not sure who needs to hear this, but you deserve to forgive yourself. you had a past life, yeah? that means this one is new.
it's lovely that you care about those you have hurt in the past, and it is so important, but no matter how illegal or irredeemable your crimes were, you died. you were reborn and now you are new. have joy! revel in your experiences and appreciate your knowledge! feel guilty as it comes, and let it go like a soft little bird, because you already paid your price. you're new now!! it's never bad to apologize to those you knew in a past life, but don't hold yourself accountable for something you did not do in this life. you deserve better. you deserve forgiveness from others, and you deserve forgiveness from yourself.
(and if you were hurt in a past life you don't need to forgive the one who hurt you, but please forgive yourself for being hurt. you were trying your best.)
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thank you for this blog, there's something ive been really needing to just get off my chest but worry about posting with the nature of it
one of my fictiotypes is from a problematic source. my canon follows the actual canon, where my boyfriend is abusive and held me hostage in his home.
but i seriously miss him whenever I am shifted to this character. in our canon, we both ended up dead, and I often find myself wishing that I'll meet him again in this life.
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if you kin a traumatized child character who the fandom hates and/or ignores because you lash out in anger/fear instead of being perfectly well behaved, you may be entitled to financial compensation
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Everyone and their mother has a kinlist nowadays, and I feel like I’m the only one that takes kinning seriously nowadays. Everyone else just treats it like a joke or is like ‘oh, im kinda similar to this dude!’ I WAS THAT DUDE. if I ever mention being kin w a villain everyones all like “oh so you’re evil? You’re bad, you’re violent, you’re manipulative?” NO!!!! NOT IN THIS LIFE!!! I DID FUCKED UP SHIT BEFORE BUT BY GOD IM TRYING TO MAKE UP FOR IT HERE.
Thanks for coming to my TED talk
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i hate having guilt over my past lives. i know your current morality is not defined by what you did but that was still my soul and i did a bunch of horrible shit. in multiple lives!!! and there's nothing i can do about it
i'm sorry to those i killed or otherwise hurt. i am so fucking sorry.
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mmm people are getting too comfortable with me when they recognize my source i think. heads up, if you find out someone is kin or a fictive maybe don't immediately approach them joking about one of the worst things that's happened to them? glad that you personally can laugh about it, i've been having nightmares though so i'd prefer if we didn't talk about it. sorry that this makes me a buzzkill apparently. maybe i'm being too harsh but aghhh i dunno, after half a year of hearing the same divorce joke over and over it's starting to get to my head i guess
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Does anyone else get happy when others who kin from the same media talk about you? Or like... Forgive you, say they're sorry, etc? I don't think "get happy" is the right way to describe it but I'm bad at describing emotions.
Like... Okay so I recently found out that I kin Wanderer from Genshin Impact (not Scaramouche, there is .. a difference) and there's this person I know, Raiden or Ei, and they said they were sorry for everything and.... We don't share the same canon (as far as I know, at least, and it is Very Unlikely that we do) and it's... Nice .. I guess. It's nice to see that, even if it is not the mother I knew. Even if my mother would not remember me and so I have no clue on if she would apologize or not. This one did and .. it's nice to hear that she's sorry, that she apologized.
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“[character i kin] so problematic” sorry for not willingly dying as sacrifice for a bullshit bootlicking regime/religion???? fuck you want from me lmao
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just want to remind everyone that your past lives don't define you in this life, please prioritize your mental health and take care of yourself. you're not a terrible person just because you used to be. peace and love <3
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I hate missing him. I miss him and I know he hurt me but I really did love him
please come back,,,
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Knock knock. Who's there? The trauma
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I hate being fictionkin of morally abhorrent characters. Like yes, i know, that was awful and i know i insist that the character is me and i recognize that technically i did that thing but what the actual FUCK do you want me to do about it???
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It's strange to have this much autonomy. I've lost everything that made me better than most other humans. There's no metal in this body. My arm is back. The eye that, for me, was replaced, remains our better eye, which is quite nice. I can refuse to answer questions now, or refuse tasks given to me. I feel odd. This isn't what I made of myself. And without the dream that I was in directing my thoughts away from it all, I remember my life outside of it. I don't know how to feel about that. I functionally lived two lives. My year or so in that building never happened to me, really, but at the same time, it is the truest version of me to exist. I miss my friends. I never knew them. It's all a bit confusing. The dissonance would've been taken care of when I was still there. -Nightmare Gordon B, HLVRV. Tag as fictive, kindly.
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y'all ever experience exotrauma not in the sense of something bad happened to you but in the sense of "oh god i was so horrible i did horrible things the guilt the guilt the guilt" or is that just me
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im canon divergent in the neurodivergent, more severely abused, long term effects of brain damage and amnesia way if it's any consolation
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“i wanted to protect the village.”
fucking from what, gloreth? from an eight year old girl? from your best friend? come on, man. you knew me. and you still sided with them instead of me. you still fucking betrayed me.
-nimona (fictive)
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