#seikaze

[mirrorthoughts]

How to woo your Jester

@oblivionsdream Soooo... that ask you had finally kicked my muse and before I intimidate myself out of writing or posting again, have that thing I wanted to write the whole time about your adorable Jester and Knight 💕 Because I love those two!

"You've already given me flowers yesterday. You don't need to give me flowers each day?" The knight hesitated at the frown on his Jester's face. Well. Not his Jester. Not yet at least. After all the little book that Sir Pomeroy had lend him was pretty strict about the timeline: First he would bring his beloved flowers each day for a week. Then it would be something more personal, in his case maybe books with stories and jokes? Or maybe more parchment and ink so the Jester could write down his own ideas and tales. He wasn't yet sure enough about this part of the timeline. But the book said to use the daily flowers as a means to get to know your beloved better and at the end of the week and answer - or rather multiple - would surely have presented itself. After that… well, he would see what to do once he reached that day. "Do you not like them?" he asked, suddenly uncertain. Sir Pomeroy had promised him that whoever he was interested in would love his devotion of bringing them flowers daily. He even had asked Sir Green for the flower book he had seen him with, deep in thought as to which flowers to bring first to his lady love. Today he had brought his Jester a bouquet of Edelweiss as a means to praise the Jester's courage and to show his devotion, his interest. His, maybe not love, but not quite far from it either. The Jester stared at him, confused. "They are beautiful, of course I like them! But you don't have to do this. I already like you, too, dear knight." The knight paused in surprised. He had hoped to be right in his assumption that the Jester might like him more than other people he liked to flirt with. He'd sometimes almost felt bad about how often he watched his Jester, jealousy burning in his chest, as he flirted with almost anyone, be it the king, the maids, the guards, foreign guests or even the dogs of the palace. He knew the Jester was an incorrigible flirt, that it was part of his performance, that it just was who he was. And he did his best to be okay with that. Especially since he seemed to be one of the few the Jester sought out on his own accords. Just so they could share a short conversation, a moment as short or long it might be, each day. At least if he hadn't approached the Jester first. This time though, the Jester's usual bravado seemed to fail him as the knight smiled at him in answer, bowing slightly, his hair falling in front of his eyes at the movement. "Then I will bring you more of them, tomorrow, if you like them. Because that is their sole purpose. To brighten your day and make you smile." And blush. He oh so dearly adored to see the blush on the Jester's face as he was seeing it now, when he finally accepted the flowers, looking at them and taking a deep breath. The smile on his Jester's face was definitely worth it to spend the morning in search for the right flowers. "Thank you. Though I'm speaking the truth: You don't need to do this, dear Knight." The Knight smiled. "I am, also, telling you the truth, dear Jester: I want to. It brightens my day to see you smile." The blush on his Jester's face bloomed like the warmth in the Knight's heart. More beautiful than even flowers.

#seikaze #sei's writing #jiggly menace x knight

[pocket-soulmates]

Pocket Soulmate Masterpost

A Special Thank You

Pocket Soulmates are a Soulmate AU inspired by @awrubyblue's Pocket Steve art series.

FICTION

Original Fic

The Pocket Guide to Pockets by cthulu_hoops (@bucky-boychik-barnes)

honey you're familiar (like my mirror years ago) by cthulu_hoops (@bucky-boychik-barnes)

Captain America (MCU)

Pocket Full of Sunshine by subluxate

Pop Goes the Weasel by subluxate and cthulu_hoops (@bucky-boychik-barnes)

Teen Wolf

The Little Things by seikaze (@mirrorthoughts)

Young Justice

i'm all yours but you're all mine by @suzukiblu

FANART

Captain America (MCU)

Steeb and Booky by @chaos-and-ink

Booky by @chaos-and-ink

Steve, Bucky, Booky, and Steeb by @chaos-and-ink

The Adventures of Bucky and Steeb by @chaos-and-ink

Young Justice

Tim Drake and Pocket Kon by @jube-art

Kon-El and the Pockets Tim, Cassie, and Bart by @jube-art

'i'm all yours but you're all mine' Character Studies by @breakingthespacetimewall

