#me: doesnt get sleep for one night

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

why yes, voices in my head, i Will take a nap at 3 pm

#snzzzzzz snz snzzzzzzzzz #if anyone tells you you cant take a nap at the worst time of day #they are lying. cut them out of your life. you dont need that energy #ruin your day <3 nap in the afternoon <3 doesnt matter if you already had a full 12 hours of sleep <3 #getting cozy is an all day event #and babeyyyy im about to Snuggle In #without a blanket because its hot up here but yk #the one con of having a loft bed smh... heat rises.... #absolutely unprompted #hopefully i wake up before 10 pm! We Will See!!!! #at least im actually getting into bed this time instead of just laying on the floor #it fucked up my neck and back a lil too much last time so Mattress It Is #snz snzz snzzzzzzz eepy time #highschool me: no sleep ever. running on fumes always all the time #me now - unemployed and unenrolled: Sleeping Always #had a wild dream last night actually #it included an alien invasion / a timeloop (not mine) / building fire / endless museum labyrinth / the doctor & tardis for some reason #good times! very fun! #i vaguely remember there being a Horror element! my life was in danger! festive! #but it wasnt a death dream so yk. bonus! well. it wasnt to me #guy who lived the timeloop said we all died at least once so ig it was.... anyway! snzzz!

[todayisafridaynight]

yagami should get his back snapped in half like a toothpick if he wanna fuckin sleep on couches exclusively might as well be doin the same amount of damage

#snap chats #judgement posting real ??? <- hasnt played it yet #LISTEN MAYBE TOMORROW IDK #im thinkin to spend my morning on comms then in-between class time on judgement and then the rest of the night on comms #i may or may not be packed like a sardine... omg that reminds me of my train trip tho #the train system i was taking was kinda sketch on the lowest of keys but it was so funny transferring trains #cause the second train i had to take there was An Atom of room left and thankfully i have the body mass of a paper bag #so i just slipped in but then i was just fucking smooshed against the wall. it was hillarious #oh yeah. 'snap why are yo making this very specific post' because i didnt realize the benefits of sleeping on a bed #all summer when i was at my moms i slept on a couch in our basement since. #i refuse to sleep on the same floor as her at this point LMAO she dont make me feel safe in there #so yeah i just did That for three months and ive obvi been sleepin on a bed since going back to school #and dawg while i was over there for the weekend i only slept on a couch Again #the added benefit to sleeping on the couch is my dog is more likely to sleep near me.. hehe.. #OH BUT YEAH NOW MY BACK HURT. ive never experience back pain like this before.. #maybe the couch i was sleeping on sucked idk. the one i was sleeping on's cushions get pushed out real easy #my usual couch doesnt but... dog...... dog likes the other couch more lowkey.... #anyways Get Yagami A Bed 2024

[tillman]

Learned today everything I thought I was reading way too into the assassins guild is all literally real and fully canon and fully intentional and so much more fucked than I ever thought has me still reeling. Im still so insane over this.

#GOOD NIGHT OF KNIVES TRANSLATION SAVE ME. #txt #I literally can not emphasize what learning how Horrifically Sad and Lonely zato one is did to my understanding of the guild as a while #he feels abandoned and hurt by slayer leaving. #his need for power and need to control every aspect of millia and venoms lives is directly tied to that. #he hates millia not for getting him locked away. but for Abandoning him. he was Left. #he cant sleep despite sleeping pills and other shit without holding onto her. #eddie cant die without being in her arms. #oh my fucking god. #millia willingly accepting some of his abuse because at least during sex she can forget. #millia lashing out at zato in a moment of weakness asking if shes happy because shes Not #because happiness to her is freedom. and he knows he is the reason she doesnt have that. #him just Accepting her Dream is to never see his dream ever come to fruition. #also like #venoms jealousy of millias abuse makes complete sense w this. #and of course millia would laud it over him. hes an ass. #god I literally havent stopped thinking about this since I read the wip. I cant. its so. #I cant fucking believe Assassins Guild is a narrative about how cycles of abuse and violence are perpetrated. #and how freedom from the cycle of your father and his father before him is Happiness. #THATS REAL. THATS NOT MADE UP. ITS REAL. god. holy fuck.

