#my hair is gonna start falling out

[cathedraldecay]

i just think its really cool that being a fan of mcr comes with free anxiety. its like a nice little party favor.

#WE ARE IN DANGER #my hair is gonna start falling out

[edwardteachs]

okay. I'm doing this again, I guess.

so the norwegian governmental agency that is supposed to support people in need (NAV) is giving me the runaround. I'm in a program for charting disability and work ability, and receive (very little) money while in the program. I was supposed to get 2680 NOK (~$250) this last monday (Sept. 18th), but received nothing. I am not getting any more information until NEXT monday (sept. 26th). I have about $20 to my name. I have no savings, and my family are poor.

I do not know how they expect me to survive off of nothing for a week, just because THEY didn't register my program extension. I am going to have to skip meals. They already have me living on barely $500 a month, and my medications alone are over $100 every month. I am desperate.

I have multiple disabilities. I am transgender. My partner is still struggling to find a job, so in reality TWO people are living on this non-budget. Food is so incredibly expensive here. I am so fucking tired.

I can provide any proof you need. Literally just $5 can get us a meal, although my meds are running low.

my p*yp*l is here. if you're Norwegian, dm me for vipps.

PLEASE do not tag this as d*nations or anything related. also please don't tell my family about this like last time. thank you.

#please rb this im so stressed out. my hair is gonna start falling out again

[saltedcoffeee]

would u still love me if i wrote formula 1 rpf

#pulling my hair out as we speak btw #if i do post it itll b anonymous im so embarrassed WHAT İS THİSSS #me when i fall down the oscar piastri is spiderman pipeline (unfortunately its v appealing) #a gp needs to happen soon or im gonna start feeling like i hallucinated these guys #thoughts #formula 1 rpf #oscar piastri #YEAH ill tease this disasterclass. what of it.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ok. this is the fucking bullshit thing abt grad school. u go to fucking grad school bc u r a fucking tryhard nerd freak #who is either naturally very smart or ur so fucking anxious u r incapable of allowing urself to get a bad grad #and then u go to fucking grad school and everyone's like: man fuck ur classes. if youre getting streight As then u aren't focusing on ur #research. and theyre right. but u still cant fucking let go of the idea that if u get a bad grad the world is gonna fucking end and u r a #bad person. u didnt try hard enough. all this to say i have a final project that i put way too much energy into and not even in a good way #i would just open the document. start sobbing. and then close it and spiral abt how i didn't want to work on it. so its bullshit #i mean. its a good project idea ans i probably sound like i kno wtf im talking abt bc i do. i worked on that topic for 4 years but like #i could make it wayyyyy better. its bullshit. i didnt even number the citations to give more page space. i made section headers. i didnt #wrap text. i could add like 4 more lines of text if i wanted but i think im not gotta bc fuck it. ugh. i dont even. i fucking avoide #stochastic stuff altogether which i kno im gonna have to fight abt but like fuck it who cares abt randomness. i just wanna focus on the #predictably aspect of community composition. fuck u. i shouldnt have picked this topic. i mean. i had to bc its like the one microbe thing #i could do but its also like the exact topic that makes me wanna rip my hair out and start screaming. like jesus christ who tf cares? ugh. #i think id give myself a B if it was an undergrad class. but the standard is higher in an all grad class. ugh. i hate this. i should just #send it abd be done. i dont even kno when its due tomorrow. before class i guess. idk i felt like garbage today. fucking vertigo bby. i feel #ok now tho. so maybe the allergic reacting is over???? fingers r still arthritisy tho. jesus. im falling apart #ive got a pretty good sounding excuse for being lazy tho: owo i had an allergic reaction to my antidepressants 🥳 but nah no excuses we run #this body into the ground. like the good old days. #unrelated

[alsaurus-loves-dean]

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#not sure if i talked about this here yet but I'm a recovering nail/cuticle biter #and last fall i started getting gel manicures to incentivize me to stop so i wouldnt be wasting my money lol #and it WORKED. because i got really really into nail and cuticle care #so now my nails are grown out and my nail beds have completely reattached #i have normal nails now and you could never tell i used to demolish them #i spent my ENTIRE LIFE with stubby little bitten nails and gross ripped up dried cuticles #and now i have BEAUTIFUL natural nails #except for the damage i accumulated from the gel removal over seven months lolllllll #so recently i stopped getting gel and i switched to regular lacquer #at first i was still going in to my nail tech but then i started taking the polish off in between appointments and practicing on my own #and in just a couple weeks i was good enough that i just stopped going in! #i just do my own nails now!!! #it takes me four hours to do it right lmao but its worth it because it's been a week and they're still perfect #only one tiny chip and NO LIFTING #im gonna take it off and redo it with a new color today because I'm bored of this color #but i could probably keep wearing this for another week and it'd hold up #I can't take all the credit because I'm using the Dazzle Dry system and just switching out the color with ILNP lol #Dazzle Dry is another fucking level omg #but anyway. I'm proud of myself #my nails look just as good as when i was getting them done professionally 😭 #i am NOT a girly girl i don't wear makeup or shave a single part of my body #i get my hair cut specifically in a way that requires minimal styling #so the nail obsession isn't something anyone would have expected from me... #and yet my nails are always immaculate nowadays 💅

