#no i am not lazy i just dont like hard work

[dutchieliciousplans]

Lunch with the Marston family at beecher hope kinda day 👌

(Sorry for the bad quality image 😩)

#no i am not lazy i just dont like hard work #red dead redemption 2 #rdr2 #red dead redemption community #red dead fandom #red dead redemption #dutchieliciousplans #the marston family #beechers hope #john marston #jim milton #rip van winkle #jack marston #abigail marston #abigail roberts #uncle #uncle has lumago pass it on #uncle has lumbago #red dead john marston #red dead abigail #red dead jack #red dead uncle #red dead stew

[corvidcas]

i think part of the reason people are so hateful about fat people is because theyre not fat, even though they put little to no effort into their diet and daily activity levels. even if they dont live healthy lifestyles and theyre not trying to, and theyre still a "normal" weight. and because theyre ignorant and resistant to learning about how peoples bodily functions vary wildly, anyone who is fat must have brought it upon themselves by being extra lazy or extra glutinous and if they were normal they wouldnt be fat and its soooo easy to not be fat because look at them theyre not fat. which is so fucking stupid because so many people complain about how skinny people exist without "earning" how skinny they are, theyre literally just like that even if they eat tons of food because they're trying desperately not to be skinny. but the opposite cant be true for fat people apparently. fatness is always a direct consequence of abnormal habits apparently.

#e.txt #tw fatphobia mention #i know people assume skinny people eat nothing all the time too but every skinny ass mf i meet is like omg i can eat so much and not gain #anything teehee #and i see so many skinny ppl will flood comments of fat positive ANYTHING talking about how they hate being skinny so much and eat so much #to try to gain weight but its not working #like skinny ppl wont shut up about how hard it can be to gain weight but god forbid a fat person suggest its hard to loose weight bc then #theyre just being lazy. #ppl will tell me i should eat less to lose weight meanwhile im living off an orange and a cup of nuts for brunch #and 1/2 salmon filet a cup of rice and veggies for dinner #and i walk 8 hours a day 3 times a week. #if i eat less i will get nauseous i will get dizzy i will get a migraine and i will be a bitch #yes obviously this is a personal grievance but like am i wrong? #rant #probably less than a cup of rice even i make a cup and then split it in half with my partner and sometimes dont even finish it

[llumimoon]

quick doodle of regular <3

#dndads #dndads s2 #normal oak #technically. not really #perfectly regular au #cal draws #not gonna bother doing all the big tags i dont feel like it #im tired LOL #anyways this will make ablot more sense very soon #(i am working on a comic abt regular) #hes just my little guy! made me feel better to draw this #cant wait for regular to speedrun teenage angst at lightning speeds #sorry abt the bad contrast with the words #it looked better when i had my brughtness up when i drew it but oof thats kinda hard to read #it says [...you too huh?] #its not rlly important i kisy put that there to fill the space bc i was too lazy to crop the canvas

[sneez]

lord general fluffy now in high definition

[id: a digital portrait of a man in profile, from the shoulders up, facing left. he has long dark hair, a small moustache and beard, and a scar across his cheek. he is wearing armour, a white falling band, and a pale blue sash. on the right is a photograph of a gold medal showing the same man in the same position which was the inspiration for the drawing. end id.]

#fairfax #artwork #new fax :D i love how this one turned out it's so neat to be able to see him properly in profile there are so few profile faxes #in fact i think the medal might be the only contemporary one but i am not 100% sure #especially neat that i referenced so heavily from the medal because it lets me think that this might be a decent likeness :D most of the #time i just work from my head so im guessing what he looked like but this is a genuine portrait so feels much more plausible #i got very lazy with everything except his face so sorry about that. just dont look too hard at the armour it's fine #i hope you are all well my friends! i am back at uni doing uni things (and reading about the fax. he he) #apologies as always for the asks and messages i have failed to answer thus far i am a busy beaft but will get to them posthaste i promise #kissing you all on head. mwah

[ajarofpickledtears]

it's so difficult to get stuff done when i still am daily having to actively resist the urge to sleep all day

