaeve’s block tbh because they did that in the same episode where they were like “here’s this little freak of a Forsaken that even Lanfear is scared of”

And then they’re gonna have Nynaeve who can’t channel be thrust into a homoerotic rivalry for the ages with one of the most terrifying and powerful evil people around, and she can’t even fucking channel against her

It’s gonna make next season TENSE for my girl

#like let us not forget that Nynaeve’s block doesn’t get broken by herself #Moghedien breaks it (by accident) #and the entire ‘let’s keep Moghedien as a pet’ arc revolves around the fact that Nynaeve couldn’t channel on her own #and so she literally used Moghedien to channel for her #anyway I hope it starts out terrifying and devolves into Mog a sobbing mess as Nynaeve drags her around on a leash #wheel of time #wot on prime #wot show spoilers #wot book spoilers #nynaeve al'meara #moghedien

[nebulousfishgills]

HOW IS MISS MINUTES THE MOST TERRIFYING MARVEL CHARACTER THEY'VE EVER CREATED

#shout out to natalie holt's soundtrack the hijinks were impeccable #also so proud of my wife for realizing she was taking away choices and decided to grow up a little i'm so proud of her #and more loki magic and snark it feels like the good old days #also how dare they not show us the tandem bicycle that was obviously a jetski teaser #but yeah no miss minutes is fucking terrifying what the fuck #and also THAT CLIFFHANGER WAS SO CHEAP HOW DARE #can it be next week already #anyways #loki #fishgills speaks #loki series #loki season 2 #loki spoilers

[curseofpower]

Currently imagining Tetra being so horrifically bored stuck in Hyrule's basement that when Ganon showed up and ripped the door open to kidnap her she was just like "Oh thank fucking god."

#Ganondorf #tetra #the legend of zelda #wind waker #personal hc #I think he'd at least have some books that she can't read bc they're in ancient hylian #but they have cool pictures to look at about hyrule's forgotten history so she's happy #and understands absolutely none of it. #... maybe if he read some of it to her or something tho... #Anyways he expects her to be terrified and she just runs over and clings to him. #'I don't care if you're evil as long as you have some coloring books or a puzzle or ANYTHING.' #She's used to adventure and excitement I can't imagine how much torture sitting still would be. #Hell she could just run up and down the stairs of his tower for enrichment when she gets the zoomies it'd still be better than basement.

[susandsnell]

my hot take on Lizzie: the Musical is that the love story becomes infinitely more compelling the more actors/the production lean into Alice's flaws and selfishness rather than presenting her as some fragile little flower who's the voice of reason (tag novel below)

#lizzie the musical #alice ultimately prioritizes her own feelings and unhappiness over repressing her sexuality over lizzie's mental distress over her abuse #(which in fairness alice isn't really in any position to do anything about) #and she can be very sweet to the people she cares about but that doesn't negate/isn't negated by how she's putting her needs and wants firs #while also willingly being lizzie's refuge because she does love her #then in act 2 her turning on lizzie is. very understandable considering anyone would be scared shitless in her shoes #(whether either of the parents 'had it coming' or not your loved one snapping and committing gory murders is objectively terrifying) #(unless you're mrs. lovett which alice is. very much not though they share a selfishness) #and lizzie trying to use their love/sex to manipulate alice into perjuring for her - thus implicating her - is also obviously upsetting #add to that alice's words during the hearing + her overall proper lady schtick show she's drunk the edwardian patriarchal koolaid #'turn of the tables between me and you' is SO much in a lyric #anyway both of them are acting from a place of real suffering and real love and they're both wronging each other #and THAT is what real toxic yuri is all about #no one in this show is a good person. no one in this show (who is onstage) is an entirely bad person either. #everyone is acting from a place of oppression and pain and anguished love. they are all caged birds!

[itspileofgoodthings]

also I had a breakthrough today that I had in fact overthought a Specific Problem to Death and that I had created a monster in my own mind and that’s why it felt like I was being eaten alive every time I tried to solve it.

