#personal ponderings

[batrachised]

one thing that really interests me is the idea of singing as an act of radical defiance and acceptance. You have the examples in media (ie the hanging tree in thg), but I've also read of the nuns in Nagasaki who, while lying in unimaginable pain in the atomic wreckage, died singing. I just read of three men who died in a concentration camp in WWII singing the Canticle of the Sun by St Francis of Assisi. You see it in the Magnificat (although perhaps not technically singing), and you see in it Of Gods and Men. I know these are mostly religious examples, but it's something that stuck with me because beauty, in being inherently dignified, can also be inherently defiant

#I think beauty orients us towards the dignity of the human person and of life #and insisting on providing the world with it even in horrific circumstances is radical in a way I'm still pondering #shower thoughts I suppose #the product of eating too many Italian ices

[inkclover]

Nostalgia 🍲 🍄

a familiar taste…a distant memory…

#UWAAAH this has been in the works for a while #cult of the lamb #cotl #cotl heket #heket #narinder #cotl narinder #cotl narilamb #cotl comic #comic #inky doods #inky art #thinking how Narinder and Heket be salty to one another the most back then #and yet one time when Shamura fell sick #it was baby Narinder who personally ask Heket to teach him to make something for ‘mura #a meal to make them feel better! #also thinking how Heket pondering how long it has been since the old faith fell leading up to her resurrection #her seeing how much Nari has changed #yet not

[docdalas]

anyone with adhd and/or autism have part of their brain that constantly tries gaslighting itself into thinking that you aren’t actually autistic, that you don’t have adhd? i’m so tired

#not using gaslighting as a buzzword believe me #every day of my life i ponder if i really have adhd and my girlfriend is just like #literally everyone can tell you are #it’s very consoling #personal #actually adhd #actually autism #do ppl still use those tags

[regina-del-cielo]

Maybe it's a 'study finds water is wet' type of thought, but

considering it's an action movie whose overall plot is "immortal warriors Fuck Shit Up™️", I think it's significant that in The Old Guard the thing that makes Copley pull red strings through his Murder Conspiracy Board and say "[Merrick] doesn't care what [Andy]'s done with [her immortality]" is the people they save, not the ones they kill

Most of the Conspiracy Board is him circling random newspaper headlines and faces on old photographs to (more or less realistically) follow the immortals' treck through the world and big historical events. Which is, in-canon, not much different than putting portraits from different centuries next to a picture of Keanu Reeves and saying "they look the same, clearly Reeves is an immortal!"

But then there are the connections. A little girl holding Joe's hand in WW1 becoming the youngest (and first) woman to be awarded a Nobel Prize for Medicine (suck it, Kozak). Or the grandchild of a family that Andy saved from [something] helping people escape from the Khmer Rouge genocide in Cambodia.

They are warriors. They have fought and been in the midst of countless wars, major or minor, throughout history. They must have killed as many people as they saved... and yet.

It's not them taking out a random warlord or dictator or rabidly hateful politician that has tangible repercussions in history. It's the children and families they get out of war zones, save from accidents, protect from natural disasters. People to whom they give a second chance at life, and grow to change the world (or even just their own world), like a mysterious stranger once changed theirs just by holding out a hand or patching a wound.

I don't know I just think it's particularly neat

#my ponderings #the old guard #I know we all love to play the 'if you could go back in time and kill One Person who would it be' game #but I think a movie that makes it EXTREMELY SATISFYING to see the Bad Guys die - #- having 'actually the best and greatest changes happen when people help each other' as its underlying message... #it means something #I also think it connects to Andy feeling like nothing she does changes anything at the start of the movie #for 80% of her life you could Solve A Problem by Taking Out The Guy Causing The Problem #especially in battle! you kill the general and you win. if you win the Problem Is Solved #but then everything becomes More Complex. the Problems™️ are globalized and/or systemic. #and Winning a Battle means just killing people. it doesn't Stop The Problem (nor really end a war) #so it feels useless #and even when they save people... they can’t stay in people's lives for long because immortality #which means they can never know what happens to the people they save #they don't (and can't) have the full picture

[ministarfruit]

salt outfit swap

#vtuber #ouro kronii #calliope mori #magni dezmond #noir vesper #holofateswap #hololive #holostars #holotempus #holocouncil #holopromise #holomyth #holohmygodthere'ssomanytags #I'm having too much fun with these #and STILL nobody is stopping me #so continue I shall #it just tickles my brain good #it makes me think about how a tailored outfit would be worn on another body type #like unironically I'm sitting here pondering how the fabric would fall #and how a different person would POSE with another person's outfit... it's an interesting exercise

[idliketobeatree]

Crowley was God's most dramatic creation.

