#no one else remembers it besides me

[secretly-larry-daley]

Hey, I’ve got a question for you guys. Did any of you read a book about this kid who was sent to his dad for the summer, because he accidentally punctured his dogs ear with a dart? He wore this patch that he wasn’t supposed to take off. His dad lived with the kid’s grandma from what I remember. And at the end of the book, i remember the kid waving back to his grandma because he was returning home with his mom.

A scene that really stuck out to me was when the kid was talking about going to a baseball game with both of his parents. And how nice it’d be to have a nice, normal outting with them because he never had that before (since they were divorced)

#if so please tell me #this book feels like a fever dream #no one else remembers it besides me #I just wish I knew the name #booklr #books #finding books #book search #book help

[chaikajpeg]

hinata shōyō | haikyuu

reference photo: link to the original post on twitter. shot by oremiya14

i don't know the name of the team and the player yet but i'll add them later (i'm in a bit of a hurry so i have to go... sorry!!)

#my art #haikyuu #hinata shouyou #hinata shoyo #took me ~2hrs. a little less maybe #i feel more confident at drawing bodies now. but faces and heads are incredibly difficult #not only the anatomy is hard but the face should also be recognisable #and finding the golden mean between realism and anime style feels like an impossible task #but well. nothing you can do but try your best to learn #on a different note. i remembered i have free will and can draw something besides spy x fam and magus' bride #i wasn't restricting myself to these two works. but i got so attached to the characters that i forgot i could draw someone else #im watching haikyuu for the 3rd time (watched it in 2015 and then one more time in 2017) #it's one of the VERY few animes i don't find cringe after a long break and love just as much as i did during my teenage years #it's a bit too dramatic sometimes but i don't mind that at all #the animation is mind-blowing... #and the humor too #kageyama drawing in the next post... i'll continue my ramble there #traditional illustration #pencil illustration #hq

[forcedhesitation]

unique greetings?? hello??

the romance-specific greeting only seemed to trigger once I entered act 3, despite jantar having gone through the dance cutscene fairly early into act 2.

the regular high friendship one is a greeting I've gotten before in corydalis' save, as well as "always good to talk, my friend," but both lines of dialogue randomly disappeared at some point, and wyll only greeted corydalis with "well met." well, up until today, I guess.

I have to wonder if these will once again randomly disappear because they are clearly bugged and larian just won't fix them once and for all...

...please...stop doing this to the gate's most beautiful little prince...

#bg3 #thoughts about media #wyll ravengard #has wyll always had a romance specific greeting and no one knew because it's been bugged this whole time??? #I wonder if he has more than one actually... #because on corydalis' save- the only greeting I was able to trigger was the “let's talk” greeting. #and I know for a fact that max friendship wyll can greet you with “always good to talk my friend.” #so I wonder if there is another greeting besides “I'm here for you. always.” #star has many different ones depending on how much he likes your tav/where you are in his romance. #he and SH have a ridiculous amount of material compared to everyone else though...so not really a useful frame of reference. #halsin has...two? maybe three? if I'm remembering correctly? #but I'm not certain of how many unique voicelines other companions have for romance specific greetings. #I've only ever romanced star halsin and wyll. and this wyll line never played for me b4 today. #I'm working on gale next so I can complete my collection of boyfriends but it'll take ~30 hrs to get to the kissing. #maybe even faster since this will be the millionth time I through act 1. but still a sizeable amount of time. unfortunately for my patience

[beatcroc]

comic planning/roughs on the clock at work 👍 ok. this one's still a few posts out though