#cylas vents #like how am i supposed to get up and go to anywhere regularly if most of the time i dont even want to be awake lmao #maybe i am just not trying hard enough. maybe i am lazy and using depression as an excuse. #even my psychiatrist said that at this point since none of the meds really worked and therapy didnt change much and if i dont want to #day-care hospital / outpatient clinic he doesn't know what else to do either #but in any type of clinic situation i wouldnt be earning money #and outpatient i worry that if i have an one hour journey and possibly get up at 6 or 7 am i just won't do it lol #plus even a friend said that as soon as ot was over she kinda fell back into old habits #but cant do anything drastic either bc too many ppl care about me :)) #especially ones with mental illnesses who could be negatively affectrd #but i am so tired and everything seems hopeless

[bl00dw1tch]

It is so fucking funny how someone telling me to do something is the fastest and easiest way to get me to want to Actively grind my life back to halt instead.

#horse.txt #vent // #its dumb. im being dumb let me be clear. this is about getting a fucking job. writing my resume. my mom told me i need to #'start getting serious' about it #and i do. i do. #im just. ghhhh i feel like im going to fucking explode. its so easy its so easy everybody has to do it i dont get to be fucking special #but knowing that never fucking Means anything i can know that like its tattooed to my eyelids and it doesn't change the fact that #i have no idea what the fuck to do #i have lists and lists and lists of advice and tips and help and links and i appreciate them bc at least now i have a foundation to jump off #but i still can't fucking get through them #i cant figure it out. its right there but the second i start to try i run into some roadblock and i start freaking the fuck out #and then i cant fucking go back to it bc by then ive spent an hour crying and im too tired to do anything but sit and cry some more #i hate the fucking options here. i hate the options everywhete. i dont want to fucking work dude im just. im not fucking there #but theres no other fucking option and people get so fucking mean when you try to say that bc im just being fucking lazy lazy lazy #i dont know. if i am im not sure i care that much anymore #im just tired of feeling so fucking miserable and useless but it's hard to ignore because i just amm!!!!! #the only thing i can do better than some people is draw and the idea of doing That for a job makes me feel sick to my stomach #man. i dont know. idk #sometimes i just have to catastrophize things to get it out of my system . iygiygi #ill be fine #just might be a tense Christmas apparently.

[guinevereslancelot]

lazy girlies help me out: what is the easiest job you've ever had that one could get with an associate's or less

#all the jobs are like sales associate /plant waterer i dont even need a relevant degree for that #and i want a job thats not physically demanding if possible bc my side job is farming which is hard lol #im accepting tho that i need to look beyond horticulture for a job bc the one i wanted never got back to me and idk what else to do #im looking at receptionist jobs bc a lot of them just want a high school education but idk #i can mask well enough to seem like a people person but idk abt the organization and multitasking stuff #anyway suggestions welcome what is the easiest job #it doesn't need to pay a lot i just need some kind of income that wont drain my life force if possible #i found an assistant pre-school teacher position i could def do if i renew my cpr license #but im not sure i have the energy to work with kids full time #context if it helps: i am autistic and have chronic pain also i really am just lazy and dumb #so i need an easy job idc if it's boring as long as i dont need to be good at math #indeed is recommending me nuclear sub technician jobs i need real suggestions #i have experience with kids and gardening but both of those are physically demanding so i would love to not do that #my computer skills are nonexistent compared to other young people but old people think im good at it #i hate math tho

[july-19th-club]

infuriated outraged upset boss in the building on a saturday . at the DESK on a saturday. observed and overseen . in the panopticon and i dont even have a little coffee drink