Cassie Sandsmark and Pocket Kon by @breakingthespacetimewall

Tim Drake and Pocket Kon by @breakingthespacetimewall

Superboy and his Pockets by @breakingthespacetimewall

Nightwing and his Pockets by @breakingthespacetimewall

FANCOMICS

Young Justice

'i'm all yours but you're all mine' Chapter 1 excerpt by @breakingthespacetimewall

'i'm all yours but you're all mine' Chapter 2 excerpt by @breakingthespacetimewall

'i'm all yours but you're all mine' Chapter 2 excerpt by @breakingthespacetimewall

Breaking out their boyfriend by @breakingthespacetimewall

More to come!

#masterlist #pocket soulmates #stucky #steter #core four #captain america #teen wolf #young justice #fanfiction #fanart #soulmate au #original fiction #bucky barnes #steve rogers #stiles stilinski #peter hale #kon-el #tim drake #cassie sandsmark #bart allen #cthulu-hoops #subluxate #seikaze #suzukiblu #chaos-and-ink #jube-art #breakingthespacetimewall

[stilesdemonbaby]

Not afraid by SeiKaze

Summary:

I read somewhere on tumblr about Stiles not being afraid of the Alpha and... Well this is my take on it?

Completed: 2021-12-22

Words: 7,548

Chapters: 11/11

Rating: T

#complete #2021 #words <10k #rating t #steter #fic rec #Not afraid #season 1 #mirrorthoughts #SeiKaze #alpha peter

[pencilcoreandgreenleafheart]

#FFF166 Count the Ways

Finaly another snippet @flashfictionfridayofficial! I actually wanted to write last week, too (and I did have a good idea for the relic-prompt) but alas, real life things happened and I didn't get to it :)

But this week I'm back and have a little something with my TCC-Characters for the new prompt #FFF166 Count the Ways!

This time with Kaz and Anton :3 Have fun!

Count The Ways

“Alright, let’s see what you learned this week.” Kaz pulled a face and sighed. Even though Sascha was his actual mentor, Anton did like to take his potions education personal. Probably because, well, Kaz spent a lot of time in their bookshop and their working spaces after class or in the weeks where Sascha was responsible for him. And Sascha probably talked about him over dinner or something. At least that’s what he would guess. And it wasn’t really bad that Anton helped him with learning potions. It just could be exhausting. The potions master had his standards after all.

“Well?” Kaz snapped out of his thoughts and looked up. Anton had his eyebrow raised and didn’t look very impressed with Kaz letting him wait. “Uhm…” Kaz frowned thoughtfully and looked around the potions lab he only was allowed him in situations like this. “We talked about the uses of different herbs outside of the recipes in our books. For example how to substitute raspberry leafs in a potion against menstrual cramps and associated pain for people with uteruses. Or why it was raspberry leafs in that recipe and not another kind of herb that helps with pain or bowel movements or something.”

“And what was your answer to any of these questions?” Anton asked, his smooth, deep voice gaining that slight edge that announced to Kaz he was ready to pounce and call him an idiot if he couldn’t procure the answers. At least after calling him an idiot Anton usually would work with him on whatever Kaz was missing and in a way that a) showed that Anton had been a reacher before and b) Kaz could keep up better than in a class of more than twenty students at school. It still made Kaz nervous to maybe be wrong.

“Well. Chamomile is also good for alleviating menstrual cramps and helps with stomach aches,” he started to explain under Antons watchful eyes, relieved, when he got a slight nod. “Though it’s effects in general concentrate more on the digestive system less on the reproductive system. So it helps but not the same way as raspberry leafs since they target and focus on different aspects of the body. You would need a lot more chamomile to have the same effect on the reproductive system as with only a small amount of raspberry leafs. And though chamomile is a lot safer than raspberry leafs you could still overdose yourself on the potion by accident while trying to alleviate pains and cramps since it wouldn’t be as effective.”

