#not to be rude im catholic myself but

[marsixm]

honestly one of the roughest nights ive had at work in a while on paper like. bad

#i dont FEEL super bad so it doesnt feel it #and it wasnt busy so luckily we were able to cope #but man it was. bad #had a rare super rude customer interaction #and i almost fell for a phone scam which i still feel guilty for even tho i caught myself in time #im too tired and autistic to deal with bold liars making 70% sense okay im sorry #i feel so fucking guilty i feel like i need to confess to my manager when i see him tomorrow #but i like him and dont want him to be disappointed in me #catholic ass impulse #anyway like half the people who were supposed to be there just didnt show up god

[blenderchildren]

What clue aren't you getting?

What mating sugnal are you getting that I'm not sending you?

You would not do that to any other stranger's car.

Why do you think it is tolerable with me?

Because some bitch that thinks she's all that can get aggressive with me?

You don't know me. You've never seen me before outside of your other nosy fucks that like blindspotting and spending too much time in another person's peripheral vision.

It's well after dark. 10pm.

Are you stupid? Do you like unknown people that might shoot you for trying to get up in my business?

Hanging out in blindspots is like begging to get punched in the least. You'll never learn to correct your behavior otherwise.

Its 10 pm, after dark, you don't know me, im behind tinted windows.

Did you think it was acceptable for a stranger to get up in my shit at 10pm to inspect what I'm doing in my car behind tinted windows with my vent open through the moonroof?

What do you need to see before you stop staring at me.

A middle finger? Some occult hand signal?

Was I supposed to initiate conversation with you?

What made you think I wanted to talk to you?

I think you're intentionally making a peaceful situation into a shitty one to taint the spirit.

I think you are intentionally trying to piss words out of me, turning my life's relaxation time into needless work, nigger.

Maybe your "master" doesn't like me, maybe he thinks he's untouchable and can act aggressively at my legal boundaries and around my things, like some faggot predator trying to grabass and mark territory.

You're parked head in.

I backed into my space.

NO, not "69" dude. Try 86.

You have your red car door opened as far as it will go, pinning mine from being opened for several minutes as I ignore you and pretend your psycho bitch ass isn't there.

Was that supposed to help me "relax" and remove muscle tension, faggot predator?

What the fuck do I think you were doing?

Not arresting me.

What did you think you were going to catch me doing, in my car, with the moonroof vented, and obviously occupied by the owner nigger?

Did you think you were going to call 911 over a d.u.i? For what?

What makes you think that anything illegal is going on in my vehicle?

A nosy fucking catholic's glory and browbeating into explaining my conduct to some piece of shit forced confession nigger?

It's none of your fucking business. Maybe I'm already getting my dick sucked in my car. Take a number.

I think you're trying to photograph a person that doesn't want to be photographed sitting outside their apartment.

Who are you a fucking snitch for?

Who's telling you to be that rude, disrespectful and fucking ignorant.

Is having some random dumbfuck hang around in your blindspot and stare at you in the victims peripheral vision supposed to be tolerated as if it's some alpha faggots signature move?

Is it supposed to have Taoist relevance symbolizing the peripheral field of vision?

Some stupid devil horns?

So that means I'm supposed to be okay with strangers acting like groupie faggots humping a celebrity's car at 10pm where they are not welcome?

Did my sister tell you to be that nosy and disrespectful, or did some dickhead satanists?

OR Maybe my faggot uncle Phil?

That would totally be in character for his militant dickhead goon, abuse of power, CONTROL FREAK, faggot ass.

Documented spousal abuse, three divorces, two estranged children from his first marriage. Because he was such a "loveable" guy, right?

Physical conflict problems in the domestic household and familial pecking order between Phil and myself. Nevermind the drama or violence that his first two kids that estranged them from the family. Nevermind the times he put his second wife in the emergency room and hospital for a broken jaw and broken ribs.

Especially considering the Temple of Set and their lies, deceit, and satanic practices, and the Egyptian faggot rapist uncle and incest-driven mythology behind the mortal enemies of Set and Horus.

YOU WOULD think you have the confidence to step up into my personal space at 10pm to pin my door shut with yours so you can stare at me inside while you try to photograph me or what im doing inside.

You don't know me. It's going to stay that way. You don't know if I have a gun. you don't know if I have a knife.

Jeep driver. Phil used to drive a jeep suv too.

I don't give one fuck if the US president sent his flying monkeys to check up on me.

You don't have the right to stalk and harass me.

