#lolthia

[faulix]

btw, since people love lying about me on this website:

i have not known lolthia for a year like they claim. i first learned of lolthia about a month ago when i noticed their racist treatment of my friend. it was by chance we learned of their goretober list that had abuse glorification with prompts like medical/drugged torture, kidnapping, and stalking. we were able to see that lolthia had a pattern of writing yandere, murder, and other gross topics with a quick search of their blog. THAT is why i decided to say something and call them out. period

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i find it kind of hilarious that you're claiming to have blocked me from servers and discord so you don't have proof. i wonder if you would even know my discord, yknow, the one handle i haven't changed in years. i mean, surely if you have me blocked you would be able to pull that up easy right? let's not forget the fact that you're claiming to know me personally when you cannot even get my pronouns right.

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the funny part about this is that barely anyone who rb'ed your callout weren't even your mutuals, with a good amount of people actually adding in the notes how fed up they were with your bullshit. i am not a big enstars blog. i'm not even talking about enstars right now. i am a small blogger with less than 100 followers who ships with the only two minor characters in enstars. a majority of people who have rb'ed your callout are not big enstars bloggers. we are small time selfshippers just trying to have a fun time on tumblr dot com. the only one who is willfully taking themselves out of the fandom or even the circle of enstars selfshippers is you. you willfully create harmful content, you paint yourself as the victim, and you refuse to apologize for multiple things such as your racism and suicide baiting.

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i am nice to others because they are not winding up their victim complex to make me look like the bad guy. again, if you have legitimate proof that we were once friends: look at your blocklist (or your server blocklist) and post my handle. i dare you. but then again, you probably couldn't do that considering you don't know what the username is. i think the funniest thing about it is that you can't even be bothered to post the server name, can't even bother to explain how we met (shocker considering i've only been into enstars actively for like barely a year now), it is you saying "well this is clearly my word against his" when you can't even provide the basic proof that you and i ever knew each other. you probably DON'T want me to post the ask where you said that you had finally found me and lamented that we could even be friends now if i would take back my words and be the bigger person. but then again, you kind of admitted that yourself when you said you didn't know who made the callout and even said it could be multiple people because you didn't know, but hey, let's take back that and spin it as a long rooted hate campaign by me. x

btw, when i first made this post, i held off on posting it because i haven't received nonanon asks for this, so i was able to chalk it up to you just trying to send more anons toward me to get me painted as the villain, but since this morning i woke up to you making a callout post about me that was filled with lies and fake screenshots it's about time i speak up. you may have deleted it, but don't worry, i made sure to screenshot everything you said and put it in an imgur album to refresh your memory. right here, don't worry, i took every screenshot word for word so you can remember what you said.

i'm not going to post every single screenshot to this. i think it would be insane behavior to make this post even longer. so let me just some up my feelings:

in your fake screenshots not only did you try to blur out what my name was (probably because these are not actually talking about me, but hey, you thought you could make it work, right?) but you proceed to, once again, continuously use the wrong pronouns for me, which is kind of weird since you're claiming to have known me for a year.

let me reiterate this so you get it through you thick skull: i use he/it pronouns and have been doing so for years now. your callout and screenshots repeatedly uses the wrong pronouns for me. do not even bother claiming you didn't know or that i recently changed them as my past blog and every single friend i'm close with will testify to my pronouns, and i'm absolutely sick of you misgendering and degendering me and my identity. considering you've been sending me several asks you could have easily looked and my pronouns in both my description and pinned, but hey, that's another lie for you, right?

then you post a screenshot of a server main chat, but it's very convenient of you to 1.) not get the server name and 2.) leave out the date you sent it, yknow, the things that you could at least say we shared together. i wonder why you didn't bother to get that information if it was so important. oh wait, i do! it's because you are deliberately lying about me to paint yourself as the victim.

i'm not going to even dissect the lies you weave together because, once again, you are speaking without proof. this is not a case of "my words against his" you are deliberately spreading lies on the grounds that you think no one will fact check you, you tool. again, if i was such a danger to you that i would deliberately make several accounts to surpass your "ban", why would you not post my discord username or the "alt accounts" i made to protect others for safety? why don't you do so now? oh! it's because you don't know them and are lying through your teeth.