Kaz swallowed slightly as he waited for Anton’s evaluation of his answer. A moment of silence ticked by until Anton nodded again and Kaz couldn’t help but breathe in deeply, relieved that he wasn’t going to get called an idiot. Or imbecile. Or dunderhead. Or one of the many other insults Anton reserved for people he thought were behaving stupid.

“All right. Let’s test your theory,” Anton said, already turning away to pull out a few smaller cauldrons, arranging them in the corner of the room. “Brew me that raspberry leaf potion and any variant you can think of.” Kaz grinned and wiggled his body happily before following Anton’s orders. Brewing with the man always was a lot more fascinating and less stressful than just answering questions.

He really loved working with both his mentors! Nevermind that officially he only had one.

#sei's writing #sei's tcc #sei's ocs #flash fiction friday #seikaze

[steter-bang]

TEAM ALPHA:

On The Other Side Author: SeiKaze Rating: G Words: 7,250 Summary: "It had been a Wednesday, about half an hour before closing time, when Stiles had stepped through the door for the first time. Peter remembered looking up when he heard the door, remembered the smell of fresh air, grass, earth, and ozone as he watched his new customer walk up to his counter. He should have known the man would mean trouble. He should have seen it in his slow, mischievous smile, his light brown eyes. And still, somehow, Stiles had been able to lie to his face without him noticing. No, that was wrong. The fucking mage had probably manipulated him from the start!"

TEAM RED:

On the Other Side Art Creator: LeafZelindor Type of Work: Art Summary: "Artwork inspired by the wonderful fic On The other side. Stiles and Peter both have coffee shops."

Check out the rest of the Steter Mini Bang 2022 works on AO3 here!

#steter mini bang 2022 #steter #SeiKaze #LeafZelindor

[ao3feed-peterstiles]

Art for Dead On Time by SeiKaze

Read it on AO3 at https://archiveofourown.org/works/50409961 by thePurebloodPrat Fic Summary: "When Peter meets Deputy Stilinski's nephew Stiles, the man is not what he had expected. He soon learns, that Stiles is much more than just a pretty face." Ebook style Cover Art for Dead On Time by SeiKaze Words: 47, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: M/M Characters: Peter Hale, Stiles Stilinski Relationships: Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski Additional Tags: Time Travel Fix-It, Magical Stiles Stilinski, two times Stiles is double the fun! Read it on AO3 at https://archiveofourown.org/works/50409961

#ao3feed #fanfic #teen wolf #steter #peterstiles

[bucky-boychik-barnes]

I'm not in Teen Wolf fandom but I am still delighted to post about The Little Things by SeiKaze.

They took my Pockets AU and ran with it. I am extremely fond of them for that, even if I'm too in my feelings right now to properly read and appreciate it.

Go check them out at @mirrorthoughts and @pencilcoreandgreenleafheart too

Edit: They posted about chapter two minutes before I made this post lmao good timing me

#pocket au - other works #eeeee #teen wolf #stiles #there is a stiles in teen wolf? #literally know nothing about the show lmao #i'm so sorry teen wolf fandom #pocket au

[raetttriestowrite]

Just popping into your inbox to tell you that I fucking LOVE Bless This Mess!!!

I found it yesterday and kinda inhaled all parts of it (yes, that string of comments by SeiKaze was me reading while tired xD) and I’m so intrigued how you mixed AC and ToG and where this will go!

