#realy wanted to talk to her but felt too embarassed to

[rescuerabbit]

went to this indie theater near me last night and there was this really cute trans girl there…. we were both looking at eachother and i really wish i talked to her or got her number ashsjcjdjf

#hopping around #i hope i see her again #it was for this really cool animemovie double feature #realy wanted to talk to her but felt too embarassed to

[dalaeni-fanservice]

Valentine Sweets! ~Alistair/Scholar and little Tadashi/Scholar

Hello! This is my first time writing for Sweet Elite so if someone read this, please be good with the reviews! This story is about my favorite of the main 10, hope you enjoy. Also, I know that valentine is long gone but I’m suffering from hiatus and loneliness caused by quarantine so I’ll write my idea.

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It was Valentines Day! One of your favorite days of the year finally arrived. Back home you always made gifts for people you loved and baked goodies with your father. Now that you had made some friends along the Arlington Academy you thought it was a good idea to present them some homemade sweets. You had to ask the Academy Kitchen a week before so you could have time to make for all your friends but it as all worth it. 

You made your way to the school entrance but before you entered you looked to your left “Hm, maybe I’ll find Al or Rachel at the Gym before classes. I should totally check it out” you thought. Turning back, you saw Alistair working on his legs when  you entered the Gym “Oof, totally worth it” you said to yourself as he noticed you at the door.  He finished his work out and came your way to greet you.

“Hey Scholar! How’s this Friday been treating you?” He said rolling out his sleeves. “Is good so far but I can’t wait for the weekend so I can sleep two days straight” “My thoughts exactly!” Alistair laughed of your answer making you blush, you could never have enough of him. “What are you doing here anyway?” He asked “What? Can’t come to the gym to greet a friend?” you asked and was Alistair time to blush. He scratched the back of his head and replied “Don’t get me wrong, I just didn’t picture you interested in morning exercise” “I’m totally in for watching” you though but shaked your head to drive these thoughts away “You’re right, I’m not. I just came here to give you this” You said and pulled a bag out of your purse. Alistair gave you a skeptical look and you continued “Happy valentines day! I know you are the athletic type, but I hope you like homemade sweets”. Alistair was chocked, thinking this was your way to confess to him “Scholar! Thank you I.. I didn’t even thought of anything..” He tried to think of a explanation while his cheeks became hot but you interrupted him “S’ok, I’m more a giver than a receiver. Hope you like it but I gotta go, see you in class” and with that you vanished, leaving a blushed Alistair behind. It wasn’t obvious for you that he had feelings for you and he didn’t think of confessing until now, that he think his feelings are being corresponded.

Apart of the confessions from random students, Alistair spend the rest of the day searching for you between classes but it was a waste. He didn’t know that you were spending your free time giving out candys to your friends. “Now I just need to find Karolina and Neha. I hope Karol is not an asshole to refuse my sweets” you thought to yourself as you were making your way to the class. You heard someone shout your name and turned to see a panting Alistair “Al! What happened?” “Scholar can we talk?” he asked as he recovered his breath. “Sorry Alistair, I really need to atend this class. Another time ok?” you said blushing as you entered the room. Seeing it was no use to argue he decided to make his way to his class, bumping to Tadashi at his way. “Oh..sorry..” Alistair said with a tone that his friend wasn’t used in him “Why are you pouting? I thought valentines day was a tiring day for you, not sad” he commented but Alistair didn’t laugh “I’ve been trying to talk with Scholar the whole day and now that I found her she just brushed me off... I don’t get why give me a candy if she didn’t let me...” before he could finish Tadashi pulled of of his backpack a similar bag you gave him earlier that day “You meant this sweet?” Tadashi asked as Alistair eyes widened “Did you get one too?” he asked without understanding why you would confess to both of them. “Yes. At first I thought it was a confession and it was realy embarrassing..” Tadashi explained with a light blush “I tried to deny her confession without being rude and she just laughed at me. She explained that back to her hometown she had the tradition of cooking with her dad and give away homemade sweets for her friends”. When he finished talking Alistair felt dumb. She wasn’t corresponding his feelings, she was just being nice. “I understood everything wrong!” Alistair said as they entered the class. “What happened?” Raquel asked when she saw his state “Alistair thought Scholar liked him back because of the valentines present” Tadashi said and Alistair groaned as they chuckled at him “That’s so cute! I think that if she gave it to me alone I was going to think the same, but I was with Axel at the time” Raquel commented. “Now I’ll have to make up something when Scholar comes to talk to me after class” Alsitair said and Raquel slapped his head “What was that for?” “Sorry, I couldn't hear you with your head stuck all up in your ass!” She said and Alistair gave her a angry look “What she is trying to say is maybe you should use this opportunity to finally confess to her” “I don’t want to be rejected at valentines day but thank you very much” “You’ll never know if she’ll reject you. I mean she is always blushing around you, maybe you’re wrong” Raquel tried to convince him along with Tadashi but it stopped when the teacher came in the class.