i did not send you an ask where i told you that you needed to change your goretober list to get rid of the necrophilia. if i did, how about you post it with my url and call me wrong. not to mention the biggest thing i called you out on was the fact that you were glorifying and romanticizing abuse with drugged torture, kidnapping, and stalking. but sure let's gloss over that part because that would make you look bad!

there is nothing out of context in what you said or did, it is in plain english, several screenshots where you demonized a selfshipper of color because "they were more popular than you", pulled several excuses out of your ass to ship with a 16 year old, and put suicide baits in the main enstars tags, oh but don't worry! in your eyes the enstars fandom deserved it! and you want to paint yourself as innocent? give me a fucking break.

and the absolute gall of you to proclaim you acted like this because of your bpd, which you're still rb'ing sad bpd posts now. the nerve of you to assume i am not neurotypical when i have been struggling with autism and adhd all my life, and my own bpd for the past 14 years since i was diagnosed. it is not an act of ableism to call you out on your disgusting behavior towards people of color and abuse victims. i don't care about your backstory. you know exactly what you are doing and say that you are "exploring dark themes". no one believes you, and no one ever will. and miss me with that "i didn't know the shipper's race" as if you did not see the commissions you were directly complaining about them that shows them as not white very obviously. but hey, what's one more lie for you?

just so you know: every single ask you have sent me i have kept. from where you pretended to be 10 different people, all from your original ask where you think we should "just talk it out" without you taking any accountability, thanking me for the callout, pretending to be anons sticking up for you, and even threatening me with fake evidence that i have been in enstars servers sending death threats. but hey, since i didn't respond to those so you could have ammunition as so you could say i'm stalking you and villainizing you, i guess the next step would be a callout!

i will never be as obsessed with you as you are with me. you are the stupidest person on this planet if you genuinely thought i would not catch wind of what you were doing, from sending me and my friends and mutuals several asks to deliberately lying about me on your own blog. you have sent me over 50 asks in 24 hours, spamming my inbox with anons, but you couldn't even bother changing your typing style. you can't be bothered to tell people to watch out for this discord user because, again, you don't even know who i am. you can spin a web of lies to cover your ass, but barely anyone sees through it, and no amount of anons you send yourself will never convince anyone, especially strangers who has seen your blog. i do not care about how you no longer can look forward to your sick goretober where you glorify the abuse that real people go through. i am a grown adult with a job, school life, friends, pets, and so much more. maybe you could be the same if you shaped up and stopped being on tumblr. touch some grass for once. no one will believe you. i will not delete your callout. you have deliberately done horrible acts and acted like you were being demonized because "the enstars fandom and selfshippers are mean and cliquey", as if people don't see right through what you post without care and how you act. either apologize for what you have willfully done or log off and deactivate. i don't care which. leave me alone, leave my friends and mutuals alone, and grow up.

btw, i figured i would also throw this in the enstars tags so people would know about your horrible act and how you have treated me and demonized me for the past two days for standing up for my friends and the people you've hurt. here's the original callout btw, just in case anyone's new here! i don't care how badly you say this affects you because, again the only person trying to demonize you is you yourself. you lie about every aspect to save your ass and i will not take it. i mean, you tagged my "callout" with enstars tags (despite the fact that i never interact with the enstars fandom and have been talking about brc for the past month) but hey! if you wanna act like a clown i'll treat you like one.

you are an absolute moron if you think 1.) anyone would believe you considering your past behavior and 2.) thought i would just lay over and start crytyping for an apology. you are 20 years old acting like a spoiled toddler who got punished for throwing toys at others. i have more resolve, a backbone, and friends that will always care for me and support me, sorry if you can't relate. fuck you

#leo post #lolthia #ensemble stars #enstars #tw racism #tw suicide #tw suicide bait #ok to rb #if you can help me spread this that'd be great #i am absolutely sick of lolthia's treatment of me and it's important to me that it gets addressed.

