#my favourite Lebkuchen

[rosagoldpastel]

Konnte nicht mehr widerstehen. Gewürzgebäckzeit ist bei mir offiziell eingeleitet.

#nom #sünde weil ich ca nur 1% der Zutaten vertrage #the nomgasm is #worth it #personal post #my favourite Lebkuchen #lebkuchen #warum auch immer ich hier weiter tags reinhaue #apropos reinhauen #noms

[loewens]

wild and wandering death flag

#little goody two shoes #rozenmarine #elise lgts #freya lgts #lebkuchen lgts #thesis statement why rozenmarine is my favourite #love me some absolutely insanely cursed existence

[bella-rose29]

Deck the Halls (and not your partner) - part 5

Christmas Eve part 2

Word count: 4.1k

Warnings: swearing, family members are mean (are we seeing a pattern?), can you tell that I love lebkuchen from the number of times it got mentioned, they kiss again but for like 2 seconds, then they kiss again later for longer than 2 seconds 👀, reader's grandpa isn't supportive of her job (but it's ok because lockwood saves the day), a pigeon was harmed in the making of this chapter (but it lives!), drinking (alcohol), lockwood talks about his family and the Christmases he spent without them, reader comforts him, there is so much communication but somehow so much miscommunication at the same time??? and I'm annoyed at myself for doing this (but it's necessary), this part does not have a happy ending at all (I'm sorry)

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"Well," Lockwood started, looking around at everyone gathered. "I suppose it started in March."

He paused for a moment, trying to figure out where to go from there. "We were on a job, just the two of us, in Kensington. A couple wanted their house clearing out before they properly moved in, and called us. Everything was going perfectly fine, and then we realised that our clients hadn't told us everything about the property, and we were dealing with three Limbless in an enclosed space." Y/n remembered that job well. It was one of the few cases that she'd actually gone on with just Lockwood, and they had been arguing for most of it about the best way to get rid of a Limbless.

Their argument had attracted the other two that were out in the garden.

"Y/n was brilliant, of course, using her Talent to locate the Sources of the three of them while I covered her, but I got held up in the corridor by some Type Ones that had appeared and she was left on her own. I only just got there in time to throw a salt bomb at the Limbless behind her and give her the extra second that she needed to wrap up the Source, but I don't think I've ever been more scared in my life. I really thought I was too late and that I'd lost her." His voice sounded thick with emotion, and when Y/n met his eyes they were watery. She tried not to frown, since it was strange for her to see him so affected like this. Lockwood cleared his throat, and looked back at the crowd. "Then of course I realised that I couldn't live without her and I asked her on a date. She said no, despite my attempts at baking her favourite cake and all the flowers." He cracked a smile, and people around the room laughed.

"Well you did look rather pathetic, Ant. I sort of wanted to watch you suffer a bit more." That much was true at least, since any time she got to watch him squirm was entertaining to her.

"Well you certainly got your share of that, darling," he huffed, and Y/n bit back a snort at the frustrated look on his face. "I had to ask her about six times after that first one before she finally said yes. We've been dating since the middle of April."

"It was eight, but who's counting?" Something about his story didn't sit right with her, but she couldn't put her finger on it. Maybe it was how close it was to what had actually happened on the job, or maybe it was the dread of all the questions she'd get about her job once people started mingling, wanting to know if she had a backup plan in case this line of work failed, or if she realised how dangerous it was.