#it's not a big deal it's JUST. that this was the one time i was actually looking forward to having the desk alone all day #brought some crocheting in case it was slow #was going to alternate between Something Fun and Something Work (have to do my donations list again) #and now i can't even do sommething fun in between. because i only bring crochet on days when i have the desk alone #and it's like. we had performance reviews in august. and mine was very harsh and critical UNTIL i told him like #what a year it's been for me mental health wise and hten he was like ok well disregard all that stuff i said on the first review #but i can't. because it was so very 'lazy unmotivated not present slacking off not interested in your job' and it was a) humiliating #b) terrifying #because it's true! i dont like my job a lot of the time it's tedious! and i get frusturated easily! and some of that has to do w #my mental health. but some of it is just true #and it's humiliating to have your flaws pointed out to you by someone who has the power to fire you #like im aware of what you DID think about me before i gave you some sob story about how hard my life is #so essentially that is what you actually think. that's the important part . is what you were GOING to say #we were friends for like three years and i guess i was naive to assume that things could stay the same like #after he got the director's job #like you just can't go for drinks with a person who has the power to scold you like a child #and maybe i'm the one being pissy and immature. i know i am. i should be grateful to have a job at all #but i just do not take criticism well and so ive just realized that i can't spend any time around him longer than five minutes #without feeling infuriated and impotent and fucking WATCHED #like i'm being dramatic whatever. i'm just being dramatic. but i used to be able to relax and complain about work w this guy #and now i can't. and it's both sad and makes me anxious

[cutemeat]

i rlly truly hate feeling so useless. i just. am. but i dont want to accept it.

#i need to. i mean look. dennis couldnt accept it n it made him miserable #i hav no energy even 4 sunny this is. bad jknfdkjgntr #i am having . a rough week #i keep overcompensating n trying to sound smart cuz i know im not. i could not graduate from public HS. i know im not smart. #i could never get into college. would not even pass a class. i just. am not. smart. but i wish i was. i try to sound like a smart person. #but its all cuz i know im not #i cannot. do anything. but ppl look at me n they say 'ok u are capable :)' n then i still cannot do much. but i LOOK like i can. #it doesnt matter how many times i prove im a failure. they still say well u just are not trying hard enough. keep going. #but its never enough. n i dont know how to be enough. idk what i am good for. #i just dont 'apply myself' . i feel so fucking awful. i hate it i cannot do this shit. but i have to. i am so tired i want to go home. #how do u apply yrself when there is nothing to apply #but theres not anything wrong with me. so its just me. n i cant . i . feel like a robot every day. nothing in me. nothing. #but ppl look at me n know i must serve some function or purpose right? so just keep going. keep going #i feel Plateau lately #i try to apply myself but it never works. tell me why it never works. tell me why. am i rlly just a lazy piece of shit. i guess so. #n i cant be pleasant abt it when ppl try to help i only make it worse #cuz no one seems to be able to find an explanation otherwise. in 20 yrs if there was one they wouldve found it by now right

[rosicheeks]

Babe I gotchu.

22, 23, and 27?

22: are you a morning person?

LOL no

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

Oh boyyyyyyyyyy depends on how truly lazy I am.

If I feel somewhat productive I LOVE painting for hours and just letting my creativity flow 💖

If I’m ‘don’t want to get up’ lazy then I used to just chill on my couch with my trusty bong and watched a movie or binge watched a show (usually ended with me passed out taking a 3+ hour nap)

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?

I’m not a huge gum fan tbh. I guess fruity?

#bro I am the sleepiest person you will ever meet #I don’t say that as an exaggeration #I can literally sleep all day if I wanted to #so that makes mornings incredibly hard to get up and get going #especially when I’m feeling depressed and dont want to face the world??? going back to bed and hiding under the blankies is the best option #lately it’s been SO HARD for me to get up and going #back at my old place I was a little better…. still didn’t love mornings but I wanted to get up early so I could enjoy the sun #and get as much done as I could in a day #but ever since I moved I don’t have that motivation anymore #lazy days are very very very few and far between like I don’t remember the last time I had a lazy day with 0 obligations #I think the fact that I don’t really have a job I always feel like I should be searching or applying or something #but I do remember back at my old place and I would have a few lazy days every now and then #where the lazy would win and I would just chill on the couch the entire day #I mean I do miss the lazy days with my ex tbh #just chilling with someone and not caring what time it is… just having to decide what to watch and what to eat #the days #I don’t remember the last time I chewed on some gum #I think it’s cause when I worked in bridal you can’t chew gum so I just stopped #I’m more of a mint girl I guess #thank you for the questions babe! #ask #anon

[catboyfurina]

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#beeep #im so mad for health reasons but i can t word why im just so mad #i wish i didnt have to rely on other people not because of some uwu asking for help is hard reason (like it is but that s not why #) but because other people are so. mofsdiiiii #idek!!! lazy!!! careless!!! #i got covid because my parents kept going skating. and i dont go anywhere except the doctor and the convenience store after the doctor #not to sound unsympathetic but i just. is it really that hard to stay home. lol. no it isnt i know because i live it!!! for years!!! #and my fucking gastroenterologist i have needed a certain blood test and they didnt do it and now i cant even handle plain chicken and rice #and its been!! needed!!! for MONTHS #at least 4 maybe 6 #and i cant just find an alternate solution because there isnt one the doctors have a monopoly on my health and i cant youtube my way into #being not sick anymore #at least with school if i had a group project where i was the only one invested i could just work harder and it would be like bad for me but #not impossible #bite attack bite attack :( #and when other people are irresponsible im the one that pays for it and when im irresponsible im still the one that pays and i am so tired

[dailydoseofveigar]

Hello! I've been outrageously busy! I'm moving a state away! Packing! Moving things down a flight of stairs! Among! Other things!... It's not that I forget I'm well aware I'm missing a day (and now two) however my time? Not available. So far the days I've missed is two I thought I could just make it up two in one day and the idea is I do a cluster of doodles one day and upload them all together to make up for the fact I missed whatever many days it'll be. I'm not doing the best even admittedly I started this blog anticipating all this so that's a My Bad. And now the consequences of my actions are catching up. I'm not abandoning this blog! Never. I'm not even admitting I'm taking a hiatus or anything which would be ridiculous only a month and a half+ in however as I'm catching up with life I don't want the little group of you guys to think I've just up and left this is more a reassurance to you guys who give me such kind words and a promise to myself to not drop another project.

#i know i dont uplosd the most professional doodles but im actually coworking an animatrd series going on youtube and a couple of game ideas #i have so much on my plate and im about to working mon-fri 9-5 #my laptops busted somethinf with the hardware i talked with friends and we agreed i need to save up for a new one #i made this blog at such a bad time as in my life is so hectic but i was also at such a low that i needed something artistic to latch to #veigar is just my comfort character even when i remove everything i ooc on him hell always be my first little everything #i hope you guys stay with me when i can really make something of this blog as i am a lazy and unmotivated person #hopefully i dont stay away no longer than a week but who knowsnif i might skip days again my hope if to fill queue again #considering an idea of graffiting veigar on and at places with a sharpie #thoughts? #among other ideas like making a little 3d stand of him snd taking pictures of him places #hm hm #i know you guys have only seen my veigar art but ive drawn other things among my own original work #ill also still be here to answer questions if need be its just hard to pick up the sketchbook and pencil/pen

[aceteling]

honestly it feels so bad when you’ve been working on something really hard (in my case: being mindful of others’ needs and making sure i’m helpful around the house) and then someone close to you (your mother) invalidates it all and says you’re lazy and self-centered and should “stop being stressed” because you dare say you may be feeling under the weather bc, idk, maybe you have a thesis to finish exams to take care of ughhhhhhhh

#i love my mum i rly do its just rly rly bad when this happens #i dont want to be selfish but she says selfish when she rly means 'you should spend your entire day doing productive things around the hous #and like listen. i can but also everyone should have their own down time? when im working its not down time #just because im in front of the computer it doesnt mean its down time #also i have fuckin anxiety you cant just pop the stress away #i realize what people meant when they said neurotypicals can just stop thinking bout it #its probably what my mum thinks i can do #im trying but when i get stressed bc you keep yelling at me its hard mum #ghhh i wish it was easier i wish i was not a selfish lazy kid (i dont think i am but she thinks i am i guess) #negative #domi talks

[ri-a-rose]

So my little sister got engaged which I'm happy about and definitely not a tiny bit jealous

#she and her boyfriend have been dating for a couple of years so its exciting that he proposed #and like this is so selfish and petty but im jealous bc like im the oldest and it just idk #i feel like shes exceeding which is fine thats great im gglad for her that she has more ambition than me #but i just idk my cousin just got married and now my sister and i just feel lonely #she and b are gonna be high school sweethearts and ive literally never had a man look at me with interest #its petty af but both my sisters are prettier than me and have aspirations and goals and i just go to work and complain about shit #and the weddings not til may and my parents are already starting planning or whatever and #im a lump like im not going anywhere in life like have the dumbest goals #buy a house near my parents place so i visit them more often bc i cant take care of myself like a normal human person #im disabled but not really bc i can do things but only the bare minimum so my quality of life is not great unless my mom helps me with #cleaning and food bc im just really dumb and feel like a burden i mean m is in college with a good job and now engaged and j has plans and #a scholarship and will be working lots #meanwhile i complain about having to work 8 hours a day bc i used to work 4 hours and thats much nicer to my body like i didnt realise how #fucking lazy i am til i have to work more than 4 hours not really disabled just lazy and i complain to them about having to work i dont #know why they put up with my dumb ass i mean fuck its not hard to figure out why guys arent interested in me #i mean i want a person someone to like spend life with i yearn to love and be loved #theyre so cute doing lame cute couple things it makes my heart hurt #im done im done venting sorry #tbd #vent

[nimomo-mo]

Vent

#i have so many conflicting feelings right now #i got complacent #i was thinking i was pretty for a while there #but now im realizing i need to work out #i need to get toned and i need to lose fat #i was getting used to feeling nice about myself #this is bad. this is not a good feeling #i shouldnt be hard on myself i already have a lot on my plate #i hate that i always fall back into this when i see a picture of them #because i am so absolutely head over heels #and i want to look good next to them #i want to be on their level #i want to be hot and pretty and gorgeous next to them #i want them to look at me the same way i do them #but for that i need to work out. so much. so so much #i dont have the energy or the time or the willpower #i dont have the willpower i dont want to be comparing myself like this i want to be gorgeous i want to be hot #i want to have the willpower i want to be able to do it i dont have the money to make someone force me to do it #i work out when someone forces me if i had the money id get a PT i want to be hot i want you to look at me i want to be gorgeous #i dont want to look myself in the mirror. i dont want to see. i dont want to see whats in that fucking mirror. i dont want to know #i dont want to see how much im not what i want to be. god i have so many issues #i thought i could be like i am and still feel pretty. i thought i could do as i liked and be pretty anyway. or i guess i am pretty but #i wanna be better. i wanna be more. i want the willpower i want the drive i want to want i want i fjsaöbfvwcfisnvs #crying #i dont want to be like this. i dont want to be like this. i dont eant to be like this. i dont want to be like this. #and i hate how my extreme attraction and love for this fucking person is making me drag my self image into the grinder #i dont want to feel ugly. i dont want to feel disgusting. i dont want to feel like i could do so much more if i just stoppedbbeing lazy #im so fucking lazy im such a sloth im such a blob i can't do this i cant do this i cant do this i cant do thus #i dont want to spural i dont want t9 be ugly i dont want to be someone lesser i hate everything i hate it all i hate i hate i hate i hate #digging my nails into mu skin

[fiendishartist2]

trying to figure out why i feel like garbage rn and then i remembered i literally had a covid shot yesterday and then was out w friends for like 6 hours

#im jist like damn im so tired and my body hurts and i dont feel like doing anything #meanwhile i spent like 2 hours at the grocery store this morning #now that im in school and almost completely independant its really hard not to feel like im wasting time or being gross and lazy #i keep wanting to go to the gym bc my school has a nice gym but im really nervous about working out in front of ppl #and i like exercising. i like going on an exercise bike regularly it makes me feel accomplished and good about myself and healthy #but im just so nervous T_T #the type of ppl who go the gym are not the same type of person i am yknow #and then i got my shot so im like wayyy too tired and sore to do anything but i hate hate hate laying in bed all day it makes me feel #so horrible and lazy and sloppy. idkkkkkkkkkkkk #i wish going out wasnt so taxing. physically and emotionally #delete later