After the class finished, instead of going to talk with you, Alistair decided to go to his dorm and figure out what to say to you. After some time he heard a knock at the door, but decided to let Tadashi answer for being a nuisance at class today. “Hey Scholar” he heard as Tadashi and you made small talk. “Did you liked my baking?” “It was sufficient” “Well I’ll take that as compliment Mr President” you said and laughed along with Tadashi, making Alistair feel anxious, thinking that maybe you didn’t show up to talk with him and maybe even forgotten. “Did you really came to my room just to ask if I liked your food?” “Actually I’m looking for Al, he said he wanted to talk to me but just vanished...is him here?” Alistair didn’t heard Tadashi’s voice but he new that he was grinning. “Alistair, Scholar came all her way here just to talk with you instead of spend her time studying, could you pleas..” before you could contest him Alistair surged from behind him and pushed him inside the room, closing the door behind him. “Sorry for this, usually he is more direct” “dont worry I’m used to his moods” you said and he agreed “S-so, y-you said you needed t-to talk” you said fiddling your fingers and averting his eyes. Alistair realised and didn’t understand the change. “I-I just wanted to tell you that I r-really liked your b-baking! Y-you should totally teach me o-one day” Alistar said stammering and you looked up. He was blushing what made you blush harder. “C-cool! I-I mean, I’m glad you liked! Di-did you read the letter too?” You asked and he didn’t understand. Tadashi didn’t mentioned a letter. “W-what letter?” “You didn’t saw it?” you asked but when you looked at his eyes you realized he was lying. “You didn’t even ate my candy right?” when you said that he looked like he just got caught. You huffed embarassed that he would do this to you and you just turned to make your way to your room “Scholar wait!” Alistair shouted but you closed the door with a slam, falling into tears as you realised he didn’t even liked your confession. You made the sweets for everyone but his was different, because it had a letter confessing your feelings for him. It broke your heart that he neihter had the interest of opening the bag! As you were suffering at your room, Alistair made his way to his bed, where his backback was located and shuffled inside looking for your gift. When he found it he opened to find a small baked cake and a letter. As he opened and read the letter quickly Tadashi stared at him without understanding “Did she rejected you so fast?” Tadashi asked but Al didn’t care about his teasing “She tried to confess to me! I was right!!” “Oh who would’ve thought? Not me” Tadashi rolled his eyes and went back to studying. Alistair realised that he need to go talk to you if he wanted to make things right.

Alistair runned out of his room to your door and banged at it anxious. He heard your soft voice say “go away” and his heart stinged, “please Scholar let me in, you got it all wrong” as you ignored him he kept knocking at your door, each time more stronger than the other. You decided that you didn’t want him to break your door and with his muscles he problably could so you opened with a sigh “If I talk to you will you stop destroying school property?” “Yes” he said and make his way inside your room. He looked around as he took that this was the first time at your room. “Well?” you ask and he sit at your bed, signaling you to do the same. As you did he begin “Listen when you gave me the gift this morning I thought you were confessing to me and I was embarrassed because I didn’t thought of nothing to give you in return” when you tried to answer he raised his hand to stop you “I spent the day looking for you at the school but I just couldn’t find you anywhere so when I did you brush me off and I felt really bad. As I was sulking I met Tadashi and he told me you were giving gifts for every one of your friends and I felt really heartbroken because I interpreted as you were corresponding to my feelings” as he said that your hear missed a beat, “I was ashamed that I tried to confess back to you when you really was just trying to be kind so with all of this in my head I didn’t even had the time to open your gift and I’m sorry for this. I like you Scholar, I really do it’s jsut that we got into a big snowball” when he said that you chuckled and put your hand above his tigh. Automatically, he he put his hand above yours making both of you blush “After I ran from your room did you ate the sweet and read the letter?” you asked. “I did read the letter but I wanted that you saw my reaction as ate your cooking” Alistair said pulling the food out of his pocket with the other hand. “God no, what if you think is bad” “it can’t be like that...” he replied and bit the candy, stopping talking and widening his eyes “Is it that bad? Al say something!” you say desesperated and he laugh at your reaction, earning a push from you “You dick!” you said laughing back as he finished the baked goodie. “Is really good Scholar, wanna try it?” he said with his mouth full and with a bit of filling staining your lip “How can you offer me that after eating all up?” You asked and he just swalloed hard and aproached his face to kiss you. The filling was of strawberry and you didn’t thought the was going to be so tender. When you parted you smiled and hugged him, making both of you fall into your bed. He blushed and you laughed at his dork reaction “Hm I’m not sure if I taste enough of the filling, care to try again?” and with that you guys keep kissing until it was too late for him to be at your room. As he went to his room he told you that after morning practice he would come wake you up so you could enjoy another make out section, blushing, you just agreed and closed the door, relieved that by the end everything work out.

