#rather like to be alive!

[explorerspack]

hi guys i'm posting again. as much as i love playing characters who have a self-preservation instinct it's so much EASIER to play characters who do not have one even at all especially in situations Like This

#cw:fire #c:megadungeon #cha:alessi #or really like alessi thinks they don't NEED a self-preservation instinct bc their saint and their holy purpose is preserving them #but it was so EASY to just be like 'yeah i charge into the burning building yeah i keep going deeper into the fire yeah i grab the searing- #hot door handle. there's a person in there who might possibly still be alive!' i didn't even have to THINK about it #and not even like. not even a person they KNEW especially well just A Person #and they still couldn't actually get her out alive :( but they still gave it all they had and still managed to get her body out #[i'm going to need to take this next two weeks (:() b4 we play to figure out how they feel about that. beyond 'angry at ragnarr'] #i was getting a little worried in there tbh! 14 hp is not very much to end up with! but i didn't have to even consider turning around #and alessi wasn't even a little bit worried about it they knew they'd be fine #that's clerics <3 kings of getting into situations and getting other people out of situations and NOT getting themselves out of situations #and it's such a fun contrast w my other active megadungeon guy being salvador who DOES have the hit-da-bricks instinct #was introduced as the sole survivor of a tpk! #and the fun tension that gives w him being a guy who Does walk the edge of death frequently #and who HAS that castillian bravado and that bravery sword and who IS a bit of a risk taker even just for the sake of taking risks #but who also knows when to get the hell out of dodge bc if you want to stay alive you have to keep yourself alive. and for now he'd really #rather like to be alive! #cha:salvador #okay NOW i'm going shopping #love when meg puts me in a situation <3

[ruporas]

your love returns in tragedy (ID in alt)

#farcille #falin touden #marcille donato #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #coming face to face with the consequences of acting out of love - marcille u will always be famous #dunmeshi is really a series that keeps on moving bc it's about so many different characters and centered on the journey #rather than like... introspectively on one singular individual so i dont think we see marcille dwell on it but we can see her fatigue #her shock and surprise in the recent ep “don't hurt her she's just confused” Gah. desperately trying to grasp everything thats going on and #not to lose hope. bc undoubtedly the remains she put together was falin's - that short moment of reprieve the party had was with falin #she was able to bring her back her magic did it!! but the violence the fatal swings was not falin at all. #just pondering about holding that guilt... it's such a huge responsibility to be in charge of life in the first place and yet it is #a burden she'll keep trudging with. defying the natural orders to keep the people she love alive... i Lauv her... #also shared sentiment with the rest of the fandom but God. Chimera Falin... she is Everything.... #ruporas art

[revvethasmythh]

On the topic of FCG potentially being reincarnated--it makes sense as an option the party might organically consider attempting, but, as we saw with Laudna's death (and even Percy's way back when), input from the player is a really operative aspect of whether a character will be resurrected. Marisha clearly did not want to let Laudna go, so they pursued a long road to bring her back. Alternatively, Taliesin was totally willing to let Percy go if he thought the ritual offerings wouldn't be enough (shoutout to Vex's nat 20 persuasion check for this one).

And Sam? Well, Sam, as a player, loves to fail. Because failing is interesting, usually far more interesting than succeeding. We're talking about a guy who openly derides luck points and fervently refused to use the halfling luck feature except in the ONE instance where succeeding the roll would have had a worse outcome than failing. Regardless of how I or anyone else feels about losing FCG and/or wanting them back, Sam does not strike me as the kind of player who would want to bring FCG back after going out like this, available reincarnation or not. I would both suspect and anticipate that this will be FCG's final showing, just based on what I know of Sam as a player

#it's a great way to go out honestly #like i do think there's some interesting stuff that could be pursued via reincarnation #but not enough to supersede how interesting this end already is. fcg doesn't need flesh and bone to be alive. he already realized that #and sam LOVES to fail. this is a juicy drama point that i'm sure he'd rather press on than erase #critical role #bells hells #cr spoilers

[atmothart]

Wouldn't lizard fashion be something like spikes and scales and a frilled lizard collar?

Like so?

