#many more than i did last year

[bixels]

While I do think anon was rude, I do think it's pretty shitty to set up all this stuff you were going to add the au and then just drop it. It's disappointing. Definitely unfollowing.

Bye.

#ask me #anon #once AGAIN. #I am not dropping anything #the au is not getting cancelled. more than likely i'm gonna take a break from it until i find motivation again #But I've been drawing the AU for half a fucking year #In that time I've only drawn 5 things that aren't mlp related #I'm getting tired and my last few posts didn't do as well as I'd hoped #And I'm not about to burn myself out on mlp au art even if I really do love making it #I'm still gonna make comics. I have a bunch of ideas. #Tulli and I still wanna do the limited run merch shop #Discord is still coming. Sunset is still coming. Sombra is still coming. I have so many ideas #But I need to do something else for my own sake. Did you know I was supposed to get the background 6 designs done by now #But I didn't because I'm TIRED #I've been keeping myself on a schedule to keep content pumping despite travel and school and family and I'm tired #what i'm getting isn't matching what i'm giving and that's nobody's fault. i'm not frustrated at anyone. a slump was bound to happen #drawing the au was fun until it become my Thing. Because when your Thing––your identity––starts to faulter #it can really make you freak out #And that's not healthy for the project or for myself. I need to find the fun again and I'm sure I will #I'm really appreciative of everyone's support in my inbox and replies it really does mean a lot especially given that about 2/3 of my #followers followed for mlp. But if you're gonna react to me saying “i'm gonna cool down on mlp art and draw my own stuff” with “i'm #disappointed in you." then Leave! I think it's good you're unfollowing #you are not obligated to stick by my side! But don't act like I'm doing you a disservice by turning my attention elsewhere #I didn't promise anyone anything and I definitely didn't say I'm breaking any promises.

[qcomicsy]

Do I find Damian incredible annoying? Yes Will I fight every single motherfucker who resumes his entire character to violent and 'bad'? Also Yes.

#I don't know how many times I'm going to repeat myself but this is a goddamn child soldier getting repeatedly traumatize #in a family that has so many chaos that he always feels the need to prove himself in the terms he was taught #i didn't give a fuck what Damian does thats the responsibility of his father until he actually becomes responsible to his actions #and dc comics literally bought him out of nowhere just to shit on him and then repeatedly try to get rid of him for no fucking reason #Damian goin off as a way of getting Batman emotional damage it's actually very stupid dc you tried the same shit with jason in this last #ten years and not even then anybody liked #few things makes me more unreasonable piss off than batman letting his kids get away from him and then act like they don't need him #he did te same shit with dick but at least dick had the titans #this whole shit with Damian is making me read with my eyes while my hands are dialing the cps #Batman come get your fucking children your useless middle age man #bruce hate hours #damian wayne #damian al ghul #damian al ghul wayne

[alsojnpie]

dishes are forever

#I MISSED HAVING A TABLET!!!! #ht papyrus #a gentle touch when you're sad #a menacing touch when it would be funny #he can do it all #LITTLE PRO TIP LIFE HACK THOUGH: IF WASHING DISHES MAKES YOU WANT TO LIVE ON A DIFFERENT PLANET #MAYBE YOU HAVE TOO MANY DANG DISHES #BEING IN A SITUATION WHERE I HAVE 80% FEWER DISHES THAN BEFORE MEANS I DO DISHES MORE OFTEN BUT IT'S SO EASY #AND NOT SOUL SUCKING AT ALL #JUST MY EXPERIENCE!!!!!! THAT'S ALL #I'm sure when i am reunited with my other dishes i will languish in bed staring at this psyching myself up to the task #but i like keeping random jars from food i bought and dishes that i picked up in different places. #they physically remind me of everywhere I've been and sometimes i just look at them and remember where I've been #my favorite is the old ratatouille jar i bought at carrefour in Chengdu #that jarred ratatouille was the nastiest food to grace this earth #i bought it in case it would make a quick easy meal (you don't really find those at the grocery store in China at least not back then) #but even my cheap lazy self couldn't eat it #so no one ever consumed that ratatouille but the jar was pretty big so i put other stuff in it and now it's my dish #and somehow the label is glued on PERMANENTLY it has never washed off after all these years #actually idk maybe it eventually did it isn't here for me to look at but it lasted a long time i know that

