#now i immediately have to take it out

[slippery-minghus]

oh no. i feel like if i do not consume an entire load of bread in the very near future i will simply cease to exist.

#very uh. very worried about my finances right now #like. i'm fine. i have some savings. but i also just got to put something into my savings for the first time in a VERY long time and now #now i immediately have to take it out #and i'm getting stressed out about buying groceries #because if i dip into my savings here what about there? where is the line? #and i owe so much to taxes but i can't exactly afford getting less of my pay...... #my last paycheck was $0.66 more than my rent #my insurance is refusing to reimburse the last of my electrolysis visits from last year and like #i'm SO over the fight but that's $120. that i really actually kinda need? #and i'm starting to get that funny in the head feeling about wondering how i'm going to feed myself #i still feel so much shame about that funeral i went to years ago and my only thought during the reception after was about #how there was just so much food and i could actually eat my fill #i have leftovers for dinner tonight and it's fine but.... making a lovely vegan dish wasn't the best choice tbh #i feel like if i don't have a large helping of bread and meat i'm going to go insane #and it really REALLY doesn't help that i've apparently lost the ability to eat in the mornings #so i'm at quite a significant fuel deficit and it's stacking #but no matter how hungry i am in the morning the concept of processing solid food is just repulsive and daunting #eating a clif bar at 9am would take literally all of my spoons for the day #i was looking at protein shakes since i can handles *drinking* breakfast #but the cheapest one that meets my dietary requirements is $35 for a 12pack #and i'm uh. i'm worrying over spending $10 on produce this week #personal #and nevermind that i don't have the spoons to even GO shopping (: #(on an aside i switched back to my regular melatonin gummies last night and i Actually Slept. so hopefully that will continue and help some) #i just want to curl up in a ball on the floor and have someone gently place a roll of bread and hunk of cheese next to me in my enclosure #also it's photophobia season and i still feel like i haven't recovered from saturday #got too much sunlight and was nauseaus for half the day #my body feels so bad

[theminecraftbee]

exceptionally funny to open the comments of tango’s latest episode to see everyone as one roasting him for going “I am going to leave my cave!” only to go into another, similarly dangerous cave. and they’re right. we should roast him for this. tango only leaves the dangerous animals he put underground to put more dangerous animals underground. do you think that if he was exposed to sunlight he’d start hissing,

#hermitcraft #tango tek #I think he’s like those cave animals that don’t have working eyes now and when exposed to sunlight he’s so shocked and confused he explodes #taking tango out of his hole in the ground is cruel. make sure you have another hole to transfer him to immediately. #anyway mining deepslate using a stack of withers is sure a decision

[chickenoptyrx]

Skrunkly nugget Raditz.

#lol i literally drew 1 PANEL of nanny nappa and kid raditz and vegeta #for a gd comm!! #and suddenly i wanna draw this now :/// #if i do draw em these kids are gettin bangs #only 1 with a dramatically receding hairline gonna be nappa #i shooouuulllddd probably also use the wrist guard bracer things from the bardock special :/ #that dont extent to cover the hand or have the thumb loop or rope lookin bit #...or imma take some liberties cause i like those things >:T #aayy but i can atleast draw the old style scouters on em when their pre - immediately post planet explosion >:] #i love the big stupid button on bardocks scouter and even vegeta was still using that style at that time so the new once mustv not been out #p sure even freeza was

[gods-favorite-autistic]

Shoutout to Twisted for having the lines “science says you’re dead and gone forever reason says I’m talking to the air but something in my heart some secret hidden part illogically insist that you are there somewhere” and “he fucked a tiger” be in the same musical

#honorable mention Jeff Blims absolutely terrifying monologue as Aladdin being immediately followed up with #‘ok Jesus Christ I have no idea what is going on here-‘ #twisted being such a banger while having ‘i only wished to have a coat made out of puppies’ as a line in the song #and the fact that there is a song called ‘take off your clothes’ #anyways go watch twisted right now you legally have to- #twisted the untold story of a royal vizier #twisted starkid #autism (mads) speaks

[leupagus]

Because I think my tumblr buds are more into the Miss Marple fic than my bluesky buds:

#miss marple rhymes with parple #I just think they're neat! #miss marple and the mary sue that paul rutman wrote #for the express purpose of telling miss marple that she's amazing and perfect #which she is! #anyway taking suggestions now #I'm thinking about having them do 'the case of the perfect maid' because that would be hilarious #they'd both immediately clock what was going on but are like 'well maybe it's some weird roleplay thing we don't wanna judge' #and then of course there's stuff getting stolen so they've gotta sort it out

[needylittlegirl]

if you dont “believe” in aftercare you deserve to get run over by a bus btw

#tbd #saw a crazy tweet now im just thinkin abt how many people dont think aftercare is necessary #my ex didnt think it was needed ever #he would do crazy things specifically to avoid anything that could be taken as care or intimacy after sex #and it did awful things to my brain!! #i have such a weird relationship with sex now because i’ve never experienced aftercare #its crazy that people think its an absolute necessity #i remember one time he left immediately like he always did #so obviously i started crying cause its very confusing to have sex and then the person just walks out not even 5 mins after!! #especially for how young i was it was Confusing #and he came back cause he forgot his wallet or something so he saw me crying #got mad at me it become an argument etc etc cause i told him why i was crying #and he said to me and i Quote #‘expecting a guy to care about you after sex is idiotic and immature- #‘you should be glad you’re even getting laid in the first place so take what you can get and stop expecting guys to care abt anything else’ #which is an insane thing to say and i Believed it for years #the fact i was sitting there crying and i told him it was bc he made me feel like he hated me and i was awful and a worthless girlfriend?? #and that was his response ??? how crazy do you have to be #anyways. aftercare is always necessary and if you dont provide then one of you is gonna be suffering

[poisoned-pearls]

azul who is utterly obsessed with getting Jamil jewelry. Pearls sea glass diamonds aquamarine rubies- if it’s blue, ocean related, pretty, expensive, gold, red, and/or compliments Jamil’s complexion, he’s getting it for him. Azul knows how to budget but he is RECKLESS with spending for his boyfriend bc like, what do you mean that his BOYFRIEND. His darling. Angelfish. He gets whatever he wants

this leads people to believe that Azul has Jamil wrapped around his finger, bc “well he dresses up Jamil however he likes” but they are dead wrong. Azul is willinginhly completely under Jamil’s control and he loves it. He wants to help Jamil and is completely willing to be his little service boy if it means he gets to see Jamil’s greatness.

#Azul single-handedly buys out all of the local jewelry stores #Jamil mentions once (1) that his ears were pierced but he wasn’t ‘supposed’ to buy fancy things bc he was a servant and Azul is immediately #Going on a shopping spree. Sending the twins out to pick things up #Jamil is getting twenty different designer brands suprise dropped at his door #And it’s all just. Fancier versions of shit he owns #“Azul i don’t need a 400 dollar hoodie” #“Ah. Counterpoint- I want you to have it.” #Azujami #jamiazu #Twst #ashenviper #my delusional ramblings (<- Azul spoiling Jamil bc he now has the means to) #Listen I need Jamil to give off like. Rich ass housewife vibe but really he’s just a feral husband #Jamil ‘works’ in the future but all of the shit he has is way to fancy for his jobs #Hella expensive luggage and cars and it’s just Azul’s doing #And everyone thinks he’s like. A trophy husband. #But no. He’s not even asking for Azul just will not take no for an answer for that kinda stuff. #Like “what do you mean you don’t want the latest magical car model you deserve it angelfish-“

[front-facing-pokemon]

#whiscash #and i'm back!! y'all wouldn't have seen any interruption since obviously i keep a very long queue for a reason but #i didn't queue up any pokémon for like five days. because i was in california. but i'm back home now and this is the morning after i return #like. i'm queueing this up the morning after i return. it's gonna post like july 20-something'th. idk. but last night (to me writing these #tags) i arrived home at like 1 AM and just immediately collapsed into bed and passed the fuck out bc i was wrecked #and i'm taking the rest of the week off of work. which may or may not actually pan out—i'm probably gonna get antsy and work at least a #little bit but. y'know. i'm tired. obviously. anyway whiscash pond? whiscash has a pond. we all know his pond #i don't know that much about rescue team tbqh. not my favorite pmd game. but he was definitely in it. i think he was actually floating #right above the evolution cave or something. i dunno #but here he is. he's on the blog #a fish with a blog. a blog in a bog. bc his pond?

