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tacomanarrows · 21 days

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Between the Sea and the Sky!

Hi everybody! Meet the TWO new guys I made between last night and today! Their names are Tarmac (an Aeromorph dog) and Soda (a pooltoy fox), and they've filled a desire for these two specific kinds of OCs I've had in mind for MONTHS lol. They were super fun to design and draw and I'm super excited to do more with them soon!! This piece is relatively simple but more so serves as their introduction hehe

See more about them, including refs and some additional pieces/information below the cut :] (it kind of turns into a huge braindump lmao)

Tarmac is an aeromorph, although a bit more towards the furry side of things rather than the plane side lol. His design is influenced primarily by the Concorde and the Space Shuttle! I couldn't decide for the life of me which of those two things I wanted to use so I thought "why not use both?" and here we are lol. I'm super happy with his design, with the black/dark gray markings mean to emulate the look of the Space Shuttle's thermal insulation tiles and then I really like how the red and blue stand out against the gray. I really like his icon too! I wanted to make it look like a stylized depiction of a plane (mainly a Concorde hehe) breaking through the sound barrier with a sonic boon! In terms of personality, I don't have a whole lot in mind yet. Mostly that he'd be the brave, adventurous type and since he can fly both in the air and through space, he's gonna be friends with Astro too :3

Soda is a pooltoy fox! I have wanted to make a pooltoy OC FOREVER (blame my mutuals for always posting/reblogging so many cool pooltoy OCs hehe). I finally got brave enough to actually give it a shot, and I love how he came out! I was mainly just thinking about summery themes and as I was just trying out different colors and stuff, I thought about orange soda, and that's the direction I ended up going! He's got a big stupid tail [affectionate] and can have either rounded bappy hands or have actual fingers, you're free to stylize that either way! I've only ever drawn a pooltoy character once ever before, so this was something way out of my realm of familiarity, but I'm so happy with how he came out! He's so shaped I love him so much already <33

So those are my two new guys! Making two new OCs at the same time is already a rarity for me lol. The only time it's happened before was when I made Rye and Pumpernickel back in August of 2021. And then making these guys when I had only gotten Astro about two and a half weeks ago means this is an exceedingly rare event for me lmao. My friends know how infrequently I make/get new OCs, so this just goes to show how much these guys have been bouncing around in my brain lately lol.

They are definitely gonna have some sort of connection to each other, but I'm not sure how I wanna go about that yet. Since I made them back to back, they are already connected in my brain, but I'm not sure how I wanna express that in a meaningful way. I don't wanna make them siblings bc, well, they're obv very different from each other lol, but they're kinda parallels (with one being in the sky and the other being in the water yknow), so as of right now they're definitely good friends with each other. I might upgrade that to bfs at some point in the future, but we'll see how things go hehe.

Anyways huge braindump of a post lmao, thank u for reading if u did! I'd love to hear your thoughts on these guys since they're so different from all my other characters! Also if anyone may wanna do an art trade of either of these guys (or Astro as well! I'd like to get more art of him too!) let me know hehe

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koa-z · 8 months

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Nagito Color Study | Please do not repost, reblogs are welcome though! Brushes & Techniques & a progress pic below the cut

Uhhhh okay, how to explain this one. I was rereading “Logically Lucky” by PinkSweetSmoke and some of the visuals in the earlier chapters really struck me. The way that they write this relationship is pretty dynamic, and I wanted to see if I could use colors to talk about how Hajime and Nagito feel for each other and what they’re going through emotionally? So this is fanart for that fic, directly inspired by that fic based on the established vista(s) and also the style of writing their relationship, but it doesn’t really make sense unless I say all of that lol? But it wouldn’t exist if not for that fic, so I’d feel weird not mentioning it.

Brushes used (Clip Studio, Free):

Main: “ラフペン” from gyuukotu’s “Fill Set (塗りセット)”, content ID 1695210 Fill: Default India Ink brush pen - the rough pen is a little unpredictable, so I used this to flat the image and make sure that there were no gaps Cloud Flat: "荒筆" from gyuutoku's “Fill Set (塗りセット)”, content ID 1695210 Cloud Blender: I downloaded it from the internet instead of the app 2 years ago and cannot find, with certainty, where it came from, since I get rid of everything on my hard drive that's not art every year :( there are lots of good cloud blending brushes out there for free, though, and I typically use the gouache blender Misc. Techniques: Screen Distortion: I used CSP's free cloth texture clipped above the "blue" layers and then liquified it in places for the screen distortion effect Gradient Mapping: I cannot overstate how helpful gradient maps were for minor color corrections, you guys PLEASE try them on a finished piece of your own if you haven't used them yet. Click Layers > New Correction Layer > Gradient Map and then choose from the premade gradients before adding your own so you can see how they worked. I used a few different ones clipped to specific areas w/ lowered opacity & hard/soft light settings where I felt like the color was falling flat and it was SO helpful at giving it just that little bit more depth. Hearts: I've discovered that you can cheat at hair and clothing rendering by just making hearts. Try and see how many you can find lol Color Theory in General: The whole point of this piece, after it stopped being fanart (lol rip), was to be a color study focusing on the contrast between shadow and light and what I could do within the blues & the yellows to make them appear as if they're actually different colors. In the blue section, everything is p much blue, nothing is any other color. In the sunny section, a lot of the stuff is warmer variations of the standard colors, since I wanted it to be more vibrant and didn't feel like I could achieve that if everything was shades of yellow and orange. That being said, I stuck as closely to that as possible. But ANYWAY, juxtaposing the two starkly different color profiles also helps the blues in the blue side read as colors that they aren't, which was part of why I did this study. Sneaky sneaky: I just modified the diner a bit in order to get the colors I wanted, i.e closing the blinds bc I can. As an artist it's important to remember that YOU have full control over every single part of the piece, you just should ideally have a reason to create inaccuracies/ break rules or else it can end up being a bit messy and disorganized & details/ your vision can get lost.

Aaaand finally, the sketch from TWO AND A HALF MONTHS AGO:

#trusttheprocess 😭😭😭

#nagito komaeda #sdr2 #color study #super danganronpa 2 #nagito fanart #my art #october 2023 #jesus I started in july #but I also like let it sit for a good 2 months after the mockup #so shhhh #fav #komaeda nagito #character study #fanart

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sam-loves-seb · 6 months

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weely tag wednesday

thanks for the tags @energievie @metalheadmickey @deedala !

which character from any media would you like to have as a father? jed bartlet (the west wing)

if money, laws, time, and effort were no object, what animal would you want to have? probably just a cat tbh i'm not a big animal person (i think they're neat, i just don't really have the desire to own any of them)

what is your Chinese takeout order? pork fried rice and chicken fingers

what's your favourite emoji? this one: ✨

would you rather have a library, greenhouse, or home theater in your house? a home theater. a library would be sick but i read mostly ebooks so i think a theater would get more use out of me.

what childhood tv show do you think of the most fondly? Spongebob Squarepants. me and my sister used to watch this every single night with our dad when we were little, but if we wanted to stay up and watch it we had to be all ready for bed by the time it came on

what was your tumblr like when you first joined? it was a lot of reblogs of aesthetic photographs because it was 2012 and i was 14. not long after that tho it turned into a sebastian stan fan blog which is how i got my url, and over time that slowly morphed into the multi fandom madness you see today

what clothing style do you love but don't feel compelled to replicate yourself? god i don't know, my closet is a little bit of everything because i always wanna try a new style when i see it. i honestly don't think i have an answer for this one, i really do love fashion and my style is constantly changing

if you were plopped into a fictional world, which one would you know the layout of the best? i have no idea. acotar maybe? solely because i've read those books so many times? yeah i guess i'll go with that

what is your favourite piece of art? café terrace at night

do you have a water bottle? what does it look like? i have a light blue wide mouth nalgene water bottle that is covered in stickers and has two friendship bracelets dangling from the cap strap. it's giving major camp counselor vibes.

what fanfic trope is a quiet fave? look, if i go on a quiet hunt for fics tagged aftercare every now and then, that is between me and god so shut the fuck up about it

do you carry a daily bag? what does it look like? what's the weirdest thing in it? nope. i don't have an office bag bc i wfh and on the weekends i absolutely despise carrying a purse. i have one of those phone cases with card slots on the back and it holds everything i could possibly need.

if you had to ship Mickey with another Gallagher, who would it be? sexually i think it'd have to be lip, but if i could platonically ship him with someone i think i'd pick fiona. idk i just think they'd get along better than anyone would think.

what is a fanfic trope you didn't expect to like and then very much did? friends to lovers kinda snuck up on me in my adulthood. i used to be very against it as a teen, but now that i'm grown and have actually seen the trope done well in fics and in media, it's one of my favorite tropes of all time.