I mean, even eleven parts in it still feels as if they‘re just at the beginning, maybe slowly getting closer to the middle of the whole overarching story and I give you kudos to be able to have the bigger picture in mind - I always struggle with that 😂😂

Your story definitely inspires me to and makes me actually *want* to finally try my own hand at something Assssin‘s Creed-ish ❤️

Thanks for this great story!!! ❤️❤️

akjgvba;ikgbvjea;hneawkljn;aknveino;in

I'm feral. I'm crazy. I'm going wildly insane. Sorry but you got me rn at brain is leaking out of my ears level of tired, no filter just semi-comprehensible emotions and rambling.

But! I'm! So glad you enjoyed it! I enjoyed writing it!

I appreciated every comment you've left (incl. the re-read one today i will tell you I Lost My Mind when I saw that.). gakenagikjbhkjrgv.

And like. Look. you're all like '11 parts in and it feels like we're at the beginning or maybe middle' and 'bigger picture' and i'm over here like. frantically trying to juggle. only someone me it's me it's my brain omg keeps adding more balls subplots and i'm just trying to keep them all in the air. i don't know how it keeps happening. the working title for the prev. and wip chapter has not changed and it will not change for the projected next chapter bc i have not managed to resolve That Particular Subplot.

Keeping the bigger picture in mind is more the colour coded bullet point list of my juggling balls that perpetually exists at the bottom of my page and is regularly referenced. Trust me i'm along for this ride almost as much as you are. i have no idea what's happening. people are just doing things and plot is occurring as a result.

I am going wildly insane you don't even know. but. we get fic out of it so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Sorry this answer got out of hand i've been writing for longer than the word count would suggest and have lost all cohesion. 😂

But! You should absolutely try your hand at an AC fic! or Any fic! Pick a character, pick a premise, put them in a Situation! I'd love to read the result! ❤️

#ask response #raetttriestowrite #btmtmim #yeah... this got Wildly Out Of Hand #i don't know if i should blame the Dopamine High #the Caffeine Consumption #the Overtired Brain #or a Combination Of All Three #but this response is a fucking Mess and i Know It #that's fine you can have unfiltered ramblings #bc the alternative is some kind of bland script thank you and i'm Not About That Life #what is even happening here #i keep re-reading this response like i can make it sound Sane with a edit somewhere and it's just not true #so i'm hitting post and you all get to deal with it #um. yeah.... oh! thanks for the ask! 😂

[wordsformurder]

For the Wishlist: Steter, Stiles and Peter wake up with amnesia, maybe on a mission together/roadtrip/whatever. Maybe still in danger, maybe not. (I'm SeiKaze on AO3)

#5

[ao3feed-snape]

Come Back With Me

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/3hjjtL1

by SeiKaze

When Harry wakes after Voldemort hit him with the killing-curse, Dumbledore is not the only one on the plattform.

Words: 508, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: Gen

Characters: Harry Potter, Severus Snape, Albus Dumbledore

Relationships: Harry Potter & Severus Snape

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/3hjjtL1

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #Severus Snape #Snape #Professor Snape #SS

[mirrorthoughts]

Steter Secret Santa 2023

It's finally here!! @stetersecretsanta2023

@i-might-be-in-over-my-head , here is your gift!! :D

I really hope you like it 💕

I tried to put all your wishes in but somehow the enemies-to-lovers fell on the wayside in the end - at least from Chris POV it might still be there for a bit if you squint 😂

Have fun with it and Merry Christmas!!

(Even if the fic is set before Halloween 😂)

Link

Title: I Can See What Could Be And I Want It

Summary:

Peter is dead.

What he sees might be heaven or maybe a glimps into a future he desperately wants to have.

He might even get a chance to work for and manipulate his way into it.

Additional Tags:

Time Travel, Time Travel Fix-It, Kinda, Pre-Chris Argent/Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski, You see their relationship at different times, future stetopher have a little daughter, Peter just sees and wants to have it all, Mostly Fluff, Happy Ending, multiple mentions of Peter burning and assorted tastes and smells, Steter Secret Santa 2023 (Teen Wolf), Steter Secret Santa 2023

#seikaze #sei's writing #teen wolf #steter #Stetopher #stiles stilinski #peter hale #christopher argent #steter secret santa 2023 #steter secret Santa

[mirrorthoughts]

First & Last Lines

Rules: Post the first and last lines of the last 10 fics you posted. WIPs are welcome. Not super strict!!

