#or they do and they're being harmful

[inkskinned]

im gonna start a fight; and, at the same time, i need you to take this in the most good-faith way possible, but:

videos that involve body-checking and intentionally (and uncritically) show a mealplan of an unhealthy number of calories are just a revamped version of pro-ana food diaries.

and yeah, i know there's arguments. i address some of them under the cut. but at the end of the day, we're just coming back to romanticizing mental illness; we've just found a better platform for it.

this is already something we've done. we knew it was wrong and tried to stop it. and tbh. it just wasn't enough.

there are people who argue "well, what if you have an eating disorder, you can't help it if you don't eat!" except that as someone with an ED; we are not infants. we know what we're doing. part of having an ED is that you are like, maybe too self-aware. even if we can't help our own food choices, we don't need to fucking romanticize the disorder - something we've been warning you about since 2013. there are hours of setup, filming, and editing that go into these videos. they do not happen to fall into place randomly. there is a reason they are pieced together to be beautiful, bright, inspiring.

there's this woman who pretty much only posts daily plans under a normal amount of calories, and everyone defends her saying but it's better than nothing! and i'm like. except she opens those with images of her showing off her body and provides no context in the video or caption that suggests that she believes what she's doing is unhealthy. she has hundreds of thousands of followers on a platform designed for young kids and teens. i refuse to believe that by accident her content just happens to be cheery advice on "healthy" versions of starving.

for any other symptom of mental illness, we would be incredibly enraged by this kind of placid acceptance of a "tips and tricks" fast-start guide. imagine if people posted pink & pretty videos saying "best places to cut yourself" as if it was a fucking storytime. we, as a society, are so fucking fatphobic that we would rather accept blatantly harmful displays of self harm than admit that we are obsessed with a hyper-thin body type.

i am not suggesting someone never talks about their disorder. i talk about mine. actually, it's a plot point in my book.

here's the difference: i recognize it's a fucking mental illness. i am very careful to never mention a specific weight, eating pattern, or calorie plan. i always make sure to position it as something that ruined my fucking life. i do not put cheery music in the background and hearts and sparkles over my worst moments. i do not film it in bright light. i do not start each passage with an image of a thin body followed by "here's how to look like her."

eating disorders should not be framed as aspirational. and the problem is that society worships the "after" image, so long as you don't get too sick. there is a reason so many people who quit being "influencers" will later admit - i wasn't eating well that whole time; an obsession with food was completely destroying my life.

we let any uncredited, uncertified person write the most backwards, fucked up shit about how to get the body you desire! because the underlying, secret belief is: well, at least they're thin! and the real thing that fucking gets me each time - they make fucking money off of it. their irresponsibility and societal harm literally pays off for them.

"why do you care so much." "don't like it don't look." "so what if people experiment with new ways of thinking of food?"

thank you for asking. we're about to get extremely personal. it's because when i was 18 i discovered "thinspiration"/"thinspo." and it absolutely influenced, shaped, and codified my pre-existing eating disorder. i went from having some troubling habits and traits to being incredibly unwell within what felt like a matter of days. there were actual pages designed to train me on how to have an ED correctly. it was all so suddenly easy. i was sick; and the nature of the illness meant - i wanted to be sicker.

it takes an average of 7 years for a person to fully recover. i know this personally - even now, 10 years from the worst of it, i still fucking struggle. i am so much happier now and i eat what i want and i literally don't think about food at all (19 year old me would shudder) and yet - i still fucking know the calories of plain toast with butter.

an eating disorder is one of the deadliest types of mental illness. over 1 in 4 people with an ED will attempt suicide.

and i'm sorry. i just do not see the exchange rate of "high rate of engagement" versus "the value of a human life."

