#maybe it'll go another way

[distant--shadow]

some au form of dread that i'm sure makes a lot of sense out of context ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯

#imodna #imogen temult #laudna #critical role #bells hells #the context is that i'm a technophobe. #it's not quite a comic #it's a series of images #maybe i'll get there #maybe it'll go another way #*slaps car roof* au's can be so self indulgent #oh look - a background! (derogatory) #browz au #form of dread

[ruporas]

invisible scars (referenced previous talk here)

[ID: A colourless, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood talking about Wolfwood's scars. They're both laying in bed and topless. Vash lays on top of Wolfwood, playing with the rosary around his neck. Then, Vash kisses a spot on Wolfwood's chest. Wolfwood asks, "What are you doing?" Vash smiles sadly, "You got shot here. In the last town we visited. You didn't even bother moving."

Vash props himself up over Wolfwood, who frowns slightly. Wolfwood is quiet for a moment before he says, "You remember that, huh?" Vash grabs Wolfwood's left wrist and brings it to his face. "And here." He kisses another spot there. "When you helped free the hostages from that robber..." Wolfwood dismissively says, looking away, "Was a lucky shot." Vash huffs, “Don’t brag. Jeez.”

Half of Wolfwood's expression is shown, eyes returning to Vash who is now sitting up, continuing to say, "And..." Vash goes on and kiss Wolfwood's right palm. "You got cut here, even though that girl was aiming at me." A moment from the past flashes, of Wolfwood grabbing a knife aimed at Vash, his hand bleeding.

At present, Vash moves down and puts another kiss on Wolfwood's right shoulder. "And here, from watching my back." Another memory flashes of Wolfwood and Vash back to back. Vash looks back as Wolfwood grins while holding Punisher, bleeding from multiple gunshots in his shoulder.

"And," Vash combs up Wolfwood's hair to reveal his forehead, "Here." A final memory shows Wolfwood with a regeneration vial in his mouth while getting shot on his temple. The next panel is framed in blood with Vash at the center, eyes wide and stunned in horror. The next panel is a closed up shot of Wolfwood's eye, locked on Vash's face.

Back to present, Vash’s head is bowed down as Wolfwood raises a hand to his nape and says, “Spikey.”

Wolfwood looks serious and frowns as he says, "We talked about this. Those were my decisions. They're not there anymore. Forget about them." Vash looks very sad before he smiles ruefully and says, "I still see them. All the time." He leans down so they touch foreheads. Wolfwood’s sorrowful expression can be seen as Vash says, "You protect so much. I could never forget what you've done to me. And many others..."

In the last image, they're drawn more cartoonishly. Wolfwood sweats and asks, "You don't actually remember every wound, right?" Vash points at a spot on his chest. "Kuroneko left a scratch here 7 times." Wolfwood, startled, says, "Why the hell are you keeping count—" End ID]

Credits for ID here and here

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #another scars comic for one of the vw week days!!!! frankly i think about their scars WAY too often . most notably wolfwood's because #it really symbolizes a lot for him imo bc for vash it's a history of all the people that's ever harmed him betrayed him and the trust he has #given to humanity despite it all. its a beautiful reflection of his character and then u look at ww and presumably #since we dont really see him half naked Ever (shame) and i mean. i guess technically its a hc -- i assume he wouldn't have any scars bc #of the regen potions (which is why he doesnt have his t scars btw the regen pot took them away :pensive:) #in a way its like washing his hands of blood. giving him the body of someone who might never been involved in a fight never held a gun #but he knows thats not true yet he cant really do anything about it anyway bc he's still just human. if he stops taking the regen pots #he can't press forward. so its just a rinse and repeat and growing accustomed to whats inflicted on him because he knows it'll go away at #the end of the day. he's human but he's also not he's far beyond what could be considered a normal human but he still just is. #mortal but also not immortal. idk. i overthink about it a lot GMSKGMDK frankly i dont think it matters THAT much in the context of trimax #but it means a lot to me somehow. also thinking about how no matter how many times ww kills he's never numb to the sensation of it. maybe #the adrenaline gets to him for the beginning half but ive been rereading like.. vol 3? and that entire fight for ww #u can slowly see him spiral as he keeps on going on. anyway anyway. i love ww #ruporas art