I was tagged multiple times, so thanks to my lovely mutuals @thotpuppy and @lucky-bishop!!

Not All Soup Is Soup - Teen Wolf, Steter, 2,992 words "So you finally decided to tell us that you're together?" - "Sleep, Stiles. And tomorrow we're going through that book together."

Mushroom Soup - Teen Wolf, Steter, 2,570 words Stiles loved the quiet days. - "Fucking hell!"

Inn of the Multiverse - Teen Wolf, Post-Steter, 8,162 words Year 7, Day 104 Current World: 217, Day 4 of 4* * remind residents they need to leave if they want to stay in this world - Stiles hoped he would.

Once is Chance, twice is a Coincidence, three times is a Pattern - Teen Wolf, Steter, 2,805 words Peter noticed the cat for the first time during a grocery run. - Catniss purred, still content in the arms of her human's lover.

I Can See What Could Be And I Want It - Teen Wolf, Steter, 32,980 words The first thing he noticed when he left behind the darkness was the warmth engulfing him. - And their future looked beautiful.

Pre-Canon, Secret Rituals, Presents - Teen Wolf, gen, 1,282 words "Scotty, hey! Hey, Scotty!" - "Of course, Scott! I'm sure we'll be best friends forever!"

Plants, Time Loop, Public Transportation - Original Story, Post-OC/ OC, 1,704 words When Sascha stepped into the subway he didn't think much of it. - "132."

How to woo your Jester - @oblivionsdream Original Story, Jester/Knight, 596 words "You've already given me flowers yesterday." - More beautiful than even flowers.

The little things - Teen Wolf, Steter, WIP, 11,382 words Stiles felt his dad's eyes stare into his back as he walked up the stairs to his room, still shaken from what had happened at the high school. - "After all now that he has lost his sister it would only be normal to want his last surviving family close to him, even take care of him himself, don't you think?"

Dead On Time - Teen Wolf, Steter, 11,725 words "Uncle Peter, Mum wants you to send these letters to the other packs!" - After all, he had a bit of time until he’d be gone for good.

Ooof, what a list 😂 that did take me a bit to collect all this! Also, lots of Steter 😂😂😂

Low-pressure tags for: @aurevell, @raett97, @whimsicalmeerkat, @dear-massacre, @tkwritesdumbassassins, @bucky-boychik-barnes and everyone else who wants to do this!

I have no idea who hasn't done that yet 😂😂

#seikaze #sei's writing #teen wolf #steter #stiles stilinski #peter hale #original characters #that really is a fucking list o_O... #and the 'oldest' is from summer last year #first & last line tag #tag games

[mirrorthoughts]

Both Are Not The Same

It's Friday and Friday is posting day!!! :D

Another one for @twbingo! This time for the prompt Time Travel! I do want to write more for this story, but for now, this is all you get :3

Aaaan my current Bingo card xD Is that some kind of Bingo already? <.<... I don't know 😂😂😂

#seikaze #sei's writing #teen wolf #steter #pre-steter actually but well xD #stiles stilinski #peter hale #teen wolf bingo 2024 #teen wolf bingo

[mirrorthoughts]

The Identity Crisis of Desmond Miles

Alright, here we are 😂 Thanks to everyone who has voted on my poll (and yes, I know it's not over yet but I wrote this already anyway 😂), I’m actually surprised I got more than 10 votes (and all of them on a yes 💕(the one for the results was mine 😂I wanted to see how it’s going)).