[wildmelon]

started a playthrough as locket's partner from 100 years ago, before eilistraee's fall, and made locket her dream guardian 🥺

bonus pic of locket's first love rothgar, who i made her dream guardian in my most recent save... she met him at the promenade of the dark maiden. he turned to eilistraee + became a paladin after his wife and son were murdered by lolthsworn drow. he died on a mission and it broke locket's heart :(

(side note that most of the eilistraee worshippers at the promenade were drow, but unsurprisingly, locket was drawn to outsiders, so her lovers wound up being a dwarf and a half-orc.)

locket has a TYPE, and it's beefy and gentle btw

#oc: locket #not gonna tag this bc it's a casual post #im gonna transform shadowheart into locket and take cute romance pics of them together #i havent 100% decided but im p sure that kurra lived and she and locket reunite post-bg3 #it makes less sense than kurra being dead... but i love a happy ending #so i think what happens is after locket reawakens pre-bg3 she immediately seeks any word of kurra #and she's in denial for awhile but once she's like fully rebuilding the dancing haven in waterdeep she's like ok gotta face the facts #any surviving eilistraeens probably would've found their way here by now she's probably dead :( #but it turns out kurra's actually been in stasis as well #and post-bg3 they have a super emotional reunion and it's wonderful #and locket splits time bt the dancing haven with kurra and rebuilding reithwin with halsin #and kurra is so good with all the kids they adopted and visits often #i mean locket's a level 20 cleric/druid she can tree stride all day

[thedroloisms]

What’s really frustrating is seeing people say “Tommy should’ve known”/“How did Tommy NOT know about his behavior” and it’s just not something you say? Ever? It’s like asking Shelby how she didn’t see the warning signs. When you’re deep in it— when you’re THAT close to someone— you’re going to not see the red flags that someone on the outside might be able to see. Tommy’s an immature guy and he fucked over Dream, yes. However he’s probably reeling over the realization his “big brother” abused someone.

god, for sure. ive also seen people talk about how "if you saw him manipulating you and your friends why didn't you SAY ANYTHING!!!" and it's just ... i'm sorry uh. do you guys not. understand. like there's a power dynamic? there's a power dynamic here people. that's ,,, part of how manipulation in this manner works. like, i know people are saying this because they don't like the person in question, and while i'm not exactly their biggest fan either, being a shitty person doesn't prevent you from being a victim, and vice versa. like, just because you might not like this person or think that they're a shitty person bc of various reasons doesn't make victim blaming suddenly okay, you know.

#the askers #abuse #like ... with to mmy specifically people have literally in this scenario been spreading clips of wi.lb ur being physically aggressive #towards him. like. obviously it's a difficult scenario no matter how you cut it when someone you're obviously close to #ends up being a shitty person that hurt a lot of people. but also uh look their relationship has had certain . concerning elements #for a long ass time. and we're talking about a guy that's had SO MANY of his professional and personal acquaintances #come out now and say that they personally have been a victim of his manipulation or know people who are #or you know. gestures at clips of him apparently biting a lot of people around that group in that area or whatever #like look we are in a situation where these patterns of behavior were extending to basically everyone he knew #so like. in the least truthy way possible bc /i dont know/ i dont know them i dont know their relationship #but also i can see patterns and i want to take the safest approach to this in terms of what im expecting from to . mmy's #hypothetical response. why are people assuming that he's just magically spared from any of this and has to just be like #a complete bystander??? why is the immediate assumption that there's no way he could be hurt as well #by someone described by associates as being manipulative to quite literally everyone he meets

[moonlit-imagines]

…

#hypothetical situation (not) but how would one feel if their roommate was using their tv in the living room (which was bought by your father #as a gift to you) and is sitting on the couch you paid for (rubbing their feet all over it like literally rubbing back and forth and in #between the cushions) and had left a mess on the table you also bought and when you asked if you could use your tv in the living room their #response was to immediately argue (raise voice) saying ‘I PAY RENT TOO YOU CANT KICK ME OUT OF THE LIVING ROOM’ when this was the first time #i had asked in our 2 months of living here to use my tv bc shes been using it all week and my ps5 is connected to it so i wanted to use it #she said ‘this isn’t yours your dad bought it’ and then said ‘dont you have your own tv in your room’ (which is much smaller and i cannot #play ps5 games on bc yaknow. ps5 is in living room) #how would we feel in this situation #knowing said roommate is using your things and claiming them as apart of rent (i assure you its not apart of rent i paid for and dragged in #and set up all these things out of my own pocket) #claiming them……as their own………. #and taking over? #she has not even bought anything for the house and then whenever i ask and finally give up and get it myself shes like ‘oh i was gonna get #that tomorrow’ (which is why shes not allowed to use my shower caddy now lmao) #am i being territorial or am i being reasonable for being upset with her? #wtf do i do LMAO #delete later