[no-light-left-on]

I often wonder about the quote-unquote logistics of Corvo the Black/Emily the Butcher endings. Emily makes more sense to me, in a way, carving her way through the empire only to come back with blood caked under her fingernails and realising that she did everything her father refused to do 15 years ago. but why did Corvo have a similar choice?

what happens to the statues later? does Emily keep her father trapped in stone? does Corvo look at his daughter, frozen in the moment and considers freeing her? is he at his deathbed when he finally reaches out and cups Emily's cheek, freeing her into a carcass of an empire that he gutted for her, in her name, in the name of her mother?

when I first heard of the endings I thought that if you reach very high chaos, you are locked into this choice - Corvo or Emily tries to free the other and the stone just doesn't budge. they are trapped. the quest is over but the world knows that the bloodshed was extreme and this is the punishment they have to face

#li.txt #dh #dishonored #kinda like the high chaos brigmore witches ending #there is no reason for corvo to kill daud if you finish BW in high chaos. but he still does. because the world Knows #but the very Active choice of the player and by extension the character to take the throne and keep their last family locked in stone.... #its certainly a choice. and it makes me wonder about many a thing #i really wish we got more info #karnaisbear mentioned that itd be cool if we got comics expanding on alternate endings and like arkane. arkane can we please get those #I just really wanna know What It Was Like to live under the rule of Emily or Corvo in the very high chaos endings #and the fact that it seems like they can still free the other person? that adds so much more angst and tension to it #is there a time limit? do years pass and does corvo grow old and weary and thinks that yes #he has done his job and he has done it well. and the empire is righted and he can hand it back to emily now #and he cups her cheek and it remains cold marble #and all he did was for nothing #and he cries #(can u tell ive been reading thru the corvo the black tag) #not to mention something similar to that but with emily!! #imagine she grows old! older than corvo was when he was frozen! #the century is coming to a close when she finally frees him and she is older so much older and corvo will have to live with losing her #in every single impossible way he has lost her #and then he gets to bury his daughter #these tags got so dark wtf

[wonder-worker]

I've been thinking about the tragedy of Elizabeth Woodville living to see the death of her family name.

I don't mean her family with her husband, which lived on through her daughter and grandson. I mean her own.

Her sisters died, one by one, many of them after 1485. When Elizabeth died, only Katherine was left, and she would die before the turn of the century as well.

All her brothers died, too. Lewis died in childhood. John was executed. Anthony was murdered. Lionel died suddenly in the peak of Richard's reign, unable to see his niece become queen. Edward perished at war. Richard died in grieving peace. For all the violence and judgement the family endured, it was "an accident of biology" that ended their line: none of the brothers left heirs, and the Woodville name was extinguished. We know the family was aware of this. We know they mourned it, too:

“Buy a bell to be a tenor at Grafton to the bells now there, for a remembrance of the last of my blood.”

Elizabeth lived through the deposition and death of her young sons, and lived to see the end of her own family name. It must have been such a haunting loss, on both sides.