You have the right to politely ask like a normal, respectful, peaceful and safety-minded human being when amongst strangers after dark. or fucking disperse.

It's 10pm.

Social distancing NIGGER.

[seek--rest]

I have so many for the Fic Writer Game! Maybe you can just choose which ones you want to answer 🫣😅 5, 17, 18, 24, 27, 42, 49, 56, 59, 60, 70, 74

42 and 74 is answered! Of course I’ll do the rest, thanks for sending so many!

5. Do you like constructive criticism?

Absolutely not. I get paid for my writing irl, why the hell do I want some anonymous clown to criticize the work I’ve done for free and for fun?

If something is actively harmful or mistagged, that’s different but someone saying “oh what about—“ I simply don’t give a shit lmao. If I missed a comma or a spacing issue it’s probably because I’m first draft final draft and posted it on my phone.

17. What do you do when writing becomes difficult? (maybe a lack of inspiration or writers block)

I take a break! I take so many breaks! Contrary to popular belief I am not writing all the time! I write fast— I can hammer out 2-5k in an hour without distractions.

Sometimes you don’t want to write and you should do it anyway. If we always wait for inspiration, we will never get anything done. Motivation is a fickle bitch. Fanfic is fun but writing is a craft; sometimes you need to rest and sometimes you need to work. It’s a balance to figure out which is what.

18. Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process? How do you come up with titles?

Honestly depends— sometimes I have the title immediately, other times I’m screaming at my spotify for something

24. Worst writing advice anyone ever gave you?

“I wish you’d stop writing such sad angst, it’s too depressing” well life sucks and then you die. If you can’t find beauty in the impermanence of existence, that’s on you!

27. What is your most and least favorite part of writing?

Ideas! And then,,, ideas,,,,,

49. Do you ever get rude reviews and how do you deal with them?

A fair few over the years. Most of them were pretty fucking stupid so I make them feel as stupid as they are. Talk shit, get hit. I don’t bite first but I’ll absolutely bite back.

56. What’s something about your writing that you pride yourself on?

THAT IM STILL HERE BITCHES

Still writing the exact content I want to see! When I want to and how I want to! I’ve been called so many things over the years but my writing? Still fucking slaps and still something I’m proud of and love doing.

60. Have you had a writer you admire comment on your fic? What was that like?

I screamed when @blondsak commented on my very first fic I had to pinch myself. That she is now one of my closest friends,,,, screaming.

70. When asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?

I don’t have guilty pleasures I’m not catholic!

Writer Ask Game

#seek speaks

[gay-jewish-bucky]

Can i consider myself somewhat jewish if im still "officially" catholic but feel really connected to judaism culture and religion wise? Please dont see this as me being mean im just gen curious

This is going to come off as rude and I really don't mean it to.

The short and honest answer? No, you can't. To be Jewish in you would need to formally convert.

If you feel connected to Judaism, and, as it seems, don't feel as connected to Catholicism, do a lot of research into Jewish thought and the different movements and do a lot of soul searching to see if conversion is something that might be the right step for you.

#jumblr #jewish #judaism

[paula-of-christ]

Hi, I hope you dont mind me rambling for a moment. So I'm a single woman and haven't had much luck dating. A friend asked me out and we went on a date last night and while I had fun, I know I have no romantic feelings for him. I just can't get the voice out of my head though that he is my "last chance" since I'm approaching 30. I know that's terrible and nobody would feel good being "settled for." Ive also had a lot of issues dating because of my mom and potential asd (pt1)

Pt 2. So I'm very bad a flirting and i actually really hate being touched by people in general. My mom has always pushed me to date and has made things incredibly awkward for me many times. The kicker is she is unhappy in her marriage and so i often find myself wondering if it is even worth it. However, I have become closer to God in thebpast 2 years (Catholics revert) and i feel like I want to raise children in the faith but my time is running out.Pt 3. My family always jokes i should become a nun but honestly it makes me really insecure since its because of my lack of dating and not because they think I'm called to it. Sometimes i think about it to escape these troubles but i know thats not the wy either. Anyway sorry for rambling I just needed to say this to another Catholic woman and am too shy to say it to irl friends so a total internet stranger it is. Have a blessed day

I dint mind the rant at all! Sorry for the time it took me to answer this one.

So 30 definitely isn't your "last chance" because women are more stable in their hormones and such in their 30s than they are in their 20s, assuming what you meant is in regards to eventually having children.

I can definitely understand the mom thing hurting your dating. My relationship with my own mother is complicated and a lot of my insecurities stem from the passive-aggression I've been given over my entire life from her.