[mossflower]

loki season two has me screaming crying throwing up trying not to get dragged back into the mcu trenches

#i am stronger than this. i am better than this!! #by the trenches i mean consuming fanfiction at an unhealthy rate. fourteen year old me was insane i think i was on ao3 more than i slept #that’s not exaggeration. i was getting four hours of sleep on school nights and frequently went to bed at 5am on weekends #it is ONE good story. one. literally not worth it. i don’t even care about ninety percent of the mcu characters #i will ignore the little voice in my head reminding of the sheer amount of fanfiction. this was my pre-tumblr days #so my fandom interaction was like. youtube and ao3. maybe instagram posts sometimes. it was so much fun like. zero drama zero discourse #i was honestly living my best life. got less interested when i joined tumblr and went full doctor who mode #and after endgame i watched i think wandavision and loki and that was it. just didnt care anymore lol #i know exactly why this is happening tho. currently the thing i am insane about is my own damn project. which i am in the process of writin #for obvious reasons no fandom there. bc it lives in my mind twenty four fucking seven #i do wonder if i’m kind of growing away from fandom anyway? the closest i’ve got since toh ended was homestuck tbh #i want to feel obsessed with something again!! everything i’m into now - tma tlt and the like - i love them #but it doesnt hit like it used to. i don’t know it’s hard to explain #like video essays that i would have loved a few years ago!! the hour long ones about representation and queer media #they just irritate me now! i got halfway through one last week and had to bail i just could not care less #how did 2020 social media have me convinced that x character being gay was super important politically economically socially etc #ofc the answer is that i was a baby lesbian getting even less social interaction than normal #like representation is important obviously but also. sometimes it was not that deep #i don’t know if i’m making sense tbh but you get my drift #morganposting

[parasitic-saint]

wasting a whole week by sleeping is making me want to cry

#the parasite talks #i'm still able to do my work in a hurry but my godddddddd #this is getting so sad #i know my friends love me but i feel like such a burden and such a bore when im always like this #please i just need my 30°C spring and horrible solar rays #i still cant wake up before 12pm on those days but i am awake more at night at least #rn i will have to force staying awake #maybe energy drinks might help idk anymore #coffee doesnt really help but maybe the caffeine in those might jumpstart me #i just need to get my horrible life in order again and stop thinking how easier it will be to just kill myself #i know spring might not fix me but at least it will be a big help not having these cold temperatures (which arent really cold anyways) #but i hate anything below 25°C #i feel like that scen where will graham is crying and shaking before hving the seizure that's me but i dont have a seizure and i dont... #...look pretty im just depressed #and i am the only one who has to take my sorry ass out of this #and i know the big amount of priviledge i have to just be depressed and sleeping for a whole week in my bed without a worry and just feelin #miserable for myself and i wont be a danger to myself do it's just a spoiled brat's shit

[batfamhyperfixation]

Tim jokingly sends Bernard:

Basically every night, but one night, he forgets to, and at first Bernard doesn't think much of it, but he still texts Tim anyway because they always talk before bed and say goodnight to one another, but cause Tim silenced his phone during patrol, he doesn't answer so Bernard slowly starts freaking out. After a few hours of spiraling and no replys from Tim, he goes to the manor and sneaks in cause it's past Tim's 'allowed to have people over curfew' and when Tim isn't there (cause Tim is patrolling as Red Robin, hence the curfew), Bernard goes into full panic mode, and he finds Red Robin on the street and Tim, obviously worried about Bernard, asks what is wrong and Tim doesn't know whether to laugh at how funny the situation is (and how paranoid his boyfriend is) or cry over how much Bernard cares for him, and so Tim is like "of course I'll help you, let's not get dramatic, I am sure he is not dead, oh, I'm sure he's okay, probably even closer than you think" and now he can't take out his phone cause Bernard will recognize it, and they won't actually find Tim cause Red Robin is Tim, and so they just go on an adventure all night and by the end of the night, Tim finally tells Bernard, and Bernard doesn't know whether to break up with him because he saw Bernard going through panic attacks and freaking out and he still didn't say anything, or if he should hug him and tell him how he's so glad he's okay, or if he should bombard him with questions about superheros, supervillains, and the like. He settles for a hug, a free pass for something major, and a discussion on a rooftop over 24 hour minimart coffee (that tim had to pay for).