#and there's something else in there about like .... #tbh once i got over something like 1k followers #i stopped being specific about my ED for a REASON. #yes on ur personal locked blog that u use like a diary go ahead etc #but we are OBVIOUSLY not talking about that. we're talking about the sheer NUMBER of people i could be talking about #in that one paragraph. that you and i probably were thinking about 2 different influencers #bc they get to say that they're just posting FITNESS and if it's FITNESS it's OKAY and im like #jesus christ lord almighty #every person in recovery from an ED: this is incredibly dangerous holy shit do you know how much this would have triggered me #each of these ppl: how dare you!!!!!!!!! i am only harming those who WANT to engage with my content!!!!! #their followers: leave them alone !!! they can't help that they make an hours-long choice to frame their disorder as if it was #fucking cottagecore !!!! #like girlie this person needs THERAPY #again! i didn't even have that large of a following before i IMMEDIATELY deleted any specific mention of calories food etc #bc i recognize responsibility and i didnt EVER want to even ACCIDENTALLY encourage this #and im not even GETTING PAID FOR THIS!!! #aND THEY ARE!!! #something something something they know this content makes them money #they don't give a SHIT about u babe

[everysongineverykey]

the owl house was really like oh yeah by the way a significant number of children avoided being collected solely because they were hiding out inside this one high school and all the adults in the building and a few of their classmates and friends were turned to puppets right before their eyes and taken away and they've just been alone here ever since. yeah it's been months since they've seen their families. it's unclear whether or not they're aware that the collector's been using their loved ones as toys in reenactments of the adventures of a lost friend of theirs. there are kindergarteners trapped in there. they spent a significant amount of time and effort on a meticulous, perfectly constructed stone statue honoring their collected principal who was one of the only people protecting them when the collector's spies came and it's dorky and unprofessional but they're so genuinely grateful for what he did and they never got to thank him themselves. their "leader" is the former captain of the grudgby team who's deeply traumatized and terrified 100% of the time and only took the job cause she wanted some sense of control over a nightmare situation. an adult in disguise has been manipulating her to do what she's told this entire time. their food is rotten and moldy and they were so scared of being found they put a sign up outside that said "no non-puppets inside". yeah. it's funny though. it's just a silly joke. look at luz's new palisman!

#the owl house #toh spoilers #this isn't a criticism of new hexside's portrayal or anything #i don't think it's tonally bad or whatever to play this mostly for a joke it's a great segment #i just. god. i have a lot of thoughts about the new hexside kids. they're KIDS okay they're kids #and they think they're responsible for rebuilding society. they can't leave their makeshift home #without risking being collected or killed. hell they can't WALK AROUND INSIDE without risking harm. #i think about that kindergartener pretending to kill an enemy to 'save their father' and i just. sigghhhh. #the littler kids probably have even less of an idea what's going on than the older ones. god. do they even know where their parents are??? #like. god. do you understand?? do you see my agitation?? ed fell into an empty well while running for his life #away from the spies #after trying to find and rescue amity and alador no less! #and he spent the next few months in a full body cast!! you don't walk away from that unscathed! he's a kid!!!

[severalowls]

Are you capable of passing a street musician without making a sneering remark? When a hawker tries to sell you random trinkets they made, do you grasp them by the shoulders and tell them how much you hate them?

If so, you may be able to scroll past a blazed post of somebody's art you don't like without leaving a rude comment!

#i swear literally every art related blaze ive seen has been SWAMPED with people being snarky shits on it #you actually dont HAVE to do that! #you can let something you think is ugly/cringe/unremarkable slide! you can keep scrolling! #you dont actually HAVE to be mean to strangers who aren't even doing anything wrong #like if its something actively harmful or fucky like the christian preacher then whatever #but somebody writing a janky poem about how they're kind of sad? let them fucking live

[ghouljams]

"look here's my name, burden me"

has the same literary significance to me as wuthering height's "haunt me, then!" and euripides' "I'll take care of you / It's rotten work / Not to me. Not if it's you."