#god i really do just need to get a tablet or. something #some way to draw digitally on the go bc my laptop is um #at least 200% less portable than your typical old clunky laptop. its a whole ordeal #and as u can see tradish scribbles are barely usable #though i guess it would help if i ever remembered to grab something besides a shite pen at work lmao <-hates pen forever #mad bc i think this one is kind of mid+redundant for what i'd intended it to do bc of how some of the previous ones shifted #but i still gotta draw it bc one of the later ones uses it. buh #when i said these werent chronological or connected btw i lied #though only VERY VERY LOOSELY so. enough to bother *me* if i don't do them in order #but not enough that's really going to be noticeable to anyone else. they're each still intended 99% as standalone. #the arc is very minor but its there. for me. for anyone else it probably just amounts to a couple easter egg references/ consistencies #by the by the pizzaposts before this arent part of the series. #one small quickie thing and one i would...really like to get done sooner rather than later bc i need it out of my system #former's like 70% sketched im just waffling on execution #latter is uh...theres a lot there but it's harder to work on And harder tell how close to done it is. #unrelated its funny how i Always forget brick until i start putting anything down and then its like oh god yeah i can do bg Jokes with him #funny in the sense that one of my webcomic protag oc's is a...spatially similar deal as him [little kid with a big bear companion] #and i ALWAYS forget the bear when im scripting it. until i start messing with the layout and its like fuck theres a bear. #i have to do things with this now. fortunately thus far it hasn't been too hard to adapt #much rambling tonight goodbye. i haev to go block all these damn bots

[the-jam-to-the-unicorn]

"Two years. We are all here 🇺🇦"

#this made me emotional #i remember two years ago so much #anxiously i followed the news two years ago #hoping for ukraine the war would not start #and i remember zes video #president tut #i think it was probably the first thing i really saw of him #besides some snippets in news and on social media and stuff #and i was so deeply impressed by that president who had the balls to stay and fight russia #im still deeply impressed #think about ze and his actions and words and so on whatever you want #agree with him or not #but we all can probably agree that Volodymyr zelenskyy is not only one of the bravest but also one of the best human beings on this world #and he deserves all the respect for what hes doing for two years #he worked every day. every freaking day he works as hard as possible to save his country and his people #sacrificing a lot and the ultimate thing - his family #he could have chosen the easy road and could now sit somewhere in Poland or the us or somewhere else #but he was courageous and stayed and said fuck you russia #and to this very way this bravery moves me and impresses me

[jellyloveru]

ough

#балаболим #just. dunno. #realising more and more that my current job isn't alright for me atm. #like. before? was alright. esp counting that i didn't get mich for the household (these months are a blur. i don't remember much) #(might be soem form of post-dropout dissociation. no idea honestly.) #but now? i'm quite aware of how much i'm getting. #i don't think about switching it - i promissed myself i'd be at that jod for at least a year after imployment. #besides - second exam might change things. #but overall - it isn't enough for me rn. #...taking in all the things i have to think about now. #i don't wanna say why now but i spend quite a lot on my family now. out of what i get. and i just wanna get it all out there. #monthly product purchases and quite a lot of utilities require change. and since rn it seems that no one can check it all #- i have to do it all now. almost completely taking care of the household. dad helps of course. but. i'm younger. i gotta. #i'm not complaining #just can't really share it with anybody else fully. #can't express it either it seems.

[hyunebear]

happy hyunjuly to those who celebrate 🍀

#adri.txt #hyunjin #it's been two years now and i'm still never going to be over it #when mixtape oh mv dropped i can still vividly remember where i was at that time slumped on my desk in front of my computer #bawling my fucking eyes out #it was so surreal i almost thought i was going insane #then july first came and he changed that bbl pfp of his along w putting that lil clover leaf beside his name #and he waited for it to turn exactly 3:25 before sending a message.......... the sob it got out of me #i'm so incredibly grateful that we have him here w us and he's continuing to live out his dreams and sing and perform and be on stage #i can't imagine where else he would belong but there. shining. like the brightest star that he is #he rlly is like a little clover leaf. our lucky one. everything good in this world

