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bananafishiguro · 2 years

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currently thinking about the crushing reality that eiji is definitely afraid of pumpkins now too. and not in the same way ash was like little kid afraid, more like the sight of them reminds him so deeply of ash and a really fond memory between the two of them that it is actually really painful for eiji. so he has ended up taking on ash’s fear. halloween is super hard for eiji. he always tries really hard to enjoy it but he never really can. he dresses up and tries so hard to pretend to be someone else just for one night but he just sees ash everywhere on halloween

#banana fish #ash lynx #eiji okumura #asheiji #eiji hc #pain pain never ending pain #if this makes you said blame rk who told me to post it #literally said #bro you wound me ok post it #I love rk #and I love eiji

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lovelyheartclover · 2 months

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 4 days

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I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #wen qing #jiang cheng #Truly Massive disclaimer here: I am a Jiang Cheng enjoyer. I like his character. I enjoy that he is very flawed and volatile.#This episode of the audio drama has a lot of great breakdown scenes featuring JC - and they all deserve a feature.#But underlying this comic is a small meta comment of 'ah man I have too many comics of JC just wailing sadly'#My goal is to draw 6-8 comics per episode - I sometimes have to truncate and cut good scenes out.#Especially when a large majority is just different flavours of trauma and toxic relationships to your self-worth.#I would also like to make a note here that just because you lose the ability to do something that is very tied to your core identity-#-does not mean your life is over. It will feel like the end of the world. It will send you into a spiral of grief. It will hurt so badly.#Sometimes we do not realize how tied up our identities can be in certain things until we are cut loose.#You don't lose yourself. I promise the pain will fade in time. I promise you will find other things to tether you. I promise you will be ok #Life moves forwards. Time moves forwards. You move forwards.#Ego death just means an opportunity for ego rebirth. You are never committed to being the same person forever.#To wrap this around to JC: Yeah I love the twist with the core transfer but man I would have loved to see JC accept the loss.#Obviously it happens for a reason (story) but I can have my AUs. I can have these 'what-ifs'.#described in alt text #I'm trying it out! *please* give me feedback - I want to eventually Add image ID to all of these comics one day

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ylceon · 4 months

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we are blessed with two hands: one that gives, and one that takes

#my art #honkai impact #bianka ataegina #rita rossweisse #durarita #basically rita (known as the white rose) can consume other ppls sins and purify them within her #little did she know that shes not immune to it #and she becomes poisoned by it #and she spreads her madness across the kingdom where the king (bianka) hears about it and never sought to fight her directly #bianka just fights the creatures brought by rita's madness....#in the end bianka only confronts her upon learning that her beloved was in excruciating pain bc of her predicament

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chaiaurchaandni · 6 months

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also remember that no form of resistance is ever acceptable to the colonizer. and that includes non-violent resistance (the great march of return) + non-violence is only successful against a force that has a conscience. but if your opponent had a conscience, he would not be oppressing you in the first place.

#its a bit weird how people who have been oppressed for decades are held to this moral standard that not even their oppressor is held to tbh #also yeah agreed w the person here like if i was a part of such a group being oppressed i would not just sit and take it #there's only so much pain and loss you can take #israelis want to cause so much destruction that it debilitates the palestinians but it ends up fuelling their desire to fight back even mor #i was just reading up on how initially the people who made up hamas focused on social services #and only became interested in developing a militant wing after israel's brutal occupation of south lebanon #and the plo's retreat #even before oct 7 #hamas fighting back was never acceptable to Israel #even if they were only using rockets made of scrap metal. no form of resistance can ever be acceptable to the occupier.#free palestine #palestine #gaza #israel #israeli war crimes #death to israel #long live palestine #glory to the martyrs #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #long live the resistance

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grayluforever · 3 months

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THEY DESERVED A HAPPY ENDING, FUCK YOU

#cherrisnake #sir pentious x cherri bomb #otp #anti viviziepop #SIR PENTIOUS DESERVES BETTER #hazbin hotel spoilers #snakebomb #CHERRISNAKE IS CANON #WE WERE ROBBED OF A HAPPY ENDING #I WILL NEVER FORGIVE VIVI FOR KILLING OFF SIR PENTIOUS LIKE THAT!!!#VIVI DID MY SHIP AND MY FAVE CHARACTER BOTH DIRTY!!!#CHERRISNAKE DESERVED BETTER #I AM IN PAIN AND IN TEARS #My ship happened BUT AT WHAT COST😭🤲🤲🤲🤲

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lazylittledragon · 2 months

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fucking. gatekeeper fans who shame people for liking the most popular/well known songs. what the fuck are they even bragging about. never being able to hear your favourite song at a concert??? insanity

#ramble #why are you trying to inflict the pain of never hearing your favourite song played live onto others #the crushing feeling of getting to the end of the set and they haven't played it and definitely won't finish with it #i like that fob is playing stuff they don't usually play on their tour right now though!!!!!