#(the quote is by Richard Woodville in his deathbed will; he was the last of the Woodville brothers to die) #elizabeth woodville #woodvilles #my post #to be clear I am not arguing that the death of an English gentry family name is some kind of giant tragedy (it absolutely the fuck is not) #I'm trying to put it into perspective with regards to what Elizabeth may have felt because we know her family DID feel this way #writing this kinda reminded me of how I am just not fond at all about the way Elizabeth's experiences in 1483-85 are written about #and the way lots so many of the unprecedentedly horrifying aspects are overlooked or treated so casually: #the seizure and murder of two MINOR sons and the illegal execution of another; #her sheer vulnerability in every way compared to all her queenly predecessors; how she was harassed by 'dire threats' for months; #how she had 5 very young daughters with her to look after at the time (Bridget and Katherine were literally 3 and 4 years old); #how unprecedented Richard's treatment of her was: EW was the first queen of england to be officially declared an adulteress; #and the first and ONLY queen to be officially accused of witchcraft #(Joan of Navarre was accused of her treason; she was never explicitly accused of witchcraft on an official level like EW was) #the first crowned queen of england to have her marriage annulled; and the first queen to have her children officially bastardized #what former queens endured through rumors* were turned into horrifying realities for her. #(I'm not trying to downplay the nightmare of that but this was fundamentally on a different level altogether) #nor did Elizabeth get a trial or appeal to the church. like I cannot emphasize this enough: this was not normal for queens #and not normal for depositions. ultimately what Richard did *was* unprecedented #and of course let's not forget that Elizabeth had literally just been unexpectedly widowed like 20 days before everything happened #I really don't feel like any of this is emphasized as much as it should be? #apart from the horrifying death of her sons - but most modern books never call it murder they just write that they 'disappeared' #and emphasize that ACTUALLY we don't know what happened to them (this includes Arlene Okerlund) #rather than allowing her to have that grief (at the very least) #more time is spent dealing with accusations that she was a heartless bitch or inconsistent intriguer for making a deal with Richard instead #it also feels like a waste because there's a lot that can be analyzed about queenship and R3's usurpation if this is ever explored properly #anyway - it's kinda sad that even after Henry won and her daughter became queen EW didn't really get a break #her family kept dying one by one and the Woodville name was extinguished. and she lived to see it #it's kinda heartbreaking - it was such a dramatic rise and such a slow haunting fall #makes for a great story tho

[oreoambitions]

housemate: we should make zucchini bread me: should we... grow some zucchini housemate: ... buying it from the store *does* feel a little like cheating now, yeah

#we have a whole stardew valley deal going in the backyard #there are more than 100 crops growing back there #I have bought one (1) vegetable since March #I know so much about mildew now #ask me about the watering requirements for beans #did you know there are so many kinds of beans #did you know you can grow sunflowers year round in some places #did you know you can GROW YOUR OWN PUMPKINS #the kitchen windowsill is now an ICU for plant babies #I spent my whole day off last week reading about crop rotation #what is GOING ON HERE #we have ten kinds of strawberry!!!!! #oreo rambles

[starheirxero]

mermay is in 3 months...... so exciting.!!!

#xero says things #did u guys know that last year's mermay had so many dca x subnautica crossovers that i bought the actual game #like . no advertising had ever compelled me more than several subnuatica fanfics in a single month did SHAJSHJSD #AND TO BE FAIR #ITS A REALLY GOOD FUCKING GAME #LIKE ACTUALLY #I GOT EMOTIONAL OVER THE ENDING TOO ABAJSNWJD #but genuinely i hope there'll be more of that this year...... #like. dca /or/ tsams tbh #for the record tho lunar would be a ghost leviathan but yk whatevsies

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i’ve got the stuff *i shadily look around me and pull a container of neon pink hair dye from the depths of my very cute jacket and slide it across the counter and the cashier rings me up and says nothing because they’re not paid enough for this shit*

#getting my hair dyed tomorrow yippee #this pink glows under black lights :) #it’s very cool #i’ve never done my whole head w it i think last time i used it i did my undercut + roots and had the rest highlighter yellow #it was def a look #tho this time i will not be doing my undercut that shit is so annoying i haven’t done it in years #love pink it’s a great color i haven’t done it in a hot minute though #i’m cutting it close but i really need the color before the semester starts so i can go clown-mode before i lose the momentum #i was born to be a clown i was also born to have everyone look at my in awe because i look great and it’s hard w/o the colored hair #also i have a resting bitch face and the mask helps but the hair helps even more. when it’s bright people will like. actually talk to me #so many people ask me for directions. much more than when i didn’t dye my hair #i think the bright colors make people think i’m friendly which is nice #i’m not like. unfriendly i just kinda mind my own business unless i’m in the mood for mischief #in which case the color doesn’t help but who cares. i’m here to clown about and ignore my sorrows and the pink helps :)