Maybe it was the way that Lockwood had looked at her when he was talking about losing her.

~~~

"What are your intentions with Y/n?"

"Don't be stupid," John said, whacking his brother Sam on the arm.

"No, but really, what are your intent- oof!" Sam had been tackled to the floor by John, and Lockwood did his best not to flinch.

He'd been dragged into the library a few minutes ago by Y/n's brothers, and although he was the smallest, Tom was currently the most frightening as he stared Lockwood down from across the room, despite the two eldest brothers currently scrapping on the floor.

"Did... did you want me to answer that, or...?"

"I mean, it would be nice to know," Will piped up, eating straight from a packet of lebkuchen in the armchair opposite. Lockwood didn't think he'd ever seen the man without some sort of food nearby. He sat forward in his chair slightly, trying to come up with a good enough answer that would mean he could go back to the party. John and Sam stopped punching each other to hear his answer.

"I'm mostly just happy that she even gave me a chance, if I'm being honest." That much was true, but Y/n's brothers didn't need to know that he was talking about her acceptance of a position at his company and not the mythical relationship that the two of them had been in for eight months. "I know that I'm incredibly lucky to have her, and I can promise you that I won't do anything to screw that up."

Sam and John seemed happy enough with his answer, and Lockwood started breathing a little more easily. Tom was still staring at him, and Lockwood could have sworn that the boy hadn't blinked the entire time. Will snorted, shaking the bag around to get the last crumbs of lebkuchen out. "Yeah, sure. What's the real answer? No more of that crap, because it's obvious you rehearsed that to make us happy." When Lockwood didn't say anything for a moment Will prodded him again. "Go on."

He clenched his jaw, wondering how he could say anything nice about Y/n when she hadn't said anything nice about him for nearly three years, and looked out the window. A memory flashed up, and despite it having only been that morning, he was surprised at how quickly he'd forgotten the interaction.

Since when had she memorised how he took his tea?

He didn't think that Y/n had ever made him tea before, always making it a deliberate point to make a pot for everyone but him, and yet that morning while they sat in bed she had done it perfectly as though it were second nature. Then his mind drifted back to the night before, and he felt his face warm up at the memory of the mistletoe. He cleared his throat.

"I guess..." Lockwood sighed through his nose and clenched his jaw again. It was starting to ache. "I guess that's true, what I said before-"

"You guess?" Will interjected. Lockwood hadn't thought that he would be under this much scrutiny, but he was starting to sweat uncomfortably. He'd rather be dealing with Barnes right now than be sat here.

"It is true," he amended, making wary eye contact with the man. The packet of lebkuchen was neglected in Will's hand, hanging limply as he sat forward to question his younger sister's boyfriend. "She's incredible - the most incredible girl I've ever met - and I truly am aware of how lucky I am that she chose me. I'm not exactly... easy... to be around sometimes because of my agency, but she deals with me perfectly. She deals with me more than she should, to be honest." He frowned, thinking again about how he needed to figure out how to apologise to her. Nothing he had said was a lie; in fact, he didn't think he'd said anything more true about Y/n the entire time that he had known her. She was incredible, since her Touch was so powerful and unlike anything that he had ever seen before. And he did count himself lucky that she, despite his horrible words, still decided to work for him. And she did deal with him, more than anybody should, and she did it by being just as much of an arse to him as he was to her.

Maybe they were good together after all.

A thud on the window made everyone turn to look at what had made the noise, and Tom finally broke eye contact with Lockwood.

"Pigeon," Sam said, having been closest to the window. "I think it might be- oh no, it's just got up and flown off. Don't tell Mum though, she'll have a fit if she sees the mark it left."

"Alright, I think we're done here. You're free to go, Lover Boy," Will said, waving his hand vaguely at Lockwood and scrunching up the empty lebkuchen packet. Lockwood got up to leave, but upon opening the door a body fell face first into his chest with a small 'oof!'

"... Darling?" Lockwood asked, confusion lacing his voice. The figure looked up and offered a smile.

"Oh, hi! I was just... wondering where you were, Anthony." He tried to not let it show how much it affected him to hear his first name in her mouth, but the slight intake of breath that he took probably gave him away. It didn't help that Y/n was in that dress, since she looked so stunning that he couldn't focus on anything but her.

"You're so obsessed with each other," Lockwood heard Will mutter from behind him, and he realised with a start that they had just been staring at each other and blocking the doorway, penning the others in the library. When they went to move, however, Sam stopped them.

"Mistletoe! You can't break tradition!"

"Ugh, again? Did Mum plant an entire fucking garden of it?" Y/n said, peering up at the sprig that hung over their heads. "They're not gonna let us leave without doing it."

"Alright. Let's get it over with then," he whispered into her mouth, and he couldn't help but feel the exact opposite when she pressed her lips to his.

~~~

"So," Y/n's grandfather Richard started, and internally she groaned. He had used the tone of voice that meant he was about to start asking about work, and she was dreading this conversation. "Being an agent. Are you still sure it's what you want to do with your life, Y/n?"

"Yes, Gramps. I'm sure. I have been doing it for years now."

"But there are so many other things you could be doing! Jobs that you could actually be good at!"

That stung a little, and Y/n sat back slightly in her chair. She loved her Gramps, and most of the time he was one of her favourite family members, but he'd been alive before the Problem had started and didn't understand that things had changed since he was a kid. He believed in her in most other ways, just not when it came to her life as an agent, which was one of the only things she was truly passionate about (other passions included drinking tea and hating Lockwood).

"I don't mean to intrude," a voice piped up, and once again Y/n found herself wondering how the hell Lockwood managed to always turn up at the right time. "But Y/n is one of the best agents in the country, sir. Her Talent is so incredibly unique and that's what makes her so brilliant at her job." He perched on the arm of the chair that she was sat on, and she frowned when she felt the urge to rest her head against his thigh.

"Well how can you possibly know that!"

"Gramps, this is my boyfriend, Anthony? You met him briefly last night?"

"Oh, is it? Right, well I suppose you would know then! Tell me, is she too much of a pain sometimes?!"

Lockwood hesitated slightly, glancing down at where Y/n sat in the chair and frowning a little at her Gramps' question. "If anything I'm the pain. I don't know why she keeps me around to be honest." He sounded so sincere about it that for a moment she forgot that he had ever said anything horrible about her. The rest of their conversation faded into background noise as she remembered what she'd overheard earlier.

