#she doesn't even want to fight you

[rawliverandgoronspice]

Always a bit puzzled by people saying that anyone who wanted long-term consequences for TotK Zelda's sacrifice are "edgy".

I'm not even particularly in the camp that she should have remained a dragon forever (I think this should have been Ganondorf's fate, it would have been sooo much more impactful than to explode him and move on but anyway). To be honest, I wish the rules for turning back would have been 1) clear 2) active gameplay on the player so that it feels like it's something we have earned, and 3) not make her have amnesia about it and/or at least having her gain some crucial insight because of the experience.

(also: doesn't she crave knowledge? isn't that insanely mean to have her watch over every civilization and every bit of history ever and then take it away from her? kind of dislike how totk privileges the comfort of the player's feelings over what the characters would actually want or need tbh)

To be perfectly honest, I fully expected us needing to turn her back before engaging Ganondorf so we would fight him together, especially since Zelda as a compagnon exists in the game code already (though in a very subdued state). It feels very very strange to me that all of this mechanic of Sages following us existing and yet we never have the very climactic cool Zelda-staple moment of facing Ganondorf or Ganon together (OoT, WW, TP, ST and probably more that I'm forgetting all did this in some way --even BotW had Zelda more involved than in TotK). I'm not sure Mineru was a compagnon that was needed over Zelda honestly, especially given the kind of non-insight she gives us on the zonai (even if the idea of the mecha is cool, it really could have been Zelda using her zonai + sheikah knowledge to pilot one for us or something).

But anyway: yeah, even if this isn't what I would have wanted personally, I think wanting Zelda to remain a dragon is kind of arguably more respectful of her relationship to Link, in a way, that what the game ended up doing. When she enacted this sacrifice, Zelda decided to trust him to such a extent that she lost herself, reciprocated his trust in her and his devotion to her, and now the future of Hyrule exists beyond her and beyond what Hyrule once was, but she trusts them to follow through and be happy and she will watch over them from the stars moving on. It's fine if we manage to save her from that fate, but even if we don't, honestly this sounds like a beautiful story/tragic romance to me, if you want to read it that way. Tragedy doesn't necesserily involve edginess. Fictional pain isn't always mean, or out to get you.

#totk #totk critical #zelda #link #when will my brain return from the imprisoning war... #take it from me: a professional edgelord #but genuinely I was quite disappointed when I realized I wouldn't get to fight alongside Zelda at all #I thought for sure the first descent was a setup for the final descent when we would be reunited #and then confront Ganondorf together #I don't know to me that would have just made sense #she's the one with the most beef with that man Link is honestly just here so she doesn't have to call an über afterward #link doesn't have half as much reasons to want ganondorf dead as zelda does #which didn't help the feeling that I had as much emotional investment in the situation than the friend you call when you get in trouble #ganondorf isn't even directly responsible for zelda returning to the past NOR turning into a dragon! the guy has no idea what's going on! #anyway. this game's plot is very weird.

[mayasaura]

I just want to talk about the nursery being painted and the purpose of the Tomb to be without a door. Anastasia had a family - and putting to the side the pact with Alecto there's some implicit symbolism to John asking for the workers of the Ninth to die constructing the Tomb with that image of new life. (Still can't articulate my disbelief that he went and didn't think that asking Anastasia of all people, The one who lost her cavalier to him, would have problems)

Yeah. Especially finding this out about the Ninth, where nurseries becoming tombs is a thing we're sensitive about.

On one level we've always known Anastasia had a family. Like, we know she's Harrow's direct ancestor. You can't be heir to the line of someone who never had children. But the nursery.... Yeah. It really hammers it in. Her friends painted a nursery mint green for her children.

And now it's a tomb.

#that's what the Anastasian is now after all #you're right there's really Something there #I've noticed something in John I think ties into this thematically that I really hope Kiriona is going to help us explore #John doesn't believe in a future #I said in my last Anastasia meta that Anastasia outsmarted John by making herself immortal in a way he couldn't understand #she left behind something she created to outlast her #John hasn't built anything to outlast himself and he doesn't think of the future at all #he mourns the past and fights like hell to live in an eternal present where nothing ever ends #you know #immortality #and a part of that—maybe most of that—is about despair #even way back before the world ended even before he had magic powers he didn't think of a future #I think he couldn't imagine one #and like. I get it dude #don't imagine the future and maybe it can't hurt you #how many people have you heard saying they don't want children because it seems cruel or irresponsible #they can't imagine forcing someone to live in the world they see coming #climate anxiety is fucking everywhere and for a lot of people in our generation—John's generation—it's coalesced into despair #but Anastasia did imagine a future #she had a family #and now John has a daughter but he still can't imagine a future for her #she's just as dead and eternal as the world he loved so deeply he killed it rather than watch it die #what did Gideon say when she saw the First? it had the look of a picked-over body but hot damn what a beautiful corpse #that's gonna be you baby girl #the final expression of the art of the nine houses #John gave up on hope ages ago #so it doesn't really surprise me at all that he still asked the builders to die in the tomb #the locked tomb #ntn spoilers #nona the ninth