She was also feeling particularly bitchy and gay that day, and thus, Aziraphale was made.

#anyways. God is a woman going through a hyperfixation and then burning out by the seventh day #good omens #ineffable husbands #good omens god #ineffable spouses #aziracrow #crowley x aziraphale #crowley #aziraphale #good omens s2 #good omens season 2 #gomens #good omens text post #good omens shitpost #feeling blasphemous today #and i'm tired of pretending these posts don't heal something in me #like. i'm reaching the point where God could be whoever I wanted her to be as a big /fuck you to religious trauma #it's nothing novel or special. just a fun thing to ponder #I'm a firm believer that in the gomens universe She created them as one btw #just as Neil and Terry created Crowley first #and then split their personalities into two #:) #marcela talks

[tinylittlelilac]

Thank you guys for the love always . constantly nervous abt what I’m posting but you all always make it worth it 🫶🫶 my love to u!!!!!!!!

comes on here to drop you this ..

thinking about Yuzuru becoming more and more enamored and he doesn’t even realize it 🗣️🗣️ can anyone in the crowd hear me 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

I will be back on to browse enjoy and repost later. Rn I’m going to snooze ^^ good night to all hokuto enjoyers specifically

#enstars #lilac.art #ensemble stars #yuzuru fushimi #midoyuzu #midori takamine #idiots in love #wow #when someone’s in your ear telling you much they love you #and somehow you start to love them too #how we feeling about the upcoming midori fs #personally I’m slamming into walls #also #General question #if you happen to see this #what bird would you associate w midori #rn I’m leaning towards quail or grouse #also pondering mockingbird #feel free to dm or send submission… #I love birds tbh #reached day 200 of entraining #on that grind #I have so many mdyz drafts #you wouldn’t believe it

[tomcriuse]

Álvaro Morte as Sergio Marquina La Casa de Papel | Season 1

#I'm personally a big fan of the really hq gifs juxtaposed with the really low quality ones #the graininess is God's way of reminding me of that we are dust and to dust we will return #bro got me lying in bed arms crossed over stomach pondering #sergio marquina #álvaro morte #money heist #la casa de papel #moneyheistedit #tvedit #mancandykings #flawlessgentlemen #userstream #tuserdaniela #usersavana #tuserlou #usersole #tusersonny #userzo #userbbelcher #*mine

[acasternaut]

i gotta do everything myself around here

#anyways. here's our girl casting spells and pondering her orb lol #my chemical romance #mcr #gerard way #mcr warsaw #my own personal favorites #red talks

[noirtek]

#i personally still have not decided yet. i really cannot say #the scene where they do fight and strahm wins is muddy ground because hoffman could have let strahm win because he’d survive regardless #thinking about it a lot a lot strahm has a height advantage as well as fbi training #while hoffman has a weight advantage and john kept him as apprentice just for his strength #but hoffman does almost lose that fight when he was kidnapping paul with john #hoffman is the type to fight dirty however (insert script of hoffman kicking strahm in the balls) so ..pondering #r #saw

[catastrxblues]

“we accept the love we think we deserve” drives me insane, drags my sanity to the moon, through hell, and to saturn and back, and alters everything inside me on a molecular level. i just can’t stop thinking about it

#i keep reminding myself that but #I WANT TO BE LOVED #I CARE MORE TO BE LOVED #i’m sick and insane and worst of all desperate #my reasoning is so selfish i get that but is there anything more selfish than this to begin with #ewwww sometimes i look at myself in this state from a third person point of view and feel like judging because why. #WHY DID YOU LET YOURSELF PONDER #you have the goal™️ to focus on #got lovestruck went straight to my head #the perks of being a wallflower #nadirants

[tvpsychics]

[pounding on the bus windows] please does anyone remember the young justice 80 page giant 1890s vampire hunters au does anyone remember please pl[i am taken away]

#for context cassie is passing as a man here (but not while in vampire hunter mode) :p #i have been pondering the logistics of my own personal version of this universe for like a month #i love thinking so hard about a concept u were clearly supposed 2 see and go ‘huh cool’ and never think about again #arrowette #wonder girl #cissie king jones #cassie sandsmark #young justice #cissiecassie #young justice 1998 #young justice 80 page giant #i drew a greta too but i didnt like how she turned out :/

[pratchettquotes]

Ponder knew he should have never let Ridcully look at the invisible writings. Wasn't it a basic principle never to let your employer know what it is you actually do all day?