#tim: so you broke into my house without being caught #tim: my house that is protected heavily as we are both super rich and heroes so we have it everything from security alarmed to boobytrapped #bernard: oh it wasnt too hard; i know your family is targeted a lot and i also know if you were taken there would be traps to trip me up #so once you anticipate for it it is a breeze to get it #Tim: i think you will have to show me one night when i actually am home; you know obviously for safety reasons so we know weak spots #when alfred and bruce go to wake up tim one morning and find him cuddling with bernard they do a full interrogation #and when they find out how easy Bernard bypassed everything without help they have him test the new traps and security systems every time #and if he can get through it without trouble then his reward is he gets to sleep over (but the door has to remain open and they will get #checked on by Alfred throughout the night) #but Bernard gets through without trouble every time and they even think its Tim giving him insider information but they find out it is #just because Bernard 'conspiracy theorist' Dowd is prepared for everything #and so they literally get to spend every two weeks watching movies and hanging out all night just cause no security can stop Bernard #bruce had to move it to only weekends so Tim wouldnt be staying up all night on school nights watching movies with Bernard #he usually doesnt even see Bernard bypass security he just walks in 5 minutes later to find Bernard and Tim sitting on the couch together #tim drake #bernard dowd #timbern #timber

[dailyeca]

i don't have to say it, do i? it'll get repetitive.

#eca orichird #daily eca #hey im queuing this the night before. i feel too sad to sleep. i think its probably a mood swing. #i always have my worst nights before my cycle starts u-u alas. #im keeping too much to myself. i hold so many secrets. i wish i could get them off my chest but i don't want to tell anyone anything. #catharsis without the reveal. the need to talk and have someone who is no one listen. #the statue and her creation. talking and unsure if theyre listening. someone who doesnt exist but can hear. #if you have the ability to read this; you are not this hypothetical person. #please don't talk to me about this. i don't have anything to say to you. </3 thank you.

[frecklystars]

oh my god i love being triggered at 3:29am on a monday ten minutes after jolting awake from a horrific nightmare

#ive been either not sleeping at all. or sleeping for only 2 hours a night #for several nights in a row and i can feel it making my body deteriorate #my chest hurts. my eyes burn. im always lightheaded. i really hate living like this #im never going to recover man it just doesnt stop. this never ends #its been over a year i thought this would be so far away from me but it just gets fucking worse #i remember sitting on my bathroom floor and crying when my ptsd was starting #and i was telling myself. one year from now this isnt going to hurt as bad #i was so fucking wrong. it got worse. i cant look at *anything* TF related #i cant look at TF artists i cant even look at the word half the time #i wish it didnt exist i wish i never ever got into it. none of this was worth it #if i never got into it i never would have met my abuser and she wouldnt have used me for such a long ass time #vent #delete later

[databent]

[pained wailing emoji]

#.pdf #rd #THE REST OF THIS IS JSUT ME WHINING. FEEL FREE TO IGNORE #i dont wanna go to work ‼️‼️‼️ i feel like i am nearing a breaking point i am sofucking burnt out #every time i go to work. my brain gets Scary at me. stresses me out. dont like it ☹️ #im supposedto be going in tonigjt but im dreading it sososo much #my work hour options have changed from “fully flexible” to “7am-9pm only” whcih yeah i know that doesnt sound that bad. but i have non-24 #(circadian rhythm disorder that makes me sleep progressively later every day circling fully around the clock over ~3 weeks or so) #and bcos of it often i have to force myself out of bed in what my body thinks may as well be the middle of the night just to get to work #and then i dont ever get enough time to recover from that to actually let my sleep fall back into its natural schedule wjich is the only #time i feel properly rested. so essentially im chronically sleep deprived which is making me chronically stressed and way less productive #i just reslly really want to fucking save up a little money and just Not work for a week or two. bjt. with my sleep bullshit i cant really #work enough to be able to put anything aside. at all #so. kind of an unrealistic desire i guess. lol #ive been feeling like this ever since like early january when i was told i ahve to stick to a more normal schedule. & its only getting worse #idont know i just wishthere was something i could do that was fully flexible on timing but also doesnt havw the kind of workload that would- #-stress me out like basically anything with longer-term projects so ykmow Most flexible schedule jobs. #i do have one thing in mind i could do on my own but its dumb and probably wouldnt make much money and has startup costs i cant afford rn..