[winterrhayle]

aND .THIS👉🏽 IS MEEE✧ :- PRAYING🙏🏽📖 THAT. THIS WAS THE ~VERY~ FIRST P A GE📜, NOTWHERETHESTORYLINEENDS. MY THOUGHTS WILL ECHO🔊)))))))) 🌟YOUR NAME✨💫UNTIL I 👁👁SEEYOU👁👁 AGAIN...۪۪۫۫ ༄ؘ

THESE ARE THE WORDSI HELD BACK◃◃

...as i was leavintoosoon 🚶🏽‍♀️🧎🏽‍♀️

i was 🪄enchanted ‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾

tomeet🥩

yoooouuuuuu.............

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。..・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

۪۪۫۫

#(sorry just had to get that out of my system rq) #🪩 #babbles⋆｡˚ #i just need u guys to know that when i say that this is my favourite song #it is NOT in a cute way #that intro starts and i am on my feet and insane #literally screeching and belting #hair falling out...... goosebumps........ hair glowing purple.... etc etc #it's abnormal behaviour #and ohhhhh taylors version put me in the GRAVE #i have the cd so i listen to the 2010 and 2023 versions equally and each one #makes me lose my mind in a different way #this has been a post #... #taylor swift #i should mention that it's like 2am right now????? gonna go sleep byeyyyeeeeee #omg.. '2am who do you love ... #crazy #anyway good night besties🤭

[wonpiltual]

🏜

#🦈 #like. sometimes i could pull my fucking hair out thinking about how i just dont put any effort into finding a new job. #and its literally bc the places to look for like.. a creative job r buried deep and gatekept but THERE ARE places to look for them #im just too lazy to bc i cant actually cope with rejection and i luv sitting where im comfy #and anyway my options are stay where i am or sorta grasp some job i dont really want but itll give me an edge where i can start on smth rea #so its like............ why shouldnt i just stay here and 'wait for smth to come for me' as if a job like that is just gonna fall into myla #fuck my life!!!

[mypunkpansexualtwin]

BEGGING you to stop posting unfilterable suicide attempt mentions in the tags of randoms strangers posts what the hell is your deal

For what it's worth, 98% of that goes to the locked sideblog that nobody can see, even the person who posted it. Doesn't leave any notes, and that's where that was meant to go. So genuine apologies for that.

As for what's wrong with me, being driven up to the edge of suicide by two of your closest friends by having one ghost you after breaking the only promise you've ever asked of them for a cleanly communicated break if things went badly, and the other one dropping the entirety of the blame on you to apologize for and then blocking you without so much as acknowledging any of their own culpability in the ongoing lack of trust and communication, and having to haul your drunk ass away from that edge alone on your own mangled willpower and choose to live with knowing you'll never get any closure on any of the scars--both metaphorical and physical--tends to take some time to fix. Little bit of bitterness tends to linger after a fun little jaunt like that, especially knowing that the bulk of it is still your own fault, y'know? I've got all of like 3 people to talk about it with, including my therapist, so mostly sincere apologies that some of it bleeds through sometimes.

#answers to questions y'all actually asked #hey nonnie nonnie #logan's bitching again #there were a bunch of other factors leading up to it too #like a bedbug infestation nobody else in the house was taking seriously that we've now been dealing with for a year #and my meds trying to kill me to the point i couldn't eat solid food without throwing up for half an hour #for like three months. my hair started falling out and i lost about 40 pounds #and the psych responsible for it gaslighting me and also ghosting me #and mom totaling the car so we're gonna spend the next several years in debt #and all kinds of fun stuff like that #but that was the big one and the breaking point

[bo0zey]

help i have a crush on my manager…….like fr like i think i might actually wanna kiss him possibly even idk ……… idk what to do abt this all ik is i’m going 2 hell😐

#he did 1 on 1s w everyone tryna get to know them n when he asked to speak w me i didn’t know wtf was going on #i thought i was gonna b fired n i was like nooo it’s only my 3rd day on orientation please!! #but then we started chattin in his office n i was nervous n answered stupidly ofc #but he asked what i wanted to do w my career n i told #him i wanted my SANE & TCN certifications n he was like oh i have a tcn book i could #borrow hmm i don’t have it w me but i’ll look for it for u n i was like???? #bc if u do the slightest nicest thing for me like SLIGHTLY go out of ur way for me i’ll fall in love #i didn’t think he’d rlly do it but a few shifts later he approached me w the book n was like here u go u can give it back whenever #n i was like hearteyeemoji thank u omg i couldn’t believe he was serious??? #he’s so cute i found his notes in the pages n he put his name on the inner cover like a little #DORK #i wonder if he thinks i’m pretty #i think he’s pretty he has dark brown hair n pretty light eyes n usually i don’t like light eyes but idk #his skin is slightly tan n looks soft i wanna touch him #sometimes we catch each other’s gaze n i wonder what he thinks #i notice him look at me when he first appears in the vicinity n i have to force myself not to look at him ugh #i’m literally delusional like ik he doesn’t like me he barely #knows me he’s just polite and a good manager that genuinely wants the unit to succeed #but like idk sometimes i wonder if maybe he at least thinks i’m kinda pretty.?? #is it illegal to date ur manager…. #.ok idk why i’m even entertaining the thought he’d literally NEVER give me the time of day pmaoooo #ramblings #shut up cianna

[littlecutiexox]

First thing I’m doing when I’m back in October is finding another fucking job

#i swear my hair is gonna start falling out #i cant tell if im having a flare up #or its just all adding up #but god fuck this job #im drowning in it #nothing i do or try to improve on is up to their standards and no matter how much effort and time I put in #im expected to still do more

[koishua]

"wow you're handling this so maturely!" no ma'am i am just the eldest child of four in an asian household 😭😭

#tp #recently i have been getting more and more annoyed with everyone crying over stuff bc like #ugh. im so annoyed. like why do YOU get to cry when you are upset?? suck it up woman the world doesnt have to deal with your feelings?? #idk it's pretty insensitive of me maybe but it just ticks me off #literally makes me want to tear my already falling hair out #whatever #my sympathy skills have significantly deteriorated from the age of 9 💀💀 #i cant tolerate crying and complaining from those my age or adults for the life of me #it gets my blood boiling #go cry in the bathroom or sth istg #like genuinely i wanna sucker punch them in the gut whenever they start to sniffle omfl #the urge to slap the shit out of people for being babies like who CARES if you feel unappreciated or if your mom doesnt love you #it's not the time for this 🥴🥴 'get up and stop whining' is what i want to tell them but i dont #because that would make me the asshole #instead i have to 'comfort' them and make them feel better smfh #im growing up to be such a model human 😔😔 #gotta get this resentment sorted out lol #is this post considered a trauma dump? mayhapz. #oh well. im just gonna rage clean #adieu #oh my GOD THE MORE I THINK ABOUT THEM THE MORE I WANT TO SCREAM????? #talking to a therapist? 50€ an hour. ranting on the dash? free.99!! #i feel so embarrassed for thinking and feeling this way but i cant help it lmfao

[gunkbaby]

unironically going to have to cut my own hair soon 😔😔😔

#bit scared #ima attempt to layer and dye first and then start cutting (that way if layers or dye goes wrong i can chop off) #my hairs gonna fall out soon anyway so i wanna enjoy it rn

[catboyvader]

much 2 think about...

#loser.txt #namely obi wan in comfy fall clothes #i decorated the cafe for fall/halloween and i got a big fake pumpkin we can all sign #and i put up the new signs and cups lol #i dont rlly care for pumpkin spice or apple crisp but that pumpkun muffin is literally sec ina muffin wrapper #the scone is p good too #gonna invite a new freind to open mic tonight too so wish me luck im so nervous to have basic human interactions akdbsjsbskd #im also about to start working on another art wish me fucking luck #after painting all those hair strands the other day i think my hands are about to give out #theres gotta be a better way to paint hair ajdbsjfn

[dreamonminecraft]

Looking at the distance between Orlando and London and starting to understand why there's warnings not to use hair dryers in a bathtub

