sometimes i’m sad and then i remember that the dead poets society new york vlog exists and that in said vlog they got stuck on a roof, almost had the cops called on them and nearly missed their audition 😭
I don’t know, maybe it’s because of the PMS or me listening Bigger Than The Whole Sky by Taylor Swift while writing this down or both, but looking at this picture wrecks my heart as I wrote this down.
What makes me sad is that Robin is gone and other guys in this picture are in their 60s and 50s and one day they’ll be gone too, maybe I’m the one who would be gone first, no one knows but when the day comes, as they gone by while I’m still here, I would cry. To Ethan, Robert, Josh, Dylan, Gale, Allelon, and James: you guys will be remembered.
I know it’s weird but this movie has an impact on me mentally and I guess the reason why I never watched this as a kid is a good reason, or otherwise I would not understand the message this movie tried to convey.
I think the reason why I’m so attached to this movie is because I’ve never had a teacher like Keating who is passionately doing his job as teacher. All teacher I knew just taught me to race, to get to the finish line, and some even hurt me with their words. Well, this doesn’t mean I never had a good teacher; a passionate one? Never, as long as I can remember.
The other reason is I never experienced a friendship that bonds so good as these Dead Poets Society boys. Maybe because I wasn’t free due to strictly and less money circumstance in high school and perhaps I’m not fun enough to hangout with. I can’t blame the situation or my friends. (Hi, it’s me, I’m the problem, it’s me.) Dead Poets Society’s friendship is something I wanted to have. I can never turn back the time, I will never be that 17-18 and free. I love my friends I have right now, but what I mean is friendship at my young age. All I can remember about my high school is just my effort to survive. It wasn’t bad, it’s just sad.
I end this gibberish-pitying-self note with these lyrics, the lyrics I would give to 17-19 years old me. The young soul that had to get older than that before the world celebrate her birthday.