It was probably breaking all sorts of moral laws to eavesdrop on her brothers' interrogation of Lockwood, but then again she'd made her boss her fake boyfriend to fool her entire family, so she figured that she was well past being entirely moral about things. And besides, she hadn't been intending on listening in at first, she'd just been walking back from using the loo and happened to hear them. She couldn't get Lockwood's words out of her head, and she'd been replaying them over and over since.

"She's incredible - the most incredible girl I've ever met - and I truly am aware of how lucky I am that she chose me."

What the hell did that mean? Was it a lie that he'd made up to make them happy? But then she'd also heard Will prodding for the truth and his exclamation that whatever Lockwood had said before (which she hadn't heard) was obviously fake, so did he just come up with a better lie?

Tonight, she thought. Tonight I'll talk to him.

~~~

When the last guests had stumbled out of the front door, singing loudly and bumping into each other because they had had too much to drink, everybody left in the house let out a sigh of relief.

Y/n mumbled a tired 'good night' to everyone as she pulled herself upstairs, and Lockwood followed after her. He'd been helping her father tidy up a little before turning out the lights, to save some of the food that needed refrigerating and chucking other things in the bin. She had been worried when her dad first started talking to Lockwood, but then she'd heard her father laughing and had decided that they would be perfectly fine together.

Now she collapsed face first onto the bed, not yet worrying about the chill in the room.

"I can see why you were dreading that," Lockwood said, his voice sounding too loud. She'd had to down a few drinks that afternoon to deal with the sheer number of questions and comments from family members and friends, and now her head was aching slightly.

"Can you get me some water?" she asked, but since her face was still buried in the duvet it came out muffled. Lockwood's footsteps shuffled around for a while, and then went silent, and Y/n huffed in annoyance. Of course he'd just get himself ready for bed and not worry about her, that was so typical of him. She pushed herself upright, wincing when the room wobbled a little and the pain increased in her head, then frowned when Lockwood reappeared, something in his hand.

"Here. I couldn't find any painkillers though, so I'll just go and fill that up when you're done so you can try and sober up before bed."

Oh. Maybe he wasn't being so typical after all.

"Thanks," she muttered, taking the glass from him and eyeing it warily.

"It's not poisoned, darling. If I was going to kill you I wouldn't do it in a way that might mean you could come back to haunt me."

"Charming."

He sat down on the bed next to her with a sigh, picking at a loose thread on his sleeve. "You know," he said, not looking at her. "This hasn't been... the worst Christmas I've ever had."

"No? You're spending it with me." He gave her a wry smile, finally bringing his gaze up to meet hers.

"Yeah, that's not really that bad."

Oh.

"Really?"

He hummed in answer, nodding slightly, then got up and walked over to the fireplace. They sat in silence while Y/n finished off her water and Lockwood got the fire going, and once she headed over to sit next to where he was crouching she realised how cold she had been before. He sat back, leaning on the chair behind him. Y/n was hunched over her knees, empty glass dangling in her grip. She could have done the same as Lockwood with the armchair behind her, and god knew her head needed something to rest against because despite the water dulling the ache it was still pressing against her temples, but she didn't think she could see Lockwood's face at that moment.

"The first Christmas after Jess passed was the worst."

Her head snapped to look at him where he sat to her left, but he was staring into the fire, eyes transfixed on the flames but looking at something far away. She didn't say anything, instead just letting him go ahead in his own time.

"The ones after my parents died were hard, sure, but at least I had Jess around and we knew what the other was going through. Then she was gone too, and I was nine years old in a big house that was suddenly empty of the family I had spent my life being loved by."

She knew that his family were dead since the absence of any of them was shockingly present in 35 Portland Row, but he had never told her anything. She'd had to learn it all from Lucy, George, and Holly.

"That first one was horrible. I don't think I stopped crying for longer than an hour the entire time, and I couldn't sleep because I kept replaying it over in my head. I could have helped," he whispered, and Y/n could see that his eyes were glistening in the light of the fire. "I could have saved her, if only I hadn't-" he cut himself off, his voice growing too strangled to continue. Quickly she placed her hand on his arm, turning her body to face him.

"Hey, hey," she said quietly, drawing him into her arms. Her glass had been abandoned on the floor, her hands now holding Lockwood's body in her lap instead. His head was resting on her chest while his arm wrapped around her stomach, the other supporting his weight, and Y/n told herself that she was only allowing this to happen because she hadn't yet sobered up.

She wasn't sure how long they were there for, her leaning back at an awkward angle to allow room for Lockwood to lie on top of her and curl into her side while he sniffled, but after a while she found that she didn't mind stroking her fingers through his hair (which was surprisingly soft) or having his weight on her (it was like having a weighted blanket).