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surreal-duck · 6 months

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With love, for you.

(extra vers under the cut!)

#tshirt that says i am normal after raison d'etre #duck scribbles #valkyrie #mika kagehira #shu itsuki #shumika #mademoiselle #enstars #another tshirt that says i am normal after the valkyrie trip album. (extreme lie)#never drawing hair drills ever again after this that was kind of painful #funny thing that happened while i was doing the lineart my friend saw and asked hey that kinda looks like mademoiselle #and i told them it was!!! and had the pleasure of informing them how it was shus grandpa madonee was modelled after and grandpa itsuki's #doomed parisian yuri romance and his reaction was simply a five stages of grief speedrun. it was great i love telling her things #ensemble stars #kind of started to not like how it turned out by the end of it but its swagever. agh i didnt improve much this year huh 😔👊👊👊#edit I NOTICED I FORGOT TO COLOR IN SOME LINES RAHG fixed now orz

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createandconstruct · 6 months

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Thinking about Peter's absolute cry of anguish after the final boss battle when he finds Harry unresponsive. Thinking about how all he can say is I'm sorry. Thinking about the fact that in Peter's head it was him at May's side sobbing I'm sorry. Thinking about how "with great power comes great responsibility" can never be separated from the guilt Peter feels. Thinking about how that guilt extends to May. How it extends to Ben. How it cripples Peter so much that he tells Miles that he can't do this again. Thinking about Peter's voice as he'd begged Harry to fight - pleaded with him to not make him do this. Thinking about how when consumed with the symbiote Peter had screeched out I'm the hero, I don't get saved! Thinking about how that's not just pride, how that's not just responsibility, how it's guilt. How it's always been Peter and the weight of the world, the life of his loved ones, and their blood on his hands. And now it's Harry's and Peter just breaks. Always the hero, he's done the right thing, but this time it's the last straw. His best friend. The last sacrifice Peter Parker can take...

...and it's then... that Miles saves him.

#peter parker #miles morales #marvel's spider man #harry osborn #insomniac spider man #spider man 2 ps5 #guys the ending blew me away it was so good #I am so tired and overworked but i want to write for this game so badly holy fuck #I just cANNOT get over Yuri's voice acting in that final cutscene is fucking 'harry im sorry' and then his absolute y e l l of pain #aND i DIDNT GET SPOILED THIS TIME SO I WAS LIKE Oh fuck Dont do this to him #like Miles is fucking incredible idgaf #Miles did what Spider-man could never do: Save Peter #spider man 2 spoilers #spider man 2 ps5 spoilers #i just keep thinking about and watching the ending im forever changed

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canisalbus · 3 months

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I think you've mentioned before that after Machete's passing, Vasco would eventually find another partner that he'd live out the rest of his days with. Do you think he'd tell them about Machete at some point? Or would he feel it's safer/easier to keep the stories and memories to himself? If he did tell his partner I'd also understand if he chose to leave out certain details, such as Machete's job, whether it be for general safety or a sense to protect Machete's privacy and reputation even though he's gone

I think the partner Vasco lives the rest of his days with is most likely his platonic wife Ludovica, the one he was already married to at the time he reunited with Machete in their early thirties. I can see him eventually starting to try to see other men again, and he might love them too, but the whole process of trying to open up to other people (after all those years and the way things ended) would be kind of lonely, frustrating and painful for the most part. Chances are none of his subsequent relationships would last very long. He'd probably grow closer to Ludovica and she would do her best to support him. I'm not sure how much of his 10+ years with Machete he'd be able to share with anyone to be honest.

#answered #anonymous #death #cw death #Vaschete lore #it's not like he's doomed to be alone and never know love again #but Machete's untimely passing left a massive hole in him and he might not be able to fill it in any meaningful way #even if he tried and lived to an advanced age #I think the most unbearable thing would be the banality of it all #they tried so hard to make things work and keep each other safe and their whole co-existence was shadowed by secrecy #and then everything just ends and world keeps going around him #he can't share his pain with anyone or grieve properly because so few people knew of them and it has to remain that way

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bird-inacage · 7 months

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Only Friends Episode 7 | "You wouldn't get me." "You're right, I might not get you."

