#only my brother could understand

[mebiselfandi]

I have insane cramps rn and just saying if my brother was here I wouldn’t feel any better but at least he would’ve ‘coincidentally’ made flapjacks for breakfast

#no cause when I think about it it’s so crazy like #only my brother could understand #like we have other siblings but none of them understand the extent to which our parents were insane #like he does says shit and does things where I’m left thinking that’s not normal and you’re deeply traumatized #but it makes me feel better cause I do the same things too #like yeah we both crazy #I’ll never forget when me and my brother were driving around town with his girlfriend #and we were laughing talking about our childhood #he he laughs and says how our mum used to lock the freezer and the pantry every day before she went to work #which is by far the least bad thing she’s done #but I was just looking at my brother like do you even realize that’s not normal babe😭 #stop kekeing for a second and deep what you actually just said #and his girlfriend was like 😃😟😰 #but anyway my brother has gone to war (he got a 12 hour shift job) when will he return I miss him (it’s his turn to cook I’m tired)

[dizzybizz]

"this is regrettably the best kiss of your life, you understand?"

#that “you understand?” kills me everytime... #i love how high condis voice got during this bit its so fkn funny DHASHGFSFGHASFhg #hi yes have the inevitable ep21 crit kiss piece except i watched ep53 today and am so 😀 im so 😀 damn i m so 😀 #i love eps where they just go through so many different gimmick rooms its so fun its so fun when its not so painful 😀 #happy valentines too ig #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #jrwi chip #jay ferin #jrwi fish and chips #my art #i had a bit of a meltdown over gill through uhm... 1-3am today and i just hm #sorry to everyone in the mayors QAC uhm im not really sorry but like sorry if you could hear every msg ping uhm yeah #it was like hours of me sobbing to myself in the interests channel and it was really good for my mental health ngl like its really therapeu #-tic to just scream abt a blorbo all night #and i ended up dreaming abt infodumping to one of my brothers friends of all ppl n i got so intense abt how much i love marshall john n my #brother came into the room and dragged his friend out 😭😭😭 i just wanted to ramble abt the himbo pls..... #my walls of tags are so consistent... only consistent thing abt this fkn blog smh.

[apollos-olives]

Do Palestinians typically see Israeli’s as white?

yeah. it's a white settler colonial state. the settlers are white. their interests are full of white supremacist ideals. they treat poc like shit. the settlers mostly come from europe and america. israel loves eugenics. it's whole thing is like. white.

#i've only met ONE black israeli in my life #and she was stationed at the border. and she looked so sad and miserable #my family were trying to leave palestine and she was handing us our tickets after confirming our identities #and my brother. who was 9 years old and did not know arabic nor hebrew. did not understand that he had to take the ticket from her #and i obviously couldn't speak to him in english bc english = death #so i decided to take the ticket for him #and she fucking yelled at me and brushed me off #eventually my brother understood to take the ticket but god... that poor woman looked so awful and miserable sitting there #you could tell she was being treated like shit by the higher ups. #israel does not care for it's poc #it only cares about white people and white people only

[puppyeared]

When you backread through a fun conversation you had with someone for hours an angel gets its wings