But no matter what precautions you took, sooner or later the boss was bound to come in and poke around and say things like, "Is this where you work, then?" and "I thought I sent a memo out about people bringing in potted plants," and "What d'you call that thing with the keyboard?"

And this had been particularly problematical for Ponder, because reading the invisible writings was a delicate and meticulous job, suited to the kind of temperament that follows Grand Prix Continental Drift and keeps bonsai mountains as a hobby or even drives a Volvo. It needed painstaking care. It needed a mind that could enjoy doing jigsaw puzzles in a dark room. It did not need Mustrum Ridcully.

Terry Pratchett, The Last Continent

#ponder stibbons #mustrum ridcully #the last continent #discworld #terry pratchett #unseen university #wizards #academics #coworkers #bad bosses #work #colleagues #job description #theoretical physics #invisible writings #magic #personality types #patience #grand prix continental grift #bonsai mountains #volvo

[portpebble]

You know, I really like how Raph's anxiety is portrayed in ROTTMNT.

A lot of the time characters who have anxiety tend to be introverted and quiet and more on the passive side. And some people with anxiety are like that, and that's fine! However, when the majority of characters with anxiety are portrayed like this, you tend to get the sense that anxiety is synonymous with these traits, which isn't true.

Which is why I think Raph being a character with anxiety is so important. He's extroverted and he's loud and at times he's hotheaded. He's assertive and (initially) a leader, he's not afraid to speak his mind. AND he also becomes overwhelmed and worried rather easily, he panics when he's left alone for even short periods of time, he gets nervous under pressure very quickly, he has to take deep breaths to calm himself down on multiple occasions.

These aspects of his character don't contradict themselves, they're all just parts of who he is, and are treated as such! It's SO refreshing to see an anxious character who's allowed to be strong and brazen and outgoing, who takes care of others and who others look up to, who's anxious traits aren't boiled down to "shy" and "doesn't like people".

#he's so good :] as someone who has anxiety and is also just an outgoing person it makes me so happy to see the way he's written! #thank you raph for singlehandedly taking out the anxiety = shyness narrative youre so brave (i hand him every award) #pebble ponderings #rottmnt #rise raph #tmnt

[sesamenom]

more of Mae's adventures in Castle Dracula

aka: Maedhros used Punch! It's super effective!

#silm #silmarillion #maedhros #dracula #crossover #oh i think i need a tag for this too #it already has its own sticky note color so it gets a tag #hmm #mae's adventures in castle dracula #context: he cut himself a bit on a broken bookshelf and drac grabbed his arm #then promptly got punched #also mae; being very treelight-y; is a natural vampire repellant apparently #so not only did dracula get punched in the face #he basically got punched in the face by a giant crucifix in terms of the amount of damage it dealt #after this scene mae briefly wonders if he misjudged how strong a punch an old adan can survive #because drac just fell on the floor and didnt move for a full ten minutes #dracula: where did you learn to fight like that #maedhros: i have six younger brothers and all of them bite #wait. after dealing with his various bitey siblings/cousins' antics mae is probably the best person at avoiding being bitten #his reflexes are strong enough that drac tries to bite him and he automatically grabs drac by the back of the collar #and relocates him to the newly declared Time Out Corner #drac runs away to hide in his room pondering his life choices #while mae realizes 'oh wait. that was a vampire' #because hey an angry guy wearing all black attacking you with his teeth? that describes teenage caranthir pretty well

[sage-writes-n-coins-mogai]

There’s no need to explain yourself, being a radqueer is pretty self explanatory enough. You lot think that children and animals can consent and therefore you should be allowed to have a sexual relationship with them even though COUNTLESS studies have proven that doing so has many negative effects on the child/animal yet you ignore that and say that the people who are against you as “ageist” and “specieiest”. 

You think that you can just “become” disabled and romanise very serious disabilities/illnesses like or “transition” to have trauma, ignoring the fact that many people who went through trauma such as SA, RAMCOA and human trafficking are barely able to function in society. Just overall romanticising human suffering because you think it‘s “fun” to have BPD, which can LITERALLY MAKE YOU OFF YOURSELF and push everyone you love away.

You radqueers think you can just “transition” to another race which is incredibly racist regardless of if you’re white or POC. And if you don’t understand HOW it’s racist than that’s a skill issue on your behalf.

You mfs would do anything to be seen as MORE accepting, MORE progressive and feel superior at the expense of real-world people and real-world research and proof. So no you don’t need to explain yourself, we know just how heinous you radqueer cunts are and can be.

#sage ponders #rant post #personal rant #anti radqueer #anti transabled #anti transautistic #anti transid #anti rq #anti transx #antiradqueer #anti trace #tw radqueer