(Bonus art under the cut)

#thank you anon I've been wanting to draw proper lizard fashion for a while and this gave me the motivation I needed #dracula daily #re: dracula #dracula #lizard fashion #The colours I chose here make Drac look like Harry Du Bois - which is appropriate given how I tend to depict his personality in my shitpost #bonus under the cut featuring Dracula's Weed Smorking Girlfriends #personally I really like the theory that the three vampire women are actually dracula's wife and two daughters #since the book never actually calls them his wives and the two subordinate girls are specifically described as looking similar to him #the idea that he turned his family but is no longer capable of loving them (or being loved by them) adds a whole extra layer for me #because he still goes through the motions - goes out to get them food (babies) and provide for them/fulfil the role of a patriarch #but its hollow and loveless and done out of strange obligation/habit - like an echo of being alive #BUT for the sake of comedy I will always draw them as his three weed smorking girlfriends because it's just funnier #or rather as I like to think of them - his three weed smoking EX-girlfriends who spend all day making fun of him and and freeloading #I'm going to tag any art with them in it from here on out as #the ex-wives of dracula #he's going to england to escape their ridicule

[luminarai]

things I know will never happen in the show but that I personally think would be very funny

bonus close up of lestat (inspired by yet another måneskin fit)

#my art #iwtv #interview with the vampire #daniel molloy #lestat de lioncourt #vampire chronicles #iwtv amc #cursed alternate reality where lestat got famous on tiktok #that’s why neither Daniel or Louis realises he’s alive could you imagine either of them on tiktok?? on any social media??? no #(Daniel maybe has fb but hasn’t updated it in 10 yrs. his profile pic has all of 6 pixels) #I’m sure he knows of it but he’d rather chew his own arm off than download it #Louis and lestat finally meet up again and they’re like the two Spider-Mans meme ‘wait I thought YOU were dead????’ #meanwhile armand is like 😶🫥 oops #additional cursed thought: would armand on have tiktok??? discuss

[canonkiller]

do you consider your self made?

#my art #self portrait of sorts #been musing a lot on disability recently and how being relatively freshly unable to do Most Things has changed my perspective on things #for a long time growing up i was fixated on the idea of being An Impact On The World yknow? mainly the next Big Writer #(and that it would be sooo impressive that everyone would make my books bestsellers when i was only 12 because it was That Good) #and i mean. obviously that didnt work out as originally planned because i was 12 and learning. but I've felt a lot like #I've kind of built my sense of self on those big achievements. even if they were only big to me. and a lot of them #are now out of reach or very difficult to reach. and it's been a lot to. recontextualize #to take what ive been told my whole life and ignore it in favor of just being being enough. #things will happen as they happen. i havent earned anything by suffering but it hasnt ended the world either #im here doing what i Can do for as long as I'm able to do it. and thats all i need to be for now #just making sure that i Do do the things i can do rather than assume i can do them later #anyways. love you #cw: #top nudity #artistic nudity #the dreaded ambiguously presenting nipple #if you put any pro weight loss eating disorder shit on here ill kill you btw #my body is sexy because im in it and im still alive. not because its struggling to stay that way #lindwormposting

[smile-files]

she then started wiping his face with a handkerchief, confused

#dandy's doodles #welcome home #welcome home poppy #poppy partridge #welcome home wally #wally darling #kin #i have been so awfully sneezy lately!! oh dear!!! #i would rather like to be tucked into bed with a bowl of soup by sweet ol poppy... #just her taking care of me would make me feel better :) #for the record i have been okay!! above all my cold has just made me tired and runny-nosed #aside from that i'm alive and well and perfectly capable of going to work at camp #which is great!!! but of course the sooner this cold goes away the better #anyway. poppy is rather fun to draw isn't she? she has such nice colors and textures :]

[deityofhearts]

my paycheck ended up being less than it was supposed to be and after paying my phone bill i don’t have any money left for groceries and other necessities until the next paycheck (so two weeks from now) and idk what else to do other than ebeg for help affording things. Idk how much to even ask for without being absurd

$0/$150

kofi

cashapp

venmo

paypal

#deity dialogue #I hate my whole ass life lol #I’d rather be dead than have to constantly live like this but unfortunately I’m still fucking alive. #like at least I’ll be able to pay my phone bill but there’s a lot of shit that I need that I just won’t be able to afford #I just want to cry #like I do not want to do this anymore I do not want to exist anymore I’m freaking tired of it. #I hate life I hate the world I hate everything #I hate my job too. I’m full of hate can you tell??? #it’s not like I asked to be born and have to barely make it by every goddamn day

[starry-bi-sky]

I'm so annoyed. @kingcrow01 tumblr ate your ask about Danny's opinion on the League. tumblr i pressed 'save draft' why didn't you sAVE DRAFT.

ANyways I'm making a post instead. For everyone else, the ask was in summary:

What was Danny's opinion on the League now that he's left it? If he missed the familiarity of it, if he recognized the cult-like behavior inside it, and if he now detested his grandfather.