#I was talking to my brother about Norman doors and I had fun in my UX class and he was telling me about demon cores and the trolley problem #in his class. AND I remembered to take my meds today so I can feel every cell in my body. i can feel the neurons rubbing together #and yesterday I infodumped about the specialists bullseye chart to crow and how it ties with witch hat atelier #WHICH I MANAGED TOGET THEM TK READ IM SO HAPPY. I MAKE SQUEALING GUINEA PIG NOISES EVERY TIME THEY TELL ME WHAT THEYVE READ SO FAR. AHH #i might not even be scratching the surface with witch hat there are so many themes i could not possibly fathom or go over my heasd #and thats what makes it so exciting there are so many spaces in between that you can fill with your thoughts and i. i #waves my hands around manically #for anyone interested in my insane ramblings. the bullseye chart is from are we all scientific experts now by harry collins #in my own words its basically saying everything we know about anything is a game of broken telephone #and it discusses how information gets lost in translation between experts and laymen including things that arent in control #one of the main points was how things that happen between experts are complicated including debates and findings #that you can only really understand thru research and experience in that field and cant be smoothly shared without it being reworded #and risking some of those key points. or even concepts that are hard to understand that cant be shared at all #like if you tried to tell me about how DNA works using words scientists are familiar with but i am NOT- i risk missing concepts that i need #to understand to know how it works on the level you understand. or i risk having it reworded and understanding it but not on that level #AND IT DOES TIE TO WITCH HAT THE WITCH AND NORMAL FOLK COMMUNITIES I PROMISE. ITS SO INTERESTING #anyway i spent hours reading back thru that conversation and i might as well admit it goes for almost every fun conversation i have #and it might be the 20mg of adderall in my body but i am in such a state of peace and love i have to verbalize it. ahh #yapping

[waitineedaname]

I could pick a million different things that make me emotional about the kageyama brothers, but right now I'm thinking about ritsu reflecting on the original ???% incident during the final arc and how part of the reason he was so hurt by it wasn't just the actual physical injury or the trauma of the incident itself, but also the fact that shigeo wouldn't fucking talk to him about what happened. It's extremely likely that ritsu has been lying about what happened that day ever since it happened, like he probably told his parents that same lie about the bullies hurting him and shigeo protecting him, and the only other person who would know the truth is shigeo, but shigeo started shutting him out after that. I get the impression that before, they were the kind of siblings who told each other everything, which is why it hurts so badly that shigeo shut down so much and stopped letting his brother in, especially when ritsu is just a kid dealing with the weight of a lie like that to protect his brother. Idk, it just puts ritsu always being like "you know you can talk to me about anything" in a different light

#mp100 #ritsu kageyama #wow another sol post about ritsu??? who could have expected this! #I just rewatched episode 11 and I am feeling so many things #ouuughhghgh kageyama brothers they plague my every waking moment #idk it just recently occurred to me that ritsu definitely didn't tell their parents what actually happened #bc they would probably treat shigeo differently if they knew he had almost killed his brother and several teenagers #so ritsu has been dealing with the weight of that lie since he was NINE. THAT'S SO YOUNG TO TAKE THAT ON. #and he just wanted to talk about it with his brother! the only person who might understand! but shigeo wouldn't let him! #they hurt me. I am going to explode. #i was just thinking about something that always kills me in fanart #which is injured kid ritsu and teen shigeo #like. dealing with the guilt of hurting your kid brother like that #and it's especially painful when injured kid ritsu is shown forgiving him #AUGH. #so yeah I was thinking about that too much and now we're here

[happypeachsludgeflower]

The funniest thing about reading mdzs royalty au’s is when Lan Wangji is the emperor, but there’s zero explanation why he was chosen over his older brother, Lan Xichen.

Like, I don’t know much about Asian royalty dynamics, but I’m pretty sure the eldest of full siblings is before the younger in line for the throne…

#from my understanding younger siblings are only in front of older siblings if they’re half siblings from different ranking mothers #I’d get it if the explanation made them half brothers but they never do #one at least explained it by something to do with gold eyes being the sign of heaven’s blessing and lan xichen not having gold eyes #but other then that I’m usually just left confused #don’t quote me on this btw there could totally be an ancient Chinese explanation for why a younger sibling would be chosen #I just don’t know in depths about ancient Asian culture #mdzs #mdzs fandom #mdzs lwj #mxtx mdzs #mdzs fanfiction #mdzs fic #mxtx fandom #mxtx novels #mxtx #mxtx characters #mxtx hell #mxtx fanfic #mo xiang tong xiu #mo dao su zhi #lan wangji #grand master of demonic cultivation #grandmaster of demonic arts #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation #the grandmaster of diabolism #lan zhan #mdzs lan wangji #mdzs lan zhan #lan xichen

[ladyalicentshightower]