[tricoufamily]

visiting the hometown

(want everyone to know this edit came to me in a dream and i changed the lore just to do it)

#in the dream i was like editing it but i was also there? it was weird. it started as a dream about lawson in a zombie apocalypse #ok important tags first so i can write an essay #ts4 #ts4 render #ts4 edit #the sims 4 #beckett #lawson #blood sports #but yeah if you haven't been here before beckett and lawson never knew each other as kids #if they did it would be a butterfly effect and mess w a bunch of other plot details. so i decided to work around it #also if ur new they've had a friends with benefits thing going on for a long time but lawson is in love with him. beck doesn't know #originally beckett was put in foster care as a baby bc of neglect and was bounced around foster homes for years #he was a troubled child always getting in fights a kleptomaniac undiagnosed autism etc etc foster families tried and just didn't want him #then when he was around 12 a very nice old lady named cora got him and they ended up forming a great bond they loved each other #she was going to adopt him then when beckett was around 15 or 16 his birth mother reentered the picture and wanted him back #it started a really nasty legal battle and cora died. we can't say for sure it was the stress of this fight but beckett certainly thinks so #anyway he did go back with his birth mother and things got really bad for him. he dropped out of school started doing worse crimes and so o #but none of that is what even changed #now LAWSON is also from west virigina like beckett. it's a small town lawson was new he had no friends #he was a very clingy possessive child who cried and threw tantrums so much #he met beckett and the rest is history. beckett didn't really mind how lawson acted he didn't really find him annoying like everyone elsedi #besides he didn't have friends either #lawson has wealthy parents they were welcoming to beckett at first if a little apprehensive. then he stole something from their house #and lawson wasn't allowed to hang out with him anymore. but he still did in secret. they still have no idea that beckett's even still aroun #or just how involved lawson is with him and his. activities 😬 they just think he's their good little college boy #in the original beckett moved to Not Gotham City when his mother got him back but in this version lawson is going to college there #and beckett's been distant from him for a while things are awful for him and lawson says hey. what if you gave the city a try. and he did #so really you could say the events of blood sports are all lawson's fault the end

[jacobsbadwig]

I saw your tags on the other post and pls rant about Jessica Stanley being the main character. Kthankbye ✌🏻

I was trying to find a post on my blog that imagined Jessica as the Main character Twilight.

But frankly it all boils down to Smeyer using Bella as a self insert. Now a lot of people hate that criticism, but it’s not a criticism rather than a statement of fact. Her crime isn’t basing a character on herself (or a young version of herself) it’s refusing to kill her darlings. Bella’s book description is the same description of Stephenie Meyer. (See @panlight or @fuckmeyer for more information)

As for Jessica, it’s hard to figure out what Bellas (and Stephenies) beef with Jessica as a character. I would argue because we don’t get an inkling of how Bella’s friend group was in Arizona (or if she had many friends) that Jessica is another character foil how girls shouldn’t (I will link that post here) act. Of course this is a subconscious point that the narrative makes.

Jessica is this determined high schooler who likes boys (as far as we know) who is focused on her grades but is a bit of a gossip. At least from Bella’s prespective. Also, Bella is an unreliable narrator although the narrative and the author don’t treat her as such.

I think Jessica Stanley makes more sense as the main character mostly because she has more to lose than Bella, a character who doesn’t want to make connections and is only in town because of her self sacrificing mindset. (I will not go into Bella’s mother mostly because my interpretation is that she (her mother) only got worse because the narrative needed her to and then it didn’t really matter because she got to keep her family around anyway). (Also mini rant- It’s strange that a girl who was born in that town and spent summers there until she was 13 Doesn’t know any other teenagers before moving back there especially being the Chief’s daughter. I would assume she would know everyone since she wouldn’t have been left home alone. Whatever Steph)

Jessica has a family. She’s grown up in the town. She has worked so hard for her grades. It would be interesting to see all of that come crashing down because of her involvement with vampires.

