#okay im done good night!

[b4kuch1n]

wizard of the sky

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #ft. charizard #another wizard leon. hi its been so long #Im sketching! the next piece for work! and this is yet another break #I also did like two government gigs back to back this week lol. yall will never see any of that but #thats whats been attacking and biting me #but well! thats done with and this is too and I'm okay to do my work again lol #this is! literally the most basic design lol I just wanted to color something #and I love this blue-pink-orange range so. easy decision there #okay. its time for my cake break. and then sleep #have a good night lads! take a look at the sky sometimes

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

shoutout to those nights where the brain says We Literally Cant Do Anything Even Though We Really Want To <3

#brain: we want to do something! #okay! awesome! lets- #brain: NO DO!! only want #cant scribble. cant write. cant read #and so i sit here alternating between staring at several different screens & also the wall #idk if its brain fog or what #it feels like im in waiting mode.... #what am i waiting for!!! i would like to know!!! #absolutely unprompted #stg im gonna end up rewatching good omens while grinding for pier fish on acnh #angry at myself for not doing Literally Anything Else!! #i cant even think about my blorbos bc nothing coherent is going on upstairs #its just vague feelings and images and AUGGGH #i hate nights like this!! can i unsubscribe!!! can i opt out!!! #there are several Important Things i need to get done!! why cant i do them!!! #i wish i had some sort of large fruit i could split open and devour To Cope w this smhhhhh #at least then id be doin something... #for once i have the energy but i cant funnel it into anything. sigh

[birdclowns]

and most importantly, happy pride month to cowboy

#country boy i love you #okay im done with little pride icons good night #my art #judd ryder #juddy #911 ls #911 lone star #911 lonestar #911 lone star fanart #fanart #the straightest most cisgendered man in the whole show

[swedenis-h]

Hey guys.. so they’re best friends

#ARMAND AND RICCARDO ARE BESTIES IDC IDC #idk what happens to Riccardo but I know it’s nothing good! #I learned nothing from Nicki #riccardos my lil guy #I’m not done with tva yet but idc about spoilers #also tried a different way of coloring and Im in love with it #okay bye have a good night 🫶 #tvc #iwtv #the vampire chronicles #the vampire armand #tva #Armand tvc #riccardo tvc

[formulafics]

#disclaimer: this is just a vent don’t feel obligated to say anything 😼🙏🏻 #tw. alcohol #trauma is real #which obviously i knew that but im feeling it rn and im just 🧍🏻‍♀️ #long story short my mom used to drink a lot #and she chilled out recently but tonight has drank a lot more than usual and lord have mercy it’s messing with me bad folks #the amount of songs i can’t listen to be i go into flight or fight mode bc my mom used to blare them while drunk #which i mean i could have it a lot worse but yk #and like i can’t even be frustRted with my mom without feeling bad bc ik she deals with a lot but i can’t do anything to help #and the speed at which the night can go from good to bad bc of her drinking #not to mention i’m rewatching yellowstone and i still like it but it also brings back bad memories with my mom #bc we were watching yellowstone while she and i had some of our worse fights (due to her drinking) #anyways. if you’re reading shoutout to you i hope you don’t relate to this but if you do you’re not alone and ily #also who likes yellowstone #ryan please give me a chance (he’s a fictional cowboy who’s definitely too old for me) #(but i want him) #okay i’m done i hope you’re having a good night if you’ve read this far 🙏🏻

[anthyies]

have you guys heard of exordia by seth dickinson. sound of the winter

#esha.txt #IM NOT DONE YET I THINK IM ABOUT TO HIT BUILD UP TO CLIMAX (finished chapter 14 lol) #so im stopping for the night bc i havent done any work today and my neck hurts from reading lmaooo #BUT ITS GOOD. I PROMMY. OH MY GOD. CHEWING ON IT #if youre someone who really latched onto baru having a moment where she describes math as the masts of the ship of the universe . well #you're going to be so entranced by aixue OKAY. oh my god. this book