And to answer (again, grrr): It's complicated! We love complicated <3. Yeah, Danny does miss the familiarity of the League, it was still his home for the first ten years of his life and he has a lot of memories there. Plenty of good along with the bad, and while he's less homesick than he was when he was 10, it still hits him like a truck at random intervals.

Sam, Tucker, and Jazz are great, and he likes the Drs. Fentons enough that he's contemplated murdering Vlad for his meddling, but if he wants to eat the same food his mother used to make him and Damian, he has to do it himself and he can't get the taste right. No one knows arabic so he speaks it to himself because he doesn't want to forget his mother tongue, and he has a few books too. Frankly? He genuinely misses training.

Getting to use Sam's gym helps with his restlessness, same with training with Maddie, but he has no one on or above his level to go against other than his mother. And he only sees her twice a year at most. He knows that he's getting stagnant and he fucking despises it like a bad itch he can't scratch.

He feels conflicted about missing the League, however, since by now he recognizes the flaws and what was wrong with it, and he recognizes that it was cult-like. But even that is kinda, hrm, complicated? If this was a fic I would be able to go better into depth about what he has and hasn't unlearned because cult deprogramming is hard and Danny's doing most of this on his own.

Sam, Tucker, and Jazz have helped with the more obvious stuff: like the ecofascism, the disregard for human life, his emotional constipation; the more obvious stuff that shows in his behavior and personality. But none of them are professionals nor do they actually know the full extent of what Danny's life in the League was like. They only have snapshots since Danyal is very tight lipped about it. So they can only help with what they see themselves through Danny's behavior or word of mouth.

But in summary: He sees, for the most part, what's wrong with the League and disagrees with some of the stuff they do now. But he's very conflicted, and trying to dissect his feelings on the League confuses him. His protests about it whenever Sam and Tucker joke about it have at this point become mostly empty (altho it still causes him some discomfort), and its an inside joke between them three.

As for Ra's? Despises him. If only because Ra's wanted him to kill his little brother -- thinking about his motives with the League confuses Danny, cognitive dissonance and stuff, -- a lot of his hatred stems from "He wanted me to fight my baby brother to the death. I destroyed my relationship with Damian because of him, I had to fake my death and leave my home, and I will never meet my father or see my brother again because of him. Fuck that guy."

#dpxdc #dp x dc #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc crossover #dpdc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #danyal al ghul au #starry asks #demon siblings au #danny's opinions on the league is rather complicated but he knows that some of the stuff that happened inside was wrong. and while he's #always known that his upbringing wasn't normal -- and he took pride in that -- its only in recent years that he's learned that #this was a *bad* thing. that his upbringing was wrong. he's still kinda grappling with that. #danny's homesickness hits the worst when he's patching himself up from a ghost fight alone. stitching up his throat in his ghost form when #he gets hit with a deep child-like grief and the unwitting 'i wanna go home'. he's exhausted and sad and hurting and fucking *tired* #good mom talia al ghul supremacy. she's trying her best. #but yeah sam and tucker did a lot of good for Danny by becoming his friend. he's a lot better off than he would've been if he remained alon #'a child not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel its warmth' type of stuff. danny's aware of this and is incredibly grateful #for sam and tucker. and as a result can and will get violently protective. his moral code on killing can be summed up as: i dont kill bc i #value human life and it's inconvenient. but i will do it without remorse if i must. #vlad is only still alive because he's incompetent. but the ice is thin #catch me about to make an incorrect quotes post about this au. i am so close.

[dykebeckett]

just saw somebody say Stede looked sexy in Ed's leathers and I gotta be honest gang. he did not. he looked like a grocery bag full of lukewarm soup and Ed still looked at him and asked is anybody else gonna fuck him and didn't wait for an answer

#he WOULD look good in them if he looked like an alive man rather than a dead frog #ofmd #my best posts

[catdemontraphouse]

Today I was thinking about how Sebastian’s greatest need in life is to feel needed and he puts that desire above his own survival on a regular basis. He doesn’t eat properly, he gets injured frequently, he can’t have a cat despite wanting one, etc. His top priority is being important to someone even if it means making sacrifices.

I think that’s part of why he can’t help but admit he has so much fun working for Ciel. A kid that young who was completely helpless became deeply dependent on him. Talk about an ego booster, I mean Ciel can shit all over Sebastian and curse at him and whatever but at the end of the day Seb knows it’s all talk and the kid’s stuck with him whether he likes it or not. I mean like, even the whole contract thing is weird because we never hear about any sort of governing law or social custom that binds a demon to a contract as strictly as Sebastian makes it appear. He has forcibly taken control of Ciel’s life and made himself irreplaceable. Ciel’s whole reason to live hinges on his revenge which he probably feels he cannot achieve without Sebastian.

