#school has been eating me alive

[laanonlovestrash]

cursed Hisami Yomotsu doodle i made, dunno if anybody else has done this but here we go

also here's a version without text if yall wanna see it

my sister compared her to the lifeguard from lilo and stitch.... i don't know how to feel about that

#my art #digital art #digital fanart #fanart #touhou #touhou fanart #touhou project #doodle #2hu #hisami yomotsu #udoalg #shitpost #does this count as a shitpost? idk #sorry this took so long to finish #school has been eating me alive

[rubywonu]

hello bitches, IM BACK!!

#school has been eating me alive #but im backk #did yall miss me #nia says!

[saint-miroir]

Dirty Pair character data issue featured in an issue of Dengeki Animation Magazine. Scanned from my personal collection.

#dirty pair #yuri #kei #mughi #nanmo #chief gooley #gooley andrew francess #80s anime #retro anime #classic anime #dengeki animation magazine #character design #long post #my scans #this is an old scan but I tried to fix it up and make it look decent #school has been eating me alive #my final semester has been brutal

[rileyclaw]

I LOVE THEM !!!!!

#emerald trio you are SO COOL AND FAMOUS #the owl house #toh fanart #toh #my art #toh spoilers #willow park #gus porter #hunter toh #hunter noceda #emerald trio #i cannot emphasize enough that these 3 have my fav dynamic in the whole show. i AM biased when i say this #they are just so!!!!! bites into a pillow and tears it into a thousand pieces of feathers and linen #chews through a telephone wire #climbs onto the popcorn ceiling and begins to tear apart the asbestos popcorn stuff #ive been going rabid about them all week but school has been eating me alive but i decided to say screw hw for the morning and did this.

[irritablepoe]

I WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME. I want someone to casually sit beside me and nudge me every now and then to get my attention. I want someone to pull me into a side-hug because they've been laughing about a joke of someone and want to share that joy with me. I want someone to carefully take my hand into theirs and look at my fingers or perhaps the lines on my hand just because they can. I want someone to look at me absentmindedly while they're thinking of something. I want someone to sit quietly beside me when I'm feeling down and just take my hand and squeeze it to tell me I'm not alone anymore.

#christ alive dhdhhsjwhddj this is so dumb🫠 #I'm sorry #had a lil bit to drink and I'm feeling affectionate okay #also my brother had his last day of school and he's been telling me about his plans with his friends while- #- he has free time and I'm literally so nostalgic rn #like that free time was so nice #i was basically eating dinner with them out qnd about and been going to bars and stuff #also sitting at a lake and the park and the river almost every day like. those were the times fr #those were the times i wasn't a isolated bitch lmao #well i was. just not that much #hhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss my irl friends😭 #if they're all back in germany we have to meet up literally omg🥲 #but also... they've so different lives now. I'm such an outsider somehow and idk #i can't really connect with them as much as i used to #which is fine but. i don't have any other friends with whom i could meet up #maaaaaaan life's so complicated 😔 #johnny's silly rambles #(also yes this is the kind of qp love i want plsplspls #)

[wiredalienvampire]

tbh if I were in doc's place I'd start ovulating

#thinking about stranger recently... im not immune to steef tiddy #im so sorry to the unfortunate bastards who see this #school has been eating me alive like brisket. you guys are gonna have to deal with this for a while #suggestive #oddworld #< fuck it im putting it in there. im a big boy #*ramble txt #ask to tag #possibly delete later

[itsajobnotamentalsickness]

I’ve been having a rough day, but I know you definitely feel worse

Here’s some tomato soup and grilled cheese.

and ibuprofen

hope you get better

yous are so sweet, i can't believe people care so much. thank you, i hope your day has been nice or improved. [9/10]

#tf2 #tf2 sniper #team fortress 2 #Sniper tf2 #team fortress two #itsajobnotamentalsickness #questions for sniper #ooc:sorry its late. school and work has been eating me alive. #ooc:I hope your day had improved.