Do you think s11 Mickey can still carry s11 Ian? yes 100% absolutely and anyone who says otherwise is lying. (did we all see noel's s11 body? we saw the abs right? mans was ripped in the last season even tho the writers like, never showed it, and it is my personal mission to avenge this wrongdoing) i'm kidding about the lying part but yeah, he absolutely can still carry s11 ian, being able to lift his husband is the only reason he still goes to the gym

who got custody of the killing bat when they sold the house? debbie. i think carl wanted it, but he already has a gun so he gave it to debbie instead.

tagging: @suchagallabitch @gallawitchxx @callivich @michellemisfit @iansw0rld and anyone else who wants to play !

#weekly tag wednesday #q

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theonekierce · 1 year

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I posted 10 times in 2022

That's 3 more posts than 2021!

7 posts created (70%)

3 posts reblogged (30%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@theonekierce

@cauliflowermaterial

I tagged 9 of my posts in 2022

Only 10% of my posts had no tags

#ryan bergara - 2 posts

#unreality - 2 posts

#ghost files - 2 posts

#ghost files fanart - 2 posts

#goncharov - 2 posts

#witcher fanart - 2 posts

#twn - 2 posts

#sherlock holmes fanart - 1 post

#actually did this for a halloween art contest - 1 post

#but i made it to match the one i did a while back of shane in uhh one of the penitentiaries idr which - 1 post

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#i had. so many variants for this one i was this close to making a rainbow cycling gif just bc i liked literally every color i made the light

My Top Posts in 2022:

i’m a bit late here since we’re onto puppet history season now but i wanted to do a redraw of my first unsolved art from 2018 but with ghost files this time! love those ghoul boys!

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Putting this shot in Andrej’s point of view as he pulls his gun was such a bold move ngl

I wanted to include the shot before this with the pocketwatch too but it wasnt working out unfortunately so just one screen redraw :(

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my friend gave me jazza’s brush set and iv been watching granada holmes so what better way to test some brushes with screencaps from the blue carbuncle when holmes is swishing around in a dressing gown with his hair loose and being bitchy

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so yall know that one photo of keanu where hes just holding a clump of dandelions??

330 notes - Posted February 20, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

hello ik its been a minute now but nEW MCR????? in 2022?????

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Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #fkdfksd wow like i knew i didnt draw that much this yr but i RLY didnt draw that much this yr huh #for tumblr anyway bc i did a bunch of fashion illustrations for college i never posted #i could post them ig but idk wat audience thered b for that #lmk if yall wanna see em ig?

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autumnalfallingleaves · 2 years

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Did I like RotT? Hell no!! However, I think the kids deserved to at least look like they were actually 18 (with additional physical changes in Jim’s case. Still don’t like that he got turned back into a human but I’m focusing on RotT here.) Thus, redesigns. Notes on why I did what I did under the cut.

reblogs are highly appreciated, and please do not repost my art

Design notes:

Jim-

Made him slightly Trollish, to reflect that he went through that process and was actually affected by it, even after becoming human again. He’s wicked tall- a little less than a foot taller than he was originally, at the time of the first transformation.

This includes slightly-pointed ears that are able to move like a Troll’s, and enlarged, sharpened canine teeth. The lower are still larger than the top, and Jim retains a slight underbite, though this does not affect speech or eating.

Hair still flips up slightly in the back. He actually keeps it a bit longer than he used to bc he likes looking slightly like his adopted dad.

His pants are all a bit short at the cuffs. Hard to find pants that fit correctly when you’re as skinny as a beanpole and tall as fuck.

A hoodie and outer jacket bc he spends a lot of time underground. For that matter, he’s also wicked sensitive to the sun and burns really badly if he doesn’t cover up/use a lot of sunscreen all the time.

Has enhanced strength and senses a lá Hilda at the end of Hilda and the Mountain King.

Toby-

Still short, but has gained a lot of muscle in the past couple of years.

Has a part-time job, so has gained some spendable money to buy his own clothes instead of letting Nancy buy everything for him. Likes hoodies and cargo pants and shorts.

Hair gets in his eyes a lot, so he often steals Claire’s old hairclips. Likes the purple and blue ones most of all bc of his two best friends.

Always has his warhammer on him- never know when you’ll need it, when you’re a Trollhunter!

Has learned a bit of gravity magic, and often uses it in battle.

Claire-

Really leaned into her punk tendencies after really coming into her powers. The punk style really complements her shadowmancy, after all.

Uses a nonmagical, collapsable staff as an additional weapon. Having a physical weapon is a good complement to her magic, after all, and works well when magic doesn’t.

Her shadow magic has made it so that her eyes have a slight purple sheen all the time.

Has a bunch of piercings. Maybe even some tattoos.

Let her hair grow out some, but doesn’t pull it back. Idk I just like it being fluffy. She totally cuts it shorter when she’s older, though. Maybe a pixie cut or a sharp bob.

Leather jacket. Purple leather jacket.

#trollhunters #tales of arcadia #trollhunters rise of the titans #rise of the titans #jim lake jr #toby domzalski #claire nuñez #beans art #character design #still so salty over rott. im not letting that go.#I dont have as much interest in toa anymore but I still like the characters

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ruffboijuliaburnsides · 3 years

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I have a series of opinions that are all loosely connected that I want to express, bc sometimes people exasperate me.

1) if a popular person creates an OC - for art, for their DnD campaign, whatever - that highly resembles your own OC, this is not a bad thing, or worth getting annoyed by. If you make art of your OC might it get mistaken for this more popular OC? Maybe. Is it really that important to you that random people who you don’t know don’t mistake your art for being of a different but similar-looking character? If so, WHY? and if you don’t art but you have a character that looks like that, how in the world does this affect you? I have a blue tiefling named Kamaala who is bright and bubbly and upbeat and has a distinct Russian-esque accent. I first conceptualized her in 2017 or so, based on a World of Warcraft Draenei character I had. When Critical Role Campaign 2 came out and Jester existed and I started seeing fanart of her, I kept thinking “this looks like ‘Maala!” and you know what? I was kinda excited ‘cause now I had a bunch of art to use as a reference of “sort of like this, except X, Y, Z” if I ever got a commission of her.

2) relatedly: if you have drawn an art of a character, and someone uses that art as a reference to another artist for a different character, unless that person passes it off AS their character or the artist just straight up copies you, there’s nothing wrong with that. It’s why it’s called a REFERENCE, something that can be REFERRED TO for ease of design, especially for people who don’t yet HAVE art of their own character.

3) And speaking about ppl who don’t have art of their own character, there is nothing wrong with someone finding art online and using that art to represent their character for the purposes of a private DnD game. Why in the world would it be morally questionable I don’t even understand the logic there.

4) Someone adding a character or character ref tag for one of their OCs to a reblog of art of someone else’s OC on tumblr is fine too. It’s an OC, it’s not like people are going to be scouring the internet for that character and mistake your art for that character. And if you tag it properly on YOUR post, ppl can always find out who it actually is. How does that person spreading your art via reblog but tagging for themselves that this is similar to their OC enough to be a reference or something they want to be able to find related to that character later ACTUALLY affect you in any way? This also goes for ppl adding art that’s already on pinterest to a character ref pinboard or whatever.

IDK I just have seen enough stuff like DO NOT TAG AS AN OC or DO NOT USE THIS ART FOR A DND CAMPAIGN or w/e to just be… so ridiculous. I’m not saying you have to LIKE it when someone does that, but that’s like saying “listen to my song that I wrote! now DON’T sing that to yourself when it’s stuck in your head when you’re doing the dishes!” to me, like. They’re not claiming its theirs, they’re not reposting it to another website (note that on pinterest I did say “art that’s *already on* Pinterest”), they’re just saying “hey this is inspirational to me”, and that’s not a morally dubious or questionable thing.

Again, you don’t have to like it, if you’ve ever tried to say any of these things are Bad To Do, you don’t have to enjoy ppl doing them, but they are completely morally FINE whether you want them to be or not, and acting like they’re anything else just makes you look bad.

#i’m not thinking of anyone in particular rn for the record #i was talking to birdie about NFTs and the conversation somehow ended up on some artists being Like This #but yeah #i will tag art with my OCs when I want to be able to look at it again while thinking of them #i will use art of other characters as references for the ways they are similar to my own OCs if I commission #and if I use pinterest to make an inspo/mood folder #i will absolutely use art if it fits #if that art is already on pinterest #and i’m not taking any criticisms at this time #please know that i will not engage so don’t bother trying to start an argument or anything

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elijahs-wife · 3 years

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🌙 hi y'all! april is pretty much over—i'm a bit late this month but here is a list of all the incredible fics i read over the last month. i can vouch for each one of them, they are all incredible!