I think people overestimate how feminist team black is. If someone brings up how Baela should be the heir to Driftmark, it's always "she would've been Queen if not for the Greens!", ignoring that 1, she would be Queen consort, not a Queen in her own right, and 2 she has a legitimate claim in her own right to Driftmark. Team Black's goal is to crown Rhaenyra, but Rhaenyra becoming Queen isn't a win for feminism because it does nothing to dismantle the rest of the patriarchal system that exists in Westeros. From what we've gotten so far, it reads that Rhaenyra wants to be the exception and not the rule. Rhaenyra has made a lot of bad political decisions, which means she can't acknowledge Baela's claim because it would weaken her own claim (blatantly admitting her eldest sons are illegitimate would not end well for her to say the least). So she betrothes Jace and Luke to Baela and Rhaena to kind of atone for that, like as a consolation prize Baela will be Queen and Rhaena will be lady of Driftmark, neither of them would hold either title in their own right. It's good matches because the kids like each other and will treat each other well, but it's not a feminist win or a feministic liberation. It's usurpation, usurpation that takes place because Rhaenyra has to do damage control after having illegitimate children and after a serious of bad political decisions (both hers and her fathers, Viserys is the arbiter of this entire mess). To me, Rhaenyra is very reminiscent of Mary Queen of Scots, I can see a lot of elements drawn from Mary's history in Rhaenyra's story and character, down to their sons eventually taking the crown they failed to claim/keep.

#hotd #hotd spoilers #house of the dragon #house of the dragon spoilers #Rhaenyra targaryen critical #I'm going to do a rewatch prior to season 2 & I'm going to analyse the bad political decisions from vis & Rhaenyra that lead to the dance #like by no means the only factors at play lets not forget otto daemon larys etc #but it's an interesting factor that the fandom doesn't really acknowledge #and a lot of Rhaenyra's bad political decisions are understandable because of her youth and because viserys does fuck all to prepare her #like even if she wasn't who he choose as heir she should've been given a better political education as a princess #but vis fails his most of his other four kids in that regard to #i mean he also fails to acknowledge them or remember them but anyways #he is a huge part of the reason aegon and aemond became he they did #props to whoever probably alicent for sending daeron to oldtown so he could grow up well adjusted #alicent: i'm writing a letter to daeron is there anything you would like to say to him? #viserys: daemon? why are you writing to daemon? #alicent: daeron? #viserys: who? #alicent: our son? the one you sent to squire in oldtown? #viserys: i think i'd remember if we had a son who's name was one letter different to my brothers #viserys: in fact i do alicent do you mean the one who lost an eye? #alicent: *screaming internally* #viserys targaryen #king viserys #rhaenyra is such an interesting character but i hate how the fandom sanctified her because how dare characters be complex and have flaws #like you dont have to justify their actions or bend over backwards to deny their faults to like a character you know 😭 #and the same thing is done to daemon who is far more fucked up and far more flawed in the show than the fandom allows #i hate the team stuff tho i get hbo going for it as a marketing move that was genius but my god are certain stans insufferable #the entire point of the dance is that its a pointless tragedy there's no good or bad side theyre both awful in their own ways #but thats a longer rant for another time outside of the tags

[thedisablednaturalist]

Oh so my parents are understanding about my otherwise abled autistic brother leaving puke in the sink for the whole day, but god forbid their kid with the degenerative spinal disease and autoimmune disorder has trouble keeping their room free of clutter.