[ask-salty]

NO WAY SALTY BLOGS BIRTHDAY WOOOO

#it was technically yesterday but #STILL #salty blog birthday. okay #I’m sorry school has been eating me alive but I’m getting ready for the next part #I will say there’s gonna be a new character. and he may have gotten accidentally leaked on another blog #and he’s purple but that’s all I’m saying

[thepavementsings]

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#honestly #im supposed to be spending the weekend helping the guy im dating bake cookies for his friend's baking competition holiday party #and getting in the xmas spirit at the school party #and get do dress up and dance and have a bit of fun before finals eats us all alive #but instead ive come home to get poked with needles and prodded with various devices #because le hashtag chronic illness is rearing its ugly little head #giving me the friendly reminder :) that I dont get to be a 'regular' 23 year old #im trying so hard to just be a grad student. and let it be the incredible time in my life that it has been #and it's SO hard to be back home and feel like i did when i was 19 and sick and helpless and hopeless and sad #and everyone is SO supportive and kind and im trying to let them do that. and not be miserable on my own #and it is very very hard :) #so if anyone has any little holiday fics they love #or even like any holiday hc or ficlets or ideas that make them smile #please send them my way :)

[karlrose]

I have a bingeing problem.

If I like something, I will binge on it.

I like a show, I will binge that show.

I like a food, I will eat nothing but that food until It makes me sick.

I like a drink, I will drink nothing else ever again (Dr. Pepper. I have a Dr. Pepper problem. I would replace my blood with it if it wouldn't immediately result in my death)

I like a song, I will binge all their music.

I like your art, I will binge that art.

I like your blog, I will binge scroll until I reach the bottom.

#i have an overindulgent personality #I used to drink nothing but coffee but I got sick because it was summer in Georgia and I was drinking hot coffee #the hole I burned into my stomach lining from drinking coffee was the final straw though #the school nurse thought it was appendicitis but it was just an irresponsible amount of coffee #actually as I'm typing this I realize it wasn't the hospital scare #I stopped drinking coffee because I got pregnant #I can risk MY life with my bad habits but I couldn't put my baby's life at risk #that would be incredibly irresponsible #other people thank their moms for the gift of life #I thank my kids for the fact that I'm still alive #I thank my mom for nothing except my insecurities and eating disorders #she was a coldhearted bitch who drank screwdrivers while driving with us in the car #And she never hugged me #or told me anything nice about myself #Now I'm overly affectionate and supportive of my kids to the point that they get annoyed with my love #BUT YOU NEED TO KNOW HOW SMART AND BEAUTIFUL AND TALENTED AND AMAZING YOU ARE AND HOW GRATEFUL I AM TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE DAMN IT!!! #I think I binge things the way I do because of my mommy issues #anything to fill the whole in my heart that should have been filled with her love #therapy has been going well...