"Thank you," he muttered after a while, sitting up and wiping at his face. He paused in his movements when he realised that their faces were much closer together than was normal for two people that didn't like each other. The memory of that morning when she had smoothed out his collar and he had been about to say something came back, and when his gaze flicked between her eyes and her lips she drew in a breath.

"Anthony?"

And then he was surging forward, kissing her with the same passion that he had hated her with while she reached up to grab his shirt, not caring that she was wrinkling the fabric that she herself had smoothed out that very morning. How could she think of anything but him when the two of them had finally crashed together like a tsunami hitting cities?

How could she think of anything but him when he pulled her on top of him?

And how could she think of anything but him when he sighed her name into her mouth and it sounded sweeter than the tea he drank?

And then she was thinking about him entirely, and remembering everything that had happened since they met, and suddenly kissing him was a terrible idea.

"She's not good enough for the company."

She pushed away from him with a start when those words blared in her mind like warning alarms, the memory of what she had overheard in the library around four months after starting to work for Lockwood and Co. She hadn't heard anything before, but the disdain in Lockwood's voice told her it was about her. She had run upstairs to make sure she didn't hear any more of what he thought about her.

"Y/n?" he asked now, voice hoarse from crying and kissing, and his expression was desperate as he watched her press her hand to her lips and take shaky breaths. "Y/n? What is it? Wh-"

"Don't," she snapped, standing up and trying to forget the feeling of his hands on her body. "Don't... just don't, Lockwood." He was getting up too, scrambling after her and reaching out to stop her from slipping away.

"I don't understand-"

"Don't understand what?! We can't- we hate each other, Lockwood!" The venom in her voice made him stumble back a few steps. "You never wanted me at your company and you made sure that I knew that!"

"I-"

"I heard you telling the others that I wasn't ever going to be good enough for you, and then a few hours later after a job you're telling me that my Talent is incredible?! What am I supposed to think?! And then you spend the next however many years being a complete dick to me and complaining about me, so I do the same because clearly being nice didn't work, and now you're here at my fucking family Christmas event pretending to be my boyfriend and kissing me when you don't need to-"

"Of course I need to! I know I was horrible to you-"

"An understatement," she scoffed, crossing her arms.

"-but I'm trying to figure out how to apologise to you because I know that I've fucked up and I need to fix it!"

"So you kissed me?!"

"No! Yes! That wasn't an apology!" He rubbed his hand over his face, clearly frustrated with how it was going. "It was a mistake- no, Y/n, I didn't mean it like that!"

"A mistake?" she whispered, her eyes stinging with fresh tears. "Kissing me was a mistake?"

"No," he said, tone filled with desperation. "No, Y/n, I just meant that I shouldn't have done it before apologising to you because then it would seem like... I don't know! Like I was doing it just to try and trick you into accepting my apology or something!"

"Were you? Doing it to trick me? Because right now I can't tell what the truth is, Lockwood!"

"It wasn't a trick. It was never a trick, and I'm an idiot-"

"Yes, you are."

"Would you just listen to me?!" he shouted, anger seeping in to his body, and Y/n took a step back at the look in his eyes.

"What, like how you listen to me?"

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"Yesterday, on the platform, when I was talking about my family being a lot and how it was hard for me and I'm actually related to most of them, and I couldn't imagine how hard it would be for someone to be introduced to all of that in one go. You just assumed that I meant it would be hard for you because your family is dead, and then when I tried to explain you cut me off and gave me the cold shoulder because you didn't fucking listen, Lockwood. What I meant was it would be a lot for anyone, no matter their own experience. Hell, even George has said that he would rather be blocked from the Archives for life than ever meet my family, and he's got almost as many relatives as me!"

Lockwood didn't say anything for a minute, instead just standing still and staring at her while the fire in his eyes died down, and Y/n shook her head. "This?" She gestured between the two of them. "This will never work. We will never work. Because you never wanted me and no matter how much I want you to like me in the same way that you like the others, you never will. And I will never be good enough for you." That was one more person to add to the list of people that she needed to meet unnecessarily high expectations for in order to be even noticed. She wiped at the tears that had slipped down her face while she was talking, the salt making her cheeks itch.

"You're right," Lockwood finally said. "I won't ever like you in the same way as the others." He stopped there, looking down at the floor. When he went to speak again, however, he lifted his head to an empty room, and the bathroom door shutting him out.

Y/n ignored his attempts to talk to her through the door, shoving the duvet and blankets that she had quickly grabbed into the bathtub and plugging her headphones into her walkman so that she didn't have to hear the rest of his cruel words and excuses.

She had craved something different with him, and it had fucking destroyed her.

And now she had to wake up on Christmas Day and pretend that she was hopelessly in love with the fake boyfriend who had just broken her heart.

part 6

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[oculus-de-malus]

I was tagged by @ahalal-uralma - thank you! 🖤

Last song:

From my 'Winter' themed playlist.

Currently reading: I am re-reading The Ghost Stories of M. R. James, to compliment some of my current seasonal viewings below.

Currently watching: BBC's Ghost Stories for Christmas. An annual tradition... I love to switch off the lights and get cozy by the fire, and watch these at this time of year. For me, they imbibe the essence of the season.

Currently consuming: Dark chocolate covered lebkuchen... one of my favourite seasonal treats.

Currently craving: Cheese. I bought some speciality cheeses to enjoy over the yuletide period, so I am looking forward to indulging myself in those... seasonal foods and drinks are definitely a highlight of the season, for me.

I tag: @celtos @cloudswamp @eaux-fortes @engel222 @flatlineconstructs @midnightflowx @milk-wood @nullheaven @thewomanwithmissingfingers @vpervaffanculo

No obligation, as always.

#tagged #tag game #Spotify

[ask-sebastian]

Felix gently tapped Sebastian on the shoulder and presented him a small gift box. Nestled within were Lebkuchen, Pepparkakor, some jam biscuits, two generously sized cinnamon buns, their warmth still lingering, and a crisp apple. "Merry Christmas, Sebastian," Felix said with a warm smile. :)

Sebastian turned, somewhat bewildered at the sight of the gift Felix presented to him.

"For me?" he asked, taking the box in hand with much chagrin. He didn't have anything on his person to give in return. "You shouldn't have..."

Sebastian caught unmistakable whiffs of sugar and spice and couldn't resist a peek. All his favourites, but...look at those buns.

They looked positively delectable. He stared at them with a faraway, slack-jawed expression of longing, but he snapped both his mouth and the box shut before he started to dribble.

Later, he thought as shook himself out of the anticipation-induced stupor.

"Thank you, Felix," he said with a genuine smile. "Next time you come into The Three Broomsticks, order whatever your heart and stomach desires. It shall be my treat."

#ask-sebastian #sebastian speaks #felix

[https-furina]

For the ask game! I didn't know what to ask because I'm usually really shy but I got inspired by another ask!

What kind of taste (food!) Do you like??

Do you play other videogames? If so, favorites ones??

Here <3 eheh

yume yume yume !! i love answering questions (‘: /gen

— i have such a sweet tooth >///< maybe it’s because my oma makes lebkuchen every time i get mildly upset /j but i love desserts and sugar - i think as i’ve aged though it’s simmered down. i’m a little more contained now 🤭 but i’m also the only one in my household who likes schwarzwälder kirschtorte ?? my mom isn’t a fan of cherries so more for me <3

— i’ve been playing video games for soooo long (thanks dad for raising me on them /j) but my favourites are the red dead franchise (since i was 10… oops), skyrim, genshin (ofc!), the last guardian, shadow of the colossus, the resident evil franchise, pokemon black/white 2 (forever my fave), overwatch, stardew & until dawn (i also very much like man of medan)

#i always have such bIG ANSWERS IM SO SORRY #i’ve been dropping so much perse lore today #but i love answering these so much ): #— 🎟️ yume #the archon’s disciples 💙 #> entry to the opera epiclese ✉️ #https-furina

[musashi]

what was it like living in the von karma household? i think i remember you saying it wasn't as strict as most people hc it to be, so did you spend a lot of time studying law/whatever else you might've wanted to do? were things more structured when manfred was home? were there any family traditions you all had?

it was DEF was more lax than people make it out to be in their tortureporn fics, esp because papa was barely ever home. he was overseas OFTEN and when he was in the country he still worked impossibly long hours. even on the weekends he'd still go to the offices to do paperwork and other non-trial-specific things. you don't get the kinda reputation he has by having a good work-life balance fgfhfdg

miles and i spent most of our time studying but for leisure we both really liked to read and watch tv. he taught me english, i taught him german, that's a very fond smattering of memories i have. we'd do mock trials. i especially really liked to play pretend when i was younger and he would indulge me despite being way too old for most of it.

it was very comfortable living. i always tell people, when im talking about what it is like to be franziska von karma, that my childhood was wonderful. it's my adulthood that sucked shit.

the house was big and lived in and fully staffed and i was very well taken care of. and i was never lonely because i don't really remember a life before miles. i was allowed to establish my own routines and i had a great deal of autonomy because by papa's own admission he always kind of raised me with precociousness in mind. whether that's a great way to raise a kid is whatever, but i don't personally resent it.

my favourite part of the manor was the hedge maze. the gardens. the rose bushes. i loved to be surrounded in flowers, perfectly arranged without a petal out of place. i've fallen asleep out there more times than i'd like to admit. it just felt so special and safe.

my fave family tradition was the big parties we'd have during holiday season!!! they were mostly fully of stuffy law enforcement types who i would suck up to a lot and then get annoyed by as soon as they started condescending toward me. but mostly i was babysitting miles. miles was sad and uncomfortable and i was bringing him stollen and lebkuchen. telling him to eat and that he needed carbs. and then we were in the hedge maze, usually zooted as fuck on glühwein in our later years. it was a whole thing, but i just loved hearing all the voices inside the house from the outside and being beneath the hidden stars with him on cold winter nights.

idk, lots and lots of memories of that time in my life. significantly less of literally any other time period ghddghdf