#wrenfea.exe #he fucking threw up scrambled eggs which I have a serious aversion to and have since I was little #so yea im pissed that he didn't clean it up and left it to stink up the shared bathroom #and when I tell him to clean it up my dad says he did the best he could #and my mom starts hounding me about my room #which is cluttered but not disgusting #also! both my brothers rooms ARE disgusting!!! #suddenly IM the evil ableist not being understanding of my brother DEBILTATING disability #he can fucking clean my parents just never expect him to #and never hold him accountable #its so fucked up because it shows me my parents CAN be understanding about disability but only HIS #I should fucking plaster my X-rays around the house #chronic disability #chronic pain #fibromyalgia #degenerative disc disease #chronic illness #disability #spoonie #angry cripple #cripple punk #wrenfea.vent

[flintstonegummy69]

messenger

#THE SECOND PIECE IN MY ACCIDENTAL WITTEBANE SERIES #feat flapjack #i started out making a faux woodprint thing and it spiraled.... #baby pip and The Coat make an appearance once more #this time in the phillip wittebane journal style kinda #anyway evelyn & caleb romeo and julieting their way to the demon realm is so canon to me #yes i had my palisman bring u enchanted flowers w extremely symbolic meanings only i would understand #yes ur brother tries to set up traps for my bird #its forbidden love........how could i not #- evelyn probably #the owl house #toh #caleb wittebane #phillip wittebane #flapjack toh #my art

[bachirasbodyguard]

i think about this daily. btw

#*taking a drag from a cigarette and sighing* these guys are trying to kill me #the damage these 2 could be doing if they only knew how to care about each other in normal and less obsessive and harsh ways #that panl of sae thinking abt rin after that 'but in terms of what they (BL) see and where they're going they're miles above you (u20)' lin #makes me sick. SICK. #sobs #the way he wants rin to be better than him and reach higher but knows that rin will never do it with the mindset he has towards fotball now #remember how he called rin an exceptional talent? or just me #anyway. #i shan't talk about this nay more because i've come to understand i'm probably one of the 3 people on the planet who actually like Sae #and I have too much to say. and frankly I think i've lost my objectivity when it comes to his character but #he's constantly microwaving in my mind. constantly. just know that. i've figured him out. #when I think of sae in my mind he's always alone. and i often think of how lonely and crushing his teenage years must have been #anyway #whatever #itoshi brothers..... hang in there #the bit abt the last day on earth is from the egoist bible btw #mine #itoshi sae #sae itoshi

[enha-stars]

i hate when people ask me stupid questions 😭 use your common sense bro, PLEASE.

“hey, are you using that?” as i’m using that. “are you busy?” after i’ve texted them that i am, indeed, busy. “is this yours?” as i’m holding onto it. “are you done eating?” as i’m clearly not done eating because i’m still chewing, spoon in hand, and rice on the plate.

#I CANNOT PLEASE #YA ALLAH GIVE ME STRENGTH #I HATEEEEEEE STUPID QUESRIONS THEY PISS ME OFF #idk if it’s because of what #because i have common sense #or because #idk #but incompetence and lack of understanding is gonna ruin society #IT ALREADY IS #WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME IF IM DRINKING THAY IF I CLEARLY AM????? #am i missing something here #like is this just me #do people do this and accept this #am i the issue #i don’t think i am tbh #today. a kid (18) asked me if i was done with my dessert. take in. i was NOT. i had only taken two bites and was holding the plate #BEFORE I COULD RESPOND HE GRABBED AND TOSSED IT???? #HUH???? #HE DID THE DAME THING TO MU MOM AND HER CHAI #MY BROTHERS ALWAHS ASK ME THE STUPIDEST QUESTIONS #YALL WILL NOT SURVIVE IN THE REAL WORLD!!! #anyways #got heated there for a sec damn #enha!me

[w1tchybusiness]

i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.

#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up #to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart #that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is #everything about it makes me incredibly autistic #from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers #to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players #and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the “post-ruin scifi” tale #it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby #and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance #and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell #SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD #IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO #SPOILER WARNING #i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game #i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m #i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about #fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible #for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say “i helped that! i did that!” was an incredibly good feeling #the story really spoke to me on a deeper level #and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result #so to do absolutely everything that i could #to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail? #and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe? #felt like i got kicked in the stomach #i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN. #which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the “you lost” scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful #but MOTIVATING. #my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself #i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra #and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance

[toxictranny]

hey sisters, i know u (my fans) were wondering what i’m gonna wear to my ex stepdad’s wedding because i’m best man and there’s gonna be 200 ppl there who haven’t seen me since i was single digits so it’s a rly big event BUT i’ve got no clue what the fit will be because the dress code he gave me: wear whatever you want. GDNKE.???ATFJJF...!!! ARE YOU OH-FUCKING-KAY???? WHATZVER I WANT ??????THEY WONT EVEN GIVE ME A COLOUR SCHEME WHAT THE FLCUKC ALso no i can’t wear a wedding dress it was the first thing i thought of but i asked my mom and she said that would b mean :/

#his estranged brother’s gonna be part of the wedding party so i’m ?! not sure how this will go. #they’re estranged because his brother has some sort of religious belief that lead to him hating me/my mom for having a kid with another guy #stepdad met me when i was nearly 3 and his brother met me+my mom 4 years after that #the brother’s thing was that my mom/me are devilish or whatever #he also said shit about us stealinh my stepdad’s money but my mom was the breadwinner #tbh i don’t really understand this stance but it’s very common. he just Doesn’t Like Me. we’re not #biologically related and that’s literally the only reason #he thinks it’s disrespectful for a woman to divorce her husband first of all but second to let another man raise her kid #yawn. gross asf. BJT LIKE HOW DO THEY FEEL ABOUT ME BEING LIKE THIS?! #everyone knew i had a Condition ™️ but i didn’t uh #do anything? lol #i was seen and treated as A Little Weird. not like a third gender #we could all tell i was going with the sex and pronouns assigned to me simply because that’s what i had #so i THINK i’m gonna be valid but rly truly if someone tries to explain why there are only two genders to me i’m going toLOSE ITTTTTT #ooh i can wear a wedding dress to the rehearsal dinner lol #my stepmom got me a neon green suit jacket .? so #maybe that’ll come out #toxictranny

[derpinette]

english used to be the normie filter & how you could tell someone was a Trve Internethead but after the DAMNED 2020 quarantine for obvious reasons EveryBody & They Momma is acceptably fluent so now i have to learn swedish or something. -_-

#already been spending time this past year & a half i only need someone to actually speak it with IRL for maximum efficiency #technically i want to say 2019 people were already turning to english at least in my city. 7 year old me would be so happy but #ARRRRRRGHHHHHHH #YOU ARE POSERS I HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON WITH YOU & I NEVER WILL. has me feeling so ♯DECEIVED #native english speakers will probably never understand this feel #speaking english now is just as cringe as i thought being francophone was a decade ago Yes even as a child i was against normies #i was forcibly taught.by my millennial older brother i had no choice but to abide by that line of thought & so here i am today #well he was right. not anymore he ain't but he used to be #but technically you can say this new wave of self taught anglophones are going against the current & remnants of colonialism so well #it is a good thing objectively i just miss the ease of recognizing Real back in the day TT_TT like you just KNEW they shared your interests #& weirdness they knew your references it said something about what their social status likely was too ETC ETC. But not anymore... #i enjoyed it tho i had a bestfriend whom i mostly spoke english with & we were known for it we were outcasts #i distinctly remember this fag who got so mad at us & harassed us for it during middle school recess. like fluency was a bad thing #we were not even gossiping about him Altho we should have been. & that was the best part is that it was a barrier #so you could talk about anything out loud & nobody would be able to understand you & at the time it was just us & our older siblings #+their friends

[arabian-batboy]

Finally finished Fruits Basket and I while I may still think that the very beginning and the very end of the story were a tad underwhelming, I absolutely loved the entire show and its definitely one of my favorite anime.

I came in thinking its going to be a cliche/cheesy romance anime, so I was very surprised with how much depth and personality all the characters, even the small side characters, had and it wasn’t really a case of “they will get one episode about them then we will completely forget about them” but instead it was something that was continuously built on over the course of the show in a slow burn and I really appreciate that.