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#bluh. its been a long week and its not over bc i have to get this fucking manuscript done like fucking this weekend #and Sunday i have to go do fieldwork and then its Monday hhhhh #my boss: the meme of the week is productive women get shit done #and im like being called a woman in stem kills me a little more every time i hear it bleh im just trying to live my life #and by live i mean drain away all my time in the lab. uuuuh i need to rewrite these fucking methods and dun wanna #also fucking the coordinator lady who bought my plane ticket to visit one of my potential schools made it so that im gonna have to drive to #the airport at like 4am and then ill get back to my apartment at after 12am on the return. like i said my time was flexible but wtf lady? #its prob bc they were expensive tickets bc the fucking military #ugh. and the other school is like select 3 profs to meet with. and im like wtf y do i have to? if its just screening stuff y dont u just #assign it? i dont understand hhhh i dont wanna talk to them. i fucking dunno. at least i made it to the interview stage i guess #also also i was running today and randomly remembered that over the break my old bat of a nana was being stingy abt #money bc she said she was gonna give out inherentence to her kids while still alive so they would still be young enough to enjoy it #and my dad and uncle could retire a lil early and still pay for insurance and now shes going back on that bc she doesnt want taxes to go to #the government and my papa is like 85 and hes gotta b nearing deaths door and he cant reel her in anymore #anyway. point is she was talking to my uncle abt her reasons for keeping the money and she was talking shit on my mom for like the way she #spends money. like my mom has cancer u old fucking bitch. shes trying to enjoy her life a little before shes like dead or bedridden #shes also made comments abt my moms weight and like wtf lady she has cancer. shes had multiple abdominal surgeries she had a hernia for #like a real long time sorry shes not spending all her time exercising and eating tasteless healthy food like u #anyway i just think my nana is a bad person. so is my other grandma tbh my sister gets so pissed at her for ordering my mom around #like she treats her dog better than she ever did her kids. lol my grandparents just suck on both sides #and like everytime my parents r like go do things for ur grandparents im like fucking y? they're bad ppl #i dont kno how my parents r so normal #anyway wtf was i doing... ah right procrastinating #unrelated #srry for lack of drawings. just zero time 🫠 #i lov my mum so much. she doesnt deserve any of this bullshit

[magnoliamyrrh]

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#once again im abt to eat glass #literally there has basically not been a day since i started school again in spring that i havent had a overwhelming urge to kill myself ! #and a prepetual feeling that i just. can't do. any of this. any of it. not the fucking classes and not what comes after either. #like fuck what does it even matter exactly if i get this degree or not? if i manage to barely drag myself through this? what does it matter #degree or not i dont have what it takes to remotely make it through life #its not even that im stupid lmao i just. i cant do this. too tired too many fucking health issues too much trauma too insane and. too. #fucking. exhausted. considering i dont even have much a fear of death and have lost that basic survival instinct. what exactly? ought to #keep me going? because on the other side. for the most part i just. dont. want. life. either. everything is such a fucking #struggle and i dont see any point in it?? not anymore. its not even that i think life is miserable or whatever i just #ive had enough of it. good bad great horrible ive just had enough. lmaoo i feel way too old for any of it god damn. i just wanna rest. its #all been too much. its all been enough. i just want to rest. #........ the school is just a added stress that drives me insane but the main god damn issue is that. i just.... i dont want things anymore #i dont want anything anymore. i dont care. most of the things i used to be passionate abt or care about i... . i dont even fucking manage #to do those when i have the time. or want to do them when i have the time #........ so what. exactly. is the point of staying alive. #...... #nothing drives me anymore. i have no drive. perhaps anger at times. i guess thst comes from care. but mostly im just fucking exhausted #... and im just?? useless in this state. useless to myself useless to my family useless to society. i dont even have it in me to do things #out of fear or dread of my parents anymore. #.and. frankly. the biggest issue here is that since ive been like? what? 17? ive been unable to idk rise up to the occasion? its too #fucking much. but frankly.. ;; im not even sure it is. like okay rationally this is a lot to deal with for a human being but also. this is #all. this is all. just because im weak. mentally i dont have it in me. i think the last bit of my energy went into #fucking recovering alone from 2 eating disorders from hell & pretty fucking bad bpd. i feel like that was the last big effort i was able to #make for myselr #idk i just feel like im making fucking excuses all the time. i should Not Be Letting It Define My Life and Rising Above It or whatever but #im too much of a whiny fucking bitch with a victim complex who just fucking complains about things all the time but cant manage to actually #do. anything. #.