@humans4vampires just made a post pointing out the adrenaline caused by Edward’s presence and its masking via Bella’s attraction to Edward. Who’s to say that couldn’t happen to Jessica in their initial meeting.

The narrative would be the Cullens moving to Forks. Jessica gets rejected by Edward. Yes, she’s heartbroken by it, but that’s the new boys problem she’s on a mission to get all A’s. Her tight knit friend group keeps her distracted. Then one day, she’s walking around in the woods taking a break from her studies or just for some quiet time and comes across Edward hunting and covered in blood.

Edward, of course, hearing her thoughts, panics. They just moved to Forks. He can’t just let her get away, but she’s well known in the town. It’s small. He can’t kill her. So (like a dingus), he runs off.

Jessica having seen something so frightening rushes home to calm down, and she plays sick for the next week.

Anyway, I just think Jessica has more to lose, and it will be real push and pull of narrative as she is not only protecting this secret from the rest of her friends. She has to get through high school without dying until she realizes that she won’t be able to live her dreams because she will be a vampire or be killed.

#twilight renaissance #twilight saga #twilight #jessica stanley #pretty much tl:dr: the narrative tension and the threat of being a vampire and sacrifice and even the Romeo and Juliet aspects #make more sense with there's tension and both parties have to lose something #Jessica has to fight to give up her old life and what she knows and loves #Edward will have to read beyond people's surface thoughts to actually make connections #Bella on the other hand doesn't sacrifice anything physically emotionally or mentally #I guess you can argue her agency and development but that's because of weird lore not something she is actively willing to give or keep #everything is a reward for bella #Jessica would have to actually make connections with Cullens and excuse her new erratic behavior to protect the cullens secret #I could even see Edward threatening her at first and afterward growing close to where she does want to protect him despite being in danger #Also Jessica ruining her perfect attendance record is so heartbreaking for her

[koalas-koalas-everywhere]

One Piece #758 (vol. 76)

Hang on, I need a second... Usopp, who usually takes credit even for things he didn't do, who respects Luffy's good opinion so much that he credited his faith in his crew as the reason they kept fighting, that he agreed to work with a random, dangerous Warlord in a plan to take out an Emperor of the Sea just because Luffy complimented him, saying it doesn't matter if he never finds out that Usopp saved his life, as long as he's safe and can keep going...

Not that it's unprecedented for Usopp to do something like this - in fact, it's one of the first things we see him do. He also kept Kuro's invasion of his home village a secret. And maybe I'm reading too much into this, but I don't think it's completely irrelevant that Syrup Village's existence such as it was (a peaceful and carefree place that, if anything, could use someone like Usopp causing mischief to liven it up every once in a while) depended on the secrecy. Here he just thought, "I saved you, that's enough".

(Not to mention the comparison - this would be putting Luffy on the same level as his home village, the place he grew up in.)

#One Piece #one piece manga #Usopp #Monkey D. Luffy #Dressrosa arc #fuck it I don't really ship it but I'm feeling it rn #usolu #THE THING IS. for all of Usopp's good qualities. humility isn't really one of them (not as something separate from his cowardice) #some issues ago he demanded a statue from the people he'd tricked and had planned to abandon! #and it's not just bc he cares abt Luffy. He's also putting his faith in him as the person who can save them. He'll shelter him from harm #of all kinds -even knowing that he'd been in danger- he'll give him peace so that he can keep fighting FOR ALL OF THEM #but also this is just after thinking that he doesn't want the sea without Luffy #Usopp who'll run scared until you hit one of his buttons my beloved #<- she says after wanting to tear her heart out when he was about to abandon the Tontottas #but also this is what unlocks his haki

[yore-donatsu]

An ordinary day for an ordinary little girl

(Theo the monkey boy is the @doodlesdreaming's OC)