🌙 reminder: some of these stories are 18+, so if you are a minor, please don't interact with them! respecting boundaries is important. please also remember to show your support to your favorite fic writers and REBLOG their work! likes are great but reblogs are what keep us going and motivate us to write more stories! one click of a button truly means the world to us.

🌙 catch up with last month's reading list!

☁ the vampire diaries/the originals

↠ breakfast in bed by @theeoriginals

[lucien castle x reader, one shot, fluff] this was the first fic i've ever read for lucien and it actually made me not hate his guts lmao, so cute but still keeping with the essence of his character!! 💖

↠ tranquil by @seraphictrash

[elijah mikaelson x reader, one shot, angst] literally made me cry, was not expecting this fic to be what it was, it's horribly sad but beautiful and just written so, so well.

↠ take me by the heart, take me by the hand by @iliveiloveiwrite

[elijah mikaelson x reader, one shot, fluff] ahh i really loved this one!! i love a good soulmate au and millie delivered hard 😌 she never misses y'all

↠ emptiness of the heart by @imgoingtofreakoutnow

[elijah mikaelson x reader, one shot, angst] made me want to unalive myself. so sad. please just read, i cannot talk about this fic again.

↠ a life without you by @xxwritemeastoryxx

[eventual elijah mikaelson x reader, series] i am so incredibly excited for this series especially bc i've never seen this specific au done before for elijah? and ahhh dom's series always slap hard so i just know it's going to be awesome (while you're at it pls check out her extensive masterlist she is so talented!!)

↠ starved by @nikmikaelsonswife

[klaus mikaelson x reader, one shot, smut] sweet lord this was so, so sexy 🥵 klaus in rut— GIVE IT TO ME!!!!

↠ turn me or leave me by @malfoys-demigod

[elijah mikaelson x reader, one shot, angst] this one was :( made me so upset lmao, hit me right in the heart :(

↠ stefan helps you with a panic attack by @auroracalisto

[stefan salvatore, drabble] i had to include this on here bc reading it was such a comfort to me and i just wanted to share that with anyone who might need it 💕

↠ like i'm gonna lose you by @hellotvshowtrash

[elijah mikaelson x reader, one shot, angst] literally obliterated my heart pls 😭 so beautifully written and tragic.

↠ favorite city, favorite day by @malfoys-demigod

[elijah mikaelson x reader, one shot, fluff] absolutely adorable,

↠ gestures by @tweedlydumbtweedlydoo

[elijah mikaelson x reader, one shot, fluff] elijah is such a cutie in this one—pls read if you enjoy the 'two idiots in love' trope 😌

↠ kick ass by @biisexualemma

[kol mikaelson x reader, one shot, fluff (?)] SO CUTE I YELLED!!! kol is such a sweetheart (when he's not being a pain) and this fic just made me fall in love with him a little bit??

☁ marvel cinematic universe

↠ persephone's symphony by @dizzydancingdreamer

[bucky barnes x reader, series] whenever a new chapter comes out it is the highlight of my day. i love this series more than i can express, it is actually so good and masterfully written and i will keep shouting about this until y'all give it the attention it deserves. READ.

↠ it's messy inside, let me take your coat by @divine-mistake

[bucky barnes x reader, one shot, smut] this one took me on a flipping roller coaster of emotions, but the ending had me melting 🥺

↠ between metal and flesh by @thatweirdoleigh

[bucky barnes x reader, one shot, whump (?)] this hurts my heart but in the best way 🥺 very painful but also soft and sweet 💞

↠ the four times bucky tries to tell you he loves you and the one time he does by @hellotvshowtrash

[bucky barnes x reader, one shot, fluff] so fucking cute oh my god makes me yearn so hard for a shy nervous bucky 😭 one of your best works!! 💗

↠ career day by @alittlebitofwords

[bucky barnes x reader, one shot, fluff] one of the sweetest things i've ever read 😭 in this house we adore dad!bucky and ahhh this was just so adorable!!! 💓

↠ security deposit by @sventeen-daybreak

[bucky barnes x reader, one shot, smut] neighbour!bucky owns my ass, this was so good, loved their relationship and how organic it all was!! incredible 💗

↠ baby blues & tattoos by @angeli-marco-writes

[stephen strange x reader, one shot, smut] i have now re-read this fic 3 times and i am still not over it—your writing style is so good and your characterization of stephen is so spot on 💞

↠ spellbound by @boop-le-snoot

[stephen strange x reader, one shot, smut] have also read this around 3 times now and am still not over it (how starved of content are us stephen fans lmao) — immaculate smut and build up to the smut as well!! 💓

↠ my darling, what did you expect? by @tripleyeeet

[helmut zemo x reader, one shot, angst] makes me wanna unalive myself SFKHSH jk but no this just makes me want to punch zemo and also dom him (maybe both at the same time?)

↠ sam wilson nsfw alphabet by @divine-mistake

[sam wilson x reader, headcanon, smut] yes divine is on this list again. this is like the best sam smut i've read and it wasnt even like. in the form of a full fic. the power you hold, deadly.

↠ 'till death blooms us art by @divine-mistake

[sam wilson x reader, one shot, angst with a happy ending] yes it's this woman again shfshk i can't help that she's so talented. this is an actual masterpiece. so beautiful in its imagery and comparisons, an absolute must read!! 💗

☁ miscellaneous

↠ do what you please to me, i won't resist by @cloudystevie

[andy barber x reader, one shot, smut] literally my entire fantasy in one fic—this is so filthy but so GOOD yknow. jasmeen never misses with the daddy andy content 😌

↠ little red riding hood by @latenitewolves

[peter hale x reader, one shot, smut] one of the first fics i ever read on the hellsite—read it again and was just as amazed, it's still hot as fuck 🥴

↠ passenger seat by @thatslikely

[stiles stilinski x reader, one shot, fluff] so cute its actually insane, fast food and jeep dates with stiles is such a dream 🥺

and that's it for this month! thank you to everyone here for sharing your stories with us! the world is so much better with wonderful fanfiction authors like yourselves in it. always immensely grateful to all of you xx tay 💞

#elijahs-wife reading list #april reading list #again a huge thank you and i love you to all the writers here!!#and to the readers remember to reblog the fics you like!!#also it is very very clear which characters i am biased towards lmaoooo #pls let me know if any links are broken!!!

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pindl3 · 3 years

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Pinned post? Hehe

[I’ve abandoned this account but I have 40 thousand+ quality reblogs so if you’re interested in looking at dsmp/mcyt art from august 2022 and before, then this is the place for you. This writing in brackets is the only thing that I’ve changed from this pinned post, everything else has stayed the same. You can consider this account an ancient relic, so cherish it for me now that I can’t.]

Pssstttt- go through my #art tag theres lots of pretty art and it's all *chefs kiss*

Fic/au/writing tag: #fiction sponsored by pindl3

I wrote something? #pindl3 writes things

#look at lat3r self explanatory ;)

I tag my original posts with #rambl3s as of *checks date* today.

I hit post limit pretty often, so if you feel like following, maybe follow @pindl4 too bc that’s my 2nd main acc so I can continue reblogging even after I hit post limit (I rb mostly art on there)

I’m the flower person. I put flowers in peoples inboxes. If you become my mutual you better watch out, a high projectile plumeria may come face planting into your inbox if I deem you worthy

Uhh pronouns. You can use them all, you can call me a queen, king, bitch, bastard, even bitchard. Am I more feminine to you? Use feminine. More masculine? Bam, masculine. You really don’t want to assume or can’t tell? They/them works great, call me your highness

I’m in the US, but you wouldn’t be able to tell that bc my sleep schedule is so fucked I might as well live in the ocean (yes I unironically use y’all, shut)

I reblog and post a lot about the dsmp, but you may find me up at 4 am questioning the importance of sleep and creating Shakespeare esc poetry out of the blue

Should you feel awkward interacting with me? No you should feel scared. Veerryyy scared. Might give a flower to you if you interact too much, and you wouldn’t want that

Am I an asshole? I’m biased, so let me direct you to the people I send evil Dahlia’s to

You like flowers a bit too much, which ones your favorite? The Chicory, full stop, these lil beauties are so amazing-

How many of these questions have you actually been asked? None, this is tumblr no one actually cares

Music taste? It’s fucked up from all my steamers but it’s this

How would I get you to send flowers to my inbox? Well first you have to promise me your first born, and- just ask. Seriously just hmu in the good ol’ ask box, I’ll give u one or two dw abt it

Where did you come from- not sure, but when I ask my parents they say I was summoned through a sacrificial lamb, soooo

Why are you so sweet? HISSSS

Can I have a flower? Nope

#pinned post #will anyone read this? nah #I’m just bored #gonna start grabbing my flowers and aggressively throwing them at ppl soon #I’m glad they make ppl happy #flowers are cool

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hufflautia · 4 years

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Different Love Languages

✨COMMENTS+REBLOGS ARE GREATLY APPRECIATED✨ They motivate me and make me supes happy, so please pretty please reblog and/or comment!! It doesnt even have to be a coherent comment, keysmash if you must! ok fanks go read now and enjoy <3

Summary: Hufflepuff is the type of person to express her love verbally but Slytherin is different; he hardly says “I love you” and Hufflepuff worries that maybe it’s because he doesn’t love her as much as she loves him. Our darling puff will realize that this is simply not the case. People just have different love languages.