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And that’s it! I hope you liked because I had this idea long ago and was just trying to grow the balls to post it. I also posted at my AO3 account if someone is interested https://archiveofourown.org/users/Morena_616

#Sweet Elite #se #se alistair #se tadashi #se raquel #se tegan #se tyler #se ellie #se claire #se karolina #se neha #se axel #main 10

[acupfullofcolors]

You talk too much - or: how to shut people up

Pairing: Bakugou Katsuki x Midoriya Izuku Fandom: Boku no Hero academia Tags: boys kissing / Katsuki has a bad day / don’t mess with grumpy Katsuki / Izuku doesn’t know what’s happening right now / silencing / shutting people up / headaches are a bitch / everyone is shocked Summary : Katsuki wakes up to one bitch of a headache and only wants to sleep but his classmates are just a bunch of idiots with Deku as their king. Time to shut that ever talking nerd up! 

It was one of those days where Katsuki knew that this day will be going to be one hell of a day as soon as he woke up. His head hurt and he felt like he was run over by a big truck and his patience was already running low due to the circumstance that he was late for class. Goddamit! He was never late for class! He dressed himself in a hurry and made his way to his classroom with long strides. He was not realy running but it was close enough. There was no way in hell that he missed the start of the first lesson. Not because he was very eager for Midnight Sensei but more because he had a reputation to hold up and there was no way that he would be late.

Arriving at the classroom with a few minutes to spare it was already buzzing with too much energy. Studenst were huddled together in small groups and talked in too loud and too excited voices about the upcoming school festival.Every damn person in this room was just too damn cheerful and Katsuki could feel his headache worsen by every passing minute he had to be in this hellhole any longer so he laid his head onto his desk and tried to grab a few minutes of extra sleep before class started.

He just wanted to have a few minutes to himself but he had no such luck. Kirishima appeared at his desk with his ever so cheerful attitude and talked about all those manly things he came up with for their perfomance and how excited he was for this and how proud since everyone tried their absolute best to make the show a big success. Katsuki knew that the redhead would wave his hands around in that stupid manner he always did when he got excited. The blond lifted his head up a bit too look the other straight into the eyes, sending him a heated glare and a low growl. Was it too much to ask to be left alone?

Kirishima not sensing the upcoming disaster was still going on about god knows what and Katsuki was about to explode his sorry ass but was interrupted by an all too familiar voice.

“Ah.hh.. Good morning Kacchan!” Izuku sent him a blinding smile but soon deflated a bit when he noticed Katsuki’s furrowed brows and deep scowl. 

“Morning Midoriya-kun! Had a nice evening yesterday? Don’t worry about Mr. Grumpy pants here. He’s in a foul mood but I am sure I can lift his spirits!” Kirishima’s voice was loud and cheerful as he clapped a strong hand on the blonds back which resulted in even more grumbling and growling. Izuku cocked his head to the side and studied Katsuki for a moment before he turned to Krishima. “Ahh Kirishima-kun good morning! I think it would be better to leave Kacchan alone for now. He’s very hostile when he’s having a headache and I don’t thnk your cheering up will work.... To tell you the truth I think it will only result in a visit to Recovery Girl for you, so....” He sheepishly scratched his cheek while sending an unsure smile to the redhead. Kirishima looked confused for a moment but it was soon replaced by a wide grin. “Ah right! You’re childhood friends right Midoriya-kun? So you know this grumpy dude better then we do,right? Wow, I am not sure if I want him to explodo-kill my ass into the next century to tell you the truth so thanks for warning me. I owe you!” And with that he backed away and made his way over to his own seat.