[sound-traveller]

Missed it when I originally looked at your f/o list, but you f/o my child Kohaku?! I'm so happy about that heh, he's such a good boy and deserves all the love I know you give him! <3

AAAAAAA TY!!!

me and him have been together for around a year iirc... i promise that i'll treat him very well! =w=

#°•|| letter recieved||•° #lolthia

[crybaby-shaymin]

Ah you ship with 707?! I didn't even realise! He's not one of my mains and I barely post about him buti ship with Saeran! :D

I do self ship with 707! In fact he's one of my mains F/Os! ^v^ I need to post my carrd sometime so everyone can know about all of my self ships.... but I feel like I'm missing something on it >v>; so I'm gonna wait until I figure out what I'm missing on it.

I read your profile though, I was super happy to see that you self ship with Saeran!!! ^v^ He deserves all the love in the world and I know you give it to him ❤️

#lolthia #🌸 thank you for asking 🌸 #🌸 shaymin answers 🌸 #Romantic F/O: 📱707📱 #self ship #self shipping #self ship community #self shipping community #f/o #fictional other #other self ships

[mishkakagehishka]

insane that you've been accused of murder, on a date too. happy that my tags can continue to help you counter those stupid incitement claims though lol. they need to stop obsessing over you, it's been over 6 months now since that incident

I'm saying the same thing, like, it's been over six months, nobody even knows ab that incident except for my little circle and ??? Give it a rest. I literally didn't even name a name, the only reason why people know who i meant was bc they couldn't block and move on like i did.

But anyway. Yeag thank you <3 and don't worry my date and i laughed about it all

#anyhooooo #they're not dead they were following 100 people on twt last night and it's 101 now👍 #++ it's really weird that someone who's apparently friends enough with them to harass people on tumblr despite the fact that #they're originally from twt would rather harass us while lolthia is talking about how they have no friends and nobody ever talks #to or interacts with them #asks

[enchantedmirage]

prev anon again, I wasn't associating you with them or anything. I just remembered your name being on that list they posted so figured you should know they're posting again. I don't care about them but they're delusional and deserve to get run off here, Eden wouldn't evdb remotely like them lmfao. Don't care about what happened just think we as a community should take out the trash y'know? Not a single person here even likes them, they should go bother another fandom 🙄

Okay you're just being meanspirited, no wait that's too light- you're being an ASS, who are you, the police? It's not for you or anyone to police how a community should act, and being hung over how they need to get run off (happened already) is just pretty scummy of you.

Like, you're the type of person who only cares about being morally correct instead of doing anything helpful to solve the issues, the kind that seems like they basically get off seeing 'problematic people' get cancelled.

If you don't care about what happened then you don't care about the actual impact it caused between the people involved, like I said, you only care about being correct and have no actual heart for the person you're targeting, you don't even BOTHER to get to know their situation just that you hear that they suck and echo what you hear you unorignal mimic.

#like I get that lolthia should stop using social media and seek help again but putting them down is not helping them or anyone #you're PROVOKING THEM AND MAKING THEM WORSE if you and others are perpetuating that they're delusional or that eden doesn't love them #and now who has to clean up? everyone else because you people are like some kindergarten bully who only know how to call names #just. this is so fucking immature just curate your dash and don't virtue signal when you're saying hypocritical shit like this. #asks #redundantia

[bite-sized-devil]

I'm okay with you posting my ask ^^ Thanks again :)

Perfect 💕💕💕 I'm excited!!! 🥰🥰

#lovely lolthia 💕 #saadie's 500 followers event 🌻 #obey me matchups #saadie responds #i gotta stop talking about myself in third person im developing a complex #obey me!

[scolek]

i had a dream (nightmare?) wizards of the coast put out a new batch of onednd rules and one of them was you had to write down if your character was queer and why.

