to everyone confessing about their experiences in hyrule lately:
you are heard. if it is alright, i would like to share my experience with the one i loved. (our love was never known to the domain public, as i was his advisor, but love nonetheless.) even when i was not directly involved with the fighting, the effect of war ran deep. after lady miphas death, i know my dear sidon carried her legacy on his shoulders. he was just a little one when she went, after all. it broke my heart seeing him being compared to her, seeing him being seen as a shadow.
what shocked me most is that this treatment never hurt him. well, never hurt him in front of his court. he was so optimistic, and so loving to others. he loved his people, and believed that anyone had good in their hearts. even when he cried puddles of tears in his bedchambers in mourning. even when i embraced him behind closed doors. he never broke. it amazed me. he was such a gentle, endearing person. he was more divine then the goddess ever was. pardon my blasphemy. /lh after all, i am just a protector of the prince.
- cisterina (botw noncanon) (#hexxd🗝)
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@ the two Revalis that responded to me: I just wanted to say that I forgive you, and I forgave you back then, too. Of course I'm angry at what happened and how I was treated, but I understood your pain. I understand it even better now, thanks to the two of you.
For what it's worth, I never hated or even disliked you. I felt cheated by the goddess too, for giving me a position I didn't feel like I could fill at all. Standing in front of skilled warriors, like you and Urbosa, I felt like I'd never reach the level of skill needed to deserve the title of hero. I can't imagine how it must've felt for you- knowing that your life depended on an unprepared, untrained little nobody.
I'll always be mad at the circumstances in which we met, but I'll never be able to fully be able to be mad at you. I wish I could've done something to solve the pain I caused, although now I understand it was neither my fault nor yours. I just hope life is treating you better nowadays; the both of you deserve it - Link (BOTW)
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villain kins are on two spectrums for me: 1 people who did awful things that they literally can never do again (people who committed such widescale atrocities that there's no way to repeat that) and 2 people who did awful things that can be replicated (nazis, racists, etc). as someone affected by group 2 in this life, I think that I should be allowed to say "no I don't want people who kin actual literal nazis in my kincord" without heisenberg kins getting upset by it
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age of calamity: rhoam may have been harsh to his daughter, but he really thought he was doing the right thing and cared deeply about her!! they share a heartfelt moment, and all is forgiven ❤❤❤❤
me, who also suffered under his leadership and guidance as he placed me in military positions that put me under immense pressure while still giving me limited power so that i couldn't stand up to my superiors, stood by while i was overworked and dehumanized despite being able to do something about it, allowed me to join the military when i was 12 because i found the master sword, and was generally a shitty king to me and to people other than zelda: am i a joke to you
[like yeah i know that's mostly analysis/not explicitly canon, and im not saying that he should be portrayed as an absolute asshole with no redeeming traits rather than a complex human being, but im upset that the game acts like zelda was the only one he owed an apology. not like i'd ever have the courage to demand he'd acknowledge me as well, though.]
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@The Link upset with Revali
I am about to admit this, just as the other Revali who replied did- You did not deserve my treatment at all. I am most likely not your Revali, but I wanted to sincerely apologize to you and every other Link who may read this. In my life I was an abused, angry man who felt cheated by this so called 'fate' and this so called 'goddess'. I was rude. I was dismissive, I feigned overconfidence and put others down to make myself feel better. I was a grown man insulting a 17 year old. Looking back, it was really pathetic.
It isn't an excuse, but I hope you can understand that I personally hated myself as much- if not more than I disliked you. My confidence and my self love was all a veneer. In my childhood, I was always told I would be nothing. I was told that I was worthless and a waste of space, that I would be better off dead. I would do anything at all to prove my egg layers wrong.
From the first day I could hold a bow at age 6 until the Calamity around age 30, I trained day and night, sometimes until I fainted or became hypothermic. I lost feathers from callouses, I basically destroyed my body in every way possible to prove them wrong. I had no trainer, no family legacy. It was just... Me. I felt like I could finally prove them wrong.
I spent my whole life working myself to death to be seen as the best, to prove that I WAS something, that I WAS worthy of love. I WAS worthy of happiness. So when the goddess herself said that a 17 year old who just started training is the chosen hero, and ai was left as a pawn in the plan because of 'fate'... I was just angry. At everything, at the goddess, and at everyone.