Katsuki released a sigh and wished for the day to finally end, although it was only the beginning.

The day went on with no relief for Katsuki’s drumming headache. At the beginning of lunchbreak he went over to Recovery Girl to get something for his pain but it was just his luck that she wasn’t in her office and he had to leave. 

He slowly made his way to the cafeteria and caught Izuku and Kirishima in the entry way, engrossed in whatever shit topic they were talking about. Deku had this stupid grin plastered on his face while he talked to the redhead. Since he and Kirishima went onto that mission to rescue that brat they were a lot closer then before and Katsuki was kinda pissed. Not because he was jealous or something, no. He was pissed because that meant he had to endure more of Izuku’s mindless ramblings since Kirishima seemed to enjoy his company so much that they even sometimes sat with each other during lunch. Katsuki normally ignored them both but with his headache today his patience was very thin. He send them both a threatening look and grabbed himself some lunch. 

When he came back to his usual table Kirishima and Izuku were already seated. Still engrossed in their conversation and the green haired nerd was gesticulating widly while there was a flood of word vomit coming out of his big mouth. He jumped from topic to topic at an alarming speed that made Katsuki’s head spinning and left him dizzy. He tried to ease the pain by rubbing his temples and he even tried to tune them out like they normally did but it seemed that today it didn’t work and there was no way he could escape this hell.

With a sudden burst of anger the blond screamed profanities at the freckled nerd. “Goddamit Deku! Can’t you shut your trap for a while!? My head is killing me right now and your stupid blabbering is not helping in any way so you better shut up or I’ll make you, got that? I don’t wanna hear just one word from you until the end of lunch or I swear to god, I’ll end you!” His face was an angry shade of red and his shoulders were shaking from his outburst.

Izuku stared wide eyed at him and slowly nodded. “Oh..okay. I am sorry Kacchan I will stay quiet now...” Katsuki’s eye twitched and Izuku turned pale.  “DEKU I told you to SHUT UP! I warn you!” His fist were balled and his knuckles started to turn white. The green eyed boy let his gaze wander and watched in horror as he saw those clenched fist starting to slowly emit smoke. He gulped.  “Ah s...sorry Kacchan,I ...”

Before he could say any more Katsuki lost it. He jumped over the table and took hold of the smaller teens collar and pulled him closer to his face. His face was dangerously close to the pale face of his childhood friend and his eyes were a smoldering red, burning a hole in the other boy’s face. Instead of keeping his mouth shut Izuku started mumbling and Katsuki could see Kirishima’s horrified face out of the corner of his eyes, ready to jump between them. 

Katsuki could feel his headache worsen and felt like he would explode any given minute Izuku’s rambling was all he could hear and without thinking he leaned forward and gave Izuku a bruising but short kiss. 

It was just short and as fast as it had happened it was already over. 

Katsuki angrily stared Izuku down, his collar still tightly gripped. Emerald eyes were wide and confused looking up to him. The blond narrowed his eyes and waited for a moment only to make sure that Izuku had stopped talking which he did and he loosened his grip on the smaller boy’s dress shirt proud that said boy was now silent. He looked shocked and if his now overly blushing was any clue he was embarassed and too out of this to ever speak again in the near future.

Satisfied with himself the explosive hero in training put some distance between them but didn’t let the smaller teen out of his gaze. “I warned you Deku but you wouldn’t listen! Next time I’ll kill you for real!” He collected his tray and stalked out of the cafeteria. Leaving a very red faced Deku and confused classmates behind.

God it was time that he took a nap!

#katsudeku #bakudeku #bakudeku fanfic #bnha fanfiction #tumblr fanfic #bnha #my hero academia #katsuki bakugou #midoriya izuku #katsuki x izuku #izuku x katsuki #i love queue deku #silencing #you talk too much #Katsuki is too tired for this shit #cinnamon bun Izuku #writers on tumblr

[suckerforhobi]

Aeviternal Pt.06

Aeviternal: eternal, endless, never-ending

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Warnings: LOTS OF SWEARING, SEXUAL CONTENT

Inspired by this amazing video.