My love, I have never received a higher honor. I think of "not to me. not if it's you" often, it reminds me of another quote that I don't remember the author of(might have been a tumblr post tbh) that says "there are people who will love your burden" and it just destroys me. There is love that will bear your weight, no matter how heavy, and I want to write about it.

I want Witch to have it, because I'm scared I'm too much like her and I never will.

#ghoul speaks #many thoughts on this #many thoughts on Price being the Atlas to Witch's earth #many thoughts on fae marriages and the vows they're built on #no harm will befall you from mine or anyone else's hand if I can stop it #your burdens shall be mine the same way mine will be yours #you shall never be a guest my doors will always lead you home #nothing offered by my hand will be repaid it's for your love that I am able to do these things #let food and drink past your lips never chain you to me but happily would I chain myself to you #oc: witch #fae!price

[thedreadvampy]

vaguing a post that's on my dash that I don't want to engage with (as usual) but actually no CPTSD isn't a diagnosis for 'when things were a tiny bit bad a lot' or 'if you experienced relationships that were toxic but not abusive' it's a diagnosis describing the impacts of CONTINUOUS TRAUMA. not less significant but more frequent trauma; trauma which is ongoing/continuous/recurring in developmental years.

like I'm not trying to gatekeep here and I recognise the value of saying 'it doesn't have to be a Single Big Obvious Trauma' because one key thing about CPTSD is that generally it makes traumatic incidents Your Normal so you don't necessarily view them as unusual or concerning. but I often see people talk about CPTSD as if it implies smaller individual incidents than PTSD and that just is not the case.

most experiences I have seen people be diagnosed with CPTSD for (myself included) are not 'a little bit toxic'. they are things which, each incident taken separately, an outsider would still recognise as traumatic - medical emergencies, rape and sexual abuse, significant physical violence, emotional abuse and coercive control, homelessness, severe poverty, war, torture, etc - and the thing that makes the PTSD C is not the relative level of the trauma, but the fact that it's enough of a repeated and consistent pattern, at an early enough stage, and sufficiently embedded in everyday life, that it becomes a person's baseline for 'normal'.

CPTSD is not a synonym for emotional microtraumas or cumulative trauma or 'death by a thousand cuts'. It's specifically defining the psychological differences in response to long term formative trauma as opposed to traumatic events which you process as an aberration (eg the difference between regular violence against you from trusted adults in childhood vs being physically abused for the first time in adulthood with existing experience of healthy relationships). Traumas causing CPTSD tend to be pretty similar in type, scale and severity to traumas causing standard PTSD - they are just more embedded and normalised earlier in life.

all this to say there's nothing wrong with acknowledging that cumulative microtraumas can't affect us in traumatic ways. there's nothing wrong with pointing out that there's a broad range of types of trauma, and trauma can include stuff like growing up marginalised or ill as well as abuse, war, injury or immediate loss. there's nothing wrong, too, with acknowledging that a lot that is traumatic doesn't necessarily feel traumatic to you.

but like. no. CPTSD is not a diagnosis for people whose trauma wasn't 'big enough' for PTSD. CPTSD is not cumulative microtraumas. CPTSD is a response to formative macrotraumas or to a long term traumatic situation without hope of escape or change and if you want to talk about microtraumas then do that but it's not what CPTSD is!

#red said #this has really pissed me off sorry I've seen several people post things like this #so this post just tipped me over #but like. goddamn. cptsd is not microtrauma. #and there are benefits to encouraging people to think of things as potentially traumatic before they're ready to register them as harm #but imo that's counterbalanced by the fact that again a major part of CPTSD for a lot of people is that we Think Severe Trauma Is Normal #so i do not think it's USEFUL to AGREE that CPTSD is a diagnosis describing the buildup of Small Normal Microtraumas #when it's generally a response to LARGE HORRIFYING trauma that KEEPS HAPPENING #listen ok so PTSD might describe an adult's response to being posted into a warzone or having their home unexpectedly attacked #CPTSD might describe a child who grew up in a warzone and struggles to feel safe into adulthood bc they have no experience of a safe world #they're both significant traumas but one is an interruption of the way you thought the works works #and the other is the only lens you have to view the world through #but crucially NEITHER ARE MICROTRAUMATIC AND THAT'S NOT WHAT THE COMPLEX IN CPTSD MEANS

