#says the broke ass

[iwoulddieforienzo]

Something I really appreciate about TOA that I don’t see get talked about much is that I never get the sense that Apollo finds Lester ugly.

For all that he complains about the body he’s stuck in, I never got the feeling that it came from a distaste for Lester himself. When he sees Lester’s traits reflected in others, like Meg being chunky, he is completely unaffected by it. Finds it charming, even. (In fact, the only times I can remember him having Opinions about how someone looks is when they’ve chosen something about their appearance that he either approves or disapproves of, like a tacky jacket/hair cut or when he finds someone attractive. The only time I can remember him calling anybody ugly was when he pointed out that Dionysus was choosing to look as ugly as possible to piss of Zeus, which is a statement of fact and doesn’t necessarily mean he thinks that Dionysus’ form is actually ugly. He makes no mention of finding it so before or after that line. It’s a statement of fact that Dionysus is choosing a form that either he or Zeus finds ugly to piss of their dad.)

The thing about Lester is that he is so devastatingly mortal. He has flab and acne and no upper body strength and his voice squeaks when he’s nervous and he sweats a lot and he has a silly name and messy, curly hair that’s impossible to tame. He is the Most Teenager To Ever. There is no godly blood running through his veins, no powers he can call upon. If Apollo were to run into him in the street, I don’t think he’d pay him much mind. He’d probably just think, “sweet kid”, and move on. If he got to know him, I think Apollo would adore him because that’s just who rrverse!Apollo is. He loves mortals despite himself, flaws and all. He’d argue against anything bad Lester had to say about his own appearance and mean every word.

The problem is that it’s Apollo in this body. Apollo, The Golden Child, the perfect son, a God. His distaste for this body is because Lester is so devastatingly mortal and imperfect. Apollo has to be perfect, he has to be shiny and pretty and strong because he has nothing else to offer otherwise.

And.. I dunno, there’s something about Apollo hating the things that draw him to others when it’s him. The flaws that he tears apart in himself he finds endlessly charming on others, or he thinks that they have better reasons for why they have them, or he thinks they have enough positive traits to counteract them. The positive things that he hides deep enough that even the reader can’t see right away, like his kindness and genuine desire to understand and connect with everyone around him, that he’s shocked to find directed at him in turn.

That Apollo accepting himself and reclaiming his personhood leads to him being comfortable with being Lester, imperfect and mortal as he is. That he takes that imperfection back with him to Olympus… I dunno man I’m Emotional. Also it’s just plain nice that Lester is never treated as ugly for looking like a normal ass teenager, even by the guy stuck in this body. That’s neat.

Or maybe I’m just rambling and this means nothing at all and I’m reading too far into Blorbo from my books.

#DOES THIS MAKE SENSE. is this too rambly. AUGH. #words machine ALWAYS broke and I forget everything I’m trying to say the moment I try to write or type it out #which results in long ass posts like this. this could’ve been 3 sentences probably #TOA #trials of Apollo #rrverse!apollo #lester papadopoulos #snack time #should I tag this as meta?? I dunno

[spellslinging]

a c+ barbarian and a broke ass wizard

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #gorgug thistlespring #adaine abernant #i say this affectionately #they’re MY c+ barbarian and broke ass wizard

[laniidae-passerine]

I made my post about Dean Highbottom and then as I was writing my tags realised that his Hunger Games counterpart is Haymitch. and now my head is in my hands and I don’t think I’ll ever recover

#IM GOING TO CRY. I am part of the system I never wanted anything to do with it #I killed so many people without laying a hand on them. I never ever asked for this. I tried to say no. my hands are still bloody. #both turned to drugs to cope. both had a mentee who reminded them of someone they hated so much #(snow reminded the dean of his old friend. katniss reminded haymitch of himself) #both knew exactly how the games worked and all of its consequences because one made it and the other lived it #both lived in the shadows of the past and never really got out from it #but in the end one of them chose to be cruel to the children who they were asked to mentor #and the other loved even when it was killing him #god. twenty three years and they never managed to drown the fire out of him. his heart broke again and again #but he held onto those shards even as they made his hands bleed. and then one day two children appeared and pieced it back together #and some of it was missing and always would be. you can’t undo twenty three years of alcoholism and pain and grief and self loathing #but a lot of it was still there. far more than he ever even believed could have survived #Haymitch I love youuuuuuuuu I will always love you #and Dean Highbottom you were kinda cringe and lame. guynobody ass bitch. do better #haymitch abernathy #dean highbottom #thg #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #abosas

[cassmouse]

Headcanon that Scott and Wallace pretend to be a couple on Valentine's Day so they get all of the discounts