Pt.01  Pt.02  Pt.03  Pt.04  Pt.05

No one’s POV

Jungkook enjoyed watching the suffering of his enemies, he was satisfied when they lost themselves and begged on their knees in their vulnerable state.

“Please. Please, I’m begging you.” The tied man shouted as Yoongi cut deeper in his arm. Yoongi besides being an amazing hacker, he was one of the most skilled torturer among the boys. He was cold-blooded which was one of, if not the best trait in the ganghood. But he wasn’t the only one who tried to gain information from that hostage- Jimin had already beat him up badly, he coughed and spit  blood on Jimin’s face so Jungkook decided to break him with Yoongi. That was a smart decision.

Jungkook was sitting on his leather armchair, his right leg on his lap, holding a cup of wine. He smirked at Yoongi who just nodded and continued.

“STOP! I HAVE A FAMILY MY DAUGHTER IS WAITING FOR ME!” 

“We know you, Song Daeyun. You are a real bachelor, you don’t have any wife or kid.” Jungkook laughed bitterly and took another sip of the wine.

Yoongi chuckled. “You are really pathetic.”

“I will tell you everything, just… aghhhh… STOP!” Daeyun shouted as Yoongi reached into his deep cut with his hand.

“We are curious, so please tell us something interesting.” Jungkook told the man whose hands were tied behind his back. His eyes searched for Jungkook’s. Jungkook’s eyes were cold, they didn’t hold any emotion. Of couse, he didn’t feel sorry for anyone except for the 6 boys and…he thought of his childhood friend, Y/N for a seconds. He had to cast her out of his head - now he was face to face with the man who was possibly behind the assault of Namjoon.

“Fine. Fine. My boss ordered me to do it.” He said breathlessly.

“Who is your boss?” Yoongi asked irritatedly.

“Jaebum.”

Jungkook was in rage and smashed the unique porcelain vases he ordered from Hungary for his mother years back which were quite expensive.

“Jungkook.” Hoseok called his brother’s name. He was frowning, he didn’t like when his baby brother let out all his anger. He was worried about Jungkook getting injured. Despite of telling him everytime to control his temper, he had never stopped doing those.

“That fucker must die.” Jungkook growled. “He thinks he can fuck with us. He should  have learned his place by now.

“Jungkook, you won’t solve anything with destroying every precious memory of our mom.”

His hyung’s word affected him, and he buried his head in his hands.

“I’m afraid I will lose someone around me.” Jungkook admitted.”I would feel even more guilty than I do now.” 

“You won’t…”

“How do you know that? Are you a goddamn fortuneteller?” He snapped unfairly at his older brother. Hoseok knew he Jungkook there was no use to argue with him.

“No, I’m not but pessimism harms your health seriously.” He said and left his baby brother alone, collecting the broken pieces of the porcelaine vases.

Y/N was extremely tired lately. She almost fell asleep multiple times during the classes lectures, she had to borrow her friends’ notes because she could hardly concentrate. Her mind was occupied with the one and only Jungkook and his life. She felt sorry for him, she couldn’t have expressed how much she wanted to comfort him by words. She knew - it would have been the smartest choice if she had rejected that offer. However, deep inside she was more than happy to see that boy who once invaded her house everyday after school, who saved her from the bullies and who taught her that she was a precious one.

After Jungkook left Busan with his brother and his mom, Y/N realized she had had a huge crush on the boy next door. She had spent days crying her heart out, she just hoped she would see him again. But Jungkook didn’t have any relative to visit in Busan. He never came back to her disappointment.

When she saw him again, she once again felt a swarm of butterflies in her stomach. As much as she tried to ignore it, she couldn’t.

“Y/N!” Her roommate and friend Seol shook her shoulder gently.

“Uhm… sorry.” Y/N smiled in her embarassment.

“What’s wrong?”

“Nothing, I’m just tired.”

“Don’t tell me…”

“Don’t tell you what?”

“YOU ARE IN LOVE, AREN’T YOU?” Seol asked loudly. Seol had always wanted Y/N to pick someone up. Y/N didn’t really do anything in her free time besides studying and being alone  in her room in their shared flat.

“No, I’m not. I would have told you.” Y/N rolled her eyes.

“I don’t why are you so interested but my love life is still a big zero at the moment.”

“Oh come on, Y/N.” Seol elbowed her. “I heard a guy’s voice when you were talking on phone.”

“He’s a good friend of mine.” 