[calamitydaze]

i feel like we’d be having a far more productive conversation if we switched it from “you need to avoid parasocial relationships at all costs” to “parasocial relationships are natural and not inherently bad, but you need to learn to be self-aware so it doesn’t Become harmful to either yourself or the people you like”

#like if your goal is to Never be parasocial again you will fail. humans are hardwired to create bonds and that's not your fault #it's also not the celebrity's fault for being unable to form that bond back #and when people have the mindset of 'all parasocial relationships in any form are bad' #(which in this situation is a reaction to feeling betrayed and overcompensating to protect yourself) #the harm is twofold-- both beating yourself up for a completely natural reaction (and depriving yourself of what CAN be a positive thing!) #and removing the incentive for nuance/critical self-assessment because either it's good or it's bad #so when/if you Do end up parasocial again (aka just.. caring for someone in a way they're unable to care for you back) history repeats #bella talks

[yesokayiknow]

everyone’s always like aw man sorry that you brought your friend back to life and she came back wrong and twelve’s like >:| bc clara’s exactly the same as she always was

#doctor who #the doctor #twelve #clara oswald #tho i do think it'd be super cool if she did in fact Come Back Wrong #like beyond the obvious fucked up mental trauma n shit #imagine like. like being so Wrong that even normal humans call tell #like if you look at her too long you might start to notice that her chest isn't rising and falling. that she doesn't blink #her pupils don't react to light #when she smiles her mouth is just a little too wide. teeth just a little too sharp #there is a reason the time lords didn't just do this with all their dead and it didn't have anything to do with the harm it caused to time #but because in doing this you create something. something Not Right. something Not Meant To Be Seen #(the worst part of course is that it is still very much that person. they're very much still themselves #very much aware of how Wrong They Are) #not to eldritch post on a shitpost again 😔

[uncanny-tranny]

At the end of the day, I've learned that it doesn't matter whether or not being trans is the ~newest social contagion~, people would either want all ten of us dead or all fifteen billion of us. The "social contagion" theory is a stepping stone to how we, apparently, deserve the genocide people advocate for, and the ideas of what constitutes a "social contagion" are the justification.

When you realize that, you realize that what people aren't arguing is that Big Trans is doing Bad Thing and only that must be stopped, but that your kind shouldn't exist.

You don't reason with contagions, and you certainly don't argue facts and logic with it. You eradicate it. And that is the end goal.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #the bigger picture is that being trans Is Bad and You Shouldn't Be Trans #if being trans were a neutral thing then it wouldn't fucking matter who is trans and who is not #remember that words like virus and illness and pollution are also synonyms with contagion #they aren't viewing transness as a thing that some people are but as a *literal* virus of the mind body and soul #and do you treat a virus by sitting down with it at a debate poduim with notecards in hand? #NO. you fucking eradicate it. you destroy the virus however you can. #THAT is the appeal of the social contagion theory... #...it takes the human impulse of wanting to destroy harmful things (e.g. viruses) and applies it to actual human people... #...they did it with gay people. they're *still* doing it with gay people... #...and they always fucking will until you stop viewing it as a fucking Sin Of Mind Body And Soul... #...what queer transphobes seem to forget is that they are just as contaminated as we are in the minds of cishet patriarchy... #...we are all talking manifestations of actual viruses in their mind.