[brain-empty]

i think what i dont remember of my childhood is a lot worse than i assumed

#not in terms of how i was treated because i know how that was #but in terms of what i saw in my everyday life #i live in the 'good part' of my city #not the rich or most populated part hell i think its the most vacant part of the city besides the parts that are on the outskirts #but the one where the good people ran off or got scammed into #where the houses are shitty patchworks yet everyone has a good heart #meanwhile where i used to be was the worst part all things considered #right on the most dangerous street according to my mom and aunt in an apartment of problems #all i had was a sweet old couple who made me a ukulele and a old lady in a nearby house for people who were truely good #and even then im likely biased from stories #but everyone else was either not to be talked to seen as actively harmful or good with severe problems #pretty sure addiction was the first consistent thing in my life #or well seeing addicts was #no mater how normal they looked to me there was i good chance i knew how bad their addictions were even if i didnt understand yey #yet* #and now with the added context of how so many addicts in this city are addicts to cope with severe trauma its scary #the first thing i saw consistently was cigarettes and alcohol being used without care #they never hurt me but they hurt themselves and even others around me #might be why im so prone to addiction nowadays.. #fuck i wish i fully remembered..

[basingstokemercury]

okay

wow

that was a messed up dream

and I say as a perennial weird-dream-haver

might need to lay off mikado and yeomen for a while?

#I don't mind dying in dreams as a rule #but this was... something else #in what twisted region of my subconscious do schools publicly behead dissidents #even besides my being fifteen again that is uh #dark #dreams about dying in battle or being chased by a monster can be very unpleasant #but aside from extreme cases at least leave me an exciting story #in this one I don't think I even ended up actually dying #there was just all this horrible lead up to the execution #my mum and I determined that I would be brave and dignified so my death would be a symbol of resistance #(most unrealistic part of the narrative I am an absolute coward) #again remember dream me was FIFTEEN #this was normal in dreamworld there were maybe twenty schoolgirls lined up to be killed in turn #I think many were my real-life schoolmates or friends from my early teens #I rarely remember sensations in dreams #the only one I can think of is my worst nightmare until now #where I woke recalling the feeling of the monster cutting my wrist open with a razor but no actual pain #this time I remember little fifteen-year-old me standing defiant on this balcony structure #and obediently putting her neck on the block just waiting for it to be over because the strong front was going to crack any moment

[pepprs]

posts like that break my stupid fucking heart lol. i hate being in this situation and i hate that i hate it because im convinced im delusional about how bad it is right now and that it’s my fault for being a terrible selfish daughter and also it could be SO much worse. but no im not entirely terrible or selfish and yes this situation is bad even if it’s not the absolute worst it’s ever been or ever could be. i know we’re working on fixing some parts of it but that does not negate that i am living a suffocated life right now and never have fully known that freedom even when i haven’t lived in this house and still have so much work to do to finally get it and im so overwhelmed by this that i keep putting it off and running away

#purrs #also it’s like.. how does ANYONE live without the autonomy and shit you inevitably get as an adult. or the way people take you seriously #more and give you space and stuff. because i know i will miss some aspects of living like this but i think life after this will be so much b #better and freer. yeah it’s scary to make your own choices and move your own ways but also ummmm i am not living in a good situation and #there are so many fucked up things happening here. also i was gonna say something else ughhhh what was it. omg #OH yeah well idk if this was The thing but my parents don’t want me to ever have a place of my own bc they’re worried about my safety. i am #also worried about my safety but i think maybe i would like some independence. and i can’t work it out in my head lol #OHHHHH WAIT i remember. ok. so also. im 23 years old. my mom moved out of her parents home when she was 25 but she was already like dating a #and stuff and i.. well you know. but it’s like im 23 but i don’t think im even going to be able to afford a place of my own that is also #nice to live in. so i am going to have to find a roommate which is fine and also i want one anyway bc again i think it’s safer living w #other ppl and not just me and i just have to make sure that my future roommate/s are like.. not as bad as my 2 roommates i had on campus LOL #but it’s like I don’t think im going to be able to even split the cost for a place that is more than just bedrooms a bathroom and a common a #area. and ite like. when in my life if at all am i going to have other rooms to furnish besides my own bedroom. and when in my life am i #gonna be acceptable to my parents to live by myself. and when in my life do i stop talking to them every single day and depending on them fo #for every single decision. when in my life is my mom gonna treat my 40 h/w job (that in fairness i just started and technically haven’t EVEN #starred) with the same seriousness as my dad’s 40 h/w job. and when in my life is this fucking pandemic gonna end so i can go to conferences #and not be a burden or a disappointment and when in my life am i gonna find a life partner etc etc etc. i know i sound naive ungrateful #entitled etc etc and i don’t know what to say about that other than that my mom would think the same and already does lol but im tired of #longing and i would like to be able to function at a bare minimum level of freedom and comfort <3 #delete later #also my parents don’t want me living in the city on top of not wanting me to live independently. so. lol <3

