#might be pushing it with tags here

[themightyhumanbroom]

Amy: Since I stopped chasing after Sonic our friendship has improved dramatically and we've actually gotten a lot closer. But seeing Tangle and Whisper start dating and now you two going steady, I can't help but feel.....

Lanolin: Bitter?

Surge: Lonely?

Amy: Robbed.

Surge: Have you tried flirting with other people in front of him to get him jealous?

Lanolin: Surge. No.

Surge: Aaawww cmon! Think of how funny the look on his face would be if she started flirting with the Homunculus in front of him!

Amy: You HAVE to stop calling Shadow that.

#amy rose #lanolin the sheep #surge the tenrec #surgolin #surge x lanolin #electric sheep #sonamy #idw sonic #sth #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #tangle the lemur #whisper the wolf #whispangle #might be pushing it with tags here

[wolves-in-the-world]

the thing about eliot spencer as a character, right. the thing about him.

(and as always your mileage may vary on my analyses so if we disagree that's cool actually)

is that he is in fact a somewhat emotionally constipated idiot who is occasionally sensitive about his perceived masculinity and gets defensive about emotional intimacy around other men (largely hardison, who's much more comfortable expressing affection and embracing a softer kind of masculinity), but eliot displays enough emotional awareness and sensitivity and respect for women etc etc that anyone who's been subjected to that era of television will put on rose-tinted glasses without even looking twice.

(and he is, don't get me wrong, incredibly emotionally aware for a professionally punchy guy with enough trauma to sink the titanic. it still startles me to see.)

on top of which we have the layers and the accessories and the excellent hair with the secret braids and the way he barely has an ego and he's good with kids and protective of his team without taking it too far, and some of us never stood a fucking chance.

#eliot #eliot spencer #orig #further discussion in further tags #I'm being perhaps a little critical and there are other ways to read eg the fragile masculinity moments #but I Do think they were intended this way and largely come across this way #I'm quite happy playing with a fanon eliot who's better at this shit is the thing? it feels faithful enough to the original. #but this is something I'm chewing over in a rewatch and it's interesting so far #the fact that he pretty consistently respects women doesn't stop him from treating men and women differently y'know? #the fact that his bantering with hardison expresses affection and gets quite soft over time #doesn't stop him from pushing hardison away on a semi-regular basis. often physically. #the fact that the fandom unanimously decided he's an utter gentleman in matters of dating #doesn't quite negate the time he physically stopped aimee from getting away when he wanted to talk to her #though that's one I might disregard because it's so early and I think they hadn't quite figured out the characters then #and it was admittedly a brief moment followed by very consensual happenings #perhaps. honestly. eliot may be reflecting the attitudes of the show here. #which were very progressive for the time and are still startling on several fronts now but also showing definite signs of age #arguably fanon eliot (as I understand him) is eliot adjusted for inflation. as it were. #there's a lot going on here I'm having a normal amount of thoughts about it I'm. stopping now

[oneknightstand-if]

Corruption!

Jobs:

news reporter= +1 

police detective= +1 

paramedic= +1 

restaurant worker= +1 

security guard= +2 

hobby:dark web= +1

Choices:

If you pick the zalgo text (Not clothes but a body) and have backstory:accident= +1 

If you choose …what were we talking about again? and job:security guard= +1

“not a chance in hell” or violent slashing motion when adrian suggests a sleepover= +1 (if he is your friend/crush) 

“Nothing else of note has happened.”= +1 

If you tell Adrian ‘it’s fine’ when he sees the hand-mark= +1 

If you tell Adrian ‘it’s fine’ when he suggests looking up paranormal groups= +1

If you choose the zalgo text when you see the shadow at the ridge= +1 

If you ask about intrusive thoughts and are possessed= +1

“Pure unfiltered meta knowledge.”=+1 (when you ask adrian about the apocalypse) 

zalgo text when you discuss the bible apocalypse= +1 

If you walk towards the sound in the trailer= +1

If you go to the window again after you’ve been knocked down= +1 

If you poke your head out the window= +3 

If you choose not to tell anyone about the trailer= +1 

“In the end, everything turned out perfectly fine” =+1 

If you look at the accident= +1 

If you look at the accident, are a security guard, and choose “How am I hearing this?”= -1 