I think its quite rude for your family to joke about that if im being quite honest, especially if you've shown no or little interest in becoming one. It's definitely difficult to navigate things with a family who doesn't support your decisions and build you up in times of doubt.

I will say, something that's helped me is to distance myself from my family. That sounds cruel but truly, surrounding yourself with people of God and people that respect you as a person is so so so important for your mental health. If that means moving out or not responding as quickly to texts and calls or even not coming over for dinner as often. You should still have a relationship with your family, but it doesn't sound like there's much respect there.

I've always been better at finding men when I'm not trying to find them if I'm being honest. It's great that you have grown closer to God in the past 2 years and I know it will attract someone worthy of you and your time.

God bless!

#q's for the queue #advice tag #catholic #christian #queue me up (queue me up inside) can't queue up (queue me up inside) queue meeeee

[scentedchildnacho]

Else Marie Pade「Electronic Works 1958-1995」(2014)

I thought she recorded in Germany to point out that working class culture is actually a good desirable thing to go to....but it's from the United States and California has always been this horrible you can notice she would record something truly brutal and remaster it....

I was like San Diego is just as brutal as my middle and high school they try to kill all the girls to afford Brady reefer muscle builds I wonder if his wife roasts him like a pig he is so rude cruel and unwilling to commune it thieves not steals justifiably

And that's neo Marxists it's im sorry Kathryn is not mental she was nuclear bombed with work crazes....

Its okay because I was white and she just does some rolfing it records the neurobiology points so it's finally tried in China.....its just Indians that can't be treated a little harsh

Yea so I meditated during else a whale having a baby whale and the h1n1...h5n1 is that bad here.....you are not special whale babies might be more important then too many more human babies

I mean I think men I dated did want to have children I've always told myself I'm someone marked in some way as you can hit her somewhat so I've always thought of them as boring slavish people that do what their told and their superior officers treat them like they were men not angels

Man ya know dude....whatever it's sad and then it goes away

My mom's Catholic friend was military and she would tell me she had hips like Satan models but Christians are Greekness so saints not Satan and that's because God is popular and if Satan was everybody would do it

I mean I could have a six seven pound baby but I do actually have a small pelvis and a four pound baby would be comfortable

#Youtube

[soldier-poet-king]

It's my birthday (technically it's past midnight so it's not anymore but whatever) I shouldn't have to see BAD POSTS in my 5 min of tumblr before bed

#im just🔪😠😠😠 #i was LITERALLY BITCHING TO MYSELF ABOUT THIS IN THE SHOWER YESTERDAY #having a whole ass fake argument #and then it COMES TO HAUNT ME??? #u haunt fran??? u hant fran on her birthday??? like a rude person???? jail!!! jail for internet catholics for 1000 years #anyway. i am going to read anne Carson #i will reply to all the (lovely thank u) messages tmrw

[showbonyan]

seeing ppl use their mental illness/disabilities as an excuse to avoid confrontation and having ppl be rightfully mad at them irl is such a wild ride it makes me convulse

#shut up cas #you telling me tht wht i did was rude was rude of you because now i feel bad you're being rude to me- #the biggest fucking galaxy brain #ive never seen someone reach so far to blame the other person for being mad at something they did to them #i was physically convulsing in my seat this girl was like rude to everybody but i dont want to be harsh because she has autism so like i get #it #but at the same time she refuses to think she does anything wrong ever and it grinds my gears #our 3rd class she's like 'can i ask you a question?' #and she's new so im like 'yeah of course! wht do u need help with?' #and she fucking blurts out no hesitation 'what are you your clothes are so weird and confusing what are you?' #and my other two classmates tht i knew from last semester were like 'oh my god' i never wanted to leave a room so bad #i was like her main target for some reason like i felt like she wanted to be friends but she also tried to correct everything i would say #even when i WASNT wrong #she was literally happy when she realized she got a better grade than me on our first test and upset when other pp did better than her when #she got like an 83 #i tried keeping to myself to avoid having to talk to her but my god im so happy i dont hve to deal with her next thursday because she takes #her tests in the library i cant imagine having multiple classes with her #there was also this dude in jewish history who would NOT shut up about his catholic family and his one (1) #jewish grandparent who was like his gr8 grandparent #and the teacher would try to move on with the topic but he refuse to STOP TALKINg #neither are them are psych majors i never want to see them ever again

[morepopcornplease]

a Broken Record

Straight Catholic: I just think we shouldn't identify with our sin.