So yeah, Blorbo thoughts about Desmond’s brain, how the Animus maybe-probably works on it and how it’s actually possible that Desmond still has a (probably in the end very weak) grasp of his own identity (below a readmore, because I don’t know how long this will get 😂😂)

The Start

First a few facts I will base this whole… essay on

Desmond learns skills from his ancestors, so the Animus has to impact him deeper than only on a surface level (surface level would be like playing a VR version of a game).

I don’t have the precise ages/dates in mind for the lifespans of Altair, Ezio and Connor, but even if I’m being conservative we’ll get at least 80+ years of other people’s memories in contrast to Desmond’s 25 years of life (…just realized he’s about half a year older than me, so maybe it’s not a surprise he’s one of my forever-blorbos <.<…), one of those, namely Ezio’s he actually ‘lived’ from birth to retirement (= ~55-60 years).

AC Revelations is the only real glance into Desmond’s own memories (aside from what he tells us at the beginning of AC1 and 2). From a doylistic view I know that Ubisoft probably just didn’t want to expend more effort to create Desmond’s memories the same as his ancestor’s, especially because they probably knew at that point they would kill him in the next installment anyway. From a watsonian view the way his memories are all bare bones - mostly his voice talking as if it was a story he remembers and not something he actually lived, without people/faces and places he knew - comes across as if he doesn’t really remember all that much anymore, as if they were really old memories buried by the rest of his (or rather his ancestors’) life.

The brain can hold a lot of information and memories. Even more than you might think. We all know about those Guiness World Records guys that taught themselves to easily remember a myriad of numbers, words, things, whatever. I actually recently saw a very good video about how to do that even as a ‘normal person’. And I’m not even talking about people with photographic, eidetic, echoic or other types of ‘perfect memory’. So, I think we can agree on: the brain is fucking awesome (most of the time) and probably can actually handle the 130+ years Desmond has experienced.

Desmond

Desmond’s ‘life’, according to what his brain experiences when he was in Abstergo’s hands looks a bit like this: Desmond (25yrs) -> Altair (however many days/weeks) -> Desmond (one night’s sleep) -> Altair (however many days/weeks) -> Desmond (one night’s sleep) -> repeat until he gets broken out of Abstergo.

And it only gets worse. Yes, he gets more “free time” when he’s with Shaun and Rebbecca, but at the same time he experiences weeks, if not months of Ezio’s life at a time! Sometimes even years. (We can argue about how the time jump-function works in the Animus, but he still gets the information of what happened how during that time because Ezio knows all of that shit, so even if it’s not as detailed as what he actually actively lives through he still gets the memory of what happened during that time as far as I’m concerned).

And then we have the most extreme ratio in Revelations: Mere seconds of being Desmond (hello computer/brain-speed!) against another few months/about a year of Ezio’s time.

During AC3 it’s not as clear cut how much time he spends in the Animus, thanks to them being inside, but I’d guess they’re about at the same ratio as with AC2, maybe a bit better since he does get to go on missions outside.

In total that makes maybe three months of Desmond’s time (it’s about half a year from when he got kidnapped to when he dies minus all the time he was in the animus. Tbh I think it’s even less than three months he has as Desmond/himself during that time) against literal decades of memories and experiences of his ancestors during the same time. And of course the Bleeding Effect that even disturbs his ‘Desmond time’.

So much for the ‘mathematical’ side of it all 😂

To summarize: Every memory that Desmond makes as himself is overshadowed by dozens of memories he makes as one of his ancestors. So piece by piece, Desmond’s own memories get buried deeper and deeper in his head and those 25 years he actually was only Desmond get fainter and fainter as the new memories he’s making as his ancestors are getting favored by his brain.

Identity Crisis

At this point, it wouldn’t be surprising if Desmond really believed himself to be Ezio, right? After all he’s lived about 55 years of Ezio, he remembers being born as him (and wasn’t that an awkward scene to play… nevermind experience for Desmond), growing up as him, and of course everything we as the player played through with Ezio. And although aside from some verbal outbursts against especially Lucy and a few scenes of the Bleeding Effect we actually don’t see much of it during the game (as far as I remember at least). But we also know about the in-game consequences of using the Animus in detail - hello Clay - and that Abstergo doesn’t really care about the effects of the Animus on their victims as long as they get from them what they want/need.