Hufflepuff loved Slytherin. She really did. In fact, she reminded him frequently.

“I love you,” she chortled during breakfast when Slytherin had cast a spell to make the bacon strips float around in a dancing manner so that she would cheer up after reading depressing news from the Daily Prophet. Another time, she cooed the term of endearment as he held her tightly in his arms, swaying to the sound of music in the background.

The thing was that Slytherin rarely said “I love you” in the entirety of their relationship. Instead of saying it back to her, he often replied by cupping her cheeks tenderly and leaning in for another kiss. Other times, he responded with a loving smile, his eyes glowing with warmth and infatuation.

It’s not that Hufflepuff thought Slytherin didn’t love her. She could definitely see it in the way that he looked at her, in those stolen glances when he thought she wasn’t looking. She could feel it when he held her close at night, his arms wrapped protectively around her.

However, a part of her- the small shadow of doubt within her heart that told her that Slytherin didn’t care for her as much as she did for him- just wished for some kind of affirmation, a clear signal that said, “I love you.”

One day, Hufflepuff and Slytherin sat side by side in Potions class, listening to Professor Slughorn drone on and on about Felix Felicis. She was absentmindedly staring at the board when Slytherin slid his notes in front of her so that she could see the doodle he drew on the side of his paper.

*Credit: Beastflaps*

Hufflepuff bit her lip to suppress a laugh and squeezed his hand 3 times.

Unfamiliar with the motion, Slytherin asked what the squeezes meant.

“It means I love you,” she whispered. Her voice was soft so that Professor Slughorn didn’t overhear their conversation.

Nevertheless, Slytherin heard every word. A smile tugged at his lips and he immediately squeezed it back. He didn’t just stop there; he repeated the gesture about 6 times- and Potions class hadn’t even ended yet.

From that day forward, Slytherin constantly told her I love you. Sometimes he squeezed her hand randomly- before he left for Quidditch practice, during breakfast when she passed him a plate of toast, and after he walked her back to the dormitory.

Aside from that, he would occasionally tap out the gesture with his finger.

Tap tap tap.

Hufflepuff looked up from her book and made eye contact with Slytherin from across the room. She knew what it meant. She always did.

Slytherin said I love you all the time now, more often than Hufflepuff’s verbal “I love you”.

She realized that he had a different love language from her, and that was ok. It was the love itself that mattered.

On their wedding day, as the officiant performed the ceremony, Hufflepuff looked up at Slytherin with adoration. “I love you,” she whispered.

He smiled warmly at her and squeezed her hand four times.

I love you too.

Based on a true story! If you can’t see the link that I attached, here it is:

https://www.reddit.com/r/Marriage/comments/ahb1c1/sometimes_i_forget_my_husband_has_a_different/

MASTERLIST ~(˘▾˘~) (click my profile to see the pinned post, aka my masterlist, if you cant see the link)

Author’s note: YAYAY HI!!! DID YOU LIKE THAT??

probably yall @ me rn lmaoaoao

You might be wondering why i wrote this one-shot. There was no special occasion this time, I just got a bonk of inspiration one day. also i felt bad for reblogging my ice skating oneshot so much (i did it to respond to other peoples reblogs) and i sent an ask to my favorite fanfic writer, asking her about what happens if i reblog my own work and if it pushes my fanfic up the algorithm, and she answered my question but also said that she usually deletes her reblogs bc her followers would probably get annoyed if they kept seeing the same work over and over again. i felt bad bc i had just done that, and i didnt want yall to constantly see the same fanfic all the time, so i wanted to give u something new. also i was thinking back on that person who said that my writing was sporadic (they werent trying to be mean). Sporadic basically means spaced out and occuring at different intervals. i felt bad bc my writing is definitely spread out by one month for some reason. im not sure what this means for next month bc i never write 2 fanfics in one month. does this mean that i wont write a fanfic for november? hopefully not. ok that sounds sad, im sure it doesnt but who knows bc the college process thingies is killing me

I wrote out the general details of the story at 1 am one night when i was trying to sleep lmaoao heres a screenshot:

This is basically how I write for most of my fanfics at first, it consists of the general info along with some specific details.

At first, the one-shot was gonna be a drabble (aka a story that’s only 100 words long) but when I finished writing it, I went to wordcounter to check the number of words and it was 500! i was like oop ok im just gonna call it a oneshot then. i wrote part of the story on sunday morning and then i went to exercise in the park with my sister. afterwards, i wanted to keep working on it but then i became swamped with college stuff so i stopped. i started writing again today (its monday, but im posting it on tuesday, aka today for you- or maybe not if ur not reading this on the day that i posted it) and i surprisingly finished- but that was probably a bad idea to be writing the oneshot during this week because i have a lot of exams, but lets look at the bright side, i finished the story!

I didn’t think of the idea completely on my own. I actually read the reddit story (found it in a thread on insta) a few years ago, and I don’t know why but I was thinking about it that night and I decided to make a one-shot out of it! Isn’t it such a sweet story (the actual story, not this)?? It would be kinda nice if I reached out to the person and said, hey i wrote a story based on you and ur husband!

Anyways, I just made a meme:

i didnt actually get up, i just opened the notes app on my phone in the dark and wrote the details down.

this isn’t related but i made a meme about the ice skating oneshot:

I’m gonna cut the authors note short (i usually write a lot. its funny when u go back and see my authors note in chapter 1 of the slytherpuff series, bc its so so short. wowza, times have rlly changed!) bc i think i have at least 2 exams tomorrow. this is gonna be me when i post this one-shot in the morning:

bc i have to wake up early and i am most definitely not a morning person:/ OH GOD OK I HAVE TO STUDY NOW-

Love you all, thank you for reading! TOODELOOOOOOO

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changebydjo · 3 years

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IMPORTANT - PLEASE READ

so i’ve put off writing this for a long, long time, and it’ll be painful for me to make this post but at this point i feel like it needs to be done. someone within the liz fandom has been lying, gaslighting and manipulating me as well as many others, both online and offline, and after getting proof on everything (plus their lack of remorse) has prompted me to write this.

this is about gil perez, aka @unrated-g, and one of his irl friends, kim @kimbus-the-whimbus, to a lesser extent, but mostly gil. since 2016 - nearly 5 years now - he’s been lying that he’s best friends with liz gillies. i’m gonna put a read more because it’s a long, insane, and ridiculous thing that happened, but please read all of it and know how serious this is, as well as all the damage this man has done.

i met gil through tumblr in 2018 - he had been replying my posts since before that, but early 2018 is when i followed him and started chatting with him casually. over time, i noticed that he would reblog posts about liz and in the tags he would seem to be talking to her or referencing her, but not by her name - instead he would call her “goblin”. he would mention things that “goblin” liked or behind the scenes on dynasty stuff, and after a few weeks of noticing this and chatting with him about dynasty/liz, i ended up asking him if he was friends with liz/knew her personally because of the way he spoke about her. he confirmed to me that he knew her, she was one of his best friends, and he “didn’t expect” anyone to pick up on it. he told me to keep it private and i agreed, obviously, because i had no reason to not trust him, and i know that liz values her privacy.

it’s important to note that liz does NOT follow him or any of his accounts from her verified twitter or instagram accounts - instead, he said she had an “extremely private” encrypted tumblr account that could only be seen by people she follows/white listed. he was one of them. her blog would not show up for anyone else, and they met through tumblr in 2016 (even though he said she followed him back in 2010 and he didn’t realize until 6 years later) through their mutual love for uncharted, and bonded over playing uncharted 4 multiplayer together. it’s also important to note that liz has had 2 tumblr accounts since 2010, both of which she has abandoned, and he said that her private tumblr is separate from those two. she also was friends with him (according to him) through PSN, where they would play ps4 games together, and all of his text convos with her are from that app:

