#personal randomness

[gnpwdrnwhiskey]

a new cow joined the herd yesterday. 💕

#personal randomness #cows are my favorite

[waitingforasong]

❤️

It's so nice to see people are still enjoying my DB posts.

I'm too mentally exhausted at the moment to keep things going on here. I'm even too exhausted to fully engage in any special interest. That's life. I guess. 🤷‍♀️

Thanks for all the reblogs and notes.

#david byrne #personal randomness

[billiedeansbitch]

I just randomly remember how I was held back one afternoon by my english teacher during freshman year because I couldn’t finish an essay and also because I suck at english (so bad). Only if I could tell her now that I write fanfics with more then 3k words in pure fucking english with another 3k words worth of smutt 😀

#she was my favorite nonetheless #she helped me grow and be comfortable and really pushed me to learn better #english teachers are the best #personal randomness

[bipolarboii]

I wish people would stop telling me they love me. I don't feel it and it's no one's fault but my own. I say it back bc I feel I'm supposed to but the truth is that idk what I feel anymore. Do I really love anyone or do I just not care about myself enough to continue self-sabotaging?

My thoughts often contradict my actions. I'm aware. I speak death and encourage self-neglect/ harm on myself yet practice life and giving to others. Just to be clear though, my giving is not always selfless in nature which makes me question if I actually do care about others. I mean the fact I act opposite I feel in the first place could mean I care at least somewhat. However, I can't confidently say I care or feel enough love to stay. This is why I don't nurture relationships or neglect them altogether bc when the time comes, there shouldn't be any reason to mourn.

Would I give my life for others bc I care about them or bc I don't care about myself? Does it matter?

#personal randomness #this is what insanity looks like

[kingphilippepictures]

Unfortunately, I am not in Brussels today. :(

I wasn’t feeling well this morning, and the weather wasn’t exactly photo camera proof either. Hopefully I’ll get another chance next time. I do miss it a lot.

#personal randomness #i know i don't post much anymore #i don't post much on my other blog either #so... i dunno #i do still check my dashboard from time to time though

[chase-prairie]

Loving reminder from your land history auntie:

North American golf courses have had 50-100 years of arsenic and mercury based fungicide and herbicides applied to their soils.

Do not eat anything that has been grown on a golf course or downstream from a golf course. I know it sounds cool and radical, but you are too valuable to poison yourself with heavy metals.

Protect each other, turn your local golf course into a pollinator garden, not a sex forest or community garden.

#i am over here worrying about all you kiddos #also please dont forage on railway corridors either #love yourselves protect yourselves #lmao at the replies saying 'but why not sex forest anyway' #you do you kids #im personally a no thank you on the lead arsenic mercury sex forest personally #if you havent seen it there's a popular book about making golf course a sex forest #that isn't a random pull

[secretmellowblog]

People who try to analyze what happened on Tumblr on November 5th, 2020, often really overstate how much it was actually “about” Supernatural. As someone who has never been in the supernatural fandom ever but dID join in on the hysterical destielposting—it was really more about the stress of the pandemic and the 2020 presidential election.

The two biggest Youtubers I’ve seen try to dissect “what happened that November 5th” in video essays both weren’t American—- and I think that explains why they both tried to explain the hysteria primarily via analyzing the Supernatural fandom/the original show, rather than through the lens of the election. And while those videos are cool, valid, informational, and make lots of really well-considered interesting points— I can tell you that me and almost all my mutuals had literally no knowledge or interest in the fact that “oh supernatural had made nods at the ship in the past but the creators were adamant that I wouldn’t be canon” or etc etc etc etc. the first time I learned about any of that context was way later, watching videos where people claimed that fandom history context (that I did not know anything about) was the actual reason for the hysteria.

But the reality is that people latched on to the Destiel stuff because it was a piece of big useless inane zero-stakes fandom news in a time when we were desperately waiting for serious high stakes election news. We were latching onto a “positive “ piece of inane stupid fandom news in a time of great stress, with all the desperation of a drowning man who latches onto whatever piece of wood will keep him afloat.

The core of the hysteria was that Americans (who make up a huge chunk of tumblr’s userbase) were currently glued to their laptops watching the live presidential election vote counts come in. These vote counts were taking an extended amount of time due to the pandemic causing high numbers of mail-in ballots, resulting in a constant state of Election Day Stress for multiple days straight.

This was also during the height of the Pandemic. People had predicted Trump’s presidency would be bad; no one had predicted it would be this apocalyptically bad. No one had predicted pandemics and lockdowns and hospitals overflowing with bodybags. remember Trump spreading Covid lies and conspiracies?? There were so many Qanon conspiracies about democrats being Satanic child traffickers who had to be put to death, and coup threats were mounting from the right wing side. It seemed like this election was a choice between ‘centrist democrat’ and “apocalyptic right wing conspiracy theory authoritarianism,” in the midst of pandemic conditions that people feared would never ever improve— and it seemed like a close election.

