#mandelacataloguekin

[alternate-cesar]

Perpetrator.

(A Wikipedia poem on the inescapable nature of houses and guilt, and also being fictionkin)

wikipedia articles used:

agoraphobia suspect remorse house automatism (law) need predestination angel

all of these were screenshotted on 10/28/23 or 10/29/23.

#wikipedia poem #fictionkin #otherkin #alternatecesarfictionkin #mandelacataloguekin #my stuff #kinda nervous to post this ngl but fuck it we ball!!!

[fictionkinfessions]

Funnily enough, being an alternate (TMC) helps me with my anxiety!

No need to worry about being attacked by some spooky creature in the night when you ARE the spooky creature!

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[fictionkinfessions]

just saw a take that was essentially saying that the reason you can't ship tmc characters together is.. because they are the actors? like, they're one in the same? and that's hilarious because, no. you know what this sounds like? "darkiplier is the same as markiplier and if you kin him you're factkin"

I'm sorry but adam is not ty. ty is not a demon. he cannot shapeshift. just like markiplier is not a demon, and doesn't glow a red and blue hue.

my point? I want to know why we can't ship these characters when it's literally no different from shipping from movies, tv shows, books, etc. I understand how the cast feels, and I have an extremely hard time believing that it's not rooted in homophobia, especially from kister.

especially when he's never had any qualms with people shipping heterosexual ships.

(and if you're still thinking about it: no. kinning dark or anti has never and will continue to never make someone factkin. they are fictional characters with lore! they aren't even alive!)

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[fictionkinfessions]

it's 100 percent super dumb that i feel so happy-fuzzy over this, but the BPS hoodie i ordered arrived today and kinda sorta finally feel like me again. It's nice tbh, really comforting to have something that makes me feel so much like myself after so long of feeling like it'd never happen -Adam Murray

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[fictionkinfessions]

Me: *An alternate, a horrifying entity designed to mimic humans and instill mind-breaking doubt*

Also me: *Anxious littol void creachur that wants headpats and snacks*

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[fictionkinfessions]

Hey this is just lifke me frfr

- Adam murray (Mandela Catalogue)

(... My bones hurt)

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[fictionkinfessions]

Man fuck this life

Hope the other tmc sourced ppl and alternates and whatever are doing alright.

A lot of artwork and such was lost, but we can recover, the community is still alive.

- Adam Murray (The Mandela Catalogue)

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[fictionkinfessions]

Man my technical source is problematic now so I might as well just scream to the kin gods my woes

*inhale*

WHY DID YOU MAKE ME WANNA KISS MY ALTERNATE WHICH I THOUGHT WAS MY TWIN BROTHER YOU FUUUCKSSSSS!!!

- Kirsten/Kris (Mandela Catalogue AU OC)

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[fictionkinfessions]

"I love realizing I do indeed have two mixed sources rather than the one just being an alternate."

"Also, it's weirdly a saddening feeling knowing I did and still do love people I hurt and feel no guilt for hurting. I love them, but I doubt they love me back."

-Cesar(or Viktor, now) 🍰🪓

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[fictionkinfessions]

"Update to the previous ask about my concern with feeling something like guilt when it came to my actions in source, but not actually that. I came to a conclusion I don't quite like because I hate emotions in general, and it's probably that I felt the same way a little kid would if someone broke their doll or ripped their drawing." "Upset at the idea that something that was mine was destroyed, angry at whoever destroyed it (myself, and then himself), and then later fine whenever it was fixed (as most of us were)." "Also, turns out I am MUCH more canon-divergent then I originally thought to be." -Dessert AU Cesar (🍰🪓)

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[fictionkinfessions]

"Violently shaking people as I try and explain that no, my cane isn't just a funny little decoration because haha candy cane, I was disabled, no I do not care that the original story didn't include or specify that, yes I was capable of being a shitty person + violent and disabled at the same time, you may be slightly ableist but that's something I can fix." "(Shockingly a conversation I have yet to have, but am very afraid of possibly having.)" -🍰🪓

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[fictionkinfessions]

I found myself obsessed with a human. She was a delightful soul to be around. She was the one who approached me, knew I was an alternate– was it that obvious?– and decided to hang around me anyway. She allowed me into her home. It was peaceful. I wonder if this is what "love" was..? I never had any urges to hurt her.

When she attempted suicide, it was a shock to me. I took it upon myself to kill those who had contributed to driving her to such actions. She was everything to me. Anyone that dared to hurt her was my enemy. I know we usually just drive humans towards suicide or take over the lives of ordinary people, but no, I couldn't bare the thought. I had to slay them myself. I wouldn't take their shapes, I had my own and it would never resemble them. I ate them. I wanted them gone.

When she recovered and returned home safely, I don't think I ever told her what I did. I didn't want to stress her even further. –Myriam [non canon alternate]

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[fictionkinfessions]

recently kinfirmed this and i haven't had a single spare minute of peace since /dramatic

i mean, how the fuck should i feel about him, my death, whatever

i swear i'm about to lose my damn shit if this continues

i'll probably be sending in more kinfessions while i try to sort my shit out, my bad /lhj

-Jonah Marshall [The Mandela Catalogue, kin, #♾️🌌🎙]

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[fictionkinfessions]

For canon powers I don't care about any of the other abilities alternates have I just wanna be able to shapeshift again. Partially bc I'm trans and partially bc it's just fucking cool tbh

-Adam Murray, TMC (#⭐🐈🍓)

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[fictionkinfessions]

I MET A MARK TODAY!!! I MET A MARK TODAY?!?! I AM SO HAPPY!!! IT WAS PONY TOWN OF ALL PLACES AND MY FIRST TIME PLAYING I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!! YIPPEE!!!

-Cesar Torres

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[fictionkinfessions]

God this shit sucks ass. Should've never complained about wanting out of Mandela, at least the threat of death and alternates and how anarchist it felt was better than... This shit. All of this bullshit.

I miss home. Never thought I'd say it but I miss home and I miss my old life. It sucked, horribly, but... Y'know???

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