#wendy answers #Anonymous #kin ramblings

[maybege]

And on that second note: Hi, May! (I know I just sent you a message but at this point it feels wrong to not start like this)

So, fun fact: I just booked myself a short introductory meeting with a therapist centre, since the last couple weeks haven’t been … fun … due to unnecessary uni stress and some other stuff. Like nothing others would have to be concerned about, just very anxiety inducing.

I know that this is probably the right thing to do cause I’ve been thinking about this on and off for a while. And I’m also generally not opposed to therapy or anything, but it’s still somehow terrifying to book that appointment???

So yeah, that’s happening on Thursday which seems way too soon but oh well 😂🙈

Anyway, how are you doing? Did you have a nice start of the week or any fun plans coming up?

CHECK IN TIME WHOOP WHOOP!

First of all: I’m so fucking proud of you for taking this step for your mental health! There is never an unnecessary reason to go to talk to someone and

I know I talked a lot about it at the beginning but I’ve actually been in the therapy for the last two years and will finish it this year (yay!) and I remember how anxious and terrified and nervous I was about my first meeting. Like, I was feeling sick I was that nervous 😂 All this to say: Feeling nervous and anxious about your first session(s) is completely normal! (Doesn’t make it easier though, I know)

But I’m pressing all my thumbs for you and I wish you the very best first session you could possibly have! And already plan something nice for afterwards as well (have your favourite food at hand or curl up with a nice movie) because that adrenaline spike will have you exhausted 🥺

I actually spent the weekend and yesterday sick in bed, which wasn’t too nice. But I’m slowly getting better and treated myself to some zartbitter Lebkuchen which are delicious 🥰 Nothing special planned yet for the week ahead but you never know!

#may answers #check ins with Sarah

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---- NINE PEOPLE I'D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER !

𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐑(𝐒): Any shade of blue, although darker / mid-tone are more appealing than lighter colours. I prefer any colour that doesn't reflect much light, really, since it helps me avoid migraine town.

𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐅𝐋𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑(𝐒): Honeycomb, and sometimes gingerbread. And also chocolate. Cinnamon + marshmallows too. I have a lot of favourite flavours, but those are the ones I can list off the top of my head. I have a pretty big sweet tooth. Overall, my favourite gingerbread-type thing would be lebkuchen. It's pretty easy to find here during the winter and it does pair pretty well with the honeycomb hot chocolate I have. So I guess that answers the question better.

𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐂: Mostly rock & pop punk type stuff? Starset is my favourite band, but most I listen to would be classed as the other two. Not necessarily always into very heavy rock, though. Outside of my usual categories, I only really listen to genshin / hsr music & big time rush (for that childhood nostalgia, though it's good for energy levels too since it's very high energy music) & a few odd songs from eurovision through the years.

𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐌𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐄(𝐒): Into The Spider-verse & the sequel. While I've had a lot of favourite movies growing up, I don't typically find the same enjoyment in them as I get older. ITSV is an exception, since I find I still love it even years after first watching it.

𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒: Honestly, the only series I'm currently watching & enjoying would be the One Chicago shows (except med & the lawyer one, those bore me a little but alas, medical dramas are not my thing) & Stranger Things. I need to watch BNHA again, since I really did enjoy that, & hopefully the Percy Jackson show will be good when it releases and become my favourite, since I love the books.

𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆: Fake Out - Fall Out Boy

𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒: Currently watching an episode of Chicago Fire with a friend while writing this, so that would be it, I think.

𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐄: The Hunger Games, but only because I was watching it with my dad a few days ago. A welcome respite before the holidays when I get asked to watch a muppet christmas carol & the polar express again, but I'll take it. The last film I watched that I chose out, though, was ATSV.

𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐋𝐘 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆: I've been trying to read the Percy Jackson books again, but I got sidetracked by a different book, so the answer would be Just Haven't Met You Yet by Sophie Cousens. Hopefully, it's going to continue being a good read.

𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐋𝐘 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐎𝐍: Replies & job searching, mostly. With a few breaks for games every now & then.

TAGGED BY: @maquiscursed (thank you for tagging me) TAGGING: Whoever is reading this. I don't know who has / hasn't been tagged or done it.

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[dreamyghostie]

Get to know me

@chrisoels tagged me, thank u so much :)

Share your wallpaper: i change my wallpaper every month or so, currently it is one of the wonderful drawings by @aokarimero :)

The last song you listened to: haha i almost forgot that one as i was listening to music while writing this post :D well the last one was basic by sigrid