[bisexualgenderclown]

listen i love GtN to bits but the thing that makes me want to knife-fight literally everyone involved in the making of that book is that we get ZERO chapters between “One Flesh One End. Say it, loser” and the Cytherea/Ianthe Situation exploding and I just wanted them to hang out as not-enemies for a bit OKAY

#i get that this was on purpose BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN I HAVE TO BE HAPPY WITH IT #the frustration from this was what propelled me to push through all ofHtN in one night and GUESS WHAT #STILL NO GRIDDLEHARK HANGOUT TIME #IN FACT THE MECHANICS HAVE CHANGED SO THAT THEY CANT BE PRESENT AT THE SAME TIME #so i get no sleep and push through NtN into the early morning right #and then the kiriona shenanigans happen and im SO EXCITED FOR A BIT #but then right when everything lines up for them to just like #play wii sports together or whatnot #guess what MORE PLOT #tamsyn muir you better put a chapter of gideon and harrow making canneloni together in AtN #or I will live in grief forever #pal and cam got to hang out too so its only fair right #anyway rant over thank you and good night #griddlehark #gideon the ninth #gideon nav #gideon the ninth spoilers #harrowhark nonagesimus #tlt #tlt spoilers #the locked tomb

[the-jam-to-the-unicorn]

Well, i have read the sample from Shusters book and what can i say. Now i get what the other anon was saying. Just from two chapters it’s already clear that Shuster is trying to paint Ze like some applause dependent dictator, who doesn’t give a fuck and his kids and wife(As Shuster wrote «Puts his work above everything else»🤡🤡)

Interesting, what you can say about that book because i’m already disappointed…

.

#thanks for the review / opinion anon #yeah i am also afraid the anon is going to be right about the book #i read through the first chapters and ... yikes #very very big yikes #the book is not bad #the book is bad bad bad #and yeah he tries to write a fair and balanced biography about ze but hes very clearly trying to portray him in a bad light #turning all the good character traits into bad ones and somehow there is also an undertone that ze is actually a bad person #the puts his work above everything else is still wild to me #because this is about the man who would not sleep and travel the whole night to bring his daughter on september 1 to school #who made sure his wife and kids to travel with him to jobs whenever possible two just name two things #not to mention all the wrong facts i already stumbled over which is embarrasing for shuster #or stating things without context or explanations so it gives a totally wrong picture #also the very...irritating handling of the sources that sometimes give the impression youre reading shuster fanfiction #which i wouldnt rule out #i wouldnt be surprised to learn that he made up several parts because i really really doubt certain things were said #which would also explain why for certain things he doesnt have direct quotes and just writes something what he thinks feels interpretates.. #also some of the sources are just a no #and denys really contributed all the private pics to the book like buddy get lost ze and olena are not your cash cow #i also get strong sean penn vibes #nothing against sean penn but you all remeber his documentary “about ze” that was basically just about him? #yeah shuster is the same just with his book #like oh my god I was the one who was allowed to talk to zelenskyy and I was in the bunker and I visited him 2019 and I and I and I and I an #buddy youre not the special snowflake you think you are #literally lots of other journalists also had access to ze #there are journalists who had way closer access to him #you had shit so stay fucking humble #youre not a best friend youre not a family member youre not part of the inner circle youre not someone who has a close or special bond #youre just some journalist #“love” how he is sometimes just paraphrasing interviews (his or from other journalists)

[toytulini]

god i really went THREE FUCKING YRS without getting sick i was being so goddamn careful but then my parents got smth and foolish me, didnt step up the level of precaution i was taking around them, and lo and behold, im almost definitely sick

