#post lockdown life

[felixcloud6288]

Let me tell you about the time I let a turkey interrupt a math exam.

This was summer 2020. Covid lockdowns had just started and we had to use Zoom for classes. I was taking Calculus III that semester. The Professor's policy for exams was we didn't need a lockdown browser, but we needed to be on Zoom with cameras and mics on.

Enter The Problem.

I was raising a baby turkey at the time. I had to have him by my side at all times because he had imprinted on me and he would scream and cry if I wasn't around. Sometimes, he'd scream and cry even if I was around.

I reached out to the professor about that and asked if I could be muted. His response was "No. It will be fine." And so I decided "Okay, whatever happens is your fault now" and I washed my hands of any responsibility.

Day of the exam, I have my camera and mic on. The Problem is perched next to me. As soon as the exam opens, The Problem screams. Now you might think turkeys are all "gobble gobble". I wish that was the case. This is a baby turkey. They scream with the intensity and frequency of a car alarm.

So now everyone is trying to take an exam with what might as well be a car alarm blaring at them. And they know it's me. At one point, I pick up The Problem, put him to the camera and just say "He won't stop." with the most dead expression in my face.

And I didn't care. I did everything I could to stop that, and I was just following the Professor's rules. I was not trapped with them. They were trapped with me. Everyone in that meeting got to experience what my life had been like for the last 3 months. And as far as I care, it was the Professor's fault. And you know what, I would have muted myself if the professor asked, but he never did.

The Problem only stopped when the exam ended. For the next exam, the policy was we had to have the cameras on, but we could mute ourselves.

So yeah, turkeys don't like calculus.

#turkeys #personal stories #funny #turkeys don't like math #university life #covid lockdowns #original post

[salemoleander]

After seeing these generous lifespans/regen chances, and keeping the Secret Keeper and Evo symbol in mind, imo the only way to keep this from going past Christmas is to make the secret tasks start being things like 'push someone into lava' or 'kill the next player who says your name'.

Which is of course a delightful way to up the ante! However, given all that...

I really hope Grian has considered and is prepared to roll with:

The Secret Keeper is going to start asking for crueller and crueller things.

What happens if a significant number of Players try to rebel or destroy it? *

I understand if it just ends up being a mechanical macguffin! I won't even really be disappointed! But I'm crossing my fingers that he might be prepared for if the story builds to a non-Player antagonist.

To be clear, I don't want an entirely external antagonist for the whole series! I like the complicated motivations the Life games require if they're voluntary rather than some Watcher trap (apologies Martyn). However, consider:

A single season where this particular Life server houses an insidious and monstrous rock that commands people to hurt each other for life and prizes. **

* Yes Scott defied Boogey in LL, and the Divorce Quartet defied their soulmates in DL. But the source of these curses/ impositions have never had a physical, in-game form, and that may understandably spark new reactions. In this case, it feels like a good GM would be prepared for the players to want to bounce off that antagonist.

** This would also be neat to me as a canonization of the Life series taking place on different worlds each time, that have seemingly-innate rules or properties that differ from vanilla. Fun bit of worldbuilding there.

#slsmp #secret life #secret life spoilers #slsmp spoilers #secret life smp spoilers #life series #life series spoilers #salem tag #salem meta #trafficblr #spoilers #i love that I manage to write posts with fucking footnotes #it's not on purpose I just love asides #anyways. kinda tempted to write fic but LMAO no time for that we're on 24/7/365 MCNN lockdown baybee

[uncanny-tranny]

By implying that children are too stupid and rude to learn about the world and learn how the world works and how to interact with others, you are casting responsibility away from the people who are responsible for that child's upbringing and placing the blame on the children (who don't have the autonomy given to them to be allowed to decide what they want) who can't help what they do and do not learn, often.

If the children aren't okay, then investigate why before turning to thought-terminating clichés of, "Well, the kids are just stupid and dumb and aren't even worth the effort because they're lazy!"