Currently Reading:  still reading anne of green gables, i put it down for a while and will pick it up again soon to finish it (i think :D)

Last Movie: honestly no idea, i have a fairly long list of movies i want to watch but im just not really a movie person i guess

Craving: doing all the things off my "fun things i want to do with nice people" list. currently difficult due to a lack of people, first and foremost. :D

What are you wearing right now: old t-shirt with japanese writing on it, my comfy indoor sweatpants and socks in different colours. :)

How tall are you: i still think im taller than everyone who will read this, but if you think different, tell me :D

Piercings: nope

Tattoos: nope either

Glasses? Contacts?: glasses i want to exchange for new ones soon, my current ones are old and fairly damaged by now

Last drink: wonderful tap water

Last show: is eurovision a show? :D

Last thing you ate: very dark and very german bread with some spread on it, extremely boring

Favourite colour: a rather dark but vibrant red, green or blue. :)

Current obsession: still slowly fading out of the yearly eurovision obsession, to go with one of the healthier ones

Unrelated Obsession: i already start to crave lebkuchen, but it is not long until september now when all the supermarkets will start to sell some again :D

Any pets: just the spiders that really like to take shelter in my apartment

Do you have a crush on anyone: thats an interesting question! i think i get crushes fairly easily but i tend to be so reserved no one would really notice. :D

Favourite fictional character: ill pass on this one, i think i am too critical of all characters i like to really pick one here :D

The last place you traveled: the dutch north sea coast, as shown by some of my latest picture posts

Absolutely no pressure, but if u like (i know it is really much, u can just pick some of these as well) id really like to read this from you: @chronicleofwastedtime @quiltedcottage @dreamyberry @just-a-got-otaku :)

#personal #tag game

[questwithambition]

12 + 41? ✨️

12) What kind of day is it?

Today has been a pretty standard uni day, my final ever hand in is in 3 weeks so it’s a lot of work and stress making sure that all comes together (it’s a group project which just makes things a bit more tense). But I have some lovely chats with friends and lecturers, I had a lovely session with my mentee and the sun was shining. And then due to traffic and a terrible bus situation it took me 75 minutes to get back on what should have been a 20 min bus journey and I broke one of my favourite mugs :( Buuut then I washed my hair and had a really chill stretching session. So very much a rollercoaster day!

(In terms of the weather, sunny but windy)

How has your day been???

41) How do you take your coffee?

So I answered here but I figured I’d talk about tea instead. To the great disappointment of my native country I don’t really like standard breakfast tea, although I’ll have it on occasion when I need to warm up and it’s all that’s available (in which case milk, no sugar). But I really enjoy peppermint tea which is my warm beverage of choice in the evening, and I do like the occasional chai. I did also go to a Bird & Blend lock in tea event in November (which I 100% recommend as they are so much fun) and came away with some of their gingerbread chai and their salted caramel lebkuchen loose leaf teas and I love the second one. I just don’t have it super often because loose leaf tea is a lot of effort compared to tea bags 😇

Thank you for asking 🤍 (from these asks!)

#I hope your day is lovely and you got some sun too! #hrimceald #questwithambition #asks #about me

[theydoctor]

rules: tag 9 people you want to get to know better <3

tagged by: @starstruckthirteen thank you!!! <333

favourite time of year: spring!

comfort food: lebkuchen <3 i mean yes ok it's more like a snack, but it's the best thing in the world and i will defend the supremacy of elisenlebkuchen till the day i die!!

do you collect something: hm, i build model planes, but they take a long while to be finished lol so i guess i collect them, but i just don't have many finished ones in my room atm xD

favourite drink: uhm i never thought about that... i mostly just drink water, so i'm really not sure about this lol

favourite song: wow i always dislike these questions, because i genuinely have so many songs i love and it feels like torture to just pick one. but uhhh Post World War Two Blues by Al Stewart is definitely on the top of the list!

current favourite song: Jackdaw by Al Stewart, i keep listening to it on loop. it's just so beautiful aaahh

favourite fic: oh, i have to admit i haven't read much fanfic in the last few months, but (i refuse to choose just one) some i like are:

my love will clothe your bones - freefallvertigo (nb!13 & yaz in new york, blind date, very much a comfort read!)

to the ends of the earth (would you follow me?) - freefallvertigo (roadtrip au set in america, such a good fanfic and istg it will forever have a place in my heart!)

The lies we tell ourselves- walking_contradiction42 (aro!thomas my beloved ;-; also a comfort read and very well written and just aaahhhhh i love it so damn much!!!)

Can You Read Between the Lines? - Bow_Ties (just. read it. trust me. i mean all of these are comfort fic but dammit this is the most comfort a fanfic can be for me, it's so adorable and cute and just akshsksys)

tagging: the rules are annoying so i'm just gonna tag a few @walkingcontradiction42 @sunny-lie-melody @finn-shitposts @hotchocolatedictator and anyone else who wants to <3

#wow sunny just look at what you did #now al is my favourite musician and i'm in love with all his songs #you keep shaping my taste in music lol #(and please never stop it's brilliant!)

[frenchiepal]

Jay! hii!! 31,42 and 53 for the asks:))

tessa i'm so glad to see you online again!! 🪷