“Friends with benefits?”

“Nope.”

Seol laughed and seeing her friend’s angry facial expression she put her hand on hers.

“I was kidding. But is he hot?”

“Yes, he is.”

“See? You blushed, well he must be realy important to you then.”

“He’s my childhood best friend, former neighbour and classmate.”

“So, he’s Jungkook, right?”Seol winked at Y/N, who almost choked on the water she was drinking.

“How do you know that?”

“Well I haven’t told you yet, yesterday when you went to have a coffee with Kaya, that guy asked if you were at home, I had to make him sad.”

That surprised you completely.

“Was he here?”

“Yes, he was sitting in front of the flat, I asked you if I could help him and then he told what he wanted. He wanted to give you money, I didn’t understand it though.”

‘Oh really, the payment.’ 

“I don’t understand it, either.” Y/N lied effortlessly. She did not remember she was working for him a bit.

“He seemed like a nice guy. If you don’t want him, maybe you can set up a date with him.”

Y/N unconciously scoffed causing Seol’s grin bigger. Seol read people’s emotions very well, Y/N couldn’t hide her feelings.

“Now, Juliet, I hope you and Romeo get together.” Seol laughed and before she could answer, Y/N’s telephone started to ring. Who called her? Jungkook. “Wow, it reminds me of saying Bloody Mary to the mirror. I bet if you say ‘Jungkook Jungkook Jungkook’ he will appear behind you and kiss you passionately. Now all I had to do is chanting kpop star’s names.”

Seol ran to the bathroom and Y/N could hear her saying ‘G-Dragon’ three times. She really loved her adorably stupid friend. Jungkook kept calling her, so she answered the call.

“Y/N.” Jungkook said softly and her heart started beating too fast.

“Hello, how can I help you?”

“I want to give your well deserved money. Are you home alone?”

“No, Seol is here.”

“I will pick you up in a minute, actually I’m on my way.”

“WHAT? YOU JUST THINK YOU CAN …”

“I don’t think, I know I can borrow you for a little time.”

A week had passed since their reunion and surprisingly Jungkook texted and called her often. It was still strange to Y/N to meet him like they used to do.

“You are unbelievable, Jeon.”

“Tell me something knew.”

“IS THAT YOUR BOYFRIEND, Y/N?” Seol yelled on purpose behind her.

“SEOL SHUT UP AND NO, HE’S NOT MY BOYFRIEND.”

Jungkook just laughed.

“Your roomate seems quite friendly.” 

“If she’s not a crazy chick like now, indeed, she’s friendly.”

“I’m here.” Jungkook said ending the call and you saw from the window that a black car parked in the parking lot.

“Wow, here is your Prince Charming.”

“Shut up.”

“Is it enough, Y/N?” Jungkook asked her as she started to count the amount.

“Of course. It’s actually more than we agreed on.” Y/N replied and looked at him  with curiosity in her eyes.

“I wanted to make sure you have everything.” Jungkook scratched his neck nervously.

“Is Namjoon doing okay, now?”

“Yes, he got back to work, I told him not to but he was persistent, and we found out who wanted us dead. I am afraid we are under watch, you should be more careful from now on. Understood?”

“Yes, I understood.”

“That’s why the guys will keep an eye on you more often.”

“More often than before? God…”

Jungkook chuckled and ruffled Y/N’s hair, he was fond of her long, naturally curly dark hair. 

“Y/N. You know you are important to me. I am glad we meet after years and I don’t want to lose you. You and Hoseok are the only one who know the real me, the ordinary boy Jungkook. Believe it or not, it means a lot. I don’t have to act tough with you.”

Y/N’s cheeks were tinted in deep shade of red and her heart again was beating in her stomach.

“Good to hear it.” Y/N cleared her throat. She felt herself falling into Jungkook’s web she wanted to avoid it at all cost. Clearly, Jungkook was fucking around, he didn’t need anyone of the opposite gender to hold him back. 

The two of them were sitting quietly in a bench near the warehouse, Jungkook was staring quietly the sky which was full of stars, luckily once the perfect view wasn’t blocked by the clouds. He wanted to speak up and tell her all the things he felt but it would have been too fast and he was confused. He didn’t know what was Y/N to him exactly. Right, she was important to him but to be more exact he couldn’t answer to it. Only a best friend or… possibly a lover? Since she had saved his life, Namjoon was talking about how cute she was causing Jungkook’s blood to boil. Sometimes he growled at Namjoon who couldn’t understand Jungkook’s odd behaviour. 