If you claim the trailer is perfectly fine when it’s obviously not (also has zalgo text)= +1 

If you choose “Nothing at all.” when Amnay is talking about no one noticing anything = +1 

“All the lights in the city die out” = +1 

When you look at the sickly yellow illumination =+1 

You freeze when Adrian tells you to run (zalgo) =+1 

“I freeze like a metaphorical deer in the headlights.” (when you are running from the thing) =+1 

“Cower and accept my fate”=+1 

“Get out of my mind” = -1 

If you choose to stay right there = +1 

Merlin appears= -1 

Vice:wrath and you choose to wallow in your rage = +1 (after you punch Adrian)

Vice:wrath and you punch Adrian again = +1 (after you punch Adrian) 

“Okay, this is my stop. You can move along now.” and Adrian is your friend/crush= +1

If you ignore the primal shriek of denial and take the elevator = +1 

If you are not possessed already and “We should take the elevator to my room.” = +1 

If you choose  “just a little urge” or “it’s just fine” when Adrian joins you in the elevator after you’ve told him to stay out = +1 

“Poor Adrian. Better left out than tossed off the roof” or  “No more cavalry for me.” = +1 

You reach the thirteenth floor using the stairs or the elevator =+1 

If you think there’s a reasonable explanation for the wall of darkness (partial zalgo) = +1 

The floor indicator is stuck on 9 = +1

Maniacal laughter = +1 

If you choose to stay in the corridor= -1 

If you go to bed= +1

You check under the bed= +100 

Ignore the stuff under the bed= +1

(It is not formatted very well, sorry! It was initially meant for personal use!)

#Pushing this to the head of the queue for anyone who might still be playing through the game #And apparently editing a submission removes all the formatting so hopefully copy & pasting the original post will work here #Thanks for the submission! #oks-submission #oks-info #Edit: And of course adding the tags made the submission's formatting go all wonky even though it looked fine in the preview

[lavenoon]

Sun can be lenient, sometimes

Inspired by however anyone is supposed to get up and down this "ramp":

#post let luce #dcamv #fnaf sun #my art #going to tag this with #ableism #just in case bc ik some ppl might not wanna see shitty accessibility attempts #esp during disability pride month #this ramp has just been haunting me #it was one of many many many of the sort up the hill #i honestly dont think even having someone push the wheelchair is feasible here #plus the railing right there is. hm

[goldensunset]

everyone told me she was terrifying but they didn’t tell me she was so cool and nice

#blacked out and woke up with this in front of me hi. may my ten thousand unfinished older wips forgive me #champion cynthia #cynthia #pokemon cynthia #pokémon cynthia #pokémon #pokemon #dppt #diamond and pearl #oh i am absolutely not tagging all those. God bless 🙏 #platinum gang here. i am 14 years late to this party hello #i meant to begin the sv dlc tonight but i got sidetracked again lol #gotta tie up loose ends on one game playthrough before doing another #have i really completed a game if i haven’t made any celebratory artwork? i think not. #anyway this game was very cool and charming and i adore how they pushed the limits of the DS with regards to art and animation #and i’m glad bc now i get to appreciate my beloved pla in a different way :-D #my art #i’m in my no backgrounds no peer review no bothering to color lines era again i guess. lol whatevs i’m happy something is finally dooonnnee #nomura has until the tokyo game show to prove himself and give us kh crumbs or else i might make this my new icon #i. just last-minute flipped this bc i realized the bang was on the wrong side dsgxjxjzk #i flip back and forth a lot while drawing to keep my perspective fresh and sometimes i forget to flip back to the right side #bc usually it does not matter

[vynnyal]