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

oscar’s 29th time in first place across both games

good for him, good for him

#DCB Comments #what i mean is. i've played por and rd a combined total of 29 times unless i've lost count and am one or two behind #but as far as i remember it's 29 so... 29 first place honors for oscar #I ALSO GOT KITTY MAN TO FOURTH PLACE I WAS SO EXCITED #WHEN I SAW IKE AND SOTHE IN THE LINEUP AND REALIZED THEY WEREN'T IN THE TOP FIVE AND #REALIZED WHO WAS LEFT I WAS LIKE. YEEHAW BUDDY CAT MAN GOT IN #also my top three are always the exact same like. no matter what i do they just hog those spots #granted my top two are like sealed i don't think there's ANY moving them #idr the last time haar didn't fall asleep in third place tho #fifth and fourth are always a toss up between a handful of ppl tho lol #when the win counts start rolling it's basically just like ''i wonder who the top fifth and fourth will be!" #bc haar usually snags third and i know better than to think anyone will get second besides shinon #and i know i'd be the biggest fool imaginable to expect anyone else in first bc it's just not possible mate #when i go into playing these games i know exactly who my first place will be from the moment i start up a new playthrough dhjfkgsjg #me playing rd on a new file: i don't have him yet but oscar is already first place #god what a total champ. i've never had so much consistency in my LIFE #DCB RD Run

[raksh-writes]

Gosh, why is job hunting and looking to get into a sort-of dream career so freaking nerve-wracking 😣

#personal #vent #job hunting #the anxiety is killing me but gotta get through it I guess #bcs what else is there to do besides a 9-5 job Im gonna end up miserable with #the stress is making me procrastinate Hard but that's not helping my anxiety at all #so really no way around this but forward right 😬 #god give me enough determination to go through with it all #now Im trying to send a message to this one woman through fb #since she works in a printhouse and some time ago talked about it with my mom on a diving trip #and my mom mentioned I studied similar topics so I got her contact but never used it before #its been a while but Im hoping maybe she'll remember or at least gets interested through this more private reaching out 🙈 #other than that the plan is to send some emails and show up in person at the places #maybe get to talk about what I could offer and want to do and maybe someone will get interested enough to let me try at their place #Im So Stressed about this whole thing #but also ngl going to a simple 9-5 job is filling me with dread #I know I'll just waste away there and keep changing it with mounds of more stress #so hopefully something of this will pan out 😣🙈 #okay #okay okay #gonna hit send on this message and then we'll see #whatever happens happens #hopefully the stress eases up at least a lil' when its out of my hands too #ooooof

[dinopant]

nothing hits quite the same as a well meaning, lil confused but has the spirit cis male coworker who despite everything is a huge ally to your gender and is probably the few ppl who actually gets your name and pronouns right

#goat chatter #i think about the one guy i worked with at mcdonalds #who was just the most cis straight man #and when he found out i was trans and bi #asked really dumb fucking questions like how he thought gay ppl were into animals and shit like that #which i have enough patcients to tell him no #but beside that #he always called me he/him #and he didnt call my sammi but he called me samuel which i liked #like he understood me that as long as it isnt samantha im fine with whatever you call me #then he went off to the military #he was something else #but beside my fellow trans coworker was the only one to always get it right after being told once #i remember the day when one of my coworker id been working with for almost a year like #consistently refeer to my trans coworker by her pronouns basically always #because she passed a lot #but he always got my pronouns wrong #and i remember him look at me and him say #haha sorry but you know ill never get that right #like #man the dumb ass who used to work here did #you get the other trans person hers pronouns right #why not me??? #i hated working at that mcdonald #so many of those fuckers were missouri trash on their way to becoming white supremist