Very demented and sad. Anyways toxic maladaptive dadbastian real. 🥲

#when he said he got tired of eating random souls I have to wonder if he means he still felt empty inside #like he’d rather starve for years if it means getting to feel alive #He needs to be needed and wants people to praise him #black butler #kuroshitsuji #sebastian michaelis

[quietwingsinthesky]

of ten’s companions, if the doctor couldn’t handle losing them and crossed his own timeline to trick them into traveling with future!him instead of past!him so that he’d have a little more time with them:

rose would do it. first because bless her but she has the situational awareness of a rock, and legitimately would not realize this isn’t her doctor until his facade starts to break down and he starts bleeding grief-laced love for her at every turn. but once she does realize it, she’s both deeply sympathetic and a little scared that she could make him into this. it’s a lot to be confronted with having that much power over someone, to break them so thoroughly. rose would try to get back to her doctor, but while she’s with the future version, she tries to do what she can to ease his pain. (she also tries to figure out a way to subvert her fate. she fails.)

i think martha would be harder to trick. she can smell desperation on the doctor like a bloodhound. she is so tapped into the fact that this man wants to off himself so bad and that she’s 90% of his self-restraint, so present her with a doctor who is lacking that and she’s onto him immediately. however, assuming he gets her to come with him, explains why he’s doing this, there’s like. a minute where she’s kind of. not flattered exactly, but surprised, giddy with the realization that he’d come back for a little more time with her, especially if this is early season 3 martha. which would all come crashing down around the time that he reveals that he wasn’t pushed to this by losing her to some tragedy or her death or anything- but that she chose to leave. that is the point at which martha goes ‘oh i need to get the fuck off of this tardis right now’ and ghosts the past!doctor that she was also traveling with because holy shit, man.

donna, like rose, is easily bamboozled into following the wrong doctor home, provided that he shuffles her along into his tardis too fast for her to argue. but she catches on far quicker than rose does. like, three minutes tops of watching the doctor move through the tardis in a way that’s definitely not enthusiastic piloting and looks more like guilty panic. and then she yells at him for lying to her. and she yells at him for kidnapping her. and then she stops yelling because he’s gone sort of still and quiet and his eyes are just broken. and he doesn’t explain himself, he confesses. donna is going to try to stay with him after this btw. because how do you go back to looking your best friend in the eyes when you know he’d take everything you’ve become away from you, even to save your life? and this is still the doctor, he still did that to her, but he regrets it. regrets it so much that he can’t live with it, he’s breaking time and space just to hear her say his name again. and donna doesn’t want to lose him anymore than he wanted to lose her.

#i am so enthralled by this concept you have no idea #also like. i mentioned in rose’s section how this is a genuinely scary situation for her. #but to be clear. it is for all three of them the moment they realize that this Is Not Their Doctor #because theyre suddenly on a ship going through time ans space with. almost a stranger. and one who has proven that he’s break laws #fundamental to his worldview rather than let them go #doctor who #rose tyler #martha jones #martha girl get the fuck out of there oh my god #the doctor comes out looking the worst in her section rip to him for not handling her leaving him in a normal and healthy way very well #i think it would be very funny if the doctor said goodbye to her and then immediately went. ‘oh! right! martha is the only thing keeping me #from jumping off a cliff! brb i need to get martha back at whatever cost!’ sir go to therapy #donna noble #also also to be clear im not trying to insult rose in her section thats just how she is #remember that time her boyfriend turned into plastic in front of her and she. didnt notice. or that time the doctor was being strangled in #the other room and she. didnt notice. #rose tyler girl that you are. you never know what the fuck is going on around you and i love you for that. how are you still alive. #REMEMBER THAT TIME SHE GOT BACK FROM AN ALTERNATE DIMENSION AND DIDNT EVEN NOTICE THE DALEK ABOUT TO SHOOT THE DOCTOR IN THE FACE #ROSE TYLER. GIRL. LOOK LEFT AND RIGHT BEFORE CROSSING A STREET AT LEAST #donna’s here is the most fucked up i think because even if this situation is ‘resolved’ and she goes back to her doctor like. how does she #keep going with that fact in the back of her mind at all times. that he can and will do this to her. that he’ll take himself and everything #else away from her while she begs him not to. #angst <3

[ricky-mortis]

More SAF Mlp sillies bc I do what I want

Thanks to @cowardlykrow and @szollibisz for the cutie mark ideas, as well as every one of y’all that suggested something! Love y’all sm <3