#Crossover #Dead Cells #DC the King #King Conrard #My Headcanon #OC #original characters #Tetra #Theo the monkey boy #artist on tumblr #A Castaigne's rapid appearance #I can imagine him being a proud person #believing himself to be better than others but a coward when it really counts (like Gilderoy Lockhart if you want a better comparison) #Not so egotistica - as he sometimes tries to do the right thingl #as he sometimes tries to do the right thing #Let's move on to Tetra - the sweetest girl in the world #She'll kiss anyone she likes. For people she doesn't know and/or doesn't like - she'll be very polite #giving a more classic greeting (a bow) with a big smile #She's always barefoot. Much to the displeasure of her parent Hyde #And why is her hair done up in the front and not in the back ? #Hyde tried to discipline her hair but it's so long to style that they finally gave up #Tetra doesn't care about her hair. She finds them even more beautiful and atypical like this #She's an 8 - 10 year old and it bothers her too when it takes a long time to do her hair #Conrard - seeing the little girl's kindness - wanted to adopt her BUT Hyde wasn't for it #(imagine a “fight” between “daddies” and her watching the showwaiting for it to calm down) #She could so easily have been the daughter he never had and never will have... AH ! Oops ! Spoiler ! >P #I'll leave you with this information (I'll have to draw this one day !)

[bumblingbabooshka]

Something about this interaction between Harry & Janeway - specifically Janeway but it's notable that Harry's the one listening because I think, say, Chakotay or B'Elanna might push back against the idolization of this 'it was different back in those days' way of thinking.

#Get the Tranq she's 'Good Old Boys'-ing! #never beating the Starfleet stooge accusations #which I think should have been brought up more between her and Chakotay #instead of just making Chakotay like Starfleet again so they can be together #the Tuvok/Chakotay/Janeway command trio should have been like #Janeway: I love Starfleet in an uncomplicated way and though it's painful sometimes I believe following code is the only way to proceed #Tuvok: I agree with the captain and this makes her believe in her decisions more - though I would attempt to obey her commands even if they #weren't regulation. #<- Janeway doesn't want to examine this #Chakotay: I hate Starfleet because of very valid reasons and I don't think following orders and codes from superiors is the best thing #in every situation. I want everyone here to examine their biases which cannot necessarily be done if biases are written into the #codes. We aren't in Starfleet space. We might have to adapt. #but it's nowhere near that nuanced bc you know. Starfleet Good. Starfleet Good. Starfleet Good. Maquis Bad. Maquis Bad. Maquis Bad. #Or you know: 'Maquis doing this the WROOONG way...violence isn't the answer :(' maybe violence is the answer sometimes. #when it's the only language the people in power understand. #maybe 'let's talk about this' is an insidious military tactic sometimes actually #Also Harry immediately going from 'They falsified logs?' to 'I always wondered it'd be like back then...~' #He and Janeway................Him and Janeway are!!! AGH #People think Harry's way too timid. They think this because he's asian and an ensign so they make him timid & obedient #But he's very willing to break or bend the rules - he's willing to fight he likes action and adventure and he's very similar to Janeway #where they'll both die and go to hell and come back just to save their crew - their friends - their family

[nateriverswife]

i'm sorry but i cannot get over Light saying that he would LOVE to see how Naomi decides to kill herself

#everytime i think of him. i remember this exact quote and visceral hatred feels my body #it's unnecessary & revolting. why would you say that. she's literally an innocent woman who just lost her fiance #even if you deem necessary to kill her for your plan to create a better world. why would you say that #it doesn't help you in any way. that's just sadism #not going to put it in the main tag because i don't want *some* light stans to come here and pick a fight #there's nothing to fight about. he literally just says that. #d.exe #and i really don't want to talk about his character. this was more about the loml misora who deserved better

[abrahamvanhelsings]

but lucy suddenly using a type of seduction on arthur IS harrowing because it's not who she is. but she does it because she is sure it will lure him close enough to bite. becoming a vampire doesn't just mean you need blood and 'live' forever. you prey on humans. and to do so you become unlike anything you were in life. it mutilates your soul beyond recognition to even yourself

#dracula daily #adaptations who make lucy a temptress got it wrong #she's nothing like that #playful sure! and a little bold! but nothing like what happens in today's entry #i think the vampirism warps you from the inside out. even if you do not want it. even if you fight it #her deathbed scene actually feels a bit like she's fighting another presence inside her tbh #while she lives she can overcome it bc she is a good person and her love is pure #but it doesn't last

[essektheylyss]

Honestly, the way Aabria talks about Laerryn making out with the entire Ring of Brass just makes me think, as I have often, that it is well past time this fandom actually acknowledged that the people building and playing in Exandria as a world are not conceptualizing it as one in which (to use a colloquialism, but it extends also to gender as well as sexuality) straight is the default.