Another major point was that Trump voters were more likely to be antimaskers/Covid deniers, while Biden voters were more likely to take the pandemic seriously— so Biden voters were more likely to send in mail-in ballots instead of risking the in-person voting crowds, which meant their ballots would take much longer to count. And so, in many state electoral vote counts, it would initially seem like Trump was very far in the lead— only for Biden to slooooowly build up an agonizingly small lead as the mail in ballots came in, and then defeat Trump at the very end.

So you’re just watching these news sites giving live election updates, refreshing the page every 2 minutes to see if you’re going to live under a spineless centrist democrat or a literal Qanon Dictatorship. And then you go on tumblr to distract yourself, and there’s more election posting, and more agonizing over the votes, and more stress and despair—-

And then it’s been days and we’re right at the crucial tipping point where it’s anyone’s game and the next few hours will determine whether Trump will win, so you need to keep your eye on the vote count, because the next hours will determine the future of the pandemic and your country and your plans for your entire life—

And then stupid Destiel becomes canon! And it becomes canon in the silliest way possible!

If Destiel had become canon at any other time, it would have been a big goofy tumblr celebration? But we wouldn’t have gotten the insane explosion of hysterical interaction.

The entire core of it was the contrast between the inane meaningless stupidity of fandom news vs the actual stressful election news you wanted to hear! It really is best conveyed in that meme where Castiel says “I love you” and Dean indifferently responds with a piece of important election news.

It’s about the contrast between the low-stakes inanity of fandom and the massive life-destroying stakes of a terrifying election. There really was no reason it had be Supernatural specifically, except that Supernatural was a thing everyone knew basic things about from dashboard osmosis— it could’ve been any other equally huge silly fandom ship news about a ship everyone *knew of* but might not necessarily be invested in (ex. Stucky becoming canon, Johnlock becoming canon, Kirk/Spock becoming more canon somehow, etc etc etc.)

I think it’s true that people who weren’t paying agonizingly close attention to the American election news got swept up in it, and that non American Supernatural fans also were extremely excited for purely fandom reasons — but the entire reason it blew up to an unprecedented degree was because of that core of stressed out terrified Americans glued to their computers watching election results and suddenly receiving stupid fandom news instead, and deciding to just hysterically parodically hyper-celebrate this absurd useless zero-stakes news.

I think it was also all elevated by the fact that, as I said before, this happened at the crucial “tipping point” of the election where the next few hours would determine the winner. The fact that Biden began to slowly develop a lead in the hours after made it feel, hysterically, as if the hours after Destiel became canon was somehow the turning point where he began to win; so celebrating Destiel felt like celebrating that slow turn towards victory.

The tl,dr is that it’s so important to Remember the Fifth of November …..in preparation the inevitable hysteria that will happen in the presidential election on November 5th of next year. XD. Personally I’m rooting for Johnlock or Frodo/Sam to somehow become canon in the eleventh hour right before the democrats win

#November 5th #november 5 2020 #the fifth of november #just a random ramble #November 5th 2020 is such an important day to me #it really is a holiday #but it does confuse me when I see people analyzing it primarily as a supernatural thing #instead of a ‘hysteria over an election reaches a breaking point when inane zero stakes fandom news comes out and we all latch onto it’thing #but yeah!! #this is my personal essay out of love for the holiday

[darcion]

#boop #april fool's day #personally i love getting random boops. and im booping whatever blogs are in reach

[chittychittyyangyang]

Listen, you should never film strangers in public without their consent, but I swear there need to be fines or something for people who do that shit in some spaces. For example: I had to go to the ER last night, and some jerk filmed a woman who just came in and was clearly having an asthma attack. She immediately got to go back, and he was unhappy about that. Believe me, I get that it sucks having to wait when you're in pain, but you don't get to pick who deserves care when. The medical system in the US is a nightmare, and the ER could be the worst moment of someone's life. No one deserves to be recorded because some jack ass believes someone doesn't look like they need care.

This is fine to reblog. People who film strangers should be shamed if nothing else.

#ccyy talks #sorry for posting this here but I'm pissed and this shit really needs to stop #For all I know he recorded me too cause I'm young and look healthy but got to go back next #Sorry about your cough buddy but the way things work I was a more immediate emergency #1k #5k #10k #30k #this post clearly has a life of its own now #and in case someone wants to know some clarifications for common points #people in a position of authority/actively hurting someone with the intent to protect/help the person is fine #so cops doctors nurses mental health workers and educators (to name a few) who actively are abusing their power and authority? free game #this post was filming random ass people for Content(tm) #random ass people more so those in distress aren't your content and you do not know the harm you can do to someone by posting that shit #50k

[letsdeanandcarlothis]

Loving someone you can never have is like a quiet violence you do to yourself

#personal randomness

[gnpwdrnwhiskey]

I am only two months behind the baby's arrival, lol, but holy moly I finally found the motivation to finish this little blankie! 🥳

#personal randomness #crochet #baby blankie

[waitingforasong]

Seriously, the best thing (being my old autistic self™) is diving into (or actually in this case it's more like drowning in) a special interest.