#they're some broke ass mfs #so they have to do it #Wallace does it with Scott specifically despite having many options because well #bro code #they live together what can I say #(and Scott is his favourite) #(...and he's in love with him so-) #anyway came up with this while talking to my friend yesterday #scollace #Scott pilgrim #headcanon

[cakesmelons]

Dream got Cross back! (I'm supposed to be asleep but I can't sleep but I'm supposed to wake up early but I CAN'T SLEEP—)

#broke into your house and found a frozen au card. so. I thank you for that ...even though I pretty much just stole it #SUNNY ART!!!!!! #sunnymaincoon #NOT my art #sunny. youre welcome to steal from me house any time <3 #damn cross. two different dreams???? lucky 😔💕 #at least dream was nice enough to carry shattered after beating him <3 #my day be fine. but then i see sunny art and suddenly my day is fantastic #cross so flustered over having his bf fight for his ass <3 #(that ass is Dream's!!!! 😤 he's okay w/ sharing but you can't just STEAL it shattered >:/) #frozen au #dreamtale frozen au #frozen!au #sanscest #frozen!cross #frozen!dream #frozen!shattered #SUNNY SLEEP!!!!! you need sleep 😤 #i say like the hypocrite i am

[iqmmir]

The thing about milgram girls is that they are all Pathetic and Stupid and Idiots . Yes even amane .

#.mimiming ❜ #im right guys i know i am #'shes so girlboss' shes an 18 yr old. she thought compensated dating would help her 'feel warm' shes a fucking idoot #'shes manipulative' she built up an hierarchy in her head and then killed someone completely unrelated to it after it broke down. shes dumb #'shes so creepy' ??? shes an idiot who doesnt know when to stop and when is too far shes just plain stupid #'shes scary' shes 12 she genuinely doesnt have enough perspective of the world to know anything and she has a huge ass ego shes stupids #idek what people say about kotko but shes an idiot through and through #the sooner you guys stop thinking they're anything except just some random people you'd find sitting next to you in the public bus #the better you'll be able to read their characters and storylines #im so serious #my milgram thoughts

[londyboobs]

he just never ceases to amaze me x

#a video slapping a girls ass here #a video saying that he believes in marriage and soulmates there #amazing #derek luh #gen v cast #it just broke my heart him saying that only two options for him back then was jail or death #im just really really proud of him

[elephant-in-the-pride-parade]

Shout out to the new trekkies who are gonna watch Prodigy first and get invested in the J/C ship. Because they are all gonna get it in their heads to watch Voyager afterwards, to get the references and see how these characters got to where they are in 2385...

Endgame is gonna be a special kind of whiplash for them.

#prodigy #star trek prodigy #kathryn janeway #chakotay #janeway/chakotay #not saying it is a forgone conclusion mind you #but we're definitely dancing across the subtext vs blatant bold ass print text line #not sure where he and seven are by 2385 but the books broke them up fast and picard seems to imply that canon followed suit #since hes like not mentioned in her story at all

[tired-demonspawn]

words do not describe how much im looking forward to dallas liu's teaboy arc in book 2

#natla #netflix atla #netflix avatar #avatar the last airbender #atla #dallas liu #zuko #atla zuko #thats where it was AT man #i pray to the gods and spirits each day so the writers actually show him serving tea #he is so sassy #i want his ass in customer service #and i want to see it #we all know the true zuko character ark happened due to having to go through being in customer service #yeah sure the starvation being on the run and seeing the concequences of the war helped or whatever #but the customer service is what broke him i would say #and i need to see it happen #to this version of zuko #on screen #i beg #(that being said if it doesnt happen i wont really care? i mean it wasnt in the og show there is no pressure to see it happen here) #(sort of a i will be gnawing it to shreds with my teeth in exitement if it happens- #shrug and prbly not even realise it wasnt included if it isnt type o deal) #(yfeel?)