People have been saying for years that it would be fantastic if fantasy worldbuilding actually acknowledged how ridiculous it is to have magical worlds with shapechangers and transmutation in which hetero- and amato- and cisnormativity are still the norm. Yet it feels like fandom still wants to apply that lens to a world that has not operated as such for quite a while, even if it may have started out as such simply because the creator(s) had not yet interrogated it.

I think a lot of the discussion about queer characters in Critical Role would be simpler if we approached it from the understanding that there often isn't a reason for sexuality or gender to be an issue in Exandria, and the isolated incidents where it might cause conflict narratively are not operating under the basis that that prejudice exists structurally. This has been how Matt has discussed many cultures there, how Aabria seems to approach both worldbuilding and character creation, and honestly how most if not all of the players have increasingly seemed to respond to the world—with an assumption that the most common way this could come up in gameplay, flirting with other characters, is not going to be met with any hostility on the basis of perceived sexuality or gender, either within the cast or in the world.

This is, I think, important to recognize as a fandom, because if we don't, we're going to unwittingly continue to reintroduce these same insidious real-world structures into a setting that gives the impression of having been deliberately crafted and expanded over time to imagine a world without them.

#like. even tary was not inherently fighting homophobia he was fighting an unwanted arranged marriage. #beau was fighting a host of parental expectations even though she predominantly did fall into her father's wish for a son. #it was simply that because of his obsessions *nothing and no one* was ever good enough. not only beau for being a girl. #like these are things that can still exist! they just do not exist *structurally*. #you can still have conflict with roles and duties even if those are confined to what your parent wants for you. #it doesn't mean those things are structural. many people can have limited imaginations without society imposing strictures. #critical role #cr meta #and frankly. yes this does extend to #'player has to repeatedly specify that a character isn't straight despite that already being present in the text.' #this is rebloggable for now but i will rescind that if people test me.

[seventh-fantasy]

阁下！不用理由就会相信、没有力量也要保护的人，阁下难道没有吗？ your excellency! someone you would believe regardless of reason and protect despite being powerless - does your excellency not have someone like that?

#being feminine in a world so dominated by masculinity that it's inhospitable to your presence you have to conceal your face #and then you become a mystery. and never become yourself again #hlht #lhl #鹤唳华亭 #莲花楼 #my posts #lwx would be lxy if she was a guy. lxy would be lwx if he was a girl #but either way it's about how being a girl in the world is very hard. THANKS FOR COMING TO THE TED TALK. MIC DROPS #OKAY so this post has been in my drafts since last week #but ana's thoughts from today is so spot on for it!!! about llh being made to wield a sword time and over literally slowly killing him - #as a performance of masculinity by someone who doesn't want to do it but is burdened / forced to do it - #out of overwhelming sentimentality and emotions to fight for / defend people very important to him. #then you have lwx gripping onto the other end of the blade cutting herself and don't care. in order to protect her family. HELLO!!!!!! #they're holding both ends of the sword and it's killing them. #and they'll do it to the bitter end bc there's no turning back no home to return to #HLHT/LHL BRAINROT FOR MARK AND MEEEE and ana too if u r into this ily <3 #credits to mark for planting the lwx/llh comparison in my brain!!! #i can finally release this into the wild!!! 😭😭 it's so important to me. if you even care

[prowerprojects]

"Every Shatterspace contains a shard: creates a distorted version of our reality"

"If we bring them back here, and connect them to this real one— then maybe there is a chance..."

(Sonic Prime is not a multiverse story, it's one universe that got destroyed/distorted)

"They're not your real friends"

"Nine and all the rest of them are real!"

Sonic, you do understand that if reality gets restored, and the Shatterverse stops existing (because it wouldn't be shattered anymore), so would the shatterspaces, and everyone who lives there: everything would just go back to the way it was before.

But if you consider them real, you only have two choices:

Bring the shards together and restore your reality, bringing back your friends in the process, but the people created by the shattering of the Prism would go back to being just parts of your friends and seize to exist separately?

Or leave it be, and lose your friends forever, but their counterparts would still exist as their own entities?

So what would it be, Sonic?

Who has more right to exist?