#fun fact: i made lolthia in 2017 and i didnt know she was a big honkin lesbian until 2021

[keii-starz]

saw a ton of my moots doing it so y not...

tagging moots so u guys can see it, sooooo srry for the tags !!! (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠)

@ruggiethethuggie @azulashengrottospiano @lolthia (you don't rlly interact with the twst fandom as much, but I'd appreciate knowing!! :D) @hisui-dreamer @i-like-forgs @twistwonderlanddevotee @eynnwwyjth @crheativity @dove-da-birb @krenenbaker @leonistic @rokrsu @v-anrouge @ceruleancattail @iheart-nene @vtoriacore @silly-ez @jades-mushroom @shkrmpp @fukashiin @rayisalive @xxoomiii @the-banana-0verlord @spadecentral @chocodaffodil @citrusitonit @suiseisyojo @kurukuryu @inkybloom-luv @xphantasmagoriax @saayatsumu @totallymem3 (I hope you're doing well!! :")) @moonlitnyx @hheun @kunehori @red-viewe @angelhairpastawithherbs @officialdaydreamer00 @busycloudy @linabirb @shinysparklesapphires @names-are-dumb (thanks for being a great friend to me in the discord server!!) @minty-bubblegum

I'm sorry if I missed any of u!! :")

#decision making...ૢ✧∘* #its done being a draft now !! #IM SO NERVOUS

[tokusaatsus]

—the depth of your heart !

warnings: none

🦬 m. mikejima!

When Madara thinks about you, it brings forth feelings that are hard to explain. What comes to his mind first, when your name is spoken? It’s glimpses, moments frozen in time; his name on your lips, the upwards quirk of your smile, the sly glint in your eyes as you tease.

He’s all smiles when you’re around—it’s hard not to be. You bring a sense of joy, of lightness to him that he thought he might have lost. Hand in hand, he would go anywhere with you.

When he kisses you, it’s slow and gentle. He’s savoring it because you have time now. Maybe not all the time in the world, because it’s never a guarantee, but you have time enough to do some of the things you want to do. To sit next to each other on the couch and watch bad movies. To laugh yourselves to sleep. To love and be loved in turn.

Madara wraps his arms around your waist in greeting and hoists you into the air. As you giggle, his grin grows wider; happiness is infectious after all. To have something like this, something soft and sweet is a dream come true.

His pinkie links itself with yours when you stroll together, silent affirmations that say I’m here and I’m yours. Anchoring the two of you to this mortal plane, so he does not fade into the darkness and you do not lose yourself in the light. It’s the little things that make this relationship what it is, filling it with love and joy.

Texts sent nearing midnight, an exchange of love and promise. Hi, I love you. I’m counting the stars and thinking about your smile. I miss you when you’re not around but you’re always in my heart. Stay safe. I love you. I love you. I love you. Three times for luck because third time’s the charm.

Sometimes, when all seems lost and Madara fears himself beyond saving, he thinks of you. For if you can bear your heart to him, if you can hold him close and whisper of your love, then he cannot be all that bad. He is broken but not unfixable. Love does not mend all things, but time does and soon Madara’s hurts will be scars smoothed away by the ticking of the clock.

You two will be never be happier then you are now.

That’s a lie. You two are happy right now and you will continue to be happy for the rest of your days, whether alone or together. Hopefully together, Madara says, with his fingers crossed. Hopefully together.

© tokusaatsus 2023

wc. 434 words

reze txt. i haven't written in a hot minute! so hopefully i'm not too out of practice? happy scribblefes everyone! and to the person who requested, i hope this works as fluff with mama <3

taglist. (fill out the form or send an ask to be added!) @prpne​ @gabirii @kazemiya​ @engurishu​ @kkomaism​ @asbestieos​ @mikctp​ @lilikags​ @lolthia @unwantedsleep @hasumilvr @crooked-corvid @pr3tty-jennie​ @narumika​ @birthday-of-music @natsuphoria

#✒️...scribbles! #🎨...scribblefes 2023! #mikejima madara x reader #enstars x reader #mikejima madara #mam #enstars #esworks #scribblefes! 2023

[faulix]

you have to be out of your mind if you think you can just claim someone is an abuser and harasser (without proof) and then think 1.) the person you're accusing wouldn't find out and 2.) think other people would then deliberately spread that, again, without proof. you put their url on your blog on your blog continuously, over and over claiming that they are harassing you without proof, and getting angry that they have friends and has money to buy commissions. btw this is about tumblr user @/himetenshi, who cannot stop acting like the victim for more than two seconds.