[leavingautumn13]

y'all are lucky it's an emerald kick i'm on right now and not an oras one because i get weird and feral about how characters in oras are aware of the narrative they're in and react differently to it depending on which game you're playing

#pepe silvia meme dot png #listen. listen. if you're playing alpha sapphire then you're the antagonist in archie's story. #if you're playing omega ruby maxie's the antagonist in your story and he leans into the role with glee. #(also he's much friendlier than people give him credit for. he has a whole monologue in seafloor cavern about how #happy he is to see you even though he knows you're about to fuck up his plans #and archie does NOT have equivalent dialogue in alpha sapphire he just gets right into kicking your ass) #(i'm so normal about maxie you guys) #when zinnia asks if you've ever had to hold back your grief... if you answer ''no'' she LAUGHS #and says ''don't you know you're supposed to agree? and then we can share a touching moment of pain?'' #i'm also totally normal about zinnia #god #''don't you know you're supposed to agree'' fucked me up so bad and all i did was read about it on bulbapedia #there's no place like hoenn #<- resurrecting this old tag #edited to add: ALSO ''s/he's the hero. right?'' #GOD I LOVE ZINNIA #broke: zinnia did nothing wrong. woke: zinnia did everything wrong while speedrunning the five stages of grief

[emeraldbabygirl]

WAIT WAIT WHEN KOHAKU AND YAMATO AND COBRA AND TAUKUMO ARE ALL BREAKING EACH OTHER’S PUSSIES AND THEN KOHAKU JUST CRIES THAT’S ME WHEN I FIND OUT ALL MY FAVS ARE SEXY AND MARRIED WITH KIDS 🫠🫠🫠

ALSO WHO ARE THE TWO OLDER WOMEN AT THE END? What do they do?

ALSO ALSO WHY DOES NO ONE TALK ABOUT ROCKY ENOUGH??

WHY NO ONE TALK ABOUT THE SEXY OLDER AMAMIYA BROTHER?? HE’S SO DADDY

AND WHAT ABOUT FURIYA HE’S SO 😍😍😍😍

AND KAITO AND THE GOLDEN BOMBER MEMBERS DOES NOBODY LIKE WHITE RASCALS??

AND YAMATO AND TETZ PLEASE I LOVE SO MANY HIGH & LOW MEN I’M A SLUT FOR HALF THE CAST AWOOOOGA

#high & low #high & low the movie #THEY TOTALLY FUCKED UP YAMATOS FACE THO #BROKE HIS PUSSY AND HOS SPIRIT #*his #BUT I LOVE YAMATO SO MUCH #I WANNA MARRY HIM #UGH #I LOVE TETZ TOO IDC WHAT ANYONE SAYS ABOUT HIS HAIR ACTUALLY I LOVE LONG HAIR TETZ #SUCK MY ASS FRFR #I LOVE THE HIGH & LOW MEN SO MUCH

[ashfdhfgdsfk]

canniboredom

#i am not immune to cannibal puns #my art #scritches #hannibal #hannibal lecter #mads mikkelsen #nbc hannibal #my digital pen broke after i finished this drawing so idk what that says about it but rest in peace pen o7 ur squeaky ass served me well #man #ive been a fan of this show since forever but never really interacted w the fandom until recently #but im rewatxhing it for like the 3rd time w a friend rn #n the hyperfix is reawakening i can feel it #so have a quick little sketch for fun #if anyone even sees this #i currently have (1) follower on this new secret sideblog so ! #ig this ones for u my guy shdfghdh #that was a /joke i do not condom peer pressure #condof #condone #fml

[hlxtn]

I AM ALIVE OHMGOD

I FEEL SO HORRIBLE FOR GOING AWOL SO SUDDENLY BUt life really wrecked me over the past few months (it's getting better now so its okay) You can read a part of what happened here

but tldr; my friend fucked me over/scammed me during my most vulnerable period and while trying to get ahold of my personal problems I also had to beg for all my money/stock back from the 'friend'. I've been taking socials one-by-one and tumblr is now next for me to come and answer messages and give updates. I will tackle my inbox in the next two days once I get off from work and can properly focus on giving actual replies. Just wanted to quickly update and say I didn't disappear without a reason and I'm really really sorry about that

#the end of the year as been the worst in my life #i had a close family member die #my dad has some kind of tumor examinations going on rn #had to find a new job #and a new place to live #had to get an abortion #friend scammed me #my other ex friend tried to roofie me at a night out because she wanted my ex and was jealous that we still were civil? #and because my friend ran off with my money i was broke AF #i made sure my cat was fed but brah those were the hardest months for ME #everything is getting on track NOW #so it's okay #im slowly building everything back up #i still struggle a lil mentally and having to juggle the shame of failure and shit but we ballin #writing out some of what's been going on doesnt sound as bad but tackling everything alone kinda builds up and sucks ass #doesnt excuse my disappearance but just saying these things so people get to have an overview to what has been happening

[apollos-olives]

I’m sorry your story got cancelled that SUCKS. Is there any way you will be able to share it otherwise?

yeah so basically they're refusing to air it because it was too controversial and dangerous, but my producer told me that to story was so well done and was so perfect that he told me i should submit it into video and journalism competitions that my local community does. like, he said it was PERFECT- he showed it to every single producer up the food chain and they said it was fantastic, but just too "controversial", so they refused to air it. they didn't like that i didn't have the perspective of "the other side", they didn't like that i wore arabic on my shirt, they didn't like that the protesters were using posters that condemned zionism, so they just told me it's not airing. despite that, it was genuinely so perfect that my producer told me i HAVE to put it on my portfolio and submit it to different events and competitions to make it get recognized. so i guess i'll be doing that instead. it's just not airing for my studio.