Me: We are a Church of sinners. We refer to ourselves frequently as sinners. Being gay is not a sin anyways.

Straihgt Catholic: Yes but its absurd that you go around saying your a celibate gay Catholic. What if I went around identifying myself as a white male Catholic??

Me: Well firstly, you wouldn't be incorrect, and secondly, despite the sheer number of crimes committed on behalf of whiteness or maleness, congregations don't reject you based on that label, but for some reasons are up-in-arms about mine. I do it because I Have To.

Striahgt Catholic: Look at this one dude who wrote a book on why he doesn't call himself gay!

Me: That's a nice opinion. Look at the moral authority of the Catechism, which expressly uses the term "Homosexual Person" to describe people like myself. Repeatedly. Doesn't seem like the Vatican has a problem with it.

Stiraght Catholic:

Me:

Stirgaht Catholic:

Me:

Srtigaht Catholic: ...I just feel really uncomfortable that you identify with your sin.

#sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #personal #celibate gay Catholic #Catholic celibate gay #gay as the rainbow over noahs ark #the discourse #why am i surrounded by people who think their opinion trumps the CCC? #lay the fuck off already im not here to damage your puny self conceptualization #im here to help fellow people in the Church LIKE MYSELF who are struggling to reconcile their faith and their body #and who consistently hear a message of dismissal and abject rudeness

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

my high school stalker from public school back in 2012 on that day where i stupidly went to his house: when people call you ugly- because they will- i'll be the first person to curb stomp or punch them in the face for you, bc im just such a nice, quirky and over-protective guy!!! :) also, dont be a bitch to me and I WONT CALL YOU ugly :) i love you :)

me, mentally at the time: wow. what a hero. what a knight in shining armour. what a piece of shit. how are you gonna m'lady yourself out of this one, you fucking edgelord???? i've never encountered such a rude asshole in my entire life. and i thought the boys at catholic school sucked. also, fun fact: i've been calling myself ugly since year 7. so, if anyone calls me ugly it ain't gonna hurt me, fool. checkmate. and what a weird point to make too... when you just told me 2 seconds ago that you thought i was "my (your) beautiful girl, now" or whatever the fuck. and what the actual fuck does that last passive aggressive bit mean??? what the fuck. bc idk what the fuck this is, but it sure as all fuck ain’t love.

me, still, now, almost 10 years later, when he tried to add me on fb the other day, but i blocked him: hooooo boy the RED FLAG HUMAN BEING wants to save me with his "you'll NEVER control me, but i’ll always control you!!! im just that wild 😈!!!" edgy minion mum memes. stay gone, fucker *hits block button* i dont have the time or the mental space to deal with his mind games.

#life #about me #shut up ilona #ilona's public school memories #ilona rants about her high school stalker #im betting that he hasnt changed an ounce and that's why i blocked him

[sophiemk22blogg]

i’m tracing all my stretch marks

and watching grown up movies

trying to pass the time till break is over

ive been scared to call you

and tell you that i miss you

theres comfort in imagined conversations

do you remember the garden

how green rushed through the window

and your eyes were so tired

most times i’m 22 years old

but today I am 13

im sulking in the corner

and you’re smiling down at me

what is it that you called me then

a kitten with her claws locked in

that i vine around your lattice

and that lattice is your mind

i fill the sacred spaces between you and I

as i steady on your eyes

i handed you my knife

and

you almost gave me your lighter

im unsure of how to make it on my own

and you’re beginning to feel like my

home

like a friend or a lover

so i laughed and i agreed

i didn’t want you to leave

without me

if i made myself look smaller

would you hold me and protect me

would you never want to leave me?

tell me, kid im proud of you

i’ve seen the things that you’ve been through

im not going anywhere

please don’t go anywhere

without me

version 2:

if I made myself smaller

would you and your wife carry me

from the backseat into bed

if I had a nightmare

would you hold me,

would you smother all my pain

tell me, “kid i’m proud of you

and I will never leave

I’ll love you at 22

like you’re still 13.”

what is it that you called me then

a flower that vines around your lattice

a kitten with her claws locked in

I sulk, stutter, slowly inch closer

i fear that you will move away

I was such a fragile thing

And you held me anyway

3:

sometimes androgyny is made

it is something that becomes accentuated,

well,

my voice is soothing when i’m angry and my smile is lopsided and when i laugh. i roll my eyes all too often and i carry one shoulder higher than the other. and that’s okay, because my confidence is playful and graceful and kind.