(^ “liz’s” PSN account)

throughout all of 2018, we would text on a regular basis and started becoming good friends. he was extremely kind, always willing to be there for me, and listened to me about not only fandom stuff but also my irl problems. he also became friends with my friend group, who were also in the liz fandom, and it was really nice for a while. in october of 2018, gil said he went to HHN with liz and matt in LA, and for xmas of 2018, he said he spent it with liz - both in LA and in NJ, which is what she typically does to spend her holidays with her family and friends. her pale blue eyes cover was also for him, according to gil, because he asked for her to cover it specifically and she did just for him.

gil would also occasionally stream for friends, and sometimes liz would show up:

beginning of 2019 is when gil and i started getting much closer - we started playing games together (mostly mario kart, at the beginning) and talking through voice chat. he would talk about liz and personal things about her/her life or dynasty, and he always willingly supplied that information himself - i never asked for it, i wasn’t friends with him to get information on liz or have an “in” with her. chatting with him made me feel good and happy and important to him, and i realized i started having feelings for him - which i told him about in april 2019. he said he wasn’t sure exactly how he felt but he thought he might feel the same, the only really complicated part (besides the fact that this was long distance/not irl) was that he also had a really deep crush on liz, someone who was his best friend/ultimate celeb crush. he was really like in love with her, even though he said he tried to suppress it. anyways, after me admitting that to him, our friendship started to develop into something more. we weren’t ever in an official relationship, but things were definitely not strictly platonic with us. we went from chatting once every week or two to almost every single night for 3-6 hours per night for MONTHS. throughout that time, our relationship became sexual, too, and my feelings for him just continued to get deeper and deeper.

this continues throughout the rest of 2019, and then new years 2020, everything just...goes to shit asap. gil got really distant with me with no explanation, i felt like all the affection he was showing me and the kind things he would say to me, as well as our bonding time when we would chat together, was just ripped away unexpectedly. i constantly asked what was wrong and what was happening, and told him how i feel, and i got no real response besides just being tired/non-sociable, etc. (which, for the record, is completely understandable, but it was such a huge 180 in behavior that it worried me and things never went back to normal after that). in addition to that, kim (who was mentioned at the beginning of this post) is one of his best friends irl, as well as his on again/off again ex (according to him). anyways, there were posts that she had made that indicated to them not being exes and instead still together - or at the very least not platonic - which crushed me when i found out, because until that point i had no reason not to trust him. i told him about it though, and how it hurt me because my feelings were so deep for him at that point i felt that i loved him, and he told me they weren’t together. this isn’t really necessary for the liz stuff of this post, but it’s important for context for how hurt and on edge i was already feeling before things got worse.

we would still chat maybe a few times a week, but nothing like it used to be, and i was happy we would even chat at all, even though things felt so weird and different and off, and no matter what i did, i couldn’t fix it. as 2020 started going on, and this continued, his friendship with liz started making me feel extremely uncomfortable. knowing that he had the weird boundaries with his ex, plus whatever was going on with me and him, AND that he was in love with liz?? it was unsettling. i felt like i couldn’t compare, because it’s *liz gillies*, someone i obviously love and idolize and look up to. and she was up on a pedestal for him, even though he said that he never tried to treat liz differently than his other close friends just bc of who she was, but that wasn’t true. anything that she said or did, he agreed with 100%, and would defend it. when he and i would chat, and i would mention something about dynasty that bothered me, he would talk about what liz’s thoughts were on it and how she felt and that she was right to feel that way and it made me feel awful. this happened on multiple occasions throughout various topics, from dynasty to fandom stuff to liz’s friendships/relationships, etc. no matter what, to gil, liz was always right and he always had an explanation for anything that happened. the way he would describe liz and the thing he said about her made me see her in a completely different light - she was not the same liz that she presented herself as, at least in gil’s eyes.

he would always talk about how amazing liz was to him and how she did so much for him, such as buying him gifts, supporting his art, etc. this was hurtful to hear because i was doing the exact same things for him, as well as our group of friends: we had been buying his art (not only the art prints but the ACTUAL original copies), sending him gifts or money for gifts, supporting him and his art on social media, as well as just being a genuine friend to him. he never appreciated or thanked us the way that he thanked liz; none of us ever compared to her, even though we were doing the exact same thing for him that he said liz was doing, as well. it made me feel like no matter what i did, or how supportive i was, i was never enough.

we also had a discord with gil, that involved him, me, and my friends sarah, hope, amanda, and dom. within this discord, it’s worth noting that gil was the only man there, and would talk about liz and his friendship with her there, unprompted. we never asked for info, he volunteered everything willingly, and we all kind of glossed over it at the time because we weren’t friends with him for liz or any of that.

(the screenshot gil linked in the gc is what “liz’s” private encrypted blog looks like on his dash. please note the edit post button in the bottom right of the screenshot.)

another important thing about his friendship with liz/being in love with her: he has this specific kink (which i don’t want to say what it is for privacy reasons) and he said that liz was engaging in this kink herself, and that he was jealous of liz’s bf/wishes he could engage in it with liz, etc. i wasn’t into this kink before talking to him but because i had liked him so much at the time, and i was slightly jealous that he wanted it with liz, i thought that i could indulge in it for him. it was something that i was not physically or mentally prepared for/able to make happen, and it really caused an impact on me, and he just...didn’t care. at all.

anyways: this stuff continues, then around summer 2020, my friend sarah reached out to him. she (and my friends, along with me) were starting to distrust the things gil was saying about liz, since it went completely against what liz would say herself. she would say she only plays the sims 3 on her computer - he would say she was a huge gamer and played the sims 4 on ps4, along with minecraft, uncharted, the last of us, horizon zero dawn, etc. he would say that liz and maddison brown (her dynasty co-star) played ACNH with him and quickly got to 5 stars - liz said in a zach sang interview that she didn’t play animal crossing. every time something didn’t add up, his excuse was that liz was lying for her privacy. she didn’t follow gil on any verified social media accounts in case “people harassed him” over being friends with her. so sarah texted him that she needed to talk to him about the liz stuff, because there was evidence it wasn’t true, and he denied all of it. he firmly stuck to his story, and sarah gave him multiple chances over several days to come clean and he wouldn’t. she asked for simple pieces of proof that he could give her, and he wouldn’t besides fake screenshots of her “private blog”:

he told me afterwards that if it comes between his friendship with liz or sarah’s, he’s picking liz - end of story. his and sarah’s friendship was done after that because of his decision. he blamed sarah for “ruining” liz and maddison’s friendship because of her asking for proof, and made her out to be the bad one in that situation. he ended up deleting the discord gc after this happened, with all of his screenshots/”info” as liz as well (we got screenshots of things before he deleted it though, much more that’s shown in this post).

about a month later, my friend léa also confronted him about it. gil had told her some things about liz’s “reaction” to meeting léa in paris, and at the time, it had made the experience more special for her. once she realized it was all lies, though, it really hurt her - he altered that special experience for her and twisted it into something that wasn’t real. he had the same reaction to léa’s conversation as he did to sarah’s, and he refused to tell the truth. their friendship was done with after, as well, along with a few other people from the liz fandom. i was the only one who stayed friends with him after that, and that was because i was closest with him and still trying to see if i could fix things with him. i was still naively believing that he would treat me okay again, he would make me feel important instead of always a backup option, that he wanted me again.

but of course that never happened. he continued to ignore me, talk to me less and less, and would subtweet me on his private account. after he stopped being friends with sarah and léa and everyone blocked him except for me, i was the only follower on his private account, as well as being the only person he followed there. gil, though, kept saying that liz had a “private twitter” where she would talk to him on his private account. he also said that he had “merged twitter accounts” into one, which was his private, which messed up his account and wouldn’t show who he was replying to, quote rts, or that he was following them, which - if you have a twitter, you KNOW none of that can actually happen. but it was his excuse to constantly subtweet me and my friends for not believing him, to maintain his story, AND to have convos with “liz” on there that only i could see, where he made it sound like he was talking shit about me to her. it was extremely manipulative and served no purpose except to fuck with me, because he knew that i was the only one seeing those tweets and knew i was already struggling with not knowing what to believe. here’s some of them:

(you can very clearly see that i’m the only follower/following on that account, the number is at literally 1, and he STILL was acting like he was talking to someone else and that other people were following him.)