[codes-and-stuffs]

but on that note, it would be handy to have a pirates smp tag reserved for fans only! so like, for stuff you want to share with the fandom but NOT the ccs, since they're here now. maybe some of you guys can blacklist the tag if you want! but that would be useful i think

#like we need a cc/fan separation #and back in rats that was smth severely missing i think. not even a public fan discord server that didnt have ccs running it #anyway just tagging the blr tag for now since its still a bit discoursey i guess??? not really??? just a suggestion idk! #like we already have piratesshipping tags but this would be a good place for people to share stuff quietly without like. maintagging #scurvyblr #okay NOW im done talking about this this is what i wanted to get to last night but fell asleep

[nataliewaitegf]

🫶

#going to bed after this i promiseeeee but like #my doctor today rly told me to try to ‘wean off the mobility aids’ as if my cane n wheelchair r not the only reasons im able to function #like bro im barely getting by WITH these and u want me to stop ? why might that be (normal non ableist answers only) 🎤 #i literally hate doctors soooo much . me being able to exist and use my legs is a GOOD thing not some tragedy or bad habit ‼️ fuck offffffff #okay anyway ranting done for the night bye <3 😴

[naenaex0xx]

maybe I'm comfortable with tumblr because I get to say things I don't usually tell anyone

#like how my day is? or what dumb stuff im doing lol #my “safe space” where i got to meet people somehow (and theyre very cool :3c) #well. im happy if i get to do it now #cmon nae! sympathy points wont do you any good !! #okay so. tumblr gets to be my little planner too cause i get to write things in the momoment #so im writing things im proud of! #brushed my teeth for more than two mins today #n i actually washed a lil! its embarrassing writing this here because i dont want anyone thinking im dirty.... since its gross #but anyways.. im getting better at putting my phone down at night! #that means fixing my sleep right? i just have to sort out the mornings since i lose track of time #and struggle to leave bed (its too comfyyyy >.<) #and oh. i want to start going on walks.. #itll be hard since the house is getting done n stuff but. anytine if the day. i feel like taking walks woukd be better for me #just to keave the house. my eyes always hurts when i steo outside #n thats not good :< #those are my goals for now. i do wanna get closer to my friends. and actually make friends! #ive had no friendships for nearly a year at college lol #its just been 'oh well' but i have actually felt lonely... oh well- #i guess i wanna get closer to people? #and.. talk to ny old friends too #i feel to guilty #im not good with this stuff. it drains me #but anyways. baby steps right? who knows #maybe ill make a friend on the trip! or next year too! that sounds good #ik nobody'll probably read this cause its word vomit lol #but basically yay yippee im feelin kinds alright #<333 #posts.nae/rambles

[b4kuch1n]

I lied I think it’s fun to draw animals sometimes

#sonic the hedgehog #miles tails prower #knuckles the echidna #amy rose #team sonic #hey. still dont expect more sonic stuff okay. this is an exception #(I say as I immensely enjoy scribbling these animals) #man. Im mad how good these designs are tbh theyre so (clenches fists) theyre so! scribbleable! #hate that! dont like that dont like how much fun it is to draw them! #also I made amy spiky bc I want to and I can. and also shes a hedgehog #gods. thinking abt it sonic designs cater to me to such a disgusting level... the cartoon gloves... the big shapes.... the varied footwears #it's like psychonauts raz was so fuckign fun to draw. but here it's the whole cast #it's fucked up! it's entrapment!! I didn't consent to this!!! #next time they give any of the characters a big coat I'm sending sega a strongly worded letter. they cant do that to me #well. here it is anyway. genuinely these all took like an hour each I drew them as breaks inbetween work #(an hour for me is equivalent to other artists' fifteen minutes btw. I'm not fast at all I just don't know when to stop) #well. that done. back to work now #I am actually so excited abt the current one lol its just also gonna be a pain in the ass to coordinate #but I really wanna do well with it. go crazy go stupid baku!! #have a good night! a good pair of boots is worth the money but only if you can tie the strings together & wear it on ur neck in emergencies

[chryzure]

whew, people get heated over their fav booktok book.

