tw compulsive behavior, skin picking, self-harm, acne.
I am perfectly fine; this is just a vent post because I'm driving myself bananas.
So, like a lot of people with ADHD I'm a chronic skin picker.
Except I never used to call it that. I've called it "skincare" for the last 20-odd years and kidded myself that because I used skincare tools to "extract imperfections," I was actually taking care of my skin.
That I've left myself with serious scars from doing this was neither here nor there in my mind.
I've since realized that was bullshit and started tackling it in therapy for the problem it is after my therapist finally helped me realize that it's a form of self-harm that's been masquerading as a skincare routine, so really, I need to get a handle on it because, yeah. That's not great.
And it was going fine. Great, even. Until the mild drugstore cleanser meant for sensitive skin that my old dermatologist recommended, but I never tried until recently, gave me the worst cystic acne breakout of my life.
Because, of course, it did. And, of course, it's taking a glacial age to heal, so that's fun. Love that. Love feeling like my jawline is glowing with pain from all these little lumps and bumps.
Anyway. I'm being so brave right now and not tearing my skin off the way I want to. So, so brave. Not at all having a bit of a breakdown over my face having Textures I can't compulsively gouge out. Nope. No sirree. All fine here.
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When Tiresias mentions seeing his wife with a man haunted and with a trail of bodies and Odysseus screams “WHO?” because oh he is a jealous monster risking it all to get home. His family has been his motivation since the start. He is becoming a MONSTER to get home to see his wife and his son. And here is the prophet saying she is with someone else? Because Odysseus hasn’t decided to become the monster yet. He hasn’t made the fundamental shift in his core values yet. He doesn’t know that he’s willing to do that. Yet. Not yet. So he SCREAMS and he is jealous and he is halfway to being a monster but not quite yet.
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new pfp since I found booty shorts edition lol. rip ronald regan is waiting in hell for heaven to trickle down meme
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something no one tells you about being an assistant librarian in charge of reshelving books is that you will get an insane and COMPLETELY irrational hatred of random kids' books you've never read. i dont care if geronimo stilton is the second coming of mouse jesus we should not have an entire shelf of his books. what the hell is "walter the farting dog" that sounds like a parody of a kids' book you'd see on the simpsons. who the hell is dog man and why do i have to put four of his books away every day. i have to shelf pete the cat everyday but he looks like a polite young man so he can stay but he's on fucking thin ice. i want the berenstain bears dead
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these are the only picture I have of my fit from kink night before I blacked out rip
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Hand studies with the tadfool's preferred wine & beer orders:
Shadowheart - White wine and lots of it. Leave the bottle.
Astarion - Red. It's red, it's in a glass, don't worry about it (trying to keep it 'warm' in his hand - or using it to warm his hand, your choice.)
Karlach - Red ale, a big and crisp in a nice big, cold 24 oz glass.
Lae'zel - Hazy IPA, bright and full.
Gale - Some sort of fancy barrel-aged something or other, comes in a pretty glass and looks expensive.
Wyll - A classic amber ale - or whatever is a specialty of the place they're at.
Tav - Stout, dark enough to see yourself in.
(Is this a sneaky modern AU thing? Maybe a little and in dress - but I think the taste still stands either way.)
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Im like a fujoshi but for butch x butch
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