oh and when you do find this freak (because i do have more spine and am not lying, so i'm not afraid to call you out on your pathetic display and hypocrisy): i'm taking it personally because you skirt around "their mutuals who harassed me and a dear mutual of mine" as if you thought i could not read or check reblogs. i know the "beloved mutual" of yours is lolthia (who's moved to @/edens-beloved btw. here's where we had to call their dumbass out for being racist and glorifying abuse! again, just in case you're new here) and that the "mutuals" you are referring to (shockingly) is ME! at least if you're going to act like we are purposely hurting you, at least say it's me and drop an @ while you're at it so i can refute your pathetic lies. you crawl out of the woodworks to deliberately paint yourself as the victim and the ostracize yourself from the community because you cannot let go of this blind obsession. you are acting like this solely because you shared f/os with someone else because apparently you have the mentality of a 5 year old. grow up

oh and uh, i thought i'd put this in the same tags you did. i don't really want people to get the wrong impression by scrolling down, but that also kind of relies on this idea that they can't see through you or don't already have you blocked. i'd rather be safe than sorry though. lol!

#leo post #selfship #yumejoshi #enstars yume #enstars selfship #self ship #ok to rb #just another person to block and hope they delete! hope you don't mind <3

[juvellianovo]

Everyone! There is new member in the fam!

It's my elderrrrr SISTER. She is gonna be 18 smwhere in september. Soo I think she is probs gonna be in the middle.

And todays moral of ths post is for the fam to greet each other! And give a follow up!

@achy-boo @amberrskiies (you both are just adopting new children everyday solely because of me collecting siblings like pokemon)

So @achy-boo and @amberrskiies are the Mama of the group. Achy being the big Mama as she is older.

@eatcandlewax is the dad who is obsessed with going to get the milk but I am the one stopping him(pls don't go to get the milk)

@kyetheunknownthing is the big bro here. He is a demiboy. But he is one of the kindest brother. You will ever find.

@l1ttleclouds is another brother! The second eldest if I say!

@lolthia age is not specified but as one of the early members she is the third eldest.(pls don't tag her to any twst related things!)

And here comesss @vtoriacore! the fourth eldest! She is more of a observer than a talker so if anything chaotic happens do tag her, for she lovesss the tea!

And lastly @thegreatestmammon my twin brothah!

#juves mutuals #juves plat fam #say hiiii to each other! :D

[crybaby-shaymin]

Thoughts, phone & song for the ask game!

Thank you so much for the ask! I'll answer this for 707! ^v^

Random self-ship ask game! 🌊💖

Thoughts 💭 - What do you think your f/o thinks about you when you're not around?

I still don't understand this question so I'm going to have to sadly skip it, I'm sorry!!!

Phone 📞 - If you and your f/o have cellphones of any kind, what's their contact name in your phone, and what's theirs for you?

We both have cellphones! His is always updating because he needs to keep up with the latest technology!!

I have him down as '707' and he has me down as 'Reece' in the RFA app that we use to communicate with each other!

Song 🎵 - What's a song your f/o knows by heart, and a song you know by heart?

I imagine he'd know some songs from Fallout Boy (or bands like it) by heart. Meanwhile I can't remember what songs I remember from heart because my mind is messy x~x

#lolthia #🌸 thank you for asking 🌸 #🌸 shaymin answers 🌸 #Romantic F/O: 📱707📱 #self ship #self shipping #self ship community #self shipping community #f/o #fictional other

[mishkakagehishka]

...What is happening?? (Genuinely I have no clue)

Where do i even begin. In short, lolthia was a former mutual, some drama happened, i thought the drama instigator typed similarly and had incredibly similar arguments to them, talked ab it with some mutuals, lolthia started getting blocked by people who were also putting 2 and 2 together, they posted untagged suibait in the main tag, got sent hate and massively blocked by the enstars fandom.

They still, after over a year, blame me for it despite the fact that i never even publically said their name.

They're also famous for being racist towards another self-shipper and other incidents i don't know much about, but they've become so infamous, you can just look "lolthia" up and find out a lot.