[welcometogrouchland]

Wait crying again bc I was rewatching The Intruder today (episode 4 of season 1) and I realized that like. The glyphs represent a few things in the narrative but one thing that's consistent is they're always there when Luz doesn't feel like she's good enough on her own. They appear to her as comfort in moments of self depreciation or self doubt, or she coincidentally learns them in episodes where she faces her fear of rejection or makes a mistake (at least this is true in terms of the first four base glyphs she discovers). It's the titans way of saying "you may have to do things differently, but you can do anything they can do" to Luz bc he cares about her

AND THEN. IN WATCHING AND DREAMING. WHEN THE TITAN PASSES ON AND THE GLYPHS DON'T WORK ANYMORE. IT'S BECAUSE NOW LUZ FINALLY FEELS LIKE SHE'S GOOD ENOUGH, ALL ON HER OWN. SHE'S LEARNED THAT SHE HAS INTRINSIC WORTH AS A PERSON AND SHE DOESN'T NEED TO MAKE UP FOR WHO SHE IS. SHE MIGHT DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY BUT SHE CAN DO EVERYTHING ANOTHER WITCH CAN DO- THIS TIME WITH HER OWN, MORE PERSONAL ACCESSIBILITY TOOL (HER PALISMEN) INSTEAD OF THE ONE THE TITAN GAVE HER. MAN!!!!!

#ramblings of a lunatic #the owl house #toh #toh meta #luz noceda #the glyphs are there for everyone who doesn't feel good enough #eda and lilith after losing their magic...the kids overcome with exhaustion and fear in watching and dreaming #hell you could even argue that philip uses them to cope with the unspeakable horror that these non-person witches- #-could be better than him at something! gasp! the audacity! #he uses them to harm and co-opts the titans language to make sure that no witch could have a chance of thinking they're better than him #(bc again. philip is not afraid of witches. he hates this. his background is not a literal investigation into Christian superstition- #-it is a non-literal parallel to modern day conservatives.) #(they're afraid of what they don't understand but much more than that they hate it- #-that's why you can't change their opinions solely w/ rhetoric and argument) #ANYWAY. I've heard some ppl stressing over the amount of ppl being vocally negative in the maintag recently #and i see it too. think it's just a thing that happens when shows end? ppl pop out of the woodwork to be like #''well i never liked it in the first place!'' #like. okay. good for you ig #anyway i hope this sparks some joy in the maintag instead #that's all I'm here to do #i stopped watching the episode to type this post i should go finish it

[jakeperalta]

why do all these celebrities seem to think that posting like "well I believe that civilians should NOT be killed 😔💔" is some kind of bold and peace inspiring statement. like yeah no shit

#feels like they're all sharing these posts from each other and then ticking off 'use my platform for social issues' on their to do lists #beyond the fact that this being their first and last statement on the matter would in fact suggest they are not equally distressed #by harm coming to all civilians #it just feels like the most pointless thing to post like oh wow finally someone said it! here i was thinking civilians dying was great! #talking #news

[suncaptor]

nothing will make you sympathise with conspiracy theorist ideology more than having a seemingly rare reaction to a vaccine lmao.

#reading articles that try to falsify genuine incorrect information about the covid vaccines from 2021 is making me feel insane #'there's no way the covid vaccine can trigger an autoimmune disorder' uhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHH #factually extremely wrong! #they're soooo condescening too like why on EARTH do you think people who are genuinely sick or scared would believe you. #they'll be like there's no scientific evidence that anyone can be harmed by the covid vaccine <3 blatantly untrue. #I know that part of this is retrospect like obviously since more studies have come out and all #but it's infurirating bc they're from the time *I* was having those symptoms *and* telling doctors about it *and* being told the connection #to my other severe symptoms from the covid vaccine were Utterly Impossible (since proven false) and that if the symptoms WERE related #it meant i had a life threatening illness at worst and had a high chance of losing my vision at best #likeeeeeeeee #doctors still DO NOT know what the fuck they're doing do NOT trust anyone who gives ANY 100% answers #i don't know why i'm doing this i just said to stop obsessing but i'm just reading pages and articles on countering misinformation to make #sure i don't -- i want to know the conspiracy theories to recognise them immediately right #and then people are just saying bullshit to defend themselves #i mean most of the anti covid vacc people were also far right so i don't have too much sympathy for their vaccine ideology #but like. fucking hell what a way to push people into conspiracies. #you CAN'T counter misinformation by SPREADING MORE MISINFORMATION #just because it SOUNDS BETTER and MORE REASSURING to say there's not chance of harm doesn't mean you should #there's A LOW chance of harm THAT IS MUCH MUCH less high than the impacts of covid #god I'm pissed off. 2021 i was so fucking terrified of spreading this shit just by talking about my lived experiences. #to say i was not taking the pandemic seriously OR anti vax is so blatantly ridiculous considering who I am as a person but that doesn't mea #that the covid vaccine specifically didn't make me ill :////// #delete