My favorite characters are Tohru, who I was very quick to label as “the boring bland protagonist whose only job is to be the audience’s self-insert” but slowly she really became interesting and I found my self really loving her character and rooting for her and Kyo, who is the best boy ever that deserves all the happiness in the world and also everyone else really need to be a little nicer to him tbh and both of their parents (Kyoko and Kazuma) were such great loving parents and I loved their relationship with their own kid and also each other kid, its such a shame that Kyoko is dead, because I just know that she would have been the best mother-in-law ever with the most entertaining dynamic with Kyo.

Uotani, Manabe and Hiro are also some of my favorite, but honestly I either like or am neutral toward the rest of the cast, the only characters that I’m kinda annoyed with were Akito and Yuki (explained more in the tags), but if the last season had more episodes focused on developing Akito’s character and gave us a more dramatic way for the curse to be broken as well as leave out or fix some of the questionable romances (ShigureXAkito + KurenoXUotani) then it might have been a 10/10 show for me.

I did hear they have a prelude movie and two spin-off manga, so I will definitely be checking those out. 

#prepare for an influx of Fruba fanart #Akito is just a horrible person that should be locked up in jail and I don't understand why the show let her get away with so much #and Yuki is just annoying lol #the only time I enjoyed his character is when he's interacting with the Student Council or his brother #aside from that he's just the sad uwu boy who's also smart handsome and powerful #which I could ignore.....if the show didn't continue giving him and Tohru intimate moments every two epiosdes #even though both of them are already dating other people #I'm still annoyed the show ended with a scene between her and him (excluding the epilogue) #and not to invalidate platonic love or anything but was that REALLY necessary? #I don't know if I'm annoyed by him because Kyo is my favorite but he really almost ruined the show for me #Fruits Basket

[lonely--seeker]

I think I'm going insane. Lately my dreams have been so mundane, it wouldn't be weird if I wasn't just a person that has nightmares 80% of the time, so I now my dreams are so hard to distinguish from reality.

I wouldn't be able tell what was real from what not if it wasn't because last night I went to my doctor's appointment and I was handed new glasses by Harvey just to go back home and find out Laois was cooking something in my backyard.

#to be fair. in my dream i was back at my old house. so the horrors where there still #also i've been dreaming about my dog. but sometimes it's not him. it's other dog trying to replace him. but it's not him. i miss him dearly #but it's... weird. i never actually dream with characters either. something strange is going on #I've been telling my brother i wake up and i have to remember who i am #for the totally normal dreams. it's like my soul is divided and it's living somewhere else for the night #who is the person i am when i dream. because it's not me. it's a whole different live. whole different people around me. I'm going insane #there's such a strange feeling about it. it's familiar? it's comfortable? #which only makes it even more weird. why is a life so different to mine feel so comfortable... #to the point i wake up and i don't remember who i am for at least ten minutes #but then i forget what i had dreamt about. and then i go around my day randomly reminding things. then that's when i realize those memories #were actual dreams #i should write a fanfic about this lmao #it was a nice dream though. i remember vividly i was sitting in one of those chairs thingies that hang in the air? #and i was swinging happily. i think Laios was talking about where he got whatever the fuck he was cooking. i couldn't understand him really. #he wasn't speaking in spanish but it wasn't english either. i think it was a made up gibberish... I'm still baffled by how comfortable i was #i think there were friends around too. maybe a hangout was going on? everything was nice. it reminds me of the times #i would go eat at a friend's house. but things felt a lot nicer. it was like if time had stopped and nothing wrong could ever happen. #and even then. i was still there. which i think that's why i started to feel dizzy in my little swing. i ended up waking up from that. #i still get dizzy remembering it. #welp. I hope i don't lose myself tonight... #I don't actually know what's worse. the nightmares are common. they are familiar. there's comfort in knowing what to expect. #but “good” dreams like that... i end up thinking about them too much. the residual feeling is weirder #and i have to deal with the whole different layer that is.. there's was a fucking anime guy there. kill me. kill me. get him OUT of my brain #I'm not lying when I say I can physically feel Laios rearranging my brain in ways i will not share publicly #kill me.