#not to put too fine a point on it but that’s what happened with the whole is Maria going to become a nun question tbh #and I needed a counselor to say to me objectively and yet also crucially without any knowledge of me or my past: #you have overthought this and now you’re terrified of it #anyway it’s so obvious but it came home to me today. slowly. #like it was just like. Oh. You did it again #you’re terrified of this because you have thought of every possibility and every outcome and every twist and turn and shadow—- #until it has become a bloated demon in your mind that is totally separated from reality #while made up of real facts and details! and tbh I know it’s a common problem #but the anxiety chokehold I can put myself in is something that is so impressive and so disturbing #I can render myself absolutely helpless through the meanderings of my own thoughts #and what makes it worse—immeasurably worse—is that I get OUT of problems through careful thought and analysis #I’m programmed that way #so I can’t escape it by the usual means. I have to back away from the monster and see it and NAME it and then it can die away. #and only THEN can I apply my usual ways of going about things. I don’t know it just all clicked today #these past few days have just been bringing it all to a fever pitch for me #anyway I guess it’s also important to me that I still be allowed to be analytical about it!!! I have to use my brain!!!!!!! #in my desperation I have tried to shut it off to feel only with my heart. To try to catch the whisper of God’s voice in the wind #but tbh I am meant to use the gifts I have! But only in the right context #and that’s only after the demon has been killed or more accurately —deflated #my counselor has been so good about this tbh. she’s so matter of fact and blunt and salt of the earth and also she sees how my mind works #and wants me to be able to use it!! #so I’m just going to tell her that I did the bad thing with this other problem and can she help me find a way forward #ANYWAY THE MONSTERS TURNED OUT TO BE JUST TREES

[collieii]

idk if this is controversial but i don't think vash is ashamed of his scars. i think vash is mainly concerned abt the picture he presents to the world and other peoples well-being/feelings. so the reason he doesn't like others seeing his scars is because he think it will make them uncomfortable, and it also sort of undermines the image he wants to project of someone who's very sillygoofy/carefree etc. similarly, i don't think vash is ashamed or insecure about being a plant/having those inhuman features, more he's concerned with how other people react to them. (the plant stuff esp makes sense to hide given how people literally stoned him lmao)

but yeah i don't think he's filled with self loathing over the scars and being nonhuman. i feel like vash's self image is fine, he just prioritizes how others feel and reacts based on that. his whole philosophy of covering up how he feels inside (that smile is fake!) is based on this principle, it doesn't matter if he's depressed as hell as long as he can pretend it's ok, because external presentation and how you affect the world is what really matters to him.

#trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #thinking more of trimax than stampede vash but i think this applies to both? #anyways i've been reading a lot of trigun fic if you couldn't tell #the plant/wings stuff is addressed p well thru meryl in trimax #where it makes sense that ppls immediate reaction to seeing them is fear #(seen in ch 38) #but ofc anyone who knows vash would know he'd never intentionally use his powers to hurt ppl #even if they are terrifying and it's reasonable to be scared #meryl is scared of vash kinda instinctively but she pushes thru it bc he's her friend yk #and there's a whole line where someone just points that out directly i can't remember which chap but yk what im saying #oh when i say his self image is fine i am not referring to the guilt of causing insane tragedies that different #i just mean he's not insecure i feel like it might look like there's overlap w what i'm saying but it's different it's different #only saying this bc i've seen other ppl make him more insecure abt it which is fine but i wanted to add my 2 cents #trigun meta #.lieii #.lieii txt

[wormy-worm]

ok u know what maybe if the world isn't ready for sunrazer post that means that the world IS ready for Amoveous siblings post. This is Milo and Enho and theyre my DARLINGS and i love them SO MUCH. i have. SOOOOOOOO many thoughts abt them but after the previous post massacre i do not really feel like typing all of that xoxo love <3

#THESE DRAWINGS HAVE BEEN SITTING IN MY DRAFTS FOR MONTHS LOL #meart #original character #robot oc #ily enho ily milo my darlings my angels my loves my funny robot guys. #ive posted abt Andromeda on here b4 if u remember her Enho is her best friend !!!!! #Enhos a battle robot who doesnt want 2 fight people.. #hes the oldest sibling and theres a lot resting on their shoulders! #shes supposed to be this big metal protector but U.U she just wants to hide in his room.. and make music for the internet.. #him and andy have this whole arc abt like. autonomy and identity and junk #being as andy is a government experiment who was raised to be a superhero who. has not yet realized that she HATES being a superhero lol #Enho inspires her! #milo um. does his own thing. he was the second amoveous bot and he is lucky to have been built without the responsibility of a battle bot #which means hes a LOT weaker. doesnt have a million weapons and lasers and such like enho does. no one expects much of him. he HATES IT!!!! #he wants to be POWERFUL! he wants to HURT PEOPLE!! he wants to be USEFUL!!! hes ANGRY ALL THE TIME #its EXSAUSTING. #yk that tinkerbell thing thats like. cuz shes so small she can only feel one emotion at once. and its so big it consumes her entirely? #hes that. he lives entirely in extremes. everything is 100% for him #he jumps to conclusions so quick and so violently.. hes incredibly impulsive and it gets him into a lot of trouble. #hes also a total NERD!!! GOOB!!! says mlady unironically. likes bad computer games. wears a stupid tie everyday. cartoonishly schemes 24/7 #enho for the record is also a pretty angry person. they just dont rlly express it. they dont express much of anything lol. #shes semiverbal on a talkative day. he can be REALLY REALLY PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE THO. THAT MF CAN BE SO PETTY. GOOFY ASS #but shes TERRIFIED she'll lose control of her emotions and her body and that shell hurt someone someday. absolutely terrified. #enho is as afraid of his strength as milo is of his weakness. theyre both two ends of the same extremes in a lot of ways. #polar opposites and yet exactly the same. they resent each other a lot. they need to learn to meet each other in the middle. #anyway ''i dont feel like typing all that'' and then i ramble in the tags for ten million years lol ToT I LOVE THESE GUYS #theyre my oldest ocs in this universe and i have so many thoughts if you have any questions feel free to ask me lol