#toy txt post #grumping #AS SOON AS I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK AND DONT HAVE ANYMORE DAYS OFF TOO. GOD. I GUESS ILL FUCKING ASK TOMORROW #IF THEY WANT ME THERE OR NOT. obviously i will be wearing a mask. just. augh #the annoying part is i WAS taking precautions around my parents. wearing a mask around them. etc. #but foolish me let my door be open cos the room is a little warm. so their air conditioner just blasted all their Sick Air right into my #fucking bedroom ig. i have a hepa filter running all the time but it wasnt enough ig #and like. you know. at night when they were in bed id dare to be unmasked outside my room. my mistake ig #i ate food they made. i was wearing a mask around them but not the best mask i couldve cos that one does hurt my nose after awhile #i was wearing a mask around them but i wasnt likiting contact as much as i shouldve. they kept opening my door and coming into my room #before id gotten up so i couldnt get a mask on in time. etc. see. all on me i shouldve known better/s #idk. just. frustrated. i try to take my silly little precautions in a way that not fucking obtrusive to them #cos god forbid. god forbid i ask them to like. idk. wear a mask if theyre going to come in my room while Actively Sick. #or like. not be All Over The House Coughing. idk. fucking whatever. im the unreasonable one i know. my symptoms are not currently that bad #dont know if its covid #doesnt feel worth bothering to do a rapid test cos i keep hearing theyre not picking up new strains anyway and who fucking knows #idk! #i should try to get a little more sleep ig #feels like ill be okay im just fucking. mad

[bookworm-2692]

I gotta say the tags you left on that reblog on why you followed me are by far one of the best collections of tags I've ever gotten. but you've awakened my curiosity. What was the Twitch chat that started this? What did I say???? I'M SO CURIOUS BECAUSE BOY HOWDY I'VE SAID SOME INTERESTING THINGS-

I couldn't remember exactly, so I went back and searched Discord for images I sent and apparently it was just a super tame message.

The thing that made it significant, however, was the fact that I had never heard the Diggy Diggy Hole song before this year... despite having watched minecraft youtube videos since 2012. Somehow I missed that. A month or two ago I mentioned something from a different Impulse stream about diggy diggy and my friend @bibliobasilisk forced me to watch several iterations of the song (which I'm grateful for. It's a bop. As you would know).

So anyway I sent that screenshot to her like "hey look someone in chat said this" because i thought it was hilarious and then I was like "also I recognise their name from tumblr. unrelatedly". And then she was like "ah swedish tumblr, just looked them up" and then, being half swedish myself, I got hella excited:

And then I proceeded to scroll on your tumblr for like 20 minutes before unpausing the Impulse vod to continue watching. And I've been following you ever since then.

So a combination of me recognising your name, and my friend sussing out that you're Swedish (and the fact that diggy diggy is still relatively new to me) and bam. I'm here now.

Also in looking for that screenshot, it turns out that I screenshotted a second message of yours from a different stream:

Because Hermitgang my beloved

#hermitcraft #ask #anyway i can literally never watch impulse's streams live because theyre either 2am-5am or 3am-6am in my timezone (depending on daylight #on daylight savings time) but for sweden it'd instead be 6pm-9pm or 5pm-8pm i believe? if im converting correctly #which is like. prime stream watching time #end of the day. relaxing at home #so yeah i have to settle for just watching the vods later so youll never see me in chat #unless he's doing an afternoon stream which then is like regular morning for me #and only if its a non work day for me #also i dont even get the benefit of australian time for when the aussie streams. pearl starts her streams at 11pm which is far too late #ignore the fact that its almost 1am now #i mean it did help when i scrolled through your tumblr to discover your guys were also like impulse and co #and not some of the guys i care less about #anyway. yeah thats it #also those discord messages show it hasnt even been a month lmao #its been like 27 days #bc anzac day was the tuesday and today is monday so its one less day than four weeks #wait no its still sunday night. my computer tricked me into thinking it was monday #just bc its after midnight doesnt mean its monday. monday happens tomorrow aka i need to sleep first #also i just need to actually sleep anyway. on account of the 'its after midnight rn' thing #i was about to go to bed but then i saw your ask and knew i had to answer straight away #the anon who is talking about season 7: sorry you have to wait another day for your response #non anons take priority #which is a rule ive made up just now bc this is the first time ive had an anon and a non anon at the same time lmao

[toastsnaffler]

fridayyyy....

