always so funny to re-realize that my fixations evidently don't work like most people's. i'll see posts like 'that point in ur life ur between hyperfixations and u feel like ur just floating aimlessly' or ppl talking about like 'aw man i think my hyperfixation on x is fading' and i'll be like you can do that? that can happen? bc for me these things don't have an expiration date they always just keep going until they're replaced by something else. the only time i ever 'lost interest' in a fixation in a neutral way it literally took more than two years and it wasn't a gradual fade so much as a specific and sudden 'ok i want to do something else now'.
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hii i dont know you but when dallas liu posted that zukka shirts picture to instagram i was obviously gonna check if the artist was in the comments and before i ever found your instagram i found your??? aunt and cousin??? promoting your redbubble which was so funny to me 😭 congrats on having the most supportive family who will do your zukka merch promo for you<3
Yeah! A bunch of my family knows abt it lol. They were honestly doing more for me than I was just bc I’ve always been a little too self conscious to shill. I do feel kinda bad and wish a little bit they would chill but it’s very sweet & well meaning. I got texts from several of my cousins being like we wanna buy the shirt to support you & I was like? The gay zukka shirt? Be my guest if u wear it as a sleep shirt or something. My dad was literally like “I’m gonna show my students this they’re gonna think it’s so cool” & bc I also work in education (kinda) I was like but what if you get a complaint from a parent or something. He basically said “oh idc I’m looking for an excuse to fight my principal anyway”
so yeah papa zukkacore is fully prepared to die on the zukka hill which is an extremely strange thing to know. He’s literally that kind of person that thinks cartoons are inherently dumb and childish & all anime is yugioh. I’m not even sure he knows who Zuko and Sokka are <3
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woke up this morning having dreamed about a lot last night (including some very vivid stuff with a guy i dated so long ago which gave me a bit of a crisis) and felt a bit iffy, but it seemed like it was lessening over the day, surely no problem-
nope. sure is. it's time to sleep now and my body and brain is so unsettled. want to hide in my bed and never get out. googling 'spring depression' as we speak.
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ranting as my dog given right this fine disability pride month (altho i’m feeling more disability shame rn)
my mom asked if i wanted to get smth for dinner and i was like “i don’t rly have the energy to go out but i would order smth for pickup/delivery” bc ik i pushed myself a bit too hard the past few days (today Esp)
and altho i appreciate it bc i haven’t been able to afford to get food anywhere in a Hot minute, i’m like Wow i rly don’t have the energy to call somewhere or even go into a restaurant to pick up food and i’m also just feeling v arfid-y esp around meat and things that might mess up my stomach and anyway i just wish that shit wasn’t so fuckin complicated and i wish my mom could understand how complicated even something as simple as getting food is for me and just like idk offer to pick it up. i hate having elderly parents who don’t know how to function in the world on their own
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