“Look, a shooting star!” Y/N broke the silence and pointed to the falling shiny ball.

“Let’s wish for something.” Jungkook smiled at her softly.

She nodded, to her surprise he grabbed her hand, holding in his big sweaty one. 

“Let’s do it.” Y/N said like this didn’t affect her at all. Jungkook nodded and both of them close their eyes.

‘I wish he was always safe and sound.’

‘I wish I can protect her in my whole life.’

#jeon jungkook #jungkook #jungkook smut #jungkook fluff #jungkook angst #fanfiction #fanfic #bangtan #bangtanboys #bangtansonyendan #aeviternal #bts scenarios #bts #bts smut #bts angst #bts fluff #angst #smut #fluff

[3shaaamazng]

Reason for a Season

Since I’m like Lana Condor who write letters to all the boys she liked.. I realized I’ve been doing that here on my tumblr.. and idc if they get to read it. I think if it’ll even be better if they do because they can read what I thought about them. haha anyways..

This one is for hopefully the last guy I met from a dating app (for now since I’m quitting it and just gonna try the in-person mingling way since I actually meet more people in person anyway and my personality can)— and seem like none of people from dating apps worked for me. I’m not meant for it. I dont have time for games. I am more convinced that dating apps are not meant for me.

but hey..Just want to let you know that you’re the first one I ghosted that I had a connection with. HAHAHA! well, you kinda already did in a way, it’s just we ended up talking again. But this time, I decided to stop talking to you...

I just watched this movie called Exes Baggage. and the guy reminded me of you. I know you have baggages from your previous relatiionship. We all do..

but the guy really reminded me of you because he can’t decide what he realy wants to do yet..

but okay.. let me go back how I wanted to really start..

Mr. G,

I’m glad we met. Hope you were also glad to meet someone like me. For the past 3 months that we were talking, I was confused if you just wanted to be friends or more than that. I was going with the flow and see how things are. Because I haven’t talked to someone like you in a long time. Someone who I can text in essays and talk about things I like, I do, I feel,I experienced..etc. For me, talking to you was TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE. Because it’s rare to find someone who can match my energy when it comes to my talkativeness.. I’ll miss that.. I do miss it now. Like what I said, I’ve been just this strong and independent woman. So things like that makes me weak. I dont’t know how to talk to guys... and so for me, talking to you was like “WOW FINALLY AGAIN A DECENT GUY I CAN TALK TO!” (Because back then it was P)

Anyways../

You were cool. You got to hang and chill with my friends.. You’re easy to get along with... and even made an effort to drive in the snow.. I appreciate it!

I was enjoying your company.. I like how finally after a long time, I have something to look forward to again.. But believe me, I was overthinking. I was already preparing myself that you’d break me at some point. I was looking for flaws, something I know you’ll mess up one day.. something you’ll do to disappoint me.. my friends told me to stop doing that to myself in every guy I get to talk to and just Enjoy the moment.. so I did. 

But when did things go wrong?

Idk.. you tell me... you got into a a fight in a party where I did my best to get you out of.. I took care of you.. I do not mind. I saw your embarassed and ashamed expression the next day that made me believe that whatever they were accusing you was not something you’d do by nature. We had our deep talk about relationships for the first time.. which I finally got to figure out why I met you.. because for some reason, God always make me meet broken hearted people.. so from there, I just feel like you’re just lost.. and I’d be here willing to help you since I’vebeen doing that to people anyway.. From our talk, I decided that I’ll stay as your friend and who knows maybe later on... things would be different. I asked myself, do I like you? Answer is I was interested because I had that connection with you. I enjoyed your company.. and also maybe yes, i was starting to like you. But At the same time I’m actually not sure about it. I’m in the middle. It takes some time for me to like someone.