This episode did me so dirty. We had about ten seconds of Ray/Sand fluff and then THIS happens. I'm so completely heartbroken for him. Seeing Ray and Mew together just felt so wrong. (I'll have to dive into a separate post as to why). But for now, I just feel for my man here.

#only friends #only friends the series #ofts #ray x sand #sand x ray #raysan #sanray #raymew #mewray #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #book kasidet #mark pakin #khaofirst #firstkhao #im so goddamn salty #how much does my man have to endure??#the pain never ends #i love how the bar lights flashing looks like thunder

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insomnya777 · 10 days

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boat boys coded

#....does this make sense #it does in my head #lovers lane. dead end.#aka double life #they know it won't lead anywhere #in the long run it will only end in pain #whether it ends in a screaming match or just one too many empty promises — it doesn't matter. it still ends either way #and that's the part that really counts #but they don't do anything about it because what is there to do? your only option is to live the story #even if you know how it ends #so they go along with it #what other choice do they have?#they fall in love and they kiss and they kill and they do it all together. they follow lovers lane all the way until the end of the road #until they can't deny it anymore #their time is up #double life is over #they're running on borrowed time - delaying the inevitable #it's a dead end #and it was always going to be #and somewhere in between they may have convinced themselves that it might be different #(it's not)#(it never is)#IS THIS ANYTHING GUYS...#maybe i'm just insane #nya talks #hermitblr #trafficblr #joel smallishbeans #boat boys #smalletho

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kaaragen · 17 days

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Absolutely incensed at the Cass review. A whole string of cherry-picked studies, placing impossible standards to ignore others, and utter despicable nonsense (effectively defining people under 25 as children??). It is in no way a fair, comprehensive or even credible study that would have failed as an undergraduate dissertation.

And yet it's going to be accepted and implemented across the elements of the political system that matters. Fucking horrific.

I'm so so sorry for any transperson in the UK. It's truly a never ending nightmare.

#uk politics #transmisogyny #transgender #cass review #just never ending bullshit and pain

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s-aint-elmo · 9 months

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the "girls seeking an impossible wish trapped in a system that twists them into hollow shells of grief and resentment used by other girls to fuel their own desperate struggle" pipeline is multiversal

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#revue starlight #daiba nana #nana daiba #puella magi madoka magica #akemi homura #homura akemi #doodles #mine #alternate title: give a lesbian a timeloop and she'll achieve unprecedented levels of negative character development #for context the text on nana is the witch walpurgisnacht's desc and the text on homura is from the final scene of revstar's starlight #spec dialogue spoken by claire to her gaystie flora after flora falls from the tower and claire is trapped inside. in case u are not #in the intersection of the venn diagram #we r webweaving #YOU MUST UNDERSTAND. when i realized this i went a little insane #like banana IS walpurgisnachtcore and homura IS floracore #banana wants to create a stage where there is no pain or suffering at the cost of stagnancy. homura makes a promise that madoka #cannot remember. homura falls from the tower time and again while madoka ends her struggle by remaining at the summit and ensuring #that homura never gets her wish (to protect her. to save her)#like i'm ill about it. somebody put homura in the audience for starlight and watch her crumple like a submersible #shoujo kageki revue starlight

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lovestory · 1 year

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i loved that taylor was very touched by the pictures of marjorie being held up and she was very very cute about it with her little speech but at the end of the day...it could have easily gone the other way? the people who did that just did it hoping they could make viral content out of it, without even stopping to consider why it crossed a boundary...just very weird vibes around it all, people are so desensitized

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idk-bruh-20 · 1 year

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Tony, the futurist

Buckle in folks, I've had some thoughts and I'm about to make it ✨everyone's✨ problem.

Been thinking about Tony Stark, the futurist who saw the end of the world.