now comes jan. 2021!! WE GOT DEFINITE PROOF THAT IT WAS ALL LIES. from multiple people. one of liz’s close best friends (that gil included in his stories about her, saying that he met them) said that they don’t know who gil is, have never met him, and it’s best for us all to block him for our own safety. a co-worker of liz’s (who was, again, included in gil’s lies, that he hung out with them multiple times, played games with them online, and bought him gifts) said that not only had they never met gil, but EVERYTHING he said about them was untrue. they even listed the inaccuracies he would say about them, such as gil taking photos of them at things like the SWT, and they confirmed who actually took the photo. they said that “none of it is fucking true” and that gil is a narcissistic liar, and also encouraged us to block him for our own safety.

i confronted gil myself about this a few weeks ago, and he continued to maintain his story that everyone’s lying to protect his privacy - even though we know for sure that wasn’t the case. he FINALLY owned up to it to me only once he saw i had proof and he was caught, and his reason for doing it was “he was bored”. he said he was sorry but he wasn’t truly apologetic - he either didn’t fully realize the scope of how hurtful his lies and manipulations were, or he just didn’t care, but the bottom line is that he always chose his fantasy of liz over his actual friends. around this time, once he knew he was caught, he also deactivated his private account, but brought it back a week or so later, with all of the subtweets and tweets about liz being deleted. all of the unverified accounts that were supposed to be liz - the tumblr account, psn, twitch, etc. - were all fake and made by him, so he could make it seem more real.

even if he WAS telling the truth about being friends with liz, he still would have completely violated her privacy by the amount of “secret” things he told all of us - from her kinks/sex life, to work life, to very personal things that he claims happened to her. knowing it’s all fake though, and he made up an entire personality and life for liz that doesn’t exist??? it’s insane.

now the part with kim - she’s known gil irl for over 10 years, and has tweeted about liz all the time, about how “good” liz is to her because of gil, and that she’s the one who encouraged him to talk to her. she brags about it constantly, even though none of it is real. she also tweeted multiple times throughout 2018-2019 about how gil “finally deserves to meet liz in person”, even though gil said he met liz irl back in 2017 or so - AND that she came to texas, where he lives, to meet him and his friends. when asked about her tweets, he said that kim’s account was “messed up” and her tweets weren’t “tweeted at the right time”. one of my friends reached out to tell her and show her the proof of gil lying, because gil has been lying to her and other people irl too, and instead she mocked us, belittled us, and chose not to believe a group of women coming to her about a 30 year old (!!) man manipulating us. gil said that kim was “aware of it all being a lie for years now” to me, but i think that was another lie, that he’s STILL lying to her about it. if not, then that means that kim was also lying for many years about knowing liz too, and used it to make us all the butt of her joke, so. so much for her being an “empath” and wanting to help people but anyways!!

the last screenshot is of her subtweeting us and implying that everyone involved with liz is lying for her and gil’s privacy, even though we have proof that that simply isn’t true.

i’m sorry for how long this is, but i need people to understand how serious this is. he’s been lying for 5 YEARS now about knowing liz - about her “accidentally sending nudes” to him, that gil is one of her best friends and he would’ve been at her wedding, that she’s a huge gamer who plays with him - all of it. it’s all lies. he created a fantasy version of liz that doesn’t exist, and incorporated into his real life, his friendships both online and off, and made it his entire personality. he’s not sorry about what he’s done - as i’m writing this, he’s still on tumblr, talking in the tags to “liz” again, because he’d rather uphold his fantasy life where he’s best friends with liz when in reality, she has no idea he even exists. and if she did, i’m certain that she would be disgusted with what he’s done. he lied about her, oversexualized her, used his kinks on her which was brought onto me - someone he knew that was vulnerable and had feelings for him, manipulated people into trying to believe his lies, gaslit people to make them unable to tell what was true and what was fake, and had absolutely zero respect for any of us. he even listened to me cry to him on the phone MULTIPLE times about how insecure and worthless i felt to him compared to liz, and he didn’t do ANYTHING about it. he sat there and listened to me cry, knowing he could own up to his lie, and he chose not to. he’s not sorry about what he’s done, and he’s going to continue to spread his lies. please block him. i can’t express how much he’s hurt me, the therapy that i need to have because of him, how much he’s hurt my friends and how little he respects women in general tbh. he always tried to come off as “one of the good guys” but now i know he’s harmful and not to be trusted. he even tried to separate me from my friends, and make it seem like they’re the ones making this situation even harder for him. i’ve tried so, so many times to get through to him, waiting to see if he’d change or show some remorse or anything, but after over a year of this i don’t think he will, and it genuinely hurts me to know that. BLOCK HIM.

#important #signal boost #long post #liz gillies #elizabeth gillies #so liz fandom ppl can see

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thefirstknife · 3 years

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you have a personal vendetta against other blogs bc you keep tagging them asking why they're not talking about this or that issue. essentially, you're policing them about what they should or shouldn't post about. for the record, this isn't a jem defense ask, and you dismissing criticism about your behavior by saying "you sound like someone who only reads jem's blog" is incredibly disrespectful yikes.

I only ever tagged Jem, once. I replied once before to an already existing post, but that's about it. No clue which other blogs you're talking about as being tagged out of the blue by me.

I wondered about Jem in particular because she vagued about the drama and called everyone performative activists who are dogpiling an artist for woke points and I found that very strange because I've seen Jem telling people they're ableist and sexist if they're talking about a theory about Osiris.

No idea how to make this as clear as possible, but I'll give it a try, under the cut because long:

Jem said that certain fandom behaviour is ableist and sexist, which means that Jem understands that fandom behaviour about certain characters can be harmful. She posted about this, called people out as being sexist and ableist and also noted that if Bungie goes with that theory, she will support dogpiling the devs about being sexist and ableist.

Yesterday we discovered whitewashed art and pointed it out, but there's been an incredible amount of backlash saying we're all armchair activists posting for woke points by calling out whitewashing.

What's the difference? Why is Jem acting like her takes are legitimate activism, but other takes are just "hashtage woke"? Why is calling out whitewashing not a legitimate fandom issue to her?

Whitewashing is a legitimate issue in fandom and online spaces in general. It should be pointed out. It should also be noted that it can happen accidentally and that we should give the artist the benefit of the doubt to fix the mistake. Which I've done and I'm still willing to do.

You're absolutely only taking this from Jem's side and her post, which she thought I wouldn't be able to see due to me being blocked, but I can see it. Which is why I can tell that you're coming from her post.

This incident is documented here. As stated, Jem used a derogatory term. Jem was notified about using a derogatory term by another user, she DELETED their warning and made a separate post to apologise for using a derogatory term. I find that pretty hashtag woke (to use Jem's terminology) to appear better in other people's eyes instead of replying directly to the user who pointed a derogatory term out and apologising directly.

Pot calling the kettle black (instead I do actually apologise to people directly, I don't delete their replies to make myself look better). I'm glad she apologised for using the term, that's good no matter what and I respect it. I don't respect framing the apology in this way. I don't respect deleting a comment from the person who pointed the derogatory term out, ignoring that person and making a separate post without crediting someone who called you out.

It doesn't help that the same person is the one who pointed out whitewashing and has been getting transphobic attacks from the very people who are reblogging and supporting Jem's post. Basically, Jem evidently does not want to be called out on her mistakes and does not want to acknowledge them.

I also want to address the following:

Nice gatekeeping language with the "ever since you got here." It seems to me that before I got here, some people in the fandom were never challenged on their posts, or they were and they were promptly dogpiled and blocked. Since the incident I linked above, numerous people came out and said that Jem has been a menace in the Destiny community for a very long time.

I am so eager to find out which blogs I've been digging through looking for dirt and ripping out context. Because the only ones I've ever addressed are people are actively engaging in bigotry in the fandom. Bigotry that makes other people unwilling to engage with the fandom, talk and socialise. Bigotry is making the fandom space unsafe for a large amount of marginalised groups in our community. I will KEEP pointing out bigotry in the fandom. I don't even have to dig, because some people in the fandom keep their dirt on the surface, but if I have to dig to prove that there's bigoted ulterior motives, I will.

I want marginalised groups and minors to feel safe in the community. I want bigots to feel unsafe. Not the other way around. Call it performative all you want.

Already addressed this pile of crap. Jem swung here but ultimately missed by a mile. She gave it a try, but unfortunately she doesn't really understand these things very well, which isn't a surprise considering she picks which battles to take by throwing darts on a board and considering she doesn't care who supports her as long as it's support. Post where I explain mentioning anxiety and original post where I mention it. Please try to read through these on your own and engage critical thinking and then compare it to whatever the hell Jem has going on in this paragraph.

The only liar and truth-twister here is Jem. And according to other people in the community, it's nothing new.