#I love the mask idea so much #didn’t really know how to execute it tho #but this is good enough I suppose #and the martini glass is also fantastic #cause it’s such a classic spy thing and he even mentions it in spy again #idk I think they’re great #goofy little guys #these are fun to draw too #also I really like the idea that Owen’s cutie mark is covered by a scar post banana #adds to the mystery of him as dma #haha rather- deadliest pony alive #dpa I guess hehe #but yeah idk I think it would be interesting #spies are forever #agent curt mega #owen carvour #tin can bros #saf au #my art #:)

[milkweedman]

Blended some fiber last night

The brown and black rolag is 1/3 of an ounce (9 grams) and made of silk and merino and a little mystery wool; the blue-purple gradient weighs 1/5 of an ounce (8 grams) and is mostly bfl and Romney.

Then there's this batt, which is 1.2 ounces (34 grams) and a blend of merino, silk, tencel, milkweed silk, and angora. That one is a yellowish to green to blueish gradient. Been wanting to try more gradients. Also, was a good way to use up the .8 ounces of merino-silk roving I got with my last 4 bucks at flock and fiber this year. I didn't really like spinning it by itself (just boring) but hopefully it'll be better here.

#wool batt #rolags #blending board #brain is much more interested in facilitating turning into a pile of noxious goo #rather than like. making things or doing stuff or being alive or anything like that #i did try to enjoy myself with the fiber arts #but it is what it is

[void-pitcher]

i will literally never stop thinking about that one glass onion analysis video that said “i wouldn’t say i’d destroy [the mona lisa] to save a stranger’s life, but honestly? it’s kinda fucked up that i wouldn’t. we should value a person’s life, stranger or not, more than a piece of art.” like that changed something in me. bc our society DOES value art. not new art, not artists, sure, but it values the results. they put the results at a higher value than the artist themself, and if they think the results is worthless? they’ll still value the artist less than the result.

#thinkin abt my one friend who said she’d rather die than not complete her art #and another who said he’d kill himself for talent #and another who said the mona lisa was da vinci’s legacy and if it’s gone he’s gone #like what are y’all on abt? what value must u put on art to value urself as less than? how little do u value urself to put ur art as more? #i want so badly to be able to say i’d burn the mona lisa to save a stranger but idk if i would #and like this guy said: it’s fucked up #what we make doesn’t determine our worth. what we can or can’t do doesn’t determine our worth. how much talent we have doesn’t determine our #worth. and it shouldn’t. #idk. it just feels so twisted. and it’s not even abt what art they can make in the future. #it’s abt how we and the ppl around us are alive and that’s our most valuable gift #not some oil on a canvas #glass onion #glass onion a knives out mystery #art #mona lisa

[cuubism]

as much as i love traditionally married dreamling - and do i - i also have this bruised softness in my heart for 'what we have is outside relationship constructs, define it at your own peril' dreamling, for 'drifting in and out of each other's orbit with each other as perennial anchor point' dreamling, 'i haven't seen you in sixty years but what's that to an immortal, you are always in my heart' dreamling, 'our lives are not quite one but neither are they apart' dreamling. drop in on me, i am always ready to welcome you. and i will always let you go.

hob as a fixture, a constancy, a hearth, and dream as a wild creature coming in from the cold. it cannot be kept, and you would commit no such sin of trying to, but it can be held, warm, before the fireplace for a while. let it go, and trust that it will come back.

hob as a wanderer, life to life to life, and dream as an ancient, enduring kingdom whose protection is reachable just by closing your eyes. continuance impossible in the waking world but offered as easily as a kiss on the cheek.

there is no keeping a dream, is the thing. and dream does not want to be kept, but he does want to be held, held and let go and held again with those arms always open to him. there is no keeping an adventurer, either, and hob is an adventurer at heart, always ready to see, do, the next thing, but adventurers need a home, too, one that doesn't mind when they come back a little bit different.

go where you need to, when you need to. carry my love with you. and come back to me.

that kind of dreamling.

#aka the dynamic of only lovers left alive #auressea if youre out there i saw your comment on the desire fic about relationship anarchy and i was thinkin about it thanks #and then i was reading about it and found the term anchor person and i was like oh.yes #this is not to say they *cant* have domestic married life they can they contain multitudes XD #though the more i think about it the more i think hob would not be happy being permanently in the dreaming #like if dream were to be like hey do u want to come live with me here. he wouldn't want to. unless he was literally going to die or somethn #he can make a second home of it sure and he does love it there but he's a creature of the waking world almost more so than most others #like dream is a creature of the dreaming. or rather is the dreaming #anyway #the sandman #dreamling #sandman meta #idk i guess? #just thoughts #my writing