#though I don't really feel like sonic had shown us that he considers the shatterverse counterparts separate people #even disregarding the way he acted in new yoke the first time (since it was the first time and he had no idea what's going on) #later he still expects nine to shrug off his issues the way tails did in the flashback #(and apparently always does since 'tails never gets upset') #he projects knuckles's personality traits onto dread — traits that dread doesn't have. sonic just expects him to because to him he's knux #idk man. there's a lot of examples in earlier episodes too. like him refusing to fight thorn because she's amy. but you could say #it was a long time ago and his attitude changed: well clearly not since he's still acting the same way at No Place #sonic prime #sonic prime spoilers #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #I know the palm tree plays into this somehow but idk how #and I want Sonic to actually struggle with this #not some 'untying people from the tracks before the trolley runs them over' type of bs. make it interesting!

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

ah yes, she's concerned about the aggressor and attacker who was invading them six months ago. something is wrong with the empire right now, poor edelgard; whatever could've happened to her? :(

like... what. why do you care about what's going on with her specifically when she's the person who made the decision to invade leicester? does the whole war just mean nothing to marianne? it's just totally fine that all those people died in a war edelgard started? poor edelgard, something happened to her after she started her attack? you're concerned about the leader who gave the order to attack your home?

hopes has stupid lines but this one is top tier of the top tier and just an excuse for more edelgardjerking from the writers.

#DCB Three Hopes Run #like no sorry if someone attacked the country i live in and then suddenly their army was a mess #i would /nooot/ be concerned about the leader who ordered an invasion of my home #you'd never see a character being like wow i sure am worried abt dimitri and claude #who are just defending themselves and fighting for their lives out there #but here we get marianne being worried abt the person who declared war on her people #this game tries so so SO hard to make edelgard seem justified and doing a good thing #and also has tons of characters being like wow i sure do just want the best for her #like no i would not want the best for someone who invaded my country unprovoked #being worried abt the civilians in the empire is one thing bc the imperial army was out of control #but just wanting edelgard specifically to be okay? uhhhh. seems like this was just #the only way the writers could keep it in their pants without having shez make a sex joke at edelgard like byleth can #like does marianne not realize the end goal here was to defeat and thus kill edelgard? #it doesn't happen bc of the plot bc thales' magic and yadda yadda #but ultimately without that happening she would've had to be killed to be truly defeated #she's not like claude who would prioritize survival. she would fight to the end #like if you're that concerned about the person who started this war then why are you fighting against her? #either join her side or stay out of the war. really don't understand why anyone from leicester in ag would be worried abt her #they can't even use the classmates excuse bc they weren't even classmates for that long (and it's a stupid excuse even in gw) #but like no rly this game just has ppl love up on edelgard for absolutely no reason #she comes in and starts killing their soldiers for her conquest and marianne six months later is like wow i sure am concerned abt her!! #literally like imagine someone from crimea being like ''im concerned abt ashnard''

[steelthroat]

I was painting and the religious-fanatic teacher came to me and started asking questions about my work. I answered them and I was ready to go on with my day and she goes "we used to talk more when you were well..."

And I stopped dead in my tracks and looked at her like "wtf" because lady you are under 2 wrong assumptions here:

I would let YOU of all people be aware of my mental state or personal life or anything that concerns ME at all.

That we had some kind of amicable relationship to begin with? No, I don't know how you got the wrong impression since I just ever talked to you after I disagreed with your views, criticized you and almost fought with you because you said something both incredibly stupid and triggering... just because I've kept things civil doesn't mean I don't consider you anything other than a pretentious asshole.

The audacity of this woman, to think she can come to me and act all motherly and attentive while trying to get her nose in my personal life while bringing up a past bond which never fricking existed????? What like do you miss our disagreements???

And I just told her, "But... I'm good tho" which is not 100% true, but that's none of her business anyway

And she goes "yeah but you were even better"

BITCH????? No I wasn't? I'm not doing super now but I've vastly improved since last year so idk are you tripping or something???? And then she says something else about my work and keeps talking to me and I'm being civil and cordial because I'm not a rude asshole even if he doesn't even deserve this courtesy for the way she treats us.

Idk what's wrong with her, like she thinks I'm some kind of "problematic kidTM" for the way I look who needs salvation?? Which is not true, I don't need you as a mother. I already have a loving family and friends. Thank you and get the hell away from me????

And even if I were looking for someone's help for anything, I would NEVER in a hundred thousand years go to her for it. Not even for a broken nail lol.

She would probably tell me to go to church and confess or some shit. She already told me to call a confessor for my grandma because she had a little accident when she heard me talking about it with someone else... fkn hell.