[all--and--more]

you know what, y'all kinda can't convince me that Eddie's NOT doing this on purpose. I'm not saying he wants to hurt Buck, but I'm definitely saying he wants Buck to feel some degree of jealousy... like, he heard Buck say Natalia "really saw him" and went "you know what, bitch? just you wait"

and I really respect him for that

#i'll even go as far as saying he's doing it to get ROMANTIC jealousy out of buck #like say eddie has figured out his feelings. but he couldnt say anything because buck was with nat #and he got himself another woman #so he stays quiet #but NOW that buck's single and his relationship might as well be over for all we know? #so he's trying to get BUCK to see him idk if that makes sense #MAYBE it'll backfire in the sense that eddie will think buck wants tommy and not him #maybe it'll work his way idk #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #911 abc

[thebirdandhersong]

well mark that down as situation 2938489 that I don't know how to handle

#i would love advice on this if y'all have any thoughts to share because i know what my parents think and im having trouble sorting it out #i love these three friends of mine but it is really draining to be around them now because all they will talk about is church drama #(re: our old church) and rehashing it all and being Outraged about the horrors etc etc #either that or being downright condescending about protestants/non denominations and acting like it's funny to talk like that all the time #i end up being more angry or resentful or exasperated at the end of our conversations than glad and at peace like i did before #(before all THIS ish happened and the three of them were like okay this is all we're going to talk about now) #i've tried to say in gentle ways (i am simply not capable of this kind of blunt confrontation) that maybe we should not be talking #so uncharitably towards other people especially behind their backs. like. yes bad things happened. we have to acknowledge that. #but continually making jokes and jibes at a priest's expense really rubs me the wrong way especially since i KNOW that he loves us #and in many ways was trying his best in the circumstances. and are we not supposed to be loving our neighbour #and is this not downright slander to keep going on this way esp since it goes on for HOURS at a time #anyway i don't know what to DO because if i keep chatting with them/meeting up with them conversation will be 90% this thing and i Hate It #but on the other hand i feel responsibility towards them because my godson's one of them and another is a friend who is a fairly recent #convert and if i leave them to stew in their own echo chamber i doubt it'll do them good #am i supposed to keep some distance? am i supposed to keep arguing whenever one of them says something unkind or inflammatory? #am i supposed to keep speaking up so that they hear a different perspective? am i supposed to run in the other direction for my own peace o #mind? anyway i am still thinking this over and it stresses me OUT #it used to be fun and life giving to be around these people and now it is so exhausting and seriously alarming in many ways

[altruistic-meme]

so i need 1600 words by tonight ;;;; oh boy;;;; wish me luck

#why do i always end up writing so much tho like once again #this is supposed to be like 50% done and im not actually anywhere near that :'))) #but it IS gonna be at least 5k #which isnt actually........ what eeds to happen... it SHOULD be 50% of whatever its gonna end up as.............. #but i have no idea what it'll end up as bc i can never predict that #so we're just gonna try and write fast and hard through dec-jan bc ill have more time off :'))))) #and try and get the story to a good point #i man i know what the ending will be but im trying to hit all of the scenes i wanna include ;;; #i think..... #maybe once we get through the beginning.... we can do a story of montage of shorter scenes??? #and then go back to another longer scene at the end ???????? #like 2-3 Long Establishing Scenes - #5-6 Short Connection Scenes - #2-3 Long Finale Scenes #???? #that #..... #that may work...... #ok so really what i need to do tonight is get through the opening introduction scenes #cus that'll at least get me to 1/3 the way done....... #it won't quite reach 50% cus that's be including some of the shorter scenes #but it'll be SOMETHING #ok #ok we can do this #i need to go back and write the first scene with Kevin #and then I'll need one with everyone....... #but we need to get a little bit more of just the one first.............. ok...... #I'm 1600 words or more. shouldnt be too big a problem..... #i ahould. move to my desk for more confortable sitting..... #shh ac

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30? #idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do. #i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count? #I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post. #why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags* #it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows. #where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one. #this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can. #which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone. #thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really... #...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

[inkedmyths]

Well. Those sure are Fest results, huh.

...Anyways, anyone know if we have Frostyfest next month—

#ink thinks #handshake vs fistbump vs hug #splatoon #splatfest #gotta say im not as bitter bc i'm always for a non-popular-vote win bc its nice to see that popular vote Doesn't Always Win #and also i wasn't super invested this fest but maaaaan i rlly thought that we were gonna get a win this time :( #at least frye got a win in the japan fest. everyone say thank u japan. #brooo and the way the dialogue they're going out of their way to cheer frye up 😭 my sweet baby doesn't deserve thissss #anyways. i was expecting big run next month but maybe it'll be another Winter Holidays 2 parter #Big Run and then Frosty Fest #god i hope they string up cute holiday lights for Big Run too bc it would be hilarious #jingle bells playing as sirens blare in the distance

[bunnihearted]