[archiephd]

israel has spent the last 27 days not only slaughtering palestinians indiscriminately under the guise of justice for oct 7th but also using it as an excuse and opportunity to sieze even more palestinian territory while they're at it. they have already displaced more than 800 people since the 7th in the west bank alone. the world has given them permission to not only 'evacuate' gazans from places they should never have needed to be evacuated from in the first place but also kill every last person who remains behind until there's not a living soul left in northern gaza but israeli soldiers performing a ground assault. they will absolutely try to sieze control of these areas that have been decimated and anyone refusing to 'evacuate' further will be portrayed as religious radicals who hate jewish settlers so much they'd rather die in their homes than leave when israel gave them the chance.

#j.txt #free palestine #like i know it's genocide but it's truly from every angle #i don't even know what to day anymore #not that i ever even did!! there are no words #and i'm so angry that it's taken thousands. thousands thousands of palestinians being killed for me and the world to wake up #200 deaths by april of this year alone should have been more than enough #the fact that 200 palestinian deaths was already exceeding last years numbers should have been enough #so many people have been killed in unimaginable ways in unimaginable conditions preceeding and none if it is new #the only thing that's new is the scale

[chiropteracupola]

hello everybody look at the fact that I Sure Did write some stuff this year. stay tuned for the things that I will be writing in 2024.

#em writes stuff #since I last posted one of these I think we've added Two new columns (sharpe and kidnapped get their own now!) #themes we expect in 2024 include Fancy Dresses and Rotting Undeath and also your usual em cupola regular stuff #<- what is that? well I think you know better than I do #specifically I would like to finish at least one of the winter foth fics and the wormsfic and a kidnapped one next year. but We'll See. #never did I predict that the sharpe incident would happen to me nor flintlock fortress for that matter! but having Friends does help #since you get to Chat about the Stories! It's Hooray! many hands make light work!!! many chats make more fun!!!!!

[sodrippy]

so glad we all held out during the wga/sag strikes bc they got all their terms fully delivered and no other departments are seeing probably the biggest layoffs in the industry right now! yay!

#their reps now saying theyre fully in support of the iatse/etc negotiations coming up later this year is so funny too like #thanks. as if iatse did jackshit last time either 👍 #obviously i am still in support of the strikes its just like. so many people lost more than their livelihoods over it #and now we're facing the same and its so beyond fucked i feel like vfx and gaming are imploding right now #and sag/wga didnt even get all their terms met right? for what? #and sorry but taking a stance against enduring studio bs is all well and good but like #that statement about 'oh studios thought theyd bled us dry and we dont have the money to keep striking but we do' #who is WE exactly? bc so many writers have gone broke over this? where are their strike funds?

[honeyviscera]

actually to me girl math is multivariable calculus because im fucking good at math. im so tired of the tee hee girldinnergirlmath etc trend and before that i was tired of the 'im gay so i cant do math' little tagline how about we stop pretending any of this has anything to do with each other. how about we all shut up forever.

#i cant think of a better way to express this. #if youre bad at math how about you stop blaming it on like. your gender lmfao. #none of this has anything to do with intelligence and i really wish we stopped pretending it did #because it eventually loops back around to the misogynist in my engineering english class last year #who said women are inherently stupider than men are and thats why you dont see many women in engg #and that men are more 'scientifically minded' and women are more 'arts inclined' #like. you see how saying 'lol girl math blah blah blah' feeds into these misogynist ideals right. #like how about you shut up forever LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #ocean.mp3

[myriad--starlings]

googled to make sure and Bill Gothard IS STILL ALIVE oh my god imagine if I had died before him CRIIINGE that CANNOT happen I absolutely cannot be outlived by Bill Gothard do you hear me do you HEAR ME OK I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT

#local birb opens beak #i have to outlive that fucker #hopefully by many many many decades #considering he's almost 90 #but like #i did almost die more than once last year #so i will take any amount of time

[clowngremlin]

it's kind of like amazing what being properly medicated and like leaving ur house and doing things with other people and like being a part of ur community can do for ur mental health.....