And yes, Rebecca’s Baby 2.0 was optimized by her to make it better/easier for Desmond. But better/lesser effects still means there will be some effects. And also… afaik Rebbecca has her informations about the Animus from whatever Lucy ‘smuggled out’ of Abstergo. Lucy is said to be a Templar spy, so what informations did she really give Rebecca? Bc as far as I’m concerned it would be to Lucy’s/the Templar’s advantage if Desmond would find them what they need more or less by his own choice and then is brain gets scrambled to hell and back so the Assassins won’t be able to get more informations themselves, right?

Anyway, @Raett (who was a lovely participant in the discussion of these thoughts) hit me with that lovely sentence of “If you've spent more time being 'Ezio' than being 'Desmond' than what's to say [you aren’t] Ezio with memories of Desmond?”

And… just imagine. You’ve just gone through decades of memories, your own memories are faint right now (see point 3) and you’re not quite sure if those actually are your memories or if that’s just something you’ve seen. Maybe you are Ezio after all? Maybe you only dreamt of those ‘memories’ of Desmond - after all that weird vision of a woman that called you the Prophet also talked about someone with that Name! Okay, alright, then you are obviously Ezio, right? You remember your family, your sister, after all you write to her regularly when you are not visiting. You remember Constantinopoli, you remember traveling to Masyaf, you remember finding Altair’s body, his memories.

Wait.

You remember more of Altair then the memory discs have shown you. How can you remember more of Altair’s life? It was already a miracle in your eyes that you saw his memories at all! You remember someone named Connor, Ratonhnhaké:ton. You remember him living in the future, not as far as Desmond, but still far closer to him than yourself. How can you remember the future if you are Ezio? But you remember your - Ezio’s - whole life, so you have to be Ezio, right? But you also remember Altair’s life. Not all of it, but years of it. And you remember Ratonhnhaké:ton, remember how he became Connor, remember his work and life up to somewhere in his later twenties.

And you remember, though faintly, Desmond. You remember that diabolical machine Desmond used. You remember what he was forced to do.

You can remember remembering, reliving your memories.

Are they really yours? Or maybe, maybe you aren’t Ezio after all.

Remembering

So, now that Desmond’s gone through that circle of ‘who am I?’ and ‘I’m Ezio, right?’ and ‘I have to be Ezio, but I can’t be Ezio, so who am I?’ probably more than just a couple of times, what actually is it that brings him back every time?

The short answer is probably ‘reality’, even though that sounds dumb as fuck at first 😂

But in a wider sense that’s actually true. A person’s memory doesn’t only consist of seeing and hearing things, as much as someone who played the games might get the impression because the average person has yet to be able to smell/feel/taste things from computer games 😂.

And that’s the crux, the only thing that actually saves Desmond from loosing himself completely: Sensory impressions, which are a great trigger to remember things.

The clothes he’s wearing don’t feel like any of his ancestor’s clothes. Their make and design are completely different, the fabric was produced in a different way, the clothes themselves, like underwear are even a modern invention (modern men’s underwear is actually largely an invention of the 1930s). And of course nowadays most people wear a lot less layers than it was custom in most of human history.

Then there’s sound and smell (and visuals of course), a modern city is so much louder than even ancient Rome has been. More people (the world’s population is more than 20 times larger than during the 1400s (Ezio was born in the latter half of that century). And between 2011 and 2023 we actually gained another Billion of people on this world!), loud and smelly cars, food stalls, tared streets, large buildings and modern architecture. Cities in general.

And of course he has his companions who would jog his memories by being there.

And his companions are the ones who also trigger another sense of Desmond: touch. Or at least I hope they do <.< touch starvation is a bitch and even a hand on your shoulder or sitting closer together and almost touching and stuff like that do help a lot.