Since people aren't clicking links: I got anon hate telling me to do real life activism instead of posting on my Destiny blog. I explained that this is a tumblr blog about Destiny so you can't tell whether or not I'm doing real life activism based on my tumblr blog. I jokingly added that due to having anxiety, I am capable of caring about multiple issues at once. I did not use it as an excuse in any capacity, but Jem has nothing else to attack me for so she had to scrap the bottom of the barrel to find something.

Please read something other than her horrid takes.

Another tragic miss from Jem, who has worse accuracy than me in Trials. I have so many friends to vent to and I've been venting to them this entire time. They're all sending their regards.

This is like a billionth time that I'm saying that I don't support anon hate and that I do not have physical control over other people's devices and tumblr blogs so I can't stop them from sending anon hate. I said it multiple times: don't send anon hate in my name.

I am not sure how Jem wants me to enforce this. But I also received anon hate and so have other people who participated in this discourse so, pot kettle.

Jem is heavily projecting her own reasons for causing drama and thinks that everyone does it for the same reasons as she does. Weird slip.

Anyway, you can tell Jem that I've seen it and that I say: Bye!

#ask #discourse

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Tagged by @kalutyka whom i adore - thank you very much, dear <3

1. why did you choose your url?

Laslus has been my username since I was like 8 and named my blue Uni Laslus bc I thought it was a cute name. Then it slowly became my username in every platform and now Las is my nickname with mutuals <3

2. any sideblogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.

Yeah! i have a study blog called @study-physics that i dont use half as much as i should. it motivates me to study and dear lord do i need motivation

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

This blog is 10 years old (so, 2011), but I previously had a harry potter blog that I created around 2009-2010 but deleted for some reason? i think maybe the kids from my middle school found about it? i cant remember sorry.

4. do you have a queue tag?

nope, i dont queue except for a few posts about specific dates. you get my insane posting schedule live :)

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

I was deep into harry potter and i wanted to find memes and art, but i was also depressed and quirky and in the early 2010s if you were quirky and depressed you came to tumblr

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

I love Loki from Loki Agent of Asgard/Young Avengers. its not that deep, sadly. When i was 16 i decided my icons would all be members of the Young Avenges (my pfp in Nyah! - a brazilian fanfic website is america chavez and my pfp at ao3 is also Loki but was Kate Bishop before) and i just never changed.

7. why did you choose your header?

I'm a scientist and sometimes i'm insane about it. I also love BDG

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

I actually ran my blog through this thing to find out. its this one about math, and its also the post im most proud of so :) this jatp shitpost is a close second tho

9. how many mutuals do you have?

I have no idea. i've been here for too long, sorry, but i have like 20-30 mutuals that i interact frequently with!

10. how many followers do you have?

2131 ! I gained a lot since I came back to the supernatural fandom (hi babes!!) but a bunch are deactivated/haven't posted in years (again, this blog is 10 years old)

11. how many people do you follow?

2518, but again a bunch are deactivated/haven't posted in years

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

yeah lmao

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

More than i should have, i check the app a lot. i would say I'm sorry for the constant influx of reblogs, but I'm not

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

I dont think so? I've been a master at avoiding discourse in this hellsite.

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

i dont reblog them. I think they are awful.

16. do you like tag games?

Yes!!! I love them so much!! pls tag me on them

17. do you like ask games?

Same, i adore them and if you send me an ask game I'll love you forever.

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

Oh, i dont know? in my head @ravingliberal and@previouslysaltyfandombrat are quite popular, maybe i just think they are cool. @driverpicksthemooseic is twitter famous, does that count? @realrollypratt is fandom famous but only in the small niche that is LWD fandom (i do think she is too cool to be my mutual tho)

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

I mean. yes. ofc i do.

20. tags?

ohh idk which one of you were already tagged but @queergoblin @fantastic-artemis @bygodstillam @the-sea-queen00 @previouslysaltyfandombrat @driverpicksthemooseic and @realrollypratt (but please feel free to answer it and tag me in it even if i didn't tag you, i love you, my memory just sucks)

#tag games #mutuals #honest kat thank you so much for tagging me <3

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stuckylibrary · 4 years

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Group Ask 180

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Please send us an ask stating which group ask and which person you are replying to. Thank you so much in advance!

cevansebb said:

hey there i’ve been looking for this specific fic where bucky calls steve on national holidays (because bucky have that kind of calendar) and it ends with bucky calls steve around christmas and finds out that steve spends his christmas alone, decided to finally meet steve face to face then. if you could find it that’d be awesome thank you!

bookishbrigitta said:

First of all, I love this blog! It's so well organized! I'm looking for a fic I read a while back and was wondering if you could help me find it. It's a Modern Day/No Powers AU where Bucky is a veteran who has tried to be hyper-masculine all his life to avoid being outed (the fic talks a lot about his struggle with "Don't Ask/Don't Tell" and I think he mentions playing football in high school). I think Steve has a kid? Or a dog? I seem to recall them going to a park together. Thank you!

greyhavensking sent in Hands of Clay by Mhalachai (complete | 425,452 | M)

voyageboots said:

Im trying to find a fic on ao3 where Bucky got a tumblr and mostly reblogged photos of borbs. It was stucky in the end.

Anon 1 said:

Hi! I’m looking for a fic I forgot to bookmark. It’s from the POV of the woman whose truck Steve stole in WS and Bucky shows up at her house because he knows Steve will be Steve and return it or smth and she freaks out bc the winter soldier is in her house but ends up being nice to him anyway because she just like doesn’t know what else to do. Help? And also thanks 🙏🏼

noneofusthesame, skarabrae-stone and drjezdzany sent in That Kind Of Day* by Neery (oneshot | 5,437 | G) *not Stucky!

Anon 2 said:

Hey! I’m trying to find a fic... what I remember from it is they’re training in the Avengers gym (turns into smut) and Natasha is there watching from a perch?? I read it a while ago and I can’t remember what it’s called or who the author is

buckycuddlebuddy, Anon, notanarrogantclotpole and noneofusthesame sent in I Spy With My Little Eye by musette22 (oneshot | 13,587 | E)

snowpaw1611 said:

Hi, could I please have help finding a fanfic? I can't remember much of it except that after hydra was taken down, they tried to kill Bucky by injecting him with a lot of insulin but steve and the others found him in time. Thank you!

possibleplatypus and Anon sent in Love Among the Ruins* by Carelica (complete | 58,772 |E) *rape/noncon

heatherflames said:

I'm looking for a fic where I think Peter says "Didn't you used to be Bucky Barnes?" and all the avengers are worried the Winter Soldier is about to kill him, since he's sensitive about the Bucky thing. However, he goes, "What? He's right, I did use to be Bucky Barnes." Or something like that, pleased that Peter is saying it in the past tense. Help?

Anon 3 said:

Hello! I'm looking for a fic that was modern and there was no powers. Steve is in the military with his group of Howling Commandos except they're just normal soldiers. They all talk about their partners back home and when they finally get home to the airport, they're suprisd to find out that Bucky is a man but they're still happy to meet him. Fingers crossed that you can find it for me 😊

noneofusthesame sent in Tell me about it* by FallOutStucky (complete | 8,349 | T) *chose not to warn

Anon 4 said:

This is such a small detail, but it's driving me up the wall- I'm looking for this fic where it's mutual pining and Steve confesses his love for Bucky and Bucky starts laughing because he had been tearing himself apart over confessing /his/ love to /steve/ and it all seems so silly in retrospect, but Steve doesn't know what's going on in Bucky's head, and so Steve's crying and he says 'please don't laugh at me'. Does anyone know this fic? Please and thank you!

whit15us said:

Hi, I'm looking for specific stucky fic. Unfortunately the only scene I can remember is that Bucky receives his metal arm from Tony basically as a test subject. The fic has a scene where Bucky gets into an argument with some guys at a bar. His metal hand gets stuck around a guy's throat and he wants to get the arm removed. Thanks

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Anon 5 said:

I'm looking for a fic that I remember distinctly because it had fairly extensive citations at the bottom, either to actual research or in-universe sources. It was pre-war, it talked a lot about the queerness of where Steve and Bucky grew up, but it's not by thingswithwings (who has an excellent post about the neighborhood). I found pugglemuggle's art fic which has them but it isn't that one either. I think it bridged pre-war and modern day and was heavy on the history. Thanks, super sorry about the double message.

whothefamianyway said:

Hey, i'm looking for this one fic that's about Steve and Bucky and the howling commandos and there's this very vivid description of steve after Bucky falls. Please help!!

Anon 6 said:

Hi! I’m looking for a fic, where Steve and Bucky are best friends who star in a tv show together. But in the show they play Chris and Sebastian. That’s all I can remember. Thank you so much!