#and imagine i'm getting blamed lol #asks

[enchantedmirage]

lolthias attempting to make a comeback jsyk. @/edens-gemstone is their new url. I wish they would just leave the community alone already...why do they keep coming back? not asking you for an answer just saying.

oookay, so random thing is I already knew since I was wondering why I wasn't appearing in the tags (talking about my yume blog) and happened to see them. anyway just please just go block them and move on with your day, you CAN TELL your friends that 'oh hey you should block this person' but don't go making announcements that this is some pariah the community needs to avoid because I've basically felt that especially after people started associating me with them - because they can't comprehend that someone can say that it's wrong to make public callouts and still be critical of their behavior (shrugs) Like okay so, I basically got a taste of what it felt like to be in their shoes and it really sucks! I can barely even befriend any enstars self shippers because majority of them have me blocked www just so you know, that's just going too far. Leave them alone, they thrive over ANY kind of attention and honestly with how much they threaten to harm themselves, it's peace of mind for either of us. If someone sees them acting out again and makes it their problem, that's their business and not ours, okay? I'm telling you this because it's basically been a year since I've first seen them, I know far more about them than any of you had, and I'm not trying to bother with the fact that they just exist.

#in any case if you're associated with any of the ones who were previously involved (this is just a tell but ifykyk) with secret chat #please tell them that some things still need to be discussed between me and them - not about lolthia but with how they treated me #and basically villainized me. labelling me a traitor while also forcing me to take responsibility for their emotions #I understand that I may have hurt them as well but they lashed out on me first #and every time I was the one to apologize yet they still expected more. like I had to bend over backwards for them #this isn't just some opinion IT'S what happened I have the screenshots to prove it #even moreso when friends who WERENT involved within the conflict between S and me can't even talk about me #because they'll just get people disagreeing or again. villainizing me #you kind of give me too much credit? but anyway that needs to change #I don't hate anyone over this I'm still just upset that it's being treated so immaturely and like if it's only black and white #FUN FACT! THE WORLD ISN'T LIKE THAT. PEOPLE CAN'T BE PUT INTO BINARIES #asks #anonymous

[throwawayaccount3482348873289]

Lolthia (Another User's Experience)

This post is a follow up post to this one

I am a former member of the server, and owner of the new server mentioned in the document. I have obtained express permission by the previous user to report on what happened.

In short, Lolthia advertised this server as a general RP server, but had underlying expectations for us to fulfil their self-ship fantasies. They imposed unmentioned rules that are arguably extreme and absurd for general fans, eg. no talking about Eden and posting screenshots of their cards, with the exception of them of course.

They accused us of deliberate malice towards them as bad as the anons who sent them death threats. When I stood up to them on behalf of my friends, they had an emotional meltdown - revealing their true, frankly entitled and hypocritical intentions.

Info under the cut.

PREFACE

I would like to firstly thank anyone who has taken time to bring to attention the distressing behaviour of the user Lolthia, who currently operates under @/edens-gemstone. Without your efforts, I as a non-Tumblr user would have neither understood the severity of their actions, nor been encouraged to document my interaction with them. 

Before I begin, let me establish that my motive is to support my friends in informing members of communities Lolthia is active in - and should they persist in violating Tumblr’s user guidelines, encouraging that they be blocked and reported without any further interaction. Had it been to encourage any further witch hunting, I would have posted the evidence below at the immediate opportunity. Not today, when nearly a year has passed since the incident.

To Lolthia and any of their mutuals who may come across this document, this is not an invitation to negotiate with or confront me. My position on this issue is clear. In the event you still have my Discord, which you probably do, I will take any sort of attempt to contact me or release my personal information as harassment and take action regardless of platform. 

THE INCIDENT

This argument sprang from the frustration of myself and Jade’s server members, who are great roleplayers and amazing new friends that I am proud to have in my own server. 

Jade had imposed their ‘self-ship’ rules and personal issues on a server they had advertised on Reddit as a general Enstars RP server. Despite being the admin, they were rarely active and the triggers channel did not indicate these rules, so we roleplayed and had general fan discussion amongst ourselves. 

For doing this, we had been accused by them of being deliberately malicious for ignoring them and not following these rules. They had even compared us to the anons who had, to my knowledge, sent them death threats and encouraged them to commit suicide. I found this to be an unfair and horrible accusation, and stood up to them.

My username has been omitted from all these screenshots, and Lolthia’s in some. They are not in one continuous image. However, you can determine from the writing style and consistency of the replies that they are one continuous conversation between myself and Lolthia.

As seen here, these rules allegedly included jokes at Eden’s expense, posting screenshots of Eden cards and even talking about Eden.

Furthermore, they were not communicated to us at all in any of the channels. I believe there was a rule channel, but it contained at least 10 long paragraphs of text that were difficult to read. However, even if we did miss it, I felt it was quite absurd to enforce these rules on a server they had advertised as a general RP server on Reddit, which is how I joined:

Here is their additional response.

I was completely lost at this point, because it seemed to me that they were attempting to make us feel responsible for their personal issues. This is sadly a common theme throughout the conversation.

Note that they did not acknowledge what I said about the triggers channel being empty, and us being unaware of these rules.

I decided to repeat what I mentioned earlier in case they missed it, and let them know that the server members and I did not take these accusations lightly. In response, Lolthia responded with another long spiel about issues with these communities they were a part of. 

They had the gall to accuse us of ‘demonising’ and ‘excluding’ them, then immediately ask us to ‘help (them) feel validated’ by talking about their self-ship content - which was only understood by the one person in the server that was in the self-ship community. Again, they completely missed the point and did not address the empty triggers channel.

Interestingly, Lolthia stated that server owners ‘don’t necessarily make (servers) for other people’, despite advertising this as a general RP server for all fans, NOT just for chatting or self-shippers. 

I tried to explain that as the admin of the server they specifically stated was an RP server, they are providing a service to its members by helping to organise and engage with RPs. 

I reiterated my sympathies towards her situation, which at this point I was only vaguely aware of, but made it a point that no anonymous person online is owed the help of others with their own personal issues. Especially if they can also be affected by their response (in the case of fandom drama), or if they’re simply uncomfortable with the topic for personal reasons. We are enstars fans, and not trained mental health professionals.

I also raised the point that their anger towards not receiving our attention, praise and validation was hypocritical with the fact that they did not engage in the same with our OCs, or even at the bare minimum start RPs or engage in general game discussion. 

Needless to say, they did not take kindly to this criticism and responded with even more emotion. 

The main takeaways from this long text wall are that:

Lolthia is still continuing to question the term ‘parasocial’ which was not meant by me as an insult, but the scientific definition of what they were doing. This was the best approximation of what I understood their hobby to be. Completely irrelevant to the conversation.

Lolthia is again blaming our choice of ‘uncomfy topics’ that were not mentioned to us. The post they described was about them mentioning they had been crying because of the hate anons saying they had misinterpreted Ibara’s character, but was reassured by his dialogue. But at this point they only came on here to vent, and that was the only post they made after a few months of inactivity. So, the post was awkward to engage with. 

Because of the fandom drama they are engaged in, which we are not involved in or condone, they believe that as the admin, they are owed the undue attention and validation of the people in this server despite their several months of complete inactivity.

LOLTHIA’S CLAIMS OF BEING EXCLUDED

I refuted their claims of us excluding them with a screenshot of myself and another RPer planning a scenario, but unfortunately, we could not include them immediately due to reasons involving the lore of their character. Lolthia did not acknowledge this, and continued repeating the same points.

I felt that they were especially unappreciative in regards to this as I was the first and only person in the server to have RPed with them, but apparently, that wasn’t ‘proper’ enough for their standards.

LOLTHIA’S TRUE INTENTIONS

Finally, I was pulled by them into a tangent on Character.AI which seemed irrelevant and just them venting about their personal issues. But at the very end, they admit that they ‘started this RP server as an alternative’ to Character.AI and ‘just have the RP interactions I want”.

Which means that they had expected us to help fulfil her self-ship fantasies from the moment we were invited.

I was shocked. I can’t put into words how entitled a way this is to treat any writer, who expends time and effort to write unlike an AI. Even more, a roleplayer, when mutual consensus is always important and no one writer is writing solely for the other.

CLOSING THOUGHTS

What may have resulted from minor administrative and communication issues in a server spiralled when Lolthia, the admin, allowed their own personal issues and emotions to affect the way they put it across to us. They cannot see reason outside their form of victim complex, and neither understand the social contracts of being a server admin nor online relationships as a whole. 

I believe they are in great need of a mental health intervention, and still sincerely hope they can receive it in the future. What I do not believe should happen is for others to entertain their worldview, whether in their fandom hobbies or not, as that reinforces it to the detriment of not just themselves. 

As you can see, people beyond just Lolthia were affected. Though we were complete strangers who nearly never interacted, we were accused of demonising them and even wanting their death. These are accusations that seriously affect any decent person’s livelihood - no one wants the death of another on their hands. If Lolthia is enabled, they will do this to more and more people willing to give them a chance, and that is unfair on these people.

Thank you for reading until this point. I hope this helps bring everyone a better fandom experience than I had while I was interacting with Lolthia. (Also it might be of interest @lolthia ?)

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Requested by @lolthia 💕

Characters: Obey me Levi X MC

TW: GN! MC, none, just fluff 💕

The sound of his door creaking as it opens draws his attention from his latest game. It's some calming little farming simulator where you can date some of the villagers. This is the thirteenth night in a row you've come to his room late at night. He remembers the first night so clearly, your timid little knock, the way your voice shook as you asked if you could hang out with him for a bit.

He hadn't asked then and he doesn't now. You just take your seat beside him like you have previously, unlike the first time you don't make up an excuse as to why you're here. You both know it's because you're having trouble sleeping. He can see the dark circles under your eyes, the tell tale red rim that tells him you've been crying again.

It pains him to see you struggling, you're usually so bright and bubbly. He misses seeing your smile, you light up every room you're in. That's how he feels anyway, he wants to talk to you about how you're feeling but he knows you're not ready to talk. He's happy to give you his shoulder to lean on, or rather rest on.

You've fallen asleep with your head resting on his shoulder, it usually goes like this. You come in, watch him game and within a couple of hours you've fallen asleep. Every night the time it takes for you to fall asleep shortens. And tonight you're asleep within 20 minutes, it must be the calmness of the game he's playing. It surely can't be his presence. Right?

He waits till you're deep enough in your sleep before he picks you up carefully in his arms and carries you back to your room. Placing you gently on your bed and pulls your blankets back over you and then goes to leave.

Your hand clenched around the back of his t-shirt stops him. This is a first, usually he leaves without waking you up. He curses himself under his breath before turning back to you.

"Sorry MC, I didn't mean to wa-" He starts to apologize before you cut him off.

"S-stay with me... Please." You're looking up at him with wide teary eyes, your voice comes out in a whisper but he can hear the desperation all the same.

He takes your clenched fist that's gripping his shirt so tightly and unfurles it easily, he keeps your hand in his as he says "Scooch over."

The smallest ghost of a smile graces your features while you move over to make room for him, your small hand still in his larger one. He smiles down at you softly as he lets go of your hand and lies down beside you on his back. You lift his arm and settle into his side, your head on his chest and his arm wrapped around you, he starts to rub your arm in small soothing circles. You slide your hand up his chest and rest it over his heart, he can feel it shaking so he holds it with his free hand.

It doesn't take long before he feels you relax beside him. Your breathing deepens, your heart rate dropping back to it's normal rhythm. He doesn't move, happy just to lie here beside you. Under normal circumstances he'd be a blushing mess with you being so close to him. But he doesn't feel his normal anxiety freakout now, he just feels content and calm.

He's almost drifting off himself when he here's you mumble something in your sleep. It's probably some nonsense your brain is conjuring up for you. He starves off sleep a little longer to make sure you aren't having a nightmare.

He looks down at your sleeping face to see your expression, you're smiling sweetly. Clearly you're having a good dream, he rests his head flat on the pillow, satisfied that you're ok. You mumble again and this time he hears it clearly. It might be the single most beautiful thing he's ever heard.

His name, wrapped up in a dreamy sigh spoken unknowingly from the lips of his cherished player two.

Heya cutie! Hope you liked this little piece 💕 Thank you again for requesting, I know you're a new follower 🌻 but I hope I don't scare you off with some of my posts!

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