[helpmyinterestsareverywhere]

Didn't have "crying over The Sarah Jane Adventures" on my 2024 bingo card but here we are

#like??? #what #I sat here and re-watched the first episode of season 1 #and afterwards? #tears rolling down my face #tbh Sarah jane's words of like “when i was younger i used to think that I'd know what i want when i'm older but you never really do” hit me #a lot harder that i think they were meant to? #but ouch anyway #<- person who is 2 months away from becoming 18 and terrified for becoming an adult because she has no idea what to do with life #ANYWAY YEAh #having fun re-watching this show - just should have expected to cry more i suppose #the sarah jane adventures #sarah jane smith #sarah jane adventures #hmiae rambles

[variousqueerthings]

actually you know whose reaction I'd be really curious about, potentially coming across fourteen in the shops? Francine!

#francine jones #martha jones #the doctor #dw #doctor who #the (second?) last time they saw each other she nodded to him #and i tend to interpret that as a mix of 'thank you for talking me down' 'hey we survived hell together' and 'thank goodness #martha is coming back to us and you and i both know it's the right thing even though i know you're a fucking mess too but also pls go' #not in the sense that martha was trapped with ten but that ten maybe Could have convinced her to stay potentially #or even just that francine was afraid that ten might do so/martha could possibly choose ten over them #also just that in some ways the jones fam saw the doctor and the master being An Terrifying Other Species moreso than most #there's that relief when martha comes back like they weren't sure she'd be walking back inside #so they dont end it on Bad terms technically #but also potentially... sees fourteen and it's a trigger? sees fourteen and is afraid for martha? #sees fourteen and assumes the end of the world is coming back? sees fourteen and is just... oh... hoped id never see you again #sees fourteen and it's an awkward british 'how have things been? good. you? yeah good. got a garden now. oh that's nice' #(was francine there when martha was on that joint call -- she was wasnt she? #i cannot remember if there's any Looks between them there that indicate how she feels about ten at that point) #anyway i think francine should've been in martha's final scene i think francine was the most important part of martha's life #that symbolised the ways that ten had affected that life #and seeing how francine potentially felt after end of time would have been such a strong indicator of how that story ended there #the tenth doctor #the fourteenth doctor #doctor who spoilers #dw spoilers

[lesbianspeedy]

thoughts on the brain thoughts on the mind

#looks you directly in the eyes. so do you think mia is terrified to let anyone near her when she gets hurt on patrol. #do you. #bc there’s a direct allusion to it in TT and i think about it genuinely daily #need to specify this is about the spread of hiv via cross wound contamination #like i think about it so much #to be wounded and isolated #on a lighter note. when ollie or connor is like are like we don’t have open wounds let us help u #do u think she makes them do a spin to check #twirl. bitch. #anyway this started bc i was thinking about how likely it is that mia has a scar #where connor shot her #and then that led to me thinking about whether any scar was left from the glass cut #or if she just knows the cut was there. and what it (inadvertently) led to

[hauntedwoman]

gonna throw up and die bc the guy ive been seeing is coming over to meet my mom and sister

#my mom is projecting so much anxiety onto me shes like asking me if hes gonna rob or murder us like #what the fuck why would you assume those things #anyways<3 i wonder why im so terrified of men

[stillcominback]

𝚆𝙴𝙻𝙻, 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝙳𝙸𝙲𝚃'𝚂 𝙸𝙽: as a lot of you may know by know [ if you've caught any of my previous posts about it ], i'm moving with my parents back to california from texas -- where i've been for about 30 years -- because overall? it'll be good for me. i'm sick of texas for the most part, i literally can't afford to live on my own [ and honestly? i like being near my parents and would just have more security and better quality of life in CA ], and i just think sometimes a change is good!

