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[fictionkinfessions]

not sure who needs to hear this, but you deserve to forgive yourself. you had a past life, yeah? that means this one is new.

it's lovely that you care about those you have hurt in the past, and it is so important, but no matter how illegal or irredeemable your crimes were, you died. you were reborn and now you are new. have joy! revel in your experiences and appreciate your knowledge! feel guilty as it comes, and let it go like a soft little bird, because you already paid your price. you're new now!! it's never bad to apologize to those you knew in a past life, but don't hold yourself accountable for something you did not do in this life. you deserve better. you deserve forgiveness from others, and you deserve forgiveness from yourself.

(and if you were hurt in a past life you don't need to forgive the one who hurt you, but please forgive yourself for being hurt. you were trying your best.)

🌋

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[therianonymous]

thank you for this blog, there's something ive been really needing to just get off my chest but worry about posting with the nature of it

one of my fictiotypes is from a problematic source. my canon follows the actual canon, where my boyfriend is abusive and held me hostage in his home.

but i seriously miss him whenever I am shifted to this character. in our canon, we both ended up dead, and I often find myself wishing that I'll meet him again in this life.

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[fictionkinfessions]

if you kin a traumatized child character who the fandom hates and/or ignores because you lash out in anger/fear instead of being perfectly well behaved, you may be entitled to financial compensation

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[fictionkinfessions]

Everyone and their mother has a kinlist nowadays, and I feel like I’m the only one that takes kinning seriously nowadays. Everyone else just treats it like a joke or is like ‘oh, im kinda similar to this dude!’ I WAS THAT DUDE. if I ever mention being kin w a villain everyones all like “oh so you’re evil? You’re bad, you’re violent, you’re manipulative?” NO!!!! NOT IN THIS LIFE!!! I DID FUCKED UP SHIT BEFORE BUT BY GOD IM TRYING TO MAKE UP FOR IT HERE.

Thanks for coming to my TED talk

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[fictionkinfessions]

i hate having guilt over my past lives. i know your current morality is not defined by what you did but that was still my soul and i did a bunch of horrible shit. in multiple lives!!! and there's nothing i can do about it

i'm sorry to those i killed or otherwise hurt. i am so fucking sorry.

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[fictionkinfessions]

mmm people are getting too comfortable with me when they recognize my source i think. heads up, if you find out someone is kin or a fictive maybe don't immediately approach them joking about one of the worst things that's happened to them? glad that you personally can laugh about it, i've been having nightmares though so i'd prefer if we didn't talk about it. sorry that this makes me a buzzkill apparently. maybe i'm being too harsh but aghhh i dunno, after half a year of hearing the same divorce joke over and over it's starting to get to my head i guess - #💌🌌🎶

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[fictionkinfessions]

Does anyone else get happy when others who kin from the same media talk about you? Or like... Forgive you, say they're sorry, etc? I don't think "get happy" is the right way to describe it but I'm bad at describing emotions.

Like... Okay so I recently found out that I kin Wanderer from Genshin Impact (not Scaramouche, there is .. a difference) and there's this person I know, Raiden or Ei, and they said they were sorry for everything and.... We don't share the same canon (as far as I know, at least, and it is Very Unlikely that we do) and it's... Nice .. I guess. It's nice to see that, even if it is not the mother I knew. Even if my mother would not remember me and so I have no clue on if she would apologize or not. This one did and .. it's nice to hear that she's sorry, that she apologized.

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[fictionkinfessions]

“[character i kin] so problematic” sorry for not willingly dying as sacrifice for a bullshit bootlicking regime/religion???? fuck you want from me lmao

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[fictionkinfessions]

just want to remind everyone that your past lives don't define you in this life, please prioritize your mental health and take care of yourself. you're not a terrible person just because you used to be. peace and love <3

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[fictionkinfessions]

yknow what, i dont feel bad for all the scientists and security guards that died during the rescas that were active in bio, xenobio and biochem. thats what you get for flying too close to the sun with all your “experiments”.

what was the scientific value behind torturing a poor child that has just lost their entire homeworld, huh? what was the point of separating that child from their companion, the ONLY other thing left from their homeworld, within hours of discovering them? what was the point of stuffing that child in a cell in the darkest pit of black mesa, with barely enough space to even fit one person, and chain them to the floor? of repeatedly cutting off limbs just to see if they come back, to repeatedly take blood, flesh and bone to see what composition they had, to electrocute them, and then to kill them during experiments when you figured out they’d come back? what was the scientific value behind all that?

sometimes ill fall asleep and dream of that dark cell. sometimes i dream of the comparatively blinding lights of the test chamber in xenobio. sometimes i see the faces of the same scientists that put me through hell in my dreams. sometimes i hear them call me by the test subject ID black mesa gave me in my dreams. sometimes i get phantom pain where the ID tag used to be, where i ripped it out of my ear within a week of being outside of black mesa. its been several lifetimes and it still sticks.

the worst part is knowing im not the only one. they put bubby through a similar kind of hell, i know that. they put hundreds of creature with varying degrees of sentience through similar shit to what bubby and i had to deal with.

so yeah, i dont feel bad for all those people that died during the rescas that worked in those departments. i dont feel bad for any single scientist or security guard or soldier that the science team shot on the way out when we passed through that sector.

-benrey

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[fictionkinfessions]

I hate missing him. I miss him and I know he hurt me but I really did love him

please come back,,,

x

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[fictionkinfessions]

Knock knock. Who's there? The trauma

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[fictionkinfessions]

I hate being fictionkin of morally abhorrent characters. Like yes, i know, that was awful and i know i insist that the character is me and i recognize that technically i did that thing but what the actual FUCK do you want me to do about it???

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[fictionkinfessions]

hi chat me again (he says. on anon.)

what the fuck is wrong w me. fuck I miss her so so badly I know I should hate her and I DO hate her for hurting the people I care ab. they're my brothers and my friends she was evil for hurting them. but i want her back so badly i wanna see her again i thought I got over her but I evidently haven't. i want her to hold me and i wanna be with her and eughhhh. i'm so fucked up why do i miss her

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[fictionkinfessions]

Kinning definitely isn't a choice, because I did not choose to be Eren fucking Jeager. The rest of my kinlist is mostly made up of protagonists , and then there's fucking War Crimes McGee over here

Is this my punishment from the kin gods for what I did in that life? If so I deserve it

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[fictionkinfessions]

You know what, I've kind of sent a few asks dancing around it but now, I'm going to stop being a coward and say it; I'm Draco Malfoy. Or I was, in another life. Wildly canon-divergent to the point I think canon!Draco would be horrified (presuming there wasn't more going on under the surface) because I actually changed a lot (and kind of hate what I know of my canon counterpart, though I will say, I have not read or watched very much of my source nor has any of my consumption of it happened within the past like 10-15 years probably, definitely 10, not sure if it quite reaches 15 yet), but still. What was the main point of divergence? I got help. Seeing one of the main people who helped me (probably not the one I knew but still) pop up here pushed me to do this, to finally put it into words.

I made amends with the ones I knew back then, but I'll say it again here, to everyone I bullied, I am sorry. There is no excuse for it, and I can't even say I know other versions of me were also going through the same abuse I was to explain why it happened. For me, it was a case of both "hurt people hurt people" and "I have to be the best or else", but I've never really seen anything from any others, and even with that, it's not an excuse. I am especially sorry to Hermione. I was a little shit headed down a very, very bad path until the Hermione I knew recognized that something was seriously wrong and helped me get help. I didn't deserve her kindness after how I'd treated her, but she probably saved my life. So both I'm sorry and thank you.

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