I can always count on Mou. 🤣

#you know those obsessions that never go away? #they may ebb and flow #but they're always there #and they're guaranteed to flow reaaal bad a couple of times a year #well this one always does #geez i guess it's a special one #🤣 #sorry i had to #*talks too much in the tags* #that never really changes either #personal randomness

[bioethicists]

this is going to sound simplistic + i promise you it's not: stop following people whose entire schtick is being cruel or fighting with others online. even if the ppl deserve it! even if it's not a ~problematic~ cruelty! even if you agree with all of that blog's opinions!

it's one thing if someone snaps back when provoked or posts the occasional "get a load of this guy". nobody needs to play up respectability for people who haven't given them respect in return. but if someone's online identity centers around being needlessly mean for laughs + they're constantly seeking out socially acceptable, easy targets for petty cruelty, that's a red flag. there's a huge difference between not taking shit/cracking a joke + mocking others as your several-hours-a-day hobby.

especially if, when they are inevitably in the wrong + mocking someone mercilessly to their 50k followers over something petty goes south (shocking!), they become extremely defensive or block everyone or play the victim or dismiss it as "well, how was i supposed to know they were autistic? i'm autistic + i don't meow in public" or whatever.

this isn't a "well i knew all along" post bcuz nobody should be shamed for being in the dark about something like this but many of the popular bloggers who have later been exposed for serious harassment or abuse should not have shocked us. if someone's blog is 90% shit like "you should light yourself on fire because you watch x anime" or "look at this so-called lesbian bitch + her ugly fucking boyfriend at a kink convention- it's giving drowned rats", should it really shock you that they are also being cruel or abusive in less internet-acceptable ways? if they've already shown you that they get a such a thrill out of being vicious that they do it daily + are regularly rewarded with thousands of followers?

#it's so bad on other social media platforms too #like the number of tiktokkers whose fame is just being MEAN but in a funny way #towards ppl who have done nothing to deserve it but also are not like. oppressed groups #half the time it's ppl who i also personally dislike or dont relate to but don't deserve like. repeated violent harassment #like sure i also dislike marvel movies but it's far more embarassing to run a blog dedicated to mocking + suicide baiting random marvel fan

[ofmonstersandpen]

gift giving as a love language is so underrated i swear and don’t mean just little baubles and stuff, because cute as they are, I like to give people things they can use.

when I give you a water bottle I’m helping you stay hydrated and when i give you pencils I’m helping you put down your thoughts. when i buy you cleaning cloths I’m helping you clean your house and wash your dishes. when I give you a fidget toy I’m helping you focus. when I give you shoes I’m helping you walk wherever you want to. I go to the grocery store and I call all my loved ones to ask if they want anything.

I see unscented lotion and I think of your sensitive lungs and your cracked skin. I go to the beach and I pick up every sand dollar I see, not because I want them, but because I’m from the coast and your from the city and you’ll love them more than I ever could. I see sunscreen and I think of you and how easily you burn.

My gift giving is practical, almost painfully so, because I want to give the people I love everything they need. I’ll give them cute stuff too, every now and then, but I want to attend to their needs every single day. It’s more than you looking at those things and thinking of me, even though I love that too. I give things because I want to always, always, always be helping you, even if I can’t be with you when you need me.

#love langauges #prose writing #(kinda) #i just wanted to rant abt one of my love languages #i finally have a steady income and more than i want to buy shit for myself I want to buy things for others #and it made me self examine #so here we are #rant #personal rant #personal randomness #personal ramblings #personal rambles #random #gift giving #love language #i love my family #i love my friends #i want you all to eat well and sleep well and smile as much as you can

[goldensunset]

people who go through the main tags of big and tumultuous fandoms looking for new fresh good posts to reblog are essential to any circle. they’re like true hunter gatherers leaving the safety of settlement and braving the unknown wilderness to find food for the flock. they risk their lives every day and will come back with a few scratches at best and severe psychological damage at worst

#peach rambles #hall of fame i guess #i love hearing everyone share their stories in the comments. me personally? this is about kingdom hearts #usually the main culprit is disdain and dusty old misogynistic takes for kairi (the main girl) #there's x reader occasionally #cursed content with random disney characters #or people who complain about how much the series has expanded #that don't understand that over half the story is contained in the so-called 'side games' #or just generally dusty takes that have been disproven already

[therainfromfreecloud]

my control issues combined with my magpie tendencies combined with all the truly lovely things all you tumblr denizens post has resulted in my managing to accumulate over a thousand drafted reblogs. Sigh. I am determined to clear, purge, and POST. Letting the queue just run wild unsupervised is a challenge for me, but, by damn I'm going to force myself to do it. be free little posts

#personal randomness #tumblr shenanigans