[rayne-the-neutrois-nerd]

I have a feeling I'm nearing the end of Khrysalis because EVERY FUCKING BOSS IS CHEATING

#uh context i literally haven't played in years and last time i continued i got halfway thru zafaria #so this is all fresh to me buddy #last time i played this like daily besides that one little run i did w someone else celestia JUST came out #like listen buddy I remember the pet Pavillion being new

[voltas-do-mar]

bring me home / bring me home thoughts of you will bring me home as the sun may rise with crashing tides oh, you will bring me home

oh, at home there's my darling [The name here is muffled. Two syllables.] and i miss him all day long he has strange style / but he makes me smile and for him i will stay strong

#skillsposting #radio station: volta original #one volta a day #history facts for this volta: this song is known as ''Bring Me Home'' with no known original artist. #a popular group shanty where different crew members would individually sing the second verse before rejoining for the group chorus #its first recorded use was on the Graadian sea vessel ''The Irbis Infallible'' in order to keep the crew awake during a long night of the #revolution. The song was sung for an hour and a half as the 23 crew members went down a list of family members; lovers and friends #the verses works like this: after the chorus an individual would start the ''oh'' to signal they wanted to sing. (if two or more people #started singing at the same time then it's in order of seniority on the vessel; older crew member goes first). depending on the syllables #in the loved one's name or the adjective/title they want to use (''my darling'' is just the song's standard) they'd alter the first line #lines 2 and 4 of the verse (''and i miss'' and ''and for him'') are usually the same besides switching out appropriate pronouns #line 3 doesn't always have to be a couplet but it sounds better if it is. this line is for describing the loved one's qualities that you #remember fondly. since pale exposure messes with the mind; to be able to remember little details about them in song boosts memory #after the verse everyone rejoins for the ''bring me home'' chorus and the cycle repeats. #the lieutenant has had this verse planned since the day after the tribunal. he has an old one for... someone else. and one for DeMettrie. #(DeMettrie also has a verse thought out for him. in the first line she stretches out his name to ''Kimmy'' to better fit the meter #in the past they made a game of increasingly adding titles/endearments to the point where they have to speed through to fit the meter #''at home there's my darlinglieutenantkimmykitsuragi~!'' ''at home there's my dearestdarlingcommunicationsofficeralicedemettrie'') #ooc oh this was not supposed to be this long. i love making fake lore for songs.

[spacedkey]

normal i'm normal

#seasonal depression really hitting and forcing me to latch onto the nearest fictional lifeline lmao #you can guess. if you have a keen eye. or ear if text to speech is your deal. #normal normal me lol lol #AGH my brain is melting bc i keep using the lexicon of characters instead of my own. not helping. #also i might be having a silent migraine. or normal brain fog. or just tired. #or all at once. wombo combo. #all that to say. i've said too much. i'll say more cause i feel like it. and i am remembering that one anon that said they like reading #-excessive talking in tags. this one goes out to yuou mysterious reader #i latch so hard onto random medias 'cause i basically don't exist outside of them (don't extrapolate off of that #'course i don't mean literally.) i'm not fictional or anything. but also i'm not concrete #my internet persona is me. my characters are me. my body is sorta me but whatever. gotta deal with the flesh puppet even if it isn't me #i'm more my computer than i am my body #being room bound for most of my life will do that. even on good days when i leave the house #hours is nothing to years. is this poetry? i'm just blabbering #'BLABBERING'. gods. see what i said about linguistic sponge #talking to future me skimming my posts again with that one #besides the point. there is no point. #i exist here. now. no where else. i existed seconds ago typing this #that me doesn't exist now. now i exist here. you get the point #i'm just putting off sleeping by this point #anyway i have a new sona design. so reader as an easter egg feel freeeee to ask about it and i'll flaunt my inspirations on my sleeve #also i don't expect the sona to stay resonating with me for long. that's how it goes. it is a good design tho #key's lockbox #ok i think i really am normal now. bed time.