growing up my jawline was strong, my lips delicate, my shoulders too broad, my hands too small and elegant. it’s too much energy to put on dresses and walk without swaying my shoulders. i don’t care and am tired. i am told the way i carry my body is confusing and beautiful and awkward and all over the place like there are to many feelings trying to pilot my body. i’m either too sweet and shy or i’m rude and impulsive. nothing makes anyone happy. maybe they don’t need to be happy.

sacred spaces between you and I

this hasn’t been the usual heartbreak has it

no, this doesn’t ever seem to end

i’ll cycle through, but i won’t forget you

Then i saw Licorice Pizza and loved it. Then I tried to get myself to cry in a restaurant bathroom. Sometimes trying to throw up helps.

Im on my knees in front of the toilet bowl and i’m not sure what’s going on with me.

I can’t cry. My meds won’t allow it.

I went to a Catholic mass and wore a lace veil. I’m not Catholic but i know i need spiritual help. I’m not catholic so what am I doing here?

At mass I was dizzy and unbalanced and exhausted the entire time. I think i’m sick. The father gave me a waiter even though i crossed my arms. I talked to a woman who was nursing. Sometimes i want kids.

Sometimes i want stability. Sometimes I want a husband to wake up next to me and children to care for. I want security. I don’t want so many responsibilities. I want morals and rules and boundaries. I want to be holy and pure.

Im depressed, i think. No, i’m sure.

#my writing

[charbonara]

I dont want to sound rude im genuinely interested. I was baptised and raised as a catholic but im lapsed now and havent practiced in 7 years. And im also gay. How is it for muslims? I mean my family is catholic but they dont particularly care who i love. But the older generation deem it a sin. I just want to learn about different experiences thats all :’)

Nah that's not rude at all. My parents actually don't really mind me being gay as long as I don't marry my gf and remain a good girl for them. And its clear in muslims that LGBT is a big sin. But I can't hurt myself by pretending to be normal in front of them. I continued to go to the mosque, read the quran every day, and fasted. I don't mean to corner atheists here. Cause LGBT exist in every religion.

#just be yourself #ask

[somewhat-crazy]

I would like to ask for a mash-up.

What I look like:

I have light-brown hair, that go about five inches over my chest, a bang and heaven-blue eyes.

Other facial features:

Thinn, frameless glasses, kept in the colors of black and white.

Body size:

As much as I hate to admit it, I am what people might call "fluffy".

Gender:

Female

Age:

21 years old. (Almost.)

Sexuality:

Straight with a thing for intelligence.

Personality type:

INFJ-T

Favorite music:

Classical music.

Favorite color/contrast:

White and blue.

Favorite animals:

My top three:

1. Spiders

2. Praying mantis

3. Dragonflies

Hobbys:

1. Drawing

2. Writing

3. Crafting

4. Occasionally sewing

5. Gardening

6. Singing

7. Acting

8. Studying

9. Hiking/Camping

10. Taking care of animals/Do researnch on animals in order to learn more about them

Things I like:

* Spiders/Bugs (No. Spiders are not bugs.), Peace and quiet, Intelligent people, Languages, Things being in order and going according to plan, Animals in general, The forest, Explaining things, that are exciting to me, science like physics, chemistry and biology, psychology, sociology, anatomy, music,

Things I dislike:

Rude people, loud people, dumb people, stress and fighting, techno music and any kind of rap music, my pencil order being messed up, chaos, Boredom

Things I hate with a burning passion:

Demons, anything hell-related, demons, My work being messed up, demons, being ripped out of my train of thought, demons, Misplacing my glasses, demons, being late, demons, people being late, demons, people, who torture animals, especially spiders, demons, fould soul-scents, demons, People who demand me to instantly open up to them, did I already mention that I hate demons with a burning passion ???

Backstory:

I had a rough and rather traumatizing childhood, which caused 14 years of full-blown panic attacks.

Luckily I got out of them by now, even if there are still a few triggers, where I have to be careful

.

Strengths:

1. I have a good eye for the minimal details.

2. I can focus on a task on hand for hours.

3. I am able to be independent.

4. I am intelligent/Creative.

5. I am determined to get something, if I want it.

6. I have no tendencies to get physically harmful and I have no tendency to get angry, since doing that, and also the emotion in itself is a waste of time and energy, that could be used to be productive.