#i hate everything this is sickening #not to get too srs but my hair is starting to fall out in big chunks and i don't know what's going on #but im just so stressed and sick all the time #yeah the dream team meetup is cool and all at a surface level but it's also seriously something that at some really low points #in the last two years- has been genuinely keeping me alive #because like #im not gonna /gen kms before the dream team meetup even though it does feel a little tempting sometimes #the promise of it actually happening one day is so cool but at the same time it's like an invisible goal and it's just hard some days

[kyletogaz]

simon wanting you to cum on his cock one more time

cw: penis in vagina sex

“where do you think you’re going?” simon snaps out as he grips your hips to bring you back down on his cock, as you try to run away from the sensation of becoming overstimulated. he’s holding you so damn tight, you’re sure you’ll have bruises later on.

you whine and claw at his chest as you roll your hips. “simon, baby, please!” the delicious drag of his cock in your wet cunt is starting to become too much. you don’t stop though, you’re just as bad as simon is. you just keep rocking your hips as he fucks up into you.

“just give me one more, lovie, please,” simon begs as he flips you onto your back, before pressing his cock back into your dripping hole.

you let out out a soft cry of pleasure with every snap of simon’s hips. nothing pleases your man more than having you cum on his cock as many times as you can.

“i already gave you two, simon,” you whine, sounding a little breathless as you tighten your legs around him. you watch as his blissed out expression morphs into a look that says i really don’t give a fuck.

“don’t care, darling,” simon hisses as he continues to drill into you. he smirks at the wail you let out when he pulls out then slams back in.

“f–fuck!” you choke out, with tears in your eyes, as you hold on for dear life. he’s pounding you into the mattress, pulling sweet noises from that pretty mouth of yours. “you’re such a greedy bastard!”

simon just laughs, sounding mean as hell. he’s fucking you so good, you can’t even be mad at him. the thoughts are slowly leaving your brain anyway. he’s already fucked you stupid twice and he’s aiming for a third time. he doesn’t want to hear anything but your cries as he fucks you into oblivion.

simon coos at you when your tears spill, telling you how beautiful you look with his cock in you. “you gonna be a good girl and cum on my cock again?”

of course you’ll be a good girl. you’re always good for simon when he’s got his cock dragging against your spongy walls.

“yes, i’ll be good. i promise,” you manage to gasp out as simon continues to hit that little bundle of nerves inside your cunt.

“my good fuckin’ girl,” simon croons as he hooks one of your legs over his shoulder and rocks into you.

this new angle and pace that simon’s set has you singing as you dig your nails into his back. he brings his lips to yours and kisses you sloppily, his tongue slipping in your mouth as you gasp. you reach up and grip the back of simon’s head when he nips at your jaw then drags his tongue across your skin to soothe the bite. your grip on his hair tightens when a thrust knocks the air from your lungs. when you finally catch your breath you beg him to do it again and again until you’re a crying and shaking mess. simon’s honey brown eyes are watching you as you fall apart under him. he smiles smugly when you start moaning his name. he’s so fucking proud of himself.

“c’mon, c’mon, give it to me,” you hear him say through gritted teeth as he ruts into you. he’s close and he can tell you’re not far behind by the way you clench and flutter around his cock. “c’mon lovie, you promised to be a good girl.”

and then simon’s fingers find your clit and all you can do is wail as he strokes at your sensitive bud. the feeling of his cock slamming in and out of your cunt and him toying with your clit sends you tumbling over the edge. simon fucks you right through your orgasm, and all you can do is whimper, until he’s moaning and his hips are stuttering as he paints the walls of your cunt white with his cum.

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a/n: this is my first time writing smut y’all 🫠

#simon riley #simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader #simon riley x black reader #ghost riley #ghost x reader #simon riley smut #kyletogazwrites #me to myself: girl wrap this shit up immediately

[beargirl2]

i have to stop tearing out my hair when im frustrated im so bald

#like ive never had much hair and its thing and grows slowwwwww #if i continue being this stressed itll all fall out or i pull it out #im feeling like a pray animal who knows its gonna die my heartbeat is probably abnormal #i love my mom #i need to skin her alive or somethinf #STOP POPPING YOUR JAW #ACTUALLY DO CONTINUE I HOPE IT DISLOCATES FULLY THIS TIME #AHHHHHHHHHH #i just wanted to be home before the job interview a bit but ive been on the verge of crying yesterday and now today #all she does is bully and demean me and make comments on everything i do and say #not a moment of silence #or support of any kind #im going insane #plus my period is late but will start soon im sure so thats already fucking up with my emotional state #idk how being near my mom could get worse than it always is but it just did -_- #i just woke up and she already started #oughhhh my eye is twitching #so many typos just read my mind