Hunter my beloved

#Wack anatomy day #rain world #Hunter #art tag #Hey wanna RAINWORLD head canon? #Ppl be like having trouble designing hunter and all #Meanwhile I'm over here like they are DYING do you have any idea how painful that is?? #Cycle 20 they literally cannot push their body any further. Like willpower just isn't enough #In short I believe little hunter should look fierce but also very very sick #In other news I'm procrastinating on finishing my hunter run #I need to make it across all of shoreline to the uhhh... what's it called #the deepnest of rainworld #Yeah and I have 2 tries before it's game over. #Might private this at some point if the anatomy bothers me enough but w/e

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

dawg my body is so ready for seeing your human versions of the gang. like the need to draw these sillies is JUST TOO DAMN GREAT--(please don't take this as "OMG HURRY UP", i'm just very excited to see your interpretations!)

well shit now i gotta buckle down on brushing up + improving upon my human scribbling skills, which - meager to begin with - have deteriorated due to Puppet Disease (and i say this with playful exasperation. i've been needing an excuse to Practice and this is a damn good one)

though i will say! i'll be adhering to the ~canon~ human versions we've been gifted via Clown's pokemon au. ofc since we don't know what Howdy, Poppy, Sally, and Eddie look like, i'll have to think of something myself

#like the canon designs we have are so so good why would i Not adhere... #i mean i might take some creative liberties here and there but yk yk #also... barnaby's kinda bear-coded ngl.... love that for him #and honestly i'm starting to consider like... writing this au??? tidbits perhaps??? #because i've got a lot more internal creative freedom since this au diverges so severely from The Main Thing #it's one of those aus for easter eggs & keeping characterizations accurate but some freedom to bend them #because of the circumstances of the au & the inherent changes involved #its a fun puzzle of balancing how the au affects things but also keeping things as recognizable / canon-compliant as possible #rambles from the bog #i really gotta make a tag for this au since apparently i will be posting more than Twice about it! lookie that! #ohhhh god i just realized im gonna have to do some outfit design #FUCK that is not something i'm very good at.... in my own life or on paper.... digital paper.... #well im gonna go do a human study #study some styles i like study structure etc etc #nothing like being truly Unwell about something to push that artistic drive & improvement!

[burntblueberrywaffles]

23 for the drawing ask

23 on my spotify wrapped was... Push from the Barbie Movie! I just had to draw out the scene and immediately got WAY too into it and dropped everything to make this LOL

for how quickly I made it I think it turned out great :3

Spotify ask game!!!! tell me the number of the song and i will draw a silly little digital drawing (stick figures even) based on the name of the song or one of its lyrics !! please mention it's for the drawing ask game!

#took a little more than an hour #would have wanted to add color but I need to go to school today and i still havent eaten so better to stop here 😅 #might come back to this later though! #I thank you for the ask <3333 #ask game #ask tag #burntblueberrywaffles #jeida-chi #barbie 2023 #barbie #barbie movie #push #ken #barbie movie ken #art #barbie movie fanart #barbie fanart #ken fanart

[crimeronan]

i should probably clarify for the sake of being sensitive re my tags on the vid i just reblogged: some people do in fact get sad enough to kill themselves when they get caught doing bad things. i could be wrong in my assumption that somerton absolutely did not do that. i also don't really care whether he did or not because it's so unbelievably tacky to open an apology with "i don't want to make this a sob story, i was just so sad i tried to kill myself and everyone who has a parasocial relationship with me needs to feel bad/guilty/worried on my behalf, and everyone who doesn't have a parasocial relationship with me needs to feel bad/guilty/worried if they wanted to hold me accountable for anything. but i'm so sorry for making this a sob story! it's not like this is a prerecorded video that i have full editing control of or anything"

like.... i don't care if you actually were in the hospital or not. you chose to open your apology video with the most blatant and pathetic kind of emotional manipulation possible & i don't care for it. it's literally no one's problem except yours and your loved ones' if you were in the hospital. it's no one else's responsibility. certainly not the responsibility of the people you wronged.

people doing this shit brings out my lowest-empathy tendencies because it gets to my high-empathy friends and i've known too many people held hostage by their partners/friends/parents threatening suicide over the years, so whenever i see people being like "oh, he really does seem upset, though" i'm like.

listen. i know he looks sad in the video. i know he's saying he wants to be dead.

You Don't Have To Fuckin' Believe Him.