📓🖊🐰

#im scared #because i have one person in my life who i actually........ feel like trusting #i believe their words. i believe that they wouldnt lie to me #despite my extreme abandonment issues (i go thru the emotions of being left very very easily) — #i didnt freak out when they were quiet for a bit bc i *felt* like they're someone who wouldnt do that to me #not without words or saying anything at all to me #but im scared bc i love and care for them so much #what if i do smth wrong? what if i drive them away? what if i say smth bad or what if they find out smth they dont like abt me #i like them so much i cant even imagine not having them in my life in one way or another forever :((( #and i feel like a lot of my feelings abt this has to do w my avpd. so it's hard to explain #basically im just scared of letting ppl close bc that never ends well #but i love them sm i just cant... idk it's all so scary. idk how to put it into words actually :// #or maybe... maybe it'll just happen again #bc what if. what if they'll leave me too. i cant not think abt that or be scared abt it bc what it

[very-uncorrect]

I'm gonna die one day oh my god holy shit fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck there's no afterlife oh holy shit fuck help oh my god no no no no no

#tw death #sorry I'm having bad thoughts at night again #BUT HOLY FUCK I'M GONNA DIE ONE DAY I'M SO FUCKING SCARED BECAUSE THERE'LL BE NOTHING #IT'S FUCKING INEVITABLE FUCK #ahh im having a panic attack again god damnit #tw caps #if i had a different personality i would probably be seeking religion as a way to stop these damn panic attacks #but i don't have any faith in me at all #my brain is too science/logical focussed to believe in a god/gods #so I'll just have to deal with it ig #until it actually happens #or go to therapy at some point #if i can afford it #but god do i need it #this is my punishment for writing another chapter of a&tsp instead of sleeping #it's 00:43 rn #my cat's on me #I've got family guy the video game speedrun on tv #but i am mortal #I've been dealing with this for 3 years now ntw #since i was 14 #i remember i had a panic attack when watching squid game because #watching them drop like flies like that really got to me fsr #ig the msot comforting thing about it is that it'll literally happen to everyone ever #so no matter what happens I'm not alone in any way shape or form #sorry if it sounds morbid and maybe selfish that I'm comforting myself using the knowledge of the inevitable deaths of other people #but we are all equal in death ig #like that one quote #who said that

[tokyoteddywolf]

22 isn't very much at all, I think.

#5am rambles #anyways ignore this as per usual im just thinking in a post that i'll delete soon. i just worry and writing it helps. #you ever wonder when you'll “grow up'? and then realize youre not even fully grown? #that theres still more to learn in life and that the mistakes you make are just that? mistakes? #that you are still so very very young in a world that is so very very old? #im almost 23. barely a quarter of my lifespan. im still a child in a way- my brain not fully formed. #you ever wonder how many mistakes you can make before you figure something out? #I dont know much of anything really. that's the sad part. and the adults who were supposed to help me learn... didnt. #i was failed. and now im a failure. at almost not quite 23 years old. Maybe i wont be a failure in another few years. #i still have a while to go before I die. I'm not going to waste time thinking about it. im just going to try my best. #I have time. I can learn. Grace and patience are not endless but damn if i dont try to figure things out #first step though is meds and therapy tho. we're done with the pity party. some things you just have to accept are okay #cuz my whole life i was taught that being emotional is a weakness. its pathetic and stupid to be upset or angry about anything. #any time i wanted to show i was upset or angry i was 'wrong'. i was 'selfish' and 'dramatic' #so i suppressed and pretended i was fine. that i wasnt weak and pathetic. that i was good and not an annoyance or burden. #i am not weak. i am not pathetic. i am fine i am fine i am fine you dont need to worry about the inconvenience at your door. #sometimes the shame is so much that i cant look at myself or even think i deserve help. that therapy is for people with real problems. #that i feel like ill just be told im like this for attention or dramatics. that im such a disappointment and selfish too. #ive been a “problem” my whole life to the point i dunno if i CAN be fixed. that anxiety eats me alive every day. #therapy is supposed to give you methods to cope #i dunno if it'll work though. I forget my appointments a lot. i struggle to talk sometimes. i may be autistic but its hard to get diagnosed. #emotions are so hard to figure out.