[feshsticks]

team ‘miranda wrote my name in her will first 😌’ vs team ‘i would pay her to delete my phone number’

#re8 #resident evil village #lady dimitrescu #alcina dimitrescu #karl heisenberg #Salvatore moreau #donna beneviento #pokemon #my trash #yes i know certain pokédecisions in this might be unpopular but. i just. do not. have the energy. to care. #i actually put some elbow grease into this. mainly by making myself wait and not post immediately so i could see anything left out #i'm drawing a full donna team some time next but it'll take a while. i have no interest in anyone else but my girl now <3 #anyone else sad they can't see the polls or are allay'all in the US #anyway gnite guess who has to fight an entry warrant in the morningggg~~~

[darksisterswielder]

Introducing y‘all to my little friend from my neighborhood 😌🫶🏻

#She belongs to a family whose house I pass every time I go jogging or taking a walk in the forest #I‘ve known her for a little over 3 years now #every time she sees me she immediately walks over to me meowing like crazy and headbutting me #we‘ve even gotten to the point where she turns her back to me and just chills out while I crouch down next to her catching my breath #and enjoying nature #idk her name I just call her darling or little one lmao #during the pandemic I went for a walk every day on the same route and befriended every cat on the way #but she is special #also she is not overweight that is her pouch #got inspired by my mutuals who regularly post their cats on here #I wanted to contribute but alas I do not have any pets :( #and these little creatures are so fascinating and comforting so I felt like sharing them #animals #cats #mine

[daily-crabbys]

mmg,, i might hiatus again,,,

I'd hate to do it, but there's no joy in crab posts as of right now, and also as of a long while ago.

Managing messages and responding to people in replies and being tagged and all the stuff in inbox is. a lot.

I never intended or expected crab blog to get this big, and it feels like such a chore to do at this point. Not that I dont like it, and not that I dont enjoy the fellow crab lovers, but it's certainly overwhelming.

That plus other socials and such that I manage and real life stuff is just. IDK, it's a lot. Usually, if I get to this point, I just drop off, maybe delete the account if I really can't stand it, but I'm definitely not going to do that here.

At the very least, I'm going to empty out the submissions that have been piling up, but after that, I'm not sure. I may not even get through all of those, I've already been relying on those for a long time at this point, and I think that's pretty obvious.

It feels like a hassle to deal with those anyways since most people don't even identify what type of crab it is that they submit, so I have to take the time to find it, which is usually not at all easy. There are so many posts that I've just had to guess what to tag it as because I just don't know, and there's no solid answer that I can find, at least not usually.

Which is also partially my fault, I've never said anything about it before, and I never specified it at an earlier time to make incoming ones less stressful to deal with, but even so I just. I don't know, I don't.

I don't know exactly when it'll happen, but it's the most likely thing to happen from here. I think I'll modify some stuff about how I handle the daily-crabbys blog to make it easier on me when I come back, but I'm not entirely sure what that'll be. I've never managed a successful daily posting account before, I haven't the slightest clue how to make it all easier on me.

Sorry that this has gotten so long, I didn't mean to rant. There's just so much that I feel like I need to say.

This isn't something coming out of nowhere, and it isn't going to be immediate. I've thought about wanting to do this for a while, and I know I did this already not too long ago, but I didn't really change anything for myself, so I'm just burnt out a lot faster.

Sorry again, both for the length of this and the fact that it's going to happen, but I've just got to make things better for myself before I carry on long term. I really just fucked myself over by not doing this the first time, but if I don't do something about it eventually then I'll just end up hating this blog too much to continue.