i've been waiting to see if my job will let me keep my job [ and continue to pay me dirt, even! ] ... all i was asking is that i can live in california and work remote. well, the owner has decided he will not allow me to do that. is there a good reason? in my opinion: no. he's framing it [ in his conservative white man rich business owner brain ] that I'M the one making the choice to move because i could apparently just as easily stay in texas and get my own place etc etc etc. so it's on me! unfortunately, it's just not that simple, but i guess from a guy who runs a family business and has multiple homes, it's just hard to really grasp that concept.

i'm literally so furious and so heartbroken at the same time. i know it's not the best company, and yeah i guess, we can say this is for the best in the end? but that doesn't make it hurt less. i've been there for almost 11 fucking years. my ENTIRE career out of college. through ups and downs, i was always working my ass off and being a great employee ... shining reviews and reputation with literally everyone. it just hurts that that ultimately means nothing when i'm finally asking for something in return. i take the poverty wages, take the working in the office when i hate it for the most part, i've taken having to hear misogynistic, homophobic, transphobic, every-phobic thing over the years ... then i ask for ONE thing in 11 years [ that's literally not even a big ask ] and it's a ✨no✨.

i feel so lost. like i don't even know how to be without this job, and as much as people tell me YOU'RE SO TALENTED! YOU'RE SO GREAT! YOU'LL FIND SOMETHING SOOOO MUCH BETTER! i wanna believe it, but my brain just ... doesn't. maybe it's imposter syndrome or just how fucking down on myself i feel right now. i still appreciate it because i literally don't know what i would do without my friends and family's support right now like ... even if i can't see it for myself, it means the literal world to me.

plus sides [ i guess ]: i should be able to keep my laptop [ but i'll lose adobe cc so ... i may need some recs or help on how to at least get photoshop cause idk how i'll carry on without it lmao ]; my manager who is a literal saint and one of the best people i know [ she actually pissed the owner off going to the mat for me lmao "he doesn't like to be questioned" ... insert the biggest eye-roll of my life ] ... but she said she would help me with literally everything from linkedin to my resume to a portfolio, and i know that'll be like everything to me while i just .... try to navigate all of this ON TOP OF trying to move.

ALSO: i think i can work until i leave, if that's what i want to do ... i'm still trying to figure all of this out because honestly? even though it's not much? i need the money. but then i'm also like i don't wanna do the owner any favors by having me work while they maybe start putting out feelers to replace me, yknow? BUT THEN AGAIN, i'm hurting my boss more than him [ and that's the twisted, frustrated thing about all of this ... it hurts us way more than it does anything to him but he still gets to make the choice for us ]. SO! i dunno! i may just use all my PTO and see how far that gets me lmao but i feel like at the end of the day, i have to look out for myself and maybe just trying to pull in as many paychecks as i can [ since we also don't have a hard 'we're moving!' date at the moment ] is the best idea ... even if the idea of going into the office and acting normal like literally makes me so ... 😤 but i dunno! my brain is a mess! afjhksdfda

SO YEAH. i just wanted to update you guys because i do consider you friends. whether we talk a little or a lot, i appreciate all of you so much and just wanted to keep folks in the loop with where my life and my head's at right now. not the best but ... just trying to keep it moving. honestly nooooo clue when writing is gonna happen here again??? i do miss / enjoy the distraction of plotting and talking about all this stuff so don't be shy, i just don't know when i'll have the time or capacity to just write here [ maybe once we move and stuff settles a little bit? ] -- but yeah, in the meantime, please come chat with me, let's plot dynamics and all that shit because it still makes me so happy and lets me take my mind on a little vacation lmao love you all, truly! ❤️

#** reblogging on some of my blogs to pass it around but! applies across the board: you can find most of my blogs in my pinned post here! ** #been on and off crying since like 4PM yesterday so it's been a ride lemme tell ya! #nothing like feeling like you wasted over a decade of your life at a job that never really cared about you #like MY boss does but stupidly she doesn't get to make all the decisions for HER own team #even though the owner is barely present and doesn't really know anything about us or the day to day so ... very cool of him #to make big decisions that can hurt a lot of people (and don't affect him one bit either way) #he just really doesn't seem to give a shit at all that it makes our lives so much harder for NO reason #it's just that he literally doesn't “like” remote working and doesn't want to set some kind of company-wide precedent #even tho i'm like moving isn't THAT easy lmao people aren't all just gonna mass exodus out my guy #(also we have a C-level employee who lives / works from new york but ... apparently that's SUUUUPER different because she lived there when #she was hired ........ *stares into camera*) #anyway!!! i'm just really frustrated and hurt and fucking terrified #and i appreciate literally anyone who bothered to read all this! lmao #i'll be around on mobile as per usual ❤️❤️❤️ #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )