#he cant sleep despite sleeping pills and other shit without holding onto her.

[tillman]

Learned today everything I thought I was reading way too into the assassins guild is all literally real and fully canon and fully intentional and so much more fucked than I ever thought has me still reeling. Im still so insane over this.

#GOOD NIGHT OF KNIVES TRANSLATION SAVE ME. #txt #I literally can not emphasize what learning how Horrifically Sad and Lonely zato one is did to my understanding of the guild as a while #he feels abandoned and hurt by slayer leaving. #his need for power and need to control every aspect of millia and venoms lives is directly tied to that. #he hates millia not for getting him locked away. but for Abandoning him. he was Left. #he cant sleep despite sleeping pills and other shit without holding onto her. #eddie cant die without being in her arms. #oh my fucking god. #millia willingly accepting some of his abuse because at least during sex she can forget. #millia lashing out at zato in a moment of weakness asking if shes happy because shes Not #because happiness to her is freedom. and he knows he is the reason she doesnt have that. #him just Accepting her Dream is to never see his dream ever come to fruition. #also like #venoms jealousy of millias abuse makes complete sense w this. #and of course millia would laud it over him. hes an ass. #god I literally havent stopped thinking about this since I read the wip. I cant. its so. #I cant fucking believe Assassins Guild is a narrative about how cycles of abuse and violence are perpetrated. #and how freedom from the cycle of your father and his father before him is Happiness. #THATS REAL. THATS NOT MADE UP. ITS REAL. god. holy fuck.