#which genuinely guts me because i gave up WEEKS of my life to get the story done #i lost friendships. i missed out on events. i skipped a billion classes. i lost DAYS of sleep #i busted my ass so hard for this story to be perfect- AND IT WAS- but they refused to air it #so now weeks of my life are gone to waste #and now it'll take weeks to get things back to normal #im so upset #we did a run through for anchoring and they told me that i wasnt energetic enough and i should act happier while on air #and i for real am gonna lose it. tbqh. #i fucking hate it here #my studio partner was there with me when my producer broke the news and i was so upset i didnt know what to say #partner asked me if i was okay and i just said yeah and looked away from him #and he stood there hovering as if he wanted to say something but he just sighed and walked away #im fucking up my entire life right now and idk what to do

[noxious-fennec]

Its the most specialest birthday boy if you don't clap and cheer for him and wish him a happy birthday ill blow this whole place up <33

I just think that he deserves a little nap yk, in the warmth of the sun and everything.. perhaps listening to the radio, its probably playing fairuz.. I also think he would like daffodils

#this should not count as a belated present somwhere in the world its still the 12th ok #my art #dsmp wilbur #cwilbur #wilbur fanart #dont ask where he got this big ass chair let's say he broke into cq's office alright #why does he have a cane well thats because *i* cant get a cane so #he gets to accommodate his chronic illness #also this is my first time doing fanart for the one character that's been rotisserie chicken roatating my head for over a year #hope it looks good and i dont have the immediate urge to change smth #fennec. art

[nerosdayinanime]

fuckign obsessed with sabigiyu... sabito's tough and snarky and brash when hes around people but then see him with giyuu and hes the biggest fucking puppy... constantly touching and being affectionate whenever he can, harshly stopping/snapping at anyone who tries to badmouth giyuu or even looks at him wrong, always glancing back when hes talking looking for giyuu's attention and recognition- he so freely displays his love and its just so sickeningly sweet to anyone around as witness

giyuu's a youngest child too, you know he'd eat that shit up. he fucking loves how much sabito spoils him- the occasional time sabito tries to be stern or ignores him all he has to do is bat his eyes and raise the corners of his mouth and sabito near immediately caves to whatever he wants. anything to see giyuu's full smile, and giyuu never hesitates with him

they know exactly what the other wants at a given moment, know when to be soft and sweet or when to be rough and wild- quietly sitting together close enough for their thighs to touch and enjoying the warmth of eachother's presence to playfully pushing buttons until the other snaps and gives their full attention to grappling the other to the ground. they'd both stop at the drop of a dime for the other for whatever reason needed, lovingly teasing and calling the other an idiot the whole way out

#loserboy giyuu posting #fratboy sabito posting #sabigiyu #sabito x giyuu #i found Anything You Want(JAWNY ft. dojacat) and i just asfdghgjhykdsfghjkyj sABITO #he fucking loves giyuu sm. theyre both utterly obsessed with eachother but sabito's more outgoing abt it so its #way more obvious to outsiders. anyone who actually knows how giyuu is see how down bad he is- hes a different person when sabito's #way more obvious to outsiders. anyone who actually knows how giyuu is see how down bad he is- hes a completely different person when #sabito's around vs when hes not and everyone thinks they're ridiculous #sabito got in a fight one time bc he called someone pathetic for being scared to openly love their partner #giyuu had to drag him out like a cat carrying an angry kitten. he was staring them down with death in his eyes then as soon as line of #sight broke he looked to giyuu with a proud little smile and giyuu dropped him on his ass for getting into a fight for such a stupid reason #sabito tried to defend his superior opinion but stopped when giyuu kissed the top of his head and started walking off. scrambled to get up #and follow- whatever he was gonna say forgotten and no longer important #ough... #sorry im unwell about them #i like thinking of what they'd be like if they hadnt lost eachother and turned cold in eachother's absence like they did in canon #sabito asshole & giyuu spoiled brat supremacy #also this is ambiguous as to whether its canon-setting or modern its just Them #'youve got the funk- gets me stupid gets me drunk- ill do anything that you want- anything that you want want want' #its just oUGH