#the wretched gremlin strikes again #like i went on the group outing for the mental health centre club house yesterday and i had group therapy today #and i go to events at the cinema and like the guys at the cinema know me by name #and the people at the pharmacy know me and always ask how i'm doing when i'm in there even when i'm not getting my prescriptions #and like i used to have pretty bad social anxiety and i've noticed since i was put on the zoloft my social anxiety is basically like gone #and like i talk to my neighbours and stuff when i'm out with my dad and the dog #it's kind of wild just how much better i'm doing now compared to like last year #also like i'm being given access to like resources #like the mental health centre club house can help me access housing support and like job support and other supports #like learning how to cook and other programs like the social things and the exercise program and music therapy and mindfulness programs!! #and like i actually have a case manager and psychiatrist #and i have regular appointments and i go to group therapy now too!!! #lots of people are like living in a small town sucks so bad #and like yeah there isn't too much to do here but i'm actually doing a lot better in a smaller town than i did in the city #in the city like i was not given any kind of resources or support because there's so many people who also need it #and there's only so many resources available and often times i'm not considered someone who should get resources #because there were people who were worse off than me and considered people who needed it more than i did #idk it's just nice that i'm actually getting help instead of falling through the cracks like i normally would #and it's nice to be doing better

[royallyprincesslilly]

#😳 #Who saw it coming? #Who is surprised? #Who is pissed? #Who is saying good for him? #Who else is wondering what major faux pas they did to have this move even pop up on the bingo card? #Has someone checked on Lew? #Has someone sent therapists to T #Has G been checked on? #I wanna know what his laat straw was #Is this even def confirmed? #Was it the team? #Was it the car? #Is T retiring and he wants to jump ship because he knows the direction things will turn without him? #Or just trying something different for what may be the last decade of his desire to race? #very interesting #I doubt it was money #Man has more than he knows what to do with lol #Also doubt it was a spur of the moment thing he has probably thought this over for months if not a year #So many theories #My sick ass can't even think straight #Is it a proven fact that we become mentally slower while sick? #Ive done and said some really slow shit the last near 2 weeks and I refuse to blame it on anything else but sickness #Like I really feel dumb #My agent asked me when to expect the edits we discussed and me with my whole chest said I guess you can expect them when you see my email 😮 #My 16 year old forgot what a synonym was my ass said a spice 🤦🏽‍♀️ #Wtf #send help #lewis hamilton

[fictionadventurer]

Home Improvement is interesting (at least in early seasons--I can't speak to later ones) because it's one of those stereotypical sitcom marriages where the husband is a meathead who makes colossal mistakes all the time, but in this case, you understand why these two stay married to each other. They have fun together! They make each other laugh! They're both very flawed people (Tim moreso, of course) but they can laugh at each other and at themselves. You get the sense that those differences and flaws are part of the reason they like each other. Sure, they fight about the Gender War Issue of the Week, but you can believe that they can fight and make up so often because their relationship is strong enough to weather it. It's just interesting to me, because I didn't expect that to be a Cheesy '90s Family Sitcom thing that held up well.

#home improvement #another case of me rambling to tumblr because who else am i going to tell? #this show was my childhood #i watched it every morning of summer vacation for years #much of it has not aged well #(why are there so many stupid puns?) #but i happened to catch an episode the other night #with very little plot #and it was mostly tim and jill bantering back and forth about tim's tool habits #combined with the father-son stuff it was extremely charming the whole way through #and it keeps coming to mind because i did not expect to enjoy it so much #also i'll never get over that time jill's actress guested on last man standing #his chemistry with her character was a zillion times more natural than his dynamic with his tv wife from that show #i'm not one to notice chemistry too much but it was obvious that one tv marriage had a lot more of it #anyway there's my basic family sitcom ramble #judge me as you may