So please, let me be clear. It was never your fault, Link. You were a kind, funny, and lovely teenager. Honestly, it's the goddesses fault for placing you in such a horrible situation. You did nothing wrong, you did nothing to deserve my words or my hate. If it was any other soldier, I would have been just as horrible. I am so, so sorry for how I mistreated you. Please take care of yourself, and please show yourself love.
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Honestly it’s a huge relief to hear someone else saying this. Kanna was so precious to me. I would have done anything to save her from the Death Game. I’m from the timeline where Kanna lives, and if that was your timeline as well, then thank you so much for protecting her miss Sara.
On the one hand, I’m glad there is no Asunaro, no... *him* in this world. But on the other hand, I wish I could take those bastards down myself. I could ramble on but I don’t even know if you’re comfortable hearing from me considering all the trouble I caused in canon (and that’s an understatement). Heh, can you tell I haven’t spoken to anyone else from our source before? /lh /rh Frankly with how many kffs there are in the fandom (at least in the communities I have tried to get involved in) I was afraid I might never see any actual canonmates! But it’s good to know you’re out there miss Sara. I hope you’re doing well 💚
-Shin Tsukimi (fictive)
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I don't know how to work with Discord because my pea brain takes eons to learn how to use new apps, but if I did, I wish I could make a kin/fictive server for us people who have more problematic canons so we don't have to constantly walk on eggshells. Like, I know why people don't like to hear about me having a crush on my teacher or about my toxic relationship with someone who turned to be a serial killer. I don't think it's bad of them to not want to hear about it!!! I just... Feel like I would like to have a place were I could just talk about it? And, from reading kinfessions, I know there's others kins that feel that way too.
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I'm so so so sorry I was such a shitty brother/son. I was so caught up in Shadowy Figure treating me like I was worth something for once I couldn't see or care how I hurt the rest of my family, and there's no excuse for that. Thinking about how I helped Shadowy tear them apart almost makes me wish he'd never created me, except the part that was made to protect KO. I miss them all so much and I wish I could have been someone worth knowing instead of a disaster to forget. I don't want to be alone, but no one deserves to suffer my presence after everything I did. Killing Shadowy could never be enough to make up for being his son. -TKO
contrary to popular belief, i genuinely did care about the warriors of hope. yeah, they were little bitches sometimes, but i saw a lot of myself in them, especially monaca and nagisa. i was also particularly close to kotoko.
i wanted those kids to be happy. i really did. even if i was consumed by despair and destruction and wanted the world to burn, i wanted them to be okay. was i misguided and horribly selfish in the way i went about it? yeah, definitely! but i never told them to off themselves once they became adults. hell, i died before i even knew they made that rule! i never would have encouraged that. i was evil, thoroughly disgusting, but even evil has its limits.
in some ways i did use them, and i feel horrible about that now in a way i wasn’t capable of feeling back then. i just want to send them love now, if they’re out there; sending love and kindness. you all are really good people who deserve better than what you got. i hope this life has been kinder to you all.
also, haiji? if i ever fucking see you again, you’d better start running.
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me half the time: i hate myself i hate myself so much oh my god why did i hurt the people i could have loved? why did i cause so much harm and pain to the world? why didn’t i just get therapy? i’m so repulsive. i don’t deserve to be cared for. i don’t deserve to miss the people i miss. i’m shit and i’m garbage and i should’ve died as a little girl before i ever had the chance to hurt somebody
me the other half the time: haha i’m sexier than everyone else
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fuck you, asunaru. fuck you, "midori". i don't care that you threw me into a death game, but innocent people? children? you took advantage of a mentally ill little girl and autistic boy just trying to feel normal, and put them in a death game! what the fuck is wrong with you? do whatever you want to me, maybe i am the bad guy. but you should have never brought children into this. - sara chidouin (#🧪💗)
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i know canon states that the so-called affair between arthur and i was a misunderstanding, and i know that arguing otherwise seems somewhat heteronormative, but i really did feel that way about him. i didn’t want to feel that way, since i felt as though i had to stay with martin — and i thought we were still in love. but the more time i’ve had to think about it, the more i realize i loved him.
arthur, wherever you are, i love you too.
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do you ever kinsider a character just because of certain. Similarities between them and a character you actually kin? even if those traits aren’t really canon in your actual kintype. anyways, charlotte tgwdlm, if you’re reading this: i feel ya — gloria greywhinder, who also had an anxiety disorder and cheated on their shitty husband but still suffered from “i can fix him” disease. here’s hoping that least one of your stories ends less tragically than mine.