7. I am always thirty for knowledge and I am a quick learner.

Flaws:

1. I take far too much time to open up.

2. I am often cold and distant.

3. I am a perfectionist

4. I am very mistrusting or shy.

5. I tend to not care for my "friendships" or about people in general, because I see people's flaws apon the first look or at least tend to do so.

6. I tend to take some things too personal or be overly sensitive sometimes.

7. I have insanely high expectations towards others and I build up my walls so high, that barely anyone can claim over them.

Personality:

How others describe me :

1. Polite.

2. Overly quiet.

3. Slow to anger.

4. Intelligent/Smartass/Nerd/Geek.

5. Patient.

6: Sweet.

7. Caring.

8. Different from the rest.

How I see myself:

1. You may laugh or say, that I am crazy, but due to something the bible calls "gift of telling the spirits apart" (Yes, I am a christian and I love it.) and my natural empathic, observing nature of an INFJ-personality type, I am able to often know things about people that I am not supposed to know and reading people is the most easiest thing for me to do. I may not necessarily say, that I have feelings of myself, but I am able to copy the feelings and expressions of others quite well.

For those, who know black butler, I know very well, what it means, if Sebastian is taling about the scent of souls, since I am capable of smelling it too.

2. I am a mix of the empath-INFJ and the sigma-INFJ.

Anger me and I may become a so called "dark empath", if you keep it up long enough.

(I've made one of my bullies cry her eyes out by just using a few simple words.)

3. I like to keep to myself and have plenty of alone-time, due to me being naturally introverted and quite preserved.

4. I am very analytical and tend to analyze just about everything that comes in front of my nose or in my sight. That is also caused by trust issues and a few traumatizing events in my past.

5. If a person earns the right of being let inside by me/the right to call themselves my friend, I tend to become warmer step by step/become rather caring and protective of that person.

That person gets my full attention and I dedicate a lot of time to them.

If they should hurt me though, I doorslam them and they never will get close to me again.

Since those things, I've written down here are very personal and usually very private information about myself, I have allowed myself to stay anonymous to grand myself a little bit to safety.

Thank you in advance for writing this.

Goodbye.

okay but can i just say that you sound really cool 🥺 also rq are closed rn but i really wanted to write this, so i did. since you gave me a lot of info, i was able to write this a bit longer ^^ at first i really thought you matched with EJ until i got to the demon part,,, then it was like oh well we can find someone else haha. also (ik this is a super long note), but you're the only person i've interacted thus far on my blog that's a christian, so hey! im not baptized or anything, but i try to keep my blog family and christian-friendly :3 since i wasn't sure what denomination you're from, i didn't talk about religion too much

I match you with: Helen / The Bloody Painter

(under the cut bc its pretty long)

im honestly really really intimidated by the two of you

you're both very private/reserved people, so most of the time you two spend time in more quiet and calm places

some people might not even know that you two were dating until you said it explicitly because you just never mentioned it before

he absolutely loves how much he understands you because of how similar the two of you are

it took quite a while for the two of you to warm up to each other, but once you did, it was pretty smooth sailing

he doesn't mind your religion whatsoever; he was raised Catholic and is loosely Christian, although isn't baptized and doesn't go to church much

he absolutely loves doing any sort of work with you; you guys work well together and get a lot done in short periods of time

honestly just finds you fascinating. the way you carry yourself, your preferences and hobbies, your creativity and diligence; every single day he learns something new about you, and he loves it

you two learn a lot together; many long nights of reading or pouring over new information, analyzing data and researching things

although he might never say it out loud, he actually thinks that you're really cute; he loves your eyes and gets lost in them a lot. if you ever call yourself "fluffy", get ready for a 20-minute lecture about how you're beautiful and perfect the way you are and that's that

loooves drawing with you and gets you a lot of art-related gifts (although he doesn't mind doing any of your other hobbies with you ^^)

he also likes insects/bugs and spiders, and is happy that finally he found someone else who isn't grossed out by them he actually has a pet tarantula named Ekii 👀 so hopefully you like tarantulas haha

won't ever force you to open up about things, especially if it's about your past or anything triggering for you

you'll probably have to get used to hanging out with Puppeteer a lot as well-- I promise, he sort of gets better the more you get to know him (emphasis on 'sort of')

he draws you a lot and would be really touched (although he wouldn't say so) if you did the same to him

he's really interested in your empath abilities and how that works. asks a lot of clarifying questions and soaks all of the new information up

since Helen is also a bit of a perfectionist, he understands and tries to get you to be a bit easier on yourself will literally force you to stop working and go take a walk if he needs to

speaking of which-- nature walks, hikes, camping, he loves the forest too!!