In the same vein we also have Desmond’s own bodily awareness by the way. Especially after months of mostly lying in the Animus he won’t be as strong or enduring as his ancestors and when I think about how Ezio’ running around Rome in his armor… well Desmond definitely has a long way to get anywhere near that strength 😂😂😂 So, his body doesn’t feel like either his ancestor’s bodies. And he also has different markings on his body than them (aside from the scar on his lip that he shares with Altair and Ezio) and, of course, he has his tattoo.

And I think that’s what is grounding him the most. While he sure as hell can fall into one of his ancestors’ personalities when he’s hiding somewhere in the woods, cars - and technology in general - and cities and people have the best chance at pulling him back into himself. Even small things like a tea one of his ancestors remembers that just doesn’t taste quite right. Because over the hundreds of years the plants used to make that tea changed by natural evolution or - more likely - by cultivation through humans.

Coping

I’m kinda curious what they would have done with Desmond if he’d survived in canon. But since they didn’t really let him survive (I’m expertly ignoring the Reader btw.) we will never know an answer to that, I guess <.<…

Though I think with a bit of therapy he’d actually be able to compartmentalize the memories of his ancestors quite well? I mean… I actually think I saw something similar in a fanfic, but since each of their lives was so uniquely different I think it would actually be pretty clear cut to shove each of them in a dedicated space - like a mind palace or something.

I mean, mind palaces work by using a place (real or imaginary) that you know very well and kinda… sort what ever you want to remember in those places. Other than Desmond who mostly has the farm (and I don’t think he’d want to use that place and revisit it every time he tries to remember something specific) each of the other three kinda has at least one dedicated space he knows like the back of his hand. For Ezio he could use Florence, Monteriggioni, even Rome (though maybe a place he isn’t going to travel to that often). For Altair Masyaf is the most likely choice in my opinion. And for Connor he has the homestead and his ship. Just places he hasn’t the same connection to as Desmond and which he can imagine well enough.

He would probably still need a shit ton of therapy for that whole thing anyway and for coping with his own childhood and how his dad is a fucking asshole, too <.<… But he would have a chance to cope, maybe even heal.

Anyway, thanks for everyone who read this far 😂😂😂 I didn’t expect to turn this whole thing into a 2k+ essay, but well, I kinda did o_O… I have no idea if I remembered everything I wanted to write, but this thing is what you get 😂 Hope you had fun! :D (And thanks for wanting to read this to everyone who voted 💕)

#seikaze #sei's brain bubbles #assassin's creed #desmond miles #this got so much larger than I anticipated #it was actually a joke that I called it 'essay' at the beginning #but welp #now it's 2.2k plus a bit long

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Out Of Context WIPs

Rules: Pick a bunch of your WIPs and summarize them as badly as possible, then ask your followers to vote on which one they’d be most likely to read. Multiple/all/none options are completely optional.

Tagged by @tkwritesdumbassassins 💕💕💕

Low-key/no-pressure tagging for: @aurevell, @dear-massacre, @whimsicalmeerkat, @lavender-lotion, @midmorning-bomb, @lucky-bishop!

#seikaze #sei's writing #tag game #I'm so curious how this will turn out xD #also yes #all but one of these are TW xD

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In Your Dreams

i did write a thing! It's for the @twbingo prompt Injury and features a very rare rarepair that I've yet to see on AO3 😂 Stannetopher!

Yes, it's the finished thing for today's WIP Whenever, so have fun reading! :D

Also, since it's a rare pair with Stiles and Stiles is this month's rare pair character for @teenwolfrarepairevents, I'ma gonna tag you guys, too :D...

#seikaze #sei's writing #teen wolf #stiles stilinski #peter hale #danny mahealani #chris argent #Stannetopher #teen wolf bingo #Teen wolf Bingo 2024 #twrp character of the month