#youth liberation #i was really bothered when i saw this clip where this person was saying almost verbatim that... #...'kids [these days] are too STUPID and they're teachers are scared!'... #...why is the blame placed on the kids who have no control over school curriculum and what their home life is like or if they have money... #...it's because when you place the blame on the people with no power or control you don't have the responsibility to change circumstances.. #...you essentially keep the status quo while simultaneously belittling a group of vulnerable people... #...and thus you feed into the cyclical nature of the broken education system #the kids these days AREN'T okay but it ISN'T THEIR FAULT... #...it's the fault of late-stage capitalism and poorly-funded education and a world that wasn't even built with them in mind... #...they had NO PART in the creation of the world which is hostile to their entire existence #don't mind the incorrect usage of their in the second tag i was so focused on how pissed i was #also remember how a good chunk of these kids lived through *checks notes* the fucking PANDEMIC LOCKDOWN #which was a clown show in terms of supporting kids and their parent/s #some places handled lockdown in the US better than others but holy fuck in my area at least it was a nightmare #what do you expect from parents who are now working full-time and teaching part/full-time and parenting full-time? #what support exactly are you expecting they recieved? because you'll likely find they got either a little or NONE #hilarious that i used the wrong their in a post subtweeting about education LOL #look i was focused on how PISSED i was lol cut me some slack here

[windydrawallday]

Out of all the OCs you have, who’s your favorite? > : D

Short Answer: there are always at least two walking around my mind, and currently those are [Specthor] and... Edwin.

'Thor is a well-known OC by near buddies online and on my other socials, but Eddy didn't even have a reference until now so, excuse me I'll use this opportunity to do a Longer Answer!

(The other characters shown here are [Naveler] and Birdlord. That last one needs a proper reference too but that's for another day because he carries a lot of lore from another project.)

Edwin is one of four of my oldest OCs (I think his first doodles date back to 2007-2008) so he practically grew up with me! Younger Windy was shy and lacked a strong masculine, fatherly, and even brotherly figure so, in some way, Edwin resumed all of that and helped me become brave when I was hesitant to try something new.

He sounds like a guardian angel, but I usually joke that he is quite the "husbando"/partner in crime of my mind hahaha.

Talking about "husbando": in these modern days, enjoying critically and leisurely about characters, even wishing to portray them with my own views, Edwin is still here supporting me.

How? By becoming the "actor" behind each character I like. Every time I roleplay and/or draw a character, I use some of Eddy's traits to feel comfortable in my portrayals.

In some way, he wears them like "masks of catharsis". Nothing is unfamiliar anymore with him there.

When loving a character, I indirectly love Edwin, too. No matter if he needs to interpret a hero, an antihero, or the extreme of extremes. It's always safe because I know a part of him is there.

#windy replies #long post #windydrawallday ocs #windy ocs edwin #windy ocs specthor #beast wars dinobot #tfp starscream #idw rodimus #tfa lockdown #thats the real order i met those characters and got attached to them hahaha #edwin helped me to reconcile with the idea of liking characters that werent just goodie-two-shoes #and lots looots of other things but the idea is not to write a biography this early in my life lol #so i hope this sufices! #THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE ASK AAAAAAA #this pushed me to actually do a character ref something that lately with my art block is HARD AF #enjoy the reading!

[noisytenant]

i spent a semester at art school at the height of covid lockdown as like a "study away" type experience because i missed being around ppl who were interested in technique and wanted more critical feedback. did a lot of interesting things and met some interesting people but mostly realized that being a professional illustrator would be a unique form of torture for me. unless i could make like magic the gathering cards that would be dope

#indexed post #a lot of the art i posted recently (the creature desifns and stuff) r from that time #I didnt know the difference between studio and non studio classes so i took 5 studio classes... youre supposed to take like 2-3 #On top of covid lockdown and everything else it was one of the most stressful times in my life #and im not sure my art practice has yet recovered completely #But I do think I learned a lot of good things and made some good connections. Many cool people there. #Would be nice under better circumstances I think #Sorry if ive told this story before btw Please treat me like a well meaning senile uncle okay?

[maigetheplatypus57]

bro imagine coming home from your grandfather's funeral and you remember that it's Limited Life Friday so you start watching grian's new episode and the bad boys get fucking changed into mourning clothes for the bread bridge can you imagine just how fucking wild my day has been for me emotionally???

#limited life smp #trafficblr #grian #maige's posts #maige's ramblings #mcyt #i mean there's something oddly comforting about im not gonna lie but Still #also before anyone asks he passed away a few years ago during early lockdown and this was the first year we could all be #in the same fricking room for his death anniversary so its more of a memorial but eh #still wild to come home after talking to my cousins all day only to find out that the bad boys are Cousins in Mourning #like are you kidding me

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

unimportant microtrend that drives me personally bananas for stupid reasons: the idea that the only valid reason to exercise is because it feels good, especially coupled with someone painstakingly explaining how they do xyz kind of intentional/nonincidental movement for reasons that are totally morally pure. annoying for two reasons: (1) no one needs to exercise like morally or whatever but the thing i learned that really put the fear of god into me about exercise is that muscle mass starts naturally decreasing around age 30 unless you are doing something to preserve it and an enormous slice of my exercise motivation pie these days comes from wanting to maximize my chances of still being able to spend three hours walking and listening to music for as long into my lifespan as possible (not to mention i am an afab woman with a family history of 6 million bone problems) (2) (this is the dumber one and therefore the one that is more annoying to me) sometimes exercise feels good but only after you have stuck with it through a period of it feeling bad. if i only ever did Moving My Body Feels Good exercise i would have robbed myself of some of the best body sensations i’ve ever had!

#yeah i’m trying to get back into running for the millionth time post lockdown #it’s going better than it did any of the other times #so i’m feeling better than i have before about being able to like #run (very slowly) for a full hour sometime before the end of the year #my experience suggests that by the time i hit that it will be the case that running Sometimes Feels Good #(it ofc always retains the capacity to feel bad) #but in the meantime it is still rough out there #so i am presently particularly sensitive to like #‘exercise shouldn’t be about PUSHING YOURSELF or HAVING GOALS. it should only be about what i say is good about it :)’ #shut up!!!! you don’t know my life!!!!! #sanctimony is not less annoying from a slightly different direction!!!!!!! #nb ofc these things are optional

[heisttheblackflag]

happy one year anniversary to San Francisco AH Live!

- Trevor recognized me in the audience from this tweet

- I asked in the VIP Q&A “if you had an unlimited budget what would you want to make?” Geoff was really sweet and said he’s already been able to make everything he’s ever wanted. Joe said he wanted to make a podcast about rocks. he clarified he wanted to be able to talk about like moon rocks and meteorites and stuff, but not before the entire rest of the cast absolutely shit on him and continued making fun of him for it for the rest of the Q&A

- Jeremy sang “Impostor” live and absolutely KILLED it, his screams were even better than the recording it was so cool

- they did a karaoke dance party as the very last thing of the night and almost every single person in the audience voted to do a song from hsm but the link didn’t work so we did Africa by Toto instead

- there was a cheesecake with a mic on stage and people kept sneaking bites until finally Joe shoved the whole thing in his mouth at intermission. when they came back Trevor and Alfredo started screaming

- Tim Gettys and Alfredo had a really tearful beautiful moment with Alfredo’s grandma on stage, it was genuinely really incredible and touching. and then later on she came back out to threaten a bunch of the other AH members as a bit. I’m obsessed w her

#ah live #achievement hunter live #achievement hunter #rtah #i don’t think I posted abt it when I went but it’s genuinely one of the highlights of my life and I’m still so glad I rebought the vip pass #I had a vip ticket for it in 2020 actually!!! and then lockdown happened literally two days before it was supposed to happen #but I got to go last year and I think everyone had a really amazing time #I’m still so sad I didn’t stay to talk to them #but I did see Michael Lindsay and Gavin walk in front of my car as I was pulling out of the parking garage lmao #and saw the bouncer almost stop wes Ellis from walking in before the show lol #oh another highlight: ppl kept getting in line thinking we were in line for hp cursed child #but it was next door #so anytime we saw a family with kids all of us in line were like. NEXT DOOR GANG YOU DONT WANNA BE HERE #god it was so fun #original

[sludgeguzzler]

man. i changed so much these past years

#im different from last years me who was different from 2021 me who was different from 2020 me and so on and so forth #it feels kinda weird thinking about it bc i went through *so much stuff* #all of it in just the past 4 years... insane #i found out i was trans. i went on lockdown. i started posting my art online. i made online friends. #i went through three different relationships. every single one of them changed me forever. #i started writing. i finished middle school. i read homestuck. i used discord everyday for 2 years. #i found my personal sense of style. i started going tk school again. i made friends irl. i lost all the online friends i had. #(thay wasnt bc of any scandal i just left the friendgroup and then started to slowly interact more with ppl irl #whi sorta made my online interactions dwindle especially one-on-one interactions #i think i feel better like this go be honest with you. the connections feel stronger and i feel closer to the friends ive made #not saying i dont like the people i know and befriended here just saying that not being chronically online anymore really changed how i #go through with internet interactions) #damn. really feeling the passage of time now. #also this is not a sad reminiscent post im *really* glad im in the place i am in life right now #i have a qpp i have an irl friendgrouo that i feel 100% comfortable with for the first time in my life im doing ok at school #i have a vision for my future my relationship with my parents is sooo much better #idk man. compare that with 14 year old me eating alone at school bc i was too scared to talk with the other people on my class and like. #yeah man. im doing a lot better #i DO have to update my art blog though. its been too long sincd i posted anything #talk

[persephoneflouwers]

If you remember, tell me in tags what you were doing when Walls Spotify canvas happened two years ago

#i was studying for my neuro exam #i was sitting on my chouch with a pillow and the book over my legs #our living room was in progress #which means there was no tv nor a table yet #the door was close #my sister stormed in and said #‘è un pazzo è un pazzo’ (he’s crazy he’s crazy) #and im like who why are you interrupting me you know i hate it when I study’ #and then she made me see and I was soooo excited lmao #i shared it on my ig stories and one of my friends said ‘you need to chill out about him’ and i was so offended #i realised I didn’t need people who don’t get excited for what excites me in life #especially bc she knew what a nightmare of a life I was living post lockdown #ANYWAY a lot of realisations just with some tattoos canvas lol #spotify canvas #walls anniversary is tomorrow right? #I don’t know what day today is lmao

[sxturdaysun]

LONG DAY FACTORY MADE ME MISS THE SATURDAY ANNIVERSARY

#I'M ONLY 5 DAYS LATE I CAN MAKE UP FOR IT ...... #forgive me specialest boy ever..... specialest boy ever forgive me...... #i've got fics to write and moodboards to post. love of my life lockdown until i decide it's over #(<- is never not on Him Lockdown) #♡ — text

[e77y]

Seriously need to make more friends or go outside more (both things are easier said than done) bc I am a little bit tired of relying on content creation for attention and connection :(

#idk I think I just miss how accessible attention from friends was in high school and even last year in college #but now I’m an online student and I live in the middle of nowhere so it’s a lot harder to hang out with people irl #and idk I just finished all of my schoolwork for the day and thought ‘I’m really bored and want to talk to somebody etc’ #and my first thought was ‘I should work on a new fic so people will comment on it’ 😭 #which! I do love comments! but also I need to talk to people outside of AO3 comments yk? lmao 😭 #I sort of miss the year-ish long era of COVID lockdown bc I was constantly on calls with like ten different friend groups #maybe it’s my self isolation or maybe adulthood is just like this? idk #I’m moving in with friends next semester so I think that will be good for me #I just wanna make online friends man :( but idk how to DO that except by making fandom content #and hoping somebody likes it enough to slowly incorporate me into their life LMAO #I wish calls/voice memos were the norm in online spaces I’m so much better at those #anyway this is very pathetic to post but whatever. I’m trying to get used to being vulnerable on this blog #not that I owe it to people online to be vulnerable. if anything I should NOT be vulnerable on the internet #it’s just that. I am not very vulnerable period. so it’s better for me to air it out into the online void than to bottle it up forever #ellyposting #vent #ish? just to be safe

[rad-claid-plaid]

when I was a teenager, my school had an orchestra that was the most prestigious of the music programs there. You had to get auditioned and placed, whereas the other programs were opt-in. along with that orchestra, we had uniforms. Weird, low cut but floor length black dresses for the women, and tuxes for the men.

My girlfriend when I was 16/17 was trans identified, and a fantastic musician. When I asked why she didn't join the ensemble, there was one answer: the uniforms. She wouldn't join because she'd have to wear a dress. This was before being trans was a cool in-group where everyone had to bend to your will or face repercussions.

She wasn't "out" to anyone in that school as trans, except to a handful of close friends. I don't think there were any procedures in place for that sort of thing, so it was likely just up to whether tolerant teachers would play along or not. After a lengthy discussion with the directors, it was clear: if you're a woman, you MUST wear the dress. You have to. You cannot wear a tux. My friends and I commiserated with her, crying out transphobia.

Looking back, that's not the case. It's sexism. It's that the girls had to wear uncomfortable, itchy dresses, tripping over the long skirt, but with our entire top of our chests bare. I always felt it a shame that nobody was allowed to wear the uniform they wanted, or even more ideally, the sexist dresses removed and everyone wears tuxes.

Looking back, I realize that regardless of my ex's dysphoria, the fact that anyone who was a woman being forced into the secondary, non default, non neutral uniform instead of a tux that could fit everyone was hurting all of the girls at the school. We've seen stories of the girls who aren't allowed to wear pants under their graduation gowns or women who are mandated to wear heels to work. It's deeply misogynistic to force any and every woman into these roles, especially with no allowance to wear the more comfortable option. For every GNC woman, for every woman who doesn't want to wear a dress, for every woman who finds that dress uncomfortable, or for any reason at all.