#memorie.txt #once you’ve read more you’re more willing to admit that you love a kinda poorly written book #by god i love jackaby. the writing style is a solid 3/5 and the plot stuff is cheesy as hell. #you get a better frame of reference for ‘this book requires an award’ style of good #and a ‘god this is so my dumb little niche that scratches all those weird little itches nobody else has’ style of good #one of my fav series is the ghost and the goth!! is it good?? i don’t know if i’d go that far!! #is it fun and does it make me think of trysi / chryzure stuff??? yes :) #i’m beginning to wonder abt ppl rabid abt their fav books. anyway this one person was losing their shit over ppl liking apollo #and aurora and i’m an aurora shooter but i digress #they were foaming at the mouth and im like Well. its a little not that serious . #he is letters on a page. and also mostly irrelevant to the story as a whole so im kinda confused as to why ppl feel so strongly abt him #it’s funny because most of my complaints stem from an outside pov #where i critique the worldbuilding / plot work / character writing and its inconsistencies #whereas ppl assume im encouraging villainy irl. it is quite seriously more that the villainy is unmotivated #or otherwise poorly done. i love to hate a good villain if the proper legwork is put into it #because i like observing how others work their craft!!! #but my irritation with stephanie is that she doesn’t work her craft well. it’s shoddy craftsmanship full of retcons or #convenience required for plot that otherwise hold no reasoning in the story #and i can admit that i find the series unsatisfying because it’s marketed as a romance (the romance had little chemistry that could be #understood by anyone that’s not straight. straight romances are always laziest because it’s the ‘norm’ so that equates to chem) #and also it was marketed as having plot when rlly the ‘plot’ was trying to put these characters in weird chemistry-less situations together #so yeah i’ll complain abt the villains being jealous shallow archetypes when it could’ve had depth. #i’ll complain abt a lot. but in the end it’s a silly basic ya romance series that isn’t anything unique #most unique stories will not be found on booktok. i’m sorry #i can show you the beautiful world of horror novels though! #or weird lil 80s fantasy novels that are actually quite long that my dad likes showing me #truly no romance novel will be better than the darkangel trilogy though.. that is what stephanie wanted to write. #but that’s lightning in a bottle ithink. #okay anyway. good night. i worked a long day and i have appts in the morning

[milo-is-rambling]

I wish I had friends near meeeeeee to distract me from my brainnnnnnnnnn

#need to talk to anyone irl who isn’t related to me or dating my mom or my therapist #anyone else near me please I’m losing my mind #nature isn’t healing me sleeping in a fully dark room all day isn’t healing me how do I magically fix this without having to put any work #into it oh I can’t oh u have to do the work okay how do I do that. therapy once a week. oh. okay. yup. #can I speedrun it? oh no? I can’t. oh damn. okay fine whatever. therapy once a week. AND I HAVE TO ACTUALLY LISTEN AND DO WHAT SHE SAYS. bro #what the hell okay fine #well here I am !!!!! where is the fixing where is the feeling better I feel like all I do is stir up all these touch emotions from every #part of my life at once and then she sends me off to rot for week before I come back and talk again #I just feel like I’m losing it!!!!! and ik it’s extra bad bc birthday countdown is on in my brain and im stressed and i feel like a huge #fuck up that can never be fixed and like I will die having done nothing with my life except weigh other people down and so exhausting and my #brain won’t ever shut up like yes I get it years and years and years of built up shit that I never properly dealt with and still hold blame #for constantly and I feel like I will never be fixed like I CANT be fixed like this is a losing battle and I just am struggling today man #idk what I was saying I just took my morning weed hit to try and relax my back a little and now my brain is like scrambled eggs #which is good that means it’s working #I’m gonna try to take a nap maybe cause I only slept four hours and it was like choppy thru the night and then maybe I’ll go to the lake #later I’ve been feeling the need to be in a body of water recently

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

see sometimes I try and think about it all more logically. what if it was all happening to a friend. my friend!! you completely forgot to feed your kitten his wet food for five days? you haven't drunk water for a couple of days? you didn't shower or change your clothes for four days? you've only eaten two actual meals in the last two days? your average sleep in the last week is around five hours? my friend, you need help.

since it's me, I don't need help.

