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atlanticsea · 1 year

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Hi first off I love your quiz! This quiz hit HARDD. I wanted your thoughts on this: I’m kind of ashamed I got poet. All I see about poets are that we reject duty and are free, and can say pretty words. I secretly wanted so badly to be the soldier but I knew no one would take me seriously bc I’m so obviously a poet. I want desperately to be strong and to protect those around. I want to prove I can handle duty. I have always considered myself not a hard worker and am genuinely shocked when someone tells me I am. I’ll never be as hard working or dedicated as the other 2. I’m “so kind” but if us poets are not the comedic relief or therapist of the group then are we worth anything at all? Sorry this got so deep LMAO, but I see like nothing super positive about poets lmao.

Hi! I'm glad you liked the quiz, but also really sad you feel bad about your result!

None of the archetypes are a bad one or good one to get, and none of them are a condemnation of who you are. I explained here my thinking behind the Poet archetype (and, sorry to say, this ask is giving peak Poet vibes in terms of wanting to affect the world in tangible ways 😭), but I also added in this answer and in this reblog that my writing for three archetypes is only true about said archetypes, and that I can't actually tell you anything about yourself -- your reaction to the quiz is what you can actually learn from. In the end while I love S/P/K as a piece of writing and as an interactive poem that gets a lot of people thinking, it is also just a piece of writing. You getting Poet is not a condemnation, just like it wouldn't be a consecration, just like getting any result wouldn't be either. It's just one of three options I wrote -- and I'll just add for your sake that none of them are really about being hard-working. I mean if anything I wrote Poets to be the most "hard-working" because they're so desperate to find a way to do things effectively. But again: that's just my writing.

I'll say, though, even though I don't know you: people in your life telling you you are hard working is probably a much better indication of what you mean to people than whatever people on social media interpreted from a quiz a stranger wrote for their friends three years ago. A quiz result, no matter what you think it means, can't stop you from being strong or hard-working or from protecting people -- that's fully up to you. Also, being kind is a good thing. Making your friends laugh is a good thing. People thinking you give good advice and are worthy of trust is a good thing. Being the "group comedian" or "group therapist" as long as the group genuinely values you and does not just take in the give-and-take is not a bad thing. Wanting to do good is normal. Nobody, especially not a stupidly large group of people that all got the same result on a random quiz, is worthless. You're a human being and you're alive. That's always worth something.

I genuinely kinda don't know how to respond to this ask because it really has nothing to do with the quiz itself, just with you! I just hope you manage to find value in yourself and love for yourself beyond external assignations.

#answered #anonymous #spk #i guess.#sorry anon i just dont rlly know what to say bc i dont know you #so i cant speak to your personal character #i will say though. i dont think you would have been happier getting soldier or king #all three archetypes can be taken cynically or positively #i wrote them cynically! i still tend to take them that way!#and i feel like you would have taken them even more cynically than me.#like damn i personally think the poet archetype is the most optimistic of the bunch!#actual belief in the world being something people can change? nothing more positive than that in my world

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pattytacuri · 2 years

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5/21/22

I woke up with some crackhead angry energy and was able to work it off at my 2nd job. I'm thankful for my younger coworkers who make me laugh and make the work day pleasant. Last night was incredibly rough 😪 and the person who made me mad texted and well I'm ignoring him. 😒 I don't want to waste my precious energy or time on someone who won't be in my life in the long term or adds anything of value to my life. He's not a bad person, I'm just too tired at this point in my life to keep explaining myself to people or maybe I'm scared that if I do explain myself it will backfire and idk end up in a traumatic situation again. Interpersonal effectiveness skills are coming up in a few therapy sessions so I hope that will help me gain some valuable communication skills . Maybe then I'll be able to explain myself in an effective way that's not passive aggressive or well, aggressive and crazy. 🤣😭 I remember in late July reading this stupid book on communication skills and highlighting parts of it and putting sticky notes with little comments. I can't remember anything about it but then again I can't remember much about that month. Anyways, I ran into my physical therapist and my swimming instructor after work and I felt so much gratitude for both of them. They both have had so much patience and kindness in dealing with these deeply insecure parts of me. I know I'm paying them but there is no price for the confidence I've gained because of them. Life is weird, I remember a few months ago writing this poem called "Condescending White Woman" and well it was about my racial trauma with 3 white women in my life. 😭🤣 but my therapist, my physical therapist, and my swimming instructor have been these women who've helped empowered me. Maybe a happy poem about them should be written as a tribute to them. Also, I now fit into my shirt from my freshman year in high school. My boobs are getting smaller so pretty soon I'll be like shakira singing about her humble breasts. 🤣😭

#real life #truth #feelings #life lessons #relationships #life #quiet bpd #bpd mood #bpd #gratitude #Spotify

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fic-dumpster · 2 years

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Omi? Still there? Have you come to check again? If yes! I'm glad but not about the fact that this mishap still has it's effect on you. I'm new to Tumblr - and I started writing because @solaceinarts told me something. Something that i didn't realize much at all; which I'll come later. But first, after reading your all those updates I thought I should drop by and say a few things :-

People have always been easy to judge,easy to be judged. I've really learnt it in hard way which in turn has made me less interactive,less communicative. I hope it doesn't come to that.

I used to write,umm, poetries ,poems that could burn your heart ,poems that could heal your bad memories like the sweet smell of morning dew. But then,i was accused of plagiarism one,two ,three - each time a fellow writer stepped up for me. Fourth one was too much. I couldn't take it even if I got a few friends who were willing to fight for me,i stopped writing. I lost my muse. I've discarded my poem dairies in rage just to get rid off the negativity.

I created Tumblr just out of whim and i met @solaceinarts . She told me "if not now, then when?" She too has gone through some shit too and man the courage she holds after all that. I totally adore her ,deep down to the bones!

She told me that one day you'll get bored of all these things. Things that you used to enjoy wouldn't make you happy anymore. You'll be busy and laugh at your childish behaviour.So, when you feel like you're ready for something, something to create, never let that urge die. That's what makes you go one step further where you were before. People? Who? Them? Did they know how much you worked on a single creative piece before posting,did they know how much you hesitated before posting? Nope they don't. They probably wouldn't, maybe never. But you?you know the hardwork behind your every post ;you'll still be blaming yourself for killing the artist in you. I thought for days and realized people will judge, even after you're gone. It's a shame how people don't understand the importance of "little things" that makes all of us happy. I don't know if I'll ever face a situation like this but if I ever do - well I've no idea how I'll react.

Leave everything if you would! But don't let it burn the artist inside you. please don't let it die :)

don't come back until you feel like. Your mental health isn't an extension of people's feedbacks of your creative workspace. I still have tons of art journals poems ,poetries , stories that i used to do only for myself after slowly getting my muse back. But I'm never gonna post them. It's a trophy that I've achieved just for myself not for those prying eyes waiting to jab at me.

I would still like to talk to you if you're willing :)

stay good and I'll try to hunt you in ao3; although I don't have acct.

I apologise if you feel triggered by reading all these. I've PTSD issues so well I'm kinda afraid of talking and what might trigger a person at any moment without your knowledge.

take your time!I'll still be here, waiting, unless some shit happens to me. You need a long break,a break that promises you no turning back but i know writers don't whither easily.

Haaaa my point is I'm here if you wanna talk. Lol i got carried away & Oops !quite long and vague.

~yours truly,

Paradis.

NOTHING WILL HAPPEN TO YOU!! 🥺💕🫂😭💕 and ty 🥺💕 for still talking to me even though I suck at dming. Y’all r so cool and nice 🥺💕. I appreciate your words, and I'm thankful you took some of your time for me 🥺💕🫂.

I think I’m better now, still not going to post asks/stories as fast as before for different reasons… yeah, I got triggered by some anon (sounds dumb ik but that’s the awful part of triggers, they do whatever they want, whenever they want). My therapist taught me some exercises, not to get rid of them awful feelings xD, but to have more control over these emotions. So im good im good.🤸🏻‍♂️💕

#long post #omi.answers #blueparadis #omi.moots!#tw ptsd #tw rant #paradis

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