Anon 7 said:

There's a fic i'm looking for where Steve was a cop and Bucky was a sex worker- sex workers all over were getting raped and killed, so Bucky was Steve's eyes on the street and they slowly get closer. Except Steve gets mad and stressed over the case and says something about wasting time saving whores, and Bucky says something like "if that's how you really see me, I guess I'm just gonna leave" and Bucky gets attacked? The bad guy was Rumlow, I think either currently or ex-police? thanks!!

Anon 8 said:

I remember reading a one shot where bucky is rescued from hydra and after a few months he has a really bad case of blue balls? it’s super angsty and there’s a lot of smut at the end, with steve relieving him of his blue balls and bucky coming many times

possibleplatypus and Anon sent in Deep-Six* by Claudia_flies (oneshot | 3,474 | E) *chose not to warn

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johnbroutledge · 3 years

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I started answering on the post but Tumblr ate it twice so here's hoping third time is the charm. Also, this turned into an essay, bc I really care for you and wanted to get it all in.

So, as to the drabble "flopping"; I feel you, it always hurts when that happens. But there's a few factors to consider, which is to say stuff outside of your control going on. The first being: Tumblr's not the best place for posting fic. It used to be pretty good, but those days are past; ironically the tagging system improving contributed to that. Before people had to reblog or like posts to find/be able to find later. Now they can actually search for it. The second is naturally that the nsfw ban scared a lot of writers off and people stopped feeling this place for fic so much (not to mention the rise of discourse also did that).

The next is simply, as ever, timing. I used to work in community management (long story) so I am a nerd that looks into the analytics and: https://miraculousfanworks.tumblr.com/post/627913410660663296/attract-those-readers-when-to-post-on-ao3#:~:text=How%20many%20stories%20were%20in,from%2012pm%20to%205pm%20PST. Despite it being an AO3 reason, I've found it holds true for Tumblr too, when I link my fic. Late in the day on humpday just means less traffic overall.

And finally, and this is the painful bit: it's a small fandom. Especially when you compare it to 911 which I think you likely are. I've been suffering from the same myself lately, I've posted what feels like some personal best fic............for teeny fandoms and niche pairings and ten people. Add to that that the show is both off season rn, and, the real kicker, is not a weekly airer. You've noticed how the weekly episode of 911 then has a corresponding uptick of making and consuming of fanworks. Simply put, there's new content so there's new material to work with and people are going "huh that was a cliffhanger, let's soothe it with fic". OBX is netflix and thus generally has a big burst of creation around it dropping then a longish tail and then little radio noise until then. The Witcher is a good comparison, but has two factors going for it: related media (books and video games) and big name stars. OBX is, basically, a lil kayak doing its best. But there's simply not as many people who consume fanwork for it.

Now love, and writing, is never wasted! Every word is a gift you give yourself and your skills. But I wanted to give you a sort of "cold logic" of why that reaction might be what it is, COMPLETELY separate from your actual work or the quality of it you may perceive.

Which was a very long winded way of saying: our reward based ape brains love the numbers. But the numbers come from lots of places. What matters, and what we can't quantify, is how much people loved it. The people creeping on your page and rereading it for the sixth time right now. The ones that messages it to friends. The ones that will think about it, out of the blue for ages. Maybe years. There's no counter for that. Keep creating <3

This might be the most helpful thing anyone could’ve said to me. It’s hard for me to not equate “success” or interaction to my self worth and my skill and I needed like logical factual reasons why it may not be doing well. I knew all along it’s a tiny fandom and I’ve seen with gifsets that interaction isn’t great rn even if you have 8634346323 followers, but idk, I just. I feel like a little kid bringing macaroni art to her mom and hoping she loves it. I was so proud of putting words on paper and like, was immediately like why is no one here to see it. And historically I’m awful to myself anyway, a thing thats exacerbated by like past trauma and shit so. And you’re right, I was kind of I guess thinking 911 numbers in my head and that’s not logical either.

I love this fandom and I haven’t been so inspired by a fandom in a long time so I’m gonna keep writing, if for no reason than I just want to. But I’d be lying if I told you the lack of interaction isn’t gonna be hard for me every single time too. Because that’s just how my shitty brain works I live with one finger on the self destruct button at all times.

Thank you so much for sending this, it really did help. Might fuck around and post the fic to ao3 or something 👀.

#nikki answers #meduseld #thank you thank you thank you #💗💗💗💗💗

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herotheshiro · 3 years

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alrighty i used to try to find posts to reblog with my review but now that tumblr has this new system of notifying the op with all the tags, i don’t want to spam someone with my hella long tags lol. so now i have to stick with this system of shitty-quality cover pic + my review in an original post for all reviews now lol

anyway. just read 3-chapter oneshot kokuhaku no jikan by tsubasa yamaguchi which is actually by the same mangaka of blue period fame. i had heard from my sibling that she had done a shounen ai but didn’t look it up so i was taken by surprise when i opened this newly uploaded manga to one of the sites i check; the art looked so familiar but there was no other works by them on the site and then i realized the art was familiar bc the art here is a rougher version of the pretty art you see posted across tumblr/twitter for blue period lol. anyway enough abt the art

rough summary of story: 2 high school boys’ paths cross one day bc of a relay race they both join. they become close romantically and they eventually decide they’re going to confess to each other to make it official (this is explicitly discussed bw the 2 of them). the day of this planned confession, one of them (urashima) gets into a non-fatal accident and the other guy (imada) confesses to him at his bedside. imada returns the next day and turns out urashima’s memory now resets every 24 hours post-accident -- so he remembers everything up until the accident but not afterwards. imada decides to confess to him every day to remind urashima they’re lovers but eventually this repetition with essentially no reward begins to take its toll...

i actually really liked this story tbh. i think it’s a very straight-forward story but also is complex at the same time (if that makes sense) -- it’s basically 2 guys trying to communicate but there’s an exterior issue causing their miscommunication. it’s such a standard story but this case is refreshing bc 1. the 24hr memory reset is believable. there are differences bw long-term and short-term memory retention and i’ve heard of illnesses/neuroses where ppl can’t retain memories irl so this whole thing isn’t entirely pulled out of the author’s ass and 2. the miscommunication issue is very much due to an external issue and not them jumping through fucking mental hoops to convince themselves to not see the situation accurately. i did read through the story pretty quick so tbh i didn’t really absorb too much abt how the author presented their conflict, but i think the obstacles that get in their way and the way these two high-schoolers respond to those obstacles are very believable.

the story also progresses well too: beginning with them in their own little world and then eventually outside forces along with time question their relationship which then makes them question themselves. i don’t think anything got elongated uncomfortably and it follows the standard story conflict progression (initial problem presented, things pile up until conflict comes to a head, conflict then solution, then coast to the ending) with each event/plot point transitioning well into each other. the ending of them proposing to each other isn’t anything new, a standard dramatic romantic end -- dramatic bc like uh you’re high schoolers, how can you possibly dedicate your lives to one another already but i mean they’re going through this whole situation with one of them literally having a memory loop and yet still love each other at the end -- imada has already proven himself to be willing to dedicate himself to urashima regardless of what happens so.

anyway it’s technically kind of a sad story since in the end, urashima prob won’t be able to really retain memories past 24hr well into the future, but it was still good bc urashima does still have the memories of their burgeoning relationship and they’re together in the end with the ring reminder for him daily. i think it would’ve been REAL emo if they made it so that urashima didn’t have memories of their burgeoning relationship so imada had to help him fall in love with him over and over, but i think them having that initial foundation made the story believable/more straightforward and the ending hopeful rather than bittersweet.

tl;dr is that the story was well-done, nice and simple but also complex enough to not be boring. i don’t think the premise is that unique, like i’ve read stories of ppl forgetting their lovers and so the lover has to work to be with them again, but this story did that premise very well and in a believable way without having to really get into under-developed details. the author is good with expressing emotions through body language/facial expressions too. it’s a cute story that provides both conflict and sweet stuff with a happy ending.

side note but i’ve been wanting to read blue period for a while, and this honestly has incentivized me to actually go and pick it up. this work is obviously one of the author’s early works if the art wasn’t obvious enough, and surely she’s polished up her writing and art skills in the time since so i can see why ppl would be into blue period past its messages about the struggles of doing and pursuing art. i’m looking forward to it!

#reading #kokuhaku no jikan #this review is not that polished so i hope tagging the title doesn't net me that much attention if any #i'm purposely not tagging the author bc i'm sure her tag is followed for blue period stuff #idk why this review was so hard to write #i mean it has been a while since i've done a review and i didn't really have much to say abt this story bc i read through it p fast #it didn't really trigger me emotionally tbh bc it wasn't super sad but it was done well

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