#im not quite sure what the point of this is except for thr fact that i remembered the dress debacle after reading a post here about #gendered uniforms #i went to a rural conservstive poor school and my social circle kept my ex's trans status on LOCKDOWN like nobody could know #in the early twenty teens it wasnt fashionable to be trans. at least there. #i havent heard about or from her in about 6 years. she was deeply unwell (for other reasons) #i hope she got the help she needed and is living a good life. like even tho she deeply traumatized me i still wish the best #she was one of my best friends for many years before we dated. #im just speculating but this was before being trans was a social contagion so i think she was genuinely dysphoric and idk. #plaid.txt

[halfelven]

i didn’t even get 3 years of freedom before covid started. and i still think getting into graduate school 3 years after getting out of a cult is an accomplishment despite everyone going ohhhh what are you doingggggg with your lifeeeeeee for 3 years about it. like oh i don’t know trying to get stable enough to not cry every single day or go numb for months? (hasn’t worked) trying to get into therapy??? (also hasn’t worked) timeline of my life is so weird

#i’ve had more life after the cult post covid #than pre covid post cult #and i spent half of that severely damaged #i mean i wasn’t going to write damaged but predictive text suggested it and it fits #severely medicated #if you grow up in isolation #then move to a new place alone #and then get lockdowns #i know it messed me up but man it messed me up #gdlplu #txt #personal #covid

[pepprs]

#to translate this post: someone liked this post i made (on the upper left) on AUGUST 28 having a moment of self awareness that i was running #away from my whole life and not moving or learni ng to drive or anything. it is now march 8. it has been almost 7 months. and i have made #basically zero progress. and there is nothing stopping me but me. i could read the drivers manual and whatever whenever i want. but i am not #doing anything. and i don’t know how to get myself to start. #purrs #i know it’s a cop out excuse but i truly do think it’s covid. i think being in lockdown for a year and a half made me just let go of any #sense of progress. made me scared to take steps forward. and i mean i did bc i lived on campus for a while after that but it’s like.. EVERY #part of my life is stagnant rn it seems. and it’s not just me it’s my siblings too. we’re all getting older but none of us is trying to move #out or gain our independence in any way and my brother isn’t even looking for jobs even though he needs one. we’re all just getting older #but we’ve lost (or maybe had knocked out of us by covid and our mom being so strict) any sense of moving ipward and spreading our wings. #forgotten we have wings at all. and ive done important things like going on a house tour or traveling with my besties (<3). but i have only #made it to page 8 of the drivers manual and i truly do not want to read the rest of it. i have only been on one house tour and im longing to #move out but how much am i really because i can’t bring myself to schedule another tour and start searching for a new home in earnest. #i just come home every day UTTERLY exhausted and spend all my free time trying to process or rest. and im not making room for myself to use #my wings. and it’s truly terrible. why are we all okay with living like this. my younger self would be HORRIFIED if she saw how much i had a #atrophied since graduating and moving back home. my brighton self would be HORRIFIED. i told myself i wouldn’t and then it’s exactly what i #did. and ik im being harsh and ive spread my wings in some important ways during this time but… these are so obvious. such low hanging #fruit in some ways. bc any 16 year old can take this test and pass it so why can’t i at 24? why won’t i let myself? dont i want a nice cozy #home i make my own where i can eat what i want and sleep when i want and have control over sounds? then why am i not running for it? #delete later #i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth i am wasting my youth 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 my one precious life 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 #also LMFAOOOOO the next tag on that aug 28 post was that i need to get a new campus id card… guess who hasn’t done that either ♥️

[elytrafemme]

THERAPY ACHIEVED!

#we started working thru the idrlabs bpdspectrum test #because i thought the questions would be interesting and so did she and Boy #Is This Interesting. im actually learning a lot nwo that im not like #convinced i need to get this diagnosis any time soon or at all #it turns out i might have been underselling some of my responeses but also that #certain periods of my life i used as sample periods are not actually reflective #bc turns out how you act while actively traumatized during lockdown is not equivalent #to how you act when you're post trauma and with friends and not lockdown #(i did not act good either times But One Of Them Is More Telling. the other is just me being fifteen and Needing Help) #also ok turns out my self esteem does fucking oscillate all the time i thought that stopped but no #literally will just bounce from a high to a low for hours #anyway i promised her i'd eat something so ill go do that