[defyingthefates]

With the revelation that Orym had a feeling Laudna killing Bor'dor would give Delilah a foot in the door again, and let it happen even as Laudna turned to him as a lifeline to stop herself. And with the Expanse and its characters on the brain. I'm just thinking about how sometimes, even in the absence of evil necromantic soul parasites, the important question isn't "is mercy the morally correct choice?" it's "is revenge the right choice for us?" It's about self-preservation. About staying the person you want to be. The person you need to be to keep putting one foot in front of the other every day. The person you can look at in mirror every morning. It's about knowing your friend will be disproportionately burdened by that choice and chosing to intervene. Not even necessarily to stop the killing altogether, just to stop your friend from hurting themself in the process. ("You're not that guy" but "I am that guy." "It's not about [them]. It's about us." "It wasn't mercy. It was vanity. I didn't want to think of myself as someone who wanted vengeance.")

In that moment Laudna needed someone to step in for her. To take the weight off her shoulders. I don't think Laudna wants to be the kind of person who kills to satisfy feelings of revenge (even without the threat of an evil necromancer hiding in her soul). Imogen pulled her back from the brink before. But this time she wasn't there. And Orym, in her stead, let her fall. When he could have chosen to intervene. Ashton too, to an extent, although in the moment it was Orym that Laudna looked to for restraint. Either of them could have made the kill instead. That this also put Delilah back in the picture... well that just makes this situation all that much worse. How does it feel to know that your friends let you free-fall into the dark? How does it feel knowing you let your friend free-fall into the dark? Worse, how does it feel to know you gave them that final shove over the precipice?

#this is like if amos hadn't stopped prax from shooting the doctor and in doing so fucking gave marco inaros martian stealth nukes #on the average day i'd say laudna-imogen is closer to the prax-amos dynamic. they're not all that similar #launda's moral compass doesn't exactly point true north. and imogen is at amos' level of deeply fucked up pragmatism #but there is that aspect of one being the other's tether to what they perceive as 'goodness' #and imogen like amos has intervened to keep her tether from making self-harmful 'moral' violations #orym doesn't generally fill that roll for laudna but he's tried to be that for dorian and opal and imogen #so its interesting to see the circumstances where he chooses not to do so #when he considers harm to a friend... worth it? i guess? #i doubt this will sit easy with either of them #critical role #critical role spoilers #laudna #orym of the air ashari #4sd #4 sided dive #'imogen isn't at' whoops. but im too lazy to correct my tags. imogens fucked up but she ain't that fucked #amos is a different level and different type of messed up lmao

[arrowsperpetualcringe]

They don't wanna go back.