#it's all part of the grift it's all part of manipulating your audience for money. #whether he's actually been in the hospital or not. it shouldn't be part of his public statement afterward! #it's just. whenever i see someone crying really sadly and wetly to make people console them about something they did wrong #so they don't actually have to change their behavior or reflect on themselves or in this case.... stop making money... #i'm like oh alright. pushes up sleeves. are you trying to do this to people i care about? #because if you are then i am going to step between you. and i am going to be So Fucking Scary. #I Will Be So Scary. I Don't Have Many Berserk Buttons But This Is In Fact One #suicide #james somerton #i don't think most people here even give a fuck about whether he's suicidal it's just i know those tags might read like #'i think every suicidal person in the world is manipulating people for attention' or whatever #and that is not the vibe. james somerton who emotionally manipulates 83727749 youtube subscribers is an outlier- #i gotta go to bed. what a headache of a man. wow. #youtube drama

[widowshill]

r/v + loneliness.

102 / Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca, ch. 4 / 4 / 8 / Art Wallace, Shadows on the Wall / 603 / Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca, ch 4. / 473 / Richard Sherman, Demo: "Lovely, Lonely Man/Chitty Chitty Bang Bang Finale" / 2

#➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure，miss winters. #➤ edits & art. ┊ the evans cottage art gallery. #compilation tag #idk I have just been Thinking about this since that gifset lol. #‘I’ll blame it on you‚’ she says — because you are the one who has brought me here‚ she thinks #because she seems to anticipate even in their first meeting that she will play Eyre and he Rochester. #there had better be many more such tête-à-tête’s on the cliff side or she’ll be terribly disappointed ! #[and not only cliffside proselytizing: barging into her room at all hours‚ chasing her around town‚ dragging her bodily into the drawing #room‚ and‚ occasionally on a good day‚ an actual genuine date or a meal sometime.] #Roger has –– in theory –– everything that she wants. a family‚ a home‚ a wife and child‚ history and ancestry! boy does he have that! #and yet he is terribly terribly alone in this well he has poisoned. #(from which‚ I might add‚ vicki drinks greedily.) #''What do you want out of life?'' when he's already achieved (or so it appears on the outside) the midcentury blazon of success: #a family‚ a well-to-do office position at which he really does nothing‚ a succession of american-made sports cars. #he may be separated from his wife but together‚ he and elizbeth and david and carolyn form a mimetic image of the nuclear family. #to which vicki is desperate to grasp onto‚ even in its most nightmarish form‚ whether or not she realizes that's why she stays. #but what does he want? he wants the same thing she wants. love and companionship. (that he hasn't yet ruined. that he can't stop ruining.) #she may not precisely understand his type of loneliness but she knows about loneliness among people. she's lived it. #and she knows too about ... a visceral loneliness pushing you to push people even further away (as in the childhood story she tells david). #so she sees through his fronts a lot of the time‚ whether they be a layer of charm‚ or terror. and boy does he hate that. being seen for #something real. where his actions matter and produce consequences. where feeling is real – good or bad. #the little governess and her capacity to find shadows to throw light on! whether they be locked chambers in the basement or the atria.

[vulpinesaint]

mkay not to be like. a little insane or anything. but god i've been going crazy over religion (catholicism) and blood lately. did anyone else drink blood as worship every week since they were seven. was anyone else inundated with images of open wounds as holy. is anyone else consumed by the thought of holding onto a crucifix tightly enough for the edges of it to draw blood. i turned in a poem about drowning in communion wine in an empty church while bleeding from crucifix-inflicted hand wounds and trying to talk to god and my creative writing professor gave me extremely normal critiques i feel like i'm losing my mind