although he listens to a lot of different styles, he's glad that at least once person enjoys classical music as well; he likes turning it on quietly in the background while he works :3

to make a long story short; he absolutely loves and adores you, especially since he can understand you so well although he's not an empath, he understands your emotions very well and would do anything for you ^^ <3

#creepypasta #creepypasta matchups #helen otis #creepypasta x reader

[tsukvmo]

hi!! i saw your post (this was back in jan) about that person not supporting lgbtq and all and i thought i would address it

i understand that a lot of people get offended when Muslims don’t support the lgbtq community- i think the op didn’t really explain it that well by saying “just go to google” but basically homosexuality is not allowed in Islam. even if they really wanted to support it, their religion doesn’t allow them to.

however, this is not to say that they can’t tolerate lgbtq+ and i think that op was a bit insensitive when they indirectly invalidated homosexuality just because “god didn’t create two genders for the same gender to marry”- that i have to agree that that came off as a bit rude.

tl;dr: just wanted to explain that muslims cannot support lgbtq+ because of their religion, and i don’t think anyone should take offense to that- the most they can do is give you their understanding and respect you. that’s probably why the stigma around muslims exists- because a lot of people don’t really understand that fact. but it’s ok to feel frustrated when they invalidate you and negate your beliefs and identity, i understand where your frustration stems from

(i hope i didn’t come off as insensitive in any way, but if there’s anything wrong please call me out for it! i myself am not a muslim but i live around a lot of them, and a lot of them have shared their frustrations with me about this issue and how people tend to misunderstand them and i just thought i would share)

same anon as before, forgot if i mentioned but what they said is homophobic in my opinion. just my two cents on it

oof I didn’t think this discourse would come up again, but thank you for sharing your thoughts. indeed, it was homophobic, and not just a little. 

I myself am not muslim, and my knowledge is only on what ive read up on the issue of islam and lgbtq+, but I'll link what a muslim anon said regarding the issue. if there is anyone who knows better than either of us regarding this, please drop your thoughts. I don’t want to presume to speak for a community I’m not part of, but this is what I can say to the best of my knowledge.

as a whole, traditional readings of religious texts (islam, judaism, christianity, or otherwise) promote a heteronormative and gender binary ‘reality’. however, in all these religions today, there exists a wide spectrum of views, ranging from progressive to conservative. this is why it’s also debatable to anchor homophobia on purely religion; different interpretations exist.

for islam, there is the emergence of new interpretations of the text—be it the Quran or the Hadiths. many scholars are reexamining teachings. some argue that the Quran doesn’t really say anything regarding homosexual desire (acts are different), while some challenge the basis of the story on Lot: was sodom was punished for homosexuality or for their treatment of Lot and his guests? I'll link some readings here; these are also my references in answering the ask (x x x x).

there are muslim lgbtq+ who wouldn’t want the dialogue to end with simple “respect” or tolerance for their identity, ie the bare minimum. others are also creating places for worship and safe spaces for the muslim lgbtq+ community. it’s hypocritical to stigmatize lgbtq+ (who are seeking for their right to love freely) when there are much graver sins out there, like arrogance, greed, etc.

this applies to most religions, and im also speaking from my experience as a catholic—imo, a lot of traditional views on religion need to be reevaluated and reexamined. a balance between traditional/cultural values and our modern understandings on intersectionality, marginalized groups, and equity should be considered. 

[farabeezer]

50 questions tag

i was tagged by: @carter-hearts (ty! <3)

i know this is basically shouting into the void but i love doing these things so im just gonna do it for myself 

(edit: WAIT i just realised that @savebyhellebuyck also tagged me, thanks mate and obviously youve already done it so ignore the tag lmao)

1. what is the color of your hair brush? black

2. name a food you never eat? onions. ew

3. are you typically too warm or too cold? im ALWAYS too hot (hot damn)

4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago? eating tea ig (pasta with tomato sauce and veg, im so healthy yknow)

5. what’s your favorite candy bar? omg, boost bars, i love them so much

6. have you ever been to a professional sports game? um some football (”soccer”) games, a couple rugby games in my local area (and one at twickenham which was Epic)

7. what was the last thing you said out loud? “there’s 160 teabags in this box!” (to which my flatmate said “oh you’re set for the week then” which was. rude.)