🦀💜

#not crab posting #heads up that this is quite a long post so in case you may not want to read it all(dont blame you) theres just a few things to know #firstly this isnt a random decision i made. ive thought about it for a while and dont think i was ready to come back in the first place #second is that it will not take place immediately! i dont want submissions to sit for too long so ill empty those out before i disappear #this includes a few that i wouldnt ordinarily post or have never found the right time to post. theyve just gotta go #third is that it is no ones fault. well thats not true. its mine. i didnt make changes i should have the first time i went on hiatus #im suffering severely from that now and have burnt out wayyy too fast. which is again no ones fault but mine #im going to change things to make it easier to handle. i need to if i want to keep this going for a long time which i very much do #i just cant when the thought of posting on here every day makes me so unhappy. im just too overwhelmed #im not sure what the changes will be just yet but they're going to be beneficial to me greatly

[esleep]

the whole "cats choose their owners" thing is really funny to me because ivy very much did NOT choose me. she was a slightly dim-witted and very rambunctious feral kitten, and that combination led to her getting herself stuck inside an old chipmunk nest halfway down the steep bank of the creek by my parents' house. from there she proceeded to scream her head off until both my mom and i came out to see what on earth was making all that racket, then we excavated her out of that hole like a sad little potato. she was grateful for the rescue, but definitely NOT grateful for the ensuing flea baths and conversion to indoor cat life at my apartment, which she reminds me of regularly. ivy i'm sorry for saving you from an early death due to predation/disease/cars, but can you stop biting me every day of my life please

#even every other day would be an improvement. #i do in fact take her out for leashed walks regularly when the weather is tolerable but it hasn't been possible for months and she's FED UP #however. i say all this but she routinely climbs into my lap for naps & greets me at the door purring & headbutting every time i come home #so clearly she's not that unhappy. her tolerance for regular cat-owner shenanigans however is essentially non-existent. #after 6 years though i can read her like a book. i know exactly how many head smooches i can get in before she gets too annoyed #and exactly how long she wants to be held when i come home before she wants to be put down #and exactly what she means when she 'gently' chews on my ankles ('play with me now or i'll bite harder') #but strangers on the other hand? guests in my home? my beloved human friends? they do not speak her language. #and the margin for error with her is razor thin. if you don't listen immediately when she says 'stop touching me' she will go from lovey #to SCRATCHING YOU BITING YOU HISSING HISSING HISSING almost immediately. #i have tried everything to convince her that's unnecessary but i think she is just SO sensitive she can't handle it #but i still love her so much. i understand her and she understands me. idk WHAT i'm gonna do when she eventually dies i'm gonna be a wreck. #in a lot of ways we are SUPER similar. i also lash out when i'm overstimulated & i also have a much lower threshold for that #than most people. #i get it.

[fisheito]

What is this weirdly feelyweely status exclusive to yakumo

#unless i missed something #it felt like everyone else had pretty rational text effects...like standard conditions in their status boxes.... #was this the only status that explicitly mentions being all squishy to GENTLY convince someone #because right now it feels like #eiden in a sequential interview situation. he is alone in a board room with someone he needs to win over. he's prepared his thesis(?) #with edmond first #eiden brings out his master plan and says OK HERE'S MY PITCH. PLEASE GIVE ME JUST A LITTLE BIT OF TRUST ONCE YOU HEAR IT #we're going to do THIS at THAT PLACE at THIS TIME with the goal of THESE RESULTS. My capabilities include: THIS. ThaT. AND PERHAPS THOSE. #PREVIOUS EXPERIENCES indicate that method A and B will do well but in case that fails i have prepared options C D and F #eiden pointing out his massive presentation board with the spreadsheets and red strings #edmond deliberates very seriously before cautiously approving of eiden's plan #when edmond exits and oli takes his place. eiden starts the presentation anew #oli nods thoughtfully and encouragingly throughout... like yes! this sounds like a good plan! i trust you with this :) let's do it :) #then oli leaves and yakumo comes in to take his place #eiden doesn't even need the presentation materials. #he just sits across from him. gently places yakumo's hand on his chest over his heart. then stares soulfully at mr protoserpent #and says (please trust me? 🥺) #yakumo crumbles IMMEDIATELY #and when they emerge from the room into the hall where edmond and oli are waiting #eiden's like GREAT! EVERYONE'S ON BOARD! let's get this started n_n #and edmond's just like.... yakumo why did you come out so fast. eiden's presentation lasted at least 7 minutes #oli just smiles knowingly and thinks lmao eiden heckin got im #journey to a nu world #yakumo