[wabblebees]

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#.... so. my adhd has once again gotten the best of me. #do i... tAke more ibuprofen bc its been long enough since i last Remember taking it that i reasonably Could Take More. #OR. did i Already Do That Earlier and simply Forgot. #my headache says 'pls more pls pls' BUT. i cant tell if its bc it has Totally Worn Off from EARLIER earlier... or bc it Hasnt Kicked In Yet #from the last time i realised what time it was. #yall...... every day i look at myself and realize once again ''huh. yknow what im... Generally Bad At Being Alive'' HFGSFSHDKFJK #....i think im gonna take one (1) instead of two (2) capsules and just. call it a day lmfao #whats the worst that could happen?? liver failure?? ive been courting THAT since high school bc of This Very Reason #((tho at the time my painkiller of choice was acetaminophen.... i would eat that shit like candy bc i was like 'ahh its not working why')) #((bc it doesnt actually do a whole lot its a placebo. but anyway))

[du-garm]

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#destiny if you see this no you dont #i really fucking hate my life right now #im forced to take shitty summer classes bc im behind on credit hours by basicallly an entire year #for a degree i dont really want at school i never fucking wanted to even go to and now im basically failing these classes because of it #i never wanted to go to college i fucking hate the structure of schooling and not my mental health is shit and i so badly dont want to care #but my anxiety is literally eating me alive and i cant get myself to do anything bc my executive dysfunction has literally never been worse #i really want to just fucking drop out of this fucking place my parents forced me to go to #i really just fucking hate my life right now and if i didnt have people depending on me i dont know if i'd be trying at all #i really wish i was dead sometimes #not that i'm going to /do/ anything but god i really fucking hate where i am now #mentally and physically #and my parents just dont fucking care #they just see my grades and thats all that matters to them #“you're just using it as an excuse” like i WANT to fail at shit #ignore me just losing my fucking mind having my worst breakdown yet #grey groans

[long-live-astronerd-ghost-king]

DPXDC prompt: Dead on main. No trick only treat.

~~Сhildhood friends and deals~~

The Justice League has to summon a ghost from another dimension to address the threat. They don’t know what price the Ghost King will take but there’s little time to bargain. Another spirit threatening them has already seized all the computers on their base. John doesn’t know what else to offer. A summoned ghost starts to look bored. Gold, jewelry? A favor from a member of the League? Like the Ruler of All Dead needs it. No one dares to make another offer, and the King is in no hurry to set out his demands. Maybe try to pull off a soul sale scam?

Suddenly, Red Hood breaks into the hall, walks up to Phantom and shakes his shoulder vigorously. Red Hood: You, get Technus out of here right now. I need access to the files and fast. Phantom: That’s rude, dude. Where did you grow up? in the cave? No "hello, no how are you, Danny", really? Red Hood: I’ll pay the usual price. Phantom: Deal.

What is the price? John sees Batman and gets in his way. The usual price, his guy said. Means Jay was already out of the deal alive and well. This hyperprotective bat would only piss off the ruler if he interfered.

The King quickly deals with his subordinate using a thermos and remains to watch working Hood. Red Hood: What do you want? I’m busy. Danny: You and I have a contract~ Red Hood: All right, all right. Jay throws M&Ms right in the face of the ghost. But king doesn’t look angry. He opens the package and starts sorting the candies by color. Phantom quickly eats up all the green ones and passes the red ones to Hood. Jason takes them without any questions.

Strange. John has never seen a summoned creature share its reward with a human. And the son of a bat looks too comfortable with it. Wait, since when do super-powered beings think that candy is a decent wage?John makes one of the most likely deductions using his experience. Constantine: Batsy, how long has your son been sleeping with the King of Ghosts? Batman: He…what?!

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Dick *knocking at the door*: Little Wing, you hate ectoplasm and everything what is neon green, so why? He’s dangerous! Jason who turned on the music to not listen to his crazy family: ~He’s poison but tasty~

Dick: NoOOoo

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Jason: And now everyone thinks that I sold my virginity to you for a bargain or something, because interdimensional creatures like you aren’t supposed to help for nothing. Like you’re playing favorites. I’m gonna fucking kill John. Danny: Well, I wouldn’t say no to that. Jason: What? Danny: I mean, to k-kill John, yeah. How dare he.. Jason: Omg, you’re still so terrible liar, Fenton.