#most of it has been genuine forgetfulness/zoning out and 'oh it's 2am' #but like. last night i was lying awake hungry as anything bc all I had was dinner and not a great deal of that. if id been in a house on my #own i would've hopped up and got smth but i couldn't in case of disturbing grandma #(I have since purchased things that I will store near my bed that I can either take out of there #or leave them there for any such emergencies. if you call them emergencies. sometimes if i can't handle eating normally if i can't see what #im eating i can manage that - makes it less real somehow.) #honestly tho i am shocked by how immediately all my carefully created routines have fallen apart tbh #should i talk to my lecturer at uni who does the 12-2 class? to check she's ok with me eating in class? bc otherwise i will likely not eat #anything before dinnertime. probably skip breakfast #i don't know. i don't know anything. i love my course i love it so much and i don't know how i'll handle it #but i don't think i'd handle not doing it #idk im just so tired man #depression does a number on you frfr #okay that's it im turning on the heater finding some music and doing a lil dance. see if i feel better. maybe try a bit of hot water with #ginger or smth livening in it. i do want to try that. something to wake you up. ive been in a dead depressed limbo for five hours straight #and done nothing of use #tw ed #good news tho i find my anxiousness overall reduces the more depressed i am xD idk why lol #personal #puddleglum hours

[clumsyclifford]

x

#stuff #i stayed up til 6am last night finishing summer camp fic #gang this thing is 53.7k. #the last chapter needs to marinate for a little bit #and then ill probably have to go through and do a fulllllll reread which is gonna be fun lmao #and then uh. well. then i can post it #it's seventeen chapters lmaoooo we're gonna have a good time besties #oh god now i need to start figuring out the tags and all the chapter titles and everything #oh boy #anyway here's some basic info to tide you over: malum ensemble fic #and by ensemble fic i mean all of 5sos all of atl all of 1d #please bear in mind i started writing this fic three (!?!?!) years ago #at this point the characters in it are literally just characters #they bear absolutely no connection to their real life counterparts #including any. yknow. drama. coughs meaningfully #okay that's all im gonna split now #if anyone has thoughts about an update schedule for once i finally get this fic done for good im all ears #cuz if i post one chapter a week then ill be posting this fic for four months #which is a fucking wild amount of time to be posting a fic. if i do that then ill still b posting the fic when i go BACK to camp this summe #and that would be bonkers #anyway!!! bye!!! #ETA ive actually been writing this fic since may 2020 which means it's been almost FOUR years in the making. that. is. insane.

[munamania]

ok so let's be real i was probably not the best director today for all 2 hours of our shoot but well to give myself some grace on top of the Everything and just the fact that it was the first day and i didnt have long to settle into it. i have been functionally my own producer and AD as well and like i was mostly fine just a little bit crazy today it was fine. whyd i make a closet homophobia joke idk it's fine

#my actresses were so good <3 they're having fun with the dynamic and stuff it's fun #abby talks #i also think i probably seemed a little bit off and out of it and not on top of my game and im trying not to want to *** over that #REALLY. again. it was fine. had my moments but like we got two scenes done and got some b roll. and the shoot. once again was like 2 hours #so yes. while not the most efficient thing ever you know it was pretty okay #i do technically have an ad btw but like she didnt make call sheets for either night. but shes lovely and helpful otherwise so i forgive he

[alienaiver]

my brain wont write at all >:(

#the docs are just open before me #all the words i put out seem so clunky. unnatural #i cant get my scenes right. and ITS OKAY itrs just annoying ykno. finally have time to be on the pc shkldjkjs #even snøfles letting me????? witchcraft #i might just lie down and read for the rest of thenight!!! #im almost done with all the lovers in the night. its sooo good #nohr.txt