Tony, who in IM1 escapes kidnapping and torture and says, "I shouldn't be alive. Unless if was for a reason."

who, in The Avengers, has this exchange with Bruce Banner:

Tony: You know, I've got a cluster of shrapnel, trying every second to crawl its way into my heart. This stops it. This little circle of light. It's part of me now, not just armor. It's a… terrible privilege. Bruce: But you can control it. Tony: Because I learned how. Bruce: It's different. Tony: Hey, I've read all about your accident. That much gamma exposure should've killed you. Bruce: So you're saying that the Hulk… the other guy… saved my life? That's nice. It's a nice sentiment. Saved it for what? Tony: I guess we'll find out. Bruce: You might not like that. Tony: You just might.

Right after this, Cap tells Tony, "You're not the guy to make the sacrifice play, to lay down on a wire and let the other guy crawl over you."

And then Tony flies a nuke into a wormhole, tries to call his girlfriend because he thinks these are his last moments, did not go in there expecting to survive.

Although he survives, he witnesses an alien army so terrifying, so unbeatable, it gives him crippling PTSD nightmares and panic attacks, knowing they are not prepared to defend the earth.

I'm thinking about Tony who, in AOU, gets manipulated by Wanda into witnessing his worst nightmare.

Which, by the way, involves losing all of his newfound friends.

Later, he has this exchange with Nick Fury:

Tony: And I'm the man who killed the Avengers. I saw it. I didn't tell the team, how could I? I saw them all dead, Nick. I felt it. The whole world, too. It's because of me. I wasn't ready. I didn't do all I could. Fury: The Maximoff girl, she's working you, Stark. Playing on your fear. Tony: I wasn't tricked, I was shown. It wasn't a nightmare, it was my legacy. The end of the path I started us on. Fury: You've come up with some pretty impressive inventions, Tony. War isn't one of them. Tony: I watched my friends die. You'd think that'd be as bad as it gets, right? Nope. Wasn't the worst part. Fury: The worst part is that you didn't.

Tony's worst fear is to survive in a world he's failed to save. He has to "do all [he] could" or else the future he's terrified of will happen and it will be his fault.

(Not to put too fine a point on it, but there's a reason why Tony and Peter are so compatible as mentor and mentee.)

Tony's seen what's coming, and he's willing to do whatever it takes.

Here's the thing, though:

Tony doesn't actually want to die.

In AOU, when they're arguing about why he created Ultron, Tony says this to Cap:

"Isn't that the mission? Isn't that the 'why we fight'? So we get to go home?"

He tells Bruce that the reason they should create Ultron is to have "peace in our time."

He tells Pepper that his constant tinkering, his inability to ever, ever rest is because he needs to keep her safe from the oncoming threat.

Tony has a life he wants to protect, people he wants to keep safe. And, unlike the other Avengers, he knows exactly how impossible this will be to achieve.

Tony is the only Avenger who understands how severely outmatched they are. Maybe Thor understands the threat, but he has no ability to imagine losing.

Tony tries to get them to understand:

Tony: Recall that? A hostile alien army came charging through a hole in space. We're standing three hundred feet below it. We're the Avengers. We can bust arms dealers all the live long day, but, that up there? That's… that's the end game. How were you guys planning on beating that? Steve: Together. Tony: We'll lose. Steve: Then we'll do that together, too.

Well, they do lose. And they don't do it together.

And it turns out Tony was right about everything.

He was right that he would survive to face his world that he'd failed to save.

He was right that the Avengers would not be enough.

He was right that Bruce's powers would be worthwhile someday.

And, apparently,

some people think he was right that he was only alive for this reason.

Because, obviously, the only "reason" for someone like Tony Stark to be alive is to eventually sacrifice himself, right?

A character so traumatized can only find peace in death.

Right?

No.

Stop that.

Tony Stark may have been willing to risk his life for his family, but that doesn't mean he wanted that to be his end.

Remember when this happened?

Bruce: Saved it for what? Tony: I guess we'll find out. Bruce: You might not like that. Tony: You just might.

Bruce gets to live long enough to like his ending.

Remember when this happened?

All Tony ever wanted to do was make the world a better place.

And, what about this?

You're telling me that Yinsen didn't value family above all else?

That he thought Tony should die and leave them behind?

No.

Tony Stark is a futurist.

He is the Cassandra of the MCU. He warns the others constantly of the oncoming threat that only he, apparently, can see. (Even Thanos calls him "cursed with knowledge.")

No one believes him. Alone, he tries to prepare for the threat that he has witnessed. He sits with his nightmares and tries to find a way around them, constantly.

He builds a life worth living, finds people worth protecting, just like Yinsen told him to.

To protect the future, he does all he possibly can.

Tony deserved to be part of the future too.

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