#extremely specific thing is very funny to me but too complicated to explain and no one else would get it but. LMAOOO #cant belieeeve its already friday.. i go back to work in 4 days 😔 #AND 2 of those im gonna have to travel + do chores so really i only have one day of holiday this entire break. sighs #i have a mile long list of things to do once im home and half of them are gonna be so awkward to fit around work #but whatever. everything will work out somehow. man ill be glad to be back in my own bed tho #tiiiired.. ive been sleeping kinda badly at my dads bc theres a lamppost right outside my window so it doesnt get dark enough #but just one more night ill survive #it has been nice to see him + my mum at least. i just wish work would give me a second holiday just for me... ah well #.diaries #please dont let the trains be terrible tmr 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 i just wanna get hoooommmeeee

[lunar-fey]

:( i was so close to finally getting my sleep schedule fixed but for some reason my alarm didnt fucking go off so i slept a full 8 hours instead of taking a 3 hour nap. i was supposed to to to bed in like. 5 hours. not gonna happen now 😔

#this is genuinely upsetting ive been trying for a MONTH now to readjust things so im not sleeping #during the entirety of the day #bc i like have Important Shit To Do #but i simply cannot stay awake when the sun is out and i simply cannot sleep when it is dark. just end me #like genuinely about to cry. ive been needing to call the fucking office about my work program #bc they forgot to . im acruwllt too upset to words right now. but theh forgot to “something” and ive #been trying to call them for WEEKS #but no matter how many alarms i set my ass is UNCONSCIOUSS for all of their business hours. #im so fucking sick of it i was sleeping just fine at night just two months ago. #but i physically cannot stay awake for a full 16 hours #so i keep taking a nap when i mean to sleep - just sleeping like an hour and then being physically unable to sleep more #and then when i try to take a nap i just sleep for 6-8 hours no matter how many alarms i have set. #i THINK the problem is im able to turn off my alarm without waking up. #i have to solve a little puzzle to turn it off but that doesnt help :( #like it aint aeven entirelt about me bc i could sene thenoffice an email whenever. #but id prefer to do it during business hours cause i already sent one in the night and they never responded #but More Importantly #the animals keep not getting fed at all bc im asleep :(( #oh and Also my stomach is fucked #bc i wasnt expecting to sleep so long so i didnt eat beforehad..... now im so hingry i feel like im gonna hu #hurl*

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Can't sleep. Maybe I'll pull an all-nighter then go do an eight hour shift. Nothing could go wrong.

#remembering that stimulants make it hard to sleep #took a Vyvanse at noon #then drank two coffees #hmm i wonder why i cant sleep /s #on the bright side itll be the last shift at my current job #then im moving back to a much chiller job that doesnt make me want to stick my hands in the fryer #thank god. i couldnt take even one more day of this job #this next job is properly staffed which means i can get a lot more days off without it being a problem which is great #i remember there being days when id ask if i could leave early the next day #and theyd just say 'yeah. do you want to come in earlier so you still get hours?' and thatd be that #at this job i can just plug in my earbuds and make my food and im primarily alone and i love it #it makes me go a little crazy. being almost completely alone for 8+ hours a day. but whatevs #oh i used to work at this job and im going back to it. for context #i rarely encounter customers and i am so so so happy about that #a year in fast food reminded me that i hate people #in 1.5 years in this job (the new one) i dealt with like two bad customers #in my fast food job i had at least two bad customers per day #looking at an ideal future id only be there another year #then move in with my gf in a different area. get a better job. have a happier life with her #get a dog. have movie nights. make her dinner. come home and not be stressed so i can enjoy my time with her #help her with her college work. fall asleep with her every night. knit next to her while she plays video games #well this got very gay very quickly #i love her. i love you all. i hope you have the amazing lives you all deserve. i hope you find little things to fall in love with every day #i hope you find good music. i hope you see a cute animal today. and i hope you feel so so loved. youre all so wonderful and dear to me #sleep well and sweet dreams ❤️