Danny: Sorry :(

Jason: No. Say it again.

~~~~Twelve years ago~~~~ Maddie wasn’t thrilled to learn that Danny was trying to make friends with Todd’s son. Their neighbor was terrible. And his son was definitely a street rat and probably a juvenile delinquent. Maddie: Danny, honey, there’s got to be a reason this boy is talking to you. Even kids from the crime alley are always looking for a bargain they can make or a fool they can fool. Danny: But Jason is so cool! He knows so much about books and alleys and.. Maddie: But you don’t want to be a fool, do you? Danny: Okay, Mom, I get it.

So, if Danny wants a cool friend, he’s got to offer a bargain.

He didn’t have a lot of pocket money for every month but Jason needed it more anyway. And his lunch that Jack was picking for him was big enough for two and only bitten on Tuesdays. Nice. Jason: Do I understand correctly? You will pay me and give me food, and I, what? Protect you from bullies? Danny: No! I’m not weak, I don’t need to be protected. Just..maybe we could sit together at lunch and walk each other home sometimes? Jason: Nay Danny: But why? You want something else? Jason: Money’s fine but your homemade food is…strange. Danny: I can bring sweets if you want. Jason: Deal. 3 pop tarts for a joint lunch, a party size bag of M&Ms if you waste my time out of school.

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Sometimes they share sweets when they hang out but more often Jayson takes them home to save in case his parents have money problems. Sweets have a long shelf life stored and he may not be afraid to poison himself. Over time, candy becomes their currency and a secret language for all occasions. Need help without unnecessary questions? M&Ms. Problems with learning? Skittles. The question is about family? Snickers. There will be a serious conversation? Pop Tarts.

Jason: One snickers and a pack of gum. Danny: Yeah, Jason? What do you want? Jason: My mom wants to meet my friend. Come to lunch on Sunday. Danny: Okay, you managed to pay for my expensive services. Jason:…and you just lost the gum from the deal.

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Jason threw a package at Danny: Three pop tarts. We need to talk. Danny: All right? Jason: Why are you avoiding me all week?! Danny: Well, it’s just..you’re Wayne now. Jason. Still Todd. And what about that? Danny: You can hang out with the cooler guys now, I didn’t want to embarrass you. Jason: Bullshit! I’m still the street rat, and you’re trying to avoid our contract. me. And I don’t even need money from you anymore. What the hell? I thought you are my friend. Danny: And I am!

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Robin: What’s a schoolboy doing in an alley at night? Danny: Um, I…nothing? Don’t tell my parents, Mr. Robin sir. Robin: It will cost you so many Chunky Bars, you have no idea. Danny:...Jason? Jason: N-no. Danny: Damn yes. What are you doing in green shorts on the street at night?! Jason: Cosplay. Danny: Oh yeah? Then I’m just your hallucination. Don’t hesitate to ghost me. I’m going home, Disgrace In Pixie Boots, bye. Jason: fu%&c$#u

#dpxdc prompt #dcxdp #dpxdc #dpxdc crossover #dead on main ship #dead on main

[scarletcomet]

can't do this (life)

#hadn't self-harmed since wednesday #and not on my arm since the week before that #i was so worried about my arms knowing that i was seeing my parents but i dont even care anymore #it was really needed and honestly felt really good #self-harm isn't even my issue right now #i'm way less suicidal than i was a week and a half ago and for weeks before that #being home and with my parents has been really bad for my mental health #i was finally starting to feel a little better but no. we can't have nice things #i've been eating more and able to get out of bed more and having less frequent suicidal thoughts #but i think i kind of miss feeling how i did #i still have suicidal thoughts often but they're not constant or as detailed or overwhelming #and less fantasizing different ways and stuff #i don't know #my parents just don't understand and it's really hard #2 weeks ago i was questioning going to the ER because things got so bad #and before that i could barely move or eat or talk for weeks #they keep telling my all these things they want me to do and whatever but i can barely keep myself alive right now #i wish i had killed myself while i was still at school #it would have been a lot better for everyone #tw: suicide mention