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thomas, macy, ava, i am so sorry i let things get as bad as they did. i should’ve done more to protect you. i love you all so much. (#neverinlight)
Sometimes I wonder why Mukuro even bothered to try and get close to me at all if she only ever planned on me dying. Like, Junko never cared. All her kindness was an act, so that nobody would suspect that one day she'd attack. But she never really gave any of us special treatment- we were just all worthless garbage that she wanted to use to spread her despair because she didn't have anything to offer in any other way.
But like... What did Mukuro want with me, anyway? Did she think lying about having a crush on me would make my death more torturous for her? Was it some type of game between her and Junko? Just a dumb prank? Why with me, of all our classmates? Who knows.
...I hope I never see her again. I hate Junko more, but she never betrayed me. We were never close. Mukuro did betray me, though, and I can't forgive that. I can't justify that - Makoto Naegi.
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You know, it hurts pretty bad that the fandom, or at least the byler side, hates me so much. Not even because of ships or anything, I don't care about that. But Mike was the first person to actually properly see me as a person, one of the only ones who was actually nice to me and liked me for me (the other two being Joyce and Hopper and then later Max, though she only started hanging out with me more cos she was upset with her boyfriend). The others all only put up with me because of what I could do for them. None of them actually liked me. At worst, they were scared of me. I was just a kid. I was just a traumatized, scared, lonely kid. I was treated like an animal and an object when I was in that lab and then all I was was a weapon and a tool outside of it. Mike was the only person who ever stood up for me and spoke out when the time came for me to be a weapon again. All the show ever does with my character is reinforce over and over that all I'm good for is being a weapon. I had one real friend, and it was Mike. One good, proper relationship with someone who saw me as an actual human being and could forget about my trauma. And all I keep seeing, both from the fandom and from the Mike and Will kins I've encountered, is that I'm not good enough, actually, and that I should just get out of the way so Mike and Will can be together. And it hurts. - Eleven
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I hate him so fucking much I hate you so much you fucking sociopath you are so fucking disgusting for what you used to do to me you are nasty and vile and i hope wherever you are you just know that everyone fucking hates you but especially me. I will never fucking forgive you. I will always hate you. You did this to me never fucking forget it
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martin, you were a monster. you hurt all of us, broke your own family beyond repair, and for what? that’s what i want to know. why? how could you have done that to us? i shouldn’t have wasted my time trying to save you. you were never going to listen to me.
but if you are out there, and you have changed, i suppose i’m happy for you. just stay away from me and my family. (#neverinlight)
It's amazing having a partner who cares about consent as much as you do. Especially since as Kylo I lived with Snoke.. someone who did not give a fuck about consent. Every partner I had as Kylo, I was constantly asking them if they were okay before continuing. Constantly. They sometimes got annoyed by it but I didn't care because I needed to make sure they were comfortable. It's just nice to hear someone ask me if I'm okay for once. Really nice actually. I probably haven't had someone who cared about consent like that since my knights. My knights... I still think about you all every single day. I loved quite a few people after you all passed.. but I will never love anyone as much as I loved all of you. It's impossible. It's sad too. Very fucking sad. It's unbelievably sad. Fuck.. I miss you guys so fucking much. I am a bit happier now, but I'll never be as happy as I was when I was with you all. Nothing can ever compare to the joy you all gave me. Fucking nothing. I love you all so much -Canon Divergent Kylo
@ naegi who blames himself:
hey, feel free to disregard this as much as you want, but speaking as junko? you’ve gotta stop beating yourself up. you did what you could, and you did it so, SO well. you NEVER gave up fighting even when the odds seemed insurmountable and that’s so fuckin’ admirable.
everything that happened was because of me and only me (and mukuro, but that’s another story). you did NOT fail anybody by being young and not knowing exactly how to deal with such a stressful and unprecedented situation. you did so amazing. everything that happened was my fault and my fault only, and it would’ve been so much worse if you weren’t there to help stop it.
keep your head up. i know you probably never want to hear from me ever again, and that’s okay, i don’t want you to have to. hell, i don’t even want you to forgive me, i know i did too much bad shit to be worth that. but i DO want you to know that you weren’t at fault for ANY of the shit that went down. you were, and are, an amazing person, who is so knowledgeable and smart and caring and kind and loving. the fact that you don’t want to be a bad person and are worried about it to this degree proves that you’re a very, VERY good person, naegi.
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