8. what is your favorite ice cream? vanilla. boring af

9. what was the last thing you had to drink? friday night i had a LOAD of rum and cokes and a vodka lemonade (i have a sweet tooth lmao). if you mean just any beverage then im drinking tea rn

10. do you like your wallet? YES its so cool its bright yellow i love it

11. what was the last thing you ate? my tea (see above lol)

12. did you buy any new clothing last week? nah i hate spending money

13. what’s the last sporting event you watched? the last isles-bolts game :’(

14. what is your favorite flavor of popcorn? sweet and salty mix

15. who was the last person you sent a text to? my sister

16. ever go camping? oh yeah i go every year with the fam because its cheaper than an abroad holiday lmao

17. do you take your vitamins? uh only at ~that time of the month~, i take iron. i think vitamins are like way more of an american thing? most people i know don’t take any vitamins unless they have a specific deficiency 

18. do you regularly attend a place of worship? my family are catholic but im not a very good one lol

19. do you have a tan? yeah tanning naturally is my only talent

20. do you prefer chinese or pizza? chinese! definitely

21. do you drink soda through straws? only if i can be bothered to find a straw lmao so normally no

22. what color socks do you usually wear? black or white ;)

23. do you ever drive above the speed limit? i can’t drive lol. not because im too young its just i cant afford lessons or anything

24. what terrifies you? the idea of being buried alive. ahhh

25. look to your left, what do you see? window

26. what chore do you hate the most? cleaning the hob/sink/other peoples food messes, ew

27. what do you think when you hear an australian accent? those seagulls in finding nemo. but i lowkey love the aussie accent though

28. what’s your favorite soda? you mean ~fizzy drink~. anyway its diet coke

29. do you ever go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? again i can’t drive so normally i just. walk inside

30. what’s your favorite number? 19, my squad number on my rugby team

31. who’s the last person you talked to? my flatmate (see no. 7 :) )

32. favorite cut of beef? i literally only eat mince or burgers so like. i don’t know about the cuts. ive never even had a steak im Clueless

33. last song you listened to? think about things by dadi freyr (iceland’s eurovision song this year. its so good go listen now. actually listen to everything those guys sing they’re all bops)

34. last book you read? “1914 and other poems” by Rupert Brooke 

35. favorite day of the week? probably tuesday. or saturday

36. can you say the alphabet backwards? uh probably not

37. how do you like your coffee? iced - white with a little sugar

38. favorite pair of shoes? my fake balenciagas ;)

39. time you normally get up? in lockdown, like 11-12. now i actually have things to do its maybe 8

40. do you prefer sunrise or sunset? sunset. if i see the sunrise it means im either up way too late or up way too early and thats just not fun

41. describe your kitchen plates? i have one plate. its green and i got it for free from one of my sister’s flatmates

42. how many blankets are on your bed? duvet, one blanket at the end and another down the side for emergencies

43. describe your kitchen at the moment? its big because there’s nine of us living here but there is NOT enough counters >:(

44. do you have a favorite alcoholic drink? at the moment its spiced captain morgan (rum) and a little splash of diet coke. i love a good pint of Doom Bar though

45. do you play cards? i know like two card games so not really

46. what color is your car? no car :)

47. can you change a tire? in theory? but like id have to be desperate not to just call AA or someone to do it for me lol

48. favorite state? american state? like probably ohio? seems chill and rural. i know nothing about us states though don’t come at me. the equivalent here is counties so my fave county is 100% conwy

49. favorite job you’ve had? nah mate who enjoys working

50. tagging: i have no friends on here yet so like. @softgrantaire @savebyhellebuyck  @u-okay-hen and anyone else who wants to! (no obligation at all though lol you guys are just the only people i know here)

#about me #tag game

[paula-of-christ]

This is a genuine question, so I'm sorry if it comes across as rude or insensitive. I was raised Catholic, and with the help of therapy I have been reliving a lot of memories that have been extremely traumatic for me relating to the church and Catholicism. I feel incredibly guilty for looking back with disdain on my time in the church, but the people around me did so many things to hurt me, so many things I can't imagine God would want them to do. I guess my question is, what do I do? I consider myself an Ex-Catholic but that feels so terrible. I'm sorry if I'm asking the wrong person, I don't have many people in my life.

A lot of times people are misguided and hurtful. Thats how people are. Im glad you're going to therapy, thats a really good thing to do. I would suggest maybe working with your therapist about separating those feelings of what those people did and what God does. Because youre right, God didn't want you to be treated like that.

There are no ex-catholics. You are still apart of the family, the body of believers. Any parish or priest worth their salt will welcome you with open arms and work to bring you into the fullness of life.