[sensazioneultra]

fatphobia is always tiring like always always but when it comes from your own family it's like. extra exhausting. it hurts soo bad. you can't ever escape it

#like that one coworker who pokes fun at your relationship with food and it's obviously rooted in fatphobia? you'll just go home and he won't #be there it'll hurt for a bit but you'll live #but like beside super dangerous fatphobia (talking life or death shit like medical fatphobia) the one that does the most damage to me #is that coming from my own family.. it's just. you already put 43 conditions before the 'i love you' (that you don't ever say but anyway) #and then when i gained lots of weight that was... another one to add to the list #but maybe i'm not used to it yet idk it's been quite a few years atp but idk? #it just hasn't gotten easier to hear them call me ugly and fat (in a derogatory way) and make mean comments and shame me every other day #like! it hurts so bad! why do you think it's funny!!!!!!! #this doesn't include my mum bc (sadly) she understands what it's like to be shamed for being fat she wouldn't do it to me #not like in a purposefully mean way at least #tho she does do some insidious shit like always going 'there's this new EASY diet that TOTALLY works' or saying x health problem is probably #due to my weight etc #which like isn't good? doesn't help? still hurts me? but it's different bc i know it's not rooted in hating fat people/me being fat #it's more like her own shit she went thru that she doesn't want me to go thru too and like yeah it's fucked up but i get it more than #just outright saying i am disgusting for being fat lol #like mh both suck but at least you're not joking about the fact even if i didn't eat i would be fine cause i'm so fat haha #yeah. just. a lot. #there's no escaping it i think the only way would be to move the fuck out and that would also help with uh. the misgendering thinly veiled #homotransphobia abuse constantly having to put up w their fighting and sometimes fighting w them myself #and the ableism and and and and #basically this is lowkey hell like i've learned to live with it more or less but jesus it is extremely exhausting #i just want out i've wanted out for years but every day i get closer to losing it #there might be something potentially coming up but i have to wait til the end of the month to see if anything comes of it #we'll see.. i rly hope i can rent this place idc if it's small idc if it'll suck most of my paycheck and i'll have to ask for my mum's help #i just need to at least try and get away cause like. i get to august every year and my father is absolutely impossible to deal with #and i know my mum feels the same and i hate leaving her ajnd my brother too but like #at some point i have to think about myself cause god what use am i even to them when i'm a ghost of myself in this house #it's just shit for everyone plus if i really get to rent that place it's literally IN FRONT of my family's apartment i could still help out #but at least i wouldn't LIVE with them i wouldn't feel so fucking trapped #whatever. bad bad bad day physical pain wise too

[daz4i]

what is it about "being disabled means i can't do things that other people can" that parents refuse to understand

#what do you think I'm lying when i say I'm in too much pain to do something??! do you think I'm faking distress?? #i can't wait for them to go on their trip in 2 weeks so i can suffer with no constant criticism jesus fucking christ #i understand they're trying to get me to do things that will benefit me in the long run but i CAN'T so how's that gonna help!!!!!!! #like maybe instead of being mad that i can't do something help me out with it?? think of another easier way to do it?? fuck man idk #why do i need to be forced to lay in bed for 2 days from how much everything hurts bc they're trying to 'help' me #''if you keep doing it it'll get easier :)'' NO THE FUCK IT WON'T THIS IS WHY I HAVE LEGAL PERMANENT DISABILITY STATUS FROM THE GOVERNMENT #you've known me for 24 years you should be aware of what i can or can't do by now!!!!!! this shit isn't new!!!!!!! #vent #sorry. I'm angry and panicked and in pain #i kind of want to sleep. being conscious hurts rn. and only makes me panic more #but it'll fuck up my sleep schedule and therefore my meds schedule uuuuggghhhh

[fooltofancy]

Gotta ask about best boy Haurchefant and Ilya

IF WISHES WERE FISHES HONESTLY

anyway, most insufferable bros who also fuck energy, u know, the kind that makes everybody pick up their food and eat somewhere else lmao.

#actually thinking about them together very another one of those heehee.... wait oof experiences #ilya fully believes he's going to take the fall for nanamo's assassination like he's a kid and he's a kid who's still a mercenary #he's not anything to these people not really and when they DON'T just gasp and then nod sadly when accusations fly he's blindsided #still reeling frankly when minfilia brings the tunnel down so he can /live/ #WHAT'S HE SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THAT REVELATION esp when he's got to bury it so deep so that he doesnt just fuckin lose alphinaud #and then ishgard is hell but MAYBE just a little bit he's accepting that people care for him #and maybe he's starting the bury the mercenary a little bit because maybe here with these people it'll be safe to care #and then everything goes downhill from there lmao #ough #haurchefant also like. has his shit together way too much for ilya at this point like this boy is not even hangin on there are no threads #he just has an excellent poker face #xiv blogging #ch: ilya

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#somethings gotta give. bc the way i exist now is not sustainable. i mean. it is but like at what cost ya kno #i just want to clean my apartment and go to the dentist. thats all i want. and that makes me so sad #my mum texted me today like pls work on a xmas list and literally i dont want anything i just wanna clean my apartment #and like not hate everything i have to do on a regular basis. and to b able to concentrate and not be paralyzed by everything #which is to say i need to be medicated but that's just another thing on a growing list of things that needs to happen so like cool great #mayne itll be better once i start taking measures. it wont. i know it wont but maybe it'll at least b terrible in a different way #bc im tired of this way. and im pretty sure my boss thinks im having a breakdown and like shes not really wrong but its still annoying #i should also get tickets home for winter break. but the mental math i have to do to convince myself i can take time off is exhausting #i should probably go for like a full 2 weeks. and hope it heals me even tho none of the breaks ive had this year have healed me #just take 2 weeks and get a game on steam and just not do anything as i agonize over all my applications #and agonize over the fact i probably have to be here doing this for at least another 7 or 8 months #i should have left last year. ugh. i should have done a lot of things. i should b working on my manuscripts right now #or doing something productive. im just tired. and i dont want to meet with ppl tomorrow. i just wanna sleep #unrelated

[elytrafemme]

you know, i don’t consider myself a very jealous person. i grew up in an environment where envy was like a form of magic, and i learned from that, and i don’t try to envy people because part of me does see that as wicked. 

this being said, i would be a lot more successful at not being a jealous partner if i stopped getting put into fucking ambiguous sapphic polycule situations, how is this even probable at this point

#nightmare.personal #local girl thought too hard about the fact that her girlfriend & best friend (ex & ex-crush of current gf) are going to school #like a few streets apart from one another while i am going to school very far away #i've been thinking a lot though of ways to make me harder to get rid of #to like sink into people's lives as something they NEED y'know #and if i double down on that maybe it'll be fine but as it stands like #well. i don't know. for what it's worth i do think i'm a very necessary piece to keeping my friend group going #as a collective. but not in individual relationships. and that's part of the issue #also i realize this retroactively but i'm not christian this isn't a 7 deadly sins gig if you're curious #but iraqi culture is pretty big about envy. think most arabs would get me on this

[jasonsthunderthighs]

I was on the phone with Tobin, talkin' bout how my great uncle died and how at his (Tobin’s) funeral, BEFORE, he's goin to tell EVERYBODY that I'm GOIN to say “Well, there goes a real sack of crap!” AT the funeral and to NOT get mad when I do say that

His words, “Mel’s threatened to say ‘there goes a real sack of crap!’ at the funeral, so DON'T get mad when they do!”

Followed by, “Can you IMAGINE how mad everybody would get after you said that?”

He's 53 and STILL ‘members the time I told him when he was in his 30s that I WAS GOIN TO SAY THAT WHEN HE DIES AT HIS FUNERAL

Like holy shit, this is one of the moments you KNOW that we're related

#that's a reference from The Simpsons that we would say ALL the time cause we had no wifi and would watch DVDs of whatever we had #and we had A LOT of The Simpsons DVDs (not the newer ones or the first two seasons cause we didn't really like those early episodes) #it was also cause Marge was SO annoyin in the first two seasons and would ONLY do that grumble noise SO annoyingly for NO damn reason #but yea #this is still a thing that I WILL fuckin do 😂 #just WAIT till my twin gets up there after I say that #THAT'S when it'll be hilarious #we're so mean to each other in a funny way #but I also still have mixed feelings for him and that's why I'm literally goin to say that even if it does cause shit in the remainin family #he thinks that his older (by 12 YEARS) brother is goin to be there (somehow alive) when he dies and I'm just questionin if he's goin to die #early or somehow before his brother dies when his brother is 65 right now and if Tobin plans to die at the age of 70 when he's 82 then- #that's fuckin nuts and hilarious that he doesn't understand maths like that #cause I don't think my uncle (his brother) wants to live till he's 82 or even in his 80s #but he's got a good 15 years to go (cause he's also REALLY healthy and not in Bad shape at all like Tobin is cause of his poor choices) #and I don't think Tobin wants to live another 15 years to only croak at 68 cause THAT'S young to die at #so this whole ramble in the tags of maths in shit is just a conclusion that his brother is definitely not goin to be at his funeral to hear- #me say that and I won't get in trouble by HIM but MAYBE my aunt who's 6 years YOUNGER than Tobin #BUT I DO WHAT I WANT AUNT FITTY AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME FROM SAYIN THAT WHEN THE TIME COMES #sorry for the long ramble #ramble in the tags #I need to shut up #Shut up G #not DC #not DC related #personal #personal post