#is ANYONE ELSE here. #also i made my poetry insta and i was gonna backpost but i think i might just sit and stare at it until april sfkghsd #it's me and my few hundred tumblr followers on my poetry acc. and the five thousand pornbots on this one ig #life is so. like. #i CONSTANTLY think that being raised catholic didn't do that much to me but obviously it did SOMETHING #you know what. yeah. cause i didn't end up with guilt over being queer but i did end up having my whole world view torn away from me #cause when god is the fundamental building block to everything... #my parents were extremely reasonable about things all things considered #but losing trust and faith in god is like having the bottom block pulled out of your little tower #and since i was fifteen i feel like i've been trying to either get it out fully without letting it all crumble #or trying to push it back without causing more damage #and the tower's never gonna be the same no matter what. you know. #i suck at self reflection so i never actually think about this stuff but dear god does it consume me #like no i did not end up with catholic guilt really. however being asked to examine yourself as a sinner at 7 will do things to you #HATE myself why am i still awake. so fucking upset i need to be up so early tomorrow skdjfgh #screaming and crying. anyway anyone else up thinking about catholicism and blood??? #valentine notes #catholic tag

[asjjohnson]

He lives in Amity Park. Just one of seventy thousand people making a living under the shield.

He makes a modest salary working at a garage. There's a handful of cars per day, coming in for oil changes or tune-ups, and the work is divided between him and two coworkers.

He considers himself to be pretty average. One face lost within a sea of thousands. Unnoticed and unmemorable.

He doesn't mind. He's a pretty bland person overall. He doesn't do much other than work, eat, watch whatever's showing on TV when he's at his small apartment, and sleep; and he doesn't feel he needs more from life than that.

He moved to Amity Park a few years ago, after wandering from place to place.

The ghost thing was new to him. He can't remember seeing a ghost until after moving here. And when the purpose of the shield was explained to him, he couldn't imagine ghosts beyond a vague idea. They were said to be slightly translucent and able to fly. And, in Amity Park, ghosts are just another part of their way of life. A normal sight to see. Especially Phantom.

Even now he can't build a clear mental image or description when it comes to ghosts. He never had a chance to really take one in.

Every time he sees Phantom, his mind goes blank, in pure terror.

Even on the other side of the shield, high in the sky 500 feet away, barely even close enough to make out the cape and suit, the ghost would cause him to freeze in place on the sidewalk, forgetting how to breathe while people push past him to continue on their way.

---

He's at the garage when the sirens come on. In an oil-stained jumpsuit, on his back beneath a car.

At first he's confused, cocking his head to listen, but someone yells that it's the shield.

He should've recognized the sound. There's a drill twice a year. Somewhat of a holiday. The entire town meets up in the shelters under the city. But the timing is off. Wrong month, wrong day, wrong time. For one thing, there is no work on Drill Day. So he didn't make the connection at first.

He puts his wrench down and follows the others out of the garage.

When he steps through the door, he sees Phantom in the distance, throwing parked cars, and he freezes as the others run.

It gets hard to breathe. He can't get enough air. His vision zeroes in on Phantom, the rest of the world vanishing. His heart pounds in his chest like it's trying to free itself. Phantom is coming nearer. He feels dizzy. His head is swimming. He... he has to sit... His knees hit the asphalt. His palms keep him from falling, his eyes never leave Phantom. The ghost comes nearer, casually, meanderingly, blasting random objects. As near as three businesses down. Two. Phantom turns and blows up the building across the street.

Phantom turns back around. Eyes focused overhead, at the garage building. A giddy-looking grin. Then the eyes drift downward.

They lock on him.

"What do we have here? A flea that forgot how to scurry away?"

He shudders at the sound of the voice. Trembles as Phantom floats nearer. He cringes on the ground, seeing his death mere feet away. Stares wide-eyed.

Phantom's grin fades, eyebrows furrowing as eyes study his face. Then, "You?" The eyes narrow, a sneer crossing the face. "I should have finished you."

He shrinks back as Phantom reaches for him. Squeezes his eyes tightly shut. Death. Death.

But instead, a strong hand grips his upper arm—and something seems to light up behind his eyes.

Memories flow through him like water.

A sister. Spinning on her heel with long orange hair flying, a superior, righteous expression as she says something.

Parents. Both wearing tight jumpsuits, excited, building a deadly weapon at the dinner table while asking about school.

Friends. One in black and one with glasses, putting a finger to their earpieces as they talk over each other making suggestions.

...Himself.