Then.... one night, you failed to give me an update for our plans when I was expecting you to pull through.. I told you how to improve it.. You said you were willing too make it up.. but bruh... you did not even ask me if our plan that day was still going to happen... we also had our plans on another day (Tuesday) to watch a movie.. but still you did not even bother to hit me up and follow through about that..

and you responded to my text 2 days later and I felt like it was not even sincere.. I started to question if everything you told me were fake.. you said I’m awesome and you feel lukcy to have met someone like me who is supportive.. but what happened when I just confronted you with one thing?? if you were a friend or if you at least value me as a person.. you would have been able to show that.. you would have made more effort. But I guess that was me expecting more from you.. because I’m the type of person who always give andI don’t receive as much back... I wanted to change the tone of our conversation and let that go, so even if I should not talk to you anymore at that point, I went ahead and made it more friendly..but then.. you sent something flirty again that made me question.. what do you really want? What’s all these mind games? now youi’re playing with me?? shouldnt you already know what I feel about guys when I opened up to you? anyways.. I was already disappointed with that faking shii.. then you be playing mind games with me.. so that’s when I stopped.. Mixed Signals are UGLY. And i’ve gone through that. I don’t want to deal with it again so I stopped. You like the attention I give you, but you don’t want to do anything about it. Idk which direction we’re going if it’s just friendship or more than that cause honestly I was down for Friendship. I at least want you to be a friend and help you as a friend. But then, idk. I just started to feel that maybe you’re fake to me all this time. You’re all about talking but no actions. You’re a talker and not a doer...

I was like.. if you can’t be a friend to me (at least) and if you’re someone who I won’t date.. then you are  just another temporary person in my life.. they say we meet people for a reason and some are for a season. lol

But really what I want to say is that.. I hope you get to fully move on from your ex.. It takes time. I know you are trying to explore options right now.. meeting other girls, etc.. But what I truly believe that you should work on first is yourself.. loving yourself more. I know how painful it is to be betrayed by someone you love.. and going through a divorce is not an easy process.. it’s painful.. Don’t rush in falling for someone again. Like what you said, you do not know what to do with relationships yet. Don’t make a girl fall for you, lead them on if you are not sure yet, and eventually feel that you’re not ready to enter another relationship. You’ll just end up hurting her (the movie I watched was about this. You should watch it lol) but you get it? Make friends instead. But it’s okay to get to know someone, just be aware what you’re making her feel.

You are by yourself right now in a place where most of your family and close friends are far.. but maybe this can help you better to move on and shape yourself to be the better version of you.. someone better than who you were when you were with her.. Show to that b**tch how stupid she is for letting you go, for hurting you... But don’t just work on yourself to prove her wrong, work on yourself because it’s an investment for yourself in the long term.. because you have to love yourself first before you love others. 

Trust me, I’m so good at telling other peole what to do, but I, myself still in the process of working on that... working on loving muself more and work on my insecurities on my own so I am more prepared to enter a relationship later.

I wish you’ll find that girl who can take all those fears away.. I know you’re scared to love gain.. I know how that feels.. but hey at least you’re going out there and see the world.. see options..but love yourself first.

there’s this scene from the movie that I watched that hit me hard that I also want you to keep in mind.. 

this was the scene. **translating the tagalog stuff**

“Nix: I’m just scared to love again because I’ll get hurt again..

Pia: why you gotta be scared? I’m not belittling your feelings but I feel like the people who are scared to love again did not truly love in the first place.. because if you loved, you shouldn’t be scared to feel the pain again, you must endure it all so you can feel what love is again.. it should be like that because love overpowers pain”

That line hit me hard! Cause like you, i’m scared to love again. But Genno has been telling me the same thing Pia said. It’s just hearing that way made more sense.. soo

This year, I told myself i’ll mingle with people.. enjoy wthe moment. if someone approach me and he is decent... I’ll give it a try... but also I’m focus on working on myself..

Meeting you made me believe that decent guys are still out there because I really lost hope on that every now and then.. you showed how not all the time it’s girls who get cheated on.. that guys can love deeply too.. It gives me hope that my future someone is just there also learning for himself.. Like what Genno told me, you have added contribution to my experience and now I can level up.

I take this as a lesson.. yes i am still this hopeless romantic girl.. but I am more hopeful now. I’d do whatever just to feel kilig again.. just to feel what love is again.. but first I will work on being more confidnet in talking to people and stop being picky.. (but soooo hard) haha

I will also work on myself.

I know you’re not a bad guy, you’re a good guy.. just ended up being  or looking $hiity with your actions because you dont’ know what to do.. you were weak just cause I confronted you (well apparently Californians do not like confrontations sooo..) Anyways, I wish you the best... if ever you get to read this,that’s cool! Glad you made it here... If you ever want to catch up, I’d be down...

But I don’t know when I’ll ever see you again.. 

Thanks for stopping by in my life :)

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