#the art school adventures are back #she makes me irrationally angry #steel rambles #I hate it when people assume things about me #and when they try to get close when I've made it clear I don't want them to #because fucking hell I know how it plays out and these people ever have goog intentions even if they think they do #becaus eyou don't force someone to get close to you #it either happens ornit doesn't #also because these peopel try to get close to me WHILE assuming wrong things about me so I just can't have normal interactions #because they're just so fucking certain they understood how I function and even having a heart to heart conversation doesn't do shit #they just can't see me as anything else #and it makes me fucking angry too because I hate being misunderstood but I also can't let the people understand me #because then I'm too vulnerable to them and their manipulation #so idk I guess I prefer being perceived as a “problematic youth” instead of letting her any closer because fuck no she gives me the creeps. #or bad vibes #yeah creeps is too strong of a word #honestly I'm tired of fighting and always feeling on the edge #and it doesn't get easier #or better #but i hate it.

[bonetrousledbones]

yknow i try to not actively hope for specific things for deltarune’s story because who KNOWS wtf toby’s plans are for that but if there’s one thing i genuinely really really hope for its that papyrus gets to be treated as an actual serious character instead of just comic relief or whatever

#trousled rambles #deltarune #papyrus #like even if hes not the knight just let him have some development i am BEGGINg #idk i was just thinkin abt how like. outside of the geno route undertale doesn't actually really have any serious scenes with him #almost every character has a scene where they talk to frisk about serious things and they're in almost every route #the only exception i can think is that u dont get undyne's Chat if u cant hang out with her but she still gets the geno route to be serious #papyrus has . a pretty short scene in the geno route that's mostly just overlooked for fanon sans angst. and thats it #you could argue the bit leading up to his fight and him just wanting a friend is more serious but its still comedic imo #i get he's a goofy character but if sans can have his whole Thing in undertale i think papyrus deserves to have a Thing in deltarune yknow #i really love him as a character but sometimes i really wish that he was written with a bit more development n dimension

[emblazons]

Its kind of an extension of what I was talking about here, but...I just keep thinking about how this was El's response when she saw Mike try to fight his way to her post-bullying at Rink-o-Mania.

I see so many people talk about the fact that El was ashamed of being found out / wanted to get away from everyone who had just publicly humiliated her, which I think is entirely true to a certain extent. But that little scoff she does the second she sees Mike? The fact that El, who has never run from a fight in the entirety of Stranger Things, sees the boy she's supposedly head over heels for make his way at full speed to comfort / console her...and damn near rolls her eyes before making a break in the opposite direction (leaving Mike to get caught in the crowd)?

Its definitely meant to show us that El isn't nearly as invested in closeness with Mike as a lot of people who watch the show more casually seem to believe.

Like. I would buy that El was just trying to get away from the people bullying her if it weren't for the fact that 1) not soon after this when she knows Mike isn't nearby she goes out of her way to ask Angela to continue perpetuating the lies she told Mike and 2) El has zero problem taking a roller-skate to Angela's face not 30 seconds after she's insulted again—showing that, at least on some level, El's response to the first altercation with Angela (fleeing) was motivated by her wanting to run from Mike as much as Angela herself.

—Do I think this is solely her blowing off Mike? Absolutely not. But the shame she feels in that moment—and the way she responds to the sight of him—is something to note, especially as we watch the devolution of their romance throughout S4. To ignore how blatantly El runs from / disregards Mike's attempts to care for her is to do a disservice to our understanding of their relationship, and to pretend like El isn't actively avoiding being honest with or close to Mike even at the start of the season is to delude yourself about their romance.

Basically: El shows us again and again (and again) that she doesn't want love the way Mike offers it (through acts of protection and service)—you just have to pay attention to her expressions and decisions on more than a surface level.

#anti mlvn #el hopper #a controversial post as an el fan I'm sure but I'm calling it like I see it. #El's lack of desire to be around or near mike when she's vulnerable says more than anything else in the S4 m*leven narrative #She does it EVEN BEFORE they get into the i love you fight #and it only gets worse as they season goes on. #she doesn't trust him #she doesn't want to be close to him #and when she's down the last person she wants near her is Mike #she shuts down all his attempts to relate #and never says i love you / complements him despite demanding it from him. #I A D O R E El and understand exactly why she relates how she does #but to pretend their demise is all Mike's fault is insanity lmao #anyway #my st commentary #stranger things #my gifs #the me tag