#from my self indulgent au where everyone lives together in peace #and the Collector gets to have a childhood #though they do have moments of trauma #this poor kid has been trapped in a disk for god knows how long #and has been told to kill and slaughter when theu just wanna make friends #god. #they're just a lil baby man who— doesn't know how mortal beings work!!! #they deadass do not know!!! what they are doing!!! #it makes me so sad bc everyone thought they were so evil #and they're!!! not!!! #are they doing fucked up shit? sure. but they don't know better #and considering where they came from... #the fact they wanna make friends is a /good/ thing. #i hope things are resolved and they are taught how to make friends without causing people harm. #anyway.... #end rant. #toh #the owl house #owl house #the collector #the collector toh #toh collector #toh spoilers #the owl house spoilers #owl house spoilers #my art #sketch #rambling

[empowered-together]

I hate the r/fakedisordercringe with a boiling passion. On top of it being such a toxic place, who the heck focuses their entire day on finding and tearing down people who might just maybe faking? The amount of people with Tourette’s I see in that subreddit(like Baylen Dupree) who are NOT faking it drives me insane. Or someone who was simply sharing a few of THEIR autistic traits suddenly getting fakeclaimed because ‘that’s not how autism works.’ It’s disgusting, harmful, and just sad honestly.  

Who do these people think they are, telling another person that their disability is fake because their narrow perspective of it doesn’t match up? 

#while some of the things there do seem obviously harmful and fake the entire subreddit doesn't seem to realize they're being just as bad? #tourettes #fake claiming #fakedisordercringe #autism #neurodivergent

[man-down-in-hatchet-town]

I relate to Jon Matteson because I too have been repeatedly and consistently told that my eye color is very off-putting to see and not really known what to do about it other than be just like "sorry they're just my eyes????"

#they're hazel #it's just that for whatever reason in a lot of lighting they come off as being the same shade as my ginger hair #and people decide they look orange and Do Not Like that #and I get it Jon's extremely blue eyes are a bit of a fandom in-joke and no harm is being meant by it #but it bothers me because I know how it feels to be on the receiving end of that and yeah it's not the worst but it's not great either #like don't people that something about their appearance they can't change makes you uncomfortable?? #Jon's a grown-ass man with a sense of humor and a strong relationship with his fans he can handle it #but that doesn't mean he should have to handle it or that it's not just plain rude #also Jon has the most beautiful eyes and he should be so proud of them #jon matteson

[fate-defiant]

I can't believe they put my boy Mytho "does fucked up shit to himself because his entire identity and self image relies on being loved(in the right way by the right people)" and my girl Rue "does fucked up shit to everyone else because her entire identity and self image relies on being loved(in the right way by the right people)" togehter in the same show and never did anything to meaningfully juxtapose and explore All That

#princess tutu #rue #mytho #this is a gross oversimplification but you get it you understand #unstoppable selfishness vs immovable selflessness vs unstopable selflessness vs immovable selfishness #these two coulda been so insane their dynamic could've blown minds #i can;t tell you exactly how but it would've #what if the show ended not on them leavig entirely intentionally but lik #e #in the commotion of the story ending they just sorta fall bakc into the story and vanish into the real world #and their ending is them realizing they've both ended up in the fairytale.its not delibarate the way it was in the show #and like. rue has nowhere to go and mytho is still kinda lost in the sauce but they're both unsure how to feel and what to do #so they just kinda. pick a direction and hope for the best #this at least is how i'd tweak it to give us space to imagine they'll have the time to work through everything the show ran outta time for #otherwise id fucking. id tweak the actual show dangnabbit #but yeag. #its just like. there;s this preconcieved notion of the person you are meant to be and sometimes that constructed self has all these surviva #all these survival mechanisms that'll cloud your judgement and someitmes actively harm you the living being the real tangible organism #because you are sad ape and big leaf you need love and sunlight #but the self is an aesthetic it can survive on bad decisions #and a cookie cutter self no matter how painful is better than the uncertainty of being potentially literally anything because in the end #you are sad ape and a big leaf and you can just live however as long as theres love and light and fun and sustenance #and you die either way but the self is a character with a neat narrative attached and the ape is real and messy and uncertain #so the self fights for survival and takes over the sad ape #you Get It. You Understand. #fate.txt