31. 3 random facts

i'll never run out of random facts so here it goes: for her bday, my mum is going to get the prettiest ring that i found on a christmas market. my hair's been getting darker each year. you don't actually eat spiders while sleeping.

42. favourite book(s)

(geisterritter by cornelia funke (shaped me on a fundamental level as a child), tonje glimmerdal by maria parr, babel by r.f. kuang, lotr books by tolkien, temeraire by naomi novik and i think the secret history by donna tartt is on its way to become a fav of mine)

53. 5 things that make me happy

1. my dear, dear friends

2. academic validation

3. anything that has to do with linguistics

4. sports

5. that one lebkuchen allerlei from Rewe ™

(6. earrings/piercings)

#thank you <3 hope you're feeling rested! #tessa🪷 #inbox

[masherbrum]

the best thing about november is when suddenly fresh oranges appear in the supermarkets & they’re also cheap again

#september/october: lebkuchen #november: oranges! #finally #apart from that november is not my favourite #yeah i know they're basically too cheap like all the things that come from the mediterranean but what should i do

[the-english-student-studyblr]

Back on the asexuality research binge again! Also had my covid booster today. The queue was so long and it was so cold out, I'm glad I'm back home in the warm now.

18th December - What is your favourite Christmas song/carol?

Maybe an unpopular opinion, and definietly one that sounds like a meme answer, but I unironically adore the Christmas album that came out alongside Into the Spiderverse. Other than that, I have fond memories of singing 'Little Donkey' at the christingle service back when I was in primary school so probably that one.

19th December - What is a Christmas song that makes you cringe?

Oh dear. If I had to come up with one off the top of my head, 'Santa baby'. Just why? Why does that song exist?

20th December - What is your favourite and least favourite holiday/winter food?

I'm a big fan of baked goods, so gingerbread is definitely up there - especially German lebkuchen, and it's not specifically a holiday food I think, but my family always makes æbleskiver on boxing day for breakfast and it's brilliant with a dusting of icing sugar or some jam. As for least favourite, I hate things like fruit cake and Christmas pudding - mostly because of the dried fruits - and my mum always drags out the brussel sprouts for roast dinners and they're truly awful.

21st December - What was the most memorable holiday celebration you had at school?

In primary school, every class would make a decoration each and they'd get hung from what looked sort of like a cot mobile for babies but was actually made out of hula-hoops. They were all made out of paper and objectively pretty bad, but they'd get hung up in the hall and walking in for assembly that day and looking up at all the decorations hanging from the ceiling was just beautiful.

22nd December - Finish this thought, “It wouldn’t be Christmas without _____.”

It wouldn't be Christmas without doing one last food shop early in the morning on Christmas Eve, even though you don't really need anything, and telling yourself it'll be quick because it's 5am, except everyone else had the same thought so it takes 2 hours minimum and most of it is the queue for the checkout.

#winter studying challenge #studyblr #english lit student #uni life #asexuality #gradblr #yes that is our christmas tree in the background #the lights are on a timer so unfortunately it's not sparkly

[goodvibesandmemes]

CUTESY MEMES: Christmas/Winter Themed 🎄🎅🏼 ↳ Please feel free to tweak them etc.

SYMBOLS:

🎄 - For our muses decorate a Christmas tree together. 🍪 - For our muses bake gingerbread together. 🎁 - For my muse to tell yours what they’d like for Christmas. 🌲 - For our muses to find the perfect tree together. ⛄ - For our muses to build a snowman together. 🎅🏼 - For my muse to tell yours what their favourite gift they got as a kid was. 🍰 - For our muses to share some Christmas cake. 🍻 - For our muses to share a beer/drinks on New Year’s Eve. 🍷 - For our muses to share some mulled wine. ☕ - For my muse to make yours some hot cocoa.

SENTENCES:

“This is my favourite time of the year you know?” “How old were you when you stopped believing in Santa?” “Do you celebrate Christmas?” “What’s your favourite part of the holiday?” “I tried to make gingerbread and, well, I think I made something. Might be edible. Want to try one?” “What have you got me, [ name ], please tell me.” “How do people not injure themselves putting all those lights up? How do they sleep?” “You just have to feel bad for the trees, you know? This is not how they thought it would end.” “[ she / he / they ] keeps [ her / his / their ] presents in a different secret location each year, I’ve yet to find them. Want to help?” “You mean Santa didn’t get me PS5?” (southern English accent) “This is not just hot chocolate, this is M&S hot chocolate. It’s not, but it’s fire I promise.” “I don’t really have anywhere to be this year. I’ll probably watch TV.” “Are you insane? It’s 38 degrees out I can’t drink hot cocoa!” “Fuck eggnog! Have you tried coquito?” “Try as I might, I have no idea what to get [ name ].” “Is mulled wine vegan?” “I bought way more lebkuchen than any being has the right to consume in a lifetime, want to help me out with it?” “It’s ye jolly Chritsmas... dragon? Look I’m not putting it away so I gave it a tiny cute Santa hat, it’s festive I swear.” “If your decorations look classy and like you knew what you were doing when you put them on the tree it’s not festive enough for me. I want 4 different colours of tinsel, every bauble I can find and that weird ornament that looks like a pickle with a violin we saw in [ supermarket ].” “I just have so much to get planned before Christmas day, it’s so hectic!”

#ask memes #ask meme #ask box #Christmas ask meme