Tiredly brushing long black bangs out of his eyes as he reaches for a toothbrush. Lying on his back looking up at the stars. Observing a translucent, slightly glowing gloved hand, wiggling the fingers.

He exhales with a hiss. And snaps his eyes open to glare at Phantom. "You!" He jerks back, breaking Phantom's grip on his arm.

He was robbed of ten years of his life. Of who he is. He lived through ten years not realizing what was going on around him. Accepting the shield and the destruction as normal! And it was a part of himself doing all of this! Making the shield necessary! Out having a joyride at everyone's expense!

He's so angry. Furious.

He can feel his eyes light up for a split second, and a flash of green sparking in his palms. "I'll destroy you!"

He doesn't run for the emergency ecto-gun in the garage.

He lunges at Phantom with his bare hands, palms repeatedly trying to glow, sparking for only an instant at a time, like an igniter without fuel to back it up.

#danny phantom #dp #the ultimate enemy #dan phantom #dark danny #danny fenton #au #asj post #asj writing #I tried looking up what a panic attack feels like. I probably didn't write it very well though. But well I tried. #Hmm. It might be possible to interpret this ficlet more than one way. #rest of tags are ficlet spoilers #I'm still interested in the Tue 'human side doesn't die' possibility. #I'd always thought it was assumed that Dan killed his human side. But Vlad never said. Just said Dan did something pretty bad to him. #My 1st dp fic idea had an unconscious Danny. But I've been thinking about it again lately. I'm pushing the idea a little farther each time. #The idea here was that Danny's kinda an empty shell without much inside. Just going through life blankly and without memory. #He's a bg character. The only unique thing about him is that feeling of fear. #But when Dan touches him it creates a connection. So part of what was taken can return through that connection. #But there's a chance you could see the story as about a stranger who has some kind of skin-to-skin–contact mind-reading ability. #It could be someone other than Danny. Who takes Danny's memories from Dan. #...I didn't end the story early. I'd imagined the ending being him lighting like my computer's been doing and leaping for Dan. #(The computer had gotten better after awhile but after I reset/recovered it it's gotten bad again. #Last time I turned it on it took try after try after try. The power button light would only flash on for a split second. A blink. #Then after several tries the power button would flash on for slightly longer and I'd hear a part shift. Like a cutoff sentence like 'D—'. #the computer eventually came on though.) #I imagined more at the beginning and more at the end and more about the panicking. Just didn't think of the words to use. #The only reason he can punch at Dan at all is because of the residual power. It's like the Fenton Gauntlets that let humans touch ghosts. #Drill Day is like a fair. It's part practice part fun and part getting rid of old food supplies to get ready to restock. #People sometimes think Danny looks familiar but he gives a different name and shows no recognition. So he must just be a stranger. #'Danny died in the NB explosion right?' or 'That out-of-state billionaire adopted him.' or 'There'd been that Masters Mansion explosion.'

[companion-showdown]

Option 1 was suggested by @intodarknes

Option 2 was suggested by anonymous

The generic line up will be changed to include companions who have been specifically requested (their may be other changes depending on the tournament, for example option 1 would be a whole new line up, or including robots who don't wear clothes wouldn't make sense in a tournament judging fashion)

Lucie Miller will replace Josie Day (requested by @thenugking)

Hex Schofield will replace Sabalom Glitz (requested by @thenugking)

Alison Cheney will replace Kate Stewart (requested by anonyomous)

If you want to suggest a companion you'd like to join the general line up or just the line up to a specific tournament, either leave it in the notes of this post (or any really, but for the purposes of me being able fo find it easily it'd be nice if you left it here), or send me an ask. This includes anyone who I've swapped out, who you think should stay. I'm especially interested in almost / could have been companions, theres so many I'm sure I'll miss your favourite whenever we eventually get round to that tournament

If you'd like to suggest a tournament then similarly

You can find all suggested tournaments, my ideas, and requested companions under the tag #future tournament ideas

#at some point i'll have to draw the line on companion requests #but there's still enough tv companions i'm comfortable getting rid of #i don't know if there are any eu companions i've listed who i'd feel similarly about #so if there are any whose companion status is highly disputed that might also be a thing to let me know #heres the tag mentioned in the post #future tournament ideas #best fashion sense requires more work in set up #becuase i'd need more images for the graphics to properly demonstrate what we're judging #so if that wins it will take a lot longer for the tournament to start #tagging these polls #up next #from now on so they're easy to find if you miss it when its published #i am considering hottest companion as an option #so we'll see if it makes it on this poll next time #oh and current companions i'm happy to kick out to accomodate requests are #wilf. sara kingdom. chang lee. karvanista. mickey at a push. kamelion maybe. handles. adam mitchell. gillian and john who. katarina #at an absolute push romana i and ii could be listed together #these aren't necessarily in the order i'd get rid of them #i was just looking down the current bracket #i guess id also get rid of benton. yates. river. k9 #the line in the sand is if a tv companion is undisputed as a companion they're staying #those 4 are in the blurry middle where i definitely consider them a companion but their status is disputed by others #anyway ive talked too long in these tags #if any of those are must stays for you it might be worth letting me know so at minimum they move to the bottom of the list #the really important thing here is vote for the tournament you want to see next

[howdydopillar]

im so going to puke from all of this stress and anxieties im getting it’s not even funny

#im stressed out about school. im stressed out about my party. im stressed about trying to manage making posts on here. #im so… exhausted. #i might need to take a break. #NOT a long one!! i just need some time to get through the marking period of my school and my party AND THEN I’ll be back to posting on here #it’s been… putting me off from eating and drinking. it doesn’t feel good having all of this stress on me. #i know it’s not from being stressed out from being on tumblr but like… some small parts… it is. #but it’s largely school and my party. #it’s been making me more irritable towards some people irl and really anxious too… #i just need to time to push through those things #and less time centering around being online #because if i don’t get my mental health back together then i won’t be able to make any actual posts for myself or for you guys… #I’ll probably be back around November. Just. Don’t think I left you guys. Okay? #I’ll be reblogging some stuff but I’ll still be on break which means I won’t be around to posting stuff; to answering the inbox; #or to answering messages either. I hope you all understand I’m not avoiding you but that I’m trying to help fix a bump in the road for my #mental health. Thank you if you read these tags. I’ll see you guys in a bit. :) #(me reblogging stuff will be sent through my queue. that will be getting it’s own queue/break tag. you’ll see it when it happens or #when it gets added to the pinned post.)

[lilyliveredlittlerichboy]

idk how i can still be all oh im not disabled. when i am chronically fatigued all day every day

#i need a tag for my own rambles #chronic fatigue #i just have high standards of myself and a ridiculous ability to push through #ive been doing things tired for years and years #disability tag #other ppl around me know. others around me have been accounting for my neurodivergence and disability since before i was even dimly aware #of my neurodivergence and disability #people around me know. people who have met me for 10 seconds are like yeah youre an autistic disabled bean huh #and im over here like im so totally abled. im so functional i might as well be neurotypical #sigh

[ehlnofay]

I should try writing something to evoke the very specific atmosphere I experience when I play too much first person 3D video game and then have mental illness symptoms. it's extremely singular. worth attempting to portray

#whose hands are these? not mine!! #the scissors on the floor are shiny and i keep feeling like they should be interactible. #but everything in here is interactible because it is a REAL SPACE #with my REAL BODY in it #this kind of dissociation is not frequent for me and it is so fucking trippy. im chill about it but I'm also deeply freaked out #posting this into the void where nobody will read it because nothing exists outside the video game style cell of my room etc etc #but my CAT is in here. and he's FLUFFY. and he's REAL. PROBABLY. so take that #dear real people who i know intellectually might see this: IGNORE THIS POST. honestly dw I'm fine #im about to go to bed which will push the reset button on my brain and in the morning I will be #perhaps not fixed but not actively Like This #big improvement. #byebye see you #should i make a tag for this shit or something #fay exhibits symptoms on main #fuxking hell i swear to god the roll of tape on the floor is like. floating. clipping. why is